:Not Like You: Unveiled Thoughts
Sunday, May 14, 2006
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOMMY!!Great weekend, what can I say? On Friday, we went to Newton Circus for lunch and boy, i wish we can do it every weekend. I love good food, esp. if it's free. ;)
Saturday started off early, went to the market and all that jazz. The cute part was the 3 of us cooking Laksa for lunch. Well, I helped to peel off the onions and all that not so fun stuff and the cooking was left to suzi and mom. I took care of laundry and next thing we know, it was 2pm and we had our laksa and then - this is the gross part - we were all full and tired, we took a nap. Woke up at 4.30 and rushed to go for religious class.
And then it was back to waiting anxiously for 10pm. Spent it watching Rizal playing with his playstation. And then it was time for the FA Cup final...i've already ranted about this one on my previous post...
So now it's Sunday, and everyone is asleep. The delivery came today at about 9.30am and mom was definitely surprised to see that it was for her :D She's really happy about the present, I can tell :D Been in a good mood all day, hehe. Although the cupcakes are a tad bit too sweet for me, the chocolate filling is yummy.
Ina called from M'sia earlier saying her father in law in back in ICU. They had gone to visit him yesterday but he had a fever and couldn't get up or even open his eyes. He was rushed to the hospital. Ina said he'll be in the normal ward by tomorrow, God willing. She's coming back to SG around 2ish.
So here I am now, not sure what to do. I was supposed to meet my friends today but right now nothing seems confirmed, I hate waiting.
Oh, at absolutechaos.net, I'm one of the authors in the fav top 10 authors, hehehe. It's nice to see my name in the list considering that I suck at writing these days. I made my first story post a few days ago with a new fic, hopefully it'll push me to write again.
Now I shall go back to youtube and relive last night's glory. Youtube is the next Google yo!
Thoughts @ 03:20 p.m.
Sunday, May 14, 2006
LIVERPOOL FA CUP 2006 WINNER!
After a couple of heartattacks later, we won the cup for the 7th time. Seriously, the way Liverpool play sometimes, you'd think they want to kill the fans with the tension.
I always have this 'touch wood' thing going on when it comes to football, lol. Very superstitious. The first West Ham player I saw when the game started was 'Konchesky'and at the back of my mind I said (or that voice in my head i refuse to acknowledge for the sake of my own sanity)he's trouble. Of course i brush it aside and what do you know? He effing scored the the 3rd goal for West Ham after Gerrard managed to equalise for LFC. And it was one heck of a goal from Konchesky, even I have to admit that. Blah.
However if there is one thing I hate to do during finals, is say those 3 difficult words - i give up. LOL. I HATE to think this cause seriously, will it matter what a mere fan living in SG say? NO. but i still think uttering the words 'i give up' will eventually lead to their lost. I know, i know, wow, arent I special huh?
Gosh even after 3 mins left to the final whistle, I couldn't believe that we're going down. part of me was telling myself to prepare for the lost, so it wont hurt that much when the whistle blows, but the other half is stubborn. I refuse to admit defeat. we still have 3 mins left, and hopefully a long ass injury time to haul back another draw. I was looking forward to playing that extra 30 mins. Anything just to push back the fact that we're losing.
And then there was this short interval...i dont know was it because someone got hurt or they had a substitution, but the camera pan on Gerrard and boy, he looked pissed. Like he can't believe they're less than 3 mins to losing!(Looking back, one would say it was more a look of determination than pissed, but whatever, lol) But I was smiling when i saw his pissed off look. Because rizal was whining and going 'adoi!' at the same time, lmao. and then the whistle blow to start the game again and BOOM! out of nowhere, Gerrard effing scored at the 90th minute. We're on to the 30 mins extra time.
I have to admit that I wanted a penalty shoot out, lol. I must be crazy but throughout the 30 mins, I keep thinking about penalties. I was kind of afraid that West Ham was going to score during extra time cause i had the same vibe when they brought on Teddy Sheringham. I mean, HELLO?! He's like the boost West Ham needed at that time and if we dont thread carefully, Teddy was going to be our downfall. Everytime he took a free kick or whatever eversince he came on, I keep going 'nope' when that stupid voice in my head said 'this is it' lmao. stupid voice.
And then penalty shoot out came :D Who would have thought Reina would save 3 eh? That's unbelievable. The fifth LFC player slated to take the penalty didnt even have to take his!
I have to say though that West Ham was awesome last night. It'd be like a fairytale if they had win. They would have prove a point that even lesser known clubs in the Premiereship could beat one of the top 3 clubs. But I guess LFC isn't much into fairytales, just ask Alaves ;)
Keep singing WHU! *smirks*
Best Moment: When mom went 'oh goal! goal!' and we had to point out it was a replay for the previous goal.
Most Aggravating: When mom said she's going to support West Ham and we all went NNNOOOO!!! and then during penalty shootout, before West Ham was going to take theirs, we threatened her to either come to the good side or face our wrath if this WHU player scored.
Most Annoying: Dad slamming LFC and then have the audacity to ask for my help to sent a text msg for him.
Unforgettable: The 3 of us yelling and screaming at the top of our lungs when Reina saved the 3rd penalty shoot out and we won and mum panicking wanting us to shut the hell up.
Thoughts @ 02:42 p.m.
Tuesday, May 9, 2006
What: Supernatural
Thoughts @ 01:00 p.m.
Thursday, April 20, 2006
April 19, 1993: At 2 p.m., 18-year-old Brian Littrell is called away from his American History class to answer an urgent phone call. His cousin Kevin asks him to audition for the pop group. At 9 p.m., Brian auditions over the phone. He finds himself on a flight to Orlando at 6 a.m. the next day.
April 20, 1993: Brian met his cousin and for the first time, Howie, AJ and Nick and the Backstreet Boys was born.
Happy 13th Anniversary boys :D and what better way to celebrate it than to finally receive the recognition they had worked for. They received the Honors Award at the recent Recording Academy Awards for their contribution to the music industry. Yipppeeedddeeedooo!!
And that's all for now. I've been coughing my lungs out for days now and it's beyond annoying!
Thoughts @ 08:41 p.m.
Monday, April 10, 2006
I sat through the Wizard’s Ordinary Magic and Basic Aptitude Test Grade 1 (W.O.M.B.A.T) on JKR.com’s and the result was owled and I got ‘A’ for Acceptable. Which is not really good, lmao. The best would be ‘O’ for Outstanding, ‘E’ for Exceeds Expectation, ‘A’ for Acceptable, ‘P’ for ‘Poor’, ‘D’ for Dreadful and ‘T’ for Troll… so I think if we translate it to O Level standards, I got a B4 – B3 I think. There’ll be another test, I’m guessing Grade 2 (wow I’m such a genius *rolls eyes*) and I think I’m SO going to fail that one, lol. After sitting that first test, I remember telling myself if that’s what the kids at Hogwarts had to sit through for their paper, I take my hats off them!
I think Hufflepuff would want to take me, cause they take any witches without prejudice. I can definitely forget Ravenclaw. Oh the best thing is, I got a certificate, which I printed out! And I have a student ID which I can key in every time I take a test, and once I got a result, they’ll frame it and hang it on the wall, hehe. Excited siol, tak pernah certificate dapat hang kat wall you!
Watched a clip off Driving Lessons. It’s the scene where Rupert was reading a poem to his crush and got totally turned down by her, lmao. I thought he did good. It’s weird at first to see him act as someone else other than Ron. I mean, Ron will never read a freaking poem to his crush; at least definitely not when the poem mentions about ‘milky breast’, I still have no effing idea what that poem was all about.
On Friday after work, met with suzi, Mano and Lily at Far East. Ate at Puncak, finally I get to eat my wanton and that char kway squid thingy, lol. Found out Lily’s baby is going to be a BOY!! We walked around after that but we got so bored cause we had no idea where to go, so Lily decided to leave early since she’s leaving for her lil trip the next day. Suzi decided she wanted to go to PS, so Mano followed us. It was fun looking at all those art crafty stuff! I could just hang there for hours and wish I had tons of money to spend on them, lol.
Saturday – Mom and dad went to Bukit Batok for market cause dad wanted to renew his meds, so I got off the market duty, yayness! They came back home with Ain, what a nice surprise! Later in the evening Ina came with the family. Syirah is effing funny. I have to agree with Ina, she’s the comic relief. Dad called her A.R. Tompel, lmao. Ina asked if Lily already knows the gender of her baby so I told her it’s a boy. She just went awwww…me thinks she wants a baby boy herself, lol.
Sunday – Spent it slothing around at home. I decided to watch the Cast audio commentary of Fellowship of the Ring and then watched Goblet of Fire on the pc as I attempted to curl my hair.
I think my right eye is sore, it keeps on throbbing like nobody’s business.
Oh, Supernatural is coming soon on AXN, that SO rocks my world!
Thoughts @ 12:57 p.m.
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
So...re-reading HBP just made me realise how much i heart this book. And i got reacquainted to what I think is still my favorite quote off HBP. It's also very scary how I'm already whining for 2007 so I can get the new book and the movie. My priorities are screwed, i thought we established that a long time ago. And who the fuck is 'we' I just referred to?
Had tons of work today, one which include a 15 page Tenancy Agreement to type out. Ended up with backaches and strained eyes and i seriously need a new pair of glasses. Pffttt...like i have the moolahs for that one.
Our Indonesian client came today and told Ravi he is still looking for a malay admin at his company. Gosh, should i do it? hmmm...
while i ponder this very serious decision, i shall leave you with my fav quote off HBP. Oooh, and I hope Mano gets the job at TY tomorrow. That would SO rock.
Ooooh okay, one more thing. I thoroughly enjoyed tonight's finale to Teman anugerah ku. I call the Wan/Faizal moment a brokeback scene, lmao! my fav though will be this:
Shahril: (to be sang in the style of Ahli Fiqir) *geleng geleng angguk angguk tunduk dunduk pejam celik* Mak bapak I tak nak i lahir kat dunia ni. i tak sepatutnya hidup skrg ni Yana!
mwakakakakakaka...lepak ar member!
"How d'you spell 'belligerent'?" said Ron, shaking his quill very hard while staring at his parchment. "It can't be B - U - M -"
*is laughing like crazy* man, gets me EVERYTIME.
Thoughts @ 11:27 p.m.
Monday, March 27, 2006
Another highlight will have to be when Taufik, Mawi and Ello presented an award together. Too funny. Mawi may not be one of my favorite singers, but his very heck care attitude when he delivered a joke makes him entertaining to watch.
I also like all the Datuk K jokes. I thought Siti did very well handling all the jabs.
Syed Azmeer didn’t disappoint either. I was so proud of him when he hit the notes for ‘cinta’.
Now I want to hear this new malay single of Taufik’s. I can’t really pay attention to the song during his performance, plus, it was a short one, but I remember like the beats, it sounded very well produced.
Saturday
Had lunch when we returned and then took a power nap before we had to go to Assyakirin as usual at 5. Ina came and decided to follow us while Abg Lan did his afternoon prayers at the mosque. Which means, Syirah came along. And boy, was she loud! Lmao. All you have to do is smile at her and she would emit this high pitch scream that made Ina scowl for the entire one hour. Poor Ain got blamed every time her sister got a lil bit excited, lmao. Kids, they’re so cute.
We also got Ain to pick her own bday cake and we had a lil cutting cake ceremony at home. Syirah was really hyper that day, she couldn’t keep still and you know she has our genes cause the girl eats like there is no tomorrow.
Also watched GOF cause Ina and Abg Lan had to stop half way through the movie last week.
Watched LFC vs Everton after that. 10 Yellow cards and 2 Red cards letter, we clinched the winner with 3 goals to 1, thanks to an own goal from P. Neville as well. The git. I hope they yell at him in the dressing room during half time. He totally deserved it. I wish G. Neville will score for us if we ever meet Man U again, that’d be a laugh.
After the match, we started to clean out our drawers cause mom wanted it. We had to throw away quite a few things because there is no place to put them in. I swear mother can scold us for keeping personal-sentimental-things-she-calls-junks and we don’t have a right to complain that she used up all our extra wardrobe spaces for her countless curtains. It was/is beyond frustrating but there is no winning an argument with her. It really makes me mad just thinking about it but you know, I’d take this than having to sit through one of her why-I’m-always-right-and-you’re-always-wrong-the-end-goodbye- speech any day.
It was bloody hot by the time we finished clearing up the dressing table (cause Cik Normah wants her beautifying rights, lmao…I know I’m bad, cant help it) and dismantled the entire bed and cleaned the entire room and rearranged our now bedless mattress on top of a mat. After taking a heck of a long cold bath, we watched Harry Potter and The Sorceror’s Stone cause Suzi wanted to, and realized it was 4am by the time it ended.
Reading stretched to 6.15 when I decided okay, this is the best time to take a nap. Woke up at 7.30. Spent the night alternating between surfing the net for a bit and reading more HP before calling it a day around 11 ish. Rizal came to our room at one point and confessed that he dreamt of GOF the night before. Something about Cedric not dying but FLYING to get Dumbledore. Ha! Of course I failed to mention to him that I had been having HP dreams a lot just from reading the books and trying to figure out who the heck R.A.B is. I figured it out finally. Of course my moment of ‘pure genius’ got withered when I went to the forums and realized about a million more fans had came to the same conclusion as I was as to who R.A.B is. And…we think one of the Horcrux was in Grimmauld Place, in fact, Harry and Co. had stumbled upon it when they were cleaning that house. I had to re-read OOTP to figure this one out. It’s all guesses though, I can’t wait for Book 7 just to see if we figured it out correctly.
Oh, and apparently, Stuart Hastings had been cast to play the young Remus Lupin in OOTP. If that’s true, then young Remus Lupin is very cute, lmao. Does this means there’ll be a young Sirius, Peter and James? *rubs palms in glee* I’m such a geek and am now rambling on HP stuff.
Monday
Did I mention I’m hungry? Yes, that too!
*whistles weasley is our king while she attempts to figure out what to do next with her precious time*
Thoughts @ 03:28 p.m.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Children's Miracle Network Celebration
Nick & siblings @ Koi Restaurant
Me thinks BJ had had too much to drink :p
On ME news...well, nothing much, except I sent in a resume for a recept job at this company that i failed to remember where but they're an exhibition organizer thingy, so it should be interesting. I qualified for everything they asked and looking for except for the last one that said 'pleasant looking'. Should i apply 7 layers if i get the interview?
Thoughts @ 05:53 p.m.
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
What's Crackin' 1
and then a friend of mine sent me a text msg today and said one of the local mags had a pic of us posing with the I Still sheet :p
eeeeee!! lol
Woke up with this sharp pain in my tummy to a point where it was seriously hard to even breathe, so I called lizah and told her i wasnt coming to work, which sucks cause i was actually looking forward to work...i know that's odd. Went to the clinic - this says alot cause i hate going there unless i really have no choice - and was told it was gastric flu. By the time i got home it wasnt as bad so i went online and chat with mare to let her know i wasnt at work. When we finally said goodbye, i took a short nap only to wake up to discover that i had develope fever and one heck of a headache! it was horrible, i thought for sure im gonna be sick again today cause i slept with the headache and all, but i woke up feeling fine, yay!
