Jet lagged    
Wednesday, January 30, 2002

I'm back on Australian soil now. Japan was so much fun. I loved it really. I bought home quite a lot of stuff. Presents from my japanese friends and host members and stuff I got for myself. Im sorry I didnt get presents for all of you but there is very little shopping time. I had to stick to a really strict schedule. I guess thats how it is when you're travelling with a group.

It's really hard to explain whats been happening. Everyday in Japan was an experience. One I wont forget for the rest of my life. I kept a travel diary which I have to finish off considering I havent written in it about the last 5 days of my trip and other details.

Out of the cd's I got, I've got ayumi hamasaki remix, glay, b'z single, boa single, kinky kids (2 cds plus vcd) and a compilation my host sister sayumi made for me. Was there more? I dont remember.

Next version of Heart-felt desire is coming out. I wonder if anyone will guess who I'm going to feature next. Going to add a whole section on photos from my Japanese trip. Hopefully the imazn.com server will never go down so I will have these memories forever. When I get them up i hope you'll enjoy cos I sure did and wanted to make the most outta my trip but recording everything. Like me and Iara said 'its really what you make it'. I hope she had a lot of fun too.

I happened to come across Shiho, the jap Iara was hosting last year in Australia. anyway i said hi to her but she didnt recognise me and had a funny look on her face..then like 20 minutes later she comes up to me and asked me if i cut my hair because now she remembers...I was like..EeEEEEeeeEeeEEEe!!! We talked about jap guys and everyone and about this jap drama which i can never remember the name of cos the guy she liked was in it.

Everyone I've met has been so nice to me. I wanna go back!!! I loved Kobe! I went to Osaka, Kyoto, Hiroshima, Naro and Kobe. I think that was it...oh! and Miyajima.

What am i doing now? I got a call from Chung asking me to go down to metros tonight but im too tired. Not going to do much for the next few days except get ready for school, finish my japan trip diary, work on my new layout and see xiao before school starts.

Hope everyone had a very very good holiday. i know I had fun! =)

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  titus!!!    
Tuesday, January 15, 2002

I get to play FINAL FANTASY 10!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Im so loving this game. I definately have to get a playstation 2 now. i mean...the in game is just phenomenal, the cg is ..indesgribably. i dunno if this just final fantasy 10 or because im playing the japanese version but there is actual speech...i can hear the characters talking and see the jap subtitles as well that go along with it..muahahah..i feel like im the first teenage australian to play final fantasy 10...hahah thats probably not true but it feels that way and im damn proud...i love this..i wish you could see it..its better than any preview you can dl on the internet..sayo (jap friend) has a really (and i�@really mean big) tv which makes it even better to see...

hey chung...i see your hyori based character RIKKU..she comes into the game quite early and i reckon, is one hell of a character..titus is so pretty...the cg makes him look real and im just swooning here with jealousy and indesgribably apprehension to have this game....damn year 12!!!!!!!

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  What it means...    
Tuesday, January 15, 2002

I'm at my host's friends house at the moment 'borrowing her computer and net.. I was wondering how she could have a whole CPU, screen and everything to fit in these ultra puny japanese homes and realised when i got here that their computers are way more advanced than ours (Yes I want one!!! I'm coming back to Japan as soon as I can after graduation and getting my hands on one of these babies)I love japanese computers shitless!!!

i love my host's friend. No offence to my host but this gurl is just like me! She wants to be a computer programmer, knows html, has her own homepage, loves psx, final fantasy and like the same sorta guys...plus..she has a piano which i havent had the luxury of being able to run my fingers over it for a few days now. she also has a cat which i love but i have to be careful because I'm allergic to them...how do you say im allergic to something in jap...hope my eye doesnt swell up like it usually does.

wishing my japanese is fluent so i can read the manga they all have. the volumes and volumes of manga they have at home and the whole floors they dedicate on selling these books...the dramas on tv are hell funny and they look really good..like the guys and girls and just the way they act.....

my host is spoiling me to death

have fun where ever you are..

minasan sayonara!

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  I'm in Japan    
Friday, January 11, 2002

Im in japan now...osaka..its so different here but im glad i got hold of the internet cos knowing me, ill die without my life blood. hahah...the people here are really nice..only they apologize for anything and everything which annoys me sometimes but i guess i have to get used to it. the computer im using at the moment is at the school...it takes like one and a half hours to get to school and im the only one at this one which is a bit lonely for me but all the guys like look at me and laugh a lot..the girls are the quite ones..i think this country is still parachial (spelling?)

the english teacher here looks so much like my work collegue/friend jason lim..the resemblance is like phenomenal and everytime i talk to the teacher..i think its him.

got to go now ok...bai..

