Your icy stare means the world to me, Love and Piracy version 13 0

__________xGod Bless Me: :p

Shining over You: FAKE? Automatic

New layout very soon.

Survey, since I'm feelin' kinda sick.

1. Elaborate on your default icon: It's Luffy from One Piece, eating some meat on a bone and looking very silly. Like me.

2. What's your current relationship status? Taken, sorry ladies~

3. Ever have a near-death experience? 5, to be exact. 2 almost drowning, I fell out of a car when I was a kid and almost had my head crushed by a tire, and, I've choked on food twice. And let's not count the many accidents I've had.

4. Name an obvious quality you have. physical? I look like a pirate. personality-wise? I am a pirate 0_<

5. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now? Um...Automatic, by FAKE?

6. Any celebrity you would marry? None, really. A lot of female celebrities I'd rather have as late night fuck buddies, and male celebrities...well...

7. Who will cut and paste this first? The great magical monkey man.

8. Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity? I've gotten that I look like Johnny Depp. From two different people. and that's fuckin' awesome.

9. Do you wear a watch? What kind? I don't wear watches...I have too many wristbands covering my delicate armses.

10. Do you have anything pierced? Your butt. No.

11. Do you have any tattoos? Not now but eventually. Like, something that God himself would come down from the Heavens to see and be all like "Yo, that's bad ass."

And I'd be all like "...Yeah."

12. Do you like pain? No, it hurts. But apparently I'm the mental kind of masochist, I like analyzing shit and thinking of the worst so that I'll feel bad for no rational reason.

13. Do you like to shop? Yeah, there's a lot of shit out there that needs a home.

14. What was the last thing you paid for with cash? Food, that I now regret since my tummy's all rumbly.

15. What was the last thing you paid for with your credit/debit card? Something at Otakon that probably wasn't worth it.

16. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? My dad. And I texted Jun a while ago.

17. What is on your desktop background? Some page from a manga called Air Gear.

18. What is the background on your cell phone? Captain Jack Sparrow, mate.

19. Do you like redheads? There was this one Gaara there who literally walked like a cat in front of me as if to say "hey, lookit my ass." And I was all like "...yeah."

He was also one of the guys who hit on me. Yeah, it was pretty nice.

20. Do you know any twins? No! And I wish I did, so that way we could play tricks on people, and comedy would ensue.

21. Do you have any weird relatives? Lessee....I have uncles in jail, a crooked cop, one of my aunts is a manbearpig who needs sympathy from everyone, and plent of illegitimate cousins. And I'm sure I have a son.

Just kidding, please.

22. What was the last movie you watched? Ichi the Killer. Total letdown.

23. What was the last book you read? I read manga a lot, so that would be Mahoromatic. And it's pretty good.

Otakon was nice. Fewer people in the hotel room, had security called on us for being loud (i.e. me being loud...and drunk), expensive goods, lots of stinky cosplayers, and I got hit on...twice...by two gay guys. And it was awesome.

Oh, and I was the only guy in a room full of girls...well, for a day at least. Awesome day. Anything else? Um...there are pictures of said otakon and cosplays, but they're on Toki's blog so go there.

Oh, and I think I ate some bad chicken and hamburgers and it's ruined my stomach good. It's kinda good to be back, but at the same time I miss being around everyone. Added to that, we won't see Niikura for a while so that's pretty saddening. Still, it was loads of fun and I can't wait to do it again.

In other news it's getting closer to the school season, which means I'm getting back into drawing. To warm myself up, I've been doing some pictures, and I got a lot of inspiration at the con. So much so, Kazuya and I are gonna try to open up a booth at the artists alley. And it will rock. We'll blow the roof off that mother bad bitch.

Where I sailed @08:47 p.m. on Tuesday, August 8, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me: Shapow!

Shining over You: GLAY - Rock N' Roll Swindle

Survey!

_1. My ex is... a complete bitch faced devil cunt. She was my first account of puppy love, and she cheated on me...twice, in the same week. And I took her back. Only for her to cheat on me once more, but breaking up with me so it'd make it okay. And then she dated my former best friend. And now I hate them all.

_2. I am listening to... Rock N' Roll Swindle, by GLAY.

_3. Maybe I should... get back to drawing my comics. I made a beautiful picture last night and I've been inspired for a while now.

