Time to change... change what?
Tuesday, December 23, 2003 12:52 a.m.
Time to change...? Yes.. time to grow up and do something about my current lifestyle. I cannot just sit back and stare at it lamely and wait for it to pass then look back and sighhhhhhhhhh with regret.
Both huiling and me got invited to bz's grandma's today for lunch.. wonderful meal of popiah and soups and tang-yuan.. =) Very heart-warming meal...
The 3 of us went to parkway after that.. haha.. 1st time I realise can walk from roxy square in katong to parkway... LOL(shows how much I've known about katong.. zzZZz... in fact I still don't know a lot about singapore.. I only know places that are near to MRT stations.. haha. May be one day I should read up the street directory to know more about singapore). So we did a bit of shopping.. bought my 1st pair of jeans..(first pair that I found myself..$49.90.. hmmz.. hole in pocket liao..but jeans last right? hehe). Then after a break of fruit juice.. watermelon(bz's) and green apple + orange(mine).. we set off for boat quay.. for my audition... waited and waited and waited.. finally my turn.. did some self-intro then start the song.. DING!.. that's it, I paid $15 to make 2 people listen to me sing less than 10 lines.. well.. anyway cmi.. so that's it.. haha.. special thanks to bz and huiling who were there to support me.. =)
Had KFC's whipped potato and iced milo after that.. should look at my eating speed.. marvel!!! Haha.. yes.. I want to become a pig from now on.. oink oink.. a smart and independent pig who will not stay in the sty and wait to be spoon-fed.. but one like Babe.. time to look for my own food and adventure! Time to explore the world! LOL.
Somethings were gone.. and I know.. gone forever.. it's really enough to have friends and family there for me.. though there can be no substitute.. let the empty space be there in my heart for now... =) Wonder when we'll see the next clear sky.. been raining for so many days... Goodnight! Though school is pressurizing.. somehow I look forward to seeing everyone again.. all my friends.. even just students walking around the campus.. hurrying between tutorials and lectures.. even the shuttle buses.. haha..
Somethings only happen once in a lifetime..
Sunday, December 21, 2003 09:12 p.m.
Somethings only happen once in a lifetime.. cherish them.. because they might just be gone forever.
Watched Dry Wood, Fierce Fire by Miriam Yueng and Gu Tian Le.. a movie which I wanted to watch before last year when it was out in cinemas. Remembered how I stared at the movie poster at Suntec's Eng Wah... It's about Gu Tian Le who fell for his beautiful lady boss at first sight. With the help of Miriam Yueng, he finally managed to show his feelings to his boss.. yet all along Miriam Yueng was silently in love with him.. in the end he realised that "he fell for his boss at first sight - his heart was pounding when they first met each other.. yet the feeling is not practical.. his heart cannot pound forever like that.. love shouldn't be like that..he realised that the pounding will die down someday.. it was only infatuation.." He chose Miriam Yueng in the end.
In our lives, most of the times we fall for someone and do not or may not realise that beside us there may be someone who actually is in love with us. Someone who will not make our heart go thud thud thud.. at first glance.. but has given us the most happiness secretly and almost subconsciously...
A lot of shows I've watched have used this concept of "treasuring someone beside you".. that "the love of your life may be just beside you" concept... do u think this applies in real life too? Is real life just like a drama too?
It's rainin...
Saturday, December 20, 2003 10:40 p.m.
It's been raining the whole day. The signs of December coming to an end.. feel as if every time when the year is about to end.. there will be monsoons to clear and wash away all the unhappiness and get people ready for Christmas and New Year's Day.. although by geography.. we all know why.. haha..
Woke up thinking that it is friday.. switched on the tv.. Cartoons.. doink.. it's Saturday.. Think I've been spending my holidays all the same on weekdays and weekends.. such that I don't even feel the difference though weekend's approaching..
Irritated by CORS, made countless attempts to login but in vain.. called the helpdesk for assistance like 3 times? Finally managed to get in after 2 to 3 hours.. psssSSSzzz.. spent my afternoon stoning after that.. No mood to read novel, no mood to pick up the jap assessmt.. again my mind started to wonder back.. nopez I have to look forward..
