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More poems by Jo that there wasnt any room for on the other side:

Girl Meets Boy

Girl falls in love w/ life again, Notices the light in the world, b/c once again there is hope, That boy is in love w/ girl/ Girl sings pretty songs in her head, careful not to sing a love song, just in case her hopes are empty; in case her thoughts about boy are wrong. / Girl watches every move boy makes, every smile, every time their eyes meet. It makes her cheeks blush rosy, and it quickens her heartbeat / Girl is willing to risk having her heart re-broken, just to feel this overwhelming joy, that always comes when she imagines herself back in the loving arms of boy

Hanging on to you

Tore up all the letters, put ur pictures in a box, forgotten all the words u spoke, on our midnight summer walks. Buried all my feelings, kept u out of touch, hidden all the gifts u gave, though im missing u so much. Just seeking out the answers, figure this thing out, cant be sure that this is right, when i have so many doubts. Tears of hate then pain, then love, i dont know what to do, its so hard to say good-bye, when im hanging on to u.

men in uniform
Saturday, August 31, 2002

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, today, was interrrresting.....work was busy, can we say hello, diane u dont know how to make a bed... eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep....... in other news.... melissa i love u! but dont take the sheets off a stayover unless we gotta change em! lol, oh well..... just turn it over, theyll never notice..... semi-hot guy in room 26....mmmmmmm.... big tippers - a whole 6 cents! oh ya! so i also got to go to the mitchell fair today w/ amy, shell and tim...... laughed me bum off at shell during her debut...... got some great pics, lol, can we say black mail??? mwa hahahahaha....... next year, me and shell r plannin to do the shrek dance party thing! its gonna rock this world! i love shrek! yaaaaa......went on tilt-a-whirl, boo ya! love that ride (best one there- and we are so good at it! even tho it was tim's AND Amy's first time - ya baby!), had some nummy cotton candy, ice cream, and fries..... saw some nummy guys (oh ya, in uniform, checkin us out! whoooo hooooooooooooooo - mmmmm, paramedics.....) ya good times! me and amy had a great time bakin and icin our cake, however impatient she was for it to be done! :D weeeeeeeeee today was awesome! im sooo happy.... oh ya, and yesterday was a blast to.... hung out w/ brad and dave, hehehe... brad made stuffed crust pizza!mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm it was sooooo good! im salivatin thinkin bout it! watched the tube and laughin, ya, i love laughin,..... who am i kiddin? i love everything tonight! sweet chicken! this is longer than i thought it was gonna be! oh well! what can ya do? hmmmmm, stop i guess..... mwa hahahahaha ....later days

another quiz thing
Friday, August 30, 2002

I'm getting there. I don't suck, but I've got a ways to go. hehehehe i thought it was amusing! weeeeeeeeeeeee, i prolly write again later! bye!

shrek!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, August 30, 2002

yesssss, tonight was interesting.......to say the least! we got to watch shrek!!!!! all girls need a boy toy, they just shouldnt be asses! mwa hahahaha(a little input from jo! - not the mwa hahaha thing the first thing! :P weeeeeeeee) whoooooooooooohoooooooooooooo....do u know what? appearantly either me or my cuz has an alligator butt! it was very devistating news! we also almost got hit by a water balloon (this was all on the way to the mall) , yes i know ur all thinkin "u dont need anymore crap!" and i know tis true, but its a cruel addiction.....oy......oh well.... still ahd lotsa fun! we made another sobeys run...all the ppl who work there r gonna know us sooooooo well.... hehehehe .... oh sobeys.... so at work today, my boss asked me if i gained weight! pretty nice of her eh? she told me i was gettin chubby cheeks and a double chin!!!:*( oh well, i should stop eatin crap! anywho, that was my exciting day! oh ya, i forgot, one of the stay over ppl we had to clean....man oh man, i swear their butt must have exploded or sumthin, it was narsty! well, i gtg to beddy by! later days......