_4. I love... my tofu bunny, my fam, my friends, my bandmates, my dogs.

_5. My best friend... is no one. Unless you count my girlfriend, but it's a technicality 'coz she's my girlfriend.

_6. I don't understand... people with no common sense. And I don't like 'em, neithers.

_7. I lost... a wallet with $30 in it at the movies once. Very pissed.

_8. People say... I look like Johnny Depp. Or that I'm a pirate.

_9. The meaning of my screen name is... My piratey self

_10. Love is... like having warm cookies thrown at you. It hurts sometimes, but if you catch one it's like the greatest thing ever.

_11. Somewhere, someone is... thinking of me<3

_12. I will always... Hum a song, even if I just made it up.

_13. Forever seems... Too long. They should change the length and make it "Long but not enough to bore you", so when people ask how long it's been, you can say "Oh it's been long, but not enough to bore you."

_14. I never want to... Be used.

_15. My cell phone... is sexy. And it has an awesome pouch to hold it in.

_16. When I wake up in the morning... I'm cranky so don't bother me.

_17. I get annoyed when... People don't pay attention. Just listen for a little bit, please!

_18. Parties are... cool, especially when they're pirate parties!

_19. My pet is... Nestle, the big brown moosi dog who's asleep on the floor right now. Lazy ass.

_20. Kisses are the best when... You know you're getting sex. There's a difference, trust me.

_21. Today I... have to help my tofu bunny make stuff for her costume, and go to band practice.

_22. Tomorrow I will... buy booze for Otakon.

_23. I really want... Money, our band to make it big, to be successful, and to get married and have the continuation to my legacy.

Where I sailed @03:19 p.m. on Monday, July 31, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me: The Pirate Returneth!!!

Shining over You: J - Fly Away

Yo.

So I've realized something lately. People really think I'm a pirate. I thought it was just like "Oh, Jon thinks he's a pirate, he's funny har har hurrrrrr", but the more I talk to people the more they associate me with being a pirate.

And I have to say, my party didn't help the situation. As soon as I saw myself in the costume I knew there and then that I had to have been a pirate in my past life.

So yeah, very funky stuff. Anything else? Hmmm...our band mailed out little press kits to clubs and whatnot in hopes of landing a gig. Daniel did all of the work so all props definitely go to him, and they look really good, too. Here's hopin' we make it~

Lesseeeeeeeeeeeeee....e....

Oh, I'm going vegetarian for a little bit. Well, not complete vegetarian, just...instead of all the processed food I eat (which claims to have meat in it, when we all know it's actually just really tough lint), I'm going to snack more on vegetables, and only eat meat sparingly, in hopes of losing weight before Otakon...which is only a week away. So add the veggies to the jogging I'm going to be doing lately, and I'm aiming to lose at least 5 lbs. before Ota. Which would be great, 'coz if it works then I'm gonna keep it up. I'm 164 lbs. and it makes me a bit upset.

Wish me luck ya funsters!

P.S. Jo I missies you, and Gabalicious I can't wait to see you at Otakon! Woooooooo!

Where I sailed @09:19 p.m. on Sunday, July 23, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me : Yeah, it's over.

Shining over You: Hyde

My birthday, and vacation, have come and gone.

I've been back home for a full day now, so here's the recap of the past week.

Sunday night we went to Jun's and stayed up the whole night until we got to the airport. Tired and hungry, we marched onto the plane to San Fran.

We arrived in San Francisco, and to our surprise it was cold. Like, 50 degrees cold. Thinking the entire day would be this way, we drove to West Hollywood with high hopes.

They quickly diminished.

A 5 hour trip with increasing temperatures and decreasing patience went from fun to dismay. It was so bad that even the dying plants had enough and gave in to the sun, which lit them on fire and saved them from their torture.

Yeah, it was that bad.

We got into West Hollywood, and it was a pain in the ass. Too many cars, no free bathrooms, and the overall uncomfortability of the weather turned us all into monsters.

And then we saw Hyde.

That concert instantly made things better, and to see that beautiful man performing on stage quickly changed our moods.

Until the concert was over and we had to make that 5 hour track to Niikura's.

I tell you, I will never do that again. Ever. Even if you paid me.

Unless you gave me a super car, that could either fly or have auto drive which would enable me to not do anything but sleep in the back.