Had fish porridge for dinner and did some renovation to the blog.. as you can see.. @@ Heez.. looks better? do provide your comments! I'm all ears.. =)
Goodnight and happy weekend to all! Cya soon!
:: Till When Do Us Part ::
Saturday, December 20, 2003 12:02 a.m.
Woke up feeling tired.. or perhaps it's because I've gotten used to sleeping for 11 hours before finally getting tired of the bed every morning. Haha..
Met up with bz at TM, had Kenny Rogers.. she had chicken with grilled potato, corn and mushroom soup as side dishes and I had mashed potato, cheese maccaroni and chicken soup.. wasted the chicken because I couldn't bite. But it's getting better I think.. at least I have the courage and dare to try to bite into more food now.. Caught the 1440 Internal Affairs III.. =) Got quite confused with how the scenes jumped in between .. all the flashbacks from the 1st movie.. but overall it's quite an entertaining show with a lot of handsome actors and potential cast.. lol .. Realise that there's been a lot of trilogies this year.. Matrix, Internal Affairs, LOTR, JU-ON(I'll never watch the final movie..haha.. don't intend to spoil my Christmas).. yupz.. is it a business strategy to increase the box office and boost the movie industry? keke.. like TV dramas.. keep audience in suspense.. in mandarin: Diao(4) Wei(4) Kou(3)
We did a bit of window shopping after that.. tried jeans.. but didn't find anything to buy.. Tampines Mall have changed a lot since the last time I went.. New stores.. and cafes.. there's this you tiao store opposite the bubble tea shop.. nice smell..(eager to try.. but can't bite...doink).. drank a bit of bz's peppermint bubble tea.. WOW.. awesome.. seems like ages since I last had bubble tea.. ever since last semester Cool Station in Science Canteen closed down.. Bought my 1st pair of earrings too =).. dangling type with blue and yellow crystal.. $5.. I suppose the price is reasonable.. Went home after that.. Felt so Xing(4) Fu(2) once I reached the door.. there was my dad who opened the door to welcome me home.. =D he bought dinner for me - Duck meat porridge with hard-boiled egg and tou gan, also cheng teng.. I'm the happiest girl on earth.. plus the fact that I was really famished.. So I really felt blissful.. hehe.. Then mum came back with my breakfast for tomorrow.. One big loaf of bread for me.. and raisin cake too.. had one for supper.. yummy! Told mum my results.. was quite happy and glad that she gave me words of encouragement. Yes.. I'll strive my hardest to achieve my long-awaited A next semester..
Watched a lot of tv - channel U from 8 to 10.. very entertaining shows.. for a bored person like me.. haha.. some cooking show(taught pple how to prepare christmas meals), Quan Xing Zong Dong Yuan, Duo Qiang Shi Jie III... Quote from the drama: 'We cannot be bagged down by what happened in the past, we must look forward in life'.. 'Love is a kind of Jing(1) Shen(2) Bing(4).. but don't be driven crazy by it..' LOL.. my dad was knodding his head and hinting to me.. thanks.. I am alright now I think.. ready for the new beginning to a better new year ahead..
Bidding is starting soon.. another 8 hours or so.. have more or less planned what modules to take.. except for 1 or 2 not confirmed yet..
Yawnz.. OK that's it for today! Before I go into dreamland.. I wish all you guys good luck in your bidding.. may we all get the modules that we want for the new semester! Nitez!
Seems like life goes on..
Thursday, December 18, 2003 07:25 p.m.
Didn't sleep well last night but still slept until 11+am today. Yes.. the 1st thing on my mind.. Results.. Really dread to find out how I did.. not that I was pessimistic but I knew I better be mentally and emotionally prepared for the worst. Had a bit of breakfast then sat and stoned.. chatted with a friend about her stressful life now in ntu.. and time flew.. 1300.. The first thing I saw was Bs and Cs.. *phew*..(relieved and thankful) Yupz! Like to thank all my good friends here.. for helping me through those times =) Thank you guys! From the bottom of my heart... Arigato! I hope you are all happy with your results too! Let's jiayou in the new semester!
