NIGHTCRAWLER | blue "fazzy" elf

*sigh*
Nataku Maxwell: *pounce*
Usilion: I have to leave in five minutes.
Nataku Maxwell: ;_;
Usilion: But oh my fucking god, I wanna die.
Nataku Maxwell: Nooooooooooooooo you have to staaaaaayy with meeeeeee
Nataku Maxwell: *blink* Why?
Usilion: I don't want to go to school but I don't want to deal with Mom.
Usilion: Justin!
Usilion: Justin gave me shit!
Nataku Maxwell: *blink blink*
Usilion: Basically, Jake forgot his gym bag.
Usilion: Called Dad at work.
Usilion: Justin was talking when Dad was talking and I told Justin that I couldn't hear Dad.
Usilion: So he gets all pissy and I ask Dad to repeat himself because Justin was yelling.
Usilion: Then Justin called me something. I didn't hear it all, all I heard was "bi". So I screamed "Fuck you" and he screamed back "Fuck me? Blah blah blah go eat s'more cootch you bi blah blah blah".
Nataku Maxwell: *sigh*
Usilion: He walked off and I was trying my damnedest not to cry. Dad asked me if I was okay and that did it. I told him that no I wasn't okay and that he can't tell me not to be hard on myself when I have to deal with shit like that. I told him that he doesn't know half of what's running through my head and that I'm not a carefree teen and that kids nowadays have a lot more shit to deal with.
Usilion: But he was sorta busy so he didn't get to talk to me. I got ready for school and let myself cry a little.
Usilion: But why?
Usilion: Why can't one day be semi-okay?
Usilion: That's all I ask.
Nataku Maxwell: Because life is shitty that way. *huggles* I wish I could make things better for you.
Usilion: *huggle* I feel a little better now that I've told someone.
Usilion: But I gotta go and I think mom's home. I wanna get out of the house as soon as possible.
Nataku Maxwell: Ok. *huggle kiss* I love you.
Usilion: *huggle kiss* love you too
Nataku Maxwell: bye

usi BAMFED @ 03:29 p.m. --->

The latest drama in my life.