We finally made it to Nickels, and it was good. The next day we went around San Fran, and it was a lot of fun. I also got to try the three fast food joints Cali had to offer: Jack in the Box, Carl's Jr., and In N' Out Burger.

And Jack in the Box won my heart. Their hamburgers are twice as big as any fast food joint here, their fries are godly, and their small drinks are our mediums here. Our smalls are considered kid's meals to them. And their meals are so much cheaper. Like 2-3 dollars cheaper.

I'm so glad that they're coming to the east coast, otherwise I'd need Niikura to send me those burgers for a monthly fix. Man, so good...

Then we waited 12 hours to see Hyde at Slim's, and boy oh boy was it worth it. Fanatic Japanese Girls, horrible sunburns, and naturally...Hyde.

And what makes this event better was that I touched him.

I. Touched. Hyde.

Let that sink in for a bit. I touched one of the sexiest men in the world...and it was good. So good.

When the concert ended, my birthday began. We went to Japan Center, ate some crepes made by this awesome man named Shinji, and had a shitload of fun...until it was time to leave. It was a sad time, but with all the fun and crazy antics we had, it's gonna be a time I'll never forget. I'm so glad to have goneand I'd do it all again...except for the goddamn 5 hour drive. Just...just no.

And tomorrow's my awesome pirate party!!! 22 years old, and it's time to rock it out like nuts.

By the way, I make the awesomest/sexiest pirate next to Johnny Depp. Pics will be shown.

Where I sailed @10:59 p.m. on Friday, July 7, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me : Holy shit...

Shining over You: Hyde - Concerts

It's my birthday. And I'm in Cali.

And big big news, but I'll tell you all when I get there<3

Give me love!!!

Where I sailed @11:57 a.m. on Thursday, July 6, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me : Weeee~

Shining over You: The TRAX - Are You Ready?

Ok I know I haven't gotten around to those Christmas gifts but due to an extreme lack of money I will as soon as possible!

With that said, do not feel obligated to get me the following for my birthday...

Any Johnny Depp Movie, preferrably Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas or Donnie Brasco

Any movie will do, really.

Anything Bleach related

Anything One Piece related

Ico for the PS2

This nifty shirt

Anything Pirate Related, as well~

Blood Muzik from J (or any of his albums excluding Red Room and Glaring Sun, thank you)

Crazy Crazy DVD from J

Or His new single.

Creature Creature their new single. It's all Tetsu in there, baby.

I love you all.

Oh and there will be a new layout soon, I promise~<3

Where I sailed @08:42 p.m. on Tuesday, June 27, 2006

__________xG

Shining over You: The TRAX - Are You Ready?

Where I sailed @08:42 p.m. on Tuesday, June 27, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me: WHOA!

Shining over You: J - Super High

July 8th! Greatest birthday party in the world for yours truly!!!!

Pirate Party Extravaganza!!!

Anyone who comes must dress as a pirate/have pirate related clothes~

Anyone who doesn't, gets stabbed. Hard.

Be there or be the biggest fucking square to ever grace the god given world.

Where I sailed @08:48 p.m. on Sunday, June 25, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me : Hmph >_>

Shining over You: FAKE? - Praise

So apparently I'm too busy with other things to do some "bhloghing" around here, so I've returned to tell you all some things about the weekend.

Okay friday was fun, since we went to AnimeNext to see D'espairs Ray. We drove all the way into Secaucus (Yes, See Cock Us), and we knew where the con was when we saw the gaggle of fat, smelly, or otherwise weird cosplayers and nerds.

Okay here's where I start to reconsider my motives for anime - Normally I would never hang out with these people; not because they're not nice or anything, usually they are, but it's the fact that I shower and they don't, they talk ferociously about how Goku's gi in Dragonball Z changed the thread count in Dragonball GT, or they get into "character" and do or say things that aren't anything near to what the actual character would say. Mostly because they don't know they're being copied by a rancor (s'my little return of the jedi tip, right there) who decided to wear sweatpants rather than samurai clothing.

But I digress.

The con was a lot of fun, and I got to see not only D'espairs Ray, but motherfuckin' Suicide City. Now, this was the second time I saw them, and I have to say that their shows are nuts. The vocalist comes shooting out of the back and starts backflipping and forward handspringing all over the friggin' place.

And their bassist is hot. Like...hot.