So there I was stoning for the rest of the day in front of my laptop.. walking to and fro between my living room and study room.. wondered why I did.. perhaps I was sleepwalking? LOL
When the results came out.. I was happy and relieved.. wanted to share my happiness with friends.. and I felt immense gratitude towards him... for all the support and help.. hesitated whether to do what I wanted to do.. I feel as if I've taken those times for granted.. too late.. pondered for about 2 hours and finally icqed to express my gratitude.. (oh what did I do.. was my immediate reaction.) Fortunately, unexpectedly.. we talked a bit about the results.. yes.. we talked.. but everything is now different.. I thought and analysed... not wanting to say anything that might irritate.. and the phrase "everything has changed" lingered in my mind throughout the conversation.. yes indeed.. I am thankful enough that we could talk.. There's nothing I can do.. no matter how grateful I am and how much I regret not showing enough appreciation.. It all ended with a Thank You Very Much.. Really... Thanks
Fate arranged all these? May be.. I don't know.. I'm leaving my destiny to fate regardless of what happened.. I still haven't lost my belief and faith in it.. not totally..
A song from one year ago..
Wednesday, December 17, 2003 07:17 p.m.
sometimes I feel that I'm really alone.. especially now.. as I opened my window from my study room and gazed into the night sky.. birds chirping..(wondered what they were chirping about.. if only I understand their language..) I started singing..
ye zi zai chuang wai qing qing yao dong
ren xing dao mei you xing ren zou guo
jing zi li de wo hen bu xiang wo
zi cong ni li kai le wo bian de geng ran rou
ni de ying zi zai mei yi ge jiao luo
hao xiang shi zai ti xing zi wo
shao le ni de pei ban
wo xian zai you duo ji mo
wo xiang wo ke yi xi guan yi ge ren sheng huo
wo xiang wo ke yi jia zhuang bu ceng ai guo
bing leng de ye li rang yan lei wen rou wo
wo xiang wo ke yi xi guan yi ge ren sheng huo
ji yi li ca qu ni de cheng nuo
ai qing shi ge meng
er wo shui guo tou
ye zi zai chuang wai qing qing yao dong
ren xing dao mei you xing ren zou guo
jing zi li de wo hen bu xiang wo
zi cong ni li kai le wo bian de geng ran rou
ni de ying zi zai mei yi ge jiao luo
hao xiang shi zai ti xing ze wo
shao le ni de pei ban wo xian zai you duo ji mo
wo xiang wo ke yi xi guan yi ge ren sheng huo
wo xiang wo ke yi jia zhuang bu ceng ai guo
gan jue ru guo yao zou shui neng shuo 'no'
wo xiang wo ke yi xi guan yi ge ren sheng huo
ji yi li ca qu ni de cheng nuo
ai qing shi ge meng
er wo shui guo tou
wo xiang wo ke yi xi guan yi ge ren sheng huo
wo xiang wo ke yi jia zhuang bu ceng ai guo
bing leng de ye li rang yan lei wen rou wo
wo xiang wo ke yi xiang guan yi ge ren sheng huo
ji yi li ca qu ni de cheng nuo
ai qi shi ge meng
er wo...
shui guo tou...
Ai Qi Shi Ge Meng
Er Wo...
Shui Guo Tou Le... aaaaaaaaaaaa
One year ago, as I listened to this song.. and added it to my media player.. I felt that it was a sad love story.. If love is a dream.. then there is no true love... "wen shi jian qing wei he wu, zhi jiao ren sheng si xiang xu" is only a famous yet unrealistic phrase by Jing Yong.
Changes occur all the time, true love can withstand changes.. may be.. (perhaps I've been reading too much.. Hmmz)
So what did I do today? Yes, today is definitely a more constructive day as I promised myself to make it better. Swept and wiped the floor, washed my clothes and started calling up to look for jobs again.. hoping to find a part-time job and just carry on with it.. or else 2 more tuition to fill up my time.. and of course my financial burden.. this is all growing up.. I guess.. lol.. Tomorrow is the day.. fear of what I might see.. all I had to do was login my matric number and pin.. then *flash*.. (depending on how the server is.. slow or fast..) I wonder what I'll see after the flash.. I'll see what I've done for myself.. sigh.. *let's all pray hard for one another*
Here's wishing all of you.. Good Luck and all the best! though it may not be of much help.. my blessings to all... take care!
