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Online name: Michiko Sakaguchi
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Welcome to Heart felt Desire, my personal blog. This layout features Twins, a Hong Kong duo. I felt that unlike my other layouts, I would actually feature females instead of the usual male. Thus the name ANIMA::the girl in you for Version 6. So here's something different with a pastel blue overtone feel to it which I haven't had before in any of my other layouts. I hope you like it. Hope you enjoy reading about my daily life...O____o If you find it interesting that is. >.<

Sunday, July 7, 2002

Hi...its too late to write very much so I'll give you the details about the ball in the next entry..maybe by the time I have my new layout. Only problem is my 30-day trial for CuteFTP has run out. Does anyone know the registration code? If you do, please tell me so I can continue to update this site. It's been a while I know.

Well, what I'm really here for is to show you this cool song that Constance sent me. It's so cute!!!!! I wish I could make something like that eh! Oh well. I'm really busy..My hair is still curly!

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 03:02 a.m.

Thursday, July 4, 2002

THE BALL IS IN ONE DAY!!

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 02:08 p.m.

Wednesday, July 3, 2002

Man I need a new layout. I've been working on this Edison one but I havent really like plugged it yet. I'm still busy with school. Thats such a major thing. I had so many tests this week. Now its all finished and I can relax but have to ball coming up on Friday. Chung...are you going to come? Think I'll call my daigor today to confirm something. Hope Sophie remembers to call her hairdresser whether they have a spot for me there. Besides that and the makeup...everything is organised and ready. I even ordered Anthony's (my ball date) button hole flowers. Hope it matches the casage (spelling?) he's going to get me. We both got them from different places.

I really really really need to work on a new layout

Oh yeah..I'm working on Caroline's blog, just to get the blog coding right and the right colour scheme. (still looks a bit unco atm). I'm going to try my dress on again and practise walking with those damn high heels. As well as that..yin, if you're reading this which I know you will, thank your mum for me for making my dress. Its beautiful!

Oh yeah..my cousins gf just told me that I can borrow any of her 3 ball dresses. Now she tells me! Oh well. besides the disappointment, Im just realy really glad to have contact with her all the way from Sydney. Well..I better stop blogging. And nobody is coming to visit me anymore. And my affiliate is down..where is she?????

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 04:29 p.m.

Friday, June 28, 2002

Well..like I said in the previous entry, I went to my best friends house. It was so exciting. Got into my dress just to have a picture with her in her room (not very formal I know but any picture with her on her special occasion is what I'm there for) Xiao...will you come mine? Whats going on with Chung. Ai yah..daigor...dont get sick lah ok...=)

I saw so many primary school people at Xiaos house. And I saw Eddie. He said hi. hahahHAHahaHah... He's nice. and yeah...everyone looks absolutely stunning!!! This is the Willetton ball I'm talking about...I can't wait till mine..but at the same time, I'm really really anxious about it. I guess its what you make it. Just hope I dont step on like dog shit or something =P

Well better get back to work. I'm blogging at school more often now. =DDDDD

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 10:44 a.m.

Thursday, June 27, 2002

I'm at school at the moment and just finished our year 12 group photo. =) Graduation is drawing near. But better yet...Im going to Xiao's house today to take photos with her before her ball and try out my dress again to check it out. I CANT WAIT!!! then maybe if my parents let me, I will go have dinner with Chung and Jacqui! Wooho!!!

Oh yeah...totally screwed up my Calculus EPW. Oh well.=(

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 03:07 p.m.

Monday, June 24, 2002

Suzy's Party
Some pretty cool things happened on the weekend. Went to Suzy's bash at this hall..the typical teenage party but the kewl thing was that suzy hired the disco lights, music and a bubble machine! YEah Suzy..what happened to the jumpy castle? I hope she liked my present. I gave her a top because about 2 days before the party, Suzy and Chung came to school to visit us since they finished their exams and she said she didnt have a lot of tops (which i dont believe for a second!) so I got her a top. The problem with my choice of presents for my friends is that I want them myself. I had to part with the eeyore soft toy I gave to Chung and the top. =(((( It was a nice top. THInk suzy will like it. Hope it fits though. I tried it on myself and it fits me but suzy skinnier than I am *note again...it fits ME!*

The party was fun. Alvin was there, Jacqui, Chung, Don, Kean, erm...was kean there?, Michael Ng (finally got to meet that Glay tryhard...=P) erm...Alister, the other Cindy (she's soooooooo kewl and funny!) and Les. We managed to make everyone think he was 6 years younger than he actually is. *kkekekee* Yeah there was this cute girl who looked like this girl from church called Yvonne, only she was everything that Yvonne isnt (I found her quite irritating actually but after a while, figured she was really nice). HEY CHUNG! yeah you saw wat Alister wore rite. Your favourite person clad in black black and tight leather. I feel bad saying this. Alister is a good friend after all.

