Go the Distance

*phew-- sniFF..

i'd been on my toes since last night cos i can't get into the discussion thread for comm skills in cms (which my fello classmates depend on me for the topic name). went paranoid over it that i stoned there and then. my messy room and blocked nose (feel lk sneezing but CANT) aint doing much justice to the situation either.

this mth coming to a close liao. i'm gonna live up to this esp tmr:
"Train as though you're competing, compete as though you're training."

Financial and Time Management stink. i wished i could control my itchy fingers frm diggin into the wallet and givin lame excuses. mabbe i should get some sleep and eat well.

"Eating fuels the body, eating well fuels the soul" -- from Ironchef

Sprinting Away at
12:30 p.m.

Saturday, January 29, 2005

with effect from today, i'll be home on thursday afternoons before trng. is that fab or wad? yeaH. relivin' the sec sch days.

i got back my much-anticipated results for the following:
ICA 1 Comm skills [A+]
Comm skill's Letter of Enquiry [A-]
Maths Class test 1: [19/20].. tutor refused to make it full marks.. he said there's no difference -_-"

kinda expected these results.
Hairin asked why i was coping the answer scheme when i already had A+ for the ICA and if i'm working for a PhD or a Distinction on top of a distinction. That made me stop and think hard. well, my supporting reason is b'cos i feel i'm not good enough. i'm only a slightly-above-average student who can only score Bs and above thru hard work. duh~ so i work hard even when i have what others' perceive as 'good grades'.

Yoga at 3.30pm. I'll leave home at 2.30pm.
This sunday is surf n sweat le. 3km. blame it on my perfectionistic, or should i say, ambitious nature but i wanna make cross the end line in record time.

Sprinting Away at
01:35 p.m.

Thursday, January 27, 2005

something miraculous happened. i can draw LOGIC GATES from equations!!! omg-- someone, get the ambulance!! ive gone tootsi. hahaha... u shud have seen the teacher's face-- a look of disbelief that i did IT.
btw, i was a borderline nut in pure physics back in the old days... so doing something correct esp in electrical principles will send stars up in the sky.
gee... i actually was serious in school today, bringing all my modules' books in trusty puma bag ;) and being attentive in class. class starts at 10.10am on mon but came sch at 8.40am to study analogue mod at biz canteen. ^^applauds^^

***** 5 Stars

Sprinting Away at
09:42 p.m.

Monday, January 24, 2005

I want a moment to be real
Want to touch things I don't feel
Want to hold on
And feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change
They're the ones that stay the same
They can't see me
But I'm still here

[[John Rzeznik - I'm Still Here]]

How have u been?

Sprinting Away at
11:14 p.m.

Sunday, January 23, 2005

Open House Day 3
jiL n i got an air-brushed tattoo together n some other stuff. (btw, ur pineapple tart rox) hers was puma like on left ankle and mine:

on right ankle cos it's 'weaker'.

vry physical today. it was even better than DB chalet. played volleyball (til lower left arm bruised) and frisbee. was nv good at tug-of-war. the guys n gals were just great. :D so that was that frm 11am-5.30pm with minimal breaks in between.

played frisbee with Esther and Za at the million dollar field. when was the last time i went 'fong'? childhood days maybe.
went to badminton court after hopping frm place to place. saw ignatius. met him last sem jul when i still loved badminton. played singles with him with his excellent racquet and later, a spanking new Yonex shuttle cock! he still rmbred dat i suck at smashing! haha.. he's patient enuff to coach me. i could last for 2 hrs on court in sec sch days but nowadays i'll get SicK of it before an hr is up.
7.30pm-- did 2 stations--hammercurl and wide stance squat. at that time, andy and yixue were there. i was wonder why andy is pressed on trng...
ran lane 8 thrice. last 2 rounds clocked 2 mins each. shud i still go for the inter track meet running for 1500m.
surf n sweat riding up fast-- anthony wanna go back with sth. hope that 3 k wun be so hard.

supper with the guys and jazz, jane, jil.. jel could be my new name. :D love 'em all.

You made my day.

Sprinting Away at
11:26 p.m.

Saturday, January 22, 2005

splash-splash
hehh happy day**

...not that today is Day 2 of Open house-- but i met Badminton (melissa's previous lover) again!!! that was after Open house closed.

taking one step backwards, i tried right rowing with the paddle at the dry pool while heading to club room.