I finally managed to watch Season 3 of Nip/Tuck and now i understand why our local channel didnt pick up the latest season. I thought i was watching porn is some scenes, lmao! but ack, when Christian said 'i was rape' suzi went 'say what?' and i went 'come again?' lmao! that was definitely NOT expected. And since we already know who the carver was...when he asked Christian if he could take a look at his scar, I felt seriously sick.
and yay, after weeks of downloading, i finally got to watch some Supernatural episodes and im seriously hooked!
the Sg girls are planning on a Genting trip this December, i hope the plan works, that should be fun, i've never gone on a vacation on my own before. pa/the/tic.
i have new projects to occupy my time. cards and gifts for my cousin's baby shower (eeee!!!)...suzi's engagement invitation cards (is helping out :D) and we have the first appointment with this company that provides engagement services thingies this Sat. should be fun.
My writing muse is still not back yet and it's beyond frustrating.
Thoughts @ 05:33 p.m.
Saturday, March 11, 2006
Being a middle child would mean they are loners. They really don’t like to latch on to a person in a relationship, there fore they have trouble keeping one due to lack of interest. Not liking to take the limelight for anything, they are not over achievers and just simply work enough work to get by, and typically that goes with school as well as a career. They are however very artistic and creative. If forced to use abilities they will work well, but do not work well under pressure. They often start several projects but rarely keep focused long enough to finish a project. The best career move for a middle child would be along the lines of using their creative. Going into a writing or journalism career, and into a career that they could freely express themselves would be good. Anything that would have hours that are flexible, and projects that frequently changed would be good for a middle born child. Since relationships are not of high importance to a middle child, often times they are alone. However, the best possible match for a middle child would be a last born.
A good friend of mine emailed me this, said that it might be something I'd like to read. Nothing like having something hitting you back in your face eh? I dont particularly agree about the fighting for attention though, dont remember a time when I did something just to get anyone's attention, although it could be denial in my part or just something im oblivious to. Anyhoo, I thought this little article helped me in some ways, kinda made me understand a lil bit more on stuff. Hey, at least now i know why i love writing so much...now if only i stop butchering the English language, I might be able to make money with this 'creativity' of mine.
I need to point out though, that there are perks of being the middle child. For instance, I'm neither old nor young, I'm always the inbetween. I can skip along with my elder sister and be an 'adult' (something that happened very often before Ina got married) and I can just hang with suzi or my brother and just be a tad silly. I also have to say that it all depends on how good a middle child balance her mood. Being in a woe is me funk is depressing and unless used as a source to reflect about oneself, it wont do much good. Funk is a bad thing to have *wags figger a no no*
Went to Newton with suzi and liza after work today. I skipped lunch again today and was dead hungry so suzi thought it'd be the best time to introduce me to the food at Newton. Oh shut up, I know how pathetic it is to be 26 and just step foot at Newton today. I'm writing it down aren't I? it's going down in the list of the things i did in 2006. Ate stingray sambal (YUMMYLICIOUS!), sambal kangkong (WOOOHOO!!!) and sweet sour chicken (heavenly!) and a tall cup of sugarcane (SLURRPPPPP). Omg, I'm salivating as I write this down. It's worth the 10 bucks I tell you that much.
After that we went to PS to that paper shop...i forgot the name right now, lol...thought of buying a few more vellium quotes and the glue tape. suzi decided to make her own engagement invitation cards for her friends so we looked for the materials etc. Until of course she went to pay for her stuff. apparently they don't accept NETS fortunately I had 10 bucks with me so I topped up her cost and didnt buy the vellium quotes. I might go to Laine's Papeterie next week to buy the stuff, they accept NETS there, lol. I need to start back on my bsb scrapbook, I've been abandoning the project for awhile now cause Im bored with the materials I have now...they're beginning to look very repetitive and I want each page to be original, so until I get my hands on some new materials and ideas, it's on a little hiatus, lol.
and OMG...rizal brought back his CA1 results and he got C5 in English, Malay and Art, B4 is Humanities, A2 in Combined Science and A1 in Maths.
Can we say FUCK? yes we can! From having 'ungraded' for everything except for Malay last year, he came back with this result? The power of 'love' is something else *cringe as she associate the word love with her 16 yr old brother*...you know, the last time I feel so proud of my siblings was when Suzi called me and told me about her O level results. I remember i went to supermarket to buy her a congrats card and a book, lol. cant remember what kind of book i bought from the supermarket, LMAO, but yeah, i remember buying her a book, hmmm.
And I've decided that Malay Oral and stupid English compo topic was what ruined it for me. Laziness has NOTHING to do with it, really! *hear! hear!* You tell 'em Yana!
Thoughts @ 12:29 a.m.
Wednesday, March 8, 2006
They were singing Weird World and usually Nick would sit next to AJ around the piano Kevin was playing but this time, he was sitting at the edge of where the band was, kinda far from the other guys. When he finally moved to the center and nearer to the crowd, the band stop playing and Kevin stopped playing the piano but Nick continued to sing and even asked the crowd to help him sing the song since the guys stopped singing. And then AJ asked Nick what he's doing? And Nick turned to them and saw Brian came out with a cake and he just shook his head, looked a lil bit pissed and said 'ya'll terrible' and walked out on the other side of the stage. And I was all eh, why is nick so pissed? lol...
of course AJ was mocking him and calling him to come back to them and the guys were talking at once and I couldnt understand what was going on until Kevin shushed everyone and explained to the crowd that normally, when a Backstreet Boy celebrate his birthday during a concert day, they would bring out the cake before Just Want You To Know but this time, they didn't bring out the cake and Nick thought they had all forgot his birthday. Obviously Nick was hurt that no one remembered, lmao. Ah so the prankster got served yo.
Then Howie said 'nick's 26 and has never been kissed' which got me choked on my pepsi. Riiiggghhhttt. And then Brian came to Nick and was going to kiss him but Nick pushed him away. Damn it Carter, that could be someone's FFF right there (Frick Frack Fantasy...i crack myself up)
Then Nick planted his face on the cake (all together now, eeewwwwww!!!) and Brian decided it's tastier now with Nick's sweat on it, so lets give it to the fans. (eeeewwwww!!!) I saw Brian have a lick himself, i hope it's nowhere near where Nick planted his face *shudder*
And then they started singing Weird World.
Well, I've been out of BSB world for quite some time now, Im surprised by it myself. It's nice how a small video like this reminds me of why I like them in the first place, lol.
Now im back to being bored. It's only 2pm and I dont know what to do now. I've lost my writing muse for the last 6 months, not sure if i'm getting it back.
Thoughts @ 01:56 p.m.
Monday, March 6, 2006
this has been a random entry.
Thoughts @ 01:25 p.m.
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Dayum, our We Still sheet made it to LIME, woohoo!! Other than the little mention of how big Nick is (honestly, ugh!) and that Lizah's question was mistaken as a reporter's question (come on, reporters ask stupid questions 9 out of 10 times), it was a nice article :D and full orchestra of their hit songs album? that'd be brilliant Mr. Richardson!!
AJ, Brian, Howie and Nick are making solo albums, it's confirmed yo! And Kevin is going back to Broadway, woohoo! And there'll be a Reality tv show feat. all the Carter kids minus the crazy parents. It's sad when they have to go to this length to rebel against the parents. Plus i guess this way, Jane cant effing lie on her supposedly coming soon tell all book on her family. blah.
Meeting suzi after work, going to Bugis to look around for her engagement stuff. Just scanning for now, compare prices and stuff, this should be exciting YO! Yesterday, i bought another wedding magazine and we looked through it and surfed some sites mentioned there to get a better idea. You'd think I'm the one getting engaged, im just too thrilled! lmao.
I understand where Ina is coming from, but different situation calls for different solution you know?
Oh that just deserves this icon, lmao!
Thoughts @ 05:22 p.m.
Monday, February 27, 2006
Title: ENCOUNTER
Yet another tiring day for the life of The Backstreet Boys and Brian Littrell was looking forward to sleep the rest of the night away. Looking at the young boy walking half asleep next to him, he knew he too, was looking to nothing more but an undisturbed rest. It wasn’t common to be told that they had the rest of the night to themselves and it wasn’t even 9p.m.
“Well bro, I’ll definitely remember Singapore now.”
He looked at Nick and raised an eyebrow. “You said the same thing when we saw that huge arcade at the airport just now.”
He giggled. “Yeah, but this one tops the rest.”
“Yeah, what’s that?”
“Sleep at 9p.m. Frick! Just the way mom does it. 9 sharp Nickolas, switch off that TV and go to bed!”
“Your exact words were ‘I hate my mom!’” He reminded him.
Nick shrugged. “Yeah well, I miss it now. I wanna go to sleep at 9 every other night!”
“Yeah well, maybe the country we’re going to next will let us do the same. We’re flying out tomorrow remember.”
“Aww man, I already miss this place.”
Thoughts @ 05:38 p.m.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
So, I’m the self designated engagement planner. I believe I earn this job/title seeing how I was (ok still am) the third party that connects all the dots and I don’t care if you think I’m sounding boisterous now, who the hell are you?
My apologies, it’s that time of the month.
Anyhoo…I think I was more excited than she was at first. My head was already thinking of 1001 things she needs to do from NOW. I can’t wait for Ina to visit us this week, we can sit down and talk about this, hehe. I mean, that’s what happened when we found out she was getting engaged, so it’s only fair for this one too. Oh my gosh I’m already planning what Ain and Syirah should be wearing on that day. You know, we need to all get the same colored baju kurung or whatever for Nov 3rd, it will be after all, like a week after Hari Raya.
Oh oh oh, when mom found out, of course she was excited, I think in fact, way more excited than the 2 of us combined. The latest update on mom is that, she wants me to buy a new curtain for our room this year. Of course this came after seconds when I decided I’m not wasting money on curtains this year. And then when mom planted this idea in my head, I went as far as thinking, wouldn’t it be nice if we buy one of those plush bedspread? Yes it is! So this might as well be my little present for Suzi’s engagement then. A lovely bedspread and curtains. Technically, I kinda profit in it cause I’m sleeping on the same bed and that is our room since forever, lmao.
I think this year is starting out awesomely well. What with the good news of Lily now expecting her first born and now with my sis. I hope these kind of things goes on for the entire year, hehe. For me personally, it couldn’t have started any better than this. I got my concert didn’t I? And I’m going to sign up for a HR course which will start either this May or August. Hopefully that goes well before I go find another job and get another cert for HR. We shall see about that I guess. I’m getting very restless working here these days. It’s same old, same old for the last 4 years.
I’m on my 2nd read of Order of the Phoenix. After surfing around a HP site and read their discussion boards and what not, I realized I missed out on a hell of a lot of clues in there and this time, I’m going to try and pick these clues myself and then move on to Half Blood Prince. Yesterday while chatting I told Mano to get in my head and guess what I’m thinking of (we were talking about BSB) and she said my head is comfortable but she had to push Harry Potter aside cause my mind is too flooded with the books, lmao. Of course our convo turned into one where Hermione was flirting with Brian and Ron wasn’t too happy about it so I asked him if I can ride on his broomstick; Harry was fascinated by Nick and his Xbox, Kevin was dueling with Snape over something, Howie was talking with Dumbledore and AJ figured they should all compare each others’ wands. Ahem.
My BSB scrapbook making is progressing sloowwwlllyy but it’s moving, lol. Over the weekend I did one more page cause I suddenly have TONS of time in my hand and no Suzi to bug me. There’s only so much you can surf on the internet before you get bored.
I am seriously hooked on this song Just Feel Better by Satana feat Steve Tyler, and that my friend, is my random blab of the day.
Oh oh oh, mano made me do this. I really thought I’ll get sorted to Hufflepuff but I’m not complaining, heheh.
Thoughts @ 04:53 p.m.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Thoughts @ 04:53 p.m.
Monday, February 13, 2006
So after this, it's solo for Brian, AJ & Nick and hopefully more movies for Howie and I bet Kevin is working on that family planning of his, lol. Im going to miss them Im sure, it feels like only yesterday I was waiting on hands and knees for June 14th to roll by. Well, I got 2 concerts in 2 years, i shouldnt complain. And Insya Allah, i'll be around for their next record, in like another 3 yrs? lmao.
Thanks for the music, the memories and the friends made through being your fan boys! *gets all nostalgic*
Thoughts @ 04:45 p.m.
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Mom bought us a new mattress. woohoo! The original plan is to stick with the old one for another 2 yrs so that we can buy the new one when we move, but we've been waking up with body aches all over and i guess mom heard whining (heehee) and we got a new one. Now my problem is waking up in the morning cause with a mattress like that, who would want to wake up that early anyway? A good example would be today, i woke up at 1pm and thought it was only 10. Nice.
Been sending out resumes like crazy but i've yet to get any calls. suzi said it might take months so i'll ride this out. there's a time for everything right?
I need a wardrobe overhaul. Just have to say that.
mom has been talking to me a lot about suzi and nizar, i really think she wants them to get engage like NOW, lol. And while I agree with her (ok fine, i just like the whole planning of it, heehee) I think she shouldnt put pressure on them, cause honestly, i dont see him abandoning my sister for no reason at all.
Ooohh im compiling an album abt the events of Jan 24th and it's going kinda slow but it's looking good. It's nice to have my little project on the side, keeps me occupied now that I've finished all 6 Harry Potter books. Now im craving for the next book to come out and who knows when that will be. Filming of OOTP has begun and the cast for Luna Lovegood is exactly how i picture her in my head. Cant wait to see it on the big screen!
Nick wore the Adidas sweater Shela gave him @ Missy Elliot's pre Grammy party, now all the shirts/sweater are accounted for. Thank you Nickolas! lol
Thoughts @ 05:58 p.m.
Monday, January 30, 2006
Made a shirt with his favorite greeting "What's Crackin?' with broken eggshells to the sides and gave it to him as a birthday present and today i found out from friends that he wore it on his Birthday pre SC and during SC at Brisbane :D how awesome is that? VERY!
Mano did the design on this white shirt, but hte one i gave Nick had a lil bit of red on the sides cause he looks good in red and white, hehee.
i am forever indebted to Mano for designing it the way i see it in my head! *is at cloud 9 still*
Thoughts @ 05:47 p.m.
Friday, January 27, 2006
Anyhoo, lets start with Soundcheck. Jamie took Mano into SC, Liza won through LAMC, Shela took me in and Akhbar took Suzi in. Laurrieta came up to me and asked me to get all VIP ticket holders to stand on a side, with that alone, I had a feeling that she was going to let everyone who holds a VIP ticket into SC. Which turned out to be true. Nat was so nice, she had an extra VIP ticket (her friend couldn’t come for SC) and borrowed it to Sida so she could get her wristband. In the end, all of us from SGbsb who attended managed to get in. I heard the rest of the girls went looking for Marcus with their banner and asked for passes. I didn’t know how Xinyi got left behind. Poor girl got scolded by that LAMC bitch. I kept praying so hard that Marcus was nearby so he could smack her up the head and throw her off from the tallest building. She was SO rude. Xinyi looked like she almost cried and I lost all word to comfort her. I don’t know what happened after I got in but she came in a few minutes later after SC started and turned out Kat managed to pass her VIP ticket to her before she got in and that’s how Xinyi got her pass. So now everyone from SGbsb was accounted for. I’m so happy we all got in.
