Monday, September 29, 2008, 06:35 p.m.
slept till 12pm.
awakened by the irritating neighbour.
unpacked.
rushed the blog post (thanks joanna!)
uploaded the voice recording.
edited the volume.
still refused to go to the forum for updates.
will only update tomorrow when i feel slightly better.
havent uploaded my photos yet.
still reluctant to face reality.
or rather, still unable to bring myself to be reminded of something.
the zero self-esteem part of me is back.
everything i do and say is wrong.
云顶其实并不太冷。
不过也许那是因为当时，
没有比自己内心更冷的东西。
心灰意冷。
photos will come when i feel like it.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
人生，一向来都是一个得与失的方程式。当一个人得到比应得
的更多的事情时，他所失去的未必会有很明确的告示。反之，
当一个人失去自己觉得应得的事情时，他所得到的，也许自己
从未能察觉。皆因，人类都会把得失看得太重，而忽略自己在
失去后所获得的事情。
深信“乐极生悲”这句话，并极力避免它的降临。然而，人算
不如天算。在一刹那间，觉得这一切似是个错误。突然觉得自
己无法融入大家的处事及生活方式，非常格格不入。曾在想化
解此事时，总欠缺极大的勇气与自信。得到什么，失去什么，
说真的，自己也不知道。有时会质疑自己的决定是否正确，然
而，若将人生的每一步都盘算得那么仔细，算尽得与失，这还
算是人生吗？
或许应该学习如何放低，如何忘记得失的重要性。又或者，应
该学习将得失看得一点也不重要。但是，若得失不重要，那么
人生还有意义吗？
真的好想痛快的流淚。
Saturday, September 27, 2008
0230: woke up, got ready
0315: went downstairs, boarded cab with bn and germaine
0400: reached bugis mac
0410: kelvin lim arrived
0425: mac's breakfast started
0440: subrina and sherin arrived
0445: meiying and shiying arrived
0500: jerlyn arrived
0530: lydia arrived
0545: tiffany arrived
0615: walked towards bus terminal, xiaodi arrived
0645: bus departed
0900: reached restoran kim guan
0930: departed restoran kim guan
1345: reached first world bus terminal
1415: reached theme park hotel
1430: checked in and went to room
1440: rested for a while, fiddled with the tv
1530: ate lunch at marrybrown
1600: went first world plaza and walked around aimlessly
1730: went back to hotel to change
1815: left hotel, waited for others
1845: eventually left the hotel
1900: mingled outside arena, saw other fans arrived
1915: wondered why we were still standing outside aimlessly
1930: still pondered why we were still standing there like idiots and decided we should all go in NOW
1935: took DAMN long to get everyone in place for a group photo because everyone was scattered, buying lightsticks, whistles, cds, and frequenting the toilet
1945: finally inside and was quite pissed with the ushers for refusing to return the ticket stubs
2000: realised i forgot to bring mousey down , darn
2010: SHOW MI AGAIN!
2015: 唯獨你是不可取替
2025: 放不低
2030: 愛情萬歲
2035: 默契
2045: 浪花一朵朵
2050: 如果你有事
2055: 回來我身邊
2100: 長恨歌
2105: 捉迷藏
2110: 愛是... (wilfred lau's rap sucks; MC仁 still the best)
2115: 會過去的
2120: wilfred's two songs, shiying came to crash at VIP from her PS4 seat
2130: power medley: 星「秀」傳說/ 獨家試唱/ 非男非女/ 發熱發亮/ 小心女人/ 螢光粉紅/ 神奇女俠/ 煞科
2145: Chotto等等
2150: intro band
2200: 叮噹
2205: shouted encore
2210: 我們的主題曲
2215: 不拖不欠
2220: 少女的祈禱
2225: 約定
2230: 天黑黑/ 花火
2240: 握手時間: 感情線上/ 出界
2250: fan #1: 值得
2300: fan #2: 親密關係 (the notorious BoBo, and i cant believe that as a mifan, she doesnt know how to sing 親密關係 and still requested to sing it)
2305: 親密關係 (Mi purposely sang it again because the previous time the notorious BoBo wasnt singing at all)
2310: 終身美麗
2320: end of SHOW MI AGAIN, rushed to the side stage, whole bunch of fans sang 捨不得你 and Arigatou, but no show
2330: went to the behind the stage, guards said Mi left but fans refused to believe
2340: finally decided to leave, met felicia
2350: walked towards first world plaza's mac
0000: rested at mac
0030: SMART team told us Mi was eating at highlands hotel
0045: rushed and reached highlands hotel, waited
0100: waited
0115: waited
0130: waited, getting annoyed by a certain someone
0200: Mi came down by the escalator, rushed towards her, asked if she remembered the tee, she nodded her head and smiled, slightly shook her hand, Mi left in the car
0201: Mi's car turned a big bend from highlands hotel to genting hotel which was just beside each other
0210: headed back to hotel
0220: reached hotel, rested
0300: mahjong for one round
0330: rested and emo-ed
0400: got ready and left hotel
0430: reached genting hotel, waited
0500: waited
0530: waited, 3 other groups of fans arrived
