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[Oreides] - Sunday, March 31, 2002 - 03:57 p.m.
0.o You mean on my blog? Gahh! You noticed! Shame on you >.< I dunno. I tried fixing it, but stuff just gets so mixed up. I'm gonna change the layout soon anyways. I'm thinking something kinna dark, like a Blade of the Immortal pic for Black Rainbow? Ahh well. I would just use it as the background, but I dunno how the heck to do "absolute" positioning. Gahh! I'm confusing myself @_@

[Karen] - Sunday, March 31, 2002 - 10:50 a.m.
By the way, what is wrong with your tables and images, Ashley? Gasp! =O

[Karen] - Sunday, March 31, 2002 - 10:47 a.m.
DANG! I've been updating on the webdesigning world (well, the one I like personally, haha) and dude. Most of them don't use tables anymore or anything! The people I ran across did the 'div' something or other and used like, all the 3D shapes and stuff. Sigh. I'm so behind. I also ran across this girl's site who is my age, and she seems extremely cool, so maybe when I get my personal site up, I'll get a chance to meet her or something. All these beautiful sites are making me sweat. The imagination some of these people have is just amazing. I want to get a digital camera so I can take my own pictures and stuff for my layouts. I can't wait.

Ahhhh Ashley, don't expect no "spectacular" layouts from me. I think I'm gonna keep the layouts I do for this blog extremely easy and simple, and then use whatever crazy ideas I have for my personal site so that I won't ruin this one. Don't try to change my mind either, all the unique and crazy ideas are all going to be at my site because I seriously don't want to damage your ever so rock solid and calm nature here. Well, I'm gonna go and drool over some of the gorgeous layouts these people have. DANG!

[Oreides] - Saturday, March 30, 2002 - 02:21 p.m.
Aww! Poor Karen =( That's okay about the layout. I dun mind n_n hehe. I hope you feel better! But, I know how you feel. I was sick the ENTIRE Christmas break. The day school started again, was the day I got instantly better >_> But seriously, the layout doesn't have to be breathtakingly amazing. So dun fuss over that ^_^ Get well soon.

[Karen] - Saturday, March 30, 2002 - 10:14 a.m.
I've been feeling kinda out of it lately because I got that damned flu bug thing that's flying around. I'm feeling better, but I've still got this crappy cough, and ugh. Even looking at the computer screen gives me a headache, so don't expect too many updates from me this week or so. Sorry about the layout, this one will probably run into April because I honestly don't think I can stare at the computer screen for 6 hours trying to work out the kinks of the layout. See ya'll later. Three words that make me happy: SPRING BREAK, BABY!

[AshyAshy] - Thursday, March 28, 2002 - 03:28 p.m.

Which Angelina Are You?

O_o

[Karen] - Wednesday, March 27, 2002 - 07:07 p.m.
Well, I know I haven't been posting lately, and this was basically my idea, too. Sorry. I need to talk to you sometime Ashley, ok? I don't feel like posting it for the world to see, so I'll just tell you whenever I see you next. I'll try to work on the next layout over spring break. Hopefully I won't be too busy. =/ Uh, I'll take those quizzes that you did below now (or later). I've taken them before, but hey. They're fun and I need an update. I've got homework to do. I'm out.

[Oreides] - Tuesday, March 26, 2002 - 11:00 a.m.
Takin those fun tests. My results...

Took the personality test. Here's my results:

Like just 12% of the population you are a GURU (SEAF)--kind, knowing, giving. Like Buddha of old, you can be a persuasive speaker, and you use your creative talents to further the objectives of your heart instead of your mind. But be careful that your friends don't take advantage of your relaxed nature, that's what happened to Jesus.

Above all, you like going with the flow. And there is probably nothing in the world you haven't smoked. That's cool. Oh yeah, you like to talk a lot. That's cool, too. Whatever.

Uhm, 'kay.