She gyrates all over her bass and does this turbo hump, and...well when you see her it's wise to bring a towel.

Anyhoo, their lead guitarist was bad ass as well, since he was doin' one handed cartwheels and shit while playing.

While playing!

Van Halen's the only other band I know of that's done anything close to that...and Suicide City didn't have to change their vocalist 100 times.

What else? Oh well there were these two drunk ~~girls~~ beasts that stumbled into the concert and kept bumping into me, so I elbowed them over as many times as I could. Highly annoying.

Then I went to Bound Brook with Daniel and Kazuya to see Suicide City again, and fell in love with a band called Lourds. Totally bad ass. The vocalist, this stunning punk princess, played not only guitar, but a violin and...of all things to bring to a rock band...a mandolin.

Fuckin' A.

And then there was this open mic we went to in Trenton, and it was fun...for a while. Then it kinda dragged, probably because I was starving. No, no...it dragged. Very eclectic though, it went from acoustic sets to a rapper to a bluegrass guitarist and this pyschedelic bassist who impressed the hell out of me. Then there was the Jimmy Hendrix Jr. Experience, which was just...jesus. Their bassist was out of tune, the vocalist/guitarist/weirdo was anything but subtle with his guitar playing. He knew one cool trick on the guitar...and then continued to do it. God, it was annoying.

Oh, and on lighter news (that wasn't light, you say? No, it wasn't. Lots of depth.), I lost 2 more pounds, so I'm down to 160. I'm very heppy.

Ok that's it, leave me alone for a while 'coz...I have to use the bathroom. Tinkle~

Where I sailed @09:00 a.m. on Wednesday, June 21, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me : ~

Shining over You: L'arc en ciel - Fate

Nobody's around anymore. Poopies. Someone leave me an e-mail or a text message with some love<3

Or I start boxin'.

Where I sailed @03:40 p.m. on Friday, June 9, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me : Stuff! Huzzah!

Shining over You: D - Paradox Mini Album

Huzzah indeed, my friends.

This entire week of me being off has been filled with nonstop escitement, and I'll let you all in on it now!

Firstly, I threw a surprise party for Toki even though her birthday was the week prior. There was a whole wad of stuff goin' on on the same day and Toki wanted everyone to be able to come to her party so she cancelled it and we ended up going to New York for the day. Well, on friday I set everything up, everyone showed up (though some showed up later due to their own reasons), and then...we almost waited until 9-10pm 'coz Toki made other plans. Luckily, Kazuya (who was my hostage taker), managed to change Toki's mind and come back to my parents' house (where the party was being held) and we thoroughly surprised her (these are parentheses).

Very fun night, I might add.

THEN!

The next day, Toki and her mom and I went out to lunch, and then to Ikea where I fought being somewhat sick from drinking too much the previous night. Now, it was hot, I'm not feeling well, and I wasn't in the best mood so anything I had done I wasn't accountable for. It was almost a bad day when we stopped over at the Kid's World gigantic Toys R' Us store and I got my extremely early birthday gift - A PSP niggas!

Hoo yeah, I'm livin' in the times, now. The only problem is I don't have a memory stick and now I can't save my games so it's pretty much just a glorified paper weight at the moment. Poop.

But on the flip side, I'm finally done with Kingdom Hearts 2 after defeating Sephiroth, though it took me about 10 tries this time around. Bastard was tough.

Anything else? Oh yeah...we went to Six Flags yesterday. Talk about awesome. Aside from the heat of doom, we went on a few rides and they all were great. The best one was Kingda Ka, though it didn't look like much since there were no loops and only a tall climb that spins, the trick was the extremely fast entrance you make going to that climb. You get shot out in what I can only compare to as being born again. There's no sound save for the wind that blows off your face, and everything is completely tight around you. Then you climb up the hill, at a rate of speed I like to call "wuhshazijigabadah!?!?!?!" and then fall down while anything left of your human shell deteriorates from the massive hurrican winds.

Ride was fucking awesome.

All in all that's been my week, and I'm glad I gots to share it with everyone~

I never know how to end these things...

Where I sailed @11:09 a.m. on Tuesday, May 30, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me: :p

Shining over You: Hyde - Faith Album

Hey yo everyone.

