y.dae was my last day. it was saddening... i spent half hr penning down my thots from the beginning and those memories that held me up til 26 dec. todays andrews bdae. wun be seeing him forever le. it's not fated i guess.. wadever it is there will be a part II to it.. i hope.
Reality Check: My left hamstrings ache bigg time... cos i hardly move my left leg due to the wound on the knee. i can still run but stretches will be tuff. haf not be exercising since last DB trng :x and i gorged this festive season cos 1. i slpt at 3am and woke up before 11am 2. my relationship with food rekindled (bad! bad!) 3. i was inquisitive with my sudden weight loss (early days at NYDC) and see how fast i can put on weight 4. i wasnt comfortable with my lack of bulk. yupps... so since im bulking up, i'll lose weight soon... haha after my house is free from junk food!
DB trngs are on Tue and Thu evenings for this wk... am so looking forward to it. pushups r a headache.. as always...
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07:16 a.m.
Monday, December 27, 2004
Blogger's Block that is. It's becoming a crisis at waterblog.. partially cos im duper SICK of the layout i.e profile and stuff on the right and entry on the left.. plus the colours that lures the sleepy bug out. sigh.. so before it gets any worse, i shall share how i spent my christmas eve and christmas. Eve was spent at sch in the morning (writting late christmas cards at lectures) and the rest of the day with parents. i daresay i spent more than a thousand this month. on cds, shoes, bags... spent like i never spent before heheh. oh well, that doesnt always happen eh? have been sleeping late too.. ard 3am. been online most of the time, blog hopping and friendstering. i uploaded 2 new pics in friendster btw. christmas was spent at home till evening then off to service with family. in short, this particular christmas is a homely affair and im pretty fine with it tho i kinda miss some of my good buddys.. only caught Joy and Lydia at church last nite. after months of material-engagement, or even a moment of seperation from HIM, can be devastating... unless you're preoccupied but being preoccupied is just as bad cos no one can stay preoccupied for life until ignorance sets in. then the real Hell overtakes. in conclusion, church wasnt so bad after all... a short and sweet reminder of the simple truth. ##"Come as You are"##
Will be wrking at the doghouse later.. 12-6pm. that will be my second last day. i hope i'll see andrew. i wanna take pics of his star tattoos on his wrists!
2005 will be a brand new start. this page will be archived and the Layout will change :) i'll most prolly blog often. in addition, sea trng will be on sat afternoons!!! 3.30pm... i can make it for YA svc or sun svc le. is this FaB or wad? ;)
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01:47 a.m.
Sunday, December 26, 2004
i kinda like my modules this sem. it's something different and i wun become stagnant in learning. German is cool.. mostly abt guessing the meaning from the sound of it. and Gisela is my deutsch namme. giving myself another chance with electrical and electronics stuff... i din do well in that area when i took pure physics in sec sch. furthermore, my time-table is tight.. had to rush frm sch to wrk and back to sch again for trng.. and cos of my anxiety, i fell on my abt-to-heal wound when i got off the taxi.. the accident spots were just 100m or so away frm each other onli. as usual, i din make a big fuss out of it. such tragedies happen occasionally. :)
Trng was good.. i realized i was more in love with the programme than anything.. no wonder i hardly talk :x tho being ard with close budds are a plus. well, that gotta change and i dunno how. ran 8 rounds=4 sets circuit with Jil. it was so coincidental; i was wondering on wed evening during my run ard the estate when i was gonna run on the nyp million dollar field with her. haha.. my dream came true. wed evening: actually ran on those road side grass and a hill and 10 pullups and push ups. total dist is abt 3km i guess... mabbe more? took 45 mins to complete. lemmi give u an introduction to road side grass: they are uneven, rocky, and because of road side canals, i have to leap over them at approx every 30m :P read that its better to run on grass than cement/concrete. running on grass strengthens the calves.
side trax: i came up with this in split second-- You're so bright, u light the sky. all the best in all u do. i believe in eu. dun think anyone will think in that line eh. hah.. nvm.. for entertainment's sake. that's y it's so OOP in this entry. only in this entry. :)
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12:13 a.m.
Friday, December 24, 2004
Today's finally 20 dec 2004. First day of Semester 2. The nice warm atmosphere is back again-- with students buzzing around the campus, esp. the engrg canteen!! Guess who i saw when i was on my way to sch from the station?! it was my ol' C. i was squinting my eyes summore to make sure i wasnt wrong. but i wun be anyway cause his style cannot be missed plus he was wearing the recluse shirt. what's new. :p i was woooooo... saw him not at sch but at least near yck AT LAST!~ i wun dwell on the moment-10.30am. it's somewhat special but will always be in sepia. haha and i was late for the first class! no regrets man. glad to see all my gals.. siti, yao kun and yvonne. :) it was super slack at sch anyway... tutors telling their life story, EL-Q teachers strolling the lab..... that's about it.
went to my fav hideout aftersch... sunplaza... library. had sth sinful before and after. it's a secret heh... i'll run it off tmr. then got this grey kittish coin bank frm NTUC! so kawaii.