Sorry I got you worried Chung about leaving the party to go to the city. Leaving the party without telling anyone where I was going on a Saturday night, when you're worried you're parents will get you skunted is a BAD experience. I feel bad now for like ruining the night for myself and everyone in the car that night. I should'nt have acted the way I did...self absored/withdrawn/retributional. I'm going to feel bad about it for a whole week probably. Gawd I hate myself sometimes.

I didn't get to drink at the party. I could've...I wanted to... Now I feel uncool. *feeble smile* And nobody danced...I was too shy to cos nobody else was. I know Alvin and Suzy tried to get me to and Chung was running around going *WHAT the hell is this music* I always wanted to see that boi boogie with his 60's Disco tracks.

Sunday after...apologized to everyone I could (thats how bad I felt for being so rude and selfish). Went to Xiao's house to try out my ball dress that her mum was making for me. It's pretty nice I guess. Although the colour is way more purple than pink (relief????) so my necklace matches Jacqui more (who also wen to try her skirt)...I'll blog some photos after the ball for yah..Going to Xiao's preball on Thursday after school...so you better take pictures with me girl!!!!

OMG i feel sick..*holds stomach n runs to toilet* must be the curry puffs.

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 12:39 p.m.

Thursday, June 20, 2002

Hey! I didnt realise that Shinhwa 5 was already out! Wow..I'm am so slow. Wonder when that happened. It's No. 2 as well which I think rocks but then guess who's No. 1 in the korean charts but Boa herself.

Sorry I havent been blogging for so long. I'm kinda busy and mum is pissed cos im on the net all the time and not doing my homework. Its just the post-exams I think. Nothing I can do about it.

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 10:11 p.m.

Monday, June 10, 2002

I went to watch StarWars yesterday. I'm talking to Jack right know and he agrees that Spiderman is better by miles! Anyway..was watching it with Leslie and Wynne..sigh..just like old times. YEah...its fun catching up to those two. Found out they have a really really wracked family history. Wynne just about ruins Les' soccer glory. I'm surprised that girl watched every game she could. Yeah..I'd like to talk about how much I enjoy watching the Korean and Jap soccer players and how much I'm looking forward to Korean vs Japan if there is one, but I havent had time to watch anything on tv. Just finished my exams...went out...got my dress measured..and shuuuummp... I'm back to school.

Anyway..something scary. I think me and Les are telepathic...or maybe we just know each other very well but that stilll doesnt explain all the coincidences and stuff happening. *freeeeeaky* >______<

YEah..im trying to contact my multi millionaire cousins. But I havent seen them for so long.. and I dunno whether the email addy I typed in was right. I went to visit their company website but it doesnt have any of my two cousins names in it so Im not sure. Cross my fingers and hope they reply soon. I miss them.

IM IN LOVE WITH PETER PARKER!!!. I dont care whether he's a Tobey Maguire or not. He's my hero... YEah... have to face my child fantasy's eh? I loved 'Spiderman'. Go watch it. I dont care what you say about it either or how you diss it if you dont like it. kekeke...sigh.. Wanna watch it again!

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 07:44 p.m.

Wednesday, June 5, 2002

I'm not mad at you kotori!!! Don't you ever think like that! I cant get into my ftp account for some reason. Never mind, I'll wait for you. Wonder if I did something wrong. Hope your stomach feels better! Seriously getting worried.

The Calculus exam was really easy! I'm really happy because of that. Thank god there were'nt any sniffles, sneezes or coughs in the exam room. I only have my Japanese tomorrow and my Japanese oral the day after. Then I'm FREEE!!!

I feel bad for not reading other peoples blogs. I always forget. I read EVERYTHING on the weekend. Hahahha..hope i can keep my promises though.

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 12:51 p.m.

Tuesday, June 4, 2002

I've moved this blog to http://bittersweets.net/michiko/. Please note the change and if you are linked to me, change your links to the new address. Thanks!! I really appreciate it *MUUuuaahH!*.

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 03:34 a.m.

Tuesday, June 4, 2002

AHHH!!! Whats going on? I'm so 'tired'. I'm really really sick and got my Calculus exam tomorrow. I don't think I can do it. A bit of crying will do me good. My webdesign life isnt good too. A bit slow I know. Sorry I just don't have TIME!

Well..things aren't as bleak as they seem. *optimistic side of Cindy surfacing now!*. I think I'm doing OK in my exams, except for lit but im over that now. Going to the movies with leslie on Sunday..Yay cant wait! Oh yeah..on Sunday, it was the first time i drove through a drive thru! YES! my manouvuability (spelling?) is good, plus I discovered (after doing this twice) that petrol is CLEAR!!! I thought it would be yellow and thick (yeah i no...im thinking about cooking oil here, at least im better than my brother who thinks its BROWN!) Aw..man..i think my stupidity amuses people.