Momentum is building.. Again..
Tuesday, December 16, 2003 11:45 p.m.
Realise that the cors site is up already.. yes.. it's time to plan for the new semester again.. for me it's year 2 sem 2.. almost clearing all the essentials.. left with heaps of electives and ues and gem to clear..
The significant difference is now I can plan according to what I like.. no obligations.. (hint hint.. nah.. just a remark)
I feel as if my tone has changed.. sigh.. used to type complete sentences.. but now I just type ....s.. all my threads of thoughts.. mixed up.. ok.. I'll try to change this.. complete sentences from now on.. =)
How was my day? I didn't do anything constructive.. haven't touched my jap assessment for 1 whole week.. only managed to finish reading a xiao shuo today.. A book of 4 short stories.. interesting the way the author wrote the 4 different love stories.. amused at how she managed to come up with a love report card for each guy at the end of each story.. lol
Hmmz.. have been sleeping the entire afternoon otherwise. Feel as if I'm slacking again... no good. Let's see if I can do better tomorrow. haha.
Been chatting online with 2 of my primary school friends, lots to catch up on.. but glad that after 4 years of secondary school and 2 years of jc... we still manage to talk about one another's lives and stuff.. may be cos we're girls.. lol.. I used to believe there's this affinity between girls to make them able to understand one another.. might be because I was from tkgs.. or perhaps because I was in a double science double math cg in jc where the girls were closer because there were only 8 of us in a class of 20 over.. lol
Ok time for bed.. *yawnz*
counting down to the 18th... sighhhh.. I don't know what to expect..
:: What's life about? ::
Tuesday, December 16, 2003 12:18 a.m.
Quote: If something doesn't kill you, it'll make you stronger.
Perhaps that's what's life's all about.. Taking risks, trying, putting in utmost effort, not regretting what you have chosen before, being responsible for the consequences of choices you've made in life, tripping and falling and learning how to get up and watch out for the next pitfall.. gaining experiences.. Growing Up... *Grinz*
I love music.. It's my lifelong love.. I love my family and friends.. and is learning how to show them greater and deeper appreciation like how I listen to my favourite music and silently feel grateful that there's music to fill up my time and novels to spice up my life..
Had steamboat(chicken-flavoured) with bz and huiling today at lucky plaza.. for dinner.. It was a buffet type of steamboat.. so we ordered quite a lot.. from beancurd, cabbage, lettuce to fish, prawns, crabsticks.. lots more.. the strawberry vanilla ice-cream was fantastic .. YUM YUM.. YUM YUM.. All add up to quite a big sum though.. hmmz..
bz talked about her trip to australia.. hee.. ya.. It's so nice and relaxing to live in some place where you step out of the house and feel fresh cool air and less stress on the streets every morning... how I wish Singapore is like that.. sigh.. may be in the next century? LOLz
bz asked me some questions.. in which I feel I wasn't good at replying.. at least when I was answering her qns.. I felt discomfort.. I realise I do not want to talk about it.. though I cannot avoid.. I am just not strong enough to talk about it yet.. I am confused.. I am puzzled.. I am not actually.. all the thinking makes me tired... I'm so tired and weary.. I'm worried about my results.. I wonder how I'll do.. sigh... what did I do? *pray hard*
Back to the quote.. (top) I do sense some truth in it.. I feel stronger, more in control of my life now.. yet sometimes though I may be in the dreamy mode.. I am planning and guiding myself through this... I feel that I know how to say no now.. how to stand up for myself in some cases.. or should I say.. be someone with zhu(3) jian(4)... I know why it happened.. I know why I let it happen out of me.. I know why I lost control.. anyway.. I am determined not let history repeat itself.. (Geez.. I sound like I'm talking to myself.. keke)
:: So Close... yet... So Far... ::
Sunday, December 14, 2003 10:42 p.m.
