Wednesday, December 24, 2008, 08:55 a.m.
前阵子真的很忙。
14日至16日，为了FYP闷了近30个小时。
17日，买了hard disk，电脑无法阅读。
18日，又尝试，结果，用了4年多的monitor宣布死亡。
18日至24日，我像是与世隔绝。
20日至22日，搏斗。
在这段日子里，我已习惯在夜晚阅读。
以前电脑每半年都会罢工，所以家里必备读物来应付突如其来的乏闷。
之前买了李敏的两本书：《交换礼物》以及《未拆开的礼物》。
他们不是连续写的；
第二本是为了第一本的遗憾而在23本书之后写的。
在18日之前已经读完《交换礼物》，也因为情节而流了几桶无奈泪。
18日之后重拾心情，几天之内读毕《未拆开的礼物》，哭到惨不忍睹。
其实，说真的，故事情节虽是老套，但胜在有起有落。
觉得第二本比较好读。
edgar, margaret and zoe 都是彼此扯不开的心系。
不知monitor坏了，是好还是不好。
因为在这段期间，我似是成长了一些些。
多了阅读，多了思考，多了反省。
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也多了记忆。
不知道那是优点还是缺点。
虽然当时我似是毫无被影响，但是心里逐渐留下难以磨灭的烙印。
一个毕生难忘的烙印。
也许，是因为我有一种坏习惯，
一种有苦衷不说的坏习惯，
一种有伤不医的坏习惯，
一种有苦自己撑的坏习惯。
也许，就像自己说的，是习惯。
需要时间改过。
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18日：梁炳结婚
20日：澳门回归9周年表演
23日：《大搜查之女》广州首映
无电脑的日子里，Mi的视频及照片，我无法下载。
如今有新的19寸加入，我却未进行我这种日常习惯。
因为电脑不够记忆，需要把一些无谓的东西删除。
如果人类像电脑，可以把无谓的东西永远删掉，那会是好是坏呢？
曾聽說有許多戀愛
沒有結果 卻剩傷心者感慨
令我都刻意避開 是我不敢相信真愛
但你不惜真心真意對待 竟令我再感到意外
讓我獻出同樣被愛 全面喝采
如果今天將失去 眼前的一切
剩低清風兩袖也不計
唯獨你一個是不可給取替
是我生命裡的一切 Wooh
如早知今生跟你 有幸可相愛
在當初應更努力為未來
其實我知道 是可一不可再
下半生准我留住你 一直相愛
誰似你這般欣賞我
誰也說不上你一般清楚我
問我可需要甚麼 願你終身交托給我
讓我一生好好把你照料 請讓我體恤你需要
讓我獻出全部熱愛 從來沒缺少
如果今天將失去 眼前的一切
剩低清風兩袖也不計
唯獨你一個是不可給取替
是我生命裡的一切 Wooh
如早知今生跟你 有幸可相愛
在當初應更努力為未來
其實我知道 是可一不可再
下半生准我留住你 一直相愛
其實我知道 是可一不可再
下半生准我留住你 一直相愛
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it seems that the little hope that i have always kept in myself has some progress.
on 13th and 15th december, this song, being one of my favourites, has attained a total new meaning to it.
and i am loving it so much.
look at the time now.
im supposed to be up at 8am, ie. 3 hours later.
but the excitedness, happiness and sweetness...
im not sure if i can fall asleep.
hahaha.
on monday, went to teoheng ktv with yy, yanting, peiling, boon and mich.
then meiqi joined us for dinner at the waraku's most ulu branch.
so envious.
i want to go hk too.
on tuesday, i cant quite remember what i did.
on wednesday, 2 out of 11 fellas were done.
looks user-friendly and cute.
and i cleaned the house afterwards.
oh i rewatched triumph in the skies.
i cant bear to recall that 5 years ago i was temporarily infatuated with vincent.
and belle.
now that im rewatching it, i totally dont see any plus points in vincent. nor the actor himself.
now i dont like belle the character. i still love flora.
i think flora has other better characters, but belle is one of the weakest. even joyce in ATOL is stronger than belle.
had a huge headache in the evening and i slept from 9pm to 8am the next day.
thursday i revisited the clinic.
and then came back to cure my headache again,
itchy fingers are back and they went to ebay to buy 4 CDs worth $28 in total.
cheap-pu cheap-pu.
friday aka today, i was somewhat pissed that boss put my aeroplane to take his own aeroplane.
i could have gone to hk to watch EA concert.
never mind.
a new website in town!
HerbLeaves!
go lend your support if you want to get retired tvb magazines in tiptop condition.