So we finally got a new drummer, and it's all awesomeness from here on out! I can't wait, we're gonna jam on friday and kick serious ass 'coz we're awesome. And you're not. Well, you are, just not as awesome as say, a certain pirate king.

Akio, congratulations on gradumatin from college! You're mucho the awesomes.

Jo! Sorry I'm not on anymore, but you know...you're not either. And I know this because I have telepathy and I can tell when you're apathetic to the interweb usage. Awesome idea for the bass though, I wanna make a bass that has like a white supernova on a black body, it'd be bad. ass.

Been playing Kingdom Hearts 2, though I'm finally now getting into it. It's starting to get reaaaaaaaaaaaally good, which I'm happy for 'coz I was kinda gettin' bored with it.

Love to everyone else who's readin', and I may put up some new comics soon~

And mebbe a new layout, I mean jeez...this is old.

Buh boo.

Where I sailed @07:24 p.m. on Thursday, May 18, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me: :p

Shining over You: J - Super High

So life throws some serious curves sometimes.

My cousin, who was only in his thirties, died on saturday of a heart attack. It's really weird 'coz like...I'm never gonna see him again, even though we never really saw much of each other as it is.

I'm upset about his passing, but not much. I mean don't get me wrong, he's my cousin and all, but we rarely saw each other. Come to think of it, the last time I saw him was in January, and I can't even remember before that. We were never really close...I mean I just recently got to know him better.

I feel a little weird about not being so upset but I figure it's normal given the circumstances, y'know?

Well in any case, it's got me thinking a lot over the past weekend. Life is fuckin' short, man. I don't like the idea of not being in control of how long I live, but I do know I want to do everything I've ever wanted before I die, whenever that may be. I don't wanna pass shit up, and I'll be damned if I die and not be known.

So yeah, I'm gonna live my life.

Where I sailed @09:33 p.m. on Sunday, April 30, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me : Yeah, it's over.

Shining over You: Hyde - Sweet Vanilla

Rock out for Cancer at Rutgers is over. It was fun, but a bit disappointing I might add.

Firstly, we rocked, and I'm glad as hell for that. I got a little self-conscious after a finger slipped on a fret and it bothered me so much I ended up spending the rest of the sets paying attention to the bass rather than rocking out. Not that that's totally bad, I mean what's rocking out if I play like shit, yanno?

I definitely give props to everyone else in the group, especially Murad. He was like this pseudo-filipino guitar god up there, shaking his indian/persian ass and all around being cool shit. Poor Daniel had a head cold that turned into a fever, which limited his singing powers so we stopped after 4 songs out of a proposed 5. Not bad though, we got through the songs we really wanted to do. Kris was bad ass as well, even though he said he made some mistakes I didn't hear shit. A mixture of excitement and nervousness washed over me when I hit the stage, but when I saw the crowd had significantly lessened I became disappointed. I mean, it sucks to see a bunch of people just leave because their friends had finished, nevermind that you could see the rest of the bands play and overall have a good time. I would have stayed around but it seems that Toki might have a bit of that head cold, too, that Daniel's now just getting over. It seemed to kick in that night and we left early. Too bad though, I wanted to stick around for Phoenix Down, since they obviously were Final Fantasy fans.

Speaking of which, Advent Children hit the US and man oh man did I cream my pants when I saw the gigantic box of DVDs at my job. I mean, I've seen it and I own not only the japanese bootleg but now the US version, but it's still bad ass to see that kind of thing at your job.

Which, by the way, still sucks.

So anyway, as you all have probably read there was this Emo band called fuck-farts for life, or whatever Emo losers call themselves nowadays, and they sucked. Sure they may have had songs put together, but honestly if you're in a band and you don't, then you're just kinda up there holding instruments and looking like total asses, right? Anyhoo, these fag-bags were not only arrogant, but rude and all around total ass-licking douche-riders. They complained about the straw drawing being unfair. Yeah, we all get straws and pick one, and whichever number we get is the number that we're up...and it's unfair.

Ok.

IT pisses me off royally that they were such bitches about the whole thing, and the fact that their music sucked made them even worse. I kid you not, every song sounded the same, that is, if you could get past the annoying keyboards. Yes, I said keyboards, as a plural, because they had two of those fucking homosexual instruments. I mean seriously, just one is fine, Janne Da Arc does it and they fuckin' rock, but two? Complete overkill. And it seems they put more emphasis on them because you couldn't even hear the vocalist, it was just keyboard. And that's if you could even hear the music at times. Not to mention one of the keyboardists was just faggin' it up all on stage, trying to rock out and going into the audience where he made the crowd uncomfortable from touching them. Idiot ass jockey.