Usilion: I knew I shouldn't have said one goddamn fucking thing. I knew I shouldn't have listened to you.
Nataku Maxwell: *blink*
Usilion: I asked my mother if she had a problem and she fucking blew up.
Nataku Maxwell: What did she say?
Usilion: brb
Nataku Maxwell: k
Usilion: I'm not ever going to talk to her again
Nataku Maxwell: *sigh* What happened?
Usilion: all I did was say "Are you bothered by what I said yesterday. You seemed...bothered." and she blew up saying that every fucking thing she says or does is twisted around by me. That I assume shit and I need to get it in my stupid, fat head that I don't know shit. That she didn't give me any response yesterday, and won't. That this is "my problem" and that "I need to sort my feelings out". And she's pissed because I twist things around.
Nataku Maxwell: ...Your mom is just...so...mentally handicapped that it isn't even funny anymore. You seriously need to consider taking her to an institution. >.< Usilion: I told her that I couldn't help the way I take things. And she said yes I could, concerning her.
Nataku Maxwell: I'm sorry I told you to talk to your mom. I forget for awhile just what a fucking retard she is.
Usilion: It's alright. I thought if I tried talking to her rationally it would be okay.
Nataku Maxwell: You can't talk to someone like her rationally. It's like trying to talk to a spoiled child.
Usilion: Now you see why I didn't want to ask her about her feelings?
Nataku Maxwell: Can we not dwell on the fact that I fucked up again please?
Usilion: I didn't mean that. You didn't seem to understand why I wasn't being "the better person" and asking. I just wanna know if you know why I never want to tell my mom anything.
Nataku Maxwell: I already apologised and told you I understood. You don't need to ask again.
Usilion: Okay. Just wanted to make sure things are cleared up. I don't want to misunderstand or take something the wrong way.
Nataku Maxwell: I'm not your mother.
Usilion: I know. I know. I just...don't want this to happen to us.
Nataku Maxwell: Please don't even assume that I'm at the same mentality level as your mother.
Usilion: I'm not!!
Nataku Maxwell: I don't expect of you the things that she does.You don't have to tip-toe around me.
Usilion: I just realized what a fucking hypocritical retarded bitch I am.
Nataku Maxwell: ...THAT is why I shouldn't have let you talk to your mother. I do understand. I understand that you always take everything that fucking retarded bitch says to heart, but I can't understand why.
Usilion: Because she's my mother.
Nataku Maxwell: How many times does she have to prove her inanity before you'll stop believing her when se says the same things over and over? It seems like it doesn't matter what the situation is, somehow she always seems to work in you twisting things around. Which, by the way, is something you accuse people of quite often as well, so perhaps you see where she's coming from. I don't know. That's the only explanation I can come up with.
Usilion: ...and that's why I said I realized why I'm a hypocritical bitch. Because I accuse people of the same shit I do.
Nataku Maxwell: But you don't do it.
Usilion: Yes I do!! I've accused you of doing things you haven't because I "thought" you were.
Nataku Maxwell: If you did the things your mother accused you of then I'd never even speak to you because I wouldn't be able to stand such a person. But you don't. There's a big difference between misinterpretation and "twisting things around." Misinterpretation is an honest mistake, but twisting things around is purposely taking someone's own words and trying to use them against that person. Usilion: How do I stop misinterpretating my mother?? How do I stop interpretating body language the way I do? How can I please her?
Nataku Maxwell: You can't. Because she's a fucking nutcase.
Usilion: *slump* ...
Nataku Maxwell: There's nothing you can do to change how closed-minded and selfishly stupid your mother is. But you also can't blame yourself in the least for her being that way.
Usilion: ...I want to be a good daughter. I want to make my mother proud.
Nataku Maxwell: I know. But you'd have to be a mind reader, and just as fucked up as her to be able to accomplish that.
Usilion: *nods* ...
Nataku Maxwell: Please don't let her get to you. You are a good daughter, she just can't see that.
Usilion: And what's even worse, she said that she would be watching what I do more. Wtf. I don't do ANYTHING. When I went to the movies...that was like the first thing I've done with a group of friends since SCHOOL LET OUT.
Nataku Maxwell: *sigh*
Usilion: Murr. And then she bitches about me being on the comp! WTF. You tell me I can't do shit and now you're bitching at me for doing something.
Nataku Maxwell: Just don't worry about her. *huggle*
Usilion: *huggle*

usi BAMFED @ 06:51 a.m. --->

I don't know whether to laugh...cry...or get pissed.

I told my parents I'm bi today. Dad's reaction was good...surprising, actually. He said it didn't surprise or shock him. In fact, he actually suspected it. So, that left me relieved.

But my mother...ugh. That...that bitch! I told her and she shook her head, sighing with a big huff before saying: "Did you tell your father?". After I said "yes" she just went silent and continued to shake her head. After a while she grabbed the bridge of her nose like "ugh, I expected this out of you...I'm so digusted/disappointed/etc". She didn't say a damn thing. Then she went on and started doing other stuff. She was ignoring me! That...that hurts...and it pisses me off.

*sigh*

usi BAMFED @ 05:12 p.m. --->

Mwaha. I don't care if you can read this or not, but it's just plain shibby.

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usi BAMFED @ 11:36 p.m. --->

Pretty random...but...I've been thinking about it for a long time. I'm kinda tired of "hiding" it, but I've decided to become open...slowly. I'm really getting tired of keeping my parents in the dark. I would feel a lot more comfortable if they knew...but I keep hesitating because I'm afraid of their reactions.

For all of you that don't know (or are that dense), I'm bi(sexual). Now I'm openly...saying it. Yeah. o.O There you have it.

No, I'm not saying that to be "trendy" or whatever. I have a girlfriend (we're trying it out again for a month, and if things don't work out...*sigh*...then I guess I'm free again.) and I've had boyfriends. So yeah.

I got some new clothes, and school's tomorrow...so I'll post about all that later.

usi BAMFED @ 12:14 a.m. --->

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

SHOU-SAN EMAILED MEEEEEEEEEE!

Hi,Joice!!
I am sorry for late. It is too difficult for me to understand English.

