april 01 2001
np: Billy Joel -- For The Longest Time (XD
XD)
I wonder why so many people on ff.net are referring
to By Moonlight as a Touya x YUKITO story. O_o;;;;;;;;
Leareth-san wrote the first english Tatsumi x
Tsuzuki fic I've seen on the net. XD Ureshii. It's excellent as always. Although I admit
that I was crushed when I read it because, away from fic writing for so long, I
started despairing of ever reaching her narrative standard. T_T I've got a really long way
to go. Saa. At least I *will* keep my resolution to write something for YnM other than
TxH. ^_^
Oniisama,
was wonderful talking to you today. ^_^ Thanks.
march 31 2001
np: Every Little Thing -- Graceful World
Missing Sports Day today. XDDD HAPPY. I LOVE being sick on days like this.
Mika-chan, I
sympathise that you had such nasty times, but I still take my stand the way it is because
things are totally different here. It's compulsory for every Chinese kid to have at least
a working knowledge of the mother tongue from kindergarten all the way to secondary
school, and it does make sense because this is a predominantly Chinese country in SE Asia
and the language has been in use since before we became independent. The people that
irritate me in question were educated in the thing from young in schools that taught us
_both_ English and Chinese, and have been exposed to both cultures, in school at any rate,
from the time they entered P1. I'm bugged because they keep ranting about something they
*can't help* -- their own roots. (i.e. "Why the hell wasn't I born in America?!"
"I wanna migraaaateee!" "Chinese sucks, man!" "Do you think Nick
will like me, I mean, fuck, I don't have BLONDE HAIR!") They don't get treated badly
for being Chinese, guy-girl discrimination in schools is practically nonexistent here, and
the bottom line is I'm irritated because they keep complaining to me about something that
is a *necessity*. Everyone *else* with yellow skin is doing the same thing they are, what
the hell do they have to complain about? They just think it isn't *cool* to like Chinese
stuff. Which I refuse to comment on, but S'pore being the way it is, you use the mother
tongue and dialects to communicate a LOT in everyday life. There's no escaping it.
Therefore, why hate it and make yourself so miserable, right?
The people who rant, I notice, are almost always the
so-called smart ones in SAP schools who come from English-speaking families. And I'm not
saying that every Chinese kid in S'pore hates Chinese, just to clarify with Chan-ko. It's
just a distressing phenomenon, if you will, that I see spreading every year I grow older
among the people around me. And it makes me sad. That's all. But if they WANT to make
themselves discontented and pissed, fine. I'm happy the way I am. XPv Please keep in mind,
however, that I am tired and sleepy right now and am in no mood to start any discussion
wars with anyone who might just happen to feel like replying to this. I'm just having a
mini rant of my own, not making a statement about something I can't change, and I know
there're prolly a lot of pitholes in my opinion. *shrug* Nemui.
Sakki-neechama....:3333
I wub you to pieces, you knooow thaaat? XD XD XD XD And now Erin-neechan owes me that Pregnant Fic too. Ureshii na.
march 30 2001
np: Bonnie Tylor -- Total Eclipse Of The Heart
Mood swings. >< *crushes Coke can*
Wrote a really long rant about Oyaji that I decided
not to post after all. I'm mostly over it now, and it wouldn't have done any good anyway.
At least I caught Sakki-neechan and Neesama and Nat-chan
on today. I'll be ficcing tomorrow. Daa. *waves to Mika-chan and Erin-neechama* I miss you
both. XO
Went out with a few RG pals today after target prac,
was all ¬_¬ about their I-hate-learning-Chinese rants. Come on, folks...no matter how
good your English is or how much you hate learning Chinese, the fact still remains that we
have yellow skin and black hair and that our ancestors came from China. Instead of griping
so much about the language and merrily telling everyone you suck at it, why not at least
make an *effort* to learn something you can't deny? *I* am ashamed of the fact that
S'pore, despite being something like the second country in the world where 70+% of the
population are Chinese, has so many of its youths ignoring their heritage. I'm not saying
I'm excellent in my mother tongue or that I like Beijing opera or anything, but I WILL say
that I enjoy becoming more fluent in it as the years pass. I enjoy speaking it, I don't
mind writing it, and I don't mind knowing more about my roots. I'm proud of where I come
from, and I personally think that makes me a lot more happier than whining and moaning
about something I can't change and wanting to migrate. Haiyah. Talk about bloody 'wu bing
shen yin', why don't you? >< It's been bugging me for an awfully long time.
