Party
Sunday, April 13, 2003
[[03:50 p.m.]]

Thanks Constance for inviting me to your fab dress party. Havent had those for a long long time.It was a blast, and though I didnt get to talk to you much, it was so great to see you. Happy 18th Birthday!!!..bdw..did you like the personal joke I wrote on your box? It was at the top..kekeke...well well. The months and years elude us all. And you were very beautiful last night...I loved your costume. Sorry about the lack of effort in mine. I havent karaoked and moved on the dance flood in sooo sooooo long! =) Really glad I went

On this day
Sunday, March 30, 2003
[[04:50 p.m.]]

Six months ago, me and Leslie started off as a couple and have celebrated 6 whole months together. I woke up this morning realising how lucky I am to be with such a special and incredible guy. I want to tell him that I love him very much and that I would never get sick of hearing him say the same thing to me. I just want to wish the best for 'us', his favourite word in the dictionary. Thankyou for being there for me and for holding on to all the memories good and bad we've had with each other.

LOVE YOUR SWEETHEART!!!

Stupid stupid numbers
Saturday, March 22, 2003
[[12:46 a.m.]]

YES!!! finally i have unraveled the mysteries of binary, decimal, octal and hex conversions! if only study was always this fulfilling J/K...i'm such a nerd. But honestly though..dont find ANY RELEVANCE WHATSOEVER in my future career or in ANY career for anyone for that matter in what im learning. It had better get more interesting! or i dunno what id do with myself.

Violin Recital
Saturday, March 15, 2003
[[05:24 p.m.]]

Theres a Violin Recital by Yvonne Lai (I got the spelling right i hope) at PCCC South so please come and support her and her team!!!! Its going to be fantastic I just know it. So proud of that girl. And its her birthday too! so Happy 16th Birthday!!!!

A big fat black cat mauled my birds and practically woke up the whole neighbourhood. Shoo!!! as much as I love cats, they dont respect..their..prey...*sigh*

AHHH!! screw the 'referencing' I have to do in Uni..its such a hassle!! Whats the name of the program that does it all for you? I want to download it for myself.

Bad day
Friday, March 14, 2003
[[12:05 p.m.]]

Yesterday was a seriously bad day. Well not for me in particular but for Leslie..poor guy. He drove me to uni at 8:15 so i could make my class and he stayed there til I finished at 5. Everything seems alright so far until he recieved an SMS message from Alister saying that Ryan was missing!!! and his parents were really worried about him. Me and Les were in Carousel at this time. So Les deleted the SMS only to delete ALL of his messages permanently. How he did that I have no clue but I knew that he had all of MY messages in his phone since 2 years ago!!! He sulked for a full half hour and I dont blame him too. What a waste of all the memories and dates etc. He was soo fustrated *slash* angry *slash* in utter disbelief of his bad luck I swear he could have strangled Alister or Ryan right there and then if they were there with us.

It didnt help that he has to see Bee Lee, one of his best friends, off at the airport. I still cant believe that guy is gone for good now! =(((

We had to rush to the airport because Bee Lee was boarding the plane an hour sooner than we realised. Me, Les, Wynne and John were there joking around at first but were sad to see him leave. We all said our goodbyes, hugs (from Bee Lee's mum too, his parents were very grateful for us) and in Wynne's case, lots of blown kisses. It was all very hard for Les though cos i knew that that moment meant the world to him.

But before Les started to car to leave the airport, Bee Lee called!!!! He told us to rush back to the airport to pick up some items that werent meant to go through with customs. He sounded so urgent that Les locked his keys in the car in the rush!!!! What a day! He called John immediately to turn around so we wouldnt end up stranded at the airport. Back in the departure gate, Les kept getting calls from Bee Lee and John whilst appologising to me cos it was past midnight and knew I needed to get home. (Had a bit of arguments and strife with mum when I got home from Carousel) John even threatened to leave us at the airport because he didnt want to pay anymore parking fees!!! typical John! But they came up with us in the end anyway. The airport guy took about 20 mins to give us the package Bee Lee sent up. Well lets just say both of us managed to make it home somehow. I dunno how Les put up with it all. I know that Bee Lee's departure will hit him like a brick by this morning. Poor guy. Hope you feel better Les! Remember I'll be there for you when you need me. *sigh*****----

Sorting things out
Sunday, March 9, 2003
[[10:48 p.m.]]

