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Wednesday, April 21, 2004

my spirits are dampened. i feel so low. look at the time. im still awake. i need to talk. my sis's a bitch. yes, u've heard it loud n clear. B-I-T-C-H! there, i've said it.

one more thing, its freakingly depressing to be single. people saying being single is fun. gosh, they must be lying. coz deep inside, they're yearnin for one.

spit-it-all-out session @ 03:47 a.m.

Monday, April 12, 2004

aarrgh! wad de hell! i just used the comp 10 mins ago n now my sis wants to use it. freakin shyte! she just came back from i-dunnoe-where-n-dun-bother-to-noe-also sayin dat she wanna use the comp. freak to the world!!! urgh..

spit-it-all-out session @ 09:44 p.m.

Thursday, April 8, 2004

hei~~ tak tau balek per org ni semuer?? dah lah mak aku nyer b'dae. abeh aku stuck kat rumah mcm bdk belo gitu. dari tadi kemas rumah tak habes-habes. k ar, bukan kemas rumah tapi si kain baju tu semuer. dari tadi kerje aku angkat angkat, lipat kain, jemur kain, cuci kain baju, kemas kain baju. mcm never-ending gitu. tak pasal ar. si ruz pon dah gelar aku 'laundry vooman'. takper...takper~. lain kali biler modal aku cukop, aku bukak kedai dobi ar. puas hati sey.
mener ni semuer org?! hadoi! tunggu peh tunggu peh tunggu..org tak balek balek. aku nak sebokkan diri aku ni. nak join mak bpk kat town. aper setim lah diorg duer tu. kirekan romantic ar tu?! kener tunggu adek aku ni balek skolah. ish! pegi skolah bukan nak bawak kunci. abeh skarang aku kener terperangkap kat rumah tunggu si pala`on tu balek. sajer jer panggil adek mcm gitu. eh, heran aper aku! hakz...

anyways, semalam aku, ruz ngan yani gi 'kentotsa'. jakon-ese sey sesatu. naik monorail tak tau lah braper round. kepanasan kiter dibuatnyer. but seriously, semalam fun gyler nyer. kiter 3 kerat ni, turun kat palawan beach den off to the 'Southernest Point of Asia Continent'. nak tipu aper?! dah tentu tentu Indonesia lagi selatan drpd tu tempat. nak tipu pon tak agak-agak. ish. naseb baik gi semalam. tak ramai org. bleh buat dosa sikit. masok air den tan kat atas platform tu. den kol 4 lebeh 5 gitu, kiter pon chow chin chow. kelaparan, katerkan.

mak oi! sesatu peh mulot punyerlah bising biler lapar. dah lah lapar den si monorail tu pon mcm ter-packo wacko biler kiter nak balik. sesatu fantat gatal tanak naik bas. kiter miss 2 monorail den kiter squeeze mcm ikan sardin biler dah dpt naik. den si pompuan yg dudok samer "cabin" ngan kiter tu muker dier mcm bleh jadi potential hantu. hakz..mepek sey fart.

sampai mainland, kiter gi mkn kat bugis kat tempat 'apek pengotor'. aper punyer namer. mkn sampai berpeloh. dah lah pedas tu wanton mee abeh kiter tiga dudok kat dlm plak tu. mkn sampai perot naik senak. lepas mkn tu, cross the road mkn ice-cream kat swensen. dessert katerkan. seriously sey, time ni kiter mkn sampai dah tak leh jln sey. plannin masih nak roundin kat bugis village tapi perot full-ded peh pasal, kiter teros naik bas balik. si yani giler tu plak yg maseh alive n kickin, maseh hyper. padahal dier yg mkn paling bnyk.

abeh, aku mcm raser entry aku ni semakin panjang. bukan MACAM fart, MEMANG! k..k ar. whatever lah eh. aku end kat sini. orite...

spit-it-all-out session @ 03:31 p.m.

Tuesday, April 6, 2004

here i am...still alive n kickin. am supposed to be asleep. trust me, eye bags r sooo begining to form. was bein a good lil sista to my sis. helped her out wif her art 'project'. super-d-duper confusing. cant understand a single shyte bout wat she's doing.

neways, got dat letter from nyp. bout the sports n wellness mgt. not realli into dat course anymore but gonna fill up dat form anyway. still hafta get dat aik fong to do recommendation. mr. ku would haf been a better choice but he's in bartley now. so hafta go down to see aik fong again. shucks! he wasnt much ofa help juz now. dat freak ofa teacher.

gotta get to sleep, zahra. 2moro, i mean , later in de afternoon, still haf an interview. hope i'll get it. my mom tot of sum idea. she haf a feelin dat my (ex-)boss will call me up after the two-days seminar coz the permanent admin grl just resigned. so, mom told me to werk in the company for half-day, den do waitressin at the other part of the half-dae n on saturdaes i can do at tepak sireh. so, i'll be doin like 3 jobs at a go. cool-ded. i haven even get any stable one n mom were askin for a treat. goodness!*slaps forehead*

woah! by then, i will be single, sexy n free n makin my own money. woo-hoo!! wake up to reality gerl! i need actions not dreams! back to your much-needed-rest gerl. zzzzz....

spit-it-all-out session @ 12:19 a.m.

Friday, April 2, 2004

HAPPI BELATED APRIL FOOLS DAE!! got dat kind of thing, meh? *feeling cina-fied* ish. wadever it is,...im supposed to sae sumthing here but forget, yet again.

anywhoos, i went food shoppin just now. my houses is totally ready for war. n not jus any kind of war, its the JUNK FOOD WAR. hahaha. went to some warehouse sale near my mom's (now my ex) company. hooray hooray man! its like food's galore. n all are junk food. *stomach grumblin* n u noe wat? i din realise dat i haf to carry all the stuff dat i took all by myself. *sings 'ALL BY MYSELF'*

so, after payin all those stuff, realised dat there were 5 big bags full of food. really stockin up for war, tell ya. mom had to go to work n i had to carry back home. giler izzit, walk n carry those big bags to the bus-stop n walk again to nel station n walk again back home n still haf to climb up the stairs to reach the gate. still hafta drag those bags from gate to kitchen. *fart exaggerating* so to make things simple n my life easier, i took a cab. all in all spent . cheapo man. lucky went todae. last dae beb.

*feelin hungry AGAIN* so much for talkin bout food. im outta here. peas. =>food again. anyways, HAPPY BORNDAE NADIA!! n BELATED BORNDAE SITI!! mak kau, duer duer dah 17 sey. aku ni biler nak 17?!

spit-it-all-out session @ 02:54 p.m.