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Mémoires d'un rêve
biggest unnoficial Gackt BBS..
my mind is bellowing tuesday - july 22 - 2003
is love meant to engulf my soul in happiness? or is it an everlasting sense of loneliness?...
T_T
reality is so cruel sometimes...
12:23 am, my room
BLOOD's official site..a pretty neat jrock band with samples on their site!! O.o
my mind is back on sunday - july 20 - 2003
i'm back? hm..actually, i thought no one visits this blog anymore -_- and sorta felt..lifeless? to update..anyway, it feels nice to see little messages at the side of the site saying "you havent blogged for 1 month" it's a nice feeling knowing people actually read what you write dont you think? thanx goes to milo-chan and Gloomy (you guys deserve the bold title!!) (;P) well, uni life has just started for me..i dont know if it's a "yippee" or a "this sux big time" cause i've finally gotten back to civilization -_- yes, i'm that lazy..
anyway, i finally had the initiative to go to the city library today with a few of my friends today..for group study or better known as the session where one pretends to study..well, technically, it's a study on the art of conversation between homo-sapiens..so we did some pretty good study on that..oh yeah, and if there's people whom think guys dont talk as much as girls, hell yeah, you're missing some serious information here folks..
it's pretty fun actually..but most of the time, everyone was oogling girls..especially this singaporean friend of mine..that guy is like a human-babe-detector or something..everytime he sees a gal..he's head will really go "woOOoot wooOooot" and he'll start turning around like a searchlight on steroids and his face just oozes hornines -_- ..it's pretty eerie actually..
well, i had lunch at 3pm++ thanx to one of my wonderfully on time friend whom has already eaten lunch when he arrived 1 and 1/2 hour++ later..and the china guy whom hasnt eaten either gaven up on lunch and thankfully my taiwanese friend (whom fetched me there! yay!) accompanied me to grab lunch..at least i wont look like a real loser walking along the streets in a bright afternoon scouring for food alone and staring everywhere (let's just say directions isnt my best asset and if you dropped me in the middle of new york with no $..i'll probably be dead the next day)..
finally, i've eaten some real edible chinese food after ages of eating tasteless noodles from uni's T_T the place looks like a kopitiam (coffee shop) in Penang (a state in Malaysia, rumoured to breed weird people *ie. me* whom go to St. Xaviers, school for "overly"gifted students)too! and the nice lady even gave me free potato wedges with my meal! how nice..or are they trying to dispose off some stolen potatoes..hm..the mystery..
oh well, i'm feeling a little tired to talk about the looming sadness which has felled upon me *hears shouts of hallelujah* thanx for visiting my site again.. =) till next time, take care people..*starts doing the oh-i'm-such-a-compasionate-and-problem-solving-man-that's-why-i'm-offering-to-give-good-advice-to-everyone thing jerry springer does at the end of all his shows although all the numerous problems posed has not been solved yet..*
before i forget! i've just checked my poll thing today..the results..were..a little unexpected..erm..weird..anyway, i'll change it tomorrow if i come online =D good night friends~ sleep tight mother earth..
12:19 am, my room
Penang's Infamous Kaypo Corner! =) gossip and maligning are penangites greatest assets..
my mind is shuddering friday - june 27 - 2003
HOLY COW!! it was like only a few minutes ago, a storm-would-be-or-has-been (i dont know it was damn scary) just passed by!~! the huge trees were like swaying as if in a moment the whole area would just fly up to outerspace or something...i was like "HOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYY CRAP!!!! DOES THAT LOOK SAVE??!?!? MY MUM DIDNT INFORM ME ABOUT WHAT TO DO IF THERE'S A FRIGGIN STORM! ARGH!!! IF I WAS IN MALAYSIA THIS BLARDEE THING WOULDNT BE WORRYING ME!!! WHAT SHOULD I DO?? *looks outside* ARGH! THAT ELECTRIC-POST THING DOESNT LOOK LIKE IT WILL STAND LONG!! WHAT TO DO!?!?!?!" and started heading to the computer room, inching as far away as possible from the front of my house, by the way, my mum and sis has went back to Malaysia for hollidays >_< bah..lucky punks~
anyway as i was saying, everything was swaying etc..and i was searching for places to hide, cause you know, if a tornado *touch wood* etc..strikes or something, the roof will go man! and i cant cling or hide under a lame bed etc..so i was worrying my butt off..and then finally, i decided to just wait till...wait..ok, i've forgotten what i did but anyway, here i am now..sitting and using the net like a normal day..btw, the long commentary on what i said was a sorta elaboration of what i would say if i had the time and if it's a sorta like slow and steady storm..not a wooooooshhhhhh-i'm-gonna-blow-everything-away sorta storm..i think what i said was ".....shit....."~ hahah..ok..that's not funny..anyway, end of today's post..seriously..i dont know what to say and there's nothing interesting in my life >_< so, take care till two more days and cyz..hm..i seem to feel that updating this blog is more like homework now -_-
05:01 pm, my room
jrock PV dowloads!!