DB trng tmr! lallala so happy :) can see my darlingzz!! despite e full day 8am-6pm.. but i dun care.. second day only ma. and german at 1pm... what more can i ask? :)
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10:12 p.m.
Monday, December 20, 2004
that's it. i shall remain as such until the time of awakening. the time will soon come. this is promise. till then i will lie in my crib and whisper the yearnings of a hungry soul to no one. background. wallpaper. solitary. i'mma built-in cabinet.
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enuff crapping.. mel's just tired. affects everything man. my friendships (where r they?), my running speed (more fatigue), attitude (sam seng lui), etc. wrk gotta stop if not mel will burst like a bath time bubble.
y.dae, which was just an hr plus ago, we did pool rowing at 10.15am. learnt a lot of reu and za :) ran to sch with the big black heavy bag too .. cus was late mtg jazz for run. by the time i landed on e track b4 rowing, i was shagged so i did only 2 rounds. rushed to wrk after dat frm 12-6pm then family outing. downed 2 cheesecakes frm cine. icks. after wrking at nydc, i cultivated a sweet tooth. bleah. newae. im so looking forward to sch. at least i wun be shredding chicken or asking ppl whether they're ready to order for 6 long hrs or more.
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01:15 a.m.
Saturday, December 18, 2004
where should i begin? there's so much things to do, to say, to look forward too, given one day breakaway frm wrk. i was online the whole of today trying to find the 'perfect' backgrd that is neat, pretty, uncluttered, not black and 800 x 600 pixel but failed. decided to settle with yuna again (even if she makes me sleepy).. til i archive this page. so can any kind soul source for iT whenever u're free?? i promise to keep it until one page is full and it'll be in the archive section.
made a personal decision to stop wrk next week cus it's difficult to juggle many committments.. given a full time-table.. cant turn things around.. let alone squeeze it. Sch and DB is enuff. plus that yoga-pilates course... triple headache. i'm gonna study Germanese too. hehe.
am lazy to go out today. figured out a way to get the time-table online w/o passing thru e dumb nyp personal e-mail. am still aching frm tue's gyming. nowadays i kinda doubt i'll ache frm a run... unless there's an increase in mileage. 2 rounds ard the sch not enuff. maybe 3 would do the trick.
i hate to pack when i'm tired. still have to wash clothes, change bedspread, tidy the closet, pack my cupboard, dispose useless stuff... guess i would need more than a day.
P.S i worked 92.5 hrs since Dec 1. considering that i took a break on the 9th and today. woots.
dun need u animore. go crank urself up. i wun be bothered
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03:28 p.m.
Thursday, December 16, 2004
checked the system for the time table. -eyes wide opened -
it's gonna be hellish til next yr.. i.e next mth.. then life will be back to normal. i dun need adw anymore. makes no difference cus i expect nth and nth will be expected frm him... i jus want a normal life.. go sch, study hard. go trng, trng well. have frens, be a fren. wrking at nydc is *wrinkles nose* adw will always be a memory. no matter wad, i wun live to regret whatever path i take or the recurring thots of the possibility of making wrong choices.
now i've to worry abt pursuading my parents to let me wrk, study and train frm 20 dec to 31 dec. does dec always have 31 days or is 2004 plain suay?
i want a picture of u ... that is only if we can't grow old together...
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12:35 a.m.
Saturday, December 11, 2004
hiaz why do i always have to blog at 12 plus in the morning For the previous day? cus i always settle at this time. bleah. dun realli like it as it's difficult to keep track of the day's events-- like i blogged abt it in detail. sometimes not.
abt tue 7 dec.. had a 4 fillings sandwich frm sembawang and HL milk near my workplace. reach somerset at 10.05am lo!! freakin early soooo i hung myself ard. never had a good breakfast in days.
10.30am-12.30pm: hardly a soul come by nydc. was e runner for cold side. [nv for the Hot side]. that 10 buckaroo was easy income.
flew solo.. esp nearing 4pm cus ferdy and bouncer-to-be (my runner parter) got reprimanded and detained frm their duties as they din make themself useful enuff so nizam told to shred a tray of cold white chicken pieces by 5pm.
