Wang Unnie

smells like fall...

I came out of my class today and I took a deep breath and took in the sweet smell of fall. It was a combination of leaves and crisp, windy air. Finally it feels like fall. For the past couple of weeks, it felt like summer. It was awful!! Today's weather made my day!!^^ I can't wait until it's Thanksgiving. Grace is coming!!! I have missed her sooo much. We're going to go to Kelz's house to eat yummy yummy food. Just thinking about it makes me hungry. Oh, yesterday, I met up with Audrey and we went to this really nice cafe called the "Balcony". It's really a nice place. They have this really yummy drink. I think it was called Notti Milk Tea. I want to go again. Maybe this weekend. What you do guys think? Grace? Kelz? Gina!!! Thanks soooooooooo much!! I got it today!!*___^ Gosh, this was a pointless blog. Sorry for boring you guys. I will go back to the emotional me soon. I'm just enjoying this weather too much. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 07:50 p.m.
Monday, November 25, 2002

guilt...

I went out to eat with my student and her parents yesterday. They are the nicest people. Her dad was telling that he really appreciate how I am trying to tutor her and that he knows how hard it is given that she doesn't listen often. I feel so bad about leaving next January. I don't know if I can after they have been sooo nice to me. The hakwon has been really nice too. Oh my goodness, it's such a hard decision to make!! I wish there was two of me so I can work at both. I feel bad one way or another. I promised the hakwon I will work full time next year and my private tutoree's parent's think I will continue next year. Please God, make this decision easier. I am overcomed with guilt, I don't know what to do!!! Hopefully everything will work out. In other news, I have been semi-productive. I secured all my recommendations. I went to my old college to get my transcripts. I'm on my way to finishing up my graduate application!!! Wish me luck. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 08:41 a.m.
Friday, November 22, 2002

no worries!!

Well for now, I have no worries. I got my midterm grades back and I did good. I got A's and B's. I couldn't believe it when I got my blue book back. I thought I failed my test but I got a B. While I took this test, I was telling myself that I was not making sense and I shouldn't have watched that drama. I thought I made no sense at all. Even I didn't know what the heck I was talking about. I am soo thankful to God that I did well. Now I just have to Ace the final to get an A. I will do it!!!^^ Oh my goodness, what is up with the L.A. weather? It's sooooo freaking hot!! It's not summer. I have my fan on all the time. I want the nice rain and freezing nights. I'm tired of sweating!!! Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:08 p.m.
Monday, November 18, 2002

so much

So many emotions have been plaguing me this past week. Thursday night, I watched "Chung Choon" until 6 in the morning. The ending was sooo depressing. I cried for an hour. This is why I shouldn't watch dramas. All the dramas that I have watched, I have always cried at the ending. I went to school on Friday, depressed and tired. I was soo glad I had only one class. I wanted to go home sooo badly. While I was in the bus, something horrible happened. I was sitting at the back listening to my cd player and falling asleep when I heard a guy yelling at two teenage girls. He was yelling at them cuz they were tagging on the bus. Some other guys got involved and started yelling at the guy, saying he shouldn't be yelling at little girls. The girls wanted to get off the bus before they got caught for tagging and while one of the girl was heading toward the backdoor, the guy who was yelling slammed into her. She got pissed off and started to punch him. He got mad and started to hit her too!!! If that wasn't enough, the girl got her screwdriver and stuck it into the guy's head. He wasn't hurt that badly, but he was bleeding a lot. The other girl was also trying to leave and the guy pointed his hand filled with his blood to her and asked if she wanted AIDs. He kept coming at her with his bloody hand. I was sooooooo scared. I wanted to get off the bus but the bus driver wouldn't open the door cuz he didn't want the guy and the girls to get away. Watching this scene and being in the emotional state I was, I had to will myself not to cry. I realized that I was really sheltered. I may have lived in L.A. where it's considered one the most dangerous place, but I haven't seen anything like this. I have seen many weird people, but not like this. I wanted to tell my dad cuz I know he would have made me feel better, but I couldn't. I didn't want him to worry about me whenever I walked out the door. He would be constantly worried cuz I ride the bus everyday. Anyways, after talking with some people, I feel better. The whole thing could have turned worse. Yesterday, I went to my boss's house for a bbq. It was sooo good. I never had meat like that before. They said, it was Argentinian style. I had soooooo much fun just talking and hanging out with the other workers. After dinner, we all went to no rae bang. It started out slow cuz no one wanted to sing. Then one of the piano teacher's husband got up and sang. He should have been a rocker!! He was really good. He was sooo much fun that everyone agreed that he has become one of us. I don't know when I yelled, clapped, danced, or sang that hard. I acted soo crazy. I think since no one was really getting in the mood, I had to act stupid and crazy. It worked though. Toward the middle, everyone got comfortable and started dancing and singing. It was a great stress reliever. I felt soo much better at the end. I apologized for my behavior though. I didn't want them to think I was like that all time. My boss was soooooo cool. When I apologized, she was like, if you left early like the others did, I wouldn't have gone to no rae bang. I was really touched. I also made a great friend. His name is Chris. He came to work at the hakwon two weeks ago. I didn't get to talk to him much cuz I'm not there all the time. Anyways, at the bbq and no rae bang, I got to know him and he's really a sweet guy. Really easy to talk to. He lent me his cds and I need to give them back tomorrow so I'm going to start burning them. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 01:23 p.m.
Sunday, November 17, 2002

yipee!!

Today was a good day!!^^ I had to go to school but it wasn't too bad. The professor finished his lecture ten minutes early, which is always a relief. On the way home, I went to the Rodeo Galleria and went shopping. I went to the little stationery store and bought some Jang Dong Gun pics. I'm telling you, I'm obsessed!!^^ I also bought a cd case for really cheap cuz it was kinda dirty. A little soap and water will fix that!! After spending too much money at the stationery store, I went to the book store and bought one of those big fat Korean magazines cuz they were giving away a knitted scarf with the magazine. The scarf is really cute!! I think it was a good buy even though it cost me 19 dollars. Well, it did have some pics of shinhwa and fly to the sky so it's all good. After my spending spree, I went to work, where I got paid!! It was good thing cuz after work, I went to another stationery store near my work. The store is going to go under construction so they were selling things for 50 percent off. There weren't a lot of stuff cuz I went too late, but I got what I really wanted. I was looking at some old posters not really expecting to find anything, but there it was... a poster of Jang Dong Gun's movie,"2009 Lost Memories"!!! I was sooo happy when I found it. While going to my other job, I couldn't stop smiling!! Even tutoring my 11th grade student was good. These days, she hasn't been giving me any attitude. I told her that I might be leaving at the end of December and she wasn't too happy about that. I told her that she wasn't improving and I feel that I'm not helping her much. I also said that I don't want to waste her mother's money. She kept telling me that she did improve and she will improve even more by the end of the semester. She said that she need me, and mind you, this is the same girl that kept giving me attitude cuz she felt she didn't need a tutor. I gave her a chance telling her that if she gets a 2.5 or 3.0 on her G.P.A., I will stay. She promised she will do better and after that, she has been a complete angel. I don't know what to do. I told my boss at the tutoring center that I will work full time on January thinking I will quit my private tutoring job, but now I'm stuck. Hopefully everything will work out. Oh, Gina, I finally know who you are talking about. When you mentioned Kim Rae Won I thought it was that girl in Chakra, but he's that guy who is in love with Jang Nara's character. I love how he comes out in that drama!! Not as good as Jang Dong Gun, but still good!!^^ I have Dong Gunized my computer as well as my room. I have him on my computer background, his screensaver, and his poster up on my wall. Please someone help, before I get too obsessed!! Or, am I too late? Sorry for those of you who are tired of hearing about Jang Dong Gun. Can't help it. If you have seen the drama, "All About Eve" you will understand. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:14 p.m.
Wednesday, November 13, 2002

Good times...

I just came back from hanging out with Audrey. We had lunch and watched a movie together. I watched "My Big Fat Greek Wedding" again. I absolutely love that movie!!^^ The first time I watched that movie, it was with Kelz. It was sooo much fun. I am buying the movie when it comes out on video!!! Hanging out with Audrey is always a blast cuz she always lifts my spirits. She calls me all depressed but it's always her who makes me feel good. We were talking about relationships, friendships and about ourselves. I told her about what my aunt said about how I should invest in myself. She laughed and totally took my aunt's side. I shouldn't be surprised though, since she was the one who punched me for telling her that I would never wear makeup. I just love her!!! hahahaha Oh, I was telling her about my obsession with Jang Dong Gun and she agrees with me!! She thinks he's fine too!! She was joking how she would buy him if she won the lottery!! I told her not to be mad at me if I lusted after him if she did buy him!!! She laughed and told me that it's ok and we can share cuz he's too fine to be kept to one person!!! LOL Yes, we are really psycho!!! Kelz thought I was going a little psycho when we went to the market and I wanted to steal an ad with Jang Dong Gun's picture. Man, I want that poster!! JANG DONG GUN!!! I'm in such a good mood. Midterms are over, I got to hang out with great friends like Kelz and Audrey, and I'm going to watch "All About Eve" again. It's an addiction!!! I don't think I can stop. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 08:50 p.m.
Sunday, November 10, 2002

bi...

Yay, it's finally raining!!! It was raining all day yesterday and it's still raining. I love the rain even though it makes me a little depressed cuz I start thinking a lot. Anyways, I had my mid-term yesterday and I think I screwed up BIG time. I was shaking when I turned in my blue book. Oh well... if I didn't I'll try to do better on my final. After work, I went to the nail shop with Elinor cuz she wanted to get a manicure. I went with her and she convinced me to get on too. This was my first manicure and it felt really weird getting one. I guess it'll make my aunt happy!!^^ Komo, I invested in myself!! LOL Oh my goodness, I found someone else to lust after!!! (Of course Minwoo's still #1) I was recording the drama "All about Eve" for Gina and there he was...Jang Dong Gun!!! Oh my goodness, what a major hottie!! He plays this awesome character who is sweet, intelligent, self-confident, and understanding. I already finished recording the whole drama for Gina and right now, I'm recording one for myself. The drama is sooooo good. I love it!!! *Thanks, Gina!!* Chae Rim is sooo good in it too!! I love her. She's my favorite actress!! I kept running back and forth from the livingroom to the bedroom to watch the drama when I was supposed to be studying for my midterm. Now you know why I don't think I did so well. Talking about the drama, I must go and watch it!!! Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:53 a.m.
Saturday, November 9, 2002

nagging...

First of all, I want to announce that I passed my C-Best exam!!!^^ Ok, ok, I know it's not that big of a deal but it made my family really happy especially my grandma and my dad which makes me really happy. I love making them happy. My grandma was thanking me for passing and for all my accomplishments along with apologizing for spanking me when I was little. I almost cried cuz I felt soooo bad that my grandma felt guilty for hitting me. I told her that I deserved it whenever she punished me and I don't resent her at all. I told her that she was the one who made me the person I am. She is everything to me. I love my halmoni. I know that without her I wouldn't be doing anything productive. Halmoni, it's my turn to take care of you. Just wait several more years. Jal moe shik kae yo!!! Today, I went over to my uncle's store to visit my aunt. I needed to ask her some questions about a paper I was writing. After I was done, my aunt began to talk to me about Korea and my appearance. She was trying to convince me to not to go to Korea. She was saying how it would be really expensive and I should go only when I meet someone who can really show me around cuz without a guide, I would be wasting money and time. I told her not to waste her breath cuz no matter what she said, I was going. Then she brought up something I couldn't really argue with. She asked me why I was saving up for Korea when I should be saving up for a car. I tried to argue with her, but my aunt is really wise. She shot down all my reasons and made me feel really guilty thinking about not setting my priorities straight. Now, I have to think about this. I really want to go to Korea!!! Then she began nagging about how I should start dressing better. She was saying how people look down on me cuz I don't dress up. She believes that all my good qualities are hidden because of my appearance. I tried once again to argue with her but I was unsuccessful. I argued that I'm still at school and I shouldn't have to worry about my appearance yet. Once I get into my career, that's when I will be dressing better but she disagreed. She said that I need to start now so I will get use to it. She's like there is a difference between a girl who just started wearing heels, who she is all wobbly from a girl who has been wearing heels for a long time, who walks confidently. She's saying that I should start investing in myself and make myself look better so people will say, "she's qualified as well as look good" instead of "well, she's qualified but that's it." She gave me an example. She told me that my cousin who dresses really well and is really pretty can get a job anywhere. Wherever she applies, they accept her. Anyways, she got a job at an accounting firm and she gets paid $300 more than all the workers even though she was there only for about a month. The workers were complaining cuz she was getting more but the boss told them that she looks like she deserved more. He claimed that my cousin looked like the kind of person who wouldn't settle for less and if he didn't offer her more, she wouldn't have come to work. The other workers dressed really comfortably while my cousin dressed really well. The other workers began to feel embarrassed with their appearance and began to dress even better. My aunt was saying how one person who dress and look better get better treatment. She was saying that I shouldn't bring myself down but better myself. She wants me to lose weight and start dressing better. She commented on how pretty was when I was young. She said that people get really surprised when she shows them my baby pictures and my recent pictures. She said that ruined my face and body by making my eyes look really small cuz of my fat cheeks and becoming fat. She even said that I was prettier than my cousin when we were young. That made me really sad. What did I do to myself?!!! Damn, food. Anyways, I felt really bad while my aunt was telling me this, but at the same time I didn't want to leave. I know this sounds really strange, but I wanted to hear more nagging. Majority of the nagging comes from mothers and since I don't get it much, I actually wanted to hear more. I know my aunt wants the best for me and she's doing this out of love which makes me appreciate it. But don't get me wrong, if I hear this everyday, I will definitely go crazy. Anyways, I have decided to slowly invest in myself. It can't hurt, right? Well, I should go and write my paper. Knowing me, I'll probably be up all night writing this paper. Wish me luck. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:15 p.m.
Monday, November 4, 2002

Must see!!

