This. Is. Me. |the demented minds of Fart|

.o0| boring!! |0o.
Saturday, January 31, 2004 @ 05:03 p.m.;

aku bleh jadi gyler!! eh dah mmg pon aku gyler. aper yg aku beual ni. ar sembarang ah. aku ke-boring-an. ni naik 3 kali aku add entry. tak pernah2 sey buat cam gini. dari tadi aku dudok depan bender kotak ni, tenong jer kat screen. mcm bdk bodoh sey. mener ni org semuer??!!

.o0| i want my butt back!! |0o.
Saturday, January 31, 2004 @ 01:24 p.m.;

fridaes as usual i haf training. tiring but who cares. wasnt at turf city yest due to the unpredictable weather, though yest was a perfectly fine day. anywhoos, during training dat mr haikel was toking abt the diff body types. as usual those pple will sae i haf a body suited for long-dist running. c'mon lah, i'll pee along the way if i run too long.

so since training was in sch, he made us run up the stairs alot of times. uncountable man. i could feel my legs goin wobbly at the end of the run. den had to do the sprints cum side-step cum hopping run. wah! long time nvr do those stuffs. was really panting at the end of each set. its been a long time since i perspire like dat. seriously, i was like perspiring like a prostitute in church. rite~~

haikel was like saying dat those sprinter girls haf firm butts. remind me of myself during the nationals period. firm man. hahaha... now long time nvr train, i think the butts dissapearing. gone back to the original state. but still as firm of course. my butt shrink!! cant be...i want it back!! so dats y my jeans becomin more loose. i tot my jeans expanding. need to gain weight n need more muscles. i want it fast n i want it soon.

p/s. to the anonymous guy, i don understand y u can be daring to tag on my board wif those lovey-dovey msg-es but not daring enuff to reveal urself. its not as if im gonna eat u up if u reveal ur identity. gosh! u're realli freaking me out..

.o0| song of the moment |0o.
Saturday, January 31, 2004 @ 01:06 p.m.;

::Jauh by Cokelat:: Hari kulalui tanpa hadirmu lagi
Kucoba ingkari sepi ini
Mengapa terjadi hancur kau akhiri
Satu kata janji tak kembali
Seribu tanya sesak di dada
Haruskah bimbang meraja
Lelah tepis harapanku
Sendiri mencari bayangmu
Kutunggu dirimu
Selalu kutunggu
Walaupun kutahu
Kau jauh, kutahu kau jauh

Biarlah semua seperti apa adanya
Kuterus mencoba relakannya
Satu yang kuminta, kembalilah padanya
Kutahu di sana ada dia

.o0| i've lost blood!! |0o.
Tuesday, January 27, 2004 @ 05:54 p.m.;

aku cedera parah! ah! ah! *eksyen pengsan*

guess wat? my sch had a blood donation drive todae. n yes, me, the ghurl who's afraid of blood donated hers coz she thinks she's saving lives. hakz pui ar! i myself cant my own life, still wanna save others. oh watever!

decided to donate during the last few minutes of the 2nd free period so we could be late for GP tutorial. hehehe. i don wanna see dat teacher, man. Ms. Lee a.k.a mak babi. jahat sey kiter, but wat the heck. the so-called registration room was packed of "enthu" pple eager to donate blood. yeah rite! so by the time we fill up the form n queue up for the processing info thingie, we've already missed her lesson.

dunnoe lah y her pantat gatal sgt haf to walk along dat strech of corridor. of course, she saw n recognised us. she was like saying to us dat she wants an excuse letter lah or sumthing like dat. wat shite lah. k..k back to the donating blood part.

qamarul was damn irritating n noisy. made me even nervous to donate blood. lucky thing, the chair next to me doesnt haf dat the blood pressure thingie. or else, he would haf made me even more frightened.

i was sooo freakingly scared of the needle. sumhow i laugh for no reason, or was it coz im nervous? i turned my head so i don see wat dat nurse's gonna do to my hand. my ears already plugged wif earphones blasting music. i don even noe wat the nurse ask me to do. all i noe i haf to squeeze dat black thingie. some sort of stress ball but dis is totally not a ball. i don even noe when the nurse applied anesthetic(watever the spellin is). i felt sumthing, like dat tingling sensation. im not quite sure how it realli feels coz maybe my mind was too numb to think abt anything. its jus pure fear of the needle.

sumhow i cried. im not sure why. i guess i was traumatized? den i think the needle was in n the song dat was playing was dat aerosmith's song, i don wanna miss a thing. wah so feeling man the song! i cried even more. all i noe is dat i was totally stoning the whole period of time. felt like sleeping. my hand was weak, totally. i couldnt squeeze properly. gosh, a lot of those nurses was like askin if i was ok. of course i am, lar. dope! i jus felt like sleeping onli!