4.30pm-5pm: checking my watch repeatedly. time seemed to crawl by. left at 5pm sharp even tho that was the busiest hr of ydae.
5pm-9pm: caught the train at 5.10pm. got a seat *phew.. frm all that standing and speeding ard.. sitting becomes second nature. i sit whenever i can nowadays. training was good. i would like more track tho. running is better than walking but it's best to have both worlds. did less than 400m of running. was hoping for the usual 6 rounds or more.. but oh well, not everyone can start of at the same standard where they left off. fun was before weights. kinda haphazard la but doesnt matter.. still luv the gals. weights increased to 6.25kg.. from 3.75kg. thank God we're stil in one piece. each set was indeed a muscle tearing, tear-fighting, teeth clenching experience. had supper after that.. if not trng will be wasted. hehe.
threw all my clothes in the washing machine (even the singlet and nydc shirt) after resting. told u i almost died-ed. only my body is alive. head, arms and legs are close to gone. one more day of wrking full shift.. 12pm-10.30pm later and i'll connsider whether i should rest on thu.. before trng.
hmm looked like i'd blogged a lot. prolly got the germs frm jil and lance. ahaha. ;)
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12:20 a.m.
Wednesday, December 8, 2004
[Frame 1] thot wrk will be a monotone w/o adw but hey, with my fellas ard like shane, ferdy, jonathan, wen yao, theodora, vicki, and dat 2 pretty gals, life is gooood.. in fact, i dare say it was wootsi.
[Frame 2] was so happening ydae-- a man and lady model came with a photographers and makeup pros to nydc for photo shoot.. they were vry friendly and it was awesome jus watching them in action! they featured our mango tango cheesecake too!! in addition, kui jien, ex-disney channel host n hunk was with the tv crew outside heerens'. could see them chasing strangers for those kind of street finds reality show
[Frame 3] was realli enjoying myself today. customers were generally well-behaved esp the grp of 5 malay guys :) asked to see their table nos and this particular guy said 31..32...3132!!! comin out first prize in 4D this sat! :P they cracked some other jokes that none of my other customers did so far too. sure lightened up my day. since i was in a good mood and many of my frens r staying on, i reqested to extend my 'stay'.. din work out cos they've more than enuff ppl.
[Frame 4] After wrk, went with jonathan to far east plaza to get his black-metal groupie pullover. he's much nicer to hang out with compared to adw-- shared abt his siinals, however u spell that, on menthol, his choice for gals, complaining abt pussyboi... anithing but adw. i had a strong urge to ask sth abt adw but resisted cos there's a high possibility that he'll suspect. talking abt nice guys, wenyao and shane were the best! :D they helped me with the soopid pda that is pretty cocked up la. then we din use it in the end. had a relief. manual chits r way better. jonathan seems quite intelligent when we converse.. hmm wanted to tell him dat and ask y he quitted sch at 16. sucha waste eh.
[Frame 5] went isetan to meet parents after far east. got stuck at my mom's frens' shop. caught a quick snooze there. dinner at the usual place and the highlight of the nite-- A sexy red puma shoes frm mom :) good soles and comfort. hmm-mm. tried the 9 1/2 size, and it slipped so perfectly that i was in a state of temporal bliss til i got home. finally gotten rid of at least 4 pairs of ol' shoes and slippers. yays!! [Frame 6] i seriously need to get rid of the love handles. thank goodness there's DB trng later at 6pm! oosh and im gonna wrk from opening til 5 pm. is this madness or wad. and wed.. wrking from 12pm to closing.. ie 10.30pm. i think it Must be Madness. Mushroom Madness. onli jiL noes wad i mean. see ya later babe!
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12:01 p.m.
Tuesday, December 7, 2004
andrew still gives me that warm fuzzy feeling. i dun noe why. if it is not for him, i wun go church y.dae. but good thing i went cos the whole svc wasnt abt him *phew. was realli out of touch with the substance when i was MIA for wks. feels great to be back.
andrew: hmm y and how did he becomes my Quarry. i love his tear-drop eyes, purple lenses (tho i thot it was blue the vry first time), his sturdyness, the tone and way he speaks, etc. everything lies perfectly just like a missing puzzle in my jigsaw of life. however there's a fine line betw fantasy and reality. oh well everything will be out of hand until u allow super God in ur life.. and let Him change u.. hehe tho i was kinda like my ol' self jus now. wadever it is i had a fine time with adw.
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01:05 a.m.
Monday, December 6, 2004
it happened.
10am-12.45pm: Ate breakfast with dad n bro.. packed 3 drawers. 11 more cabinet sections to go. deadline 14 Dec.
...Washed clothes, bathed...