EA concert in 20 hours' time!!!!!
couldve gone but never mind, not harping on it.
anyway like what Mi said, this concert is like a compilation cd.
i shall wait for Mi's concert and On-zai's concert.
saving up for better concerts in 2009.
finished rewatching hope for sale.
finally.
the ending was crap.
maybe that is why this is the second rewatch.
for other shows i'd probably rewatched N times each.
tze howe-gor's wedding lunch.
nice food but too bloated after the 5th dish.
i wore something similar to what my source of motivation wore to beijing.
first time wearing pants to wedding and i shall do that next time too.
after lunch around 4pm, i went taka.
first to kino, bought 2 novels.
had previously read 李敏's 《太阳溶化了他那双蜡造的翅膀》。
was quite nice, so i decided to give her another chance.
and im now pretty hooked.
and then next stop to art friend.
felt as if i walked miles and miles.
feet were aching.
thanks to my four-inch heels.
very very pretty, very very worth it.
but very very painful.
i wonder how Mi could wear her seven-inch and jumped and danced without falling.
shes crazy.
crazily cute, wacky, pretty and generous.
(by the way this is a self-recorded ad by hocc to promote hocc's charity fund, originally posted in facebook.)
muacks to 傻婆Mi.
Saturday, December 6 2008
was a bit lazy to go to the post office.
am puzzled why my yesasia package is taking so long to arrive this time.
went book hunting.
bought five books for darlz.
four inspirational and one retarded.
i bought another copy of the retarded book for myself.
《我们的低能婚礼》。
its super cute and hilarious, not at all retarded.
hope darlz will like them.
ate and went shaw.
no new stuff but bought 2CDs for xiaodi.
and then waited for eons for the lucky (kelong) dip.
kelong because the dip only has one prize which is the chocolate fondue pot, and everyone has the same thing.
boss desmond treated us to yumyum thai food.
went mac to drink juices, split the loot, and decipher the minds of humans.
came home and saw the absolutely adorable ten days of christmas video.
was quite annoyed with my real player so i finally decided its time for an update.
i finished reading the retarded wedding book.
i dreamt of my source of motivation this morning.
a very long dream it was. :)
couldnt bear to wake up.
ate mac breakfast with meiying.
collected my parcels.
rewatched fat choi spirit.
i cant bear to watch hope for sale anymore.
kept forwarding the parts with christine.
her parts are SO boring.
the last time i watched it, i did the same thing too.
i can never watch the show in its entirety because it is urgh.
if people can say my meiheng parts are boring, i can also say the same for other actresses and feeling justified about my comments.
you can dont like the people i like, for all i care.
just DONT pretend that you are interested in their news or act like a smart aleck, thinking that you are so informed about them.
and if they ever come and i see you at the functions or airport, you are a hundred percent on my blacklist.
nobody in particular im referring to.
just feeling irked by pretentious people who claim to be a fan of any single artiste, but obviously do not keep up with his/her news, and only become interested if he/she is coming, and then acting as if they are the super duper number one fans.
dont claim he/she is your number one artiste when you are just temporarily infatuated and nothing else.
i hate people who change idols as fast as they could inhale the next gasp of air.
wasnt intending to type the above but the mere thought of it is enough to make me boil.
if you say you are coming, make sure you do.
otherwise, dont make empty promises.
im too easily pissed and depressed these days.
have been fluctuating between happy and sad emotions.
exams felt like they ended months ago, but in fact it only ended a week ago.
what a long week.
anticipating for EA concert next week.
anticipating for szeto molline on new year's day.
Thursday, December 4 2008
went airport with germaine and subrina.
bosco just walked past us when we reached.
such accurate timing.
mingled with the artistes.
took photos with all 3 of them.
before bowie entered the transit area, i asked him if i could hug him.
he said nothing, and almost immediately opened his arms and circled them around me.
so sweet.
hes very very nice to hug.
a few others followed to hug him.
aww i miss his warm sturdy hug.
had mac breakfast with germaine and subrina, and then they headed home while i went to the clinic.
doc said it was a cyst and sucked out the pus on the same day, and injected the medicine into the same area.
after which papa and i went to fetch sailo home.
slept from 2.30pm to 6.30pm.
and then was kind of high at night, watching all the videos and all the funny antics that my source of motivation had during all the interviews.
"好久没见了大家好 heh heh heh heh."
i then realised that her outfit was almost like the one i visualised myself to wear for tze howe-gor's wedding on sunday.
its a happy day with a nice hug, nice friends and family, and my source of motivation.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
returned equipment.
watched city of ember.
ate sakae lunch.
came home to a whole load of pretty videos and photos.
i heart my source of motivation.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
fyp shoot day two.
tampines the whole day.
pretty smooth and fun.
enjoyed free bumper car ride from mr.lee and ate free wadeh from ramly.
just when depression has sunk in, happiness comes sneaking in.
all the more i would treasure the happy times.
Monday, December 1, 2008
fyp shoot day one.
filmed at jp the whole day.
yesterday morning sailo's fever shot up again.
he complained of joint pains.
i panicked.
i took him to ttsh.
waited ages for the inefficient staff.
nobody knows how worried i was.
i have this bad habit of making myself utterly depressed, so as to avoid any unnecessary problems with being too optimistic.
i will try to kick it.
but im slowly getting used to being depressed.
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