I just finished watching the movie "With Honors". It's such a good movie. I remember watching it a couple of years ago and loving it. Now, I have my own copy!! This is one of my favorite movies. It's sooo smart, funny, sweet, sad, and heart-warming. This movie has soooo many good moments. Me and my moments!!! Anyways, those of you who haven't seen it, it is a must see. Go rent it or better yet buy it!! I promise it won't be disappointing. And to clench the deal, Brendan Fraser is in it!! What a hottie!! You know, the guy from the Mummy movies!!!^^ I'll describe one of my favorite scenes. Brendan Fraser, aka Monty is a Harvard student who is helping Joe Pesci, aka Simon, who is homeless. They are in the library and they get interrupted by a woman librarian telling Simon that he can't be in the library. Monty tells her that Simon is helping him with his thesis and the librarian apologizes and walks away. Simon looks at her walk away and says, "Women, ain't they perfect?" Monty answers, "Not always." Simon continues, "Yes, they are, they're perfect. Don't matter if they are skinny, fat, blonde or blue. If a woman is willing to give you her love, it's the greatest gift in the world, makes you taller, makes you smarter, makes your teeth shine. Boy, oh boy, they are perfect! Perfect joy, perfect ache. Joy when you first see them and get to know them and ache when you leave them." Yeah, I know I'm weird for writing this from word to word, but I can't help it. I love this movie. Anyways, yesterday was spent quietly with family. I bought burritos and ate them with my family and Juliana. It was soooo good. I love El Taurino's burritos!! After stuffing my face with burritos, we had some cake. Yummy yummy cake with lots of fruits on top. I was glad we didn't go out to eat. It was sooo comfortable staying home and celebrating quietly. I also went out with my cousin cuz she wanted to take me out. We ended up drinking at this hole in the wall. I forgot the name of the place but it had really good food. There was a d.j. but it was one of those ahjushis who have a really quiet soothing voice. You can request songs for him to play. It was a lot of fun. I got him to play Kangta's "Last Summer". Yes, I'm an ahjuma, leave me alone!!! >< hahahahaha I got to meet one of my cousin's friends. I didn't catch his name, but he was soooooooo much fun. He had such a great sense of humor. I didn't talk much and I bet he thought I was the most boring person ever but it's ok. I showed him up with my drinking skills!!! He was teasing me that whenever he saw my cup, it was always empty. He kept wanting to compete with me. He wasn't cute at all, and he kinda reminded me of a yangahchi cuz of the open shirt with the single gold chain he was wearing. He was really funny though. I wouldn't mind hanging out with him again. I just wish I got his name!! Oh the best thing!! I got a boombox from Juliana!! I was sooooo surprised!! Now I can listen to music in the bathroon while taking a shower!! I'm soooooo happy. Overall it was a quiet but very pleasant birthday. Thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday!! I love you guys soooooo much!! *MUHA* Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:49 p.m.
Thursday, October 10, 2002

Just another day?

It feels like just another day. I guess once you finish turning 16, 18, and 21, bithdays don't feel as special. I can't believe I'm already 23. Time sure flies. Makes me wonder what have I done with my life? Have I been productive? I think this year has been somewhat productive. I have made the decision to go to graduate school and I'm finishing up my undergraduate work this year. Wow, I came to blog about many things but suddenly I am at a lost of words. But I do want to thank kelz for the wonderful gift. I love it!! Also, it seems like you are going through some tough times. Hope you feel better and if you need to talk, you know I'm always here. Kelz, Fighting!!! Until I blog again... I'm going to check the winning numbers for the lottery while eating some burritos tonight!! Yeah!! Party!! hahahaha Maybe I'll go out... who knows...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 01:59 p.m.
Wednesday, October 9, 2002

I'm leaking!!!

I'm literally leaking!!! Oh my goodness, I got a really bad cold several days ago, and my nose and eyes are leaking. I can't live without tissue right now. Every few minutes I have to blow my nose. It wasn't as bad as it was on Sunday and Monday. On Sunday I was running a high fever and on Monday I came home and zonked out. I slept for ten hours. My friend thinks I'm crazy for even going to school in my condition, but it's beginning of the quarter and I don't want to miss a thing. I also have to go to work soon and since I had some time, I wanted to blog. Last Saturday was K-fest. I went with Kelz and we left early cuz it was sprinkling and there wasn't much to do. It was pretty fun until that racial moment. Stupid girl had to ruin it. People like her make Koreans look bad. I was sooo angry and embarrassed. "Koreans only" my ass!!! It was really smart of us to leave early cuz it started raining pretty hard. If we stayed later we would have gotten even sicker. *Sorry for getting you sick, Kelz.* We went back on Sunday to see Yoo Seung Jun. He only sang two songs, while the singer, who no one knew sang three. Oh well... it was still fun. While the crowd was chanting Yoo Seung Jun, Kelz and I were chanting Shinhwa. After Yoo Seung Jun's performance, we left and met up with Sooji. We ate at Nakwon and went to the no rea bang upstairs. By this time, I was running a high fever, but I didn't care. I was having fun!!^^ Boy, did I pay for it on Monday. I was late for my first class and I was falling asleep in all my classes. Then I went to work cuz it was Elinor's first day at the hakwon and I needed to train her. I think she has gotten the hang of the job. I told her to be scary and strict. The kids seem to like her, which is good. She's not the type to take any crap from the kids so I'm not worried. The kids had their fingers wrapped around the previous two teachers, but that will not happen with Elinor. I had more to say but I went blank. I think I need more sleep. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 02:30 p.m.
Tuesday, October 1, 2002

Back to school...

Yeah, I'm back to school. Is it me or has summer just zoomed by? I can't believe it's almost October soon. I'm not looking forward to it much cuz I have soooo much to do that month. I have to take my C-best on the first Saturday of October, get recommendations from my professors to apply to graduate school, and actually start on my graduate application. The first thing I should do is actually download the application. It's been up since last week. I proscrastinate too damn much!!! I was going to go to San Diego to visit Parisa on October 5th, but I realized that I needed to take the C-best. I still haven't called her. Again, with my proscrastination. Hopefully writing this blog, I will actually remember to call. I was really looking forward to seeing Parisa. I'm definitely going to go the following weekend. So, anyways, I'm not really looking forward to going back to school. I'm taking 20 units and working everday. The only good thing about taking that many units is that I will be done by December!!I will actually be done!! I'm sooo excited. Damn, that reminds me, I should go talk to my counselor. As you can see from reading this blog, my brain is sooo scattered. I really need a vacation!! I only got about two weeks of vacation after going to summer school and I was working during the break. I was working at the hakwon. It's really good money but I realized that I can't work there for more than an hour. I have forgotten how stressful it was there. I came home tired and cranky. I'm sooo glad that starting from next week I go back to private tutoring. I will be stopping by the hakwon everday for an hour, but that's it!! Elinor will be working there so I'll leave it to her. Hopefully she won't have any problems. Oh, summer school was a big success!!^^ I got really good grades. Two A's and B's. I hope I do just as well or better for fall quarter. I doubt it but I'm going to try. I need to fight this proscrasintation syndrome. I really think it's a disease. Wouldn't it be great if there was a pill to cure it? Hmmm... maybe I can... what I am saying? I'm a history major for good sake!!! I think I would be thrown out of my major if I had thoughts of science and math!! lol Until I blog again... Oh, Kelz I know you have midterms. I know you will survive and do well!! Kelz, fighting!!

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:28 a.m.
Thursday, September 26, 2002

life...molla...

I had an eventful couple of days. I stayed up for two days to finish my finals due to my lazy butt not studying until the last minute. On Wednesday, I read for my Latin American Cultural History class and History of the Jews and the Third Reich class. I thought I would be able to write my final paper for my History of the Jews and the Third Reich class but I didn't have time. I wasn't able to get to it cuz I had to study for a quiz for my Latin American Cultural History class. On Thursday, I went to class to take my quiz and then hurried home to work on my final papers. Thank goodness all my finals were take home. When I got home, everyone was bothering me. The phone wasn't working so I had to go to a friend's house to call the phone company. Then, the phone service guy came into my room to see if my dsl was working. He surprised me cuz I was taking a little nap, cuz I knew I would be up all night. Then, my friend came over to tutor my brother and stayed until 10. I had ten hours to finish five papers. All night I was checking the time trying to finish everything. I was able to finish four of my papers by 8 a.m. I asked my dad to drive me to school so I can drop off my papers and get back home to finish my last paper. Lucky for me that the last paper I had to turn in wasn't due until 5 p.m. After dropping off my papers, my dad rushed home. When I got home, I was able to finish my very last paper for the summer by 2 p.m. Once again, my dad drove me to school. I was done with summer school!!! Such a happy moment!!^^ I can't believe I was actually able to finish five papers let alone stick with all my classes, and finish 16 units. Hopefully I learned my lesson and I won't procrastinate. I can't afford to be lazy this coming quarter. It's my last quarter!!! That's why I haven't been able to get online so much. Gina, I'm sorry if you were waiting for me!!! I got your letter!! Komahwuh!! Sarang hae!! *MUHA* Anyways, back to what I was saying... after I turned in my last final paper I came back home and zonked out. I didn't wake up until my friend came over to tutor my brother. Then, my cousin called me asking if I wanted to hang out with her and her friends. I felt like celebrating so I went out with her. We ended up hanging out with Ellen and her boyfriend again. This time, it wasn't as fun but quite depressing. Everyone was not in a good mood. It started out ok, but then the alcohol came, and everything went downhill. Ellen began crying cuz of her friends. They were being bitches. Her boyfriend kept telling her that she didn't need them and just forget about them. He couldn't understand why it was hurting Ellen soooo much. He thought all she needed to do is say "Fuck them" and forget about them. My cousin and I tried to make him understand that's not that simple and that Ellen needs time to get over it. Poor Ellen... she's too nice. They walked all over her. Stupid bitches!!! I hate people like that. Anyways, I guess it's the alcohol, but my cousin began to feel depressed. She started to talk about her ex-boyfriend, who she thinks was her soulmate. She said that it's not so easy to say "Fuck it" when it comes to people. Poor unnie... She leaned over me and said that she can't stop thinking about him even though it has been about a year. She told me that she even had a dream about him. I can't imagine how hard it is for her. I mean they were going to get married but due to circumstances, they had to split up. They really did love each other. I guess I was being really naive thinking love conquers all. When we were waiting outside for their friend who worked at the restaurant to get off work, my cousin cried in my arms for a long time. I didn't know what to do, so I just held her. I wish I could take all her pain away or at least half. Ellen also cried in her boyfriend's arm. We had such a cryfest. Hopefully today, they are feeling better. Unnie deul, Be strong and Fighting!!! I will be praying for you. Emily unnie sarang hae, no matter what you do, I'm here for you. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 12:54 p.m.
Saturday, September 14, 2002

Remembrance

When writing my blog entry for 9/11, I realized that I have't mentioned anything about the horrible event that happened just a year ago. It was only a year ago that our trust and security was brutality taken from us. The United States would never be the same again and terrorism has become a reality and part of our lives. I think I wanted to be in denial because it was too depressing to think about. Also, along with being depressed I was angry with the government for their part in this event. Learning about history and the sins of the U.S. government have made me weary and anti-government. But thinking this way is being selfish to those 2000+ people who died. Their death should not go in vain. I want to take this time to say that no matter what, I will not forget. Everyone is in my prayers, especially the families of those who lost their loves ones. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 01:26 a.m.
Thursday, September 12, 2002

Score!!

I think I lost about ten years of my life worrying about what grade I would get for the mid-term paper for my History of California class. I was praying like crazy for several days. I got my paper today and I got a B+!! I am sooo relieved. Also, he's giving us a take home final instead of an in-class final. Today is turning out to be a really good day!!!^^ I am going to stay up for serveral nights to prepare of my finals. Hopefully it won't be too bad and I will make all my deadlines. I should go and study for my quiz tomorrow. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:21 a.m.
Wednesday, September 11, 2002

bored...