Rewindin back-- Sun-A-Blazing. Cant stand it mann... no wonder im still the fairest of them all. :o: during Open house, the one thing worth watching n hearing was the Chinese Orchestra-- now that was Mesmerizing... everything was so well-coordinated.
love jellybear. she sat with me on 'skyplane' (mel's lingo in mel's dict).

[[sidetrack]]funny how i can miss some DB guys while sitting here typing this load...

Headline that lost its Head yeah. yeah. yeah. but it's MOST important. i WILL NOT miss this. THERE'S GONNA BE A SHOE TALK AT THE DOME! PLUS TRIAL RUN AT THE TRACK. i was over the moon when Ivan told us durin debrief. just when my new shoe gave problems. muahauhua... im starting to save $$ now. increasing budget to 200$.

Training: Went faster. same running dist we did on tue-- 1 round ard sch, 3 rounds track. gymmed with Germaine and Hidaya. :D it was goooodd. trngs always add the xtra vibe ard.. somehow the atmosphere becomes lighter... (wait til the circuits come *falls to the grd* that will be IT)

I'll meet you there.

Sprinting Away at
11:50 p.m.

Thursday, January 20, 2005

the Better of today
Day 1 of NYP Open House 2005

*took neoprint with jane :) backgrd: the beautiful NYP track.
*tried dennis' Brooks shoes. famous name in running mag but seemed scarce in S'pore. it was as huge as flip flops. [[rant]]im ...Disappointed with my ACG shoes dat i got last sunday. ALL Conditions Gear is actually cross trainers. bleah. shredded my heart into a million pieces lo! argh. all i want is a good pair of running shoes.. one that inspires; that when i wear, i'd feel like running. mel will be on a lookout for one whenever n wherever she goes. [[rant]]
*helped German booth for a while. walked ard the atrium in the traditional German girly costume. jane, adeline n melvin saw the tragedy of it. tasted German gingerbread cookies too--yummilicious!
*went EPC lab session at 1pm. EPC = Electrical Principles n Circuits aint doing well. glad i made it there despite Open house
*ran with Za. 2 rounds warmup + stretches + 8 rounds. head almost burst open towards 7 rounds. must be the lack of sleep. there was an inner rhthym going on betwn. such a thing dun always happen among everyone/anyone. im thankful for that.

Sprinting Away at
11:30 p.m.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

PUSH IT
" Push your limits!! If not, being in this course is one huge waste-- the biggest mistake in your life"

Biomedical engrg in Yr 3. Goal number Eight will be achieved.
I'm holding on to whatever little i store since day 1 of sem 2.
14 days to master half sem's wrk.

I'll meet you there.

Sprinting Away at
10:11 p.m.

Monday, January 17, 2005

Sea Trng with Babes n Hunks
the duper high tide at kallang cheered me up instantly. i was exuberated to row despite the blinding rays from the sun. squinted all thru rowing. was in the big boat with juniors heading for beach. juniors went into small boat.

seniors in big boat rowed for first set bridge and back and the second, beach to bridge-pause-and return. could just go for rounds and rounds even tho salty salt water kept splashing onto my face and into the nose esp. i like rowing behind andy cos ****. was behind him for set 1 & 2.
break with farhan and charmaine seniorest. kinda saddened she'll be going back sidney next mth.. she's ez to talk to. charmaine n i taught cerelia handrowing. this batch of juniors vry outgoing. love em to e max.

set 3: got to row in baby boat. have to stretch out more in business class seats. weiming was beside him. jazz in front. :D nic coaxed. he said he's confirmed a coaxswain le.

dinner was the best ever.. with part of e team. company + food = :D kallang tau hui was the best i'd eaten in my entire life. train ride with jil, jane, darren, reu, dennis, nicholas, melvin, junwen n jason. forgot to pass jil her tauhui.. got half a mind to leave the train and pass it to her. :x train stopped at amk. left nicholas, jason and i. nic and i are yishunites. finally got to ask him y he missed so much trngs in sem 1. oh well.

before trng was with mommy and daddy-- brunch at yishun, then went raffles place with them to collect my fitness calendar :D sth which i'd planned long before 2005 started. one cute dude took my heart rate at rest and {VO₂ max i.e 46}.

that kinda sums up my day. with side effects--blocked nose. -.-

Sprinting Away at
11:05 p.m.

Saturday, January 15, 2005

My Week in a Nutshell
Mon: refreshed. ready to start the week after sunday's rest. although there will and had been make-up lessons till 6pm, i'm pretty much alive cos the day starts at 10.10am.