hahahaha! i think im like those patients who juz cant seem to cooperate wif them. dis nurse, i think the one in charge of me, was super annoyed at me. she asked a lot of times dat if i don wan to continue den she will terminate the whole procedure. wah sey! im onli scared of dat needle lar! n blood of course. i din even see my own blood. my blood flow real slow coz i couldnt pump properly. hehe! ;) the nurses was checking on my blood bag to see if its enough. of course it isnt!

there's A LOT of pple waiting so my turn was cut short. qamarul, ruz n shikin who obviously started later ended b4 me. nurses oso find me annoyin n decided my blood to be sufficient for the time being. i was oso scared of needle being pulled out. (yeah, yeah. u guys can laugh at me for all i care.) n i was given dat plaster dat doesnt look at all nice coz it was plain. i wanted dat bandage!! yellow carer!! the nurse said dat was more troublesome. sooo, now i noe they find me troublesome. n den i was free to leave. at last!

my knees was weak n wobbly. i felt cranky after it. my tears seem to flow so easily. i cant understand all this. i think im still under this huge trauma of donating blood. may take a while to recover. gosh, im exageratin. as usual. n now, im typing dis entry wif a limpin hand n itchy legs. damn those mosquitoes. they jus had to add to my prob.

i wanna start stoning. off i go again...

.o0| cum n see it! |0o.
Sunday, January 25, 2004 @ 08:45 p.m.;

k..k..jus to inform dat the pics r up. watever pics dat i saved in the computer. those r the surviving photos so far. so anithing....~~click here~~

.o0| love, love n more love |0o.
Sunday, January 25, 2004 @ 04:46 p.m.;

no, im not in love or anywhere close. its dat im surrounded by pple who i guess in it. 2 of my members are in de process of....u noe urself. den mas is wif her boi. ct oso has hanis. hmmm...lemme see who else. intended to add fatimah rox but she jus ended her r'ship wif her guy. so sad...nonetheless, im still thinking dat there's a lot of pple dat noe who r now getting attached like my sis, i guess.

*drifts for a while* ;p sumhow feeling excited for those pple esp for ruz n yani. aku support korang dari blakang!valentine's also ard the corner. not realli into it. nvm, celebrate ngan matair aku ah....si shikin beylo tu. hahaha. dier single. aku single. bleh ar.k go~

.o0| ------ |0o.
Saturday, January 24, 2004 @ 05:42 p.m.;

boy! am i bored. was sick frem yest. den to make it worse, it's been rainin the whole dae. todae's been a very, i stress again, VERY grey day. could haf gone out wit the dk peeps to ecp but i guess my mom read the msg-es in my hp.

unfortunately for me, qamarul was the one who msg-ed me bout the ecp thingie. mom din realli confronted me on the msg-es in my hp, but she jus said not to go out todae.

to dampen my mood, the big P came todae. pms haven realli hit me yet but my back now aches. dang, it a preety hard to be a ghurl. dis lah, dat lah. *thinkin* wats there for me to do?? hmmm..i guess shuld do more termenung.

.o0| ni vouge melayu |0o.
Saturday, January 24, 2004 @ 12:22 p.m.;

aku telah dipanggil 'vogue'.*woots* bangga aku. weee!! tak pernah aku dipanggil tu. nadia panggil aku ni semasa tunggu bas. aku tau lah itu terjadi pada hari rabu tapi...ala faham2 jer lah.
maser aku pakai baju cheongsam putih tu. sekian lamer sey tak pakai. dah tu, lepas dk, tukar jer dari baju kurong ker cheongsam, dapat compliments banyak2. bangga aku keseorangan. alahai! lepas tu gi zara pon ader om puteh ni tngk aku semacam. waduh!!

dah lah..aku ari ni semangat kemelayuan. entry ni pon melayu sey. melayu pon tak betol. mcm aku amik kesah ar. aku tak leh angkat. aw!

.o0| {0_o} |0o.
Tuesday, January 20, 2004 @ 12:51 p.m.;

it's been a while since i blog. might as well, add an entry since im totally bored here at home alone. i din go to skool of course, dats y!

the whole of yest afternoon was raining 'woof' and 'meow'. so i was totally drenched to my guts? after eating our late lunch at s11, decided to lepak at s'goon stadium. the sudden relapse of my stomach ache decided to hit me den n there. wasn't rollin ard as usual. took panadol menstrual for some reason i don noe. or izit coz dats the only pill available den? oh watever.

it was freakingly chilly. only to make me feel worse. had to walk from the stadium to the bus-stop like sum prawn. almost crouching to ease dat freaking pain. wat luck i had since 147 buses are all air-conditioned. i think i would haf frozen to death if the bus driver drive more slowly.

reached home quickly changed den plop down on the sofa. watch tv till bout 7.45 den straight to my bed. the nxt thing i knew, its already 3.58am. was really hopin to catch a cold or fever but i guess my immunity still stayin strong. but since i plan not to go to sch,so continued sleeping till 8+.

now, feeling regretful. shuld haf gone to sch despite dat GP period. i guess i'll jus haf to wait till 3+ to back to sch for the last dikir practice for 2moro's CNY performance. n yar, maybe going to sch wif last year's racial harmony's all white cheongsam ensemble..