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  Transition    
Tuesday, January 8, 2002

Guess wat xiao got me... a shinhwa poster! Wha...and it has like 55 small pics of them crammed in it..Xiao worked really hard to find something for me too..I love you man..dont forget that..*hugz* I got other stuff..a tarepanda toy, a MoshiMaro mobile holder, a Winnie the Pooh notepad, a keyring with my name on it.hm...i cant remember if there was anything else.. oh well..bye now..I'll prolly get to blog there in japan...send you all photos if i can..I'll always remember

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  "I'll always remember"    
Tuesday, January 8, 2002

On sunday..hahha you wouldnt believe what happened. I was taking a nap in the arvo because I woke up early that morning to drive. My brother interupts my slumber and tells me to go to the front. Being naturally annoyed at him I got up and asked him a few times why I had to go to the front of my house and he replied simply saying 'just cos'.

I walk down the corridor and you know wat i see? I see somebodys leg sticking out of the hallway thats wat I saw..I was like wat da! someones' hiding from me. So I look to see who it is and see like 10-12 people there all squished up in the hallway jump out at me and said *SURPRISE*. I really was surprised. First instinct was my hands just rushed to my hair in a desperate attempt to hide any signs of having slept..man I love these guys..I was jumping up and down going 'I HATE YOU!!!!!'so we all got along together had cake which Chung so generously bought (that boi knows what I like..dark chocolate). Sang happy birthday to me and I went all shy and covered my face in embarrassment..I was rushing around asking people..'who did this? who organised this whole thing' and they said Leslie did and I just didnt no wat to do..didnt no wat to say to him so in the end i didnt talk to him at all. When everyone left I cried. I had to ...all these bottled up feelings of happiness, saying how i didnt deserve my friends and the love they were showing me. I didnt no how to express it. Im just real glad i have something to think about before I go to Japan, before I turn 17 and before I do Year 12.

I planned to call Leslie to thank him and ask him what I ever did to deserve a friend like him. At about 11 when my brother came back from Ryans house playing soccer, I found this note on my pillow. It was from leslie and he was telling me to look under my pillow so I did and find this bracelet there. That guy's just full of surprises.

Well now.. Im going to Japan/Osaka tomorrow. Getting packed up and ready to go. hahah man i think this is the meaning of happiness.

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  relocation    
Friday, January 4, 2002

As you can probably see, I've relocated my blog to the new address http://sassy.imazn.com so if you could go to that now instead that would be great. Made a few changes. Turning this into a site as well as a webpage but don't count on having it too frequently updated. Having to go through my last year of highschool now before that most-dreaded transitory state which explains my lack of commitment to update my homepage. I think having my blog in this address is better than having a splash page for a whole year if you know wat i mean.

im tired, its late. need to pack for japan with less than a week b4 departure.

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  Spoilt rotten    
Tuesday, December 25, 2001

ANI!!!! boi you dont have to do this for me you know. I got like the coolest christmas present from Chung. You dont have to spend so much bro...it just seems.. like i dont deserve it. ANyway..this one hell of a guy gave me Final Fantasy VIII playstation game, Edison Chen's Ed Is On cd, a teddy bear with a picture of DongWan in it ..>.<... and like a nice card and everything..thanks so much man..i owe you a big thank you...see my bro loves me so much =))))) I love the edison cd eh...ive listened to it so many times already adn i only recieved the present yesterday. I wonder how Xiao is gonna feel about this...cos she likes edison too. So does Shar so im feeling pretty damn happy. I havent started ff8 yet cos i need to finish ff7 so i better get that finished so i can start a new game.