0600: waited
0630: decided not to wait anymore, left
0700: crashed
0800: woke up, washed up
0830: got ready, packed
0845: waited
0900: waited
0915: walked to first world plaza for breakfast, very undecided
0930: breakfast
1000: bus terminal
1015: boarded bus, departed
1500: lunch break at kim guan again
1545: continued journey
1700: reached jb checkpoint, stupid driver forgot about xiaodi's cousin and friend
1710: reached singapore checkpoint
1730: bus left for bugis, some remained at woodlands
1740: waited for 912
1800: 912 arrived
1830: reached home
1850: dinner with family and botak sailo
1930: F1 grand prix
2100: bathed
2200: idled in front of the computer, refusing to go to the forum to see any updates
0000: crashed
Friday, September 26, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONGJIE!
stayed home.
packed bags.
slept early but couldnt sleep.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
cut my hair.
bought a cheap voice recorder.
returned the equipment today.
went jurong point to mail the money for my needing you picture book.
omg ts was selling a herbalist affair, a matter of customs and hope for sale!
YAY!!
i bought these 3 shows without hesitation because they are so darn cheap!
i have the burnt versions of these 3 shows but now i have the originals!
im currently thinking of replacing all my burnt discs with the originals.
but still waiting for the prices to drop.
the ts staff said those were their leftover stocks when they still had the distribution rights for these soft-case series.
of course there were other series but i only bought those that i really want.
was contemplating to get the trust of a lifetime but i wonder if i would rewatch it to make it worth my money.
shall KIV that for the time being.
exchanged money and bought 20 batteries.
bought a box file to store my LED.
bought a pair of cheapo shoes.
am still thinking if i should buy a cheapo voice recorder.
all the microtracks were loaned out by the GOFAR people.
le sigh.
this recess week ive been out every day.
fyp, show mi again, housework, revisions.
on a brighter note, the album and tee have arrived in hk yesterday!!
washing my tee tomorrow.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
went to test shoot from 11am to 5pm.
someone from hk yahoo auctions was actually selling the coveted aviator at HK850 with degree.
which is 3 times cheaper than in stores and UK, excluding degree.
but alas! he doesnt have the colour i want.
good. i can save money.
Monday, September 22, 2008
went to collect the location release form.
then went to tampines with the intention of collecting magazines, but the lady boss was away on holiday.
bought the rubik's revenge 4X4X4 and i havent solve it yet.
went bugis junction and plaza sing to shop.
and went to park mall to take more pamphlets.
i have been watching pure 19 on youtube for the past few days.
so nice~ haha.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
rested at home in the morning.
went to esplanade to watch the cco concert with yy, ling and boon.
i still prefer the chuida version of long teng.
and the encore was disappointing.
otherwise the concert was still quite okay.
this is a relatively easy concert for the suonas because they had very little parts.
the major parts were settled by ding-ye.
丁爷万岁！
Saturday, September 20, 2008
met germaine to go to defu lane.
collected the tees.
went amk hub to shop and eat.
sherin came.
bingnan arrived.
all four went to bugis after buying citta bella and after mailing the album and tee.
xiaodi reached.
went to collect the LEDs.
waited for kelvin lim.
went rochor to find lightsticks but to no avail.
before kelvin lim left, we bought batteries to test the LEDs to determine the colours.
all worked except kelvin lim's blue LED.
so he made a move first without his LED and i kind of blamed myself for not checking first before leaving the shop.
5 of us headed to kino but no magazines.
went coffee bean to wait for the rest, and i went to buy batteries for myself, and used them to test kelvin lim's LED.
