Faces Pass, And I'm Home-bound
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Happy bdae yiming! I went to Tampines today, to celebrate his birthday. And i was walking to Tampines Mall, when I was struck by how much Tampines seemed to have changed, and somehow, it was still the same. I had fond memories of many places, and at the same time, there were totally new shops that just sprouted up from nowhere. Its been almost a year and all, but tampines just feels....right. Its where I grew up, where most of my childhood memories came from, and I dun think that I'll ever truly leave it, even if i now live halfway across the island.
.....and while I was pondering on this, I suddenly realised I was walking the wrong way. Curse the confusing array of shops in the interchange.
Lol. We found someone hanging out with his girlfriend in TM today, going for a movie. Or primary school friend, as claimed. For privacy's sake, I shall not mention who that someone is. It was very amusing though. Allison and Claire were attempting-and failing terribly- to act as some FBI partners on stakeout or something. They flattened themselves against the wall when the said couple turned around....in plain view. And needless to say, everyone skirled hard. Lol. What an interesting day. Oh, and White Chicks rawked. It was chao chao funny. And the dog was uber cute! Lol. Go poms =)
this dragon flamed at 08:42 p.m..
get out of my life.
Thursday, October 14, 2004
You think you can use violence to intimidate everyone. Well guess what? I'm not gonna stand for it much longer. Push me. Go on. Push me too far, and I'll hit back. And I won't care anymore. So you think you can hit anyone you like, just cos u're not happy. Punch everyone you dun like. Smash their heads in. Hey- guess what? I know how to fight too. And next time, I won't hold back. Next time, you better get your balls covered cos I'm gonna hit u so hard, you fucking regret it for the rest of your life. So fuck off. I'm exhausted, I can't think straight, and I hurt.
this dragon flamed at 06:51 p.m..
cotton wool skies pass me by
Sunday, October 10, 2004
There's a saying in the bible, that we should look at the plank in our own eyes first before judging the grit in another's. Sadly though, thats a fault of many, including me. If i ever gave such a biased viewpoint for history, Miss Devi would fail me on the spot. And there's a thin, thin line between stating your opinions and blind accusations. I probably shouldn't have expressed such views on a public blog. Its not good to emulate what you hate. I don't feel sorry for what I said, but I shouldn't have done it in that way. But well, anger does that to you, clouds your common sense and gags your conscience. Then in the stark light of day, the concealing shadow is removed and you feel sickened by your own actions. Its good that you probably won't ever come here though. This issue of contention should -once and for all- be closed.
"You're like a thief who's not at all remorseful for stealing, but terribly, terribly sorry that you're going to jail." -Rhett Butler
this dragon flamed at 10:42 a.m..
No one can cry my tears, or laugh my laugh
Saturday, October 9, 2004
Ok. First of all, I'll like to put a disclaimer, seeing as the controversy going right now. Yes, I jolly well am flaming someone, and i damn well know that flaming is spelled with one m at least.
Now. I'd just like to say this: I don't like you and I have no bloody respect for you whatsoever. Of course, this is just my opinion. You see, what a person writes shows their character more than anything else, unless what u're writing is completely fake. And from what I've read, I PRAY with all my heart that its fake. Because theres no way in hell that someone should be that shallow. Firstly....PLEASE. DO. NOT. MUTILATE. THE. GOOD. NAME. OF. POEMS. FOR. THE. SAKE. OF. GOD! Secondly, I see no reason why you should continue to accuse the anonymous tagger on your blog to be a 'gepster', simply because the person has good English, or doesn't like you, or even if he/she is flaming you. Thirdly- to say that the only reason why you care for the relationship you had was simply because you wasted so much time and effort into trying to like him. Now, if thats not the most cold-hearted, bimbotic and stupid thing I've ever heard, then God help me, 'cause I'll need it. So let me ask you- if you had to work so hard to like him in the first place, why be steads? Love isn't, or shouldn't, be like that. To go into a relationship on that basis- well. I'm sorry if you think I'm prying, but to write these things on a public blog is inviting people to comment, and there are certain things that i simply cannot conceal, or keep down anymore.