I'm at the library using the computer. Summer school is over in less than a week and I can't shake the feeling of dread off me. I haven't gotten my History of California mid-term back and I have a feeling I didn't do so well. I did really well in my other two classes, so I'm not too worried about them, but this damn History of Califonia class!! I hate the class and the professor. I dream about throwing my pen at him and yelling at him to stop talking. History is a boring topic but he makes it unbearable. I can't wait until summer school is over so I can get some rest. I want to visit Parisa in San Diego this month. I haven't been to Sea World in the longest time. I hope I get enough money to go. Speaking of money, I start work today. I'm only going to tutor one student cuz my other students haven't called me, yet. If they don't call soon, I'm going to go back to the hakwon. I'm actually looking forward to going back to the hakwon, cuz I will be in charge and there will be other workers. It broke my heart that the workers who came after me, messed everything up. I want to go back and fix it cuz everytime I go to help out, I get really frustrated. I'm itching to get everything organized. Oh, also, I'm going to get a pay raise. I want to ask for 20 dollars an hour but my boss is having financial difficulties so I'll settle for 15 dollars. I need to save up if I want to go traveling this winter. Money is always the issue... Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 12:40 p.m.
Monday, September 9, 2002

Everybody, Fighting!!!

I just came back from hanging out with my beloved cousin and her friends. I had such a cool time hanging out with them. They were older and the conversation was very enlightening. They were talking about business, stocks, politics, gambling...I learned soooo much. It was sooo cool. When they were talking about business, I didn't have much to add to the conversation cuz I know nothing about it. I just nodded, smiled and listened. My cousin kept leaning over to me, asking if I was bored. I had to assure her that I was not bored at all. I was having soo much fun just listening and also, I was learning sooo much. But... when the topic turned to politics, it was on!!! I love talking about politics. Sometimes, I have no idea what the hell I'm talking about, but I act like I do. We got into a heated conversation about the American soldier who ran over two korean kids and got off. I won't get into it cuz then, this blog would never end. As I was saying, I had sooo much fun. I like the guy I was having the conversation with, but his girlfriend was kinda of a ditz. It's ok though. I liked her. She's sweet and acts really cute. She's the kind of person you would want to be with when you are depressed. When my cousin dropped me off, we stayed in the car for awhile. We had a really meaningful conversation and I feel soo bad for her. She seems to have everything: beauty, intelligence, popularity... but she's really having a hard time. Poor thing. Emily Unnie, Fighting!!! Sarang hae. I'm always here for you. Also, I want to say Fighting to everyone especially Parisa and Audrey, who are having trouble with their significant others. You guys will get through it. Oh, one more thing, Gina, mi ahn hae!!! I wanted to talk to you too!! We seem to keep missing each other. We'll catch up with each other soon. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 01:54 a.m.
Friday, September 6, 2002

Propose...

I listened to Kangta's new song "Propose" and I love it!! It's sooo adorable. The premise of the song is Kangta proposing to his girlfriend. My favorite part of the song is (forgive me for the loose translation) when he sings, "So, have you thought of what you are going to call me? Like before, are you going to call me, oppa? How many babies are we going to have? I think two is just perfect." Isn't that the cutest thing?!! I have been listening to this song all day. At first, I was smiling when I was listening to it, but by the third time, I was getting really depressed, thinking how no one will do that for me. Although, at times, this song depresses me, I still love it. Those who haven't listened to the song, go download it!! You won't regret it. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:01 p.m.
Friday, August 30, 2002

Amazing Grace!!!

Oh my goodness, I know I said this before, but prayer really works!! Yesterday, I was feeling really lousy and frustrated cuz of my History of California class. I really dislike the professor and I was really worried I wouldn't do well in the class. Anyways, I had this strong desire to pray the Rosary. I prayed about my concerns about my class and the upcoming mid-term. And the most amazing thing happened today. I went to class and the professor was not there. He had a sudden illness in the morning and couldn't come to class. I checked my email and there was an email from him saying that he was sick and he was extending our midterm due date to next week!!^^ THANK YOU GOD!!! I LOVE YOU!! Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:03 a.m.
Friday, August 23, 2002

Hwae Shik...

I had sooo much fun on Friday and Saturday. On Friday, I went back to hakwon to make the math worksheets for the kids when my ex-boss, well she is still my boss cuz I work for her sometimes, but I digress, anyways, she invites me to the hwae shik (a gathering with the boss and co-workers). I didn't want to go at first. I felt I was going to be a bother cuz technically I don't work there. She convinced me to go and I'm really glad she did. I had such a blast. We went to a buffet where you can eat all the meat you can cook. Of course, you can't eat meat without sool. Meat actually makes soju taste good. The two youngest which was Yoo Hee and I drank while the others cuz stared at just in amazement. The others couldn't drink cuz they were driving or they had husbands at home. I made a mistake of drinking soju with beer. A really bad combo!!! Right, Kelz, Gina? After dinner, we all went to Rosen No Rae Bang. We had more to drink there. I was really surprised and embarrassed how I acted there. I still can't believe I went up and sang and danced in front of people. I sang terrible and danced even worse but it was sooooo much fun. Toward the end, everyone got into it and danced. Everyone got up when the song "Bounce With Me" came on. My boss is sooo much fun. She dances like tong ahjushi but she can hold her own. I have a new respect for her. All my stress was gone by the end of the night. I got home at around 2. I know now why Korean people have hwae shiks. It is a great way for co-workers to get to know each other. I got to know all of my co-workers and they are awesome. Saturday was cool too. Kelz and I went to Assi Market to see Robin put on a skit about how bad they treat the workers. It was really nice to see people getting active especially when I'm used to so much apathy. We walked around with signs and chanted. I hope the protesters get what they want cuz what they are asking for is suppose to be a given right. POWER TO THE PEOPLE!!! I wish I was alive during the late 60's and early 70's. I could totally see myself getting involved in the movements. Anyways, after picketing for awhile, we left to drink some boba and eat pho. Then we went to No Rae Bang. I can't seem to get enough of that place!! It was really fun hanging out with Kelz and Robin. It was a full weekend. Once again I neglected my school work, but it was worth it. I can always catch up. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 07:17 p.m.
Sunday, August 18, 2002

Kelz jjang!!!

My blog has a new look!!^^ I deleted some things and decided to start new. Kelz made this pretty background yesterday!! She's such a sweetie. She understands my computer disabilites and made my blog pretty!! Thanks soo much Kelz, for taking time out to do it for me!! Luv ya!! Just wanted to dedicate this entry to Kelz and give her props for having mad skills!!! Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 12:29 p.m.
Thursday, August 15, 2002

32 hours....

I have been awake for 32 hours but I'm not really that tired. I stayed up all night writing a paper for my class and I still finished it late. I didn't get a chance to take a nap cuz I had to write another 3 page thing. I just finished the short essay right now. I should get some sleep cuz today I was thinking about something and I couldn't remember if I dreamt it or something I really did. I know, I know, I'm going bonkers. I read something really cool today. It's a comment Eleanor Roosevelt made. She said, "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." I'll leave you with this thought. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:00 p.m.
Monday, August 12, 2002

school...blah

Damn, there is not a day that goes by that allows me to forget about school. I hate school!!! I just finished the first session of summer school and yesterday was my first day for the last session of summer school. I hate my classes. I actually hate all my classes. Usually there is at least one that I like, but this time, all my classes suck. My schedule sucks too. I have school everyday and I end at 3 p.m. Oh well... it's my punishment for being such a lazy butt. I have sooo much to do. I've been playing too much. Even on the day I should have been studying for my final, I went out with Kelz, Gina and Robin. I tried to be good and went home early. I think I did all right. I still haven't gotten my grades. Ok, enough about school. I had soooo much fun last week and this week. I met some great people. I met Gina, who is such a sweetheart. She's soooo hyper, which makes her sooo endearing. She can make anyone laugh. She's the boon hee kee maker and she's sooo silly. She's like Andy! I know they would make such a cute couple. Jeanie is awesome too. Meeting her made me realize that K-town is really small. I tutored her little cousins!!!^^ Anyways, she's such a cool person. I did too much playing and not enough work. I know I will be paying for that later. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:51 p.m.
Tuesday, August 6, 2002

Halmoni sarang hae...

Talking to my grandma yesterday made me realize how much older she is getting. Sooner or later I have to realize that she's not always going to be here for me. She is like my mommy and to think she is not going to be with me for a lifetime breaks my heart. Sometimes I think she is the only person who really cares about me. She's always been there for me especially when I needed her the most. I remember when I was very little I use to cry myself to sleep wondering what I would do if my grandma got sick or died. Whenever I call my grandma, she talks about death. She thinks she should hurry up and die before she can't take care of herself cuz she doesn't want to burden us. She doesn't realize that even though she couldn't take care of herself, we would never send her to one of those homes. I told her that I would take care of her if anything happened. I think life is sooo unfair when I see my grandma. She is such an amazing person who went through sooo much shit. She has never been given a break. All she wants out of life is to see her children and grandchildren be successful, but unfortunately, that's not been happening. Hopefully, it will happen soon. I want to see my grandma look back in her life and see how much of a difference she made in all of our lives, especially mine. If it wasn't for her, I would have been ended up like an old friend of mine, drugged up with no future. I love you Halmoni, more than anyone or anything in this life. If I can, I would give you part of my life to have to with me longer. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:14 p.m.
Saturday, July 27, 2002

Memories...

I found out that "Save By The Bell" and "21 Jumpstreet" comes out on channel 56!! My two favorite shows still come out on television. I'm sooo happy. It brought back sooo many memories watching those shows. Johnny Depp was sooo fine back then. Now, I just need "Boy Meets World" to come back and I'll be set. I know it comes out on the Disney Channel, but unfortunately, I don't have cable. Oh well... can't have eveything. Oh, I finally got connected to DSL after couple weeks of waiting. I can't say right now, if I'm happy with it cuz it has been giving me trouble. I'm not surprise though, cuz all electronics and computer related things hate me. Hopefully everything will work out the way it should. My fingers are crossed!!! Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 09:55 p.m.
Wednesday, July 24, 2002

Tease...

My computer hates me!! It likes to tease me. Sometimes it works really well and then all of a sudden it would go dead. I think we have a love/hate relationship. I love my computer and it hates me. Anyways, I got some happy news!!! I'm going to get DSL!!! After waiting for soooo long I am finally going to be connected. No more waiting. No more getting disconnected due to phone calls. Bye bye 56K!! Yipee!!! Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 06:00 p.m.
Tuesday, July 16, 2002

Beads and chocolate

Just came back from having a conversation with Elinor. She was telling me how much fun she had in Hawaii. She bought me a box of chocolate covered macadamia nuts and a pretty bead necklace. It was soooo sweet of her to remember me and buy me gifts from beautiful Hawaii. I want to go to Hawaii after all I heard from Elinor. She tells me the water is sooo clear and the sea animals are soooo beautiful. She came back sooo relaxed and tanned. She even told me that being stung by a jellyfish didn't faze her trip. When I have enough money, I'm going to Hawaii, damn it!! But not before I go to Korea. Must to get to Korea!!! I'm coming, Korea. Just you wait!! hehehehehe Oh, also, Elinor loves my straight hair. Her words were, "it looks really really really good!!" I love my hair!! I wish I did magic perm sooner. In my whole life, I never thought I was pretty or liked anything about my body, but I have to say, that I love my hair. Now, what can I do with my face and body? *sigh* Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:28 p.m.
Sunday, July 14, 2002

Waves...

Went to the Santa Monica Beach yesterday night. It was sooo much fun pulling up my pants up to knees and jumping in the waves. I haven't done that for ten years. I wish I wasn't soooo self-conscious about my body so I can go to the beach and swim. I felt like a child running away from big waves and making footprints on the wet sand. This whole week was great due to some great people who came to visit me. Thanks guys!!^^ Nothing profound on this blog. Just wanted to record in my blog that I went to the beach. I wonder how long it will be before I go again. Maybe in another ten years? Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:05 p.m.
Friday, July 12, 2002

Straight....

The title has many meanings!!^^ Let me explain... Yesterday, it was Parisa's birthday and she called me back when she got my b-day message I left for her on her cell. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PARISA!!! Anyways, we got to talking and then she asked to see my blog page. I think the picture of minsung surprised her!! She decided to share my blog with her brother and our mutual friend's brother. They both were very surprised. They thought it was a gay picture. Well, Parisa's brother was pretty open-minded but our mutual friend's brother wasn't. Well... they are straight and very very sexy so don't care what he thinks. It's my favorite picture. Parisa thinks Pilgyo is pretty cute!! I'm trying to get her into k-pop. She already likes Kim Jong Kuk so maybe if burn her some good k-pop songs, I can reel her in more. If you are reading this, Parisa, be prepared!!^^ Another meaning of the title, Grace and I got our hair straightened!! We did magic perm. And we only had to pay half of the amount cuz my dad had two coupons from Kim Sun Young's Beauty Salon. It took three hours but it was well worth it. Grace looks soooo pretty with her hair straight and if I don't say myself, my hair looks great too!! I absolutely love my hair. It's soooo straight and healthy looking. I never had hair this straight. I actually want to take pictures!!! Now, I just need to lose some weight and I will be all set. The only negative thing about the magic perm is that you can't wash your hair for a couple of days. I hope we don't stink too much. Be prepare, Kelz, when you come back to LA!!! Hehehehe Well... that explains my title. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:24 p.m.
Wednesday, July 10, 2002

Strange but nice...