I heard someone fine tuning the piano when I walked in. My heart was pumping so wild, it was something else to see an empty stadium and knowing they’ll be filled with BSB fans that very night. The very first BSB I saw was Nick cause he had parked himself at the end of the stage where I had entered. Black shirt and black snow cap hiding those gorgeous blond locks. Of course the first thing that I thought was only Nick would wear a snow cap in this weather. I couldn’t bring myself to go to the barricade because for some weird reason, everyone was fighting for the center stage and the other end of the stage. Where Nick was standing was pretty much bare and while that was very inviting, I wasn’t prepared to stand right at the foot of Mr. Carter and staring up at him. I honestly don’t know what to do with myself so what I did was, I took a seat on the 2nd row. My sister, my dear sweet, always laidback sister, had abandoned me and succumb to the newfound teeny in herself and went beeline for Nick. She and Mano parked themselves right under him (lol) and started drooling.
I decided to write down my question (with much difficulty, I mean, how can you write when the boys are there for ogling?) incase I got so nervous I couldn’t mouth anything out. During that time, I saw Nick playing with his guitar, Howie was adjusting his mic and going ‘welcome!’ Brian and AJ were hanging around and whispering stuff and grinning while Kevin had parked himself in front of the piano. The first few notes to Incomplete started to play (Kevin fine tuning again), mixed with the guitar solo to Metallica’s Enter Sandman courtesy of Mr. Carter.
Someone I guess asked Brian to make that famous duffy duck sound and so he did. He was so cute. Very hyper and always joking around. AJ joined in and started making goofy dances. Howie as always, stood at the end and would shake his head and smile. Howie is really in a world of his own, at least that’s how he appeared to me whenever I chance a glance his way.
Nick stood at the edge of the stage right in front of suzi and kept playing his guitar while they snap pictures of him. I guess that was his invitation for fans to take pics of him without going ‘Nick! Nick! Look here! Nick can I take your pic????’ Suzi said while Nick was with his guitar, he’d occasionally look at the crowd and make eye contact and all she could think of was, ‘I’m staring into Nick Carter’s eyes, this is effing surreal’. He doesn’t talk to you, he just jam and look at you. How weird is that? The man intimidates me for some reason but I heart him.
Then out of nowhere, they stopped playing and Kevin started the first keys to Weird World and when the boys went ‘hey hey hey’ I realized they’d go straight for their first soundcheck and sing. Liza, Kat and I hang out at the back cause it’s easier for me to see them from afar without my specs, (and yes, I haven’t got around the idea of standing right infront of the boys, lol). Liza was holding the banner we had brought with us to FON and when they started singing, Nick looked beyond the crowd and was reading the banner, lol. Liza yelled in my ear ‘is our banner upside down? Why is Nick looking like that?’ lmao. We both looked down at the poster and went ‘okay, it’s not upside down!’ and started laughing at our dumb moment. It is very weird to just stand there knowing Nick is looking at you while he’s singing. Since WW is basically a lead by Nick, the other guys didn’t really have much to sing, so they were goofing around. Brian and AJ seriously cannot stand still! Kevin was playing the piano, his back was to me, so there’ll be very little on Kevin in this review and Howie was too far for me to see. But the best moment came when Nick sang this part ‘Sure part of this place would cheer if I die, but don’t let them take away your beautiful smile…’ he did his point-to-the-crowd move, and at that time, the pointing went straight to us (we were the only stupid fans who were still not at the barricade).
Now a normal girl would jump up and down…I looked at liza and said ‘what should we do when Nick Carter looks at US? I couldn’t hold his stare, I felt myself blushing like crazy so my eyes drifted off to Brian, which was a good thing cause he was making one of those silly moves again, lol.
After WW, there was some talking going around in the middle and then they went straight to Incomplete, and I was still standing at 2nd row seats.
After that, they went straight to questions. I made my way to where Suzi was and sigh…smack right where Nick was standing. But Nick was now looking at the guys , his side was to us, so I’m okay with that, hehe. When the guy said no asking for hugs or pictures, do not ask to come on stage, Brian went ‘Can I have your baby?’ in a teeny voice, lol.
The first question went to a girl who came all the way from Dubai. She asked why they didn’t bring the NG Tour to Dubai and the guys had this ‘oh shit, how do we tell them this nicely?’. The funny part was, it was obvious right after the question was asked, Nick and AJ had this ‘let Kevin get this one’ look. I can’t see what Howie was doing but both Brian and Kevin mumbled a reply and the one I heard was ‘we were wondering that too’ from Kevin…smart, lol.
The next question went to an Indonesian and she asked ‘Why can’t you guys come to Indonesia?’ and I thought, wow, 2 questions gone to waste. I honestly don’t know what the guys said cause I was beyond caring at this point.
Mano called me to stand where she’s at so she could raise her hand up for me (I’m at the back and too short for anyone to see…don’t laugh.) While I was making my way to her, someone asked Nick what he’ll be doing for his upcoming birthday. He said he hates his birthday…and at this point, I was parking myself right next to Mano and had missed the question and the part where he said ‘I hate my birthday’ the next thing I heard when I looked up was Nick saying ‘I want to be like peter pan and never grow old’ and during this time, his eyes rested on ME and went ‘you know?’ and started to giggle. My head was saying ‘Nick asked me if I know, what do I do? Oh good lord, stop giggling Nick! Eeeeee look at those EYES!’ So what did I do? I nodded like an excited 3 year old and went ‘I know!’ What do I know? Nothing.
After that question, another Dubai girl got to ask. And she went ‘Kevin, when are you going to have a baby?’ UGH. Seriously now, how insensitive can you be? I couldn’t see Kevin’s reaction but he was quiet for awhile and Brian had this ‘oh shit’ look but he covered well and made a baby gesture with his hands to entertain the crowd while Kevin gather his thoughts to answer. Which again, I didn’t listen to cause part of me was expecting Kevin to start lecturing the girl, lmao. Of course he didn’t, and I think he mentioned about how the time wasn’t right and that he really want a baby but the tour and her career are keeping them away for now. This is where Mano’s videos came in handy, videos don’t lie and misquote, so don’t hold it against me if I got it all wrong, lol.
There was a point during this entire thing when Nick went to Kevin and started whispering into his ear and then giggling. Kevin was giggling with him and I thought it was so adorable, lol. Unfortunately, we didn’t get this on video since I think Brian was talking upfront. But Fira got a pic of the moment
After that, I got to ask for mine. And YAY, as fate would have it (lol) I was standing right in front of Brian. It was awesome, cause Brian was looking at me when he answered and I kept nodding my head every time he went on to explain about it for each of the boys. I guess that was my Brian moment, lol. Mano has a video of this and I think it’s better to watch than reading about it, lol.
Then Lizah got to ask her question. I seriously feel/think that Nick didn’t want to answer it. He kept dodging it and directing each of the guys to go ahead and answer it. I think he thinks the question wanted him to talk about Paris and I was tapping Liza and going ‘I hope he didn’t think we want to know about that bitch!’ and the crowd just went ‘Nick? Nick? Egging him on as if they KNOW Nick’s going to talk about Paris’…I could tell Liza was agitated by this, she didn’t mean to make the question sounds that way. Anyhoo, I personally think/feel that the answer Nick picked isn’t the one that he really wanted to tell. How do you pick a moment in your life that you feel is your worst struggle when you’re still living the struggle right now? He didn’t even look at our direction when he answered it and I honestly think that he was slightly pissed with the crowd at that moment. Other than that little part, I loved how the others answered theirs. I was to a point of crying when Howie talked about his sister. I blocked Kevin’s answer cause I don’t think I can stand hearing about his dad without crying even though we’ve all heard these millions of times before.
After that, they ended the questions round and asked the crowd if they want another song. DUH. They sang JWYTK and I got back to my seat so I can look at all of them. But half way through the song, Shela called me to join her upfront, which I did. And she said ‘hold me before I do something to Nick’ LOL. And THEN, she started imitating Nick and wanted to lick my face and my head was going ‘OMG Shela is flirting with Nick, I NEED to get the hell away from here!’ I didn’t though, I laughed at her and looked at Nick and he was smirking at one point and I was the one left blushing. My head just going OMG OMG OMG, I hope he doesn’t think that I’M flirting with HIM, I can’t flirt with Nick even though I want to bring him home, just no!
(I don’t know how the order goes to be honest, was JWYTK after or before questions? Everything is a blur to me so that ^^ might not be in the correct order)
After that song, the boys did their photo op. They stood in the middle. The nearest to me was Brian, Nick came next and rested his arms on Brian’s and AJ’s shoulders like nobody’s business. The best thing was, Brian and AJ didn’t seem to mind. If my sister ever do that to me, she’d get a smack at the very least. And then next to AJ was Kevin followed by Howie. Then they went to the other end of the stage and did the same thing and then went back to the middle before they got interrupted by some BMG dude who wanted to present them with plaques for the success of Never Gone. Apparently, it’s the biggest selling album internationally for BMG in 2005. And because of this, they forgot to make their way down to our side of the stage for photo op, ugh. Then fans started giving their gifts and we got our gift bags passed to the security and put on stage. We were all grinning like crazy, knowing that our gift bags reached their respective owners. I saw Howie taking his bag and Nick and Brian wanted to do the same with theirs but the security guy said to leave it there, that they’d bring it back to the hotel for them. And that was it. Just like that, we’re out.
When I think of SC, I always thought how awesome is it to see them sing and not have a huge crowd screaming and singing along. Just the boys singing and the whole booming of the stereo surrounding you. That was all I ever wanted off SC. So when I came in, I was shock at how close I can actually be with the guys and the fact that they can see ME as oppose to being in a concert, where I doubt they can see beyond the 2nd row. That threw me off for a bit, it felt surreal. I’m sure some people will go ‘is she crazy? Why sit when you can stand right in front of them?’ but yeah, I really wasn’t anticipating to the fact that I’d be that close (other SC videos should clue me in but I’m slow like that, lol).
Maybe that is why I don’t have any one on one encounter to tell you. I did met Howie and Nick at the lobby when they arrived on the first day. Days before they were due to arrive, I never once see myself taking a picture with the guys and talking to them, I always thought such things don’t happen to me, lol. So when I see Howie and Nick coming my way, all I wanted to do is get out of the hotel and be with the crowd (I know, sounds stupid huh?) but I realized we were trapped in the lobby. There were like about 10 of us fans at the lobby and you know, now that I think about it, there was nothing to stop us from just going to them and touch them and ask for a picture cause the bodyguards didn’t even look like they were going to stop us from doing so, lol. But all I did as I passed Howie was wave and went ‘hi Howie!’ he winked and mouthed ‘hello’. Suzi got her first taste of ‘sudden teeny attack’ and waved at him and grinned like a
I know my review is damn long and kinda backwards, lol…but there you have it. If you actually read every single word, what is wrong with you? Lol.
ps: mano is uploading videos for 4 of us and it's amounting to the the 100s so i didnt want to disturb her and asked for the SC videos right now. I'll post the links here once i get them. They're the same ones you can find on LD but i know most of the links expired.
Thoughts @ 02:15 p.m.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Wish i dont hv to work today but oh well, at least my boss has stopped his lets-clean-this-entire-office-and-by-that-i-mean-you-two-girls-do-it-while-i-order-you-around. he's actually not around right now, only liza and I, and im chatting with mano right now and harrassing her for the next Harry Potter book. I'm officially a Harry Potter freak. Those books are addictive.
13 days left to the concert, can you believe it? it's like almost finally here.
This is what you'll see first, at a Never Gone concert.
Official Radio Commercial
26 sections of the indoor stadium are sold out. 4 sections have only single seats available for now. this is more than i expected to be honest. Although i dont think anything can beat Japan. 50,000 seats, sold out. and that was only for the 1st night.
i blame my hyperness at mano...i wasnt even counting down at all, infact, (i cant believe im saying this) i've been out of the loop bsb wise for a few weeks now and it surprised me that i was fine with it but now...now im too hyped i dont know what to do with myself, lol.
50,000 ppl waving glow sticks in concert...this alone gave me goosebumps, lol. BSB in Tokyo, Japan
Thoughts @ 02:44 p.m.
Friday, December 30, 2005
Today i realised that i love going shopping with suzi, cause she pays attention and keep on looking and give her opinions on stuff, i need that assurance cause im usually too panicky when i go shopping, i cant think straight.
Anyhoo, liza and i managed to get out of work early today and join a few others of our friends to record a radio commercial for power 98 and class 95 for BSB's concert. It was a once in a lifetime chance and i was a little disappointed that i almost didnt make it. When i got there, (there was supposed to be 4 of us) another 3 fans from LJ came so there were 7 of us in the studio. i wish suzi was there, if i knew we could have more fans, i would so ask her to try and get off early today.
the experience was FUN! Laurietta Alabon (LAMC) offered to take tons of pics while we entered mediacorp and then register ourselves for our visitor's pass and then while we were recording in the studio itself. I told mano and liza that i dont want to go screaming and sounding like a teeny high on chocolate but we were only given 10 seconds to do our skit which will later be meshed with the voiceover person. So yeah, it was so teeny, and the funny part was, four of us are no teens, lmao. We got the official NG SG tour poster and she promised us the NG tourbook *grins*...also, VIP ticket holders will get Meet & Greet (yes!)& Soundcheck Party (yahoo!!). *FIERA YOU READ THAT??? LOL* anyways, this IS Laurietta, so im going to take her words with a grain of salt, but im hopeful, i wont lie abt that.
After that, mano, liza and i went to orchard and had our dinner at puncak and then went to Mango to find me a pair of pants. i ended up not buying anything though. met suzi half way at isetan and then walk around some more before we call it a night. and now, im just done taking another gulp of my Coke...bless.
if things goes as planned, im meeting mano, pat and JM at holland V tomorrow. JM bought us Brian's HHC bracelet and Howie's DLF bracelet when she was in UK and i cant wait to see it! after that, i might meet Yani and hang out for a bit. i wont be out for the countdown though. i'm going back to my old countdown ritual which means, i'll be at home in my PJ and hopefully rent a nice movie to watch and some good food. we'll see.
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!! ENJOY!!
Thoughts @ 10:44 p.m.
Monday, December 19, 2005
Thoughts @ 05:40 p.m.
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Thoughts @ 12:10 a.m.
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Speaking of HP, I *finally* started reading the first 2 books and now i am seriously hooked. I wish i can skip and go straight to HBP but knowing there're TONS of points the movie versions failed to capture, i know im going to end up with HUH? if i skip the next 3 books. So 4 books left to read, this should be fun.
Tommorow we're doing our flea market thing again. Not looking forward to waking up early, but definitely looking foward to hanging out with suzi and lily.
Yesterday i found out that there will be Soundcheck Party for WeirdWorld members in SG and im just bummed out cause im not a member. Jocelyn said i should just come early before the concert and look for marcus cause he always have extra wristbands for fans who didnt get passes to the SC. Im going to try my luck that way. I've given up on LAMC to be honest.
