Thursday, April 18, 2002

I'm at school now. All the computers in my room have been upgraded to Windows XP professional. Everything looks so much better now. I'm working on an ecommerce assignment. I have to make a webpage for this assignment. That's good considering im ok at webpages. Speaking of which, I really need a new layout. This version is getting too long. Oh and kotori, could you change the link as Heart-felt Desire instead of Girls and Dolls? Girls and Dolls is only the Version name. My new version is coming out soon. Now that is the holidays, I'll be able to complete my homepage hopefully, my final fantasy clique and the squall shrine im working on with my host.

I reeally miss all my friends. With school and everything I havent been able to see them much at all. I'll catch up with you guys in the holidays ok..promise? Hopefully Constance will remember to lend me Antique. If she doesnt its all good. Chill out ok!

sincerely forgiven @ 03:13 p.m.

Sunday, April 14, 2002

I dont believe it!!!!!!! I'm so happy. I started talking to kotori, the owner of squall.org and she told me straight out that her cousin works with Squaresoft in Japan and while she was staying at her cousin's house, who in the world but Hironobu Sakaguchi, the president of Squaresoft, comes and visits.. Kotori, if you are reading this..i hope you understand how lucky you are..>_____<. I think i will huddle in the corner of my room and think about this.

sincerely forgiven @ 04:56 p.m.

Tuesday, April 9, 2002

Sorry for not blogging for a while. I've been busy will school ofcoaurse but besides that I've been making a Final Fantasy Webring. Unfortunately I have no idea how to get new members so if you have any suggestions, would like to join, know of any final fantasy sites/shrines or anything like that please tell me.. i really want this to work. i was playing around with the html editing to get the form fixed up. I'm also looking for a host (preferably a final fantasy site!) for this ring and seperate it from my homepage/blog host. So if anyone can suggest a host who will actually host me i'll kiss you. *runs a mile* At the moment, the ring is at http://sassy.imazn.com/ring/fantical.htmThanks a bunch..where are my blog supporters these days? Not signing the guestbook either.

What was the other thing I wanted to say? Oh yeah...i finally got my 'P' plates. Yay! go me. I was just saying to my brother that im probably the fastest female to get it this early. *bows...applause* I want a car! all suggestions welcome!!! Gawd i dont no anything about cars, but if you ask what kinda person i am, I will go sporty, slick or smooth. No cute cars please. =D..well gotta get back to research on Othello.

sincerely forgiven @ 07:36 p.m.

Monday, April 1, 2002

Hey everyone! HOws it going? I think i want to work on a new layout and I've already worked out a rough idea of wat its going to be like. I think this will be a good one as well. I'm actually working on a homepage amongst other stuff. I cant believe with school and all I still have time to do these things.

Jacqui's party was great. Im really sorry for not giving her anything yet. I felt really bad for that but I'll make up for it. Jacqui and CHung looked so cute together when we were singing happy birthday to them. Did you guys save me any cake? I'm sorry Jacqui but there wasnt enough booze..hahah..I was just laughing at the fact that Chung acted stupid right while we were singing karaoke, then he turns around and said..'damn! Im not drunk enough'..YEah..me too. hahah. I'm sorry I didnt spend much time with you Xiao. Maybe someday we'll really catch up eh? Well its back to school on Tuesday. At least I can say that I went out shopping (its no fun when you do it by yourself tho) and went to jacquis party. Hm...I gave chung a stuffed eeyore toy. Its sooooo cute! hope you like it! I thought xiao broke the tail for a moment b4 realising that it was meant to be that way...I miss all you guys so much already! Behave yourselves ok and have fun!

sincerely forgiven @ 11:13 a.m.

Thursday, March 28, 2002

Sammy and i walked to Chungs house today but he wasnt there. and anthony wants his nick tse cd back so chung, if you can kindly find it for me that'd be great. Im glad we have the 5-day weekend this week becuase of easter. i can go out and do some shopping as well as look forward to Jacqui's party. late nights of mucking around i guess. i dont even no who will be there. jacqui just asked me to come. it IS a party right?

ok ...listen to this. Chung made my brother cry. dont worry about it chung. he cant help it if he cant handle a harmless armwrestle. you dont have to feel bad at all. ill just give him a few spanks. (seriously i will..that boi!!!!) im gonna teach him some lessons. he's worse when leslie and co. are around. dont worry about it. *hugZZZZ*** i owe ya one.

sincerely forgiven @ 11:49 p.m.