Bee Lee is going back to Malaysia permanently on Friday. I'm hoping that I can go and see him off at the airport. Really got to say a few last words to him. Its so sad to say goodbye and I know he has to sort a few things out for himself before he goes. Well I just want to say that its been quite a year since I've known him and I wish him all the best for everything in the future and hope to see him again. I really wished I spent more time with him though, but him being there for everyone and Leslie especially has made me really grateful.

Called Chung today only to listen to ramblings of his fantastic life in UWA as suspected. I wish I was in UWA now. Maybe I'll transfer next year. Good one Chung =P but thanks to you....maybe i'll make the effort to make uni life as fun as possible. As for making new friends, those are hard to find in Computer Science

Hm...I'm bored with my life again...so difficult and stubborn I am sometimes.

First day at uni
Tuesday, March 4, 2003
[[01:04 a.m.]]

Well today I had 2 lectures in the evening. My very first real uni experience you could say. I had a Maths unit which is like Calculus in a freaky way and Foundations of Computer Science. The lecturer there mentioned '2001 A Space Odyssey' which I sadly havent heard of and judging from the majority of hands up when asked who had watched it, i concluded that im just watch enough darn TV and movies and feel quite uninformed. Hm...something like this has happened on a number of occasions. Resolution: Watch more TV! Bdw, the lectures themselves were quite boring. What a depressing start to the year...hahahah *laughs*

My dear boyfriend broaght me dinner for my break. So sweet yet unnessarily burdening.

Well its starting to get late now. I need to sleep too. Hm...but while i was in the mood before I was going to say something really cool and now i forgot only cos Leslie has disrupted my 'train of thought'. Think ill just give it a rest.

I DONT HAVE TIME
Saturday, March 1, 2003
[[05:39 p.m.]]

I dont have time,I dont have time,I dont have time,I dont have time,I dont have time,I dont have time,I dont have time,I dont have time,I dont have time,I dont have time,I dont have time,I dont have time,I dont have time!!!!!! I want a new layout!!!!!! grrrr..I'm giving up on my ICO one. Uni is starting on Monday and i have a list of a billion things I wanted to do which i havent done and which i wanted to do for the holidays which is on the brink of inevitable extinction. Oh dear God please just give me more time.

Orientation tomorrow
Sunday, February 23, 2003
[[11:50 p.m.]]

Well what can I say. At Alvin's bday party yesterday Jacqui told me in that funny sarcastic tone of hers that she throughly enjoyed reading my Valentines Day entry for many days and that i really DO blog everyday. Well just for you, I'm giving that little effort to expose myself to the world. Speaking of which, I am very annoyed with my counter. I dont know how many people have visited my site and whether it has reached 7000 yet.

Tried to rent out ICO but had to make do with Devil May Cry. It's an awesome game with the classic shoot-em-up adventure scenario and fantasy/sci-fi plot. Only just started the game so I cant draw up any conclusions or speculations but so far so good. Looking forward to playing it soon after I finish talking with Leslie about 'sibling' problems.

I must succumb to the urgent calling of my ps2..till next time then.

Back in TOWN
Friday, February 21, 2003
[[11:40 p.m.]]

I'm disgraced at myself for the lack of blog. But no worries, I'm back from Sydney and really miss Iin!!! well now that I'm back, I (should) have time to make a brand new layout and I thought I'd feature it this time on ICO on becoming increasingly interested in the game while I was away. It's ALVIN's 18th tomorrow night!!! my first party for the year (not including mine) and hopefully i wont get smashed. Will be seeing everyone soon, maybe with a new blog layout. I've wanted one for a while.

To my Valentine
Friday, February 14, 2003
[[10:16 a.m.]]

I know that those three words 'I love you' doesnt fully express the way I feel about you and how much you mean to me. Leslie, you are an important part of my life and thoughts of you always penetrate my mind no matter what I'm doing or where I am. Your smile, your laugh, the way you look at me and the wonderful moments that we have shared make me miss you even more as we arent together today. I care so deeply about you and the best part is that I know you feel the same way. So HAPPY VALENTINES DAY, Honey!