Im thinking of making a shirt for both Nick and AJ. Well, i wanted to make one for each of them but lets face it, im not rich and i figured t-shirts is the best way to go since they love getting free shirts from fans and if we're lucky, they wear them during the concert itself. I'm thinking of a HP quote. 'I swear im up to no good' for Nick and 'Mischief Managed' for AJ, lmao.
oh oh oh, Ina's going to Sentosa on Xmas and asked if suzi and I wanna come along. Suzi is most likely spending time with her friends on Xmas eve and will be too tired to go out on Xmas. I seriously dont have money to pay of the tickets. Well, unless my boss decided to give my pay check earlier this month, there is no way i can go. Of course mom wanted rizal to go since he didnt go anywhere for the school hols and said she'd pay for me and him. I of course, said NO. We all know how this goes right? Never accept an offer like that from mom, nothing good will ever come from it, lmao.
this is an excerpt for Galore Mag. You learn something new everyday, lmao...
Nick: I come from a weird, very mixed family. My dad's parents had nothing, they were poor. The first six years of my life I lived in a bar, a strip club. We moved to Florida, because my mom didn’t want me to grow up like that anymore. I can still remember that my parents were always fighting and half naked women everywhere.
*Sounds like an interesting time …
Nick: There’s still more to come: my dad’s a real rocker, a trucker like his dad. Even my grandma was driving heavy vehicles. That’s the tough side of my family, like I use to call it. My mom's family side is different: creative, artistic. My mom's dad was professor for English literature, my grandma was a kindergarten teacher. So my mom comes from a bit crazy artistic and intellectual family, while my dad represents the typical working class. I grew up between these differences. When my mom was fed up of all these fights, we packed our things in a truck and moved to Florida, without any money...Read the rest here
Thoughts @ 12:11 p.m.
Monday, December 12, 2005
Suzi and I are at a lost. Dad's bday had come and go and we're still stumped. Our resources are spent and we still have NO idea where to get this Malaysian Batik shirt for him, ugh. I found an online company that sells them but they don't come in XL or larger. I've emailed them and requested for more info, i hope they come through for us. I sounded so pityful in my email too, heh.
I am SO broke it's not even funny. Boss hinted on bonus but boss being boss, he might forget he even hinted by now. I hate how my life is ruled by $$ but sadly, that's how it is these days.
Okay I have some fan mails to reply to, lmao. Well, Liza's nieces had been making small letters and cards to me and i need to reply to them. It's hard being aunt angie, but i'll manage, lmao.
Lissy cousin! I have the short fic up online, so might as wlel give you the link, save your space in your inbox eh? lol... Click this --->THE RIDE
Took me FOREVER to put this song up on my site. I've been contemplating on whether or not to put this song up. I've made 'never gone' as my layout THREE times (different layout, same theme) before and every time, i couldnt bring myself to put this audio up. It may not be fancy smancy like most songs these days but it's the lyrical content that hit me. Also the fact that Kevin had been playing this tune on the piano since forever and finally put the words to it and dedicated the song to his Dad made it a lil bit tougher. I know I've never experienced someone really close and dear from me who had passed away, but every song hits differently to different listener. For me, it's the quote that I have for this layout that does it for me. 'somehow you found a way to see the best i have in me...' i love that line. What i wouldnt give to find someone who see the best in me. It's such a shame that i cannot say that about my parents, lol...cause i really honestly dont think they see the best in me and maybe it's not their fault, it's just me, but nevertheless, yeah, that line hit me bad the first time i heard it. I skipped this song for months just cause i cannot go through the lyrics, lmao...but the harmony in this one, and the whole choir like sound at the back (and yes, it's all them, wonderful isnt it?) made it so beautiful to miss out on. So...here it is FINALLY, lol.
Thoughts @ 05:18 p.m.
Friday, December 9, 2005
I also received an email from a girl called Grace who told me that one of my stories hv been nominated at this BED-HEAD.NET site. I found out it was for my short story Backstreet Buggin', hee hee...I know 2 of mare's stories are nominated there as well cause i nominate them, lmao.
We're going to an open house tonight. Well, not really an open house, lol...Izah and Kak Midah's kids are having an open house at their nursery school...i think it's more like a Bazaar and they're selling barley drinks and sandwiches. How adorable is that? So Suzi and I are going to drop by and buy some things, heehee.
Im SO hungry right now, we skipped lunch cause um, we're broke.
Holy ish! Okay, so i've said a lot of times before that Leslie Carter is like the female version of Nick (so she's his sister but it' like seeing Nick in um, make up with breasts, hehe) but this one takes the cake! lol --->Leslie Carter okay now im done.
DJ: Do you guys like find yourselves babying him all the time still?
Thoughts @ 05:15 p.m.
Monday, December 5, 2005
Left Click As Usual
Brian and Nick went to the crowd at some point of the concert, dayum. And Nick lost TONS of weight, it's scary. I want to lose my weight too!
Thoughts @ 05:42 p.m.
Monday, December 5, 2005
Ok done :D suzi's in a meeting. WOW. i've NEVER been on a meeting, hehe. Then again, I'm just an underpaid admin/recept person. Plus, I don't think I'll like meetings very much. Anyways, through hushed conversation, I managed to figure out that she said 'okay' and i'll meet her as usual. And now one of my boss whom i thought had gone for the day, just came back. Ugh. What do i tell him if he asked me why I'm still here past 5? come on my evil self, think of a LIE!
Anyway, I sms a few of my friends abt my extra BSB tickets and one of them called back and went 'I cant believe you're still into BSB'. What is so wrong about liking BSB? When she found out i went for the VIP tickets, she went on to say about how i keep whining about having NO money but could fork out $250. See, it's MY money, if it's not hurting anyone else, why should it matter? I heard that she recently had a boyfriend...good looking, well educated, loaded. Of course she proceeded to ask me if I have a boyfriend. Poor me, still delusioned that one day, i will meet Nick Carter and he'll sweep me off my feet and marry me. Boo fucking hoo. She doesn't have to say it, it's so clear to see. Somehow it's hard for her to believe when I say i want to find love and be IN love but im perfectly fine on my own right now. Don't pity me, please!
on to something good...was chatting with a fellow friend earlier and she asked this question that got me thinking. she said, how was it like to see the boys during FON earlier this year. (we were talking about counting down to jan 24th). And you know what? It still feel unreal to me. Was i really there? I've WATCHED the boys performed LIVE before and that still didnt register in my mind. She told me i need to think about it and do some thought process and feel it and write it down, and make it real or the moment will be gone forever and i'll never remember how it was like.
I told her i remember standing on a chair in the middle of the row and seeing that V formation when they entered the stage and how smart and tacky they looked in those white suits and hats. The roar of the entire stadium and then just pretty much losing my mind when AJ went 'let me tell you...' . I remember gathering up my nerves and calmed down before the song ended and enjoyed the rest of the show. She asked me who stood out from that show and i told her they all had their moments but if i were to pick, it'd be Brian and Nick.
Brian won fans interaction hands down. He was sooo goofy and acknowledge the fans a lot. AJ was very quiet, which was unlike him, but he's a performer and gave his all. While i LOVE aj's voice (the best of the lot IMO), Nick was raw performing LIVE. Nick doesnt know how to interact with fans, in fact, out of the 5, he was the only one who didnt get to come out during song breaks to say thank you or whatever to the crowd. But when he performed, he was wild and give his all. That voice is made for LIVE concerts.
The best part of the concert would def. be I Want It That Way. Cause up til then, only the fans were singing along and going crazy, but doing IWITW, the entire stadium stood up, hands up in the air and pointing back to the boys and sang the entire song together. That was a moment i dont think i'll never forget. the surge of energy in that place is just awesome.
I think another moment that I'll never forget was when they debut their new single Incomplete. We were the only 4 around us who were singing and i remember these two girls who won VIP seats from a radio station, looking at us and wondering how the heck we know the lyrics to a new song. I caught one of the girl's eyes at one time during the song and smiled at her. She smiled back before we both turned our attention back to the boys.
Im glad I went there with Liza and found new frienships with Mano and Kelly. I have to say though, I wished Suzi was there with me cause I wanted my BSB experience to be with her as well. And i remember being bummed a little cause i wanted to experience 'IWITW' with a stadium filled with FANS. Who would have thought I'm getting a 2nd chance to make it all happen? heehee
Wow, thanks to Emma for making me do this, lol. Now i REALLY cannot wait for Jan 24th! lol
and this has been a fun way to waste my time. My boss left again, this time for good. Now all alone again with 35 mins to go.
aj: it's a peepee! a ding dong!
Charade
Nick: *reads what he must act out* Oh God. *Stood there not knowing what to do*
Thoughts @ 04:52 p.m.
Sunday, December 4, 2005
I am addicted to this video clip and the song (no worries, it's NOT Backstreet Boys, I do listen to other songs you know). Before this, I thought Nick is like, the most passionate singer i've ever heard, like, one of those people who really emote into the song and deliver them with emotion that moves you (esp. LIVE) and then comes this guy. If i were to have a band, i'd get him to sing in it, lmao. Click this ---> Ghost-Of-You By My-Chemical-Romance
Thoughts @ 05:53 p.m.
Saturday, December 3, 2005
Ok so WOW, Take That's UK Tour 2006 is SOLD OUT. Yes, ALL 26 dates sold out within 9 hours or something, the 2nd fastest sold out concert in UK, after Robbie Williams' amazingly enough, lmao.
I love them, I'll always consider them as my first 'boyband' madness. After they broke up, Backstreet Boys was just starting to make a name of themselves in Asia and Europe and I didnt even freaking know how they looked like but knew after listening to I'll Never Break Your Heart that I'm going to like them, lol. When Howard Donald said the only band who can take over TT is BSB, I knew BSB will have a long career, lol. Cheesy I know, but that was exactly what I told Liza long time ago.
So now TT released a Greatest Hits DVD and i HAVE to get it! Just not anywhere in the near future though, I'm totally, seriously broke after paying my $250 ticket for the BSB concert. The ticket is finally in my hand today :D It's a long story but to make it short, we got upgraded to 2ND ROW STAGE CENTER BABY!!
Today is Dad's bday too and we bought him pandan sponge cake cause it's his favorite, lol. We're buying him something else but it has to be a belated gift cause we're short of funds, lol. Dad understood though, i wuv him!
Yesterday our entire block suffered blackout which lasted till this morning. Later on I'd found out that the cause of the blackout is US!! lmao! our trip fuse is faulty and it caused the entire block to suffer from blackout. Oops!
Tomorrow we're going to Kak Ani's house to see her new baby!! FINALLY! Cant wait to carry her :D Ayu's getting married this Sunday and i decided that i want to go cause afterall she's a friend, but liza doesnt want to go so im not going to push her into going, which also means im not going cause i have no one else to go with me. im not sure what my other friends planned. Then again, they'd be going with their husbands, i'd feel like a 3rd wheel, so yeah...
*wishes Jan 24th will come tomorrow*
Thoughts @ 02:20 a.m.
Saturday, November 19, 2005
On a hardcore fan, this list means more than just, well, a list.
Thoughts @ 08:25 p.m.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Thoughts @ 07:32 p.m.
Wednesday, November 9, 2005
Ryan calling Nick in Spain abt the rumor.
Bai Ling has ugly nipples. I, unfortunately, had seen them. *cries* other than that, I have nothing against this woman.
on other interesting news...i have no interesting news...i just got home, need to shower badly.
Shoutbox sucks! i cant even leave msgs on my own shoutbox! grr!! btw suzi, your cake was last minute cause im so used to having no cakes for bdays and then i realised, it's hari raya and your bday, we cannot NOT have a cake now can we! lol...glad you like, it's very tasty, yummy!
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Thoughts @ 06:47 p.m.
Monday, November 7, 2005
Hari Raya this year was bearable. I mean, i didnt find myself being overly bored or mad. Even when some ppl keep asking when im gonna get married, some wanted my sis to fix me with someone and others saying how fat i am...im surprised i took it all in stride and actually find it funny. Maybe i'm just in denial right now but sometimes, denial is a fun thing.
suzi got overly sick on our way back from M'sia. She puked like 3 times! and it's all watery and orange...ack! You know what i find cute? the fact that my dad got to go back home, meet his brothers and spent a good quality of time with them and cook us all lunch. I know it might seem nothing to us, but to not be anywhere close to your brothers and to spend time together just cooking and bonding must have felt good for him...so that's why when he was late, i wasnt overly pissed at him. I find it endearing too that his sisters were all hanging out at gran's house chatting while the guys go cook, lmao
And there's just something heartwarming to see all his siblings gathering together under one roof, and it's a tiny roof mind you...and i see the aunts and uncles, the cousins...the cousins' kids...4 generations in that house...
did i say it was HOT? it was HOT! FREAKING HOT! I wish we can wear t shirt and jeans to such ocassions.
i feel bad for our gran...the one in SG, lol. She said she's sad that the has a lot of grandchildren but none took the time to send her a card, hehe. oopps? :P
I feel horrible for forgetting suzi's bday, lol...she had to ask me, after midnight, to wish her happy bday! lmao! and then it dawn on me, we didnt plan anything for her bday since everyone is so busy with hari raya. So i snuck out, told rizal to get a bday cake the next day and a card. The cake tastes awesome! Prima Deli dok! (apa dok? sendok! kah kah kah)
my bday present is paying for her hair, which was an advance gift. I like the gift Nizar bought for her. It has 'love' written all over. See suzi, what's in a bouquet of flowers when you got THAT? lol
If you could be another BSB for one day, who would you want to be?
Nick: "I wanna be Kevin because his wife is hot"
then Kevin to Nick "You just wanna be me cause you wanna bone my wife!"
Soundcheck question, Nuremberg, Germany 6/11/05
Thoughts @ 03:51 p.m.
Wednesday, November 2, 2005
Been doing spring cleaning (technically NOT spring cleaning since we're no longer in Spring...are we?) for the past few days and the entire of Deepavali was spent helping out at home. I would love to go into details of the things we did but I'm also lazy.
Today was half day for me so it was an early start to work,I pretty much didnt do anything except for answering calls and getting yelled at for things that are NOT my fault whatsoever. To that, I just kept quiet and let the other person rant until he/she cant say anything else. After that I said 'would you like to leave a message?' yes, I love irking people, especially those who like to yell in my ear.
Suzi started her new job on Monday and NO ONE knew about it except for me in this house. I feel like Im keeping one heck of a secret. You know, i should get something out of this!
Found out that MTV is airing MTV Diary BSB tomorrow at 3pm, I see myself at grand's house so there is NO WAY im able to catch that. It's damn funny and stupid, so i hope we get a rerun someday. Yes, we have a tape recorder that is working, all we need is tech whiz who can do it's magic and not ruin our SCV channels like the last time. Hmmm...anyone?
I couldn't get to sleep on Friday and was staring at this pc at 3am not knowing what else to do...I ended up writing a short fic that lasted till 4.05am...woke up at 4.30 for sahur. nice. Anyhoo...here's a little excerpt of the fic..
...Sometimes I think the world is set to go against me. Like, today, the entire universe woke up on the lets hate Nick and make him feel like a total loser side of the bed. You know, one of those days where a series of events happened right one after the other, getting worst by the moment and it just create a chain reaction, which could possibly end up with my head exploding. Or me ending up drunk and yelling at random people from the balcony of my hotel room. Or me acting like a dick to the guys and fans. Or, me in my bus, awake at three in the morning writing this.
