WHAT I REALLY MEANT TO SAY

What I really Meant to say

Shelley
Jo
Melis
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Lisa
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remember
Monday, November 11, 2002

Who's gonna fail her last prob set? Tanya u say? well ur right! ah well, its my own fault! sooooo, i did my thing at st pauls yesterday......it was interesting... i was shaking so bad during last post i thought for sure that everyone could hear, but appearently i sounded good (altho if i didnt i dont think ppl would tell me otherwise!) But for once i can actually admit that i did a good job, (i think) there was a cute little old lady who came up to me after the service, shook my hand (which was still shaking all by itsself) and told my i did a great job, and "if only our organist was as good as you!" i laughed so hard, she was so cute! Im so glad i made myself do this, but i really dont think i could have done it without the support of my friends and family (and of course i couldnt have gotten anywhere with out the support from god i prayed for nightly)so ya....... i also had a jazz band concert on sat and it was so much fun! then we went out for dinner, three restaruants later we ate at the chinese one... it was so good, hehe i ate more than the guys...lol (armpit boobs) so then me and melis rented some movies and went back to my house - but since the tv was currently in use we decided to jam in my room! that was funny! we played our solo and laughed sooooo hard, we ended up making farting noises (by laughing into the trumpet - hey u try to play a brass instrument while laughing!) so ya, then my mom yelled at me and i thought i was gonna get in trpuble, but alicia was here and we all ended goin to coffee (me and melis already in our pj's, me slippers and all!) shell was there too, it was too funny...... so ya i was like "do ya like my sexy slipper?" it was classic..... so ya today we had a really good assembly, i was very touched, but i couldnt help but smile when we paled highland cathedral, its just so beautiful, i couldnt help it! ah well, i think i have written enought for now tho! hopefully it wont be so long next time! later days

busy, busy
Tuesday, November 5, 2002

well, i have been quite busy of late, thus explainin my lack of entry writing! Well stuff is goin quite well, school is busy as ever (isu's comin out my ears!) ah well, its all gettin done, ever so slowly......im so glad my calc test is over, but now i gotta worry bout my prob set!eeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! THAT should prove to be interesting! So it snowed! alright! way to go mother nature! i love it when u cover the world in white, it makes everything clean and happy looking whoooo hooooooo! went shoppin today and bought nothing! yay for me! oh ya, and my big news, im gonna be playin last post, reveille, oh canada, and some hymns! im totally freakin!this will be good for me if i can manage to actually blow and make a good noise out of my trumpet! so ya! yay, melis gave me her old trumpet. its peeeeerty! lol, i LUBED it up last night! bath and everything! well, im sure there is otehr stuff, but this is long enough! later days!

the end
Saturday, October 26, 2002

This marks the last weekend that melis and i will work this season, its kinda sweet (cause now i can attend church more regularly), but it also sux - i really enjoyed workin w/ melis, we had a lot of laughs, and some interesting conversations, shared secrets, watched cartoons and 'translated' french shows , were both creeped out by roger..... the list continues... im really glad we could have this time together, and i hope it wont end (next year....... it shall continue!) this weekend haas been a time of reflection..... ive had more time n my hands then i know what to do w/(of course i could do homework, but what fun is that?) so i caught up on some tv,sleep and thinking ..... the past couple weeks havnt been the easiest (for other ppl as well...ie amy - im there for u) but i thank god every day that the sun rises and the world goes on...... i need to do some serious re-evaluating of myself and figure out what im gonna do. lets face it, im out of a job by tomorrow, and we've all heard me say, 'oh, i ve gotta drop off my resume at spruce lodge' ..... guess who has yet to do that!ah well, its my own fault. anywho, sorry if i offended anyone bout the ' i told u so' remark, i was more or less refering to my sister, who doesnt even read this so i dunno y i even bothered mentioning it. the dance was interesting, but ya...... my mouse ears were hurting my head and gave me a slight headache.... im really just ramblin now, so i suppose i should scram.... well, later

peachy
Wednesday, October 23, 2002

well, i thought i was unhappy a couple of weeks ago, but now im just peachy..... right. Life has flipped upsidedown, yesterday night was so much fun, i got to hang out and not care, what a contrast to today..... i have been dumped, hurt again by the guy i thought i loved (maybe it was just wishful thinking on my part, but then i look again and know its true)well, for all those who would like to rub it in my face and say i told u so, could u wait a week or so?