Square Enix
Friday, February 14, 2003
[[09:58 a.m.]]

Wow! Amei, does this mean you're officially working for Squaresoft now?

Sorry
Tuesday, February 11, 2003
[[06:43 p.m.]]

Sorry for being such a bad girlfriend lately Leslie. I guess being away from you for so long and not getting to know each others current situations is hard for me and for you no doubt. I'm sorry i dont understand sometimes and I'm sorry that i havent been supportive enough to make you feel like I'm there for you. I want to make it up to you when I get back to Perth. I know when i keep saying sorry..its not good enough..and i have to change and i have to try. Moreover, you are such an understanding and patient guy, I dunno what i would do without you. I love you so so so much!!!!!

Censorship
Wednesday, February 5, 2003
[[03:09 p.m.]]

The whole office celebrated because of this

John Howard can go suck his eyebrows.

At 'work' again
Wednesday, February 5, 2003
[[12:20 p.m.]]

Man!!! its been i while since i got to go online. i dunno how i survived but i did. checked my blog and read some of the new guestbook entries. people are so superficial these days as if skill and knowledge in the web-design field is judged by the layout of the page. but heck...i do that too so i better shut my trap.

Watched cantonese movie 'Close to you' last night. Its a definate must-see and i reckon the choreographed fight scenes and music was awesome.

I'm catching up to my family back at home. both my brothers have started school with Tim starting year 11 and mum misses me too. I feel bad for not mentioning Leslie much in this version of HFD so i just wanna say that i love you heaps and i miss you even more and most of all...i meant all those nice things i said on the phone to you..whether i was half asleep or practically unconcious on the floor =P (that sounds pretty poetic doesnt it? ^___^)

making a new guestbook because my old one has almost filled up to 100 entries. Alxnet only gives you that much.

Chinese New Years Eve
Friday, January 31, 2003
[[09:41 a.m.]]

Well how is everyone back in Perth? or where-ever my friends are in the world. Some of my friends are in Germany, Paris, Japan, Korea, Singapore, Malaysia, Hong Kong or other parts of Australia. Hope you're having a great time there!!!

I'm not going to work today. Dont think my cousins really want me there. I feel like such a nuisance to them. How am I supposed to enjoy my holiday knowing that I'm that much trouble? I have to completely clean out Iin's roommates computer before he comes back too. I havent even met him and he's telling me to lay off his stuff. Frankly, I'm a little scared.

Chinese dinner tonight with Jack's bro Allan at Chatswood (Chatswood again!!! its nice but please can i go to Macguire for a change..*grumble groan*) Well..should be eating my little heart out there. They feed me too much. Hope that isnt bothering them to treat me so much all the time too..but im sure my uncle and aunt dont mind.

At the moment, more than anything, I'm thinking about God and how I've been neglecting Him a little. Must be the holidays and the fact that I miss church. I want to go to Hillsong!!! will anyone take me there? =(((

Tsumaranai
Wednesday, January 29, 2003
[[08:45 p.m.]]

im...hungry.......

To feel fustration
Tuesday, January 28, 2003
[[03:06 p.m.]]

DAMNNN!!!!!!!! i'm soooooooo pissed off. I wrote a long long long email with details about my Australia Day long weekend here in Sydney to all my friends which took me a damn long time and i lost it!!!! all gone...boohoo..i'm going to sulk and chuck a fit now! its just not fair!!I'm never never using an iMac again!!!! stupid platform!!! ARRRggggHHHthhh!!!! i feel like banging myself on the head..wat a waste of few hours...*sniff, cry, grumble, sob, sulk, wail*

Stoned Crow
Wednesday, January 22, 2003
[[09:59 a.m.]]

Last night, I was taken to the first pub since my 18th bday. So yup...by saying this is the first time I drank since then, I suppose is special enough to blog about. Filled myself with a Bourbon Scotch, Toblarone and this really soar cocktail. Tried some Midori and Magaretta (think thats how its spelt) My cousins were great, being kind enough to take me there when we were meant to have 'pancakes'..yeah with 'alcholic maple syrup' at the 'Rocks' =PPppPP. I must have drank the most without any noticable effects. Could have taken 3 more at least I reckon ..*woop* I'm a great drinker arent I?