Hm...what else.. besides feeling so TERRIBLE physically and worrying about my exams..(the doctor thinks studying is a form of relaxation and its how I should rest for my illness ???!!???)and being so behind in my website designing etc...(Im soooo sorry kotori and melissa..forgive me), Im feeling just FINE!!! and im not sarcastic.>___<

*cough cough* my throat is DEAD!! AHHhh..it hurts..so so soooo tired ..feel so so weak..*grumble groan sniff sigh*

Miss ya constance. Got ur ball preps ready yet? AHHHhhhhh! the BALL!! thats rite! Almost forgot. *groans more*

Oh yeah..added my first AFFILIATE!!! Her layout simply rocks. Ayumi Hamasaki man. See side for the link.

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 02:14 a.m.

Friday, May 17, 2002

Exams are coming soon. I wont be bloggin as much.

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 10:44 a.m.

Monday, May 13, 2002

I havent really updated you guys on the links I've put up here. I'll add more and notify you on them but check these ones out.

Kotori - [Her : really : cool : sites] - Kotori is my host for my Final Fantasy Clique which will hopefully be up soon (hosted at rinoaheartilly.net, previously squall.org). She has a lot of sites and they are all VERY GOOD and constantly updated. She works really hard on all her sites and projects and is a nice friend. We are working on a SQUALL SHRINE at squall.ws.

Takiko - [Two worlds:Free Flying]
A blog currently featuring Kelly Chen and a really kewl Personal site. Also a host of Kotori.

Kuja - [Dreamz]
He has lots of sites and a really nice Ayashi no ceres layout!

Lisa - [Devotion]
Lisa is very cute and has a Kelly Chen layout as well. Check out her blog

Rady - [Nightshade]
Also has lots of sites and a talented girl who loves anime.

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 12:33 p.m.

Monday, May 13, 2002

Mother's Day
I didnt give mum anything this year. I dont usually actually but she knows I love her =PPP I think the highlight was at church when Leslie gave us this Mother's Day speech. I recall it being really really good because it was touching with the added humour you're sure to get with Les *wink* ;D. AWww... he told me that as he was speaking up there, his mum was crying in front of him. I wouldnt blame her since her son is saying all those nice, sweet things about her. Yeah and as for your message to the teenagers, I'll remember everything that you said cos yeah..makes me realise how important mum has been ever since I was born. Hahahah...when we get to your age it doesnt matter whether your mum is cool or not cos she's always been there. Les, if you're reading this, thanks for the message...you're gonna do really good things for this world, for us and dont you forget that!! Hope you dont mind me saying this here ok...Knowing you is one hell of a life experience and thats enough for me...^___^

Happy Mothers Day to all the mums out there...and if my mum was reading this, I'd tell her how much I love her...*HUgZ*

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 12:20 p.m.

Tuesday, May 7, 2002

I got my Japanese test results back. I did pretty good I think XXXXD. Go me! 75% Writing, 78% Oral Interview and 90% Reading. If I remember correctly my Listening was 83%. Well I'm hoping for like a 75% for my Shakespeare essay.*clasps hands together* please please please please let me get something like that!!!!

Had a nice talk with my friend Sammy and Jason after school today. They are my really nice friends. Thanks for being there guys, you're fun! ^_________^

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 09:25 p.m.

Monday, May 6, 2002

HEY! I really like Linny's new layout. I reckon it looks really cool! Speaking of which, Im really sorry that you cannot see any of my graphix here. I'll get it up as soon as possible but I forgot my ftp password. What was the username again? Ill have to ask Kotori again.

The coolest things happened!!!! I can only tell my close friends though...>_____< but it was really really really cool. XXXXXXXXXXD...Hey...the lyrics to this song is nice...*DI YI SHI JIAN* awww... Maybe I should translate them and write them down in here. They are simple yet straight forward and really sweet. Wish a guy could say something like that to me...HAhaHahAHa.

I'm feeling so-so today..after I scared my parents by *disappearing* from church for a couple of hours yesterday.

[insert comments]
I don't think running away really helps. I mean, sure, you can escape your problems, temporairly, but when you come back, they could grow more and they start to build up. I've never ran away, I'd rather deal with my problems, then get away from them. I know a few ppl who have run away, I lose my respect towards them. I believe its a cowardly and foolish action, similar to suicide on a less extreme note. Please, don't get me wrong, I'm sure you all are very intelligent, just not on the fact that you ran away.