Since these things amuse me so, I took the un-telligence test too. Here's my results:

38% Un-telligent!
(which is significantly lower than the current average of 60%)

fuck you, theSpark.com ~.~

Here is the custom report of your personality that led our team of geeks to conclude (with confidence) that you are a sad and hopeless excuse for a woman:

"The subject shows a below average amount of intelligence, and her sense of observation is weaker than normal; in a lot of ways, her brain capacity is similar to that of an armadillo - she couldn't find her own ass in an empty room! Not that it isn't big enough.

my ass aint that big

"But what concerns us most about her is her sinister and violent attitude. While we almost find it amusing that the subject would rather kill something than suffer a minor inconvenience, it effectively destroys her ability to survive tight situations. Our study suggests there is a 49% chance that she will end up in prison!

yay! n_n

"Finally, the subject displayed a healthy (better than most net freaks anyway) sense of humor, a down and dirty sense of morality, and a hot shot self-confidence. The balance of these three traits is important; high levels of confidence, medium levels of morality, and a good level of humor make for the strongest individuals."

Finally something NICE said about me. Sinister and violent? Yeah, that's pretty true.

[Confused Oreides] - Monday, March 25, 2002 - 08:21 p.m.
I really dislike some people. No, I'm tired of being nice in blog. I hate a lot of people. I hate it when people stick up for bastards. "Oh, he's so much cooler when you get to know him!" BS.

I hate liars. But I am a liar. I lie to people I care about, I lie to keep everyone thinking I have a flawless life. Oh, that? I scratched my wrist on a table. I think we need to get it sanded down, those damned splinters.

I hate how I'm different around people I really care about... romanticly, anyways. I'm stupid around them. And to the people I love, but don't the guts to say it.. it makes me hate you all the more. I know I'm ridiculous. I know I'm a mess. I know my layouts suck ass. I know I'm annoying. I know I whine. But who doesn't these days?

I hate being toyed with.. even if I seem to like it. I don't. I don't like not knowing whether or not someone's being serious. Do you know how hard it was to go out on a line, open up to someone you didn't entirely trust...? Shit. I hate that I laugh to much. I hate how untrustworthy I can be. I hate that people think too much of me. I hate how people look up to me. What is there to look up to? I'm not unique, special, or talented. The only people in this world that are unique, are the ones with no talents. Anything I do isn't the best. And until it is, it SUCKS.

Bad day. Bad friend. Shitty week. Go away.

[Karen] - Sunday, March 24, 2002 - 05:57 p.m.
Ashley, you suck! Leave me alone! I wanna watch the Academy Awards! rofl.

[Oreides] - Sunday, March 24, 2002 - 12:38 p.m.
I want to run through the halls of my high school
I want to scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above
-John Mayer, "No Such Thing"

I love that song. Welp, my parents left this morning and won't be back until tomorrow night. WHEE HAH! Par-tay!

I got two volumes of Blade of the Immortal, which now makes my BotI collection three. I was ABOUT to get a huge Evagelion nifty artbook, but I'm just so hooked on Hiroaki Samura's work. I'm a sucker for violent and gorey samurai manga. Go me.

[Oreides] - Saturday, March 23, 2002 - 08:19 p.m.
Hurray for violence and gore! Yay for rebellion! And other bad influences. I'm in a really weird mood. I'm not happy, yet I'm hyper.. not mad, but rebellious.. and Akie's horniness isn't helping. Why is he so cute? With his lil' words. Ahh, well. He's got some girl on his arm anyways. Screw cute boys! Blahh!

Hmm. Well, there is one really kawaii guy I know. He's got that really pissy attitude, and it's SOSO cute. Of course, he would never admit to it. I dunno. I think he really doesn't like me at all, but oh well. Things never work out online for me, anyways.

Yeah! You heard me! BLAH! SCREW ONLINE STUFF! Screw first love, like Chip! Screw first rebellion, like Scott!!

..........

I really miss Fenix. And the old Akie, that was so protective of me. I'm bitter. I'm selfish. And I want my old big brother Akie back....

[Karen] - Friday, March 22, 2002 - 03:31p.m.
Oy! I managed to have a good week! *grins* Wooohoo! Me = happy. Ashley, we honestly need to advertise this site more, lol! This is gonna be like a three sentence entry 'cause I'm bored, heh. Ok, maybe it's gonna be four.