Yesterday, after class, I was walking to my bus stop to go home when this girl stopped me. She waved at me and said, "Were you at the staple center? I saw you on t.v." I nodded. We began talking like old friends. It was really strange. I would never have the guts to call over someone and start up a conversion. I'm glad she did cuz she seems like a really nice person. We exchanged phone numbers and promised that we will have lunch one day. My fourth of July was a really productive one. I was finally left home alone. My family went up north to look at some redwoods. They won't be back until July 7th. It's sheer bliss being compeletly alone for awhile!!^^ I cleaned the whole apartment on the fourth. It took me seven hours but it was worth it!! I awarded myself with some great Mexican food. It was sooo yummy!! Also, I did some readings for my class. I'm almost caught up with my readings!!! I don't know what's coming over me. I'm not as lazy as I was before. Maybe I should be left alone more often. I seem to get things done!! I was feeling sooooo good and productive that I went to my old job at the hakwon to see how everyone was. My boss was really happy to see me. I made some math worksheets and helped out with the children's homework. My boss made me promise that I will come and help out every week. I absolutely love her so I don't mind helping her out. She also insist on paying me even though I told her that I feel uncomfortable taking her money. She laughs whenever I hand back the money and tells me to think of her as my aunt or unnie. I kinda wish she was cuz she such an awesome person. While I was cleaning I came across some old letters from my junior high friends. Feeling of nostalgia came over me. Especially after reading Dina's letters. Dina was my best friend in juinor high. She changed her number so I can't call her. She's calls me once a year so she's due to call me. I hope she's doing well!!! I think I will take up the lost of art of letter writing again. I want to write to Carrie and Parisa again. I'll start when I send them their b-day presents. That reminds me, Parisa's b-day is coming up!! Must buy gift for Parisa and must send gift to Carrie. Damn!! I hope Carrie doesn't get mad that her gift is a tad late. I guess I wasn't as productive as I thought... Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:46 a.m.
Saturday, July 6, 2002

Out of place

Today, I hung out with Audrey and her boyfriend at UCLA. We had lunch and a pretty good conversation about how girls are evil and guys are stupid. Anyways, when Audrey and her boyfriend were driving me home they were talking about little, insignificant things and I couldn't help but envy them. Audrey was telling her boyfriend how she had diarrhea and how whenever she went to pee, little stuff starts to come out. I was really surprised how open she was with her boyfriend and how well her boyfriend took the in the info. It was really cute how they fought and laughed. They were like an old married couple. I felt soooo young and immature compared to them. I felt like a 16 year old. They were talking about taking the LSats and going to law school. I just felt out of place. Yeah, I'm going to graduate school and going to take my C-best, but I just felt like I wasn't as mature as they were. Even when they were talking about music, they were talking about how Pink and lot of American singers went teenybopperish. When they were talking about that, in my mind I was yelling, I like teenybopper groups!!! God, sometimes, I wonder what I'm doing with my life. I'm 22 going onto 23 and yet, I act like a teenager fawning over gasoos. Maybe it's time for me to grow up and start getting my priority straight. Or maybe I should just live my life the way I'm living now. Afterall, life is short and you're young only for a short time. Need to think about this more. In the meantime, I going to go listen to SM summer album and get caught up with my readings. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:25 p.m.
Tuesday, July 2, 2002

Glowing with pride...

I had such a blast last weekend. I went to see the soccer game between South Korea and Turkey at the Staple Center. I had sooo much fun even though Turkey won. I wasn't even sure I wanted to go cuz I wasn't a big soccer fan, but went anyway cuz my friend waited in line early in the morning just to get tickets. I'm sooo glad I went. When my friend, her mother and I reached the Staple Center at 2:30 in the morning, the parking lot was jam packed. It felt like every Korean who lived in L.A. came. All I saw was red. Everyone was wearing the "Be the Red" t-shirts and holding the Korean flag. It was really something. When everyone got seated in their seats, some famous stars came out to sing and say something, like they were glad to celebrate with the Korean community in L.A. I was really excited to see my favorite comedian/talent, Lee Ue Jung. Excuse my spelling. She's the actress who came out as song sueng hun's girlfriend in three guys and three girls. She was also the mc for gito and music enter for awhile. She's little and really cute. Usually I don't like any female singers or actresses, but she's sooo cool. I wouldn't mind having her as an unnie. Ok, back to the Staple Center. It was sooo great watching the game with 18,000 people. Usually the game seemed really long and boring but this game ended too soon. I was jumping up and down screaming "DAE HAN MIN GUK" and clapping. I was also singing at the top of my lungs. The next day, I was really hoarse. I had sooo much fun. What a great stress reliever. Everyone got really into the game. We yelled and hugged one another when Korea made a goal and we clapped and chanted "Dae Han Min Guk" when the other team made goals to show that we were behind Korea. We also did a wave where everyone in the stadium got involved. It was a great sight to witness. I wish I brought a camera. Even though Korea lost, everyone cheered and clapped to show that they fought well and we were proud of them. Everyone left happy, maybe a little disappointed but definitely happy and proud. Also, I was soooo proud to see how much sportmanship we had. We lost graciously without any resentment and without causing any trouble. At the stadium no one caused any trouble and left peacefully. I was glowing with pride. I felt soooo proud to be a Korean. When I got home at 6 in the morning, I got a page from my cousin saying that I came out on t.v. I was sooooooo embarrassed. I'm really glad that I didn't get to see myself on t.v. I probably came out as a crazy, screaming fan. I don't even want to think how ugly and fat I came out. Anyways, my grandma called me to tell me the same thing. She's soooo cute. She said that when she saw my face on t.v. she called out my name several times. It was a historical moment for Korea and Koreans and I'm soo happy I was able to be a part of it. I also went to see Minority Report with my cousin. It was really good until the last 10 minutes, but Steven Spielburg can't help himself. Those of you who haven't seen the movie will understand what I'm talking about after you seen it. Overall it was a really great movie with some surprises and a scene with Tom Cruise topless. Let me just say, YUMMY!!! I wasn't much of a Cruise fan but after this movie, agio, Tom Cruise JJANG!!! I still haven't done any of my readings for my summer courses. I was bad and just played. I should start now... Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:11 p.m.
Monday, July 1, 2002

Thank you GOD!!!!

I got my grades and I did really well!!! I thought I was going to get a "C" in my War and Diplomacy History class cuz I didn't do so well on my midterm and paper, but I got a "B"!!! I still can't believe it!! I went to see my grades expecting the worst but I did really well! Right now I'm kinda of breathless from jumping up and down thanking God!! I got a "B" in my War and Diplomacy class, a "B+" in my History of Modern Europe, and an "A-" in my History of Prostitution class. I'm soooooo happy!! Thank you God!! Prayer really works. I hope I do just as well or better in my summer classes. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 02:34 p.m.
Sunday, June 23, 2002

Bored...

Today I had absolutely nothing to do. School ended last week and I don't have to go back for summer school until next week. Also, I didn't have to go tutoring so I was home all day. I was bored out of my mind. I always thought that it would be heaven to have nothing to do and just relax, but I was WRONG!!! I never really had time off cuz I always had to work or go to school, so I longed for a day where I can just do nothing. I would probably deny ever saying this, but after experiencing such boredom, I think I'm much happier going to school and work. I can't believe I just said that!!! But right now, that's what I'm feeling. So many things happened last weekend. On Saturday, my cousin and I went drinking at HITE. Her eye-candy worked there so we got really good service. I don't think I would want to go there again though. Nothing can beat Nandarang. I love that place!! I allowed my cousin to order the beer. Bad choice. She chose to drink Michelob which the most awful tasting beer. >.< She's not much of a drinker so I ended up drinking most of the pitcher. It made me realize even more that I don't like drinking that much. I love the drinking atmosphere but not the liquor. Anyways, my cousin and I had those moments that you can only have when you are drinking. We even cried a little bit. It was really great cuz I live for those moments. I also found out something that put me in peace after sooo many years of feeling guilty and depressed. I found out from my cousin that her brother, my cousin oppa didn't hate me. I always believed that he died hating me. She told me that he wrote me a letter trying to explain why he distanced himself from me when he immigrated here. When we were really young, living in Korea, we were really close. He was everything to me. He was my protector, my bestfriend, my oppa. I loved him sooo much that even when I immigrated here, I never stopped thinking about him. When he came years later, I was sooo excited about having my oppa again. I thought it would be like old times but I was wrong. He and I fought sooooo much. We couldn't even be in the same room. Our relationship was never the same. We avoided each other and barely talked to one another. We never got to patch things up cuz he died in a car accident. For the next ten years, I went on believing that he hated me cuz I wasn't his pretty little dongseng anymore. Instead, I was this fat ugly thing he didn't recognize. While drinking with my cousin, she told me that my oppa didn't hate me but rather felt disappointed in himself that he couldn't take care of me. He felt inferior whenever he was around me cuz I spoke English and he didn't. He thought that I didn't need him anymore. I couldn't believe it. My oppa didn't hate me and to know that finally, brought me soooooo much peace. I wish I had know sooner but I believe it's better later than never. I will never forget that day. On Sunday, some of my friends decided to call me. I felt sooo loved. Parisa called me telling me that she had two operations. I kinda yelled at her for not calling me sooner but her argument was, why call when I couldn't do anything but worry? I told her that she was being selfish. I may have not been able to do anything but still, I think I have a right to know. The least I could have done was pray for her. I made her promise that if anything was wrong with her, she will call me. She's coming this week to have my dad work his magic on her. I can't wait to see her. She tells me that I'm such a mommy cuz I feel like I have to take care of everyone. I can't help it though. When someone I care about is sick I need to do something. But she is right, sometimes I do go overboard and I'm the one who gets hurt cuz some people just walk all over me. It's sooo hard to change especially when it comes to people I love. Anyways, like it or not, Parisa is going to get some motherly TLC when she comes over. Audrey called telling me that she took her LSATs but didn't do so well. I felt sooo bad for her. I know how hard she worked. She's soooo smart and I know she will do better next time. Kelz also called and it's always great hearing from her. Hopefully what we planned for 4th of July works out. I can't wait. My cousin unnie called too. She wanted to check up on me. It's soooo funny though. She was the one who was buzzed yet, she called me to see if I was alright. I told her that I was alright and two pitchers of beer does not faze me. Sunday was a good day where I got to catch up with my friends. Oh, today while I was talking to Elinor, I found out that she was going to Hawaii with her boyfriend. Also, Parisa is going to Alaska with her boyfriend. I am soooo jealous!!! I want to go to Hawaii and Alaska too. Maybe I need a boyfriend. Hmmm...maybe I'll get lucky and find the right boyfriend who will take me to Korea. Hahahaha... yeah right!!! I should stop dreaming!! Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 02:25 a.m.
Tuesday, June 18, 2002

FREE!!!

Yes, I'm FREE!! Finals are over. I just came back from taking my last final. I don't think I did so well but it's ok. I'm getting a good grade in there so far, so I'll be happy if I pass. Man, my standards have gotten sooo low. Before, I would be sooo depressed if I didn't Ace my final or my class. Now, I'm just praying that I get a C or better. What has happened to me? I want to be ambitious again. I will get a chance to this summer. I have 16 units this summer and all I will be doing will be studying. I'm aimming for a 4.0. I don't think I can do it but I'm going to try. I have a week off before summer school starts again. I can't wait. I don't have to work either so I will be competely FREE!!! I think I will call my cousin and go hang out with her. Maybe we can go to Nandarang. I had a chance to hang out with her last week but I had a paper due which I got a B on!!^^ I'm proud of myself cuz I don't know what the hell I was writing and I still got a B. Go figure. I had all things I wanted to write but I think my brain just died on me. I can't think anymore. I have been taking finals for 5 hours already. I think I need to go home and take a long nap. I think I deserve it since I didn't sleep a wink last night. Kelz, thanks sooo much for uploading the picture for me. The next time you come, I want to learn how to upload pics and stuff so I can my blog pretty like you did for me. Thanks again!!! Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 05:12 p.m.
Thursday, June 13, 2002

What a day!!!