hotdogs are gross
Wednesday, August 28, 2002

hey yall! had a blast last night at the movies, saw signs, again.......its alllllllll good(mwa hahahaha), then we got to do more doughnuts! whoooooooohoooooooooooo, also went shoppin yestersay....lotsa shoppin! moe clothes.... yaaaaaay........mmmmmmmmmmmmmm popcorn.............. sooooo then we came back to my house, which was filled to the brim w/ ppl....had a head to head w/ melis...that was fun, suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuure........so whos the mature one now? my family has the worst case of bad memory, nothing ever goes wrong....ya.....rrrrrrrrrrrrright, anywho, i did the yrbk thing today.......went well, me and jon are a good team, yay........we thought for a bit there that jon was gonna run away w/ the timbit box tho! oh yeah! and at work today, i was so tired i fell asleep at break! it was funny! well, i should prolly get goin, later days.....

y does she have to be this way?
Monday, August 26, 2002

Your guardian angel asks for nothing in return; her only reward is your happiness...........Today has been pretty good up till bout 1/2 an hour ago, i worked and did 5 rooms by my self, got done in good time....came home and had a bubble bath w/ the works...it was really nice, then i was lookin thru some cookbooks cause i was feelin exotic.........the phone rings, i pick it up, its my sister melissa.......it was goin as itnormally does until i mentioned that i got jen to go to my youth group...well then she got all upset and was like, no i can hardly deal w/ one of u, dont drag her into it too......she argued that church is just a big cult and that i was just being brainwashed, and im only a bible thumper - not a christian - do u know her reason for me appearantly not being christian? cause i dont go to church every sunday - and does she perhaps consider that i would if i didnt have to work? NOOOOOOO, and youth group doesnt count as anything! Well if it doesnt count, id sure like to know y she has such a prob w/ me bringin jen! I got so upset, and made the mistake of being too emotional..... yes i ended up hangin up on her, but i just couldnt deal w/ her anymore..if she cant except me for what and who i am, i dont know................this super sucks, i ran to my room and began to cry, of course she called back, and this time spoke to jen, i dunno if shes ruined this, i havnt taken damage control........but when i came on here, jen came over to me and said "dont let her get to u", i dont think she realized how much that one sentance meant to me! well, i think i have got ahold of my rampant emotions, i should prolly go and make dinner, later days........

yay
Sunday, August 25, 2002

today was great, me and melis had so much fun at work, we were in such a silly mood......we'll recap shall we.....full moon! i like the hard ones, as long as they arent grainy, she always gives us the big ones cause she likes how we do them! this one is good, "oh really? let me try! And ya gottalove it when melissa drops the towels in the toilet..that was prolly my fav part of the day! i went to 2xl today, and jo and jen came too! it was great, im now an officail recrouter (well, shell helped too ;) it was cool, we alos watched phyco, it wasnt as good as i thought it would be, but meh, whacha gonna do? Amy comes on tuesday whooo hooooooooo, then im donatin blood and melis is sleepin over, its gonna be great! anywho, i gotta work tomorrow....oy, (oh well, more moula for me!), anywho, later days.......

happy happy
Sunday, August 25, 2002

today was fun...im so glad to be back w/ melis for a couple days! its nice to have routine! we even got a $4 tip each! whooo hoooooooooo, it was also cool to come home to a quite empty house! i loved it! im in such a good mod today, it rocks.........of course im feelin kind drained to and i almost fell asleep while waitin for ppl to call me, but then we went to subway for dinner where i used my worst table ettiquite in a good 2 years! oh well, it was fun, we went to get some movies from kendras house, but nobody would let us in! we knew they were there cause we had the car and the van and truck were there, but no one answered the door! we dont wanna speculate what kept them from answering ;)....... we eventually drove past my old house! ya! then rented some movies...again! it was fun....we came back and shelley and jo both decided that they wanted crotch rockets......i think they are to dangerous, and kendra wanted to stay out of the convo! shell and jo also decided (i swear, it was a conspiracy) to knock over an ashtray.... so i vacuumed it up, and shell went febreeze crazy! what was that? i dont have control of my bodily funcions? alriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight! anywho, thats about it, later days