[Karen] - Wednesday, March 20, 2002 - 08:10p.m.
Nooo problemo Ashley, I'm sure we're all gonna have off days, lol. Detention? *waggs a finger* What'd you get it for? And all you do is SIT? Wow... when people get detention here, you either have to help out school staff at lunch time, doing what I don't know, or help the janitor clean up after-school. You basically never get to sit and be bored, unless there's absolutely NOTHING left to do, which is pretty much impossible since our school looks like sheeit ever since we got our new principal this year. I miss my old nice and clean school that actually had grass at a point in time. Now, it's kinda like "Oooo, there's a gorgeous patch of thorny weeds! Let's hang out there!"

*Sigh* I finished my homework about... a long time ago. I didn't actually have that much, thank goodness. That darned science... I don't take a liking to physical science. Erg. I don't care about gravity or projectile motion or terminal velocity. Honestly, I liked Earth Science so much better. Since we got new books last year, our 7th grade science teacher didn't get a lot of animals and stuff. This means that now, my science teacher has gotten it all together, and the 7th grade lab is covered with fish tanks and cages and gadgets that we did have last year. Speaking of fish... fish are kinda scary, did you know that? They never smile or anything. They just kinda... look at you with their bulgy eyes. Not to be mean, but they do have bulgy eyes! Ahhhh, those poor fish. And! Have you ever gone to Wal-Mart and gone to the pet section and looked at the fish? One time I looked, and guess what?! Like 5 fish had their lives sucked out of them from the little air sucker thingy in their tank! I was torn between laughing and crying. It was such a sad, sad affair. I'm scarred for life.

[Oreides] - Wednesday, March 20, 2002 - 08:10 p.m.
Sorry I wasn't online today, Kare Bear. I had stuffs to do. Also had a 2 hour detention after school @_@ Blah. Detentions suck ass. 2 hours of doing absolutely nothing. I finished my homework 15 minutes after it started, and was doodling and passing notes to Jessica the rest of the time. Or reading Dracula.

Tom is so cute. He has such an amazing voice. I wish he didn't have so many family problems.. I feel bad for him.

Mom's at my throat. I haven't even been online at all today! Yeesh! Bye ya'll. I'll be on tomorrow, Karen. Toodles.

[Karen] - Wednesday, March 20, 2002 - 04:17 p.m.
NAL game today. We traveled out to a navel base place in a town about 1 hour and 30 minutes away where they had a teleconfernecing room. We played Baltimore, MD, and lost by like, 30 points. We're pathetic, lol! Oh well. We had fun.

Poopy. I can't stop thinking about that someone. Grrrr. I hate this! lol. *Sigh* Crushes = blah. Oh, oh! I got all A's on my report card! Woo. I'm happy. I'm hoping to get valedictorian for my ever-so-small middle school. I mean, I get a medal and a 2-second speech. What's there's not to look forward to?

[Karen] - Tuesday, March 19, 2002 - 04:24 p.m.
Ashley's making beautiful changes to the blog. Dontcha love the new layout? It's so... pink! lol. Definitely gorgeous. CRAP! The front door is flung open, and I'm freezing my little butt off. BRRRR. It's supposed to be spring! Spring = warm, right? Poo. Not here, of course. The town like, 20 miles or less away just got snow recently! I swear, the snow-maker people must really hate this town, seriously. They probably just look down here, and go: "Well, that's ______________ _____. Let's just skip it for another 7 years!" Sheesh.

LOL. I wore my hilarious shirt today. You people have GOT to see it. It has a 'cartoon' picture of a girl with her ex-boyfriend, and it has his face scribbled out and underneath the picture, it says "EX-BOYFRIEND." I've had too many people crack up over this shirt. Woooo, I gotta take a picture of it sometime. It's hucking filarious. (Inside joke, lol)

Hmmm. Another good day for me! Man, I've had two good days in a row! It's a miracle! Ever since I got done with my pages for yearbook and stuff, I've been mucho happy because my nutrition and lunch are FREE! Being editor is a hard job, and everyone gets pissed at you when you're a perfectionist. Erg. Oh well, that's life. The guys from 1st period and 3rd period PE went out and had like, a football game. It was pathetic, lol. Especially after seeing the guys' PE teacher, Mr. Bob was out there with a cowboy hat. I personally think he looks like Tom Cruise kinda, but his idiotic-ness makes up for that. He definitely has potential to win the Idiot of the Year Award. Hmm. Ok, enough odd rambling! Heh. Maybe I should win the Idiot of the Year Award! That would make me so proud! *tear*