Just thought i'd scan some edison pics from the cd cover..these are for Xiao who complains about there being no good edison pics

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  National Geography    
Saturday, December 22, 2001

I went to the zoo with Leslie and Jimmy believe it or not. out of all places..hahaha. Leslie wanted to take Jimmy around to see Perth. Jimmy's this 24y/o guy from HK who wants to get into Uni to study mechanical engineering only atm his english isnt too crash hot and he's doing tafe first. anyway..i think he liked all the animals and we took a few photos while we were there.

anyway, there was this ....awwwwwww.... it was so cool and so gross. i learn no matter what animal you are, you make noises while engaging in sexual activity and by god, the tortoise we saw made one hell of a noise. its gonna haunt me tonight in my dreams i swear. anyway..we went to see the tortoises and there were three in the compound. one of them was sticky his/her head up another's ass (or trying to anyway) and natually, being Leslie, he jumped at the chance and took a photo..then the first tortoise climbed onto the second one, its two front paws(?) on the shell so that its genitals were inline..hahah it literally started humping the other tortoise made this noise (which they probably make) in rhythm with the movement. how kinky is that...! me and les just cracked up laughing and what not...it was just so funny..and jimmy just watched in fascination..

we went in the nocturnal house and this possum or bandicoot watever was full on fighting or something and i immmediately shouted..RAPE!!! well you no wats in my mind..we walked to the giant cockrouch..we couldnt find it but an 8cm size cockrouch is hell huge...we were all looking for it..even though cockrouches give les the creeps..dont ask me why...i then felt this movement across my arms and screamed...hahahah yup i no cockcroches cant escape from their compound but it was dark and ..you know...i was like shouting..*NOBODY TOUCH ME!!!* hahah..

there were heaps more that happened but im close to forgetting them all now..wat a kewl day!

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  Almost Christmas    
Wednesday, December 19, 2001

I got some of my Christmas shopping done. To tell you the truth i did more shopping for myself. How selfish is that. i hate christmas shopping. i just dont like shopping full stop. you waste a lot of money. if you could order them or something from a catalogue, it'll be much better than having to walk around in shopping centres searching aimlessly for the christmas present you dont know who to buy for and wat it is they really want. anyway..i just need to shop for a couple, maybe more people before i just slump in front of the tv and be a couch potato again.

Sorry about the previous entries if they dont make sense at all. i've just been really happy i guess because of the things that are happening in my life. i look back at what been going on this year, the people i have met, the friends i have lost and how much i have grown and changed, i have seen it as the worse year of my life. but now, i see it as the best year of my life. Why? Because i have endured it and gone through what i literaly call a nightmare. Just the thought of that is enough to make me happy. more than happy. Hopefully i've came out of this year, a better person. and all this is thanks to my angel.

If you have a bible, look up Mark 5:1-20 to understand.

Anyway. xiao, how are you doing there overseas? i cant wait till you get back..i have so much to tell you before i go off to japan. i miss you.. and i'll see all you fellow exchange students at the airport alrite? go break and arm. =))))

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  Happiness and Love    
Sunday, December 16, 2001

I prayed to God for an angel, and He sent me one...for that, I'd say this is what I live for. Never before have i been happier in my life.

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  Continued Fractures    
Saturday, December 15, 2001

How can you define happiness. I want to be happy. but i dont no how. i believe that im not. but i know that i can be. being happy to me, is to be content and satisfide to such a degree that you cry for others because they're not. to a degree where you cry for yourself because maybe you didnt deserve it and its bliss because you have it. you cry because you're afraid to lose it noing that its inevitable anyway because it will be lost. but then, knowing that it happens anyway and that you'll go through it with your family, friends and with that ever-so-incomprehensible being up there, maybe that is happiness.
Everytime i cry from my heart, i know that im truly happy.

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  Who talks to who    
Wednesday, December 12, 2001

yeah thanks constance for that. u dont no how much that means to me. god i wanted to slap myself after i told you and i was like kicking walls and stuff everytime i thought about it. yeah dont worry about my mum, thats y i envy you and your mum. you seem to have a much more understanding relationship. *hugz back*

after watching 'planet of the apes' at wynnes house, i dropped something off to jacquis and went to chungs place. apparently somebody *hint, nudge* told him i had a man. i was going to say that he was not my man but something like 'he's not a man' came outta my mouth. daym..i should be more careful to think about wat i say before i say it next time! chung was laughing his head off. some friend!

read like a junta fic the other night. these gfics are so sweet sometimes even thought they arent straight. but yeah..im willing for something real diffirent cos these lemons are all the same. everybody's getting ideas from everybody else.

yay! wynne lent me all this chinese/cantonese vcd's including another movie starring alan lau and sammy leung, the first one i watched being Needing You and also there was one starring Edison Chen. i think i no wat im gonna be watching tonight.>___<

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  1000th!!!!    
Sunday, December 9, 2001

Hey! my blog reached its 1000th hit! Woo hoo...how should i celebrate. I should have had a lil contest to give a lil prize to the 1000th visitor... ill think about it next time. anyway here goes..i think ill send an email to everyone. Im just bored shit i guess..

