~PSYCHOMMUNITY~
State of mind: ... 
The past is the past... There is no point dwelling on it. And no one has the right to call people names, point fingers and all, when one has no idea what is going on. Meaningful story below.
Hope it helps some other "little monks" out there too:
Once upon a time, a big monk and a little monk were traveling together. They came to the bank of a river and found the bridge was damaged. They had to wade across the river.
There was a pretty lady who was stuck at the damaged bridge and couldn't cross the river. The big monk offered to carry the pretty lady across the river on his back. The lady accepted.
The little monk was shocked by the move of the big monk. "How can big disciple brother carry a lady when we are supposed to avoid all intimacy with females?" thought the little monk. But he kept quiet.
The big monk carried the lady across the river and the small monk followed unhappily. When they had crossed the river, the big monk let the lady down and they parted ways with her.
All along the way for several miles, the little monk was very unhappy with the act of the big monk. He was making up all kinds of accusations about the big monk in his head. This got him madder and madder. But he still kept quiet. And the big monk had no inclination to explain his situation.
Finally, at a rest point many hours later, the little monk could not stand it any further, he burst out angrily at the big monk. "How can you claim yourself a devout monk, when you seize the first opportunity to touch a female, especially when she is very pretty? All your teachings to me make you a big hypocrite."
The big monk looked surprised and said, "I had put down the pretty lady at the river bank many hours ago, how come you are still carrying her along?"
This very old Chinese zen story reflects the thinking of many people today.
We encounter many unpleasant things in our life, they irritate us and they make us angry. Sometimes, they cause us a lot of hurt, sometimes they cause us to be bitter or jealous. But like the little monk, we are not willing to let them go away. We keep on carrying the baggage of the "pretty lady" with us. We let them keep on coming back to hurt us, make us angry, make us bitter and cause us a lot of agony.
Why? Simply because we are not willing to put down or let go of the baggage of the "pretty lady". We should let go of the pretty lady immediately after crossing the river, immediately after the unpleasant event is over. This will immediately remove all our agonies. There is no need to be further hurt by the unpleasant event after it is over. It is just that simple.
akane's eye was licked at 09:56 a.m. Wednesday, July 30, 2003
State of mind: ^_^
My hide piccy is being used on the notice board for JMD~ YAY~ Didn't know about it till Lunar told me he saw it. Didn't have time to go take a look after the CLub Crawl... WILL go down to the notice board today ^__^
Right... 6 hours break later... And then night class -.-
Mum refused to give extra allowance despite of that too -.-
Time to starve myself to death...
akane's eye was licked at 08:26 a.m. Monday, July 28, 2003
State of mind: ¬_¬
Friday: The quest for Zat's hat was fun. Especially after Stamford, Chibi and Satomi mama joined in. Dinner at Long John Silver's was *insert crap, toliet humor, gay jokes about Sensei, Takeshi and Dickson* and we left after sensing something was amiss (lots of policemen appeared from no where)
JMD Orientation: Found out Dingyuan and I share the same taste in music... AND GUITAR XD
Sentosa trip: Left all alone to wait for Stamford at the station -.- Was rather disappointed that Gypsy Queen did mostly cover songs -.- But the keyboards guy and the saxaphone gal was way cool ^_^
On our way back, Zat and Donny crapped about cars... then ramen. Fellowship of The Ramen (Fellowship of the Ring), Lord of The Ramen (Lord of the Ring), Harry Potter and The Ramen (self explainatory), Ramen King (Shaman King), Ramen:Impossible (Mission:Impossible) "All for RA and RA for MEN!" "There will be Ramen handphones! And the ringtone is RAMENRAMENRAMENRAMENRAMEN!"... And they sang loudly on the NE Line to tune of the Heinekien beer ad "I LOVE YOU RAMEN~" *insert many pairs of eyes staring at them*
So... Yeah... And I lack sleep...
akane's eye was licked at 12:17 p.m. Sunday, July 27, 2003
State of mind: duu yuu supiiku Japaniisu?
The remarks for the quiz is... ^^;;; And listening to 96.3fm right now isn't quite helping, ne?? ^^;
Hai, took a quiz out of boredom and the result's remarks (which is not done by me... it's the quiz maker's works), if you can't make them out, I english-fied it for you:
You must speak JAPANESE or you won't be happy as all the other Anime-characters around you! ^^
Hai, sou desu yo! Yuu masuto supiiku JAPANESE ooru
yuu wontu bii happi asu ooru de adda Anime-
kyarakutaasu araundo yuu! ^^
What language are you supposed to speak?
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akane's eye was licked at 09:09 a.m. Thursday, July 24, 2003
State of mind: random
Took a quiz... Hmm... True...
You're a Lunar Dragon. You prefer to stay secluded
from the rest of the world. You have few
friends, but those you have grow close. Love,
to you, is in the night. You look to the moon
for guidance and the stars for luck. The Lunar
Dragon feels comfortable in the cloak of
darkness, but you must learn to slowly step out
into the light.