God knows where our next stop is; I would have asked God but I am mad at him. When I said the universe is set to go against me, God is included, and going up to him and asking where our next stop is, just beats the purpose....
If you feel like reading it, here's the link Nick vs The Universe
Ok it's 6.23 suzi better be done, I still havent do my Asar prayer and i just lied to mom and said I've done it, heh.
Thoughts @ 06:12 p.m.
Friday, October 14, 2005
Nick Carter: The Official Sponsor for Subway
LOL nothing much on the update front, currently life is like the beating of the drum, it just goes on from one day to another. Ina's coming to break fast with us tomorrow so that's one thing i'm looking forward to. What i'm not looking forward to : waking up on Sat morning and go to market and see people having breakfast *waaahhhhh*
Ooohh I also FINALLY managed to learn how to make white sauce! yippeeddeeedooo!!! Here's the recipe if anyone cares to try it out!:
Roasted Chicken in White Sauce:
Chicken:
boiled, shred to small pieces and then bake to golden brownish.
Steps:
For the record I made the sauce with fried hotdogs and without the peppers cause it was a last minute thing, lol...
Okay now i'm done rambling! TTFN!
"I'm married to these guys..." -Brian
"There was DisneyWorld, Sea World, and Nick's world." ~ Howie
Nick "My favorite spring break physical activity has to be scuba diving..."
Sex on the TV is bad... You might fall off! - Brian
Thoughts @ 04:15 p.m.
Monday, October 10, 2005
I am SO tired! I realised that ever since fasting, I have too much free time in my hands...guess what those times used to be filled with then? Yup, in one way or another, related to food. Hmmm...
Today I had tons to do at work, I brought home my work today but I don't think I'm going to do it, lol. Suzi wants to finish up LilThings' website and I think that website needs serious facelift and the touch of her magic since Lily and I are useless in that area, lol.
I finally managed to revamp my fanfic site, woot! I need to make a few new pages/layouts for my 'dream team' section, been working with a few other authors in that one and I'm getting Mano's help in designing those layouts, she does awesome layouts that girl and seriously effing helpful! So far, I owe her dinner for every working day that she was online with me, lmao.
Man, i hope i can keep up with tarawih, it's damn tiring and sometimes I feel like slacking and not do it, but I always remember ustazah's words (see, i DO listen...when i want to), no ibadah is easy, you gotta work to get it. I think it's the same motto to exercising and slimming down (which i fail miserably to accomplish).
And so far for this year's Hari Raya (see, only 6 days and Im thinking of Hari Raya)we're not painting the house, we're not making new curtains, no new bedsheets, I have 2 new baju kurung, first one is the one suzi bought in KL and the 2nd one most likely will not make it in time for Hari Raya, lmao. I'm using one that i wore last year. it has only been worn once anyways. But Ain and Insyirah looked awesome when they tried on their new clothes the last time they were here, I cant wait to see those two in baju kurungs, adorable!
Thoughts @ 08:36 p.m.
Friday, September 30, 2005
She also asked Howie if he ever put his head in the ice bucket and he said he never did, lmao. Howie is either a wuss or the smart one, lmao. Man, she sounds so happy from her texts...i got an email yesterday from her, she said she met nick, aj and howie and couldnt tear her eyes away from aj (her fav). Im so happy for her!
I had another BSB dream the other day, 2 dreams in 2 days, i know this is a sign to get help, but i heard that the Backstreet Support Group is not taking new patients, fully booked, lol.
Signs that you need help:
You had your 2nd BSB related dream in 2 consecutive nights. You went to America since you're tired of waiting for them to come down to Asia and you had Liza and Mano in your dream too. And the concert had a 'break' in the middle where you decided, hey, why not take a random escalator to nowhere and stumble upon a random AJ McLean? Yes, you did that and you talked to AJ while going up the escalator like he was your long lost buddy.
We got hugs and told him we're from SG and he said 'oh Singapore huh?' in a tone that pretty much said 'we're NEVER going there so i'm glad you came here instead'. (that was a sad moment, im glad it was a dream, hehe) And then you got back to the concert (apparently the escalator ride takes you back to the concert hall) and AJ freaking McLean played the piano (guess Kevin is too perfect to play piano in my dream) and said 'this song is for the girls i met on the escalator today' and they started belting out, get this, LOVE KNOWS I LOVE YOU...(i was listening to that song before going to bed).
You know this is a dream cause, hell, randomly finding AJ on an escalator ride to nowhere doesnt happen to Singaporeans! oh plus, Mano was SUPERCOOL infront of AJ, pfffttt, like that's ever gonna happen? Please!
Thoughts @ 12:37 a.m.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Phew, the CD05 package are finally done and delivered yesterday. Today I met Cik Jono at work to take the $$ from him. He told me he took the cab fare and when i returned to the office i realised he only too $6.00...sigh. The balance isnt enough to recover all expenses spent for this year but at least we got something. It covered back the pattern papers that we bought for the cards at least, lol.
I have a feeling my itchy eyes will result in sore eyes soon enough...we shall see. In other news, my period is messed up once again, i know we dont need too much gory details but i just need to vent...UGH.
ooohh and how can i forget this, lol...I dreamt that BSB came to SG and we all get to meet them in person. I was also busy baking a cake, go figure. So anyhoo, i had the icing all nice right? and then who was to come skippidy doo? Nick. Wait, Nick and his freaking finger. He wanted to flick a little frosting from my cake, i mean, COME ON! so i glared at him and slapped his hand away. I must be effing mad at him cause i practically slapped Suzi's thigh in my sleep. The moment i did that, in my half asleep state of mind, I knew i had slapped her, lmao...I waited for a repercussion and for that glimmer second, i thought she didn't feel it...well...never let it be said that suzi is a dead log when she's asleep. pfftt.
Pretty much called out what the fuck yana! and i just waved it off...cant remember what i said to her, but i was laughing in my sleep...like really...i had my eyes closed and laughing. Yes, I love my sleep that much.
In other news, my friend from ITE, Ayu, is getting married this Dec. She was gathering addresses from our fellow friends in ITE and here's an update on some of them:
Herfian married, Zakiah engaged to Ruby's ex-bf from sch, Sharmil divorced now seeing Shamsul from sch, Shima divorced, Ruby married expecting 2nd child, Didi married, Odie remarried,Faizal supposedly married (lol), Faizin married (my crush! waahhh, lol)...that's all i can remember now...im pretty sure Ayu managed to invite the entire class of 97, lol.
Oh, also, a group of us made some well wishes cards for AJ for his 3rd year of sobriety comes this October. A fellow fan Nath and her sis will be passing them over when they come to Ireland. Liza printed out a freaking world map and circled SG and had an arrow that said 'WE'RE HERE' lmao! Deperate times call for desperate measures I guess? Anyhoo, Liza just sms me and said Nath received our package today. Woot!!
What you'll see at the NG Tour part 12.4:
During 'I Still' when they sang 'i'm looking back, when we were young and stupid' Brian and Howie points to Nick, who was oblivious of it.
^^ see, that's why i wanna go see the damn concert!
Thoughts @ 10:48 p.m.
Thursday, September 8, 2005
2ndly, I’m rather worried about this year’s CD Package. It seems like it’s not taking off well. Maybe it’s not as attractive as last year’s, cause we offered no discounts of any amount. That should be IT, cause package wise, they’re all much better than last year’s. Sigh…so far, only one order and it’s going to be a bummer if that is going to be our ONLY order this year.
3rdly, I think that there is a blessing behind this other order we got. The whole CD making thing. Even if our proposal fall through, it got us more connections to other companies out there. I believe this is useful for future ventures. I would be lying though if I say I’m not disappointed if we fail to nail this deal. Less profit is even better than no business at all, yanno?
Anyhoo, yesterday, when that Yakult lady knocked on our door for our weekly Yakult supply (lmao) I went to my mom and asked her for the money to pay for the drinks. I normally wouldn’t do that cause it’s only $2.75, I wouldn’t mind paying for it but last night I totally had no cash with me. So of course mom was all ‘you can’t pay for it?’ so I told her I had to cash with me. She then proceeded to TELL me that once SHE has the new house and everything is settled, I should quit my job and get a better paid one. She also said she doesn’t care how long that will take me cause she WILL pay for my bills and whatnot until I get a job. And then of course dad said he can call his ‘connections’ and get me a job.
All these, cause I asked for $2.75 to pay for the drinks that chances are, I won’t even get to drink.
Firstly, I will quit when I want to quit. Secondly, I will quit and get a better paying job cause it’s what I WANT. I WILL quit even if we still haven’t get a new house if I feel that it’s the right time to do so. And I will find jobs on my own. Dad seriously needs to back off. How many times have I told him I have NO interest in the shipping industry? He needs to get a clue. Mom too.
On to some amusing stuff…there is this radio station in the US who just loves dissing BSB especially Nick. This had been going on for the past 3 years. One of the mods on LD couldn’t take it anymore that she posted a thread on LD and complained. We all agreed that she should print the thread and try to pass it to the guys cause the DJ in that radio station was going to interview them during the concert that the moderator is going. She came back and told us she managed to pass the stack of papers to the bodyguard and he showed it to the boys during soundcheck. Want to know what happened after that? And what happened to the DJ? Go HERE
I guarantee you a very entertaining read.
On another amusing news…MTV TRL has been refusing to play the new BSB video, and even told their record co. that they don’t want a pop revival (of course they failed to see that Hilary Duff & Lindsay Lohan are as pop as they could get). The video is currently at No.1 on VH1, Aol and Yahoo and the Never Gone Tour was voted the No.1 most anticipated Summer concert at MTV.com but on TRL, they lingered at No.17 and dropped while fans had been voting like crazy. So what did the fans do? Lmao…set up September 15th as the date where they’ll march down to TRL and protest. Freaking PROTEST.
A fan managed to tell the boys about it during one of the soundchecks and Nick said he wanted to go and protest with the fans and asked the boys if he can go (AJ said he’ll join Nick) but Howie said they can’t cause they’ll be in Rome, lol. Kevin said he expects 1000 fans there, lmao. Today, Brian had a chat with the fans from the official club and he requested that if we can’t go, to sign the petition (LMAO!) and if we go, to take a picture of us there and he’ll post it on HHC and will personally give them a kiss (right Brian!). LOL I wish I could go, but seeing as that is totally impossible, I’m signing the petition. If you feel BSB has been mistreated, click HERE and sign the petition.
You can tell I’m bored when my update on this thing seems to go on forever.
Nick: I wanna know why ya'll love Aj so much cause I need to have some of those. I hear ppl dont like me cause im dirty *smirks* so what is it? Is it cause AJ's soulful?
Brian: So full of what? *giggles at own joke*
Thoughts @ 03:20 p.m.
Monday, August 29, 2005
But if you ask anyone who knows me well...they'll say I'm still not ready to even have a boyfriend. Yes i whine of being 'lonely' sometimes, but at the same time, I'm not really looking. So anyhoo, this past few days, I thought about reaching 30 and still being unmarried and wondering if i'll be okay with that. You know, 30 yrs old is only 5 years away. *insert shock face here*
So i figured, well, if i'm 34 (that's in 9 years time if you have difficulties keeping up)and still unmarried, i'll be able to buy my own house and move out of my parents'. The independence i craved so much. And lately, I've been yearning for that. My own place.
Maybe it's just a phase i'm going through who knows? But at least these days, it makes me feel good about myself. The whole falling in love thing will happen if it happens you know? If not, I have a good feeling that i'll be doing just fine.
Credit: Avatar made by Firewhisky @ Rushoverme
Thoughts @ 04:54 p.m.
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Liza is playing songs from Firehouse and Def Leppard...sigh...brings back memories of school days...
ok 4:40pm...COME ON!!
Thoughts @ 04:36 p.m.
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Liza said if we get our pay this Friday, she’d like to go out and eat at Sakura. I’m going to ask Lily if there are other good stuff at Beach Road other than sup tulang, cause Liza don’t eat that but I want her to come along with us. Food there is a lot cheaper than at Sakura. We shall see. I gotta start saving up my money from now on. And I need a track shoe, jogging pants and a sports bra if I ever wanna start jogging again. Oh, and a good support underwear would be nice too. We don’t want to let people see my fats jiggling while I jog, they already have a lot of other stressful things to look at anyway. So I’m seeing a spending of about $100 to buy all those stuff. I’m not sure if I can get them all at one go. On the bad side, if I have to wait for another month to get all the stuff I want, that means another month on hold for jogging. And we all know October is fasting month. Ugh. I hate it when it seems like my life is run by dollar signs.
On to a happier note (you should know by now happier note means my happy place, which is always BSB related for awhile now…yes, I do realize it’s pathetic at times), I listened to the Nick interview again and now I got what Nick said, lmao. He said that the guys told him, he looked like Sebastian Bach!! I totally flipped cause, hello? Me, here, LOVES Skid Row! So I have another reason to look forward to August 1st. Paycheck and the new video! Woot!
I’m getting the first Harry Potter book from Mano. Can’t wait to start reading it. There might be a meet up with all the other girls in 2nd week of August, but I’m not sure if it’s confirmed. They haven’t post anything official in the LJ. Once that is posted, I’m going to tell Liza, see if she wanna come. Safe to say, it’ll be a small group, no stuck up biotches are invited *grins*
Alrighty, I’m out for lunch…which technically means, I’ll be surfing the net and munching on my hard cold bread and cold, strong coffee. Adios!
Thoughts @ 02:05 p.m.
Monday, July 25, 2005
^^That goes out to a certain individual who will officially be selling grapes on Monday. (Remember what song that is? lmao) Never despair, you made a decision and did something about it - something that I'm still struggling to do. So with that alone, kudos! And I hope you get a well deserved pay for your next job and be happy there. Slow and easy does it babe.
So tomorrow, I gotta remind myself that I'm going home alone. No more waiting for suzi, lmao.
On to other things...I say it's fucked up that the London Police shot the man 5 freaking times when there were a few of them holding him down. I mean, if you're holding him down, he's no longer a threat, why are you shooting? And turned out the man has NOTHING to do with the bombings! Ugh!
On a recent poll, Americans voted and believed that WW3 is not impossible. Of course, with Bush as the president, that is definitely possible. Rock on! *rolls eyes*
And then now Egypt. WTF is the problem with ppl these days??? Is anyone else weirded out when you see Civil Defence men holding a freaking machine gun pacing the pavement of MRTs???
I wish tomorrow isn't Monday, but I need for Friday to come fast cause I am totally broke and need that paycheque asap! I wonder what i'll be eating tomorrow. We shall see what a dollar gets you these days.
On a happier note, I heard a radio interview today and Nick said the Video to JWYTK would hv them transported to the early 1980s. A bunch of mullet heads (so THAT'S why AJ had a mohawk now!)friends were on their way to a rock concert. A rock band called Sphincter (you heard me right) are playing. the guys will also be playing the parts of this group, lmao! He said Kevin looked like Slash from GNR, Howie looked like Nikki sixx (oh my gah!)and they're wearing TIGHTS *wha..* On their way they'll be picking fights with ppl and picking up groupies, lmao! This should be interesting...
