may 15, 2001
np: traffic jam on street outside
I think I've been writing far too many long and personal rants lately, so I'm not going
to let this degenerate into something of a similar nature. Managed to take a nap just now
after taking medicine - typing this on Niichan's laptop. How ironic is it that I had a
dream of five years back? No, I know I don't make sense, but. The way things are going I
almost feel too scared to pray. I've seen death instantaneously. I have no idea if I can
take a cat-and-mouse game.
Off to hit the books. Possibly I might not be on for the whole of this week, but it
depends.
And the silly thing is? If you asked me what was wrong, I'd tell you it's because my
stomach _hurts_ and I can't cry. Dammit, I need someone to hug me.
Kaelin played with birdies at 08:25 p.m..
may 9, 2001
np: REM -- Imitation Of Life (*looks at self and snorts*
>.>)
Tsukarete. >< Mainichi mainichi totemo isogashii kara chotto komatterun da. I
almost never have any breaks every day because they're eaten up by meetings and the like.
My stomach seems to be protesting, by the way it's been squeezing my innards of late.
*winces* Yes, Jing, I'm pathetically busy and I found two white hairs today, why d'you
ask? >< FWC coming up - PLEASE don't remind me. Please. I'd bury my head in the
sheets and howl, but I don't think I have energy for that. I shouldn't even *be* blogging.
>< Chem test tomorrow. Feh. I feel vaguely like continuing that Subby/Hisoka x-over,
but if I don't hit the books after I log off I'm gonna be in a shithole deeper than the
Grand Canyon. I feel SICK. Even *Jac's* sick (niichan-tachi thought she was a guy when she
called -_-).
Oyaji's been screaming at Aniki nonstop for the past week - ha ha ha? I personally
think Oyaji loves all of us too much - hell, Aniki's *25*. If he still can't begin getting
his own life into shape I don't see why Oyaji should bother beyond giving him some
paternal advice and rebuke. By 'advice' I don't mean forcing him to sit down at the table
and dictating his course of life to him, and by 'rebuke' I don't mean screaming until 3 in
the morning and having neighbours threatening to call 999, OR picking up a blazing hot
iron and aiming at Aniki's face. >_____<;;;;;; And of COURSE, when Oyaji's angry
everyone's in for it. And Kaasan still wonders why I've been coming home after 6 lately.
Niichan, of course, is out with kanojyo until night. Kaasan herself spends as much time in
the kitchen as is humanly possible, and I mostly lock myself up in the room and try to get
work done. Did I mention Oyaji almost threw the iron at me yesterday when he found out I
scored a B3 for my latest Physics CA instead of an A? What a family. What a school, too,
but I don't want to talk about that now.
As if things aren't bad enough, Kaasan got a long-distance call saying Grandma Eve came
down with pneumonia and was hospitalised yesterday. >_______<;;;;;;;;; what I
wouldn't give, what I wouldn't GIVE to fly over to London right now. She absolutely *had*
to go there to see her friend, of course. =_= And of course said friend *just* happened to
be ill, and of COURSE Grandma just had to nurse her and fall ill herself afterwards. Of
course. *rubs eyes tiredly* I'm praying - what else can I do? I think I'd really rather
have Auntie Flo visit now - my stomach would hurt less. >_- Oh, melodrama, of *course*,
but hell, who cares?
There are days when you honestly want to snarl, stick the middle finger up at the
barest mention of 'genki' and tell it to go find a nice dirty asshole to squeeze into.
There are days when NOTHING helps.
I'll get over it.
Kaelin played with birdies at 08:11 p.m..
may 6, 2001
np: Bruce Dickinson -- Tears Of The Dragon (Niichan did it again. H___h)
Apologies to everyone I was talking to on AIM today -- it hated me. >__<;;; And
Niichan (the one in the house) grabbed the PC after I got kicked off a second time, so I couldn't get on again.
Geh. Gwyyyyneee, if you're reading this, I need your phone number. XO I'm so sorry I
haven't been able to do anything this week.
I got selected to go for the World Youth Festival during August in Hokkaido by the
people at the foreign lang centre - ureshii na? ^^;; Apparently my interview worked out. I
thought I'd be ecstatic, but funnily I'm not all that excited as I thought I'd be. I AM
looking very much forward to it, though, especially since Oyaji finally agreed to let me
go without going to see the principal about it. *spits* >< Look. I didn't expect him
to be HAPPY, since it's during curriculum time. But - shit, forget it.
And if any Saiyuuki fans just happen to read this blog and don't know about the
existence of Jeanne-sama's fics, please go
here immediately. She took my breath away quite literally. You'll go if you know
what's good for you. XP One level up, click the /intaglio folder and you'll find the even
more scrumplicious and gripping lemons. Personal fave is the Sanzou x Gokuu/Hakkai x Gojou
and vice versa one. XD I admit to liking my boys prettified when they hump, but the almost
brutally matter-of-fact way she does things is every bit as wonderful and terribly
intense. If I could manage something a quarter as good as that some day in the future, I
don't know how happy I'd be. Pocky goes to neesama
for introducing me to her. ^_^
Tin-onee, the sentiments are most heartily reciprocated. *squeezes* ><
Kaelin played with birdies at 08:59 p.m..
may 1, 2001
np: Bjork -- It's Oh So Quiet
>.> I guess by now there are more than a few folks who've figured out this pita
was designed for 1024 res and up. >.> I know 'forgetting' to deisgn layouts in
800x600 res is no excuse, so - apologies to those who complained. *koff*waves at Pei Yi* I've tried to make it a little
easier to read in lower-res browsers, though. >.> Jing, I'm not going for the chat.
>_< a) I don't have anything to say to a bunch of girls who refuse to scream about
anything other than boybands, b) I don't WANT to say anything and escalate a boyband war,
because that's almost always what happens when I meet people like that, and c) I can think
of a million other, more productive ways to spend my time. Bud, I DO get antisocial. :/ I
feel neechama's pain, I do.
BBS: Gwynne, if you're reading this, check mail. ^^ Sakki-neechama: heart the freshest inked pages.
*leers* Oneesama, once again, thanks for both
the mails. *huuuuug* What I'd do without you, I have no idea. ^^; Erin-neechama, happy coming or belated birthday? *glomp*
And Mei-chan XD thanks for the link XD. I KNOW I need
the anime. Stop making me feel horrible. Niichan,
I think the snippets were *_* interesting, but I confess without shame that I'd really
rather you try to get more inspiration for CC&B. >_> Er.
Going to study for Jap mid-year. Possibly will not be on this weekend. >< Till I
next reappear.
Kaelin played with birdies at 07:32 p.m..