It all started today at one in the morning while I was staying up to write my paper. Yes, yes, I proscrastinated again. Now it's just a given that I wait the last minute to write any paper. I thought I had a good handle on the time and I was going to finish my paper on time, have time to type it up, and get to my first class on time. Boy, was I wrong!!! I finished my paper 30 minutes later than expected cuz I couldn't make my paper flow. By the third page, I didn't know what the hell I was talking about. I just started typing the pages I had and filled in the empty blanks later. Finally when I was done, I rushed to get ready for school. I was 30 minutes late which meant that I had to bother someone from class for his or her notes. I hate bothering people!! Anyways, I put the finishig touches on my paper and hit the print button. I got up to go to the bathroom, but my brother was in there and it seemed like he wasn't going to come out for awhile. I was sooooo happy that for once my procrastination worked for me instead of against me. I took a shower and brushed my teeth few hours before so I really didn't need to use to the bathroom. It would have been nice if I could have splashed some cold water on my face to wake myself up but oh well... I ran out of my apartment and ran about a block until I thought my heart was going to burst. I really need some exercise!!! A block ahead I saw the bus coming but I knew I was going to miss it so I just let that one go, but right after that bus came another one and I ran for that one. I was at the bus stop and I was ready to get on when that stupid bus driver just ignored me and drove past me!! I was soooooo mad. I ran for nothing and I wait for ten minutes for another bus to come. I was soooo late!!! I was not in a good mood. Emotions were running high cuz I didn't get a wink of sleep. I was feeling ok by the time I got to my first class. I didn't miss much so that was good. Everything was going smoothly and I was really getting into the lecture. She was talking Sex Tourism and she was giving us lots of notes to write. People began to moan and groan when she kept putting up more of her notes on the screen. I was sooooo mad at the people who were complaining. First of all, the professor is the coolest person. She is such a great lecturer and makes the class sooo much fun. Also, she is considerate enough to give us her notes so that we can have great, organized notes that would actually help in exams. I don't know any other professor in UCLA or in any college who would lay out her notes like and these stupid idiots were moaning and groaning making her feel bad!!! WTF!!! She heard people complaining and ended up not showing us all of her notes. We missed out just cuz of some stupid people who didn't want to write anymore. It's just copying notes, how hard is that? I tried to forget about them and went to my next two classes. Nothing happened during that time. I was just bored out of my mind. After my last class, I went to the book store to buy a book I forgot to buy a few weeks ago. I needed to buy it cuz when I went to borrow it in the library I found out that someone stole it!! Why do people steal books? Especially a book you read once and never look at again. Anyways, I went to the bookstore but it was sold out!! Now my only choice is to go Powell library and read it there. It's on reserve so it won't be too hard to find. The only bad thing is that I won't be able to borrow it and take it home. I'm going to have to take time out of my Friday to read. Thank goodness I have no tutoring that day. I walked to the bus stop sweating like a pig cuz I had a long sleeve shirt on along a jacket. Damn heat wave!!! I didn't take off my jacket cuz I wanted to spare people of the ugly sight of having to see my fat protruding through my shirt. Ewww... like I said, I really need to exercise. I finally got home and found out that I might not get money for summer school from finanical aid cuz I didn't fill out some stupid form. I remember someone from finanical aid telling me that all I had to do is fill in that summer school enrollment bubble in the fasfa and I would be all set!! I filled out that other form today and now I'm just hoping for the best. I can't go to summer school if I don't get any finanical aid. I was having such a bad day but I tried not to let anything get to me. I kept a smile on my face and thought on the bright side. At least I wasn't on my period but guess what?!!! I got my period today!! Seriously what a day!!! But going through all this today, I'm not at all mad or depressed. Actually, I was pretty good about keeping a smile on my face. When I think about it, today wasn't such a bad day. Things worked for the best. I mean, I finished my paper, I was smart enough to take a shower before writing the paper not after so I didn't go to school dirty, I wasn't that late for school, I can read the book on Friday cuz it's on reserve, not going to summer school doesn't sound that bad, and I got my pilate exercise video today so I can exercise and getting my period isn't that bad. I mean that means I'm healthy. Overall today wasn't the worst day. Maybe cuz I didn't let it be. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 09:32 p.m.
Wednesday, June 5, 2002

kimbap, babies and pokemon...

Yesterday my little cousins came over to play!!^^ I love it when they come. They are the sweetest things. Their mother came over with some kimbap. Sooo yummy!! She is the best cook, well actually all the female members of my family can cook really well, except me!! >< Oh well... I can always learn. Just need to get off my lazy butt. Anyways, back to my little cousins. The youngest one is 2 and the oldest is 5. They are absolutely adorable. They came running into my room to give me a BIG hug and kiss. How sweet is that? Also, the little one, he grabbed my hand and led me to the living room so that I can eat some kimbap. He wanted to make sure I ate. I gave him a hug and said thank you and with his baby talk, he said your welcome. My heart just melted. He only speaks English!!! Also, he's soooo brave!! He had a cold and my dad was doing some acupressure to relieve his running nose and high fever, and he just laid there not crying or anything, and when my dad had to poke his upper ear with a needle to bring down his fever, he didn't cry. He wanted to show he was a BIG BOY!!! Sooooo cute. I felt this weird stirring in my heart. I wanted to keep him as my own. When we were watching the pokemon movie, Mewtwo Returns, both of my cousins snuggled next to me. I felt such contentment. I had more fun watching them enjoy the movie than the movie itself. Seeing their eyes shine with innocence made me sooo emotional. I hated to see them leave. I didn't want to them to go. The five year old asked me if I could go with them. I wanted to. *SIGH* Man, look at me gushing over these kids like I'm their mother!! I just love kids soooooo much especially my little cousins. Can't wait until they come back. Oh, while watching pokemon, Mewtwo reminded me of Jang Woo Hyuk. Just the lonely, strong aura around mewtwo and the face made me think of Woo Hyuk. Am I crazy?

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:54 p.m.
Saturday, May 25, 2002

Spirit!!

I just saw a preview screening of Spirit Stallion of Cimarron. It's sooo good. Must see. I mean there is no reality to this animation but still it's a feel good movie. Bring tissue!! It's sooo cute. I also went shopping. I didn't get any clothes but I bought a cd rack for really cheap!!!^^ Yesterday I went to a lecture about the history of Chinese in Los Angeles. It was really interesting and it made me want to write a book about the history of Koreans in L.A. My friends want me to write it cuz Koreans are not represented very much. I'm really thinking about it. I mean if I want to get my masters and phd, I need to write a thesis and a book so I might as well write something that interests me. I will put it on my list of things I need to do before I turn 60. Hopefully 10 years from now I can go around colleges lecturing about my book. Imagining my name in front of a book does sound good. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 03:04 p.m.
Saturday, May 18, 2002

Bruins!!!

Elinor just called me telling me she got into UCLA!!! I am soooo happy for her. She kept doubting that she will get in cuz of her GPA, but I told her to keep the faith. I knew she would get in. She is soooo smart!!! She is a fellow bruin!!! I'm soo excited for her. Now, just need you, Grace!! I know you will get in too. Remember you also need to keep the faith. What is meant to be will be!!! And you are meant to be a Bruin!!!

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 08:04 p.m.
Thursday, May 16, 2002

Midterms...

School is getting soooo much better!! I got my midterm results back. I did really well in my History of Prostitution class. I got a perfect score in my essay and one wrong with one of the terms so I got a 96%!!! Also, with my Modern European History, I got a B+ on my paper that I just worked on the night before. I was really scared that I wouldn't do so well cuz I didn't do much of the readings so I have that many quotes or examples from the text to support my paper. He commented that it was kinda short but he really enjoyed reading my paper. I tried sooo hard to make my paper interesting and not dry filled with boring information. It was a narrative where I made myself into a courtesan accused of being a witch. I had sooo much fun writing it. I protrayed myself as a courtesan cuz that was what were were learning in my Prostitution class. He was really impressed even though I didn't have much readings to back up my points!!^^ I was literally walking on air when I got that paper back on Monday. I didn't do as well in the History of War and Diplomacy in the Cold War. I didn't really expect to do well cuz that night when I was suppose to be studying, I was online until 3 a.m. downloading stuff. When I got off, I was going to study but I fell asleep waking up at 6 a.m. I studied for about an hour and then went to school to take my midterm. I was praying that I would pass. I really thought I would fail since I barely studied but to my surprise I got a C. I'm actually very happy with that. Afterall, I expected sooo much lower. So overall, I did really well with midterms. I'm really motivated to study these days. I'm actually doing my readings!!! I still hate school with a passion but at least I'm doing well. Work got a little easier since I left the hakwon. I come home earlier while making more money. The only problem is the teenager I'm tutoring. She has soooo many moodswings. Makes me scared to go tutor her cuz I don't know if she will be mad or happy. I don't remember being that moody in high school. Well... I can't really complain, I'm making good money and she does apologize when she gets mad. I went to my aunt's place to eat with the family on Mother's day. I got to see my cousins. They are sooo big!! I can't believe that one is going to be a junior in high school and the other is going to the 4th grade. I still remember changing their diapers and playing with them. My other cousins who are younger didn't get to come so I missed out on their hugs and kisses. They give the sweetest hugs and kisses. My cousin unnie was there too. That is amazing cuz she's never home. She looked sooo sick though. She looks like she's losing more weight and she barely weighs 90 pounds. All I see is skin and bones and she doesn't want to go to the doctors. One day, I'm going to have to drag her. Sooo jealous though.. she's losing weight when she wants to gain and I'm gaining weight when I want to lose. I wish I can give her some of my fat. It would make both of us very happy!!^^ We had a good conversation and we're actually in the same phase of just wanting to stay home. Finally the party girl in her is winding down. She's also tired of her eye-candy and wants to break up with him. Poor guy...I know he will suffer for awhile. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 01:37 p.m.
Wednesday, May 15, 2002

AHCHOO!!!!!

I'm sick!!! Agio, my nose is running and I want to sleep all the time. Everyday for the past few days, I've been sleeping at 10 or 11. Usually I go to bed at 1 after "streetsmarts" but these days, I've been sooo tired. I have midterms on Monday and Wednesday. It never fails. I get sick when I have to study. My body knows and likes to torture me. I want to be done with midterms so I can concentrate on the second half of the course. I'm hoping to study more. I always say that. I've noticed I talk about school too much but that's what consumes my life. I think I will be lost when I graduate. I mean for the past 16-17 years I have been in school and my identity was based on being a student. What will I be when I graduate? Oh well... think more about that later. I should be concentrating on graduating. I quit my job on Thursday. It was kinda sad. My boss made me promise to drop by once and awhile. I told her that for awhile, I will come by to make the math worksheets. I'm really going to miss the kids. Some of them kept hugging me, telling me that they will miss me. I felt sooo bad. I hope the other tutor will do better than me. She seems really smart but she has no experience. I don't know if she will be able to control the kids. I feel sorry for her already. My brother graduated from junior high on Tuesday. I was soooo proud of him. He graduated with a 3.5 gpa. He has come a long way. I use to worry about him sooo much. There were times when I was on my knees praying to God that he will be able to graduate and do better in school. Prayer works!!!^^ He made me sooo proud. I found myself tearing up when I saw him walking from stage to get his diploma. Now, I'm worried about him going to high school. He's going to Belmont, which is the worst school in LA. I hate him going there but for now I can't send him anywhere else. I tried to get him to a better school but that didn't work. I'm hoping to send him to private school when I graduate and start making real money. He just need to suffer through Belmont for a year. Robert, Fighting!!!^^ Last weekend, Grace came down to go to a prom with a friend. She was doing him this BIG favor but he doesn't even thank her!!! I didn't like him from the beginning. He made Grace pay for pictures and her trip to LA. I mean, fine, Grace paid for her dress but the least he can do is pay for everything else. I was sooo mad at him that when Grace gave me the phone to talk to him, so I can give him directions to my house, I asked him if he was going to pay for her dinner. I wanted to make sure Grace doesn't pay for everything. I also yelled at him to take good care of her and if he didn't I would come after him. He's response was "oh, I'm soooo scared." He didn't even open the car door for her!! Idiot!!! I'm sooooo sorry if I embarrassed you, Grace. But I did that cuz he should know that he was soooo lucky to have you go to prom with him. I found something really enlightening the weekend Grace came down. I have some great friends. Grace needed her makeup done and it would have cost her fifty dollars if she went to the beauty salon. I called up my friend, Elinor, who I practically grew up with to ask if she can do Grace's makeup. At first, she told me she couldn't do it cuz she had to go out, but 5 minutes later, she calls me back and tells me she can do it. She cancelled her doctor's appointment just to help me out!! What a sweetie!!! She did a great job!! And to help Grace out more, Elinor gives her makeup to have so she can use it if the makeup comes off. How sweet is that? I never see her and we hardly talk, but I found out that day that we can always count on each other. We may have nothing in common but if I needed her, I know she will drop everything and come to my aid. To know that is soooo precious to me. I think I blogged enough. I hope this long blog makes up for me not blogging often. Oh, one more thing, I'm sooo glad you are alright, Choongjae!! You really gave us a good scare. You really did surprise me!! Choongjae, get well soon!! Choongjae and Shinhwa FIGHTING!!!! Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:27 p.m.
Saturday, May 4, 2002

Little sleep...