REally...who said I was running away? *sniff* I feel weird for typing this out. I really shouldn't publish this like this. Way too personal but I dunno... I feel like I always screw up. Its always me. My fault! And I hate myself for it. Excuse me while I endorse myself in another period of self-hate.

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 07:06 p.m.

Saturday, May 4, 2002

I came back from camp yesterday afternoon and I had a lot of fun and more importantly relaxation. Ah..the bliss of going to the beach everyday, feeling the breeze in your face and tasting the salt of the ocean. The atmosphere was really nice and different to something you would find the city. Anyway, we slept in a *shack* (>____< I know, pretty cool huh?) and the girls I shared a room with were pretty cool. One of them, (the annoying, attention seeking one) kept us awake all night because she couldnt sleep because of the lighthouse. I mean...duh! don't you close your eyes when you sleep. And my dismal attempt to start a pillow fight failed when I got hit (too hard) by the girl sleeping next to me with a *sausage pillow* in my face. *seriously, you cant' even call that a pillow* We shared a room to three hungry mosquitoes who expanded 2 times in size in the morning. The photos will turn out really good. I'll get them up as soon as possible when they're developed.

Unfortunately the holidays are ending very soon and I admitted have not done anything. No homework, no webdesigning...nothing! I feel like I've wasted 2 weeks. Why am I so lazy?????? This is so unfair! The reason why I havent been working on anything is because my webservers are down or on hiatus. Why does this have to happen in the holidays? Oh well. I hope I dont get skunted by my mum when I do them while school starts, but then I've got my exams to think about too and I havent studied for them. I really wonder where all the time went because I havent spent any with my friends either. *sob* I'm not very happy today.

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 11:36 a.m.

Tuesday, April 30, 2002

Added some more rings. They look really funny on my page. I should do something about the HTML. squall.org is back. But I dont think she can host me on this domain anymore. I will probably have to move.

Just finished 2nd disk of FFVIII. I dont think I will play anymore. I have to think about starting to study. I have my Othello oral to think about dued on the first week of school with Carol. Have to call her to find out when we can start our preperation.

Walked all the way to Constance's house yesterday but I couldnt get in! Don't worry about Antique. I will never get to watch it. Dont wanna look like I'm stealing your Hideaki..>______< J/k

Starting to get ready for camp soon. I'll be gone for a while. Hope you hear from you soon. ^_____^

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 01:08 p.m.

Friday, April 26, 2002

AHHhhh!!! Titus and Yuuna kissing. It's too beautiful...*blows into a kleenex* Just looking through a lot of FF stuff on the net. You'll be surprised (or maybe not) at how many shrines there are dedicated to Final Fantasy. Trying to look for some decent Squall fanfics for the upcoming shrine I'm sort of working on only I don't seem to be able find the time to.

well I went to amei's new art site and reckon its so cool!!! She's worked really really hard on it. You go girl!

im feeling kinda bored now. Theres nothing to do! Makes me realise what an exciting life I had before. >____< Maybe I'll reread The Handmaid's Tale again.

OH yeah...and im getting a bit annoyed. my webservers are down. I'll just have to be patient until they are up again

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 02:30 p.m.

Saturday, April 20, 2002

Heywo! Do you like my layout? It's ok I guess. I had in mind something else actually but this suits me fine. Its the holidays now which means i get more time to do what I like to do for once instead of digging my nose in textbooks all the time studying for LIT ESSAYS or JAPANESE ORALS!!! HahaHaha.. Chung visited me after school and gave me this really cute blue bear spring toy to congradulate me for passing my practical driving test. Awwww...you shouldn't have bro..its so cute and sweet of you. I stuck it in the car and everytime I drive, it bounces up and down and reminds me of you...^___^

Oh, and thanks for convincing Amy you like me...*note sarcasm here* ..sigh...reminds me of something Les would do.

I've been watching F4 vcds ever since my dad came back from malaysia. I think he got brainwashed while he was there. F4 is a taiwanese/mandarin(?) group of four guys who sing, act and dance. They are ok I guess. I know Cindy Soon loves them..she's got the pics stuck on her locker *Pssstt....dont tell her that ok!***

I'm tired and getting a headache from too much screen radiation. been on the computer and watching tv heaps. I'm starting FF8 again so I can remember whats going on. I THINK im supposed to make a squall shrine. We'll see how things turn out.

I took the following tests out of sheer boredom, but they were quite interesting::: >_________<

You're Yuna. You're hardworking and honest, and also a little naive. You can easily be lied to, but in the end your friends will look out for you. Kind and loving you'd never hurt a fly. You'd be willing to do anything to help others, even if it means some personal sacrifices for you.

Oh then, I'm shooting off. Enough blogging for one day

michiko sakaguchi ranted @ 10:21 p.m.