Heart-felt Desire's 1oooth hit!!!!

Well thats it for now.

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  The return of John    
Sunday, December 2, 2001

John's back...and he's staying. Woohoo for John. the first thing he does wen i see him is that he bumps me with his ass by accident..i hit him with a book. well just glad that you're here...

i saw Will for the first time in 2 years. He's this guy that i sorta no and my brother (daresay me as well) think he looks bit like wannie. only today wen i saw him. i was PUT OFF..im sorry...his hair ..half mullet style with the little dangling pony tail at the back. gee..its changed the last time i saw him...and i put my hp number on his phone too..BIG mistake maybe..leslie set the whole thing up just to see my reaction..well you should have seen his own reaction cos he didnt no. laughed and said he was sorry and should have checked before showing me. im put off guys for a while.

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  bloggin' web-loggin' and wat-nots    
Saturday, December 1, 2001

Lucarelli did WHAT to you constance? Aww you poor baby. you poor poor baybee.. oh and in response to your bonzai, how bout Tyrone? make him/her/it sound tough..sorry. im not renowned fa namin' things. My first budgie i got was rio and i got his name from ramdomly flicking to a page in an atlas and pointing with my eyes closed. after many oceans and wack names like 'mombasa' and 'physical features', i got rio dejaneiro. got upset wen they named a car that too. but thats going beside the point.

main thing. exams over. next critical. L plate retrieval. most critical. nihon ni ikimasu. other..ff7+ff8 completion. hp completion. perving catch-up. nihongo renshu.

gotta find jo's k-mags..i need to scan them for my page and return them to her. gomen jo. i finally found out that only a small minority of chritian koreans shake a person's shoulders while praying.

went to ct yesterday after my jap oral. from my standards i'll get a C should i emphasise that? a C. chung couldn't make it to yum cha so we'll postpone it. thats alrite..after yg me, les, ryan, nel and alister went to hungry jacks to bum out and eat.. there was this security guy and i dared alister to go and ask him if he was anything like the british guards where they aren't allowed to move and start making faces at him. he [the guard] had the case of the runs and les had to re-think going to the toilet after a few rounds of coke..hanging out with these guys gives you a whole new perspective of the male world. YEAH they let me in on their secrets...

oops...called les a honky-tryhard before realising he is honky. the only one i no who wants to be a white boy. talked in his car in front of my house til 12am. erm..yeah...dad caught us so i had to go...*ACK*

going to watch harry potter with sophie. hm... you harry potter fans you...

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  Two    
Wednesday, November 21, 2001

Yo everyone! Howz the exams goin'. I've only just finished 2 and have 5 to go rah..but thought I'd 'reward' myself so here i am blogging with no apparent reason but for the sheer boredom of it all.

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  one    
Thursday, November 8, 2001

this is probably the only entry i will have for a long time. took me bout 5 hours to complete the new layout but i like it. dont you? i dunno why i decided to use edison. i wanted something different from the usual kpop and anime im used to and since a lot of my frens are honkys and watch/listen to cantonese i thought i might as well not be selfish and feature somebody i hardly no. i didnt wanna use nick tse. im sick of him and he reminds me of my cousin. edison is the only other cpop guy i no is fad. aaron is kewl too but i thought...nah..isnt edison kinda new. doesnt he look damn fine? shar would be happy. i was told she really liked him and my school frens like him too but for some reason theyre still hung over nick. I'm so happy. this is probably the best layout ive done. wanted a green one but then i couldnt find a picture that suited green..had like a forest background plus the black.

Continued fractures was a name i had in mind and kinda tells you ill be rambling more about my fractured life or my mind anyway. thats wat i originally wanted to call it, 'continued fractures of the mind' but i thought that was too long. like i said previously, i call my versions pretty weird names or pretty lame ones.

I really need to get my priorities straight and stop netting for a while. like the exams are in less than two weeks and i havent started revising yet. only cos im studying for the three major tests coming up. my physics and chem test situated on the same day and my lit essay. oh boi...yeah..its called stress but i can handle it...i think...

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