Pat made these gif animations and it was a nice thing to look at. The moment that brought them back together. *grins*
Oprah 1
Peace,
Thoughts @ 01:20 a.m.
Friday, July 22, 2005
On other news, we might be having a family picnic outing on 6th August if everything goes well. Most prob to Pasir Ris *grins* Should be fun!
Oh, also meeting Ros on first week of August since she's now working near my area. I'm thinking of maybe asking Rabeah, we'll see if she's free. For now, it'd be just liza, ros and me. I doubt we can get Shiza...she's the drifter i guess, lol.
Ooohhh...remember that I Still project I did with a few of the BSB fans I got to know here? Well, the boys were in Japan and a reporter asked them if they were aware of the project and they said they have no idea at all and then asked what it was about. When they learnt it's something the fans worldwide are putting together for them, they got effing excited and are hoping a fan will pass it down to them. woot!
Ok, I cant wait to see the season finale of CSI LA on June 27th so i downloaded it at Ares, hehe. Im *hoping* it'll get down by tonight!
Thoughts @ 10:35 p.m.
Monday, July 4, 2005
So MTV Ask BSB was just on, and I'm at work. And then Vanessa & Pat sms me and Mano went straight online to tell me that my question got picked!! And which Backstreet Boy got to read my question? NICK CARTER!
I didn't even remember what are they questions I asked, I had posted about 5, but the one that came out was What is the one thing that you feel you had to trade for fame. A Philippine girl won for best question and deservingly so. It was about how the music has progressed today and how it feels like to start back from scratch. something like that, lmao.
Well, I wasnt even expecting this, and figured, what's the big deal...and here i am excited like a teenie, lmao. Okay, im off work right now, going HOME!
Thoughts @ 05:09 p.m.
Sunday, June 26, 2005
I tried writing more on Fear factor today but the words just wont come out. I have the scene playing over and over again for weeks now. All i need is a paragraph and everything else will (hopefully) fall into place. BSB distraction is not helping either, although lately there's not much. Whatever are they doing in Japan right now? Oooohh International press conference is today...I wonder if SG sent a representative or not. We did for B&B and Kevin's 'where is that?' reply to the mention of Singapore is still stuck in my mind.
Speaking of which, Never Gone peaks at #3 for 1st week sale here!! Like, wtf? I was losing hope on Singapore...we're currently dominated by Japan/Korea artists and Good Charlotte (they're coming this mth btw) and the likes. I didn't think most of the fans stick around for BSB even though i've met a bunch of them. This is really GREAT news!
Going back on the clock now since I rarely update this thing...
1. my bday went awesome this year. when you least expected anything from it, you get a great one, go figure. I told everyone i didnt want anything (Bday skipped my mind, i was counting down to June 14th). Dad gave me a new cell phone (CTW my ringtone now, woot!) and a letter - he never writes letters EVER. I have it in my wallet, too cute. Mom and my 2 sisters gave me $$...go figure, it's the Great Singapore Sale right now, they know i love shopping, hehe...Lily gave me a pink heart pendant and necklace, liza gave me a collection of earrings and a website bday card that rocks! Mare and Maria made me a story and a movie to accompany it. Goodness...too funny! Rob the Roadie sent me a letter, hehe...ad the bday song at the end...sigh... and then there's mare's presents. yes, i said PRESENTS cause they came from Mare and the Backstreet Boys. Too cute! I have to wear this pom pom like thingy headband...write with my yellow ostrich pen, munch on my Yoda candy dispenser (all courtesy of Nick), check out the BSB keychain and the lovely Hope fairy from AJ...Howie's purple wallet (too cute!!!), Brian's Banana & walnut cake mix, Kevin gave me a Dean Koontz novel and Mare gave me a recipe book from her favorite chef!! I have a feeling i might be missing some stuff. Can you tell it was a box full of surprises????
2. I met a bunch of really cool girls through the BSB SG MB. We went out together on June 14th, bought our copy/copies of NG and had dinner together. One of the girls brought her laptop so we blast NG at the restaurant (thankfully didnt get booted) and then watched a few recent shows of the guys.
3. Did the I Still fan video that lasted till 11pm. Kelly and I took the last train to the west and it stopped half way and ended there, lmao! so we had to take the longer route up north followed by a cab. Good thing i had extra $$ wiht me that night.
4. the collaboration with Mare and Maria went awesome. Posting first chapter on Friday. Im glad we finally got down to doing this cause i remember we talked about it since last year, lol.
5. I just realised my life is evolved around BSB and fanfic. how sad is that? You know what, don't answer that.
NOT looking forward to work tomorrow by I had a blast today, watched Mr&Mrs Smith vcd...movie? me? this time of the month? pppfffftttt!! Oh, and Nizar came again today to fix our toilet. I bet he scored tons of points with our parents. Suzi can breathe easy now, lmao.
Thoughts @ 11:25 p.m.
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Of course the experts discussed the first 45 mins and felt that the trophy is already in the bag for AC Milan. I was of course, devastated, but I let sleep take over and not really hear them. But my heart was beating so fast the entire time and, um, my tummy started aching, not from a poo break, but sick from knowing that we’re almost losing this match, and not in the best way ever. We were sucking at it.
2nd half rolled in and out of nowhere, Gerrard scored. I thought okay, one goal at a time. Tummy still aching like crazy. I was betting with myself that I will get ulcer if this goes on. A minute later, Smicer scored our 2nd goal. AC Milan doesn’t look that strong anymore and we gained confidence. I could totally see the difference in them. And then, we scored a penalty. All 3 goals in a matter of 6 minutes!! Whee!! So now, we equalized. The LFC crowd started singing You’ll Never Walk Alone.
In 90 minutes, we’re stuck at 3-3. So we got 30 mins of extra play. With a break in between. No one scored. So then, the most dreaded situation came. Penalty shootout.
Didie Hamann (I named our cat after him, lol) k one for the team and scored. Hey! I was pacing the room and not even looking at the screen, too scared, lol.
AC Milan’s turn, Dudek the goalkeeper geared up and WHAM! He freaking SAVED the shoot! So we’re up 4-3
Djibril Cisse took the 2nd one home and we’re up 5-3
AC Milan’s turn, and good lord I love Backstreet boys! Dudek saved it AGAIN! So we’re up 6-3
Riise took one for the team but he missed. [and I freaking called him LFC’s Nick Carter! Lol] but he didn’t seem bothered by it. I think he was confident we’re going to win, lmao. The players that were standing arms in arms in the middle of the field were praying like crazy, lmao. AC Milan’s players stood in line outside of the field. I don’t know why LFC went in the middle, I guess they really feel they’re winning, lol.
AC Milan’s turn, and he got that one in. So we’re now 6-4
2 more shoot out. All we need is another score.
Smicer, playing his last game for LFC, took the penalty and we scored.
And that’s it, we won by 7-4, didn’t even need to take that last penalty shoot out. I was jumping around the house with my sister, celebrating, at 5.30am. Most of the neighborhood were still asleep.
After 20 years, we brought home the cup again, for the 5th time. Man, I started supporting them back in 1996, the same year I found BSB. I waited this long for them to win THE most prestigious soccer award and crowned Kings of Europe. Hey, if there is parallel universe, who knows, BSB might just grab a Grammy this year.
And unless you understand the scousers’ slang, you might find this odd, lol.
Pride of Merseyside!!
Thoughts @ 04:46 p.m.
Sunday, May 22, 2005
So we've decided (i think) to wait for the 2nd phase of WIS before buying another house. I think we all fell in love with that showflat we saw last week, it's a four room flat, not huge at all but it's Premium, that means we don't have to worry about the floorings, pipes and toilets. We need to cut down on our budget as much as we can, hee...I still feel like the villain everytime i turn down and had to refuse on not adding my name as the 3rd owner of the house. I know it would help a lot on my parents but you can never tell the future. Sigh...too many things in my mind, damn if i do, damn if i dont, you know? I just hope they didnt feel hurt everytime i had to turn them down. It's not that I don't appreciate them or want to have nothing to do with them when I have a family of my own. I dont even know if that will ever happen in the first place, so yeah, i keep going back and forth with that decision. *counts grey hairs*
Monday is Vesak day, that means i'm NOT working! woohoo!! No idea what i'm gonna do but heck, no work means happy days!!
Thoughts @ 01:08 a.m.
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
It started with me and suzi, out shopping. For some reason, I had a baby in my arms, a baby boy about 9 months old. He was adorably cute to the boot. I don't know who he is or what his name was but I felt an overbearing love for him, as if my world evolve around this baby. He kept looking up at me and smiling, showing off his two front teeth. I remember flicking his nose and he giggled and buried his face on my chest. It was the wonderfulest feeling in the world
Suzi wanted to go to this shop but it was crowded so i told her to go ahead, I'll wait outside. I didn't want the baby to start crying cause for number 1, even though I love this baby, I still wasn't sure why I was carrying him.
And then this guy came out of nowhere, I cant remember his face if my life depends on it, but it was so easy to tell, he and the baby have the same eyes and nose. It was cute. He took the baby away from me and started making funny faces, which of course, delighted the crap out of the baby. I laughed at them both and call them sillies.
He asked me for his bottle and said he's going to feed the baby, and what do you know, a baby bottle appears out of nowhere and into my hand. So I handed it to him. The way he held the baby, it felt like the meld together, I remember smiling so wide that it hurts.
And then he said "We'll come back okay." And I just nodded. Suzi came out with bags full of clothes and I remember asking her, "How long did you leave me out here?" She grinned, passed me some of the bags and we walked away.
He and the baby never came back though. Or maybe they did but I walked away.
I remember feeling so depressed when I realised he wasnt coming back. I wanted that baby in my arms again. Weird thing was, I was also excited cause we were shopping like the Hilton sisters, Suzi and I, go figure. I remember waking up feeling sad but I had brushed it off, thinking it's cause Lizah wasn't coming to work today and I'll be all alone to handle whatever mood my bosses would be in today (which turned out no so bad at all, hee)...I guess I was feeling sad for losing something I never really had in the first place.
I hate sad dreams. Ugh!
Other than that, today was a fine and dandy day. A hungry day (cause im BROKE), a lets surf the net cause bosses are not in day, a im updating my story day, a im faxing resumes for suzi day....
And if I lose it all
Thoughts @ 10:38 p.m.
Friday, May 13, 2005
So mom is hell bent on getting an apartment near Jurong Point or Jurong West. I gotta admit, i don't like that area. Dunno why. Now the one we're looking at, is near Cik Timah's house...I dunno if i should be happy abt that or not. The spacious area is tempting though. Anyhoo...apparently, we're gonna take a look at it tonight, right after work. Not sure if Dad likes it...he's sorta fickle, when i thought i heard he likes it, he'd say something negative. Me? Hey, i'll go wherever they're going, it's not my house but i have a feeling i'll be staying with them for quite a long time still, so cant really say much, dont want to get booted out.
Had a little sms chat with Yani on Monday, by the looks of it, she's still in honeymoon land eversince her engagement. Good for her! of course now she thinks I'm missing out on A LOT for not having anything close to a boyfriend. It's nice when you're being pitied...NOT, lol. I'm not lonely, just alone. Although you wouldn't know that by the 'glamorously lonely' caption thingy on this blog. I would also like to say, not to analyze too much into these stuff, lol.
Over 10,000 birds a year die from smashing into windows. <--- That is a FACT so I'm thinking...since Singapore encourage secondary school students to creat/invent something useful and have them up for world class competition...how about BIRD FRIENDLY WINDOWS? That would sell right? *thinks*
The great warrior Ghengis Khan died in bed while having sex. <--- This, we DON'T need to know, yup.
*looks at watch* 2:33pm...3 more hours to go before I leave this darn office.
She sat and gently pulled me near
Then my heart did time in Siberia
Thoughts @ 01:32 p.m.
Wednesday, May 4, 2005
Suzi and I were at the edge of seats when we realised they had added 6 mins of extra time. Argh! 6 freaking mins! that's just downright INSANE! and it was weird, when you kinda step back from the situation and realised that the nervous faces in the stadium from your tv mirrored yours. YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE aint that the truth?
While we're going to face Arsenal come Sunday *dies*, i cant wait for the finals to Champions League...been a long time coming *grins*
In other news...
I hope my cousin Mai gets better, we should have visited today but stuff came up so we're looking for Friday hopefully. I personally hope she didnt have to stay there till Friday but if she's still there, we're coming. Poor Kak Ani, she must be really stressed now and that's not good on expecting mothers.
LMAO! Anthony Fedorav [however you spell it] sang Incomplete on AI! The rendition wasn't as good as the original but for a guy to sing a 5 vocals song, i thought he did good for himself. Now if only Scott Savol gets booted out, i'll be very happy with meself, yup.
Thoughts @ 04:25 p.m.
Saturday, April 23, 2005
u hv to click play to see the vid...a lot of clutching and kneeling down it seems, lol...overall, awesome artistic/cinematic views, but what i really wanna know is...what happened to Brian? dun...dun...dun...dun...
Thoughts @ 10:56 a.m.
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
"We were in Malaysia at the end of last year (1996) and we had to do a press interview with one of their local papers. One of the interviewers was this really nice guy in checked trousers and a cowboy hat, but he seemed to be a little confused. He kept calling us by the wrong name - he'd look at Nick and say "So Ronan, what's it like to be famous?" After a few minutes we twigged that he thought we were Boyzone! I glanced at Nick and in a split second we decided to go along with the joke. So I became Stephen, Kevin was Shane, AJ was Keith and Howie was Mickey. We even started to talk in Irish accents. At the end of the interview, the guy asked if we could sing a song for him. We sang 'Words', and he loved it. You owe us one Boyzone" - Brian & Nick
Thoughts @ 03:48 p.m.
Monday, March 21, 2005
So the Concert was awesome! 7 hours full of fun! I did a loooonnngg review on it, about all the artists that performed, you can read it all here Force of Nature
Kelly is still uploading the videos she took of BSB in concert, so that gotta wait for now. I have a video of our trip there though, you can find the link at your left hand side of the screen.
Today was a drag. I didnt want to work at all. My legs are still achy, lol. But we got through it, still wishing i could do all those fun thing again someday :)
Thoughts @ 08:49 p.m.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
I’ll be meeting Firah on Saturday so that’s a good thing too. Do a little bit of catching up and maybe hunt the guys down so I can pass all these letters the girls sent me to them. If I had known the guys are going to the GrandPrix on Sunday, I would have stayed another day!
Ok I don’t know what else to say, I can’t think straight, lol.
Thoughts @ 04:23 p.m.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Also, March 18th is the official release for their 1st single, so I'm hoping they'll be singing that song too. Asian artists that are announced include Sheila Majid, Innuendo *yippeedeedoo!*, Jackie Chan, Nicholas Tse...they say more to be announced so yeah...I'm looking forward to Boyz II Men, Lauren Hill & Wyclef Jean and Black Eyed Peas, it should be fun!
So the word 'wedgie' is now added to Websters Dictionary. I'm not kidding yo, found it on Yahoo!