Oh. And please don't deny things after you've made clear your opinion. Either stick with it, or don't say anything about it in the first place. In case you didn't noe the meaning of 'flaming', this one's for you.
1. flaming
An online argument that becomes nasty or derisive, where insulting a party to the discussion takes precedence over the objective merits of one side or another
2. Flaming
This is what trolls do when they warm up for their barage of pointless comments. Flaming can be defined by making pointless or hurtful mesages or just posting to see your own IM. Flamers are often banned or ignored in a forum or chatroom.
I got it from this
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this dragon flamed at 08:56 p.m..
my non-existent balls are broken hard and well
Friday, October 8, 2004
Hello. did you guys noe? I like eggs. And I am very happy. Becos I ate a nice fried egg yesterday. It was crispy on the bottom and the yolk was runny =))))) sounds so good right? And to continue on Lumn's entry-
I am Sam.
Sam I am
I like green eggs
and ham!
Bah to all you people who still have an overwhelming number of eggs. I am deprived. But my dad went to buy eggs today, so im happyhappyhappy ^___________^ I think eggs are my third fave now, after chocolate and coffee.
Oh well. This is just to put off blogging about yesterdays' exams. Chinese was easy, but I messed up on a word. And social studies.....well, social studies was screwed. I'm gonna fail. Whee.
And I forgot to wish everyone good luck yesterdAY! so here it is- GOOD LUCK. Lol. Oh. and i wish ppl will stop tagging on my board anonymously. I dun care if u're gonna flame me, just dun pop up as a ghost. Shall go study bio now. Booya!
this dragon flamed at 10:31 a.m..
Holes in my brain
Saturday, October 2, 2004
Help. I'm going crazyyyyyyyy.....><
And btw, rpgworld rox. Check it out! i'll link it properly one day.
this dragon flamed at 03:17 p.m..
Its been so very long...
Saturday, September 25, 2004
So, one day, when i grow up, maybe, just maybe, i'll have this high-paying job that I like, and i'll have found true love, and i'll be rich, successful, in love and happy. But thats way later in the future. And i dun even noe which jc to go to, let alone wat i want to be when i grow up. I'm just a slacker, who likes to read, play ro, listen to music and take long rides on the bus just looking out at the scenery. And sometimes, in the melody of a song, or the soaring flight of a bird so high up its a black dot against the golden brilliance of the sun, i find peace. And one day, maybe, just maybe, one day I'll forget you and this throbbing ache in my heart. Maybe, just maybe, one day I'll think of you, and there won't be shards of ice stabbing into me. Maybe, just maybe, one day I'll find someone whom I can settle down with, and wake up every morning to look at him with a smile on my face. And there'll be days of warmth and laughter, and the scent of coffee lingering in the air.
But for now, I think I'll just be me. I'll slack, read, play ro and worry myself silly about the exams. I'll listen to Ou De Yang songs and take long bus rides, looking out at the scenery. I'll go out with my friends, mug like crazy, chat on msn and lose myself in the pounding of the rain on my windows. I'll laugh on the phone, play with my dog and sing in the shower. For now, I'll just be myself.
Bit by bit, math turns my brains into mush.
this dragon flamed at 10:45 p.m..
Does the walker choose the path, or the path the walker?
Thursday, September 9, 2004
Why do people always have to complicate things? Why do we always long after things that are gone, or unacheivable, as intangible as a shimmering mirage in a bone dry desert? We will never be content until we learn how to stop worrying and enjoy the present moments of life. And we will never be happy unless we let go, and move on.
I never, ever want to be like a couple i know. They're constantly fighting, and then making up. One moment they'd be desperately longing for each other, the other they would be cold-shouldering one another. If thats what true happiness is, I'd rather not take it.