[Oreides] - Tuesday, March 19, 2002 - 03:43 p.m.
Ugh. I'm listening to FFX orchestra scores by the amazing Nobuo Uematsu. "Sky Theme". It's actually kinda sad. Also downloading "Suteki da ne". Only about 3 seconds is downloaded so far, but it sounds cool enough.

I like debate. Sort of. I dislike the researching, and the memorizing of stock quotes or whatever the heck it's called... we're doing a Cross-Examine debate, where it's pretty much fact vs. fact, and the more things you cover with better solutions, the more points you get. Basically, the better researcher wins.

I'd like to do a Lincoln-Douglas debate, which is more rooted into morals and the rights of people. Grr.. that little punk-ass boy, Brandon. I hardly even look at him. Not even talk to him. If I'm talking to someone, he'll interrupt with a rude comment on whatever I say. He even stares and glares at me. And during speeches I give, he gives me dirty looks like I've got the shittiest speech he's ever heard. I hate his attitude. His cocky little attitude. I hate Robyn, too. In the same class, coincidently enough. Since we were brainstorming debating ideas, we started talking amongst ourselves about gay rights. Personally, I think everyone's allowed to love whomever they choose, male or female.

But of course, bitchy little Robyn is always right. She says that homosexuals have something wrong in their DNA or whatever. I don't think so. I told her that it's a feeling, not a flaw. She grit her teeth at me for disagreeing with her, and nearly slapped me. I was disgusted. She whines, she has this high-pitched voice that annoys me. How the hell will she ever keep friends in the future, when they snap out of their world of petty popularity and find her completely self centered? I've exaggerated about people before, but this girl seriously thinks the world revolves around her, and that we were all put on this earth to serve her every need. She's smacked her friend across the face before because she didn't let her borrow her jacket. I would never put up with that.

Phew. I'm really miffed today.

Gonna go blow off steam in my trusty oekaki ring. Toodles.

There's no problem with changing stuffs, Kare-bear. =P~~ it is your bloggie too, dork.

[Karen] - Monday, March 18, 2002 - 07:18 p.m.
Wow, what a surprise! I hate stupid people too! Haha. Dude. Pointless blog below. I still have a ton of homework to do, and guess what? Here I am, sitting on my fat lazy butt talking to friends online and watching Real World/Road Rules Battle of the Season. My my, how pathetic. Oooo, I just say a commercial for MTV Spring Break 2002. Sarah Michelle Gellar, Blink-182, Puddle of Mudd, and a bunch of other cool people are gonna be there, so I've gotta watch. Ok, enough of my boring blog. I'm gonna go study for that damned science test tomorrow. Ashley, good luck with the stupid people. I personally think you should just take action and get down and personal and tell her to piss off. Haha. Dang, I'm such a sweet person.

Ashley! I wanted to tell you that I changed a bit of the format for our entry. I added the time, too. Hope you don't mind.

[Oreides] - Monday, March 18, 2002 - 05:42 p.m.
I _hate_ stupid people. They serve no purpose in the world. They're just there. Sitting. Farting. Whining. Belching. Why are they attracted to me? Why do they seem to think they've befriended me? I loathe them. All of them. Immature. Stupid. Just plain stupid.

I know I'm mean. But my heart is in the right place.

You know what happened this morning? Around 3:30 AM? I heard owls. Like, right outside my window. Real owls. It wasn't a dream. I even pinched myself. It was owls. I got creeped out. A guy at my school said the owls were going to ....assassinate me? O_o crackbaby.

Karen just got off. I was writing in this, so I didn't get to say bye. Oh well. ^-^ Yer not important enuff to say goodbye to, Karen.

So, while the denser people in my life attempt making geocities sites, and while I wonder whether a fellow oekaki artist at the oekaki bbs I post in is male or female, Jessica is babbling to me about some ex bf of hers. He's a dork. But hot. We think he's gay.