Oh gawd, teh cuteness! XD

usi BAMFED @ 06:48 p.m. --->

Nataku Maxwell: ugh?
Usilion: I just woke up. Damn I was tired.
Nataku Maxwell: XD
Usilion: But some shit came up after I got offline so I couldn't go to sleep until 12. But still, 12 to 4 pm is a LONG time to sleep. @_@
Nataku Maxwell: yes @_@
Usilion: 16 hours @_@
Usilion: *kicks Justin*
Nataku Maxwell: O.o What'd he do?
Usilion: Welllllll
Usilion: after I got offline the parents wanted coffee
Usilion: So I was gonna go to bed after I made them coffee
Usilion: but as I was making coffee the phone rang
Usilion: it was Vida, a girl who lives up the street that I've talked to a couple of times
Usilion: she asked me to come down and talk to her, that she had something important to tell me
Nataku Maxwell: ok @_@
Usilion: And so I drag my ass over there
Usilion: and she tells me that one day when Justin was high with his friend Seth, that he had Jake out in the playground behind our house doing nasty shit for cigarettes
Usilion: like rolling on the ground on his belly
Usilion: or kissing Justin's ass/touch his dick
Nataku Maxwell: o.o
Usilion: plus
Usilion: he's been popping pills
Usilion: smoking weed
Usilion: stealing cigarettes
Usilion: having people steal clothing for him
Usilion: playing this hold-your-breath-until-you-pass-out game (in which his friend Seth did pass out and knock his head on the ground. He has HUGE welts on the side of his head now)
Nataku Maxwell: *sigh* You know, I could have told you he was going to end up that kind of person >.<
Nataku Maxwell: You probably could have
Usilion: he's been having sex for GOD knows how long and my parents have been BUYING HIM CONDOMS
Nataku Maxwell: >.<
Usilion: so yeah
Usilion: oh! he likes getting drunk off his ass
Usilion: I've seen him high
Usilion: half of the neighborhood knows what the hell he's been doing
Usilion: so I was finally "I've had it"
Usilion: (the dumbass was stupid enough to tell me some of the shit he's done)
Usilion: and I told my parents
Usilion: so I didn't get to bed until midnight
Nataku Maxwell: ~_~ What did they do?
Usilion: They talked to them and grounded them.
Usilion: Justin and Jake.
Nataku Maxwell: Yeah. That's gonna do anything. ~_~
Usilion: And I didn't tell my parents earlier because Justin is old enough to realize that he's only gonna fuck himself over by doing all this shit
Usilion: so if Justin wanted to ruin his life, go for it
Usilion: but enough is enough
Usilion: my dad could get into some serious shit
Usilion: since he's a Chief
Usilion: so I ratted him out.

usi BAMFED @ 04:31 p.m. --->

Waaaaaaaah! I have to go shopping on Saturday or Sunday...for new clothes. Oh, the horror. I HATE shopping, I hate trying on clothes that would fit but they cling to my belly and my mother'll go "it's not big enough" and insist on getting the shirt big enough so that I swim in it. I'll have to squeeze into jeans and discover that the legs are fine, it's the waist that's too tight. Or the jeans are tight everywhere. I can't wear tank tops and be comfortable because I have the jello-arm syndrome and those little pockets of fat at the corners of my arms above my breasts. I'm trying to lose weight, I really am. But it's hard. It's really hard. I know we won't find anything, I know it. I'll hear my mother say "Joice, you've got to lose weight" over and over again and the only thing I can do is nod and be ashamed. I hate going into stores and seeing all the thin girls grabbing whatever they want because they've got the "perfect" body and they fit into "society's" view of "beauty". I hate feeling like they're staring at me and secretly sniggering to themselves: "Look at the fat bitch trying to get new clothes. She should go elsewhere, they don't make clothes for whales here." They make clothes small enough, but never big enough. Did I mention we're going to Old Navy's? I hate shopping so much. I hate it I hate it I hate it.

So far I've burned over 1,300 calories (a little over a third of a pound) with Dance Dance Revolution. If I burn 300 calories a day until Saturday...I'll have burned two-thirds of a pound. Instead of doing 90 crunches a day I'm going to do 180. Instead of doing 10 (girly) pushups I'm going to do 30. I will start walking again. I WILL watch what I eat. I WILL lose 5 pounds by the second week of August, and if I'm not 10 pounds lighter at the end of August/first week of September...I'm going to hurt myself.