And i'm sorry for how you feel, I truly am. 'Cause what you're doing is reaching for something untouchable, and running through the silver mist, searching for something that is gone with the wind.
this dragon flamed at 06:16 p.m..
yesh! another entry!
Tuesday, September 7, 2004
Lol. I haven't been blogging in a REEEEEEAAAAAALLLLLLLYYY long time. But i guess you guys noe why. *dum dee dum* I love my assassin! I got him to a sin x in one day =P HA. And he looks good too. So does my knight....when he's not wearing his helm and cain. Lol. But ppl treat girls so much better. Hmph. And cs is a wonderful cross-dresser too...just like me! lol. In case you're wondering, the only reason why i'm blogging now is cos the server is down. ><
Ok, now for the latest news....Hmmm....went to watch Cinderella Story yesterday. it was SO bimbo and SO cliche but Austin (chad murray) looked realli good ^^ And allison kept skirling so hard over him. Lol. But the guys felt bored *awww....* and the best news of all-? one week hols to...*drum roll* play ro! w00t! lol. if you see me online but not answering, tell me to go study. the pull of ro is almost too strong to resist. *sniff*
(And yes, i really dun like anyone. Now go away. And dun eat my dog.)
this dragon flamed at 09:20 a.m..
RO! I love my sin
Wednesday, September 1, 2004
Wah... Been... almost 2 wks since i blogged. Been too busy playing RO lol, so too lazy to blog. Too bad. =P Itz sooooooo fun man! And i absolutely love my sin! and my knight! and my doggy! Tho he often gets lost.. and is forever eating and eating... but its chao cute! And, Evil wings sooo rock man... Lol. And partying with a priestess and wizzie is good! But 4 ppl parties never seem to happen... wonder y? Lol. Oh, and sad wizzies hu level too fast are nooot good... =P *continues skirling* Ah well, back to RO... =)
this dragon flamed at 04:55 p.m..
Obs is over. Thank god.
Friday, August 20, 2004
Ok. I admit it. Im jealous. Im jealous of everyone who loved obs. Im jealous of everyone who blended into their group, of every single person whos crying over having to leave their new found friends. Im jealous of everyone who loved their group, who has wonderful memories to share and gush over with their friends.
And if i say it was fucked up to me, its fucked up to me. I dun want to have to go over and recount everything again. My watch isn't that bad, im probly just being anti social. So? I liked the activities, but if i couldn't mix in well, can't it just be left at that? And so what if i don't know the rules of blackjack? Is it a crime to make a mistake in a game? "oh Bernice, u're so STUPID!" Im so short that i dun haf the capacity for brains huh. and so just because i couldn't recognise a blackjack, for one time, even if i won the round after all, im completely brainless? And now im being overly emotional over tiny stuff isn't it. After all, it doesnt matter if i couldn't make friends with the mainstream, if i felt hurt by my own gepper friends, i went to obs to LEARN. Im just fucking pmsing.
I am, in fact. So just leave me alone. I've been on the verge of exploding all day long. Obs certainly was wonderful to most other ppl. Oh, i noe wat i should say. Obs was SO FUN! then we could all start reminiscing and laughing over the funny things we did. Well, too bad. Certainly, there are good bits, but all i want to do is forget everything. Just. Forget.
this dragon flamed at 05:05 p.m..
BLEH
Thursday, August 12, 2004
Bleh. I've been damn sick the last few days. By the time i go back to school, i'll only haf half a day left, and the teachers will skirl hard. Lol. At least now, my stomach doesnt feel like a broken down washing machine and i think i can actually EAT again. So now I only haf the sad head cold left. *sniff* I'd been sleeping a hell lot tho. I didn't even haf to the energy to get out of my bed at first. Anyway, sorri to everyone whom i was curt to on msn. Didn't realli feel like talking, so if i offended you, im sorry. >< Being ill gets on my nerves.
this dragon flamed at 09:58 a.m..
to sleep, or do history homework. Hmmm.