.o0| quickie |0o.
Tuesday, January 13, 2004 @ 10:22 p.m.;

quick update!! gotta do research for 2moro's management's tutorial. nth much lately i guess coz laziness strikes when most of those happenings happen. anywhoos, i need to be proud of dis coz nvr in my life i did 7km. *claps* ;p weee!! dat was last fri during x-country training. dang! freakingly hot there. could feel my skin totally soakin up the sun. of course got darker. blueargh!! if u want make me darker give me a poper tan lah..dis kinda tan mcm selekeh ar.

now back to wat im supposed to be doing, RESEARCH! till then, adios amigos!

.o0| first week dweebs |0o.
Thursday, January 8, 2004 @ 07:50 p.m.;

arrgghh!! juz got back frem sch. kinda late ar since sch ends at bout 1330. wnet to compasspt to eat lunch den head back to sch see floorball training. aint sure if i wanna join. juz wanna see if its tough. aneway, floorball not my cuppa tea/coffee/juice...watever it is. i got poor body coordination. rite~

todae din skip lectures like wat i did the last 2 daes. so far skipped hist n maths a lecture. had 2 periods of p.e, 1 period lit, 1 period management n 1 period malay lecture. mengancam jugak ar sub. so din skip. step bdk baik. pi dah mabok!

was realli looking forward to p.e just now. OMG!! dat was the first time i did a lot of push ups. damn lot. all kinds of push ups. from the norm to diamond to spider to stagerred(whut?). 1 period is 45 min so count for urself how much time we spent. den did the sprints like the normal athletics drill. after which we run ard the whole sch, yes the WHOLE SCH! lucky thing the sch is freakingly small BUT the sch's located on a hill. imagine dat.

tiring but fun. mr. amir, the dm cum p.e teacher, complimented my running posture. *woots* kembang aku seketika. ;p after the lesson, the track teacher, mr heikal, came to me n asked if i was goin 4 2moro's x-country training. he asked for my name. den i was like hesitating. dun noe which name to sae.

i said, "siti faitmah. urm..call me zahra. coz there's 2 siti fatimah u see."

im supposedly the fart n she's fatimah. but pple dun seem to understand n called her fart. so im using my last name. not my dad's name, u dope! dats part of name! haf to get use to pple calling me dat. ZAHRA. glamour. vogue. hahaha.

now feeling all the aches from p.e lesson. long time nvr did anything dis vigorous. nah! amik kau obat, zahra!

anywhoos, cikgu ahmad, malay teacher, saw me wif my digicam todae. he came up to me n asked who's pic i took. i was like stuttering, making up sum shitey reason.

cikgu: "amik gambar cikgu eh?"
me: "urm..urm..ah...yer, cikgu."
cikgu: "awak tak patot amik gambar sayer tau. nanti mlm awak tal boleh tdo. lain kali jgn bawak eh."

i was like wth. he's so old. of course i can sleep at night. anyway, i din take any pics of him AT ALL! i was takin fotos of "the braces guy" dat ruz was kinda interested in. perasaan peh cikgu!

guess i'll be off doin my GP hw. dang! hated it to the core!! argue bout sum stupid shite dat i dun bother to argue abt like 'wat is the significance of flowers in the country?'. like whut man!

.o0| welcome 2004! |0o.
Sunday, January 4, 2004 @ 11:14 a.m.;

welcome 2004!! not expecting much from it. to start things off, there's the 3-months course thingie dat i haf to go. im posted to MI-B (milenia institute-bartley campus), the arts stream. so much for getting the arts stream coz i choose the sub combi dats more for commerce.

anywhoos, the last two days was freakin tiring. dats the orientation days. left wif one more dae, dats on mon. not dat i wannna sae its exciting...but if peicai student council's would haf done it, it would haf been soooo much better. n another thing...i think if i stayed in the sch longer den the 3 months alloted, i will die of starvation. the canteen is freakingly small wif 2, yes 2 stalls!! its almost the same area as my pri sch's canteen but at least my pri sch's has way more stalls den dis sch.

wif 2 stalls, how is it possible for me to gain weight. i want to at least gain like abt 5-10 kg. its not dat underweight but i dun wanna look like those scrawny girls who's like left wif skin n bones as seen on The Nation's Countdown. dare to call 'emselves babes! c'mon, i've seen far more better bodies in sg den dat.

i want beyonce's body!!!

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