april 28, 2001
np: Anggun -- Rose In The Wind
Nat-chan. If you read this, my hugs and sympathy go
out to you and your PC *_*; I won't say anything else, but hey, dear, keep your chin up
and smile? I've missed you these weeks - 3rd lang just isn't the same without you. XO Best
of luck for your mid-years, and just call me if you need anything? Same goes to Charlene-hon for her own exams. *glomp*
Kaelin played with birdies at 07:18 p.m..
april 28, 2001
np: Sting/Rod Stewart/Bryan Adams -- All For Love (prettypretty ^^)
I have undergone the bearings, theory and half the practical for my 2nd Class foot
drills badge, she proclaims. No comment. Jas, if you made ten mistakes, I made so many I
can't count them. >< Let's continue working towards *next* week, shall we? BTW,
apologies to anyone who might have seen 'me' come on AIM and immediately log off. Oniichan
was on for most of this week. Ting, ima daijoubu yo. Shimpai shinaide, ne? I really don't
care what everyone else thinks, honestly. I was brought up to ask questions whenever I'm
in doubt, and I sure as hell am not going to change just because people who sleep through
class think I'm playing at polishing apples. *shrugs* We only have like a year and a half
more at most, why not just stick it out best as we can? Huh. *deathsqueezes squadmates*
I am wondering. How terrible a daughter I am sometimes. I know I don't do Oyaji
justice; most times I rant about him here are when I'm hot-off-the-iron furious and don't
stop to think. There were so many times when I needn't have snapped, when I needn't have
rolled eyes or turned away, and I *did* say sorry but I know a part of the damage is
irreversible. What scares me is that I can't seem to stop this cycle of hate-ignore. I
don't even like to see him anymore at the end of the day when he comes back or when he
comes to pick me up with Kaasan, even if I realise I should be grateful to know he loves
me. ><; I want to get away for a while, but that's impossible. I'm so freaking
worried that *something* will happen to make me come to my senses, and thinking of Oyaji's
stomach ulcers and high blood pressure it isn't likely to be pretty. I don't EVER want to
lose my parents to anything other than old age. I don't make sense? Obviously, since this
is only a part of it. There are many times when I'm grateful no one on the council knows
about this pita.
And maybe someone's right, and a lot of other folk experience this hate-but-not-hate,
dislike-but-don't-want-to-lose feeling and it's probably just a bad case of PMS for me,
but....nevermind. >< I'm going to sleep. Physics test Monday - pray for me?
Kaelin played with birdies at 05:35 p.m..
april 22, 2001
np: Boyz II Men -- Four Seasons Of Loneliness
Some BBS before I log off and betake myself to my maiden chamber for some (IMHO) well-deserved slumber: Sakki-neechan, do you know HOW much I love you? *points to illust29 and wipes nose* Kyaa. Oneesama-tachi, I hope you're having Fun with Oniichan, because I'm still wishing I was there. T_T Ying, for the LAST TIME, the only way you will see me write a DarrenxDaniel is if you kill me and force a spirit into my body to make my hand write. Have you studied for the Maths test on Tuesday yet, dear? *niko-twitch*
Erin-neechama: WAI! *points to Noin fic and glomps*
And. *sighs* Jac, yoku wakatteru yo. What do you want me to say? I've nursed both my aniki through broken relationships more than once, and I know how hard it can get for the person initiating the breakup to tell the other, especially the guy and especially if the other doesn't *want* to part. But your bro shouldn't let this go on too long - I'm sure he knows he'll find it harder to tell her the longer he waits. I really wouldn't advise him to do it by proxy, but you know him better than I do. It's always good to be short, sweet and simple IMO - save both sides more pain. I'll pray for the best anyway, because I give her my respect and affection, and I know how much you care for your bro. Good luck, man.
Zzz. Night.
Kaelin played with birdies at 09:47 p.m..
april 22, 2001
np: Deep Blue Something -- Breakfast At Tiffany's
Okay, the layout works. XD HAPPY. It looks like absolute crap, but it *works*! I hope Sakki-neechan forgives me for ruining her lovely
picture. *points to right* Yes, Kae-chan is a boy. Yes, he's pretty. Yes, I love him and
so should you. XD XD XD Time to hit the books now - shukudai ga takusan takusan aru.
Ashita mo tesuto wo ukenakute wa ikenai, mou *yada* yo. >< (demo ima jikan ga nai
tte atashi no sei ja nai ka? ^^;) Sore mo...Charleeeenee-chaaaaaan!!!
XO Hanakimi 9's out already?! Where'd you buy it from?!
Dewa, bye 'till nest weekend? ^^; I'm going to be really busy this week. Kyoudai-tachi,
kiotsukete ne! *HUGS*
Kaelin played with birdies at 06:39 p.m..
april 22, 2001
Test, test, test....I feel like I should be holding a mike. O_<
Kaelin played with birdies at 06:21 p.m..