ARG, again
Friday, August 23, 2002

well, i went shoppin today! yay! i enjoy shoppin......new cloths, school crap.....oh ya.....i also got my hair trimmed, dont look much different......same old, same old... sooooooooo i didnt do much that was fantastic enough for me to really want to share today, so i think ill write a letter to a woman i work w/ eho is annoying me...... dear person....... has it ever been a good thing to leave hair in the sink? do u need to go to the doctors to get your hearing checked, or do u just need me to tell u again that ur not supposed to throw out the s/o soaps......thanx for bein my partner, oh one who bailed for break w/out givin me towels, or checkin the kichens.....its ok, i really love doing enough work so u get paid for doin nothin much and i feel rushed, really, its not a waste of my time to do ur jobs over again! By the way, u pick up a whole lot of stuff off the floor by haphazardly wipping a rag over the it..riiiiiiight...the one wh does ur job for u.....tanya .... i know its a little harsh, but sometimes i just gotta rant, or im afraid i will get not to nice at work.....i need to learn more patience w/ other ppl.....any one out there who doesnt mind prayin for me, could ya lend me a hand? anywho, i think thats all for now......later

whatever
Thursday, August 22, 2002

hey yall, today, was as ordinary as any other, yet i am thankful for it non the less..........i begun w/ the "i wanna go back too sleep factor" but it was ok till i brought up my soon to be peirced belly button infront of mother dear, then she decided to start acting like a parent and decided that since she was older, that she could tell me waht to do w/ my body....well, thanx mom, but im almost 18, i think i have learned how to do that, all by my little bitty self! - so i said there was nothin wrong w/ it, i mean at least it wasnt my nipple or somthin like that right? then i made the mistake of bringin up the fact that it wasnt a sin.....well, she decided to counteract that one w/ a VERY sarcastic "oh, u should know all about that!", well that did it.........im used to that crap from my sister, heck, i almost expect it now, but the person i expected it least from was my mother..........needless to say, i biked away from my house w/ another open wound (soon to be scar),im just glad i collected myself b4 work, altho i cant honestly say it was my most cheeriest of days at the rosecourt..........anywho, so i came home, and of course there was no mention of my door slamming earlier or hasty exit, in this house, nothing wrong happens ever......... and mom pretended everything was fine nd dandy...... she left after a while and i had the house to myself...i cranked the music and hopped into a prolonged shower...... it was cleansing, in more ways than one....then i painted my toenails and did my hair differently to test it out for school..... i soon called shell and found out she got her job at burtols! yay! go u! and me, shell, jo, kendra and jon hung out here and watched dragonfly - a very good movie, its spooky,sad, funny....everything a movie should be! then everyone left....it was overall, mostly a good night, cept the part that ppl were planning stuff w/out me cause they didnt want to wait for me to finish wirk, but hey, i didnt just suggest it nooooooooo....oh well, i should reboot my comp, and get over bein in a bad mood, so much is goin on, and summer is supposed to be the relaxn time of the yeaar, right....later

movies, again
Wednesday, August 21, 2002

wow, i have had some really awesome times this summer, and i highly doubt another will beat it.......btn my trip, hangin w/ friends and finding out what im made of, it has been memorable......i know its not done yet, but school is rounding that corner and i truthfully dont want it to come. Everyone is so excited........but i dont understand y..... after this year, we'll all be facing certain change....... i guess everyone is happy to just pack up and leave, to go away after this year, but im not sure i am........quite a few of us still havnt decided a major, let alone a destination...... i know i need to follow one of my favorite bible verses, and not worry about tomorrow, and i know all i have to do is place these concerns into gods hands and he'll deal with them, but sometimes thats the hardest part.......anywho..........soooooo, last night was sooo much fun, we went to see a movie and i finally got to see signs, awesome movie, and i was so hyped cause right b4 the movie we were listening to my new mix cd, it was fun cause i was dancing and really hyper and stuff, anywho then we went to timmies and jo cleaned out her purse and found some film containers that soooooo smelled like tuna, but she didnt belive me (she said it smelled like markers...) so everyone had to smell it, only to come to the conclusion that it DID smell like tuna! we were laughing so hard and loud that ppl were lookin at us(then again, when arent they?) but then theses mean ppl a couple tables over threw a timbit chunk at us, but we didnt really care, and now its a big joke,....at least we didnt throw a timbit at us!.... so today was fun too, now i know what melis was talkin bout w/ the sweat lady! yikes! anywho, that was fun.....so then i came home and went phsyco crazy and cleaned the whole house, then i invited some ppl over for a movie night, amie rueben and shell came over, but only shell actually stayed for the move part, but it was still fun, we watched national lampoons van wilder, it was ......... different ... anywho, so here i am once again.......ya.... so thats bout it, later