It all started from so close... but when it's time.. Turn left, turn right... Yes.. In life, a lot of times we realise or find ourselves so close to something or someone.. Unfortunately, unexpectedly, surprisingly... things seldom turn out the way we predicted.. Why.. Is no longer a question, but a fact and a reason, a 'because'..
Why am I talking such chimiology.. just feeling philosophical I guess.. *shrug*
Anyway my Sunday is as boring as my other Sundays.. LOL
Watched a bit of Huan Zhu Ge Ge II in the morning.. the last time I watched it was like when I was still in JC2? Funny.. how I can watch it again and yet feel the same freshness I had about the show.. The love between Xiao Yan Zi and Wu Ar Ge, the love between Zi Wei and Er Kang, the love between Xiao Yan Zi and Zi Wei... all so defined and =)(ran out of words as usual..)
For the rest of the day, I was putting songs to my windows media player, configuring firewall, installing photoshop, dreamweaver, flash.. ate porridge for lunch, porridge for dinner and in between some custard cake and green bean soup.. I'm still hungry!!!
Relaxingly typing now... and listening to my mp3s.. =)
Time is fast.. so fast.. months go by.. so fast..
One and a half years have passed since uni life started.. seems so far yet so near.. like an illusion..
May be that's why I decided to name this blog "Sn@pit's Dream"... Life.. somethings are like a dream now.. be it sweet or bitter ones..
deep thoughts.. shallow?
Saturday, December 13, 2003 09:20 p.m.
Just feel like typing out how I'm feeling now. Feel terrible.. no.. not the word.. sad? neither.. my vocab is so bad.. I don't know the correct word to use.
I wish I am strong enough, hard-hearted enough.. or may be the word is practical, adaptable and xiao(1) sa(3) enough to just live on without looking back helplessly, doubtfully into the past.. I wish I can just blame myself. Yes, so it's all my fault.. so it's all fated.. it's destiny.. as I recall.. as memories flash back.. happy ones.. unhappy ones.. angry moments.. sad moments..
May be I was just too caught up in the relationship.. may be I forgot that it's just a relationship.. what am I trying to say.. I dunno either..
so that's the way it is and yes.. that's the way it is..
(Celine Dion's song?.. I think so..) And that's the way it is...
A lot of changes have happened.. changes.. changes.. changes.. it's not so bad if it's something that is visible and tangible.. but it's definitely ji(2) shou(3) if it's some matter of the heart and intangible yet fragile. I've been making changes.. or perhaps.. making myself change.. change .. change.. with the touch of a magic wand *brink*.. haha
yes.. I came to realise.. perhaps I should be thankful to this arrgmt.. perhaps.. if not I'll still be stuck in my own world.. I even came to realise that learning can be fun.. my favourite past time now is tv, learning new stuff, chatting to friends, reading chinese love novels... ya.. no more sitting there and stoning and waiting for something to happen or for chances to fall from the sky...
I love the sky.. It's blue.. It's orangy and pinkish, even purplish at different times.. I love the clouds.. they are like our lives.. ever changing.. unpredictable what's the next shape or direction it's going to be(leave aside the weather forcasting technology).. I love the wind.. it's cold.. yet wakes me up.. it tells me 'hey! things are still moving and happening ard you.. get up and do your part.. move on..' It sings.. breezes, gusts of wind... so soft and loud.. like some choir..
Wherever I go, I'll look up into the sky.. look at the secrets .. look at the stars, the moon, the clouds.. I feel the world is so big.. yet everyone is living under one sky.. mmmm... dunno why.. just make me feel calmer whenever I look far into the distant.. into the sky..
I suddenly have a weird thought.. funny too I think..