Mother just caught me online over my "limit". I hate limits. It makes me want to be all rebellious and stuffs.

[Oreides] - Monday, March 18, 2002 - 05:27 p.m.
And, let me add, it takes A LOT to make just one Karen proud i_i I..I feel so close to you, Karen...

[Karen] - Monday, March 18, 2002 - 02:59 p.m.
Oooooo, my first blog! I'm so excited, lmbo. Anyhoo! Can you guys just see the beauty of Ashley's first layout? isn't it gorgeous? Ahhhh. I like it! =D This girl has enough talent to make 5 Karens' proud! *Coughs* Ok, that was weird. ANYWAY!

I still have a ton of homework. It sucks. Let's see... algebra, book project for language arts (Which, of course I'll do the night before it's due), finish a notecard for the science test tomorrow (Oh, I'm SO excited!), SQ3R and write notes for Sec. 3 in history... and gee, that's about it! Which, I guess it isn't that much in reality, but have you witnessed the laziness level I have? Hehe.

Ahh. I am determined to have a good week. Me must have a good week, or I'm gonna die because I've had about three bad ones in a row. Between the stress build-up from yearbook to the stress build-up from regular 'ole life, I've been dying on the inside. OH OH OH! Did I mention I went bowling for the first time in my life? lol. It was at Megan's birthday party, and I bowled a strike! I was so proud of myself. *Sigh* Me = so proud of myself! *Wipes away a tear*

[Oreides] - Monday, March 18, 2002 - 05:08 p.m.
While Kare-bear decides on a name to go under, I will entertain you with amazing tricks.

(Circus theme plays, and I juggle 4 fishbowls full of hungry flesh-eating fish while being set on fire and going across a tightrope on a bicycle and smoking a cigarette at the same time.)

If I die, I'm sueing Karen for being a hussy =3~!

[Oreides] - Sunday, March 17, 2002 - 02:40 p.m.
I sit here, _TRYING_ to listen to my beautiful music, but all the while our breadmaker is making thumping noises. It's starting to get louder... O_o;; Akie informed me that it was possible it was kneading bread.. but I don't think so. I think it's alive. Alive and evil, scheming how to kill our entire family! HAHA! I FIGURED YOU OUT, YOU GODDAMNED BREADMAKER!! SHUT UP BEFORE I BREAK YOU OPEN WITH A HAMMER!!!!!!

It won't be quiet X_____x Stupid breadmaker...

[Oreides] - Sunday, March 17, 2002 - 01:45 p.m.
I sent in a request in http://artcorner.org/, or "The Art Corner(TAC)" to be critiqued. I'm like, freaked that their gonna post it and be all "THIS SUCKS!! THIS GIRL NEEDS TO LEARN HOW TO OEKAKI!!" and stuffs. But it's with a mouse, okay?? Just for a little FYI, I sent in the vampire couple (look at my oekaki works at the left) 'cause it was the only one I actually liked and wasn't too big. I would have sent it my Alexiel or Shiva one, but they were like, twice over the limit KB.

Snerkkk! The more I look at all these damned entries at TAC, the more I start to think that they've seen so much better, and'll think I'm the worst. Wait, wait.. I see one crappier than mine! Whoo hoo! My self-esteem is boosted. Go me. .......wait, wait. All these people have like, blah.com websites!! Ahh! I have a dinky geocities site!! ;_; Esteem has now plummeted into -15...

Where is Trina?? Where is Karen?? Where is my kool-aid? I need to make more. *snf* I miss Akie. i_i

[Oreides] - Saturday, March 16, 2002 - 04:34 p.m.
@______@

[Oreides] - Saturday, March 16, 2002 - 04:06 p.m.
I'm trying to figger this thing out, because I'm "special". Waiting for Karen to get online, but since she's a crackbaby, I doubt that'll happen.

&!Karen's -ish

Karen. 14. Girl. Finding herself. Dreamer. Often falling.

&!Contact:

E-mail, AIM

Please don't take anything that we've come up with. No one likes copiers. =)

(Oreides: You best listen to her when she says that. Whoo boy.. it gets ugly when you piss Karen off.)