What kind of Dragon are You?
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akane's eye was licked at 08:31 p.m. Saturday, July 19, 2003
State of mind: ^_^
A spider came visiting last night. In real life that is. Normally when I see spiders I will run away or something, but I wasn't scared of him last night, even though he was quite big. Guess I know who he is, that's why. Yeah he scared me abit when he appeared out of no where and I wasn't wearing my glasses in the bathroom -.-
When I put on my glasses and took a closer look, I swear, he waved a hi. His right first leg was waving! Cuteness...
akane's eye was licked at 09:06 a.m. Friday, July 18, 2003
State of mind: headache headache headache!!~
Club Crawl is over... having headache halfway thru the event and is still having headache now... And yep, as expected, YanXia went "I LIIIIIKE!!!~" while staring at me (my ears... MY HEAD...) and that keitaro "cosplayer" bugged Itsuki and Sakana quite alot too... And BITCH turned up at the booth. Bwargh. Didn't bother me that much tho XD Hey, that bitch don't own the place, so there. And... that pig -_-;;; Why can't he leave me alone... I literally have the "go away before I hurt you" look on my face when he came my way... bwargh...
Those aside... Chibi joined in the Para Para dance halfway thru the performance... In his bloody (literally) uniform XD kawaii! Su-chan cheer cheer also kawaii... demo... say got fly but never fly... *disappointed* Me wanna see flying neko desu~ XD
Want the planner~ This year's version is niiiice~ ^_^
And... Whoever said the person whom I call dad can touch my kix? *cursing fit*
Bleah... off to bed I go... Headache bad bad bad bad bad...
akane's eye was licked at 09:53 p.m. Wednesday, July 16, 2003
State of mind: ittekimasu
Boku wo mammote kudasi ne
akane's eye was licked at 07:08 a.m. Tuesday, July 15, 2003
State of mind: -_- ZzZz
I am still at the office... and business is quite slow for a weekend... up till now, I got 1 BB sign up lol... Waiting for the foreign carrot to come back then I get 2 sign ups today :D
that foreign carrot went to check his bank a/c number...
Today is a multi lingual-day lol... Spoke English, Cantonese and Chinese today. Been a while since I talk so many languages in a day lol... Candice say I can start to stock check soon, if biz is still so slow... Ah nya... Back to rotting...
akane's eye was licked at 07:21 p.m. Saturday, July 12, 2003
State of mind: tired~~
Still on a quest to find a supermarket where I can stuff myself in a shopping cart and raid the cereal section and eat my kix in the mess. AKA hide's Misery PV. XD
I am so tired... Got work tomorrow. Haven't buy hair spray... Oh yeah, have to run down to Lavender during my 4 hour break on Monday XD
And I really gotta stop playing this "Small Version VS Big Version" thingy with my Sethy plushie. Must keep the clothes in my wardrobe already. If I keep it hanging on my wardrobe door, I can't resist playing this "Small Version VS Big Version" thing.
akane's eye was licked at 08:08 p.m. Friday, July 11, 2003
State of mind: HoLiDaYs! XD
Why am I at home? Coz, it's an odd week and my wednesdays and thursdays are off days on odd weeks. And I just noticed that yesterday. Stupid odd/even week thing is freakin' confusing but yeah, I don't mind the prolonged holidays XD
DANA~~~ COME OVER TO SINGAPORE DAMMIT!
akane's eye was licked at 07:56 a.m. Thursday, July 10, 2003
State of mind: BWARGH
Blogging from work... Just wolfed down (read: swallowed) my lunch... Clifford went for his break... AND I WANT CANDICE BACK!
Reason 1:
CLIFFORD IS A PIG! A BIG SLOPPY PIG! He leaves his HALF EATEN breakfast OPEN and ON TOP of the photocopy machine! And I have to find a nice spot to put his stupid half eaten shit somewhere. HELL, he even spilt his coffee on the paper~~!!!
And during my lunch break, where I use the store room to eat, he fuxxin left his trash there where I almost SAT on it! Have he heard of a thing called the TRASH CAN?! If he is lazy to even walk to the one outside the office, there is one below the counter god dammit!
Reason 2:
Whoever said Candice is naggy? Sure, abit naggy, BUT CLIFFORD IS GOD DAMN LONG WINDED OK!? I DID go thru everything with the customer but Clifford said I didn't and I sat thru his preaching TWICE! Is he hearing impaired?! Seriously, I'd rather have Ricky back in here!! At least he and Candice are fun to be with...
DIE CLIFFORD! KILL CLIFFORD! *knifes paper doll made from brochures*
akane's eye was licked at 02:57 p.m. Wednesday, July 9, 2003
State of mind: why me??? T-T
Gym finally opened after the long SARS closure ^.^
Was walking out from the gym when I heard para para music blasting from the aerobics room and took a peek in. Yep~ I was right... Jaeson and Zat inside. Jaeson opened the door and let me in ^^;;
THEN... YanXia came... This is only the beginning of my nightmare...