I only got about three hours of sleep yesterday. I wish I can say that I stayed up to catch on my readings but unfortunately I can't. I just stayed up downloading and browsing the web. How stupid am I? I have midterms this coming Monday and two papers due the week after. I have been reading but not enough. I only finished one book. I have sooooo many more to go. I wanted to blog yesterday cuz I was actually in the mood but when I got to my third sentence I realized that I didn't know what I was talking about. Also, my computer froze on me. Made me wonder if my computer knew I was writing crap and was trying to save me from embarrassment. Sometimes it's good to take the hint so I gave up on blogging for that night. I wonder if it's the lack of sleep or I'm just an emotional person but I've been wanting to cry everytime I listen to Shinhwa. I'm listening to Shinhwa's fifth album right now I have this lump on my throat. I love the song "I Pray 4 U". (Hope the title is right) It makes me want to smile and bawl at the same time. This is why I love korean music. It makes you go through sooo many emotions at one time. I love this song cuz I think one of the best thing you can do for a person is pray for them. My favorite line from the song is Pilgyo's part where he sings, "Whenever I get worried about you without any particular reason, I pray for you." Sorry about the weird translation but you guys get the point right? How sweet is someone praying for you without any particular reason? Too many people pray only when they are in desperate need but to pray for another person without any particular reason, but only in hopes she or he is doing well is the best thing you can do for a person. Damn, here I go again. Whenever I blog, all my topics are too heavy and emotional. I tell myself to make my blogs lighter but once I get into it, I can't help it. I'm really not like this in person. I really should get some sleep. Eight more hours before I can go home. Damn school and work!!! I wanted to write more about Shinhwa's album, marriage, and other stuff but I don't want you guys to think I've gone completely psycho so I'll leave it for another entry. Until I blog again, I pray 4 U...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 12:11 p.m.
Wednesday, April 24, 2002

update

I wanted to update you guys about what happened at work for those of you who actually come to my blog and are interested in what is going on in my boring life. Well, I went to work and right away I told my boss that I was quitting cuz I know if I didn't I would have chickened out. She was really understanding about it, which made me feel even worse. I told that I couldn't come to work anymore cuz I was getting really stressed, and I needed to concentrate in school. She asked me if it was the pay, and I told it was, but it wasn't just that. She offered to pay me more, but I couldn't do it. I don't want to work there anymore. Besides, I already took the other job, and I didn't want another confrontation. I felt like I was betraying her cuz she was sooooooo nice about me quitting. She was disappointed but she didn't yell at me. In fact she kept apologizing whenever she came into my room. I felt soooo guilty that by the end of the day I wanted her to yell at me. I wanted to tell her to yell at me so I can feel better and not sooo guilty. I think I will get her a present for being soooo nice. I will miss her. She was the nicest boss I ever had. I hope she doesn't hate me too much. It's sooo funny how we get to attach to people sooooo easily. I guess since we are social animals, it's only to be expected. Talking about getting attached, I'm really beginning to realize how attached I have become to Mini. It's only been about 10 month since I met Mini and now that she's leaving in two months, it makes me soooo sad. I'm going to miss her soooo much. There were times when things were a little shaky and we were annoyed with each other, but those times have passed. We are closer than ever and I'm going to miss her sooo much. I'm going to miss talking and laughing about nonsense with her. My room is going to be sooooo empty without her loads of magazines, books, and posters on the floor. Most of all I'm going to miss her just being here. I'm sorry Mini, I know you are not ready for moments. I'm such a sap. Before I get more mushy, I'll go. I need to do some of my readings for my classes. I have mid-terms starting next week. Damn, already mid-terms. Where does the time go?

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:43 p.m.
Monday, April 22, 2002

Whew...

That walk from the south campus to north campus is long!! I have all history classes and yet most of them are in the south campus. Why is that? Shouldn't my classes be located in the north campus since that's where all the social science buildings are? Well... looking at the brighter side, it is good exercise for me and God knows I need it. I found a new job this weekend. Actually my dad's friend introduced me to her friend that needed a private tutor for her daughter. It's better pay and hours. I'm looking forward to tutoring her but I am definitely not looking forward to telling my boss that I am quitting. I'm sooo scared that she will hate me. Since I am the only one that really knows how to make the math worksheets and how to take care of the kids' homework needs, I know she will resent me for quitting and not giving her enough notice. Is two weeks notice enough? I hate leaving people high and dry. But if I think selfishly, I really need the money and the time. I am not getting paid enough for everything I do at the hakwon and it takes up too much of my time. Also, I have been thinking about quitting cuz it was getting too stressful. I wish I can find someone who can take my place but my friends are too old and over qualified to be working at a hakwon. Why would they want to work at a hakwon when they can find better work where they can get paid better? I think a hakwon job is for high school students who just need a little extra money. I hope my boss understands.

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 12:36 p.m.
Monday, April 22, 2002

Need a new look!!^^

Mitra says that she will change my background if I blog, so here I am!!!^^ hehehehehe She made this really pretty Minwoo background with her photo shop. One of my favorite picture of Minwoo!!!^^ Mitra jjang!!! Anyways, for the past month I have been thinking about quitting my job at the tutoring center. The kids are driving me crazy. I never realized helping a child with the spelling bee would be that stressful. I dread going to work every single day. Everyday I try to work up the nerve to tell my boss that I'm quitting but I'm such a coward. I can't do it. I feel like I owe her for all the nice things she did for me. I hate confrontations. I want to quit sooooo badly. I really thought I will quit on June but I don't think I will. If I quit on June I will have to look for another job and work only for another six months. I will be graduating this year (crossing fingers) and working on my teaching career so I will have to quit any job I have that moment. I might as well just keep the job I have now and just deal with the stress. Besides my boss promised me a raise so I will just wait it out. Just eight more months!!! Hopefully I will survive!! School is the same. I have been doing some of the readings so I won't be too behind this time. I need to graduate!!! MUST KEEP UP WITH THE READINGS. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 12:07 p.m.
Thursday, April 18, 2002

babo umee!!!

I hate daylight savings time!!! I didn't mind it before, but what happened today made me change my mind. It all started yesterday. I woke up at 6:30 a.m. thinking I should get ready for church. I went to my dad's bedroom to wake him. When I woke him up, he told me that it's too late to go to church cuz mass already started. I realized that I forgot to change the time. I went back to sleep and woke up at one. I had soooo much sleep that later that night I couldn't sleep. I ended up watching some late night t.v. shows and talking to minhee until 4 in the morning. I thought since I was sleeping late, I should turn on two alarm clocks. That did not help at all. When I woke up and looked at the time, it was already 8:20. I was late for school. My first class started at 8:30, which meant that I was not going to make it. My dad's friend ended up having to drive me cuz my dad was busy. I hate bothering people especially with my stupidity. The class I missed was my favorite class. It's the one class I look forward to going. Damn, I'm such a babo!!! I'm just hoping to God that I didn't miss much and someone will be nice enough to lend me his or her notes. I hate missing class!! It makes me feel sooooo stupid and empty. What a way to start a new quarter!! Can someone give me a good beating so it will knock some sense into me? Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 09:14 a.m.
Monday, April 8, 2002

Fun Fun Fun...

I had soooo much fun this spring break!!! Well... the beginning of spring break sucked cuz I had to work, but the latter part of spring break was awesome. Kelz came down to K-town to celebrate Minhee's b-day. We went to Nandarang on Saturday. Yes, yes I know it was the day before Easter but I didn't drink that much. I was actually very good!!^^ I only had one bottle of beer and two shots of soju. My companions on the other hand drink way more than that but it made everything better. It's sooo true when people say that alcohol makes you honest. All three of us were spilling our guts from our first impression of each other to topics like love and friendship. We were having moments left and right and usually Minhee's not ready for moments. I had sooo much fun and I never felt soooo close to them than I did that night. I truly feel like they are my real dongsengs. I know it sounds corny but what can I say, I'm a corny person who lives for moments!!^^ The only thing that could have made it even better was if babychunsa aka "the queen" was with us. Wish you are here!!! The day after Nandarang, something really scary happened. Minhee got really sick. I thought it was nothing serious at first. I thought it was just a hang over and if she threw up she would be ok. I was soooo wrong. She was right. She was dying. She could have gotten a stroke if my dad didn't catch it. Thank God my dad is an acupressurist. He was able to help Minhee feel better. I was sooooo scared. I felt sooo helpless cuz I couldn't help her when she was suffering sooo much. She's better now. Let me give you some advice. Seriously no matter how much you guys like cold stuffs, don't take in sooo much of it. It really ruins your health. Cold water, ice cream...ect. Don't drink or eat too much of it. Don't be sorry later. Just want all the people I love to be healthy!!! I also started school today. I think this quarter will be good. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I don't want to make the same mistake I made last quarter and start crying again. I'll stop babbling now. Hope you are ok queen!! Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 03:22 a.m.
Tuesday, April 2, 2002

Home Sweet Home?

It's finally spring break!!! No more school for a whole week!! It would be sheer bliss if I had break from work too. Oh well...can't have everything in life. This school quarter wasn't as bad as last quarter but it wasn't that good either. Once again, I proscrastinated too much and had to drop a class. It hurt like hell to drop that class. It wasn't physcial pain but emotional pain. I couldn't stand my stupidity and the guilt. I hate it when I cry, but I couldn't help it that day. I had to run to the nearest bathroom and let it all out. I was sooo angry with myself. I'm already a year behind from graduating and here I am wasting even more time by dropping another class. Why am I sooo stupid? Why am I sooo lazy? I wanted someone to beat the crap out of me that day hoping it would knock some sense into me. I would love to say that it's really not my fault, I was too busy workng and taking care of my family, but those would be all excuses. Yes, I do have family responsiblities and have to work, but I still had time to study. Instead of studying, I did other things, stupid things that only wasted my time. My family is counting on me graduating soon and getting a full time job and I'm letting them down. This guilt has been affecting me deeply. These days, I don't even want to go home. Usually when I come near the front gate of my apartment I feel a wave of relief and comfort but recently, the sense of relief and comfort has been replaced with guilt and dread. That scares me. It's not home sweet home anymore. Going home was the highlight of my day but not anymore. I dread coming home to a sink full of dishes,my brother's homework I have to correct, and the guilt always looming over me whenever I see my family. I feel sooo drained and empty. I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs but refrain from doing so knowing it would concern my dad. The world seems to be closing in on me and I can't do anything. I can't yell or run. I feel stuck, helpless and lost. I'm not me anymore. I've become someone I don't like; selfish, mean and sarcastic. I try to reach out to God but feel that I am disappointing him also. Hopefully things will get better. I have to keep reminding myself tomorrow is a new day.,.

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 01:20 a.m.
Sunday, March 24, 2002

Happy Day!!!^^

Mid-terms are over!!!! Happy Dance! *hula hula* hula hula* hehehehehe Also, three day weekend!!! Enjoy everyone. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 01:42 p.m.
Friday, February 15, 2002

Happy Valentines's day!^^

Hope you guys had a great valentine's day like I did. I thought all the kids that I tutor hated me but judging from my candy pile, I guess not. They were soooo sweet. The kept coming up to my desk with a handful of candy. I thought my students hated me cuz I have been yelling at them a lot cuz they didn't do their work or listen to me. I had a break through yesterday though. For the first time since I have been working with them, they were quiet. They didn't talk for 2 hours. I think that is a record!!! I finally learned how to control the kids. I guess even though I yelled at them they don't really take it too the heart cuz I'm not yelling at them out of spite or cuz I hate them. I'm glad they know that!!! For the first time, I'm actually beginning to think I can be a good teacher. Anyways, I wanted to blog on valentine's day cuz I wanted to share with you a poem my friend, Jin wrote about valentine's day. It's really good. Happy Valentine's Day

A sweet smell of red roses
A beautiful box of chocolate
A day when lovers share this moment
Giving such gifts to one another
How special this moment can be
With love this day brings
But for some the awful truth
The one they loved flew the coup
And for those without a love
What a horrible day
A day to remind them they are alone
Who made up this retched day
But don't despair
For one day the love will come
And they will wonder when they were alone
For all is lovely
For each and everyone
With Love Happy Valentine's Day

Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:14 p.m.
Thursday, February 14, 2002

Feeling bitchy

Gave attitude to my dad and yelled at my brother and students this week. Why do I feel sooo frustrated with people these days? I get frustrated with the littlest things. I shouldn't have given my dad attitude but I couldn't help it. He wanted me to write some letter to the Housing Department cuz the owner of the building was raising our rent. Damn, I hate the owner. It wasn't that I was mad at my dad, but I didn't want to do it. I hate writing stuff for people. It annoys me. I'm insecure about my writings. What annoyed me even more was that I was reading the letter my friend wrote for her dad and it was hella good. She sounded soooo educated and official. I felt sooo stupid. Don't need to be reminded that I'm dumb. I already know. Leave me alone. *pout* I know that my dad and his girlfriend thought I was being a sagagee (bitch). Looking back, I was being a major sagagee. Sorry dad. I yelled at my brother cuz he was giving me attitude. Poetic justice, huh? I was helping him with his algebra when he starts complaining that I was doing it wrong and he learned it a different way. I was soooo mad. First of all, I was annoyed already coming home after tutoring other kids for 4 hours. Also, I was hungry. Being hungry and annoyed is not a good combo. I went off at my brother telling him that I was trying to teach him the easier way and I wasn't doing it wrong. I told him that I hated when he questioned my methods when the outcome comes out the same. I told him if he didn't trust me, why was he asking me? I yelled at him in front of my dad and his girlfriend. Once again, they probably thought I was being a sagagee again. After I yelled at him, I felt really bad. I didn't mean to go off at him so harshly. I apologized and gave him a big hug. I hope he understands that just cuz I yell him doesn't mean that I hate him. He can be sensitive at times. Sorry bro. My students are annoying too. Whenever I go to work to tutor those kids, I get really annoyed. I hate going to work. Anything they do annoys me. I yell soooo much in there. Before, I wasn't as mean and I hardly yelled. What is happening to me? I always regret yelling at the kids but I still do it. Maybe it's time to look for another job but that's another headache. I can't quit cuz the owner of the hakwon is busy with her piano hakwon and she has no one to help with the tutoring hakwon other than me. I have been working at hakwons for 6 years and in this particular hakwon, I'm the only one that knows how to make the math worksheets and organize them. Don't know what to do!!! Someone please help!!! Maybe I need some spiritual help. Need to think about this more. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:28 a.m.
Wednesday, January 30, 2002

I'm back!!!^^ Happy New Year!!!