Well, off to do my pushups.

usi BAMFED @ 06:05 a.m. --->

Sometimes I wish I could rip off people's heads, and when I'm finished, I could attach them back to their necks so maybe they'd get a clue.

usi BAMFED @ 01:41 a.m. --->

Kurenai has a new layout. W00T!

usi BAMFED @ 10:25 p.m. --->

Okay. I want a domain. I want one BADLY. Since Mom has started working, I can earn money now. I'm sure if I talked it over with her she can give me an advancement to pay for it, and I'll just work it off...but here's the big problem. The name. I've got a list that I've gathered, but I can't narrow it down. Suggestions?

The ones I really really really like:

<3 means this is one that I LOVVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. :D

usilion.com/usilion.nu <3
raven-wing.com/raven-wing.nu
blue-oblivion.com/blue-oblivion.nu <3
undesirable.nu
tainted-santucary.com/tainted-sanctuary.nu <3
ice-cold.nu
blistered.nu
moonfall.nu
desperate.nu <3
crucified.nu

The ones I like and don't mind having:

night-crawler.com/night-crawler.nu
soul-seek.nu
forget-me.nu
chaotic-dreaming.com/chaotic-dreaming.nu
bloodied-wings.com/bloodied-wings.nu
taint-me.com/taint-me.nu
sinner.nu
denined-love.com/denined-love.nu
drained.nu
revenell.com/revenell.nu
oblivio.nu <--no, that's not a misspelling. That's Latin. And duh, it means oblivion. :p

You can add to the list if you like. Thanks. :D

usi BAMFED @ 12:48 a.m. --->

Huzzah! New layout, and new entry! Yeah, I haven't posted in a while. Nothing interesting has happened except that I started watching X-Men Evolution and have become completely OBSESSED with Nightcrawler. :D Even if you don't like X-Men, you need to at least HEAR his voice. It's Quatre's dub voice (from Gundam Wing) with a German accent! IT'S SOOOOOO CUTE! XD~~~ So that's where the "neener neener neener" and "At least I don't smell like unwashed Lederhosen" comes from. :D.

I find that I like small, narrow blog layouts. Then again, that matches my thing for small font. I think I could've gone smaller with this layout, but I didn't want to crop the image anymore, and I figure anyone with a 1024x768 resolution or higher would have hard enough time reading this (HAH on you for using that stupid resolution anyways), so I decided not to.

I was told that in X-2 (I wanna see that soooo bad) Nightcrawler says a lot of prayers in German, so I originally looked for a prayer in German to put up, but I couldn't find one I liked. I figured Latin was the next best thing. :p Ah, Latin. I wish I hadn't forgotten so much like I have. ;_; AND NO LATIN DISSING! Latin 0wns j00. XD

Annnnnnnd no email yet. ;_; *le sigh* I guess I'll go change the comment box. Later.

usi BAMFED @ 05:55 p.m. --->

"Neener neener neeeeener!" XDDDDDD

usi BAMFED @ 03:51 a.m. --->

I got my digital camera to work!! (Sorta.) So here's some pics:

my haircut
Shou-san and the boyz!

And I still have no email. ;_; Yes, I'm pathetic. ¬_¬

usi BAMFED @ 10:18 p.m. --->

Listening to: Cali Gari, "Erotopia"

Jeebus I love this song. I love the tuba (or whatever) in the background, and the guy's slightly whiny voice is too cute. It's just...great. XD

I don't have Soulseek anymore (because Justin refused to use it and downloaded Morpheus (I HATE that program) and it's stupid to have two file-downloading programs...) so I'm unable to download more Cali Gari. *sigh* Doesn't matter. Justin and Jake are filling the drive with their shit, so there won't be any room for my mp3s anyways. Moving on.