And I went to visit him yesterday after all...but I
didn't cry....sheesh...there was nothing to cry about anyway, I guess. It's been five
years. Hm.
Tin-oneeee.....I
still haven't gotten your mail....is there any possibility of a re-send? T.T Catsy-niisama, thanks for linking me and for
installing AIM. *niko-glomp* I really hope things improve for you soon and you get to go.
Talk to you later, huh?
march 21 2001
np: Ordinary World - Duran Duran
*laughs* Chris-san, thanks very much for that honest and unvarnished opinion of
my Yami fics. I'm flattered - I personally don't think much of any of them. I admit
they're all nothing more than pathetic attempts to be hopelessly WAFFy while preparing for
exams last year. XD; I'm trying for a darkfic now, think it'll work out? Woo-hoo. Hmm.
TsuzukixHisoka too sweet? Maybe. Probably. Probably more than probably. XDv But what the
heck. I just love them. ^_^ I don't caaaare. Even if I'm the only one campaigning for them
(and I'm NOT *leers at Thea-neesama*) I'll still be fiiicciing....XD XD Oh wait, I *do*
want to try a Tatsumi fic too. ^_^ And a WakabaxTerazuma bonding-thing, and perhaps a
Tatsumi/Hisoka introspective thing, but we'll see. (Ying is screaming for OriyaxMuraki,
but I'm ignoring her). And please don't remind me of the Muraki/Sei-chan thing that's
trying to kill me. >< Kyoudai, gomen na, but I don't think I'll be contributing any
Evil for some time to come. I don't have the bleeding TIME too. >__<
Meeeei-chaaaan,
don't worry, I'll ALWAYS support the Taito pairing. TOT And if you find me some more
Pretty DaiKen CGs, I will love you forEVAH. *cackles* (oh, and help me bug Jin for more DK fics deshou? XD XD) Charlene hon, happy belated tanjoubi!
Val-san,
I'm glad you consider my fic to at least succeed in attempting to let Touya love Yue for
himself and not just because of Yuki (^^;), but I do think that it's quite impossible for
Touya not to think of Yue as anything other than 'Yuki's alter ego' at first. Because he
didn't even know Yue or *see* him until that touching scene in tank 9 (don't know where
the anime tallies); how could he truly feel for the Judgement Maker? Attracted, yes.
Intrigued, yes. In love, I don't think so. Not *yet*. XD And besides, Yuki is still the
person most dear to him at that point in time. Touya being Touya, he wouldn't rush to
develop his feelings for anyone else, be it Yuki's alter ego or a spider, in that way. I
tried to focus By Moonlight on a slightly more Yue POV thing, because, I dunno, I just
think Yue would be the one to fall first. XD (although I consider Leareth-san to have done
a much more excellent job of the T/Y/Yue relationship, mochiron ^_^ *gazes in awe at
SoTM*) Demo shimpai shinaide, I definitely will be continuing the development of Touya and
Yue in Resolution. When I'll be able to finish that, I have absolutely no idea. XDvv
Tsuzuki has to stop screeching first. >_> Atashi no jinsei, itsumo nayami ga aru
naa.