Tuesday, March 19, 2002

hey xiao, seriously. bludging off a wallpaper for your blog layout. looks good but... well im glad you've finally thought of a layout you can keep. i cant think of any atm. i've realised that the layouts i have dont really suit the mood im in at the moment. im looking thru them and thinking how much time ive spent to make and tame each one. each one being an intricate piece of cindy-ness. hey girl, dont take it too harshly.=)

nothing much happens at school. it has, like for most others, become a daily routine or a chore. test after test. gets a bit tedious. its actually alrite to me. to hell with those who arent happy with school. it could be a lot worse remember that. im sick and tired of hearing people complain about school, teachers, changing subjects etc. seriously, you dont want to do the subject but when you're out listening to a lecture on universities, you say its boring. its like theres no way out. my philosophy, if you can call it at that, is that just bloody by content. itll all be over. its a relative thing...then you have people or should i say 'persons' who complain they didnt get that extra mark required to achieve that all-unachivable score, then when faced with the really 'bad' mark of the person sitting next to you, you act sympathetic. maybe you really are. maybe its the 'aw' thats ok at least you passed and thinking its ok for her, she's used to it. i must admit i like school 'sometimes'. i thank my friends for that.

Oh! on the weekend, i drove on the freeway!!!!! i was so excited, as i entered and we were starting to move lanes, my driving instructor told me to pick up my speed...its harder than you think..getting up to 100k's. oh the adrenalin and the rush. yippee... i feel so proud of myself. HAIL THEE MEEK L DRIVERS!!

Sammy came to Kumon to visit me at work. that boi is an inspiration in itself. hm..wat else happened. i must say im ranting too much..yes i have forgotten to say something. it'll will come back i think..

oh now it has..thats right. lately you may have seen that my graphics dont show up. my webserver has been hacked and i lost all my files.. but i got my account reopened and ill just have to do..... it.... all.... over..... again.....

sincerely forgiven @ 10:29 p.m.

Friday, March 15, 2002

Adventure world was a blast. It wouldn't have been as fun if my friends and about a third of the year 12's were there. Heheheh...*rethinking that day* . me and sammy kept talking about it in physics today and you can hear people discussing it even till now. It was on wednesday, 2 days ago. i havent got much time to rite anything today but check out the school website on our trip

http://www.rossmoyne.wa.edu.au/aw2002.htm

sincerely forgiven @ 08:03 p.m.

Wednesday, March 13, 2002

Hm...the ball is coming up soon and the weeks are flying by real fast. and i still do not have a ball date. that can be a problem but theres nothing much i can do about it. i cant even think of who i could go with. heheh edwin? hahaha. only kidding ...*backs away*. hm...i seriously do not know.. maybe ill just turn up all alone with my friends. hang on that doesnt make sense.

Imazn.com is back and im posting away, nothing to do..keeping up with watever the other imazn hostees are up to. it was down for a while and now its back up demanding a newer, fresher asian based forum with a smaller community. i think i like the sound of that.

hm...adventure world excursion tomorrow. asked mum to buy some film for me so i may be able to take pictures...show everyone else in the globe how backward perth really is with their amusement parks. not like the uenchi in japan. too bad lucarelli isnt going, otherwise me and my frens would sabatage his roller coaster seat eh..wouldnt that be neat.

I miss you Chung? why do you talk to me nowadays? busy with school eh? You really should get a blog you know..be the only guy friend who has a blog...for some reason guys dont tend to have blogs.. not all but a majority. seeya soon chung!

I wanna go ball dress shopping!!! is there a place where I can find 'interesting' ones?

sincerely forgiven @ 12:16 a.m.

Sunday, March 10, 2002

hahahaha...my life is an irony, counteracted by today's coincidence and fueled by the aches in my stomach and the tears from my eyes. I became sick on Friday, which was a pity becuase I wasnt there to witness today what i had predicted yesterday. Tell me my life is no irony .One coincidence is nothing, but what if God throws in a couple more, just for fun, and one of them really clinches it! i know this doesn't make sense to you but i cant say much for fear somebody will read this. AHHH!!! now my stomach really hurts..*runs to the toilet* no voodoo dolls or mating turtles there <---long story

Oh and you and me, baby, on wednesday we'll unite with the rest of our lucarelli resistance members (minus chia hui cos she quit physics) and show everyone how much fun a day in Adventure World is *implies that physics is actually......fun*

sincerely forgiven @ 10:26 p.m.