I went to the social down in Honolulu today. It was a lot of fun. There were SO many guys I couldn't look at them all. XD The uniforms were pretty standard, but cute. I didn't pay any attention to the girls, since I wanted to talk to the guys. So I looked around for hotties. There was one group that my partner approached (the Hawaii students were split into pairs...there would be a group of Osaka students with two Hawaii students in each group) that had the HOTTEST guy. Omg. I should've taken a picture, but I was too busy drooling to do so. His name was Kiyomu (or something similiar) and he was tallll. I was in Heaven. After we socialized for a little while (my partner acted stupid while I introduced myself in Japanese...they clapped for me, I must've impressed them. XD) we had to go into a hall to continue our socializing. That's when we broke off into our groups. I was in group three, and I was disappointed in the beginning since Mister Sexy Kiyo wasn't in my group. There was a Japanese lady who talked for the LONGEST time, I thought she would never shut up, and then we got to socialize. It took a little while for us to warm up to each other, and I didn't know my partner very well (who kept calling me a nerd because I knew more Japanese than him ~_~) so all I did for a while was sit and listen to them talk and be lost. Finally I got some balls and started asking questions, and got some of the boys to speak in English (some spoke with such heavy accents it wasn't cute, but some had the CUTEST accents). At times I could answer in Japanese, though it was very simple ("arigatou", "dou itashimashite", etc). I had my phrase books, but it was designed for traveling and not really socializing. So I didn't know what to say. But I just started asking random questions (got bugged by my partner Orion) to the guy who was sitting next to me. He wasn't cute, but he was so shy it made him cute! It took a few gentle questions to get him to give me one word answers. I got bored with that, so I started asking about video games and stuff. They didn't seem to understand, so I whipped out my Vincent figure (I brought some stuff with me, and I wanted to bring more, but I didn't want to seem obsessed XD) and four or five of the twelve boys went "Binset!" (it was so cute~~). I told them that I had a Sephiroth poster on my wall and they reacted positively to that. :D Then I showed them my Inu-Yasha plushie (a bunch of them laughed at me, and Orion kept calling me a nerd) and then my CDs. I named off which groups I had. This was one reaction:

Shou (I'll talk about him later :D): Ah! We know Dir en Grey! *gestures to the others around him*.
Me: I like Die...
Shou: *grin* Kyo is...Kyo is very handsome. <--*insert cute accent*
Me: *laugh* I have a friend who likes him.

There was a reaction when I said "Gackt" but it was just the boys repeating what I said and nodding, acknowledging him. ^^()

Then the Hawaii students had to go on stage and introduce ourselves. ~_~ I hated that part. I felt bad for a couple of girls because they were really short, and had the microphone adjusted, and without thinking I went "Aww, she's chibi!" and the boys laughed with me. :D

After that the Japanese lady talked for a long time, and some local group played (It was boringgggg), and a couple of girls did a hula. Then we got to play a name game! :D It was in English. The first person who went had to say their first name and a food that started with the first letter of their name. I was Jam Joice. ~_~ After one person went, the next person had to say the names of those who went before them, and then introduce themselves. There was Orange Orion, Sandwich Shinya, Soup Shouta, Ham Higashi(I think @_@), Sweets Shou, Carrot Kenji (I decided not to hold it against him, he didn't know ~_~), one I didn't catch, Raspberry Ryou (though Orion had first suggested rabbit, but Ryou didn't like that, and people kept calling him Rabbit Ryou and embarrasing him, it was really cute!), Kim Chee Keisuke, Tomato Toki (I think) and I didn't catch the last guy's name. It was fun. I liked how they said my name. *^_^* (I'm such a dork. XD)

There was one guy who talked a lot and wanted to talk to us (but Orion was being an ass) so I decided to talk to him. His name is...Shou! :D This guy is incredibly cute. For some reason his facial features remind me of Clay Aiken...somewhat. o.O We asked each other questions, and I found out he really wants to learn English. He tried very hard to understand and answer me, and he stumbled over his words. When he did that he'd get embarrassed and bury his face into his friend's shoulder. It was so cute. He laughed and smiled a lot.