Tue: almost at the peak- energies of energies. it's a rollercoaster up the tracks. icky wicky. German classes n trngs are the things that keeps my head lifted.

Wed: waddling thru a day of mundane. a recovery day. aches and sores are not uncommon. i never get to go home before 3pm these days (minus holiday season) since sec sch.. i feel so deprived..[[wadever]].. c'est la vie.

Thu: sch starts at 8am again! struggling to wake up and to stay awake in the day for the past 3 days. got my life back after a nap once sch ends at 12pm. trng at 6pm.

Fri: 10.10am class. dead-fish. wasteful day. sleep is all i need. energy level rock bottom.

Sat: Sea trng at 3.30pm--middle of the day=whole day.

Sun: Church. kinda slack le. washed out but there's some strength to run too.. in prep for surf and sweat.

Talking about that event and some others dat Jo got for us, i planned to wrk out everyday except wed. however, i cant keep up with it. esp with the increased wts at gym and last 2/8 rounds of fast strides.

I'm still pushing it. I'm not gonna lay it all down now. I'll meet you there.

Sprinting Away at
11:15 p.m.

Friday, January 14, 2005

Go the Distance
jil gave me a juicy kiss on my left cheek after trng! it was soo sweet lo... haha luckily i went to toilet again to wash my face while waiting for her before that.

what propels me in the team? running together is the number one thing! followed by the other itsy bitsy stuff (pushups n situps)... gym and ultimately sea rowing. the newbis added that extra watts lo. they're nice. felt more motivated today cus i found out that little stretching=stiff joints and the phrase "Go the distance" on my nike shirt just makes me wanna fhly.
the days and nights seemed shorter now that DB is in full swing-- the speed is as fast as flipping a book from cover to cover.

Sch: better attitude towards it as i made a conscious effort to put in more effort. hahha. only had 2 subjs today. 8am-9am: Maths tut = Maths test --where jack tan close both his eyes and calls the paper a test. haiz... missed sec sch days man-- when we have to work for the results.
9-10.30am: Comm skills tut.. not bad la. felt like dead fish again tho. 10.30am-11.30am: Comm skills open book ICA (class assignment). finally in my 1 semester plus in NYP, i got to work at something challenging... the feeling was sooo satisfying. the difficulty is abt the standard of O lvl eng-- where u have to think deep, long and hard (maybe not too hard).

darn-- a mosquito was sucking my blood while i typed the above. felt 2 strategic location around my feet swelling until a point when i lost my patience, picked a calandar and dropped it on the vampire. muahahaha-- revenge is sweet. (only to mosquitos and bugs leading sad lives.)

back to yesterday's story.. my in-between b4 6pm was the time when i recollected myself. hung out with myself. had lunch with jil n xuan til 2pm then they left and i caught the much-needed slp frm 2.35-3pm .. could have slpt longer, if not for one loud, boisterous uncle followed by a grp of cheena girls. argh. wondered where did all the peace went to~

something mel did during the 120 pushups that no one noe until u read this: she counted frm 0-9 in German while Jo told us to hold in the pushup position longer than usual.

Sprinting Away at
11:59 a.m.

Thursday, January 13, 2005

God saved the day
thot i should keep wad jellybear wrote after this entry was noted: ey yo! bout rowing,when u think of resting,that's when the winner wil ride up beside you.pull away before it cuts you :) and rest well!!!!if u can remember hw tdy feels like,i'm sure u'll keep gettg better..and better....yeah?dun forget the feeling -------------------------------------------------------- ^Highl i g h t: went down with the guys' in the big boat after the first round from the beach a lil off launching point to the bridge and back-- abt 3000m, according to Kenny. jil, jane, viv, ade and i were in. i suppose ade was eccentric riding with the guys for the first time... i wun elaborate how on wad she did.. but for me i felt EVERY stroke for my first time. 97% accuracy.. 3 out of the many strokes were slipped off.
the initial part (approx 200m) i was fine.. made sure i reached out and twist, having that supreme triangle and straightened back.. i was wondering y they started out so fast-- stroke rate + power.. went with the pace anyways. observed andy's back.. woowa so tuff.. like uncle kang's.
the next distance from the initial part to the bridge was an emotional struggle. thot maybe i could try meditating on my rest days so i can concentrate better hah. :P had -ve thots like- 'oh no! fatigue is setting in'.. 'i cant cope after sucha long break'.. 'r there any shortcuts?'.. hehe to ans that last qn.. [towards e bridge le] ...'shorten pull length..?' NO! '.. skip a few strokes?..' NOOO!! then came ~+*enlightenment+*~ rmbr Ben telling us to recover higher (if dying --> my words) and also i motivated myself by rmbring that the wts we're doing have increase TWO times so we should be giving out DOUBLE horsepower.
wind against my hair, water on my face ..making that turn ard the bridge was difficult cus i was hoping for a break but nopes.. a part of me knew it and i held on and row.
the last lap(3/3): (1-3/3)slouchy posture but was still twistin and stretching forward. (2/3)Ben:" This is good! this is good!" rmbr seniors saying that when Ben compliments, it is really good and such compliments are RaRe. (3/3) chiong la. rowers' high since coming back frm bridge.