I once watched a show.. Days of our lives.. in it I heard the actor tell his daughter.."There's someone for everyone..." Yes.. and until now I still believe.. and it makes me feel that sometimes things are so close yet so far.. or perhaps.. fate is plotting and planning the appropriate time and settings..
if you think in such a way: the one in your life is living under the same sky(moreover if is living in the same country) as you.. then he/she will look up into the sky and see what you see in the sky.. except that we never know yet.. only time will tell...
example: bz might be in Perth now. Yet she's able to see the sky as we do.. the same sky.. the sky is so wide.. LOL..so far yet so close... think I'm not making sense.. anyway.. just a thought..
It's been so long...*m-flo*
Saturday, December 13, 2003 02:29 p.m.
Ok.. I'm getting lazy.. really shouldn't... managed to make myself update this blog..
A lot I want to say.. a lot I've been thinking about.. may be that's one of the reasons why I couldn't really type my blog without forcing myself to type..
So let's start with what I've been doing with my life or to myself these past few days.. ever since monday?
I can't remember what I did on Monday... stayed home.. swept the floor.. wiped the floor.. washed my clothes.. typical maid/housewife?... LOL
Tuesday: went for ktv with huiling, lingrong and shinyee.. sang and then we went kinokuniya and kfc and cineleisure.. then home.. enjoyable day together.. =)
Wednesday: another day at home.. wiped the floor..
Thursday: went movie with zhenni my primary schl friend.. we knew each other since kindergarten... haha.. so long..
we watched "Love Actually" .. cute and funny movie.. christmas show i think.. "Christmas is when you spend your time with your loved ones..and it's when you should shower them with lotsa love.." Enjoyed the show.. though a bit messy cos of the big cast.. the song's funny too.. haha
Friday: Picked up my new harddisk.. installed and configured some stuff.. put braces.. top row only... it's the beginning of my 2 year brace.. 2 years... 2 years..
Saturday:That's today.. nothing much.. rotting at home..
My mind's been swirling about some thoughts.. esp when I came across what I shouldn't have.. I'm really happy to have my friends with me.. really.. thanks guys! You're the best.. and I'm looking forward to Christmas.. though It'll be just like that.. but what can I expect anyway? lol.. just the atmosphere, the carols and family and friends.. enough for me now.. (I think I sound restless.. haha.. may be it's the weather.. been feeling quite melancholic and nostalgic) here's a MERRY CHRISTMAS to all in advance..
YOU BETTER WATCH OUT YOU BETTER NOT CRY
YOU BETTER NOT SHOUT I'VE TELLEN YOU WHY
SANTA CLAUS IS COMING TO TOWN =)
It's a season to be jolly... farlalalalalalala
Monday, December 8, 2003 01:44 p.m.
It's been a while.. or may be to me it's been a while since I come online.. wow.. ever since last wednesday.. after I sent my tecra for servicing.. until now.. I feel as if I've lost touch with the world.. or may be my network of friends online.. So it's qutie obvious that my last interview did not work out either.. tadadadaDA.. expected.. Got my laptop back today.. but was told that it could breakdown any moment - hardware problem, pending for the new harddisk now.. then I'll have to reinstall all my programs and files.. psssSSzZZ (might as well.. lol time to start a new history or may be I'll just use the new harddisk without reinstalling all the stuff.. hehe)
Let me recall what happened in the last few days.. hmmz..
Thursday: went out with shinyee then huiling..(bought dove conditioner, pork chop mouse pad, 2cds for $16 for my mum's bdae, jap practice book, 2 hangten shirts - red and black sleeveless, 2 this fashion shirts - beige and red)
Friday: went out with huiling (bought 'inner beauty', cherry lip balm, shaver, eye brow plucker, oil absorbing paper..doin.. forgot what it's called.. , got my earstuds!) come to think of it I am quite grateful to huiling for telling me that it's not painful.. lol.. I was hesitating.. and then the 'gun' just panged.. OWWWWW!!!
The price of beauty... ... ...
Saturday: extracted my 3rd and 4th teeth.. will be putting the braces coming friday..
Currently brooding over my modules to take for next semester.. cs2103 cs2105 laj gem and ??? jialat.. better settle soon..
Picked up some jap.. hehe.. learnt 15 characters.. in the past few days.. by heart.. a i u e o ka ki ku ke ko sa shi su se so... hiragana.. =P (I've decided to strategise so that I can get my laj successfully next sem.. hehehe..)