They got me really pissed off that night...hell they still do. Very unprofessional, uptight and overall a bunch of donut glazing ass pirates. If I could I would have summoned the Gods of Rock on them and incinerated their crap ass whiny music to dust. I'm on a personal tirade against Emo and all it stands for.

Other than that, I'm good. I didn't get into the second band that much, they seemed a bit pretentious for me. Not only did their songs go on forever, but it got to the point where it was like "ok you guys sound good, but if you go any longer you may have to die". I was floored by the bassist, but I felt that all of the playing he was doing was unnessecary. Don't get me wrong, my boy had talent, but it's one thing to play awesomely, it's another to do it so much that it's irritating. Just because you can go all over the fret board doesn't mean you have to, y'know? Not every song needs 50 notes being played.

They were good though, just need to shorten their songs.

All in all I had fun, but I wish more people could have been there. What we need to do is play a club or somethin', that would effin' rock.

Oh, and I got a new sketch book and I'm fillin' it up with some of the best artwork I've done in a while. Maybe you'll get a peak~

Where I sailed @09:15 p.m. on Thursday, April 27, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me: Yo.

Shining over You: Hyde- A Prayer

Tuesday, April 25th. 7pm. Rutger's - Busch Campus. First live performance of Eden*Star.

You WILL be there.

I know, I know, I haven't been around, and there's a reason. Well, actually there isn't, I'm just lazy. Anyhoo, Been workin' out, lookin' sup-ah-sheck-shee, and workin' on some new songs. I've been drawin' some loose artwork, nothing to the comic though I did start Tofu-Bunny's comic recently. Also, I'm gonna make a new layout soon, I just need time! TIME!

Okay bye.

Where I sailed @08:33 p.m. on Wednesday, April 19, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me: Weeeeee~

Shining over You: B'z - Ultra Soul

Hi all.

So I joined a club with Toki, and it's a lot of fun. We worked out for the first time yesterday and maaaaan am I sore...It's good though 'coz I've been gettin' real lazy as of late and got myself a little belly that needs to be gone so I can get into better clothes...I hate walkin' around in my work clothes...

In other news, I beat Dragon Quest VIII in order to make room for Kingdom Hearts II which just came out so...yeah, imma rip that shit up. I'm still playing DQ though just to get the little items/sidequests I missed, but all in all I'm pretty much done.

Nothing else new to report, so I'm out. Peace nyiggaaaas~

Where I sailed @02:17 p.m. on Tuesday, March 28, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me: AHA!

Shining over You: Luna Sea - Feel

You thought I was dead, didn't you!?

Well I dunno why, I've been trying my best to contact everyone and tell them that I am, indeed, alive and very much awesome.

So we threw Akio a surprise party on friday. So much of a surprise, in fact, that it was well over months late. 'Coz we're good like that. Anyhoo, it was a lot of fun, I got tipsy and wanted to hug everybody 'coz I gots lots of love to give out. Anyhoo I'm thinkin' of makin Sunset Stories into a webcomic-type deal 'coz it'd be a lot easier to do then my original story which I'm still currently working on, and it'd be fun 'coz it's a lot sillier and funnier. Anything to add, just post a comment...mostly 'coz I need the ego boost >D

See youse guys later!

Where I sailed @12:41 p.m. on Tuesday, March 14, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me: Hiyooooo!

Shining over You: J - Gush

Okay so here's what's up: I haven't been around 'coz I've been shackin' up with Toki. For good.

Yeah, I moved into her apartment last week.

It's been fun for the most part, aside from me missin' my parents and her mom bein' crazy. All in all, I'm havin' a good time~

So yeah, sorry for not getting back to everyone...I do miss you all >D Jo beans, you're my sister and I'll always love you so e-mail me and tell me what's new.

Akio, you're the coolest! Just 'coz I said so.

Gabbles, I wasn't able to get a pic of that girl but even Toki said she looked just like you, it was weeeeeeird...kinda cool 'coz it was like you were there, too, only...you know, we didn't know you. At all.