the new guy
Tuesday, August 20, 2002

i just watched the new guy...wasnt quite what i was expectin, but i still laughed alot! It was highly amusing! Im in such a good mood today! i took another quiz too, but im too lazy to remember what it was, lol, oh well.......yay for smiles and sunshine - i hope its nice tomorrow! Its movie night tomorrow, whoooooooo hoooooooo, i think its becomin a tradition! yay! anywho, i already wrote in here today so i should prolly go! im a huge loser! i prolly write in here more than anyone else! oh well, i enjoy it so meh! later days

the most useless test ever!
Monday, August 19, 2002

drivin w/ amie
Monday, August 19, 2002

well, i jst got back from hangin out w/ stephie,amie and willard! amie got her G2!!!!!whoooooo hooooooooo, we did some celabratin.......hung out at stephies house ate and watched "joyride", which i had already seen, but it was funner watchin it w/ them cause they took on rolls - i got mollested by the scary man (in the movie i was a hopless rich girl who got kidnapped)........it was amusing...... we ate alot, and amie drove alot cause she was happy bout her g2, it was so cute, she had just come back from gettin willard and then willard was like, "awww we shoulda went to my house and got that movie and my food" so amie drove all the way back into town and back again! i stayed back and made dinner w/ steph....vell also came over when amie came to pick me up but she had to work, and looked at my pics......it was fun, we laughed bout some of our inside jokes......i also burned a new cd and slept in till 11:30, i called linda when i got home from hangin and discovered i also have tomorrow off! whoooooo hooooooooo, its so exciting! anywho, that was my day! later

my throat hurts, but my pita rocks!
Monday, August 19, 2002

tonight was so much fun, but first ill tell yall bout my oh so fun day at work.....i didnt get done till 3:30! thats a long day of cleaning! anywho, so it was gettin pretty crazy by the end of the day and me and melis were both pretty tired and i was getting really frusterated w/ a stupid bed that didnt want to give up its cover, so i pulled and tugged and ended up getting litterally wrapped up in the blanket.....it was interesting, melis came out and saw me and started to laugh at me......anywho, so i was pretty tired when i got home, im surprised i didnt fall off my bike! oh well, we had ribs for dinner! yummy, then i hung out w/ shell and we decided to call ppl, we got kendra, and ended up pickin up jo and just cruisin around ..............."Sanctuary", aqua, patsy cliene, and shania twain.......I AM YOUR CANDY MAN!....its a bug! timbits and doughnuts, choc milk, headbangin, i lost the quarter! oh nooooooooooo! i feel like a dog! bring back some more of those skittles, GUN IT! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ......... I think thats bout it for now, im quite tired so i beleive i will be sleepin now! WHOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOO i get to sleep in! its my day off!yay, later!

Thoughts:
Weeeeeeeeeeeee, Cool beans, Whoooo hoooooo, eeeeeeeeep, yup yup, oy!, meh, sweet chicken!

Bible Verses:
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves. love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:4

Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also Matthew 6:21

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34

Poems by Jo:

The impossible

She wants the impossible/A love that wont die/ An unsinkable ship/She wants to fly...But nothing is possible/everything dies/Ships sink/And he tells her lies...She wants the impossible/Wants to trust and be safe/An impenitable wall/With him is her palce...But this isnt possible/Shes scared and alone/Walls breakdown/W/ no place to call home...She wants the impossible/To be loved for real/An unbreakable heart/This is how she feels...But perfect love is impossible/Pain outwieghs pleasure/Hearts become broken/She should have known better...She needs the impossible/Wants to find her soulmate/Wants love to find her/Before its too late

Quotes I like:

Never think that God's delays are God's denials. Hold on; hold fast; hold out. Patience is genius

We have not come into the world to be a number; we have been created for a purpose, for great things: to love and be loved

Those who die with the most toys, still dies

After the verb 'to Love,' 'to Help' is the most beautiful verb in the world

Imagination was given to us to compensate for what we are not; a sense of humor was given to us to console us for what we are.