School is hectic. >< But I'm fairly
happy...and I've got friends I can trust...yeah....I *am* happy, I guess. Hopefully I'll
*stay* happy... ^^; I really don't like being cynical, but there you go. XD; Bwar. Lord
see me through the A Maths CA tomorrow. Logs? Surds? >_____>
march 16 2001
np: Marie Frank -- Symptom Of My Time
So NP camp is over. *shrugs* I refuse to comment
overly much; I'm still a little strung up as it is. I only know it could have gone better.
Experience being a hard teacher and all that crap, I just hope everyone learned something.
-_-
Mei-chan,
kawaisou na. *hugs* I think I empathise; there are lots of people in my co-curricular
activity and class who act something like that too. The difference is that I'm not
_friends_ with them. *makes face* But they bitch and whine and snarl about all the shit
they think they're facing and blame the people in authority for every little bloody thing
that goes wrong. They never, ever realise that said people in authority are incapable of
changing things without them being willing to help OR that they really canNOT do
*anything* without express approval from the teachers-in-charge, etc. =__= Like, SHEESH.
Cheer up, ne? I'm sure you're doing you're best as club prez, and leave unreasonable
people alone if they won't change. <.<
Tin-onee,
*HUG* check your redrival addy.
Sakki-neechan,
Oneesama....*spasms* ohdearGOD I love you both SO
much I'm seriously freaking out *noooow*......XD XD XD XD Suffice be it to say that I saw
*everything* both of you have done the past few days. XD And it's OH. SO. GORGEOUS.
Natalie-chaaan--- *trill* see you in jap class next
week? ^_- Wuv ya. Thanks for the, uh, publicity. XD;
march 14 2001
np: Midnight Ure -- Breathe
Oh, Oneesama?
*angelic niko* Whoever said I planned on opposing thy Respected Benevolence?
I just write 'em as I sees 'em. XD
But really, no matter what I told Sakki-neechan just now, I won't be having time to
write more anytime soon *glances at Mei-chan
significantly*, so you get full rein to Play with the Boys while I muddle around in the
bogs of education. =___=;;;; *weeps* Have fun. And I'm still waiting for 1) White Day 2)
Drunk Satoshi 3) Hisoka and 4) KradxSatoshi
XD Life. Is. Gooooood.
Back to camp. >.> Urgh. Shi-chan will now go
bye-bye until Friday night, not that she hasn't been bye-bye for the past few days anyway.
march 11 2001
np: V6 -- You'll Be In My Heart (and let it
be said that this version is infinitely preferable to the Phil-geezer's one)
I do not have a life, because school sucks up free
time like a black hole. I hereby announce that I will spend *four* ********** days of my
precious one week hols. in school camping (i.e. helping out with the &^%$# primary
girls' camp and doing the campfire for my juniors) overnight. >_< Tetsu-kun, got
your mail. I'm so glad you want to visit S'pore again. Let me know when you do, ne?
......I'm used to this, really. All I can say is
that it's lucky Meg-oneesama's envelope dropped into the mail yesterday, or I might have
been charged with culpable homicide. *deathhugs neesama*
One thing I do *not* get about my Lovely Dahling
Schoolmates.....hell. People. I know you have your own lives. I know you think school is a
drag. I know you think rules are fricking useless and were made to be broken. I know you
think teachers are shitty and that they don't have any fucking RIGHT to scold you for
doing your own thing, dammit, but have some sense. Have a BRAIN, have some self-restraint
and discipline, because life canNOT be lived the way you're going now and you will DIE in
a mixed-sex JC. You'll only end up hurting yourselves if you keep going around flaunting
your preferences and your underwear, sweet heaven preserve us all. =_= Of course you're
not going to listen to me, but is it fair, is it *rational* to say two young female
teachers are les just because they happen to CARE about your not getting into deeper shit
than you can handle and have the courage to enforce discipline? (.....>___<)
Grin and bear my environment, that's all I can say.
I'm a prude to a certain degree, so what? I happen to actually respect (some) of my elders
and betters, so what? I happen to take PRIDE in my uniform and heritage, does that make me
weird? Because if so, so be it. I don't mind.
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