IT WORKED!!!
i was so glad.
the lousy shitass batteries made in you-know-where.
everyone should trust only energiser batteries made in singapore!
tiffany, jerlyn and lydia came and we crapped a while before going for dinner.
undecided, as usual.
spent at least an hour deciding on what to eat.
eventually it was mos burger.
after which we went far east to walk again, and then when we were almost heading for the mrt, we wanted to go somewhere else to chill.
again, venue very undecided.
so starbucks it was.
on our way there we spotted LCPC's poster at shaw and the whole bunch of us crowded around the poster to take photos, as if Mi was really there in person.
damn crazy.
starbucks was full so we settled for BK very quickly.
again another round of crapping.
kelvin lim came to get his LED after we told him that it worked, and i think he was just unlucky, because whenever we held the LED, it would light, but when he held it in his hands, the LEDs just refused to illuminate for him.
so in the end it kind of worked but it needed super strong batteries because the blue LEDs required more voltage.
so yes it was a super long day especially for germaine and i.
when i reached home, there was a veeko envelope on my bed.
the VIP card looks like... a this fashion card.
im not sure if this fashion has a card anyway, but the veeko card is absolutely hideous.
looking somewhat like a card from you-know-where.
and since Mi wont be the spokesperson after spring/summer collection, i think i wont be needing the card anymore.
i'll let it slowly expire in a year's time.
Friday, September 19, 2008
midterm.
start of recess!
burnt the mi video and did some preparations for the cd cover.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
studying after school.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
studying at home.
there was this sudden urge to blog because the emotions were overflowing.
both media law lecture and tutorials went on well.
during the tutorial there was a message received which i felt it implied that i was the one committing the deed.
which. i. did. not. at. all.
yx felt i was too sensitive.
but i always felt that the sender did not like me, and was kind of insinuating that i was dishonest.
and i so do not like it.
thats why i stopped minding other people's businesses.
but somehow these stuff kept coming back even though i seriously rejected them.
maybe i am too sensitive.
then we picked up the freshly printed copy of the chronicle and flipped through the pages.
an article of the "newly revamped" spectrum occupied a quarter of the page.
at that point we felt like crap.
because it meant that whatever we did a year ago with REALLY REVAMPING spectrum, and with so many added features, and especially with all our hard work, all came to naught.
i was then reminded of how marcus used to say our batch is the least enthusiastic batch in cs.
but really, who is there to witness our enthusiasm when we were full of it?
since no one has ever appreciated what we have done, or even acknowledged what we have done, it is natural that the enthusiasm fades away into 心灰意冷, which was then presumed by others that we had not put in effort and enthusiasm to the school.
it is so not true.
we tried, and we did.
but everyone just fails to see it.
and thus diminishing the work we have done and letting others get the credit.
i simply dont see how i can feel any belonging to the school when i feel that i am reduced to a level so low that nobody even knows i existed, despite the fact that i have been contributing to the school in some ways or another.
then theres the new facebook.
we are now forced to use the new facebook.
which sucks big time because i cant find my stuff.
tomorrow's 十九岁的清纯 will be nice! i like yunhou. hes so cute. haha.
after that there's mingshun's interview.
now that the 王子公主 story is being updated more regularly, it is quite ironic that everyone loves the story more than the real scenario.
and im quite amazed that the one particular CNY day 2 in the story is lasting sooo long.
sigh.
Monday, September 15, 2008
sailo's tekong holiday for 2 weeks.
papa, popo and i accompanied sailo to tekong and had some orientation trip, during which i had no clue to what the guide was mumbling about.
he even directed us to the wrong way when we asked the directions for the restroom.
the oath taking was quite funny, with all the enlistees shouting out their ic numbers and full names.
surprisingly, the tekong accommodation looked quite comfortable.
hope sailo is adapting to the lifestyle there.
on-zai and his stupid "marry within the year" statement.
if he is not marrying Mi, then i wonder if i will still buy his cds...
his songs are still nice though.
maybe its the 王子公主 story that had me deluded for a year or so.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
i cant really recall what i did.
watched doraemon.
then dont know what i did.
lalala-ed until at night, i remembered i watched on-zai's interview.
oh i think the previous night i played weffriddles, and i am still stuck at level 17 so i kind of gave up.
its not that fun after all.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
mad rush day.
watched doraemon.