occurences
Tuesday, October 15, 2002

hey everyone, thanx for ur support, it means alot to me. i've been thru worse but this hurts a whole lot right now ......so many things are occuring to me now ....... i just imagine lady when my parents asked if she wanted to go for a car ride... she hardly ever got to ride in the car but she loved it...... she prolly jumped on my moms lap......if only she knew ...... i was jokin around with my sister today after school ....ie playfighting ..... and it also occured to me that we would never hear her playful bark when ever we needed "help" from another member of the family, and never again will i walk in from school and receive a happy little wag of a tail, or wake to find something odd in my doorway to scare the crap out of me...... i noticed today just how many pictures of my dog i had ..... in my locker, in my room ...... everywhere ...... noone has moved her food dish or her bed, so they r very real reminders, and im sure we'll be finding toy randomly throughout the next while ..... somethin really pathetic is that jen didnt even know, she asked me today and i couldnt believe it! she was here! i hated being the one who had to tell her, but appearently it doesnt seem to bother her that much cause she hasnt even shed a tear yet... i mean i knew i was over emotional, but i thought it mattered more to her...... oh well, i sadly dont know her that well, maybe shes cryin inside..... i dunno......so ya, if i seem weird in the next bit, this is y....... but with gods help and a few good friends, i ll be back to the 'normal' tee we all know and hopefully dont mind.... anywho heres a quote i found "The purpose of life is not to be happy. The purpose of life is to matter, to be productive, to have it make some difference that you lived at all." its kinda interesting, but i dont believe that, i think that one should be happy and should strive to do just that, cause who knows, that may be the y u mattered! so ya, thats what was on my mind ....... b4 i forget theres a real joe coffee house on the 19th ... its gonna be fun! and yay for me, i got enough guts to call the ppl i needed to even thoi didnt know them in the slightest! thank you god for giving me strength and please keep it comin! im prayin for everyone .... and thanx again ppl! love ya ..... later

goodbye
Monday, October 14, 2002

well, i had a totally kick ass weekend at my cousins house, we went shoppin in hamilton and i bought a whole new outfit! then we went out for dinner to kelseys, then visited my other cousin (kevin and kelly) it was fun, we also went shopin at the new walmart in woodstock and i got some stuff there too! we also got to be spies b/c amys neighbours continue to get egged....always remember ....be less like the walking tree and more like the bush....id be having a much more fun time writing this however if i had come home to every thing normal....... ie my puppy here to lick my hand and such..... yes, my dog is no longer in the realm of the living... well, thats really all i have to say about this for now.....i dont feel like much other than sleep so bye.....

alrighty!
Tuesday, October 8, 2002

well well well, it has been a long time indeed.... well for me anyways! so ya, ive been busy w/ school and social activities, i hardly find myself online anymore! oh well, as goes life! its all good, did alright on my calc test, so hopefully i wont have to drop it! yay! i saw sweet home alabama on sat night, that was so good! i get to see it again tonoght w/ the girls! i realized that i hadnt been to the movies w/ brad since gladiator was in theatres! Yikes! that was a while ago! hmmmmmmmmm, theres not to much new w/ me, im as busy as ever w/ everything and find myself nodding off in class sometimes, but other then that...... ya! so thats bout it! oh ya! im goin to my cuz's house this weekend, it should be alot of fun! whoooooo hooooooo, no workies this weekend! alright! well, i gotta do a calc problem set so i gtg! later days!

Soo cute!
Tuesday, October 1, 2002

well, things were a little shaky for a bit there in Tee land, but the earth quake has resided! yay! do u know what i thought was super cute? i dont care if uve heard this story already but on sunday i was complaining to brad how my dad never takes me on nature walks anymore, cause he takes jamie instead ..... this in turn makes me sad b/c ive been replaced! booooooo, so anywho, brad pulls into TJ Dolan and says "well, someone has to take u on nature walks"! i could have creid (i really dont think he knows how much that meant to me!) so i took him around all the paths i know oh so well, it was good! i think we're gonaa make it a regular thing! whoooooooo hoooooooooo! the first dance of the year was on fri, it kinda sucked, but oh well! i got to feel semi-pretty! alright! had my fist cal test today.... i think it went alright, well i hope it did anyways! I got a solo in jazz band! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! it should be interesting! gotta love how im doing my homework! hehehehe, oh spare, how i love thee! Hmmmmm, what else? tonight is the university info night at school, i dunno y im even goin! i am prolly gonna end up at a collage! oh well, i guess its good to know whats out there! ya, i soooooo saw the new friends, was a little dissapointed, but whatcha gonna do? meh! hey melissa ...... do u have any clear pop? hehehehehe, u know what happens next! anywho, i cant remember all thats happened since whenever my comp died again, soooooo i guess ill end this! later days pita ppl!

Thoughts:
Weeeeeeeeeeeee, Cool beans, Whoooo hoooooo, eeeeeeeeep, yup yup, oy!, meh, sweet chicken! alrighty, mmmm hmmmmmm, classic!

Bible Verses:
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves. love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:4

Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also Matthew 6:21

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34

Quotes I like:

Never think that God's delays are God's denials. Hold on; hold fast; hold out. Patience is genius

We have not come into the world to be a number; we have been created for a purpose, for great things: to love and be loved

Those who die with the most toys, still dies

After the verb 'to Love,' 'to Help' is the most beautiful verb in the world

Imagination was given to us to compensate for what we are not; a sense of humor was given to us to console us for what we are.

Peace is more than the absence of war