How am I? I'm more or less alright.. fine... ok.. Thanks to all my friends.. especially bz, huiling, lingrong, shinyee, caizuan, juana, malcolm, ... and of course my beloved parents =)
Song currently in my mind: Gu Dan (by Fann Wong)
Life...
Tuesday, December 2, 2003 10:18 p.m.
Someone told me life is up to how I want to live it to decide on whether it's going to be sux or fulfiling and fun... I wonder..
Still can't help it but sometimes be affected by what I can recall.. and remember.. told bz and huiling that it was like a gap of 1 year in my life.. a dream of 1 year? a coma of 1 year? I wonder how I'm going to carry on... but I will.. I should stop recalling.. stop brooding.. stop all unnecessary nuisance thoughts that's swirling in my mind.. or rather at the back of my mind now..
Time will heal.. lol.. "we'll see.." (look into the distant with a look of expectancy).. yes.. so this is what we see now.. the truth? the reality? the circumstances that we have ended up and "sort of" decided upon? Nah...
me and my wordiness again.. don mind me if u don't understand what I'm chanting about.. haha..
So? How is my week so far? SIGH.. Life has it's ups and downs.. My poor toshiba tecra 9100 freaked out.. for the 3rd time.. going to send it for repair tmw.. (let's have a few minutes of silence for my laptop.. man I must have relied on it too much this past year.. pray pray it's gonna be alright)
Anyway I went for a couple of interviews.. to be exact 3..
the 1st last week.. FLUNKED.. because I rather not be a backup for an event.. the 2nd.. Monday.. FLUNKED.. because I went all the way down in the rain to the ULULU place and the person told me 2mths contract.. BLUR ME! the last one is still pending.. interesting how I was interviewed.. haha.. applied my 2301 skills.. telemarketer.. hmm.. pending for the reply..
Been doing not much.. talked to some of my friends from childhood.. primary school.. tried to arranged time for movie and just talked and talked over the phone..
the future.. well.. WOW.. I really don't know what lies ahead.. it's so unpredictable.. but I'm determined to be less blur and more independent.. yes.. INDEPENDENT.. let's see.. (looks into the distant.. into the sky (o"o) HMMMmmmzzz...)
Going to try to set up my own site once my poor toshiba heals from it's long term illness.. the link will be www.comp.nus.edu.sg/~yeohuili =)
Let's hope I'll be in time to make a pretty christmas card for all you guys.. (no promises =P)
Well.. that's all for today then.. hmmz. too much to type yet somethings are just better left unsaid.. U know I know..we all know... (=
Take care guys! TLF Rulz!
Sn@pit's Story
Sunday, November 30, 2003 03:30 p.m.
Hi.. finally decided to try this out.. need lots of support.. pls give me ur ample support.. !!! hehe..
Alright.. here goes my 1st entry.. I'll be using this as a blog cum gallery.. (that is if I've managed to figure out how to put pictures here and also how to use photoshop..)
How time flies.. how people change... amist all these.. I've noticed and came to realise how I've changed.. or perhaps learn more about myself through the eyes of loved ones and friends.. period of self-reflection...
sometimes it's meaningless to brood over the past.. my life is not just based on the past year.. but on more days, months, years to come.. that's why I've picked up the courage to go for braces... OUCH the extraction hurts after the numbness went off.. (but I'm braver now I guess.. regardless of my complaints and disappointment in life.. I am prepared for the pain at least before it comes now..LOL)
Started this blog because I see a need for myself to try out things in life.. yes.. time to pick up my feelings and move on.. time to change for the better.. I don't care about what I was like in the past. The most important thing is I want to change.. and it will be for the better.. will be learning cycling, photoshop and a bit of japanese(hope i get the module in new sem).. and yes.. I'll be searching up and down until I find my job... need it badly.. so pls? lobang pls jio.. hehe.. BIG THANKS..
A bit nervy typing my new online entry.. pardon my ....s
OK.. will be updating as frequently as I can! Thanks for taking your time to read my 1st entry..