my mind is air-guitaring wednesday - june 25 - 2003
ok..i know i said i wanted to update yesterday but i didnt >_< gomen gomen..ok, i think most probably, my updates will come every 2 days most probably ne? well, not like your life depended on my updates right?!!??! anyway, the link of today (i hope i havent posted it before >_<) is Aurora and it's a jrock website ne..loads of PV dowloads such as Dir en grey, Raphael, Gackt etc...i'm currently dowloading Psycho le Cemu's latest single's PV, roman hikou and it's a really great song ne! but for those people whom cant stand jpopish jrock songs..SKIP!~but i like it =D
anyway, onto my Raphael rant..hm..where to start..how to start..it's a pretty depressing topic ne..especially since Kazuki had so much more ahead of him..i believe, if he was still alive today, he'll be revolutionizing jrock..he's one whom i see has the calibre of yoshiki!!! maybe more!!! >_< but i guess we'll never ever know huh?..sigh..i mean, imagine that, he was only 18+- years old and he's already played BUDOKAN ne! that's like the 2nd best stadium in Japan, losing to only Tokyo Dome ne! many major jrock bands only got there at least after they're 23 -> 25 years old..well, i think X (okok, they're X-Japan now, but i prefer calling them ne, cause then, they had the kick @$$ bass played, Taiji), was the first jrock band to play at BUDOKAN and Tokyo Dome..
aih..suddenly no mood to type further ne >_< anyway, most of my friends in other countries are back in Malaysia already >_< lucky pricks..well, hope i can go back early at the end of the year..my mum keeps forcing me to work here some way or another and even saying if i cant get a job by year end, i've gotta be a labourer..bah..i have a hunch she just wants the money that i owe her back as soon as possible...anyway, guess i'll stop here today..thanx for reading etc..bla bla bla..and anyone that knows how can i change the background of this lame blog, please do help me by emailing me at ultramanDJ@yahoo.com please..thanx =)
06:00 pm, my room
rice (hiro and yuki from Raphael)'s official site
my mind is yodelling monday - june 23 - 2003
hmmMmm..two posts in a day, something's not right..well, i've just sent my girlfriend an email and sorta chatted with my good friend on net which distrupted my whole schedule of coming online a moment to dowload jrock mp3 and then stopping at 10pm to read Harry Potter so i dont have to stay up late again..but..sigh..damn, ok, i better put a short post this time...
anyway, i've just added my good buddy's website over there *points to the lower left section of the site* yup~ he's called Chun Leung and he's a real good looker so for all you single chicks out there, you can check him out.he's from Malaysia too so for everyone in that regent, start dialing, msging or whatever they have now a days..mms or some abra-cadabra thing >_< oh yeah, but he's still studying in UK now, so you guys have to be a little patient ne (;P)
bah..i think i'm a little desperate for things to type hence the promotion of single-friends >_< on a serious note, he's actually a pretty cool guy =) his site is pretty neat too, so just check it out if you're too bored (as i said, if you guys are here, you MUST be! hahah) ok, i'll end here for now
p/s:rice's website..i feel it's sorta a bit tragical (not as tragical as jrock's greatest band, X-Japan though but still...) for hiro and yuki ne..with kazuki gone etc..i'll elaborate more tomorrow k=) so "stayy tuneed~" *does that GLAY - Stay Tuned DJ thing* hmm..i'll rant a little on X-Japan tomorrow too=) till then, take care and study hard *sobs* my hollidays are ending...
11:43 pm, my room
FREE's official site..they're good ne!
my mind is cringing monday - june 23 - 2003
hoo boy~i'm sure getting lazy posting stuff here or trying to add new stuff up here ne..haha..well, i've just got Harry Potter like two days+ ago and it's really good ne! sugoi! it was sorta in the morning when i was awakened by my mum waking my sister up and ushering her to change etc..and prepare to go to the mall to get the book cause it was being sold at 1/2 price (AUS$22+) and bla bla bla, i wanted that book badly but then, i wouldnt give a rat's @$$ to wake up so soon, and i just listened to the conversation of my sis being lazy and suggesting buying it when they go back to Malaysia..hmph..lazy girl..anyway, my mum managed to force her to go out with her to get the book etc..and i'm now a proud owner of Harry Potter and the order of the Phoenix =D anyway, i've been staying up till 3am lately just to read that book..hahah..and I never indulge myself in any books in my entire 18 years+ except for Enid Blyton hehe..so it explains a lot on how spell-bound (no pun intended) i am to this book!!