Oh yeah, a few of us went to see the D'espairs Ray concert in Avalon in NY and maaaan...was it fun. The opening acts were really cool, and it makes me glad I'm a bassist. I can't wait to start playin' gigs, especially when we find a new fucking drummer...I'm tellin' you, it's takin waaaay too long to find one. Plus, I'm out of drummers to request so...what happens now happens.

Peace people!

Where I sailed @08:41 a.m. on Tuesday, February 28, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me: Poop.

Shining over You: Siam SHADE - Don't Tell Lies

Firstly, I'd just like to say that Siam SHADE fucking rocks. I usually just said they were cool, but after finally giving them a listen (Thanks to the beanie sister''s making of CD powers! Huzzaaaah!), I have to say that they deserved whatever popularity they got. Granted, they're no L'Arc (And that goes without saying: L'Arc is the greatest band ever made), but they definitely are somethin awesome.

Secondly, I'm not sure of the current situation with our temp. drummer. I kinda got the impression during one of our conversations that he wants to be in the band, but if he can't make a bit of the time for it then we're screwed. Sort of, I mean we can always find someone else but the point is, to have someone here and now is important also. Hopefully I'll see him today so I can talk to him...

Still no word from Tokyopop. This is gonna be a long sit-in -_-

Where I sailed @10:08 a.m. on Wednesday, February 1, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me: Hahaaaaa...

Shining over You: L'Arc~En~Ciel - Natsu no Yuutsu

So everything's back to normal at my house. The only odd thing is that several appliances/home goods have been exploding or just not working. Like our microwave...which kills me 'coz I nuke a lot of shit.

Also, our water heater bursted, pretty much making downstairs into a lake. I swam around downstairs on my big moosi dog to grab my bass and pick up my computer, and wondering if I'd be able to take a shower today.

Man was I wrong. I spent the whole day looking kinda like a stinky person.

So anyhoo, I came home and the heater was fixed so I showered like a dirty little monkey would and then got all clean and happy~ Oh, and I bought some nasty spray on hair dye that ended up leaving red stain s everywhere. Everyone thought I was being beaten at home. The very last time I put cheap shit like that in my hair...Well, everyone said that red tips on my hair would be cool, so I may give that a try...

In other news, we need a drummer for our band, and I tried my shot at finding one and failed, it seems, so...yeah. This kind of sucks. That, and I can't think of any new songs to write...

Where I sailed @09:33 p.m. on Sunday, January 29, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me: Dumbasses.

Shining over You: Hyde - Sweet Vanilla

Well I have this friend, and he's a gigantic crybaby. Not only does he bother me about his current "I need a girlfriend" phase, but he constantly brings up his past relationships as if they were golden eggs of life. What bothers me the most is that, in every relationship he tried to take a girl from a friend of his, or the girl was already in a relationship and he didn't care as long as he could get her, so anything bad that happens to him, in my opinion, is deserving to him.

I mean honestly, how do you expect a relationship to work if honesty and truth were the first things out the window? You can't date someone who's willing to cheat on their current significant other at that moment, it just doesn't work. In his case, this happens ALL the time, and he just gets suckered into it. I don't feel bad for him at all, even though he allegedly "almost killed himself" over this girl who, after everyone told him was bad news and not worth the trouble, continued to pursue. Bitch turned out to be crazy and he wanted to off himself in the process because 'the pain was unbelievably unbearable"...

You know what? Fuck that. The only way I see suicide as an option is if everything in your world is taken away from you, emotionall, physically, financially, and you SERIOUSLY have nothing left to live for, and even then you can always find something. He's nothing more than a complaining, whining shell of a man and it pisses me off that suddenly everyone needs to know his business as if it's important. Not like we all don't have our own problems...

This brings me back to my single days...except I never wanted to kill myself, I just complained about how I want a girlfriend so badly. However, my problem was never to this extent, I just complained and I know it annoyed a lot of people, but what the hell I'm young, it was the biggest problem I had in my apparent easy life.

Now this loser's trying to be with a girl who's probably still with her boyfriend and is just trying to get the best of both worlds. It's so obvious she's leading him on but he won't listen.

Hell, if he killed himself, maybe I could get some peace and quiet.

...I've been hanging around Toki too much.

Guys! I'm waiting for an answer from Tokyopop! Everyone wish me the most luck you possibly have! Yar!!!