She started to ask me about cosplay -_-
Then squealed she wanna do it too (as USUAL) -__-
Squealed abit louder when she found out I was supposed to cosplay yesterday -___-
Squealed FULL BLAST when she knew who I was supposed to cosplay yesterday -____-|||
Can someone, ANYONE, keep her AWAY from me during club crawl?! (I fear for my safety AND sanity)
... Oh shit... That Keitaro "cosplayer"/full-time bugger told me yesterday that he got into NYP SIT... Can Stamford come back? At least for the club crawl?!
WHY MEEEEE~~~~ *cries*
akane's eye was licked at 09:19 p.m. Monday, July 7, 2003
State of mind: blessed
He's watching. I recieved alot of blessings in disguise today. Yes, it's a good thing I didn't cosplay today.
Two bands ought to be thankful that I was by the door, so I can just walk out and not by the empty booth or I would have hurled chairs upstage. They know who they are XD
And, I found out that I start school on.... THURSDAY! BWAHAHAA~ *enjoys prolonged holidays*
Biiiiiiiiiiiiiidaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
akane's eye was licked at 10:12 p.m. Sunday, July 6, 2003
State of mind: giving up
Before I started cosplay, sure, my room is post World War Infinity, but the country can still be rebuilt.
Ever since I started cosplay, my room is beyond redemption. I tried! Nothing works! So yeah, I'm living in the rubbles...
And I really hate waking up to chores early in the morning. Waking up to see mum on her PC then telling me to do stuff and ADDING more stuff as I do them is not my idea of a "good morning"...
akane's eye was licked at 08:20 a.m. Friday, July 4, 2003
State of mind: drained
I find this amusing:
When I didn't wear the NYP T-shirt (the black one), no one does. And when I wear it (today) I see one person wearing it in every corner of the campus. Something is not right.
And for once, I don't wanna be myself and let the people know that if they don't help themselves, no one can help them. Sure, I always try my very best to help if you ask me, and if you don't appreciate it, fine, I never asked for anything in return anyway. But get this: don't come up to me and ask me to clean up your pile of shit when you screw yourself up and didn't even least helped yourself when I already did alot to help you. I've had enough from the past experience already, and I hate it when history repeats itself.
akane's eye was licked at 06:52 p.m. Wednesday, July 2, 2003
State of mind: FWAH~
I got bandscores for FREE~
F.R.E.E!!!!!!!!!
WAAAAAAAAAH~~ hide and X bandscores~~~~
F.R.E.E!!!!!!!!
Yeah, I still can't read music yet, but WHO CARES! I GOT THEM! FWEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
Candice allow me to leave at 7pm~ Yippie yippie yay~
akane's eye was licked at 01:43 p.m. Monday, June 30, 2003
State of mind: I HATE SUNDAYS
I like my new keyboard ^_^
IT'S QUIET! Finally~ No more annoying "click click click" sounds XD
Yeah... Been out, came back, mood foiled and all... But whatever... I will continue my Novel in a while.
And it just dawned upon me... Last week... I was seen in a dress while the pants were being altered...
*jumps into bottomless pit*
akane's eye was licked at 12:57 p.m. Sunday, June 29, 2003
State of mind: zzzzzzzz
Mum got me a new multimedia keyboard. So I can give her my current multimedia keyboard :P
I hope the keys for the new keyboard are quiet. I cannot stand the clicking sounds from my current one when I type >_<
I got alot of stuff to throw in my 1st press novel to Dana-chan... Yes a novel of a letter... I can't believe I wrote A BOOK within 3 days while my uncompleted stories (not fan fics -_-;) are growing ginsengs in my HD for kami-sama knows how long.
akane's eye was licked at 07:20 p.m. Saturday, June 28, 2003
State of mind: zz
zzz... one sleeve longer than the other... I spot mistakes one by one instead of all at once... baka...
Why are some people so damn close minded? All people are free to speak what they want, no one can take away that right. Makes me wanna slap... ah whatever... doesn't involve me anyway... But still, these people just plain sux. A frog in the well, they are, and I pity them, somehow...
akane's eye was licked at 09:38 p.m. Friday, June 27, 2003
State of mind: hmm...
I don't get it sometimes... A whiney bitch calling other people bitches. Yeah, sometimes reading articles amuse me. Someone ought to slap the hell out of the writer XD *throws article away*
Hmm... Getting more and more half hearted for the Cosfest. Think I'll just concentrate on the Club Crawl only. And pass the stupid modules grrrn...
akane's eye was licked at 08:29 a.m. Friday, June 27, 2003
State of mind: oh yeah
I am repeating both the stupid modules next semester. Go me. Sometimes I really wonder... WHAT AM I DOING?! Since I hate it so much, pass it and get it done! But you see, I hate it so I slack. He is going to be mad I'm sure...
Righty... The waist of my dress needs adjusting... Need to go see when I plan my timetable for next semester too. Damn the school...
akane's eye was licked at 08:02 a.m. Thursday, June 26, 2003
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