I have to share with everyone about a 12 yr old kid that Mare teach in one of her music classes hang himself a few days ago. He was such a lovely and active kid, Mare had told me about him before and i saw a picture of him 2 days ago, it saddens me that he's gone and the fact that a 12 year old knew how to hang himself :(
okay, almost 1am, better go to sleep...oh goodness, Didie is taking up all the space on my side of the bed! that cat will cause me some major neck pain tonight.
Thoughts @ 12:13 a.m.
Thursday, March 3, 2005
JUZPINK! overload! lol...Got an sms frm Lily saying that her friend wanted our service again and this time for goody packs and a reunion souvenir pack. I'm thinking of making something creative for souvenir pack, if we rely on what's already a norm out there, there'd be no originality to Juzpink. I'm thinking for ourselves too, while we help them, we need to help build a portfolio that speaks volume.
I was randomly putting things together in our Juzpink! box when i thought of this...a card that looks like a report card from the outside...with a slot where we can add in the person's name and class...and then inside, a beautifully printed card which they could take out and keep in their wallet or on a display board[card could be laminated or really a good quality] with words like 'A lifetime is not too long to be bestfriends' and the words 'Reunion Party, Class of 2004, *insert sch's name here*'
Or Roll it like a certificate and add a little something for the souvenir...i havent think abt what that would be, lol.
Finally asked my boss for leave on March 18th and he approved it...so liza and I have a lot to celebrate about, lol. Now i'm on a very tight budget. This Saturday we'll meet Mano for the first time and then go buy our coach ticket...i saw one that costs SGD14.00 for a one way trip, so that's cheap, lol. Now i'm waiting on Firah to see if she can rent a car and hopefully let us on the ride, lol...either way, i'm looking forward to it!
Dont you just love the lyrics up there? Someone posted it on LD...they got another sneak peak at one of the BSB's new songs...called The Unloved...i havent heard it yet, figured i should just be patient and wait for the album...but the lyrics really touched me...i think the entire lyrics pretty much covers all the unloved in this world, lol.
This is a song for the unloved, this is the music for one last cry,
This is the prayer that tomorrow will help me leave the past behind...
It's a song for the unloved..
This one's for the bridesmaid (never the bride)....
this one's for the dreamers who locked their faith inside,
and this is for the widow to think there's only one, for the
dying fathers who never told their sons....
tomorrow the sun will shine,
and dry the tears in your eyes, suddenly love comes alive
Thoughts @ 11:45 p.m.
Tuesday, March 1, 2005
So back to topic :) I'm going to KL March 18th to attend the Force of Nature Charity Concert in aid for Tsunami victims and while contributing a lil bit more for a good cause, I'm finally getting to live out my dream...to see the Backstreet Boys perform live!!!
And the good news is, my friend over there is hooking us up and upgrading our tickets to the RM$554!! That's first class seat, hopefully center but im not complaining,lol. Although in a way, we're paying $100++ to see them perform maybe just 3 songs, lol...oh well, the point is it's for Charity and I'm gonna see them *grins*
Liza and I will go together with a girl i know online, Manoja. The amazing thing is, we're all 25 and equally giddy over the trip. We'll be staying at RedPalm Hostel and from pictures and reviews, it's the best shot we have. Cost us RM$33 for one night, that's cheap, just like me.
From there, I'll be meeting Fiera and two of her friends and hopefully, if she gets to rent a car there, we can squeeze in and save on transport, hehe...actually we'll be sharing the rental cost etc so yeah, that's cool too, lol.
Okay suzee just sms, Alias tgh best ni, she says, so im going for now!
And no more pissed with anybody...i learnt that we all make mistakes and it's human nature, we learnt to live and let go.
Thoughts @ 09:33 p.m.
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Okay, so I'm 24 going on 25 right? Would it shock you if I said I fucking KNOW how to cook without burning the house down? And I'm not saying frying a freaking egg or boiling the damn water, I'm talking about making REAL local dish like Ayam Merah, Singgang, Lemak Cili Padi, Chilli Prawn/Crab and freaking Peach Flans, Choc Chip cookies and cakes, yes, cakes, a freaking birthday cake!
Seriously now, will you freak out if i told you i know how to make all those? First of all, I don't NEED to freaking tell ANYONE that I fucking know how to do all these cause it's not like some rare form of talent for a 24 year old to possess! I don't have to tell anyone that I'm an F&N major in high school [and i made a 5 course meal for my O Levels thank you very much!]or that I cook around the house when my mom wasn't feeling up to it or if I just freaking damn feels hungry and there's nothing to eat, yes i'll start working on my dinner on my own!
Then why is it my relatives ALWAYS have this 'OH REALLY?' surprise/shock reaction when they found out I cook? Just cause they've never seen me in the kitchen when my mom's around? Maybe they want to live with us for a week and actually SEE me in the kitchen cooking! I don't know why they have no problems knowing their much younger daughters know how to cook and they got such a surprise when i do! argh!
here's the deal...my mom...kitchen has always been her territory. She loves to complain how we dont help her to cook or that we rarely cook for the family but when she's in the kitchen, she never complains or yells at me to help her...she loves being in control in the kitchen...it's just...her domain. She doesn't trust us to help her with the minor stuff even though it'd be when the fat lady sings before she admits to that. In some ways, I'm like that too. I love to work alone in the kitchen. Ask my dad, lol. If he even ONCE comment on certain things of how it should be done, i'll groan or ignore him. When i'm in the kitchen, i do it MY way or no way at all.
And mom loves to busy herself in the kitchen when visitors come to our house, she doesnt mind if I'm not there to help out cause even if i were there, she'll still order me around to do stuff her way. That's just her.
Our friendship is the typical mother-daughter, not friends...she orders and i obey...and if i hate being ordered, i'll stay out of her way, simple.
Do I have to explain all these to my relatives too? Heck, they'll just assume I dont know how to cook cause Im hardly in the kitchen when they're around.
Hey, I'm not the perfect daughter or the best cook or the perfect young woman but i'm not useless either. It's funny when grandma was here on the day we were going to the fetch mom at the airport...i was hanging the clothes to dry and she commented on how tiring it must be to take over mom's jobs. And there i was thinking to myself...washing and hanging the clothes has always been my duty in this house. Suzi and I will do the cooking together and suzi will be in charge of cleaning the house...from vacuuming to mopping to dishes. I go to the market every weekend with mom so yes, I know to differentiate the fish and I know what those vegetables are called!
So anyway, I got so fed up today that i left mom to entertain the guests and i went in my room [they were probably thinking how nice i treat guests] where Ina was trying to put Insyirah to bed. of course i had to vent it to her and of course her advice is to ignore such remarks for as long as i know the truth, it'd be okay. But seriously, i've had it up to HERE.
i dont really blame them 100% though cause im not blind, mom is used to telling how lazy we are and our shortcomings infront of guests. Now Dad, he could tell everyone how I had cook one of the dish for him that turned out bitter while mom was gone but he didn't. He talked about the day when i stayed up till 2am to finish my cookie baking session with Yani. Im not looking out for praises from my parents, I learnt at a very young age that praises are hard to come by in this household. But I need to vent, to this journal because talking does me no good. Sure i've been told by a lot of friends that i need to talk and tell what's on my mind, and yes, i've tried...if i have suzi next to me right now, she'll tell you it's no good either. I'm done talking.
Thoughts @ 07:53 p.m.
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Mom is coming back home tomorrow! I write this at 2:21am, she's in a bus on her way to the airport. It's been a crazy 4 weeks without in this house...sure we got through the cooking and cleaning up but there are things that we took for granted that we sure damn hell will appreciate more now. Like coming back home knowing there's something in the kitchen we can dig in right away. slaving in there for hours after coming home is hell
I cant wait to develope the roll of films she brought along with her! Sure would be fun to see how those turned up!
Oh yeah, happy valentine's day! I asked Liza if we should give Valentine a malay name since we're not celebrating valentine's and she said well, we can go with 'hermantino' lol...i swear it sounded funny when she said it earlier, lol.
i bought suzi a magnet calendar which has all these cool stuff she could play around with, lol...it was cute, im glad i saw it! also bought her bear which she decided to name 'elijah' LOL...so yay! Nick has a friend in bed! okay...that doesnt sound right...hmmm....moving right along now...
Liza bought me this very very cute frame that is blazing orange, i heart it! she even customised it with my name! lol...and she bought me this cute cat that sits in her basket and her fur feels real to the touch so the first thing didie did when he saw it was to come over, sniff and then start licking it! he worked the whole body, cleaning the ears even! LOL...will post that up soon! lol...
Grammy was good this year...the performances were entertaining, i like Alicia Key's performance the best. And she looked pretty in white with her straight hair and she sounded amazing.
'Prime numbers are what is left when you have taken all the patterns away. I think prime numbers are like life. They are very logical but you could never work out the rules, even if you spent all your time thinking about them' ~ The curious incident of the dog in the night-time by Mark Haddon
Thoughts @ 02:16 a.m.
Tuesday, February 1, 2005
I'm fucking tired...all I ever do now is go to work, come back home and start cooking...i want to go shopping!
One of my AIA insurance has mature [kira dah baligh lah tu], so I got a $500 cheque which i have yet to bank in...bank queue very long...ppl changing new money you know? nak tahun baru cina lah kata kan...
Okay, now going to shower...
Thoughts @ 07:06 p.m.
I'm forever blowing bubbles, pretty bubbles in the air
They fly so high, nearly reach the sky
Then like my dreams they fade and die
Fortune's always hiding, I've looked everywhere
I'm forever blowing bubbles, pretty bubbles in the air
When: 10pm, every Thursday & 10pm, every Saturday (Repeat)
At: AXN, ch 19
Why: Did you even watch the effing video? What do you mean WHY? *grins*
Ok so, my short story entry has been picked, which means, it’s going to be published, wahoo! The guy emailed me with a list of 250 stories picked and half way through it, I thought I’ll never see my name on it, but hey, it’s there! He said I can book the number of copies I want since authors will have a special price but the problem is, the book gets cheaper if I buy more. Thing is, it’d be in US dollars, I can’t afford to buy more than 1! Plus, who the heck would I want to give the book to if I buy more than one anyway? So it’s going to cost me $29.90 for a copy plus shipment. In short, it’s going to burn a hole in my pocket, but it’s not everyday I’d get to see my story in a book right? Right!
First of all let me just say there is no nauseating way to wake up to a new day than to the sound of your sister's fart. Like loud and clear. It's like a chain reaction, the bomb was dropped and your eyes just snapped open, and the first cycle of emotions that went through you were one of disgust, complete annoyance and then amusement. You really want to show how disgusted you are at the whole thing so you covered your face with your pillow to hide the smirk. Welcome to my life.
"No, it isn't," said Hermione, pulling Ron's essay toward her. "And 'augury' doesn't begin O - R - G either. What kind of quill are you using?"
"It's one of Fred and George's Spell-Check ones... but I think the charm must be wearing off...."
"Yes, it must," said Hermione, pointing at the title of his essay, "because we were asked how we'd deal with dementors, not 'Dugbogs,' and I don't remember you changing your name to 'Roonil Wazlib' either."
Friday
Let’s go back to Friday cause I have to say a little something about APM. I watched the entire show and thoroughly enjoyed myself. My favorite performance will have to be Taufik’s and then Mawi & Taufik duet. I think at least Taufik made an effort to put up a show instead of just being up there and sing, you know? And man, that guy has awesome falsetto ranges, you can hear it clearly when he was singing with Mawi. I like Mawi when he started singing the high notes, lol.
Mom, Suzi and me went to Nova’s furniture sale at JE to buy a new bed cause we were going to give ours to our uncle who needed one. We ended up buying the entire set since it’s cheaper that way and plus, it was on a freaking SALE. Suzi was in love with the dressing table because it’s so…modern, lol. I liked it too, it has a lot of secret places and it saves a lot of space for the new house. I like the wardrobe cause it’s very functional in my opinion. I’m not really feeling the bed’s headboard but it looks simple and nice. It’ll be delivered this Saturday.
Woke up around 1pm. It was earlier than that but I made no effort to get the hell up. I think I first woke up at 9am and cussed at myself for waking up that early on a Sunday. That is just wrong in so many level. After that, I kind of drift in and out of sleep before I was fully awake by mid noon. Even then, I just laid in bed as I listened to the commotion outside. My uncles had arrived to get the dismantled bed and the dressing table and to deliver it to our another uncle. Had lunch and then did the laundry. It was SO effing hot on Sunday! Ended up staying in the living room where it’s cooler and read Half Blood Prince. Suzi started on Order of The Phoenix, yay! The Harry Potter geek in me love it when I have HP buddies at home to talk to, haha.
So now here I am on Monday, wishing I don’t have to work. Boss left for Court so I’m left on my own accord, with not much to do. I know I have to finish up the Mel’s Tree website I promised Mare, actually write a review for FFF (just pretend you know what I’m talking about here for a sec), effing write the final chapter and complete FF for everybody’s sake and start cracking on the last interview I’m supposed to hold tomorrow. But of course my brain refuse to work on a Monday!
Eeeeeppp! lol...when you thought they're really taking a break from each other, you get this! hehe
first of all, i need to squee. So when Kevin and Howie took Nick fishing for his birthday, he was wearing the shirt that i gave him....ahhhhh!!!! I am grinning SO hard it's beginning to hurt.
What's Crackin' 2
Characteristics of the middle born child or children
The middle or second born child or children often have the sense of not belonging. They fight to receive attention from parents and others because they feel many times they are being ignored or dubbed off as being the same as another sibling. Being in the middle a child can feel insecure. The middle child often lacks drive and looks for direction from the first born child. Sometimes a middle child feels out of place because they are not over achievers and like to go with the flow of things.
Lunch time and what did I do? Nothing. Im having some ginger biscuits and pepsi and decided to finally download a fan's video from Brisbane of when the boys surprised Nick with a bday cake during the concert. I've read reviews saying how funny it was but for some reason it didnt move me to download it, but im so glad i did, lol.
figured i should do this since i hardly am ever this hardworking to make an entry. Oh Lazy and I are one and the same. You know, i didnt know that succumbing to pretty vegetables on your weekly lets go to the market ritual will end you in the kitchen and responsible for making lunch for the family. But that happened this weekend and NEVER shall i ever fall in the hands of pretty vegetables anymore! They sit there all pretty in their clear plastics, cut out in pretty patterns and assorted colors and kinds, you can't help but grab one. Evil. and the next thing you know, you're showing it off to your mother whom you were separated from because she gets the 'fish' department while you get stuck with the conniving vegetables. I don't think I've ever heard my mom shows off what she bought on the spot and claimed she just had to buy it cause the fish looks pretty. and then of course came the subject of what do i plan to do with the pretty vegetables which more or less sealed the one sided deal. I get to cook my pretty vegies and as a bonus, our lunch. Of course mom pulled out the sympathy card, her overtime is making her tired and sleepy and it would be awesome if i play the good daughter role and take over. One of these days, suzi should teach her poker; we could be rich.
February Issue of LIME!!
these should be thumbnails, so click to enlarge! Credit gal1015@SG_bsb LJ
Don't have much to say really...but I was going through minor changes for my fic site and realised I wrote a short fic of the boys' unique experience when they were in Singapore in 1996,lmao! Got a lil bit nostalgic (it was only a month ago they were here anyways,lol)so figured i'd share it here. Disclaimer: I am not responsible for butchering the English language.