was so encouraged by the juniors too. im certain that they will stay. imagine-- a whole Big boat of them! wad reasons can they give to ask to leave except laziness. ya la, now first mth only, u may say.. but i think its roughing out together as a team lo. seniors stayed on semesters after semesters. and me, little senior-junior... 5 mths and counting. hope i can stay thruout the 3 yrs too.

dinner: with jil, viv, mun ting, hidaya and esther at nydc suntec. was a lil internally paranoid when i held the menu, flipped the pages, looked at the surroundings cus that place was where the interview took place and my batch tasted the food dere. newae, had an enjoyable time with them. munting began the suntec trip by dropping a casual comment that she likes it when the team (most of them) can go out together after trng- have meals and all. that made me think. hehe. DB gals always rock my world.

Sprinting Away at
12:41 a.m.

Sunday, January 9, 2005

plankton in the sea
follow-up: (of previous entry)--- that 2 guys (hao's frens) that viv and i went up to actually came for trng. they'd better stick with us cos i believe in everyone, new and old. Giving up is not an option. woohoohoo.

frankly speaking, im afraid i'll lose myself tho. most vital areas of me-- like shoulder blades and knee caps are creaking at ridiculous hours of the day. am stil aching and swelling esp at the shoulders, back, CALVES and thigh. kinda miss the achy feeling til tis wk.. after 2 mths hiatus.

4 girls came on tue and 15 on thu. woots! got belle... so glad she made it thru.. jane and i introduced her and her joseph fren to DB at the library lo.

wanna step up on personal trng oso in conjunction with surf n SWEAT.. however, my bod is still not in the right state. i tried to up the recovery process by eating lotsa Chicken and taking dairy products... but it turned out to be in vain.

notice i cant link my thots up. they are all fragmented--piece by piece.

Sprinting Away at
10:45 p.m.

Friday, January 7, 2005

butterflies in my tummy
call me naive but i was glad that guys (tho i was hoping vry much that girls would do the same) came up to viv and i and asked if they could join DB. But after that, Jo saw them throw the leaflet away and added dat they were playin with me. i guess i've come to a point of desperation for ppl to join? frankly speaking i was vry afraid of what today holds, as my last sentence of previous entry says. cos i have lessons that i cannot skip. it's not just cannot. it's difficult. imagine if i skipped the 1-6pm lab lessons today, i'm doomed-- it'll take me at least a week or so to catch up plus a fair share of everyday's load. so i feel caught in an uneasy situation... despite needing to recruit girls. have to keep asking lo. i'm glad sch ended on a good note... C programming is fun tho the room was freezin.
Daddy's Bdae today. Got him a Schaeffer pen from NYP's MSC. had dinner with family at chong pang. :)

Sprinting Away at
09:00 p.m.

Monday, January 3, 2005

i love my blog
:) *cosy day

it had been raining even before i woke up today. went to church with parents. attended youth svc after a long hiatus. char, pris, lydia, fenny were there! :) however, some friendships have weakened due to their committments or could it be me lacking the initiative? i still believe it takes two hands to clap. anyways, my parents were kind enuff to send us all to cine for lunch :) after which i went to the doghouse to see the ppl and return the tees.
it's family day at sapphire. got a fake swatch and went for foot and shoulder massage by the visually disabled with mommy. dinner was on my uncle at a nearby kopitiam.

i'm learning to count my blessings and number them one by one

time to reveal my 2005 resolutions! they will be under 'profile'.
let's not talk abt tmr for tmr will arrive at its time.

Sprinting Away at
08:14 p.m.

Sunday, January 2, 2005