Tuesday, August 3, 2004
I got raped by kiw today! Well, not really. I was walking with allison, then kiw came up. Then he called us to stop and raped allison about her shirt. He talked on and on and on and i was beginning to wonder if i could sneak away. Then he scolded me a little for my earrings (i still haven't bought studs) and my fringe. Then he went back to raping allison. T____T He talked for so long! and his mole hairs are REEEEAAALLLLY long. He should trim them or something. School image to take care of after all, y'know. The irony is, I've managed to walk past him so many times before when i was alone, and i NEVER got caught. Until now. ><
this dragon flamed at 06:43 p.m..
Lead (II) chloride, sodium hydroxide, copper oxide
Monday, August 2, 2004
off-tune songs. threats of revenge. national day celebrations. thoughts about killing the person who volunteered me to be ne rep in the first place. mugging for chinese. blissful silence of the library. passing e math. worrying about my wallet.
Yep. Today was quite disjointed. Ah well. I need to study chinese again. And im forgetting something, but i cant remember what.
Hmmm. Now i forgot what i was gonna say. Oh yarh. I need to cut my hair. =P
this dragon flamed at 07:27 p.m..
damn chem, chi and a math
Sunday, August 1, 2004
Great. Good going, girl. Hurt everyone about you who cares. You're getting rrreeeeeeeaaaaallllllly good at this game.
My new fave pastime is sleeping. You can forget everything, in the pure bliss of snoring ur ass off.
this dragon flamed at 09:45 p.m..
my manor desc is getting changed! w00t!
Sunday, August 1, 2004
Bleh. I feel....actually, i dunno how i feel.
Finished studying chem...now i need to do hist and study chinese.
I just realised- I've got so many friends, but i cant confide in any of them. sad, isnt it? maybe i should stop walling off everyone else. then again, amybe its too late.
Ah well. back to work. Slacking time is over. If im dead by the end of the week, let it be a warning to everyone else on the dangers of cramming too hard.
this dragon flamed at 10:18 a.m..
I'll never be you
Saturday, July 31, 2004
How do these things happen? You wanted to eat breakfast with us, we dun spend enough time together, you said. Then you started talking about tests. And when i told you, that i failed my e math but did well for a math, you got angry. After all i failed e math AND chem. It doesnt matter that i tried my best, that i simply couldnt do it. How could I fail? its so simple, all i haf to do is study. Its not like when you were young, and you had to study, cook and clean the house from morning to night and still maintain good grades. My cca is taking up too much for my time. I read too much. I always cram at the last minute. I think Im so high and mighty, i despise you, dun i? I think that im so smart, im PROUD of being the lousiest in class. What has GEP taught me? Its taught me to be selfish, to care for myself alone. Its not like im that smart either, after all, i only got into gep on a stroke of luck didnt i? My grades will be lousy no matter where i go. Im doing well in chinese since i moved, but that wont last, soon i'll be one of the worst again, cos once there's noone there to push me, i'll stop bothering. I never change, i always hand up homework late, my grades are bad, one term I'll be doing well, the next i'll drop. You're so sick of me, so sick of constantly pushing me. If only i could disappear off the face of the earth.
You'd be happy then, wont u? If i suddenly went away, and you didn't haf to care anymore. Of course, It didnt matter that i got full marks for a math, that so far I haven't gotten into trouble for not handing in homework yet, that Im far from being the lowest in class- I cant compare to Joanne or Joel. I cant- will never, probably- get a perfect score. It doesnt matter that im in the school team for air rifle, that i haf a commitment to keep. It doesnt matter that when i come home from cca, and im tired and just want to read and sleep, im still slacking. You disapprove of my friends, despite all you told me, im still talking to them, arent i?