Friday, March 8, 2002

Ever since my grandmother and her friends came from Malaysia i havent had any privacy. actually i have cos they leave me alone but its the way they just flock and goss and cry our like its the beginning of the end really gets to me. in other words i cant really concentrate on my books. speaking of books it reminds me of any academically related. funny though cos books used to be a privelege. when was the last time i slumped on the couch instead of in front of my pc and read a nice book. i miss those little things. they reflect my past life. now? its all towards the mocks, and what we call a 'future'. speaking of which i feel deprived of my webdesign. time has been stolen from me. i must hold on to my social life amongst other things. yes, i think i will work on my visial diary.

sincerely forgiven @ 01:05 a.m.

Wednesday, March 6, 2002

Have you ever done something wrong, something to piss a good friend off, make them angry and unhappy with you somehow. Do something to really screw up and regret it really badly later on? I feel that way now. It's like a feeling that just doesn't run away from me. You feel like you don't deserve their forgiveness and that what you've done could possibly change everything? Even so...I'm going to climb to the top of my roof and say:

sincerely forgiven @ 01:19 a.m.

Monday, March 4, 2002

Hm... I was reading my previous entries right, and I think I'm going to change my writing style a little. Say something that other people can relate to for once instead of useless rants people don't want to hear. I feel like such an idiot now. All that time, ever since I started blogging in the middle of last year, I have never talked like I usually do. It's always someone I want people to think I am. I don't think I've actually written about something that shows who I really am. So yeah. All thats about to change. This is now officially ME.

sincerely forgiven @ 09:33 p.m.

Saturday, March 2, 2002

It's true, isn't it? It seems as though we're aiming for a new century. It's miraculous: This is something you can only taste once. Let's remember one more time.

On the day we arrived on this Earth we were somehow happy, and somehow it hurt. We were crying The world is full of traitors; it's easy to misjudge things. With my own two eyes I will judge the worth of this place with my own standards.

We've arrived in this kind of time. But somehow we'll die So somehow we're standing here and we're living through today. We've arrived on this kind of world. Somehow I'm very happy somehow it hurts a lot. While crying at the top of my lungs:

I've arrived in this kind of time. But I met you. I've arrived in this kind world. But I met you.

On the day we arrived on this Earth we were somehow happy, and somehow it hurt. We were crying We've arrived in this kind of time. But somehow we'll die So somehow we're standing here and we're living through today. -Evolution

sincerely forgiven @ 11:52 p.m.

Thursday, February 28, 2002

That Calculus EPW test was so hard today. I thought I was going to do ok since I did the home component alright but during the test I just couldn't think, couldn't make sense of the questions that were being asked. After the test, (bugger me), I was like 'shit' couldn't do it, didnt have enough time, not that it mattered. Whilst at the same time everyone was like asking everyone else what they got for which questions and I'm like thinking...how come they seem to know it but I don't. Maybe I'm just not smart enough. Jap was the same. We were doing listening exercises and I could'nt pick up what they were saying where like Jasmine, Joanne and them, did ok. Is it just ME??? Hm..not a very good start to the year.

sincerely forgiven @ 04:18 p.m.

Tuesday, February 26, 2002

Evolution Evolution EVOLUTION!!!!!! Yeah I'm in the Ayumi Hamasaki phase now. Yeah it took me that long but the Evolution video really tied the knot. It's good. I wanna wear like the whole black leather boots, leather skirt, and furry 'ayu' hip assessory thing. Maybe I'll die my hair blonde, be like scanty try-hard. I want that skirt!!!!!!! Love her songs...LAVEM

so...what else is there in the life of a non-scanty, wack-ass undistributed, hard-core hard-core pellet of a teenager? Carol, I understand when you say you do not comprehend your own rants...

Cindy to Carol:::Turd!!!!
Carol to Cindy::Pellet!!!
Cindy back to Carol:::TURD!!
Carol back to Cindy:::PELLet..
[runs to toilet] <---unnessary note.

Sorry, a result of mindless labour not thanks to Judith Wright. LikE HElLo..who cares about the 'spirituality of the land' and 'man's attempt to tame the land'. Yeah and I also apologize for the previous entries. I was feeling tired, still am.

sincerely forgiven @ 07:37 p.m.

Saturday, February 23, 2002

I'm tired and tired and tired. I'm knackered, buggered, drowsy, weary, flogged, enevated, drained, exhausted, fatigued, spent, wacked, irritated, exasperated, fed up and well worn. This is a time when you can expect a cold shoulder from me, the evils, igorance or avoidance. This would be a good time to steer clear away from me. This would be a good time to call me a selfish bitch. It wouldn't matter to me because when you are tired, nothing else matters to you. When I get over this, when I get some sleep, I'll apologize. Till then, I wish you all a good day.

sincerely forgiven @ 11:03 p.m.