well, i wonder how's everyone..i'm busy enjoying my hollidays, been VERY VERY addicted to trying to compose songs lately, spent a whole afternoon playing the piano etc..hm..i'm starting to become one of those "no music, no life" sorta people..wait..or was i one of those type of people already?O.o anyway, speaking of music, the website of the day today is again a jrock band (;P) and a VERY good one at that! they're called FREE and the band consists of zyou-ei (ex-Chronosphere) whom is a hyde look-a-like-except-younger-and-on-certain-occasions-sounds-like-him, shuji (ex-Chronosphere) whom is the-big-head-and-handles-everything-etc.., kyou (ex-Chronosphere) whom is a sorta care-leh-feh (cantonese), aya (ex-New Sodmy) the-cool-guitarist-and-super-good-looking-22-year-old-and-i-wish-i-had-his-looks-guy,and You (ex-New Sodmy) the-sorta-weird-and-wacky-and-funny-guy-whom-is-quite-cool-person..to sum it up, their music sorta sounds like L'Arc~en~Ciel a little with those french-coffee-houses music (not in a bad way) touch..and at the same time is very FREE-ish..any of you guys whom like melodic jrock should try them out!!
ok, a little rant on western music now, yes you guys heard me right..WESTERN MUSIC..lately, there's this band which sorta gained my interest, they're called Evanescence and they're pretty good ne, although the entire album is pretty repetitive >_< anyway, i was planning to get their single, Bring me to life or something like that today but it was all sold out..bah..but there were heaps of that dude called Liam something with his lame-geek filled "whatever" single..he never stops getting on my nerves and i was laughing happily when i saw that non-of his singles were being bought and there were like stack of it..haha! loser-trying-to-act-cool! BOO! wait! or issit he's too popular that they've to order many more singles? NO! impossible! australians dont have that bad-a-taste ne..dont they?..dont they?!?!? anyway, i've gotta go back to the place next monday when they said maybe they'll have new stock to get that single >_< bahh..
anyway, at this rate, i guess i better stop now ne..till next time, take care and ganbatte in whatever you do! =D
04:28 pm, my room
a Gackt journal, go there to get Gackt's latest single's mp3's!!
my mind is itching thursday - june 19 - 2003
woohoo! i'm back! yay! =D finally got my results, sigh, so sad desu ne..failed two units (subjects)..anyway, life must go on. might not be able to go back to malaysia d*sobs*
anyway, on to lighter news, went to uni today to enrol for my 2nd semester's units with my friends and went to one of them's place (which is opposite the uni, blardee lucky punk!) and he loaned me his dreamcast! yippee! okok, i know some of you guys might be thinking "ketingallan zaman betul~" (really off-beat @K@ as Alien from Gen Y Cops say, "no update guy") but i seriously havent touched a dreamcast before..the only console i was lucky to ever have was nintendo, yeap..the one before SNES..>_< anyway, i can finally play Jet Set Radio! woohoo~ the game rox..gonna play Shen Mue after that..i guess i wont online as much as i thought i would..haha..the only reason why i'm here now is cause my sis wanted to watch tv..bah..tv, who needs em' when you got dreamcast ne???!
anyway, i've gotten Gackt's latest single, heheh...i can see all your tingling eyes of jealousy..muahahahah..well, i've got his latest single in mp3 format only though..not the cd (;P) and i must say it's GOOD! it's frankly the best single he ever released, what i mean by that is, the title song is good and so is the c/w (coupled with's @k@ B-sides)..cause all of us know how most of his recent singles are jpoppish stuff and only the c/w's have the essense of jrock..but man, Tsuki no Uta (direct translation is Moon Song but i read somewhere that it meant Moon Poem? er..i've gotta sit on the fence on this one) is a real gem amongst depressing ballads..the orchestraed stuff is just beautiful, think Saikai Story here..the c/w, Hoshi no Suna (Star Sand) is something like Leeca, fairly close..it's quite different and the vocals are something which i admit, have never heard before in depressing songs..you know, he sings as if he's really sad and he's struggling to hold his tears back and during the chorus, it's as if he's gonna burst out crying in a moment..truly tragically beautiful..and sad..very sad T_T and it reminds me that i failed two units*sobs*even non-Gackt fans will appreciate this single..it's just a good piece of art..kudos to Gakuto-san ne..another triumph for jrock! =D i feel that the upcoming songs from Gackt will be a little bit inspired by Masa whom left GacktJob, ok, some of you might say it's not official, la dee da etc..but i think, a blind man can even know that it's sorta clear ne..
anyway, about the Dir en grey's new album which i notice Milo-chan and Jaclyn-chi chi is talking about in the weird thingy on the left which you can post crap, i think it's true ne..they have an album coming up soon and a tour coming up soon too which some people rumour to will have new songs being played..speaking of tours, i heard a rumour in a Gackt bbs that in an upcoming special live(?), Gackt's violinist / guitarist, You will have an AFRO!! imagine that! an AFRO..haha..i've never seen a jrocked with an afro, if this was true, i think it'd be a pretty interesting live ne? hehhe...