3pm-4.30pm: at Heerens'. trng to use pda. quite boring simply cos i cant get the hang of it.
...lunch with Ferdy, Habibah and Ramesh at Taka foodcourt...
5.25pm-7.25pm: wrked at n.y.d.c wheelock with Ferdy. liked the ppl, like the place, hate my condition. everything seemed to sway from left to right. waitressing is a tuff job when u lack slp.
...rushed to heerens' with Ferdy...
7.45pm-10.30pm: cleaned up n.y.d.c heerens' with Zen, Vicki, Ferdy and the other staff for the dry run tmr. got free drink and turkey bacon frm B.K for supper. i was starved then... so those came just on time.
11pm: TAUFIK!!! i was wootsi! my heart almost toppled over. i knew he'll make it -smiles wideee-
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12:47 a.m.
Thursday, December 2, 2004
had trng part II at suntec 12.30pm-3pm. basically listened to supervisor for heerens' abt the menu again- familiarizing it and role-playing. lunch with jiL at foodcourt... the icky eel don.
after snoozing on my ride back yishun, i had cravings so ate a papaya(that's fine), almond pudding(er.. it's acceptable) and EBI FRITTERS from Yoshi(bad!bad!)--cos there's no shrimp croq and i want a clean spoon for my pudding. sighs... thot i could burn those off in my run. BUT. BUT. i feel a furnace heating up in me as i ran 3.6km with a tinee break at 1.8km. competed with a malay army guy towards the end and i won!!--despite my 'shortcomings' and sheer determination. i was leading until 1.2km towards my finish line before he took over. the gap betw us grew to abt 50-100m-- visualized my future standard chartered marathon and treated it as tho am chasing him and waallaa 1m away frm end pt and its over. slow jog... warmup-ed then went home do weights. latest thing i chewed down? a small piece of cuttlefish my mom offered. dinner was peanut butter bread and cheese.
in conclusion: never ever ever eat fried food before a run or any intense trng thinking it will burn off--yeah it will however ur heart and upperbody will be the first to get fried.
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10:02 p.m.
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
people, friends, cats and dogs:
sit if i take too long to update my blog. yupps. me too man. i wanna update everytime but i get sucha thing as blogger's block.
anyways.. a job at n.y.d.c is secured. dun ask me wad it stands for. heh, it's just n.y.d.c, a local chain.. couldnt believe at first either cus it seems anything but singlish. trng will last til fri perhaps before jil and i pioneer over to the new branch at heerens'.
all i can think of is wrk. i dun care abt my upcoming schedule. i wanna spend all my free hrs there. i believe something can be done to overcome... something like better time management? yeah, so i wun waste my days wandering at shopping arcades.
k, enuff of blogging, i'll save the juice for the next round!
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10:20 p.m.
Monday, November 29, 2004
Fast forward. Fast Forward. Fast Forward. Ctrl-Alt-Delete.
Pilates 2.30pm: i was literally sweating my head off every minute of the one hour. the bucket of sweat is equal to doing 5 stationary barbell stations at trngs.. or many many pushups and situps simultaneously. plus, the instructor is a guy. he's better in teaching actually; less fierce or tensed. too bad he's only a relief.
Later: gonna iron clothes. run. bathe and then prep for cell dinner at 6.45pm.
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04:35p.m.
Friday, November 26, 2004
25 minutes ago: i was trying to get into e-services for results. it was so faulty since 12am.
15 minutes ago: 10.25am. Finally got in. *inhaled deeply* ahhhhh i got Bs. lotsa them! phew* only personal development got A and Engrg Maths a B+. *released a sigh of relief* called mom and dad to tell 'em the good news. yupps. life still goes on. it's a motivation to put even more effort to balancing in sem 2.
Got a job with her yest too.. at n.y.d.c wheelock but interview at suntec next mon. sigh.. can only wrk for 1 mth tho. i wanna make a difference! [[since i have to juggle the following: DB, Sch wrk, Wrk, Yoga-Pilates class <-yups that's still on]]-it's a matter of how much i wanna succeed.
there's a lot of things i wanna get off my chest. But since my thoughts run faster than my typing speed and my typing speed is faster than my talking plus processing speed, it will take a while for me to learn not to bottle feelings.
secret: melissa din have weak tummy till recently.. after SRR. my sodium intake rocketed as high as my carbo intake = may be the cause of my frequent visit to the toilet. i love the initial part i.e. the squeezing of tummy to pass wadeva in my body out. works de abs man! haha.. kiddin but dun overdo it. Have not been exercising.. well i WILL Run later..
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01:47 a.m.
Thursday, November 25, 2004