It's been sooo long since I blogged. I was complaining how my friends weren't blogging, which made me a hypocrite since I haven't been blogging either. Well guys, I'm blogging so you guys blog too!!! Wow, it's already the new year. I hope this year will be better than the last. There were some great moments here and there such as meeting great lifetime friends and getting even closer to people who were already friends. I learned a lot about myself and other people last year. I've learned that you can't really know someone until you lived with them for awhile. I learned that the hard way. I lost a great friend, who I thought could have been a lifetime friend. I thought I could count on her to always be there for the good and bad times. Be my advisor, confidant, sister and even be my children's godmother. It's a shame how five years of friendship can be destoryed within three months of living with one another. I've learned through that experience that patience and understanding is the key to a great friendship or any kind of relationship. My friend and I gave up trying to be patient or understanding. We still talk to one another but it's just not the same. I've also learned that people come and go from our lives everyday, but the real special ones stay with you through the anger, depression, and annoyance. I know this is really corny and mushy, but I really want my friends to know that I treasure them deeply. My life is better due to your patience and understanding. Friendships are hard to maintain, especially the ones that really matter. It's soooo easy to just give up, get angry, and stop talking to one another. I want to let you guys know that I've lost already a great friend that I cared about deeply, and I really don't want that to happen again. I want us to be able to treat each other like family where we can always count on each and not worry that our friendship will end with an argument or misunderstanding. Families forgive and stick together through everything, never judging, resenting or leaving each other when life gets difficult. I want our friendships to be like that. My goal for this year, actually for life is to treat my friends like they were like my family member, and not taking anyone for granted, especially my family. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:07 a.m.
Monday, January 14, 2002

Sooooo Mad!!!!

Do I have a "step all over me" written across my chest? Is it my personality? Why do people think it's ok to walk all over me and I will turn the other way? I had a bad day today. My cousin and I were planning for a month to see a musical together and since she bought tickets to Lion King the last time, I offered to buy the tickets for Aida. Well, she calls me today and tells me that she can't go. She has to spend the weekend with her eye-candy. Her eye-candy is this guy who is 4 years younger than her. She tells me that she is just having fun with him and he's not that important, but today she decides he is important enough to ditch me and go on a trip with him. I spent over 150 dollars for these tickets and she left me hanging. I wouldn't mind it sooo much if she gave me some time, but she calls me today to tell me she can't make it. And tomorrow is the show! She is such a hypocrite. Damn, we were just talking about how blood was thicker than water but I guess not. Trying to make up for it, she tells me to get more info about other shows so we can go together in the future. I am not going anywhere with her anymore. I just hate flakes. I know that I will get over this, afterall, she is family, but I don't think I will be able to trust her for a long time. This wasn't the first time either. I should have suspected she would do this. *sigh* Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:41 p.m.
Friday, December 7, 2001

Productive Day!!^^

I just finished cleaning my room!! I'm really surprised that I actually got around to doing it. From yesterday I had an itching to clean. You can actually see the carpet on the floor. It's brown!!! hahahaha Also, yesterday I went to my counselor to talk about my future. He told me that I should get a minor in education cuz I am thinking about becoming a teacher. It will take longer for me to graduate but I think I should get the minor. Agio, this is totally not me. I'm usually not this productive. I wonder what's happening to me. Hmmm... maybe I'm maturing? hehehehe Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:20 p.m.
Saturday, December 1, 2001

Life...

I read this somewhere and I needed to blog it. Every life is like a journey. It begins, and then moves on toward a final destination. As you travel the road of life you meet special people whose lives affect you deeply. You do not want to forget them. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 02:19 p.m.
Tuesday, November 27, 2001

True friends...

I don't know but these days, especially today, I have been thinking about true friendship and what it means. I think it's cuz Mitra and Kelz came down to LA to hang out and seeing how we get along and how I have not been getting along with my ex-friend, it made me realize how important true friends are. I also came across a poem about friendship and I wanted to blog it. It's ironic cuz it was my ex-friend that sent it to me a long time ago. *sigh* To all my true friends out there, you know who you guys are, this poem is dedicated to you guys... A Friend......

(A)ccepts you as you are
(B)elieves in "you"
(C)alls you just to say "HI"
(D)oesn't give up on you
(E)nvisions the whole of you (even the unfinished parts)
(F)orgives your mistakes
(G)ives unconditionally
(H)elps you
(I)nvites you over
(J)ust "be" with you
(K)eeps you close at heart
(L)oves you for who you are
(M)akes a difference in your life
(N)ever Judges
(O)ffer support
(P)icks you up
(Q)uiets your fears
(R)aises your spirits
(S)ays nice things about you
(T)ells you the truth when you need to hear it
(U)nderstands you
(V)alues you
(W)alks beside you
(X)-plains thing you don't understand
(Y)ells when you won't listen and
(Z)aps you back to reality.
I hope I qualify as a true friend to all your guys!! If not, just whack me!!! hehehe Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:43 a.m.
Monday, November 19, 2001

Kuma Ma Ta La!!!

Sorry for the spelling!!^^ You guys know my spelling skills are very limited!! hehehe Yesterday I went to the musical, The Lion King. It was awesome!! The setting, the music, the costume, the talent...WOW!!! While watching the musical, I made a vow to take everyone I love to see it. I wanted to share it with everyone!! It make take awhile cuz I have to have a real job and be making real money. The ticket was $75 each!! The song Kum Ma Ta La which means no worries got to me!!! I have been really worried and depressed about school but after hearing that song, I realized that I was worrying for nothing. I mean, life is short, and why should I spend the majority of it worrying? I have a midterm tomorrow but I'm actually not worried. Whatever happens will happen. I will have to study though. Hahaha Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:39 a.m.
Sunday, November 4, 2001

Should be in class...

I had a mid-term today. It is taking place right now. I should have taken it but I wasn't ready for it. Thank goodness it was an optional mid-term. I have to kick ass in the final or else I am soooo dead. I also decided taking 20 units is not a sane thing to do. I'm going to drop my Latin History class. I am sooooooooooo happy with my decision. Well... I know it's going to come back to me later but I don't want to think about that right now. >< Yesterday I got some good news from my cousin. She got tickets for the Lion King for us. I wanted to see that for the longest time. I feel bad though. She probably spent a lot of money for the tickets. Thank you unnie!!^^ I'm happy with the Lion King tickets but what made my day was the fact that I got my cousin back!! With our busy lives, it was really hard for us to talk or even see each other. We barely got to see each other once a year. I feel like finally I have my cousin back. On Sunday we had one of these mushy family moments where we told each other that we will always be there for one another. *sniff sniff* We tried to make light of it by joking around but we knew that what we meant every word we said. Gosh, I am such a mushy person!!! Before I make you guys all gag...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:31 a.m.
Wednesday, October 24, 2001

A beautiful sight!!^^

Yesterday I went to Malibu with my cousin. We went to Duke's where you have this incrediable view of the beach. They also had the best pina colada I ever tasted. Yummm... I want to go back!!!^^ It was sooo great to talk to my cousin. We had a great time until the waitress ruined the whole lunch. Damn, she kept coming up to us asking if I was done. I still had half of my food on my plate. You should have seen my cousin's face!! >< Scary. She was like, if she comes again, she gets no tip. She was pissed off cuz it seems like she wanted us out real quick. I mean we are paying patrons so we have every right to be there. WTF!!! It wasn't even busy!! We were going to stay there for a while and drink coffee and enjoy the view, but my cousin couldn't stand the waitress so we left. We went to Moonshadow. My cousin told me there were three places where you get the best cocktails. Mooshadow was one of them. I don't remember the other two. Memory lost!! Sorry. >< We had some cocktails on the deck where there was live music and a great view of the beach. I saw such a cute sight at Moonshadow. There was this old married couple who were celebrating their 50th anniversary. They were dancing and it was such a sweet sight. They seemed like they really loved each other. I was soooo envious. It must have taken sooo much work and dedication to be married for 50 years. My cousin commented how her dream was to be married that long and be in that much love. Also, the woman said something that I would never forget. She said, "You don't remember what people say but you remember how they make you feel." That is sooooooooooo true!!! All those people that make me feel happy, I will always remember you guys!!! Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 09:05 p.m.
Monday, October 22, 2001

School: 2 Yoo Mee: 0

Bad bad bad day today!!! Damn school!!! I hate school sooo much. School is still beating the crap out of me!! I just found out that the two classes I hate the most will be giving mid-terms next week!!! Mid-terms are suppose to be during the fifth week, not the fourth week. I am sooooo dead!!! HELP!!! I am going to have to cram all this weekend. I was having thoughts about extending my stay at UCLA, but my dad is counting on me to graduate this coming June. Damn obligations!!! I am sooo scared of flunking out. I feel soo inferior to everyone. All the people are sooo smart. I feel like the dumb one that got into UCLA due to a mistake made by admissions. I need some soju!!! Minhee and Kelz, Nandarang ka ja!!! Until I blog again... wish me luck!!!

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 09:00 p.m.
Thursday, October 18, 2001

School is kicking my ass!!!

School:1 Yoo Mee:0 I'm annoyed with two of my professors. Don't know what the heck they are talking about. They go off into tangents that make it difficult for me to take notes. My notes are all disorganized. And the names are annoying!!! Being the worst speller, sometimes I want to scream out of frustration. Who names their kid Vortigern? What the heck is Ambrosius Aurecianus? In my Latin History, what is interconnectedness? How many prefixes and suffixes does one word need? What does that have to do with Latin History? Hope that doesn't come out in an exam!! Also, fell behind on my readings. It's only been two weeks of school and I'm already behind. What am I to do? Why do I procrastinate? I'm serious, procrastinate should be my middle name. Yoo Mee Proscrastinate Kim. What do you guys think? I think it describe me perfectly. Hehehe. If I fall even more behind, I would be dead. R.I.P. Yoo Mee!!! Maybe it won't be so bad. No midterms, research paper or finals. Hmmm... no!!! *Shakes Head* Must read! Must read! Must read! Well... later. Hehehe Today I got some belated b-day wishes. My b-day does matter to some!!! Thanks Kelz for the lovely Minu b-day card. I loved it. Also, thanks Mi Hae for your b-day wishes. Much love goes out to all of you who wished me a happy birthday and to those of you who didn't. I love you all!!! *MUHA* I just love those of you who did a little more!!! J/K Hehehhe Yesterday, I had dinner with my cousin and a friend for my b-day. Our mutal friend came along cuz it was her b-day too. After dinner, we went to Nandarang to have a couple of drinks. Nandarang is an ok place. They had boba, but it didn't taste all that great. You have to go to Boba World for the best boba. Only thing I liked about Nandarang was that music videos were playing in there. All I did was watch music videos. While watching music videos, Shinhwa's T.O.P came out. My cousin commented that she knew Eric!! She told me that she was a friend's dongseng or something and they all went drinking. I told her that I heard he was an asshole but she told me different. She told me that he was the sweetest thing. When he was in LA, he was this sweet, church-going guy. I felt sooo bad. I had him pegged as such a bad guy. *Feeling regretful* =( Not going to do that again. (I hope!!!) Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 09:55 p.m.
Wednesday, October 10, 2001

Spoke too soon!!^^

There were more people that actually remembered my b-day. Min Hee thanks for the e-card and the message!!^^ You really jjang!! Also, J person, you know who you are, thanks for the cake, e-card and the presents. I know we have been going through some shit but I think this has actually brought us back. Hopefully we won't stray away from our friendship!!!^^ Going to talk about my b-day tomorrow. Too tired. Had three bottles of beer with an empty stomach. Feeling good but tired. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:51 p.m.
Tuesday, October 9, 2001

The years are passing by!!!