Friday, February 22, 2002

Aw my body feels like crap. I feel like all sluggish and yuck. Its hard to describe but I'm at a time in my life when everything flies past you and leaves you behind so you wake up in bed wondering where you are and why you're here. I feel like I'm stoned or something. Wait till I find that fiesty someone who spiked my drink, or the whole water system at my house. Uh I dunno what Im even saying...

sincerely forgiven @ 08:35 a.m.

Wednesday, February 20, 2002

WOW! I recieved an email from my long lost cousin Sheena. {hehehehe} We haven't seen each other since I was five. Sheena, if you are reading this, was it you who picked up the phone when I wanted to call your mum while I was in KL? Sorry I spoke in hakka. I was kinda nervous. =) I'm so happy!

I also got an email from Brendan, a friend I met when he visited Perth during Chinese New Year. He and his brother are special because they were born in Sandakan where I was as well. Besides my relatives, they are the only ones I now know who are from my birthplace. Cheers ya'll.

By the way, does my guestbook work now?

sincerely forgiven @ 05:42 p.m.

Monday, February 18, 2002

I know its late but Happy Valentines Day for the 14th. Thanks Chung for your rose and chocolates. You're a darl. Fully made my day.=) I'm gonna make this short. Leslie actually reads this, and I'm not happy.

sincerely forgiven @ 04:05 p.m.

Tuesday, February 12, 2002

Yay! I got an email from Shiho

Happy Chinese New Year!!

sincerely forgiven @ 08:58 p.m.

Monday, February 11, 2002

What the hell went on yesterday??? After church, Leslie, John, Ryan and Tim were singing this song. They actually made everyone sit down to listen to it. It was really nice (even Alister was surprised at how good it sounded) and there she was...Wynne was crying with tears in her eyes and laughing at the same time...the rest of us didnt know what was going on and a few were fed up and wanted to leave. #BANG#..(slams the door)..'Sorry you can't leave yet' said Jonathan with a look on his face which scared the shit out of Tiff. John just can't hack it anymore. No one was listening to him make a fool of himself and I pronounce this little incident as an absolute failure. Turns out its John's Valentines present to Kim. Oh..and did I hear Kim scream before I managed to escape that panic-stricken filled room?

After that, I made the final conclusion that all males are the same..too chicken to express their feelings for the opposite sex (whatever that may involve). All the same. Who wants to argue with me?

Still, it was sweet in its own little way.

sincerely forgiven @ 07:02 p.m.

Tuesday, February 5, 2002

Now it seems its already 'bang! and get down on your hands' because already I'm stressed. It's not so much how much homework I get or what teachers I have. It's the adrenalin I somehow create for myself which merely squeazes me head in. My first lesson of Japanese today. Was asked to write an article on the trip to Japan for the school newsletter. And by the way...whats with our freakin' new student diaries anyway? They're freakin' huge..ginormous as my brother would put it. I think Rossmoyne yet again...has gone too far. And I can't get my guestbook to work..so if you dont mind...put your messages on hold for a while please while I try to fix it.

sincerely forgiven @ 08:29 p.m.

Monday, February 4, 2002

How was everybody's first day of school? It's weird going back to rossmoyne because its a big contrast from the school-life of japanese schools. Having spent 2 weeks of my holidays at school in japan (including saturdays) it was a surprise going back to rossy. I guess it's like coming back home and realising how much your house is different from your expectations even though it hasnt changed a bit. In Japan I was pampered, spoilt, made welcome, peeked at and greeted upon and I didnt realise it until im at rossy and nobody takes much notice of you. I think i've changed in those 3 weeks.

sincerely forgiven @ 08:16 p.m.

Sunday, February 3, 2002

This is really annoying. I can see an extra horizontal line in my browser which isnt supposed to be there. i realise also, that the jpeg's I use are very bad quality. I swear I didnt save it that way. Oh well..Recieved an email from Genta, this boy I met in Japan. I was so happy to get it cos I didnt think I could be committed to stay in contact with any of the friends I met there. Some of them don't have email and wanted to be penpals. I don't mind... I'm so happy I went to Japan. Did I mention that before?

sincerely forgiven @ 05:21 p.m.

Saturday, February 2, 2002

The summer holidays are almost out, but I'm not regretting it. I have had so much fun, I'm glad I made the most of it. I've known Gackt already but while I was in Japan, I saw a lot of him. On posters, tv, calendahs, cd shops and everywhere. Talk about exposure. Japan was great. Sugoi ne! I've added some photos which you can see on the far right column. I'll add more if I have the time but since school is starting in 2 days I don't think I will. I'm really tired and have to entertain xiao cos she's here. Hope you like my new layout because I do.

sincerely forgiven @ 04:48 p.m.