He pulled out a yearbook from his kindergarten year (oh lord he was a cute kid) and asked us if we would read the hiragana on the page. Orion couldn't, and I just said it like it was nothing. Shou was really impressed. He kept telling me my Japanese was good. *^_^* Well, what I knew, I mean. ^^() He flipped through the pages and explained them the best he could, and I helped by offering English words that seemed to describe the picture. After a few pages, he wouldn't let me turn anymore. He was embarrassed. I wonder what he was hiding. But he said it was "Japanese culture" and he "wanted to share". I passed out the candy I brought then. Shou looked so cute with a Tootsie roll lollipop in his mouth. :D

Then I tried to tell him that I had wanted to make potato candy (it doesn't taste like a potato, but it is made with a potato, powdered sugar, and peanut butter. It's really good!) since it was something from my family and I wanted to share my culture. But he said: "I'm sorry...I want to understand your words, but I can't understand." So I asked Nomura-sensei to tell him about it (she gave me a funny look when I said potato candy ^^()). Nomura-sensei said that he asked me to bring some next time, that he would like to try it. *^_^* He said he wanted the recipe, and wanted my address! He gave me his email address, and I gave him mine and my home address. ^______________^

We got to socialize a little more, but then the girl students from Osaka went on stage and did a horrible attempt at dancing a hula. @_@ They had noooo grace. A few of them were cute though. And they were all tiny! @_@

Not long afterwards, they had to leave. I took a couple of pictures (I got one of Shou posing with the sucker in his mouth, it's so stupidly cute) and gave Shou a hug. ^____________^ Then I decided to walk out to the buses with them, and he said that we were "best friends", which made me very happy. I told him I would get mad at him if he didn't write, and gave him another hug before he left.

I had a great time, but I wish it had lasted longer. It took so long to warm up to the group, and that lady wouldn't shut up, so we really didn't get any time to talk. I talked briefly with a English professor from Osaka, and he said they would come back in September!! I really hope Shou'll come back, I'd love to talk with him more. :D

After I got home I emailed Shou. Just rattled like a stupid ninny. He's probably on a plane right now, or getting pretty close to landing. I WOULD upload the pictures I took, but my camera's still being bitchy. I'm gonna beg my dad to fix it tomorrow, he doesn't have to work.

And that's all. Night~~!

usi BAMFED @ 12:57 a.m. --->

Omg omg omg omg omg Ace Girl's coming to HAWAII ON THURSDAY. OMG.

usi BAMFED @ 02:35 a.m. --->

Listening to: Witch Hunter Robin - Silence

Well. I haven't updated in a few days, so I decided to post. Since I have stuff to post about. ^^()

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANG-SAAAAAAAAAAAN! :D Okay, so it was really yesterday, but you know what I mean. XP~~

On the 4th the family and I went out to have my birthday meal (my dad had been working on the 30th, so we couldn't go then). I didn't want dad to drive all the way to Waikiki, so I chose to go to Outback. It was a lot closer.

Of course I knew something was going to happen. This is what happened, right in order:

1) Our bloomin' onion was cold. Had to get another.
2) Mom, being picky, declares our table unfit to eat off of, and asks for a rag to clean it up.
3) After the table's cleaned, we get new silverware because the napkins are dirty and the silverware has food bits on it.
4) The customary loaf of pumpernickel(sp??) you get was burned. It was so bad we couldn't even slice it. So we get two fresh loaves.
5) A bird shit in mom's water. The aim was perfect, it plopped right in and settled at the bottom of the glass without hitting anything else. Luckily mom saw it happen, so she didn't suck the bird turd up in her straw. XD (We were sitting outside, and she wasn't under the tent.)

So yeah, we had it pretty rough. But here's the good things about it:

1) The manager picked up the bill. We got a free meal!
2) He also gave us two desserts for free. Mmm...Chocolate Thunder Down Under. XD

So yes, laugh it up. I know I did. XD

Afterwards, we went to Wal-Mart. I got batteries, a new pair of shoes (they are so kickass), some body spray, a footstone (to take care of my feet) and hair-color!! I am now a red-head. Sorta. It's more of a cranberry auburn-ish color. I think. ^^() It's the crap that washes out in 24 shampoos though. Hopefully it'll linger after the 24 shampoos. I really love this color. At the end of the month I'll buy another box (it was only 8 bucks, so it's not too bad) and reapply it. I'll have pictures up as soon as dad gets the digital camera working again! You guys still haven't seen my new hair cut either. I wonder how surprised you will be. :D

When we got home it was like...9 ish, so we grabbed our fireworks and went outside. It's illegal to set them off in Navy housing, or to even possess them, but my dad said the Navy can kick his ass (gee). It's a good thing Helu Place is a dead end, so we didn't have to worry about cars or anything. We didn't have much, but I got to play with fire, so it was all good. :D Morning Glories kick ass. (They're giant sparklers, but they do more than spark) So I twirled around in the dark like a dumbass, but I had fun. Groundflowers (is that what they're called?) are fun too. I'd light several at once and watch them spin. XD The same with the Morning Glories. Why play with only one? Why not two, or three? XP I have a shitload left over, so I guess I'll save them for next year or something.