Brian's POV
be sorted @ nimbo.net
Well, I guess this is IT then...today BSB performed at pro-bowl half time and marked the end of yet another chapter to the group. I thought they end it with style too. I love how matching they dressed in the performance and what better way to end it than by being in Hawaii right? They got booed at first, expectedly so, since the audience are men out to watch a football match...but never deny a good performance, they got cheered in the end, whee! 
So we finally secure a unit for our new house :D It's at the 8th floor cause it's cheaper than 10th floor, suzi's and mine ideal floor, lol. Now the dilemma is to decide if mom & dad should take the cash or place them back to their CPF. Both have their pros and cons and unless we fork out $20k for renovation and some new stuff for the new house, we'll be in trouble. Thing is, the new house is tiny and a lot of the stuff we have right now will not fit in there. Oh well, when there's a will, there's a way :D
Pic credit BlueCrushFan@LD
retarded 3 yr old. I waved at Nick cause ok fine, I have a weak spot for the guy and I wasn’t anticipating to the fact that I get to share breathing space with him. He was STARING okay, and I lost all courage to say anything. Gave a weak wave and saw Liza (the tall Liza, lol) waving at him as well and only then his face break into a small smile and waved back. How is it that Howie looked so damn fresh and Nick looked like he hadn’t slept for days? Lol. I missed Brian, Kevin and AJ, apparently they had gone up to their room while I was still trapped in the elevator, wishing for it to reach the 1st floor that very instant.
ooohh...here's the audio to our radio commercial. left click as per normal, it'll direct you to another site.
Raw Radio Commercial (without voiceover)
Pictures :D
I was messing with pitas and i think i accidentally deleted the code and link to the bg of this layout, lmao. I have to upload it again somewhere, some other day cause i dont feel like doing it right now. Too lazy. Went to the market as usual and then do laundry, vacuum/mop floor, clean the room a bit - i said a bit cause it's still kinda messy, lmao - and now im effing tired. Ina's coming around 1pm, mom's taking Ain to her friend's bday party. I'm burning Harry Potter Goblet of Fire so we can watch it on tv, abg Lan & Ina havent watch it yet. wheee!! I love that movie, lol. I wish they show more of the twins, they're too funny.
So the bazaar thing was really cute. Spent sometime eating tuna sandwich and hot dog kebab done by the kids and paid up at the cashier who was made to count our total mentally. Gosh, I'd peed my pants if it were me, lol. Too bad we didnt bring our camera along, those 2 are SO adorable!
I submitted my short fic yesterday and received a reply from them. The guy who replied back told me that he had read it and that he liked it. He had sent it to the rest of the team to read through it and if they like it, it will be published in Book#1. The fact that he liked was enough to put a smile on my face. It was an old short fic that I revamped for this entry. I had a new fic idea but just wasn't motivated to write it, lol. He told me that he received another lovely entry from Singapore. So that means he found mine lovely too right? LOL, I know I'm giddy.
All: Yeah
Nick: Yeah they do
DJ: Is it exhausting?
All: Yeah *laugh*
N: It’s kinda annoying, I’m 25 *laugh*
DJ: It’s exhausting! You guys are like checking up on him all the time
N: Well that’s what they do, I don’t think it’ll ever going to stop cause they…they are a family to me…big brothers
A: If we didn’t care, we probably wouldn’t, we’d be like, do whatever the heck you want…it’s all good
-WWWQ FM Radio Interview
Wheee!!!
BSB performed @ Jingle Bell Bash tonight and thanks to Trickyjazzer@LD, we got videos! To tie us down till Jan 24th comes, lol.
Just
Want You To Know
Crawling Back To You
I Want It That Way
As Long As You Love Me
Incomplete
Weird World
The
End
Lonely...I'm SO effing Lonely...
Liza and Ravi left for their course and won't be back. Both my bosses left for the day like an hour ago. I'm here all alone. I can leave by 5 but I've decided I'm going to wait for Suzi, she's finishing at 6 as usual. I'm thinking of going to JP and find Dad a Bday present and maybe go see if i can get my hands on TT's Greatest Hits album, but we shall see. You know what, I think i'm going to give suzi a call right now.
brian: it's a couple having sex!
kevin: *pointing to what howie's drawing* what's THAT!
nick: is it 'impotent'?
howie: Nick got it!
aj: homosexual!
(correct answer was 'a brawl')
Nothing much to update except that we went to see Arisha for the first time yesterday and ahhh, i love the smell of newborn babies! she is SO cute! Ina couldnt get over the fact of how fair she is and we told her it's soya bean baby! She couldnt believe it until Kak Ani said the same, lmao. When Ina actually carried her, Syirah had a hard time seeing her mom with a baby, lmao. But she ended up kissing Arisha and crying out 'Hi baby!' lmao! Ain doesnt mind at all, i think cause she has been there.
TAKE THAT AND PARTY!
01/08 Tokyo Dome - Tokyo, Japan
01/10 Nagoya Rainbow Hall - Nagoya, Japan
01/12 Osaka Dome - Osaka, Japan
01/14 Olympic Gym - Seoul, Korea
01/16 Capital Gym - Beijing, China
01/18 Chaning Gym - Shanghai, China
01/20 Araneta Coliseum - Manila, Philippines
01/22 Impact Arena - Bangkok, Thailand
01/24 Singapore Indoor Stadium - Singapore
01/28 Entertainment Centre - Brisbane, Australia
01/30 Entertainment Centre - Sydney, Australia
02/01 Entertainment Centre - Adelaide, Australia
02/02 Rod Laver Arena - Melbourne, Australia
Nick on KissFM
Ryan Seacrest: Are you getting married to Bai Ling?
Nick:HELL NO!
Ryan:What's that?
Nick:*laughs* Hell no!
BACKSTREET BOYS IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!
It will be on January 22nd 2006. So that makes it 10 yrs later after they first came here, lol. Wow, 10 freaking years...
It will be at The Padang, and they are working on a Meet & Greet session, still not sure how that will play out but I'm beyond just happy. I think all the hints on LD and the videos and cards and letters we sent them finally got the attention it deserved. I just went over to SG BSB Team site and everyone was freaking out and are already making plans. I wasnt sure at first since it could be a rumor, but the person who told us this is an American, so how would she know The Padang right? lol...anyways, Vanessa called BMG and they said it's tentative but def. happening. The just cannot announce it yet until everything is settled. Announcements will be made on papers by mid Nov. whee!!
Kevin: "I wanna be Nick because he gets some ass"
Wheeee!!! Selamat Hari Raya!!!
So, it's 6:13pm and im sticky and sweaty and waiting for suzi to be done washing the toilet so i can take my very needed shower. Been one heck of a tiring day. Actually, make that 2 days. Now that I think of it, you know what, make that a tiring 2 weeks or so ish.
"Friendship is what ties this group together. Without it, we would be lost, what people don't realize is that we are real good friends. If the band broke up tomorrow, we would all stick together." - Kevin
button mushroom lightly fried
Chopped green, red & yellow pepper
about half of one block of butter
2-3 spoonful of all purpose flour
1 cup of chicken stock
1 can of creamer
- melt butter in saucepan (medium heat) add flour and mix them together.
- add chicken stock sauce and mix well
- add 3-4 spoonful of creamer, mix again
- add chopped peppers and fried mushrooms.
-Pour sauce on baked chicken and top with generous amount of mozarella cheese. Bake for 15 mins and you're done!
"I want a divorce!"-AJ
AJ: "Nude.."
Nick "Not nude scuba diving!"
Nick: Now, for our favorite spring videos.
SOMEONE IN THE BACK: "That's spring break videos!"
Brian: Our fall videos!
AJ: April showers bring may flowers!
Nick: Dude, I'll get it right!!
Kelebihan Org Yg Bertarawih Di Bulan Ramadhan
Malam 1 - keluar dosa-dosa orang mukmin pada malam pertama sepertimana ia baru dilahirkan, mendapat keampunan dari Allah.
Malam 2 - diampunkan dosa-dosa orang mukmin yang sembahyang terawih serta kedua ibu bapanya (sekiranya mereka orang beriman).
Malam 3 - berseru Malaikat di bawah ‘Arash supaya kami meneruskan sembahyang terawih terus menerus semoga Allah mengampunkan dosa engkau.
Malam 4 - memperolehi pahala ia sebagaimana pahala orang-orang yang membaca kitab-kitab Taurat, Zabur, Injil dan AL-Quran.
Malam 5 - Allah kurniakan baginya pahala seumpama orang sembahyang di Masjidilharam, Masjid Madinah dan Masjidil Aqsa.
Today
Malam 6 - Allah kurniakan pahala kepadanya pahala Malaikat-malaikat yang tawaf di Baitul Ma’mur (70 ribu Malaikat sekali tawaf), serta setiap batu-batu dan tanah-tanah mendoakan supaya Allah mengampunkan dosa-dosa orang yang mengerjakan sembahyang terawih pada malam ini.
Ama is at the Soundcheck Party @ Oslo right now and she just sent Liza a text (since my phone and hers are enemies)that she managed to ask a question to the guys. She said first, she made a promise (i guess to herself cause she never told me this, lol)to have the guys say hi on the video to us here in SG and they did, lol. She couldnt even remember what they said but it's all on tape. Dayum. She also said Kevin locked eyes with her for seconds that felt like forever, Lol Liza said she cannot go to bed now, lmao.
Nothing much to update except to say WELCOME BACK to my cousin lissy and hubby Hamley from the US!!!
First and foremost, CONGRATULATIONS to Suzi for getting that job, and pulling a Steven Gerrard at that. I can NEVER pull such a thing off. So…Hari Raya tak lah kering sangat eh? Hehe…
Okay I don't know when exactly this happened but it did and the more I think about it, the more I find myself liking the idea...See, i love the whole idea of waiting for THE one and being swept off my feet. When i look through pages of wedding gowns, I see myself after much alteration to fit my size wearing them and walking down that isle, the envy of many. I love that whole idea of falling in love and living happily ever after and I still hope that one day I'll have that.
Awww...Im having a huge huge headache and cant wait for it to be 5.15 (liza needs an extra 15 mins today, lol) before i can leave this damn office...im stuck on my collabo chap that i cant afford to go beyond my deadline (which is nearing) and i have a cramp from my PMS that is already 2 weeks old (stupid body)...and then I was surfing LD and found this old thread that mare had talked about but i never found before. I know it's just my stupid fanfiction, but for someone to create a thread just to find my story feels great. And last i check, FB counter is now up to 3444 readers...wheee!!... I need one of those 'say something nice now so i can feed my ego and feel better' stuff, lol.
I wrote this story yesterday. Yes it’s a fanfic, but 1/3 of it was inspired by all the cats that have ever graced their presence in my life. I had a little of each of them in this one, so I figured I’d put a link here for whoever interested in reading. Window of Dreams
And when it seems as though
Nobody understands young man
Oh don't you let your head hang down
Young woman just stick to your plan
Oprah 2
Oprah 3
Oprah 4
Oprah 5
me
The Unloved vs Song For The Unloved
Right now, you're listening to an unreleased BSB track that was given 2 different treatments. RnB vs Uptempo Pop Rock. Im amazed what a song can do in different genres. Damn.
When this whole world gets too crazy and there's nowhere left to go, i know you give me sanctuary, you're the only truth i know, you're the road back home...
Im closing my eyes but im starting to see that when he's looking at you she's looking at me the only it does is just keep me away from you...sure part of this place would cheer if i die but don't let them take away your beautiful smile..
KINGS OF EUROPE!!
So I woke up at 2.30am today to watch the finals of the Champions League. Liverpool is in the final after 20 years so how can I miss this right? One minute into the game, AC Millan scored a goal. Way to start the match. I keep telling myself, we have 89mins left to win this thing, it’s OKAY. Right on. 45 mins later and when the referee blew the whistle for half time, we were down by 3 goals to nil. Needless to say, our chances are pretty much zero to none. Suzi said she’s going to bed, I told her we’re not turning our backs just cause they’re loosing. Miracles can still happen, lol. But it’s 3 freaking goals Yana! I told her we’re sleeping in the living room with the tv on.
Whhheeeee!!!!
Arsenal won the FA Cup, beating Man U by penalty shoot out. I didn't watch the match but Suzi said Man U actually played better, but oh well, tough luck. I prefer not rooting for any of those teams but between Arsenal and Man U, I'd say Arsenal is the lesser of 2 evils, lmao. I also realise I could be crying come Thursday should the Champions League result turns out not to our favor.
This is for the strangers sleeping in my heart, take what they want and leave when it's still dark, no one is glamorously lonely all by themselves...
I had a very weird dream last night, and one that I failed to recollect until about a minute ago, which directly influenced this entry. It just hit me out of nowhere and wham! everything clicked and the fog that you didnt even know was there before, cleared.
There'll be nothing left to lose
And I would take the fall
Cause knowing you are out there breathing
It's so wonderful
It's a chance I'll take even if I break and I lose it all
If I lose it all
It wouldn't matter anyway
Take a picture of what you think of love looks like in your imagination...
Jeng...jeng...jeng...Friday 13th seh! So far nothing scary happened, I'm just dead sleepy. Hey know the saying that goes something like 'if he's THE one, you'll just know, it doesn't matter how odd the circumstances are, if he's IT, everything will look perfect in your eyes'...well, just wanna say, it hasn't happened to me yet. Lmao, you were expecting something juicier, weren't you?
"If you wanna talk, you can call
I know it's not your fault"
I just smiled and said let go of me
Now there's something I just gotta know
Did someone else steal my part?
She said it's not my fault
It was waiting for the ride to come through
Cause it's so so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too..
Pride of Merseyside
Incomplete Music Video *Right Click Save Target As*
I woke up feeling all queasy inside.
The fact that I’m heading off to KL today hasn’t really quite sink in yet, so I guess it’s those nerves that I’m refusing to acknowledge are now forming an army and going against me. I saw a few press conference pictures of BSB and other celebs at wireimage earlier on, and LD is buzz with little news on them. Damn, if I had known, I would have taken off today and be there early this morning.
2 Days Left
till the Force of Nature Concert takes place and ultimately, end my 9 year wait to witness BSB LIVE on stage. Ridicule me all you want, if being a fan labels me as teeny, so be it. There is no expiry date, I'm a Backstreet fan for life and damn proud of it.
This one's for the mothers, who've ever lost a child,
This one's for the gypsies, who left their hearts behind,
this is for the strangers sleepin' in my heart,
they take what they want, and leave when it's still dark,
No one is glamorously lonely, all by themselves
Fulfilling A 9 Year Old Dream
Before I start, I'd like to wave to both Suzee & Lily for a job well done last Sunday. YAY to Juzpink! even tho most ppl think we got the crappiest business name, lol. It holds sentimental value though, at least for me it does.
WARNING...VENTING IN PROGRESS...
It takes a lot to know what is love
It's not the big things, but the little things
That can mean enough
A lot of prayers to get me through
And there is never a day that passes by
I don't think of you
How They Look On Stage (Pre Grammy Party'05 honoring Brian Wilson)
How They REALLY Look During Practice :p
I try to go on like I never knew you im awake but my world is half asleep i pray for this heart to be unbroken but without you all im going to be is incomplete...