went tampines to collect my magazines.
went back home, put my stuff, changed bag, and went to orchard.
germaine called while i was in the cab and said the kino staff told them there wasnt anymore hk movie magazine; it was sold out.
i was slightly annoyed because a week ago i called kino and the staff said the magazine only will come today.
so i called them back, and they said issue 10 will be delayed, and it will either arrive tomorrow or next week.
because i sounded pretty pissed, they agreed to reserve 5 magazines for me.
so we went to pepper lunch to finish up the album.
after 3 days, the album is finally completed, with 2 out-of-place-looking photos of sherin, and a pretty and colourful cover page with 靓Mi.
not forgetting a classic video of germaine and subrina, with all our voices included.
so kino called when we were almost finished with the album, and we went to collect the freshly arrived magazines.
after that, i headed home, passed a book to auntie jennie, and then my relatives came to my place for mid autumn dinner cum gathering.
brandon was sick, and after he was awake from his nap on my mattress, he looked blur and after a moment he started crying.
hope the little fella gets well soon.
Friday, September 12, 2008
went to park mall after school.
tried my luck there, and luck was really there.
took the whole stack of pamphlets and emptied their racks.
a total of 95 pamphlets.
i now have no incentive to buy from veeko.
thankfully i didnt spend much on it anyway.
all im hoping is that the membership card that im still waiting for will have Mi's picture on it.
met up with qianyu, yanting and peiling.
went kenny rogers and had fun chatting about random stuffs.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
edited in the morning.
meeting in the afternoon.
tcm class ended early!
did FYP stuff.
did housework.
watched LG.
stupid msn kept having problems.
and stupid mac yesterday made my throat sore again.
i swear not to eat fries in a month!
starting today!
tvbj is showing all my favourite shows at this stage.
- love guaranteed, weekdays 9.35pm.
- ups and downs in the sea of love, weekdays 5.05pm and 12.10am.
- better halves, weekends 2pm.
and there's the on-zai interview with steven chan on sunday night.
i have all the shows above except better halves.
im tempted to buy the vcd during my recess week to watch.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
my fyp group decided we should all wear caps, inspired from my sudden cap-wearing last tuesday.
everyone was asking why we wore caps.
i wore my "mi myself and i" cap.
sorry i just want to mention it here haha.
filmed till quite late.
Monday, September 8, 2008
went to do research.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
went kino to buy magazine.
continued with the album at coffeebean.
more or less completed, left the cover and the overall packing.
Saturday, September 6, 2008
bought my bag.
was so troublesome, all because j8 doesnt have that design.
had to go to dhoby exchange instead.
went bingnan's house to do the album.
finally had some progress with it.
was watching miss hk 1994 finals while doing.
theresa lee was so hilarious!
that year had so many girls becoming tvb actresses.
speaking of which, i havent watch the 1993 one which i had taped.
after which we went newton for dinner.
crapped with the boss about sharks fin and free lobster.
and bombarded germaine with her linda vs sammi questions.
Friday, September 5, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY POPO!
我以为自己已经看化了。
经历了太多类似的情形，原本觉得自己会比较看得开。
原来唔係。
其实那一刹那真的意想不到。
所以有种错愕。
随之涌起了伤感。
一直压抑着流泪的感觉。
接着的发呆，是一贯麻醉自己的方式。
通常如果创伤不大，应该很快复原。
午后逛了逛书局，心情好多了。
加上碰到老朋友，不亦乐乎。
婆婆生日，皆大欢喜。
家始终是最温暖的地方。
Thursday, September 4, 2008
thursdays are lonesome.
(copied germaine using the word "lonesome".)
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
suddenly wanted to do some online shopping.
but realised my money is almost gone.
did work today.
realised i need to buy at least 8 magazines soon.
too many covers with Mi on it.
ive spent a bomb on Mi.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
watched the last episode of behind closed doors.
i saw my name!
i thought they would forget that xun and i did one day of 2AD each.
yay. but i forgot to tape it.
rewatched LG on tvbj.
am happy that 王子公主 are still progressing with their story.
Monday, September 1, 2008
the tee is off to printing!
did some work and housework.
diesum hocc hoyee gigi on-zai vic wah-zai wenfang
loveflorachan
craze4flora
ffc
healthyintl
bravenet
jsfc
tvbnews
lfd
lcpc
garfield
baidu
fanlisting.