Where I sailed @11:51 a.m. on Tuesday, January 24, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me: :p

Shining over You: Hyde - Season's Call

Well, I have officially landed on the shit list of my parents. I made a huge mistake, but I had reason for it: I forgot my mom's birthday. Now I know, this is a really big mistake, and I would never do anything like this on purpose 'coz I'm just not like that, but I forgot it and, of course, it hurt my mom bad. But like I said, I had a reason: I hurt my shoulder on the same day and I took painkillers to help me out, only they put me to sleep for majority of the day. The next day, however, I called my mom and told her what happened and how sorry I was, and that I would never intentionally do anything like this to hurt her 'coz I love her. Well, I thought things were okay until today when she had my brother and I sit down as she pretty much ripped into us about being inconsiderate and ungrateful about living in this house and how we pretty much treat them like strangers. Needless to say, I was in a mix of shock and anger.

To start things off, my mom said that we don't do anything around the house unless we're told for the umpteenth time, only to have things the same way after we've done whatever it is we were supposed to, like say...clean our rooms. Okay, I understand I'm 21 and all, but seriously, it's my room, right? If it's my room, and nobody else should really be in it but me, then why the fuck should it always be clean? Am I trying to impress myself everytime I go in? Do my parents showcase my room when I'm gone? No, so what's the point in my cleaning my room if I feel I don't have to? Yeah, it's their house, fine...I'll let them use that excuse, but it's not like my room has any special capabilities that require them to be in it 24/7, so who cares what it looks like? Now the computer room is a different story, but it's always messy 'coz my brother and I practically live down here as it is. This is my center of life, since I have just about everything down here, so if it gets messy...well there's just reason. I also don't feel the need to clean up after my OLDER brother who's more of a slob than I am. I haven't been home for 2 weeks, so how the fuck could I make any type of mess down here?

Secondly, I bought a gift for Jun BEFORE christmas even started, back when I had money before I paid my debt. Mind you, she's the only person who actually got a gift because a: i found it early, b: it was cheap and i had the money, c: i was starting my christmas shopping. So yeah, needless to say I had to save for my debt and I had no money. Now mind you, I hadn't even gotten gifts for anyone else at this point, not my family or Toki or anyone else, because of said debt, and I felt incredibly shitty about this because it sucks not being able to give people gifts for people. MY MOTHER also knew this was going on and UNDERSTOOD I had no money. Apparently, she got upset that I was able to get Jun a gift, and wouldn't even let me explain that I had bought it a long while back. She insisted that whatever I say meant shit, and accused me of having enough money to galavant with my friends and buy them the world, but nothing for my family.

Yeah, she didn't even bother to find out that not even Toki has gotten her gift yet. Because I'm still broke. Hell, nobody's gotten a gift yet. Because I'm broke. I go and spend $6 on a gift for Jun, BEFORE christmas and this debt, and suddenly I'm a white collar criminal, hording money away to play businessman.

So she accuses me of being ungrateful of the gifts I got and inconsiderate for not getting her anything.

Yeah, I'm a horrible child. I have no money, and it's my fault. I'll spend millions on my friends but I would rather sell my family to the circus because I'm Satan himself. That's me!

To think that she would even accuse me of such stupid things fucking astounds me. I've been beating myself up because I couldn't afford fucking shoelaces if I needed them, and I'm expected to get gifts for EVERYONE. Nevermind that she said she understood my predicament. So, now she expects me to pay $50 rent a week so I can live in the holding cell I now call my room. either that, or move out.

At this rate, I can't take it in this house anymore. This place definitely isn't how it used to be...so much bad shit has gone down here, it's just not the same, so the first chance I get...I'm moving out. I've had enough of all the bullshit around here.

This is definitely a good turn for 2006.

In lighter news, I sent out my first chapter to Tokyopop, finally...at least wish me luck on that.

Where I sailed @11:16 p.m. on Thursday, January 19, 2006

__________xGod Bless Me: New layout time!

Shining over You: Hyde - Midnight Celebration

Behold! And it only took me like...2 hours. Man I'm gettin' rusty. So yeah I'm sending out my comic to Tokyopop this week, so everyone...wish me luck.

And I'm off!

Where I sailed @01:13 a.m. on Thursday, January 19, 2006