Les called with some great news! Say Congrats to my boyfriend for getting an offer on OT major from Curtin University. I am SOOOooo proud of him. I know I'm going to say this again and and again but I love him, I love him, I love him!!! *sigh*. Lets go to O-day together..and cheers to that. Though I'm absolutely LUVIN' it here in Sydney..I want to get back to Perth soon. Aiyah!

The people at Rhodon are totally fab..very professional IT employees on the outside, people with lives, senses of humour and hearts of gold on the inside. They are more than just people who teach me and accept me as part of their team. They're friends.

Tuesday, January 21, 2003
[[01:55 p.m.]]

Hahah..go to Google images and search for 'Edison chen'. You'll see a picture of me. I was like =* 'Whats it doing there?!!!'

Bound to Sydney
Monday, January 20, 2003
[[12:40 a.m.]]

Here's my long and tedious account of my trip to Sydney. 17th was my 18th birthday, my precarious but exciting change to adulthood from adolescence. Being able to legally do many things, I havent had the chance to drink, gamble and so on, although my cousins WILL take me to a pub. Just dont tell my parents =PPP.

My party was great and it was fantastic to really see my friends together including many I havent seen since I graduated. After much fun with karaoke and DDR with the much appreciated music burned on CD's by Anthony, we had cake and opened my presents. I really love the slick stereo/cd player I got. And ofcoarse, how can I forget Les' presents! I wont ever forget how much love you and put into them =))) and that goes for everything else I got.

Next day...last minute packing before Les and Ryan came over to take me to the Domestic Airport. It's another goodbye for us, me leaving him this time. Les gave me a few little things to remember him by. It's hard to let him go yet at the same time, I was heaps excited.

Got a window seat and had nice friendly chat to the guy sitting next to me for a fair part of the flight, telling me about his nightmarish career in terms of frequent flying, how he loves Malaysian food and about places I should visit in Sydney. Arrived at the Sydney Domestic Airport undeniably much larger and grander than Perth's. On the way to our apartment building (which is really really spectacular, more like a resort) we drove over Harbour Bridge which is HUGE...its not like as small as the pictures show you, and saw Sydney Opera house. Hopefully will be going there.

I'm settling in really well. Life here is really comfortable except for the fact that its always quite busy in places. Playing FFIX at the moment in Iin's (my cousin's girlfriends) place and will be hanging out at my cousins' house playing PS2 with the most impressive collection of games ever! You name it, my cousin's have got it. But only the good good games.

Well...thats all I have to say for now. Too much done to go into detail. Updates soon.

-Heart-felt Desire is my personal weBLOG which made its debut in June 2001. Well since that time, things have changed. I've grown older, more mature and I feel like a different person since last year. I've made new friends, kept old ones amongst all the toil and labour which I had to call year 12. Pretty amazing what I've achieved! I've finally graduated from Rossmoyne Senior High School. Didn't think I would ever miss the over-crowded corridors, the classrooms with leaky gas heaters and scary teachers dominating every corner, nook and cranny of the school (especially the ever-so-nice Wieman in the Maths wing!) Well here's to our happy memories.

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Now that the formalities are over lets look ahead!!! So what do we have? I'm going to University. Which one I'm unsure yet but that decision will be made shortly after I get my results for my TEE. It's funny though. My kid brother asked me whether there were any books in the school library on Allosoraus that I could borrow for him. I told him that I didn't have to go to school anymore. I found extreme pleasure in seeing his face fall. He still has 9 years of schooling. Poor guy! But the point is...study is not over yet but I'm gonna try a hell of a lot to make it as fun as possible in my last couple of teenage years.

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This layout features Yuuna of Final Fantasy X and unlike my other layouts, this is not done by me but through permission from;

Angel Wings Design.

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Special Version

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This version is titled 'Under the same moon' and is dedicated to my Leslie. We won't be seeing much of each other because he's staying in Hong Kong for 5 weeks! So I'm really really going to miss him and one of the ways I could think of to help us survive without each other in those weeks is to blog blog blog!!!

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