Turned 22 today. Not too excited about it. It seems like the years are passing by and my life is at a standstill. Keep wondering if my b-day is even worth remembering. No one seems to care, it's just another day. Well... that's not fair. Some people have remembered such as my daddy, grandma, cousin unnie, and Liz. Thanks!!!^^ It's ok that that people don't remember my b-day. I know everyone is busy. I totally understand. =) Life does not involve around me. Besides, I find myself forgetting too!!!:P For example, today I saw this guy that I thought was cute awhile back. He was my T.A. for my Asian American Studies class. He's really not that cute, but his intellect got to me!!! He's a graduate student and he got his BA at Stanford!! He was lecturing one day and suddenly I saw him at a new light!!! He spoke with such intelligence and charm that my heart skipped a beat!!! *Be still my heart* He was also very sweet. When I had to make a presentation in my dicussion class, I kept looking at him cuz he seemed really interested in what I was saying. I love when people show me that they are listening by nodding or saying uh huh. He did both!!! And in addition he also smiled!!! hehehe After seeing him, I couldn't complain how there aren't any cute guys at ucla. There is at least one!!! hehehe Anyways, I saw him in the bus. He was writing something on his little notebook. Hmmm...wonder what he wrote. I couldn't help staring a little, but not too much cuz then it would be embarrassing if he caught me staring at him. hehehe Don't want to look stupid!!!:P We got off at the same stop. I let him walk in front of me so I can look at him without him knowing. He had headphones on and while he was walking he began to get into his music. It was the cutest thing. He got his groove on!!!^^ You know how korean rappers point and move their hands while they rap, well he was doing something like that with his hands. I had to laugh. I was really enjoying myself. I knew I was going to be late for class but I couldn't help just walking behind him. It seems like any moment he will break into a full dance. I didn't want to miss that!!! Oh, people, don't get my wrong, I wasn't following him, he and I were walking the same direction. I was just walking behind him, walking a little slow, that's all!!!^^ hehehe Anyways, my fun came to an end when he stopped to get a newspaper. I couldn't just stop and wait for him so I passed him and headed for my class. Damn that newspaper stand!!! Gosh, I went off in a real big tangent, huh? Well, my point was, I totally forgot that my b-day was today (cuz of that guy) until I read Liz's email wishing me a happy b-day!!^^ So stuff like that happens. Today may be the date of my birth but it's still just an ordinary day!! You guys take care!!!!!!^^ Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 11:00 a.m.
Tuesday, October 9, 2001

Big Headache!!!

Aigo, I have the biggest headache right now. Why am I using the computer when I should be resting? I have no idea!!^^ I should be getting some shut eye but... I don't know. I guess I'm addicted to my computer!! hehehe I shouldn't be, I should be resenting it. I think, actually, I know that all electronics hate me.>< I don't know why!!! I didn't do anything to them. Whenever I buy something new such as a computer, cd player, or vcr... something is always wrong with it. Even today, I thought would download something since I woke up early today to do my summary on one of my readings for Korean-American Relations class. Well... when I turned on my computer, everything began to go crazy!!! @@ The screen was wavy and I couldn't see anything!!! I was sooo scared. I thought something was seriously wrong with my computer. Luckily, nothing was wrong. Whew!!!^^ Then at school, I went to computer lab cuz I had an hour before my next class. When I got there, I remember I wanted to see some music videos that I couldn't get to watch since my computer was soooooooooo slow!!>< Anyways, I had to watch the music videos without any sound. Man, the one computer out of 30 had to have something wrong with it and lucky me had to choose it. Watching a music video without any sound is no fun!!!>< Computers aren't the only things that has it out for me. My vcrs were giving me trouble too!! I went through two vcrs before one decided to cooperate with me. Sometimes the vcr I have now acts up but it's not major, so it's ok. My other vcrs are in lock up in my closet. They are not allowed out ever!!! Hahahahaha *laughs evilly* The sight of them makes me mad cuz they messed up some of my videotapes. One of the tapes had g.o.d!!! I was soo mad. Aigo, there goes my head again!! Today, I saw the cutest thing. A kid that attends the tutoring place I work at started picking his nose. The kid is really cute (looks like a cute jjanggoo) and he’s only 5 years old. I bet you guys are wondering how someone picking his nose can be cute, but trust me, it was adorable!!!^^ He started picking his nose like it was the most natural thing to do, but then when he saw me looking at him, he covered his face with his hand and then started picking it again!! He thought since his hand was covering his nose, I wouldn't be able to see him doing it!! I had to fight the urge to laugh!! It was sooo cute. I mean, how does a five year old know that it's not appropriate to pick one's nose in public? When I was five, I picked my nose without caring who saw me. And who says picking your nose is bad? If it's in there and it's bothering you, it needs to come out one-way or another. It's not like anyone hasn't ever done it. Why does have to be this big nono? Yeah, it does look gross, which is probably why I don't do it, but is it really that gross? What are boogers anyway? Not in the dictionary!! Damn… Anyways, I think they are built up dirt in your nose. That's not that bad. Who made this rule that it's not right to pick your nose in front of people? I wanted to tell that little kid that it's ok. He didn't have to be ashamed. But… then again, not everyone agrees with me and he could be an outcast for a long time. That could scar him for the rest of his life. And I would be at fault. Does this sound ridiculous to anyone else or am I being dumb? Oh well... that's my two cents. My cousin paged me today. I was really surprised. She hardly ever pages or calls me. She left a message saying that she wanted to have dinner with me since it was going to be my b-day tomorrow. I don't trust it!!! If you know my cousin, you will understand. She is the most unreliable person. She just throws ideas at you and then never goes through with them. There are too many times where she's like, let's go to the movies and then I don't hear from her until the next family meeting. Well, since she is my cousin, I will give her the benefit of the doubt. I will go and wait for her. I hope I don't get stood up. I don't want to be standing out in the cold!!!>< It's been really cold in LA these days. It's actually feels like fall!!! Yay!! Love fall. Well... I think I will go take some Tylenol and get some sleep. Until I blog again...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 09:01 p.m.
Monday, October 8, 2001

Hard to say goodbye to yesterday

Yay!!!^^ Starting my first entry. Who would have thought a computer retard like me would have her own page?!!! Hehehe. All props go out to Jjanggoo omma, Min Hee!! Thanks and sarang hae my little dongseng!!^^ Gosh... I have sooo much to say. Hmmm... what to start with? Well, I know today is Sunday, but I think I will start with yesterday because sooo many memorable things have happened. Hence my hard to say goodbye to yesterday title. FYI... this is also my favorite Boyz II Men song!! My day yesterday started out really early. I had to wake up at 6:30 in the morning. One is probably wondering why I had to wake up that early, especially on a Saturday!!! Well, I had to go online to bid for some minu pics. Trust me they are worth it!! It wasn't really hard waking up yesterday. Acutally it was pretty easy. Wonder why I can't wake up this early on a school day. >< Anyways, when I got to the site, I found out that I didn't have to wake up sooo early... damn military time!!! But it was all good!! I got to download a m/v I wanted at morpheus. It takes sooo long to d/l one m/v!! >< For those of you who read my profile, you are wondering why I was bidding for minu pics when I am a g.o.d fan. Have you seen Minu?!!! He's hot!!! Hee Hee. Also, it was a favor for one of my favorite dongsengs and I know that she is going to share some of those pics!! *Wink wink It's all your faults, Min Hee and Min Ji that I got into Shinhwa!!! >< Min Hee sending me cute Minu pics and Min Ji making me a copy of Shinhwa's best songs!! You guys were in it together, huh? >< Thanks guys!!^^ Min Ji, I'm listening to the cd everyday. I'm hooked on the song, First love!!! Why did that song have to be sooo sweet? Sweet and mushy things make me weak!!! That song made me betray g.o.d!! hehehe. Min Hee keep sending those cute Minu pics!!I feel like I'm cheating on g.o.d!! Look at my page!! Instead of having a pic of g.o.d, it's Minu!! I think g.o.d better come back soon or I'm in big trouble!! I feel myself getting weak... COMEBACK g.o.d!!!^^ Those of you who are non k-pop fans (you know who you guys are) must think I'm nuts!!! Hehehe. I have gone to a better place!!! Not the same quiet, shy Yoo Mee you have known in high school!!^^ In the afternoon, I called a few places to get my glasses. Old age has caught up with me!! I'm going blind!!! I called Lenscrafters first but they were booked. My daddy called a Korean store but they were booked also!! I tried to convince the lady to let me see the optometrist that day, but no such luck!! Finally my dad got hold of a place... Kim something place. Memory lost!! It's in 8th and Oxford in K-town. The workers and the optometrist were really nice. The optometrist was also highly qualified. She got her BA in Berkeley and her optometry degree in Illinois. I was in good hands!! Hehehe. She told me that my eyes weren't that bad, but I had to wear glasses all the time.>< Oh well... this is what I get for watching soooo many videos and being online hours at a time. The worker that helped me pick out my glasses was really nice. Damn, I forgot to ask her name!! >< She was like an unnie!!!^^ I think I got glasses that fit my face but others have been giving me different opinions. My little brother looked at me and said, "You look weird." What the heck!!! Also my friend commented, "The glasses are nice, but... I don't know." What?!! Elaborate!! What is she trying to say?!! She got me mad!! Well, I like it and I think it looks nice, so there!!! :P My old glasses were soooo ugly!! Hmmm... maybe that's why I didn't wear it much!! Hehehehe. The weirdest thing was that when I put on my glasses my perception was altered. I was able to see well but when I looked at the ground, I felt like I was three feet tall. I finally knew what it felt like to be compact!!^^ Also the ground seems to have rose a few feet too. It was dangerous walking and going up the stairs cuz I kept missing the sidewalk and the steps. The optometrist said that was normal and my perception will go back to normal in a few days. The whole point is that I can see!!! Also, the eye care place where I went was really nice. I was able to get my glasses that day!! For those of you that don't know... it's difficult at a Korean eye care store to get glassses done that day let alone walk in without an appointment. I did both yesterday. The eye care in 8th and Oxford rocks. Everyone should go there!! Just wish I remember what the place was called!!! After my eye checkup, I went to Rodeo Galleria to meet up with Kelz!!!^^ I was 30 minutes early so I sat in one of those hard stone benches and started to read my course reader for my class. While I was reading, all these Korean people keep giving me these really weird looks!! It's like they have never seen a person read!!! lol Anyways, while waiting for Kelz, I saw Robin!!!^^ She was suppose to meet up with Kelz together cuz they were going to Kallaboration together!! Hope they had fun.=) Five minutes after I saw Robin, we saw Kelz. She got her eye brow pierced. It looked like it hurt!! OUCH!!! But it looked nice on her. After meeting up with Kelz and Robin, we all went to K-town plaza cuz they were having a big floor sale. We went up to Music Plaza where they were selling magazines for 5 dollars!! I was sooo mad, cuz I bought mags just a few weeks ago and I paid double!! >< Oh well... that is life. What I can do? What is done is done. After Robin bought her mags, we went to the cafe Nicoles downstairs. There we had an incident. Robin wanted boba (yummy) and she thought she ordered something like grinded ice with coffee and boba but instead she got green tea with boba. I thought that was wrong so I went up to the workers and told her that she got the order wrong. I guess I didn't do a good job convincing them. You have to be like those ahjumas that really forceful and loud but I was neither, so Robin had to order again and pay for it. Sorry Robin. =( Also the green tea with boba had little twigs in there!!! Gross!! Never going there again. (Don't believe me though... usually I do go back!!! I get weak. Hehehe) Well... at 6, I bid Kelz and Robin farewell and headed home. I was to have dinner with the family to celebrate my b-day early. Since my b-day fell on a weekday and I had school and work, they wanted to celebrate early. We went to a Chinese resturant. The very resturant where I lost my auntie's diamond ring when I was young. Got into a whole lot of trouble for that!! My auntie reminds me sometimes saying half jokingly and half seriously that I should get her a new one when I get a serious job!! >< Don't worry auntie, I will!!!^^ I plan to get you a better one. Sorry about the ring!!! Overall the dinner was good. I didn't want to go to dinner though cuz I wanted to lose some weight. Why does it always happen? When I am on a diet people have to tempt me with good food. When I am not on a diet, there is nothing to eat but once I go on a diet... poof... magically food appears!!!>< Well... that is how my Saturday ended. Whoa, I did a lot of things!!! Wrote too much!! Oh wellz... until my next blog...

Wang Unnie Jungmal Gan Da @ 10:04 a.m.
Sunday, October 7, 2001