I set up DDR upstairs once we went back inside, and I got to play for maybe ten minutes before dad told me to put it up. The walls are so thin that if you jump or set something down roughly it sounds like someone's coming through the ceiling. And I wasn't jumping that much!

I waited until everyone went to bed and hooked it up downstairs. I burned at least 200 calories last night (I'm thinking it's like 250...the most being 300). I burned 330 today. There are 3500 calories to a pound. If I burn 300 calories each time I play, I will have to play DDR 11 times to lose a pound. Phew. @_@ I dunno how I'm gonna keep DDR up...my dogs are barking like you wouldn't believe. I also did 10 pushups, 10 lunges, and 50 crunches yesterday. Oh lord is my lower stomach (by my bellybutton) sore. I didn't feel it until I woke up this afternoon. But I'm gonna keep doing them until I work the soreness off. My tummy is a big problem area, and so is my inner thighs. I still want to take pictures of my nice, firm lower legs though. I'm so white I'd blind someone though. :D YES, I LIVE IN HAWAII AND I'M STILL SNOW WHITE. XP It's called Hermit's Syndrome. I never get out of the house. :x

Later today I'm gonna have to make a phone call and try to see if I can get a ride with another student. I called this Jessica chick to see if she'd give me a ride to Honolulu on the 10th (to hang out with students from Osaka...they're mostly male!! XD). That was a couple of days ago. So I'm gonna call and see if I can get ahold of this Leanne chick. If not, Dad's gonna have to take me. Maybe I can call Nomura-sensei and beg for a ride home. My 'rents said they'd pay for gas if someone gave me a ride. So I'm sure I'll figure out something. I've never been to the Japanese Cultural Center before, so I'm definitely going to bring the digital camera (I wanna empty it, but I can't if the software won't work! >.<) to take pictures. We're going to learn how to hula (*laughs at the image of herself doing a hula*) and just hang out. Sensei said the students are gonna introduce themselves in English, while we introduce ourselves in Japanese. This is what I get to say:

Hajimemashite. Watashi no namae wa Joice Wells desu. Juunana sai desu. Reireihua koukou no yonin sei desu. J-rock ga suki desu. Douzo yoroshiku. Onegaishimasu.

Pleased to meet you. My name is Joice Wells. I'm 17 and I'm a senior at Leileihua High School. I love J-rock! Please be kind to me, and if you need anything, think of me.

That's the basic jist of it. Sensei asked me to say my name slowly since my name isn't the crappy cookie-cutter American name (Y'know, John, Jessica, that sort of thing) and it'll help the students with the pronounciation. She said my pronounciation was really good!! :D That made me so happy!! (It should make anyone happy to say a paragraph in Japanese and be complimented on your pronounciation when you haven't had any formal training. XD)

Sensei said that Japanese people love Sour Skittles. o.O Don't you find that a little funny? Maybe the Japanese are fond of sour stuff. XD She said we could bring snacks for them to try out, but I wanna make them something. Something that isn't your stereotypical American junk food. :p I was originally thinking potato candy (I have no idea why ~_~) but it would melt. So I'm thinking I'll make a couple of loaves of banana nut bread. Yes, by myself. I think that would nicer than just buying Sour Skittles. :D Also, I'm gonna bring my cds and cd player. I wanna impress someone with my J-Rock cds!! Also, I hope I get to socialize with some cuties. XD Yes, I'm horrible. I hope some of them are tall though. Of course if they're shorter than me I'll be all like "YOU'RE CHIBI! KAWAIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!". There are gonna be 180 students there, and SIXTEEN are girls. Woo, I am happy. XD JAPANESE MALE INTERACTION.

Okay, this is long enough. Byeeee~~

usi BAMFED @ 02:11 a.m. --->