I try to tell you the answers, but you dun listen. All you see in me is yourself, and yet someone totally different from you. I cant be like you. I cant study all day, and get high distinctions for everything. But all that i say goes unheard, so i hold it all inside me, until you go away and i can return to the safety of my room.
I dun need anyone. I'll survive on my own. So go away, and leave me alone.
this dragon flamed at 09:56 a.m..
We're only 7 miles from the sun
Sunday, July 25, 2004
Went to allison's church today...City Harvest. Met her, claire and wei jean at Bugis first. And as usual, me and wei jean were kept waiting for claire and allison. Lol. So we went to Delifrance to stuff ourselves with food, then we ran off to church. The church is CHAO big....its so fat, its disgusting. And there were so many ppl, when worship started, it was damn nice. =) But i felt kinda out of place, cos i didnt noe all the songs, and everyone was jumping up and down and stuff. So enthu. Lol. And the sermon was SO SHORT! wah! niceness! Lol. After the service, we ran upstairs to this huge open air garden/baptism/cafe area on the roof, to stuff ourselves with the free hotdogs and ice cream. And allison as eating and eating and eating....and feeding me her leftovers. Alright....SHARING her food with me. Then we felt too hot, so we decided to go to Jurong point. And we were happily playing at this Old people's exercise area...so fun! And i was singing all the nice weird songs i knew- then when we were boarding the bus, i found out i lost my wallet. -_- So gay. And i still cant find it. Its got EVERYTHING inside...MY ALLOWANCE, my ez link card, my rosewood access card, my key, my library card, etc. >< And theres a chem test tmr too. On mole concept. Die. wat a mixed day. =P
this dragon flamed at 08:00 p.m..
Rudolph, with his nose so bright
Thursday, July 22, 2004
*SNIFF* fats. Everyone's been falling ill this week. And now my nose is rebelling. Ugh. I actually managed to finish up all my overdue social studies and chinese homework. w00t! go me. But there's like, 4 tests next week? im so dead. And three of which is unseens prose, which i suck at, Chemistry, which i REALLI suck at, and Emath, which im gonna fail. ><
this dragon flamed at 05:51 p.m..
-=WhAt I wAnNa SaE=-
I'm in luv with RO! :)
-=AbOuT mE=-
NaMe:
Bernice the
NiCkS:
waterdragon, chibi onee-chan, shorts, Berns and some other names i shall not reveal
ScHoOl:
Dunman High
RaCe:
Chinese. Duh
ReLiGiOn:
Christian
AgE:
14+
B'dAe:
23 dec, eve of christmas eve
HeIgHt:
Some things are bttr off left unsaid
LiKeS:
To read,cycle,
anime,ddr,dogs,dragons,
CHOCS,aarding,coffee,to irritate ppl...
FaVe SoNg:
drops of jupiter, sleeping child, butterfly kisses, piano, himawari, breaking my heart, small two of pieces, complicated heart
FaVe CoLoUrS:
blue,green,sliver,purple
BoOk (currently):
Winds of Change
ExTeNdEd FaMiLy:
Jies:Allison, Wai Lumn, Claire, Michelle, Faye. Meis:Kelly. Gors:Ryan, Wei Quan, Alvin, Betawesh. Cousins:Nivek. Owners:Poksam, Ginji. Papa:Elbert. Mama:Jiazheng. Husband:Wailumn. Daughter:Xiaotong. Boyfriend:Claire. Girlfriend:Allison.Betawesh.
-=LiNkZ=-
Me older entries. Whatever.
cLairE~
Samuel~
Kelly~
Allison~
Chris~
Liling~
Shirlene~
Yongqing~
Michelle~
Janice~
Faye~
Jiazheng~
Ryan (Wen Rong)~
Wailumn~
Nivek~
Ryan d's blog~
Jenny~
Betawesh~
Drareg~
Dpdesigns~ by devilon and phoenix
Chemistry Quiz
Reuben~
-=ChAlLeNgEs?=-
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