anyway, guess what, i got my mum interested in some of Raphael's songs! hahah..even though she hates Yuki's voice ne! heheh..she likes Lost Graduation, Akikaze no Rhapsody and Yuki no ningyo (Snow Doll) but still says Yuki's voice is like a goat..which i frankly say, cant deny much of it..but then i manage to make her translate an article in chinese from a jrock magazine about Lost Graduation's single..and she was quite interested in it that after my dad came home, she even told him about it..heheh..basically, Kazuki said that Lost Graduation was composed around 1998 and it was done to vent his anger of not being able to graduate and you know, sometimes when you compose a song, you wont be able to do the whole thing at one go, and have to continue later on etc..with this song, he just did it all in one go, such strong were his feelings towards the inability to graduate ne..kinda shows that he really loves school dont you think? anyway, it sorta talks about Raphael's story a little and said that whenever they wanted to compose songs, they'll go to Kazuki's home and compose songs while drinking honey-tea..haha..kawaii ne? (;P) and once, they had this camp beside the lake or something to inspire them to compose good songs..damn, i think i better go now, dreamcast is calling me=D till next time, take care dudes and duddettes..
p/s: i was only crapping about my exam results, passed all..haha..got high distinctions for 2, and credit for the other 2 (stupid scale-downs >_<)
09:12 pm, my room
my mind is feeling wednesday - june 11 - 2003
ok...i can EXPLAIN my abscence...honest!...erm...well, woah~ lookit that, there's a new er...Gackt single! it's called Tsuki no uta and you guys should hear it! can i say FABULOSO?? and the c/w, Hoshi no suna is also a great song! imagine the songs by Gackt previously; leeca and lapis..old Gackt fanatics, rejoice~ rejoice~
okok, quit giving me "that" stare...ok, i'll explain my abscence..wait..hang on, how come i'm having a sudden as-if-i'm-popular-and-people-miss-my-posts attack? >_< anyway, for whoever that reads my posts and ACTUALLY miss it a tiny little bit...*scans the area* come one people! there definitely have got to be someone?? please? erm..i'll give you a hug? ok ok..wrong approach, that'll scare off more people
ok, here i go again, drifting away from topic..the thing is, my net, has certain limited hours..and knowing the ganas me whom online non-stop everyday..by early this month, my hours left were approximately 4 hours -- and i had another 1/2 month more to go before i get another 125hours..not to mention that i over-online for around 80 hours++ last month and got charged around AUS$200++ -_- and today, i could online cause i had to email my damn lecturer for my assignment marks which seems to be missing in action..bagero..high-paid lecturers with slackerism blood in them must be shot! >_< wait..will i get jailed for saying that? damn..*sweats*
anyway, this will be my only post till the 18th of this month..many apolagies from joe-joe inc. to my legion of blog fans (;P) hahahaha *gets thrown cabbages etc..from everyone* i was jokingGgg~ no need to get all touchy etc..and about the Marilyn Manson thing, i feel the same about it..geez, for the love of God..see the light people, he's just a replica of jrock-dom..bah..anyway, i was tempted to comment about it earlier on but who knows..manson fans are scary, i might be cursed!! cursed you know!! by the way, if any of you here are manson fans, my real name is actually Ali Bakashar bin Tajudding..oh yeah, everyone knows i'm from Thailand ne~
ok, i've gotta stop now, or else, my net bill will be as high as some of my assignments pilling up...when they pile up that is
till the 18th where my raging blogging will continue, take care and adios amigos..
p/s : in the mean time, i'm CSing like mad! muahahah! it finally works on my damn lame PC! yay yay! andrew, i'm soOooo gonna kick your butt when i go back..hahah..remember that time when i play with you and we both team up and play "kan-kay" (chicken)..haha..i frankly miss my high school life, it gave me lots of memories and lots of good friends..
GLAY - Sotsugyou Made, Ato Sukoshi
karita mama no jiten no pe-ji ni
anata kara no toki wo koeta yasashisa wo mita
'HOW ARE YOU FEELING? daijyoubu?'
kuse no aru natsukashii moji
In the page of a dictionary I borrowed but never returned,
I saw in your writing a kindness which lasted through the years.
"How are you feeling? Daijyoubu?"
That familiar handwriting unique to you.
ima, sorezore ni sorezore no basho de
kuchibiru wo kamishimete minna hashitteru darou
HOW ARE YOU, FRIEND?
ano hi kara au kikkai mo nai keredo
Now we're each in different places,
running biting our lips.
How are you friend?
Though we haven't had a chance to meet since that day
mune wo kogasu kisetsu ha nagare
hagureta hitogomi wo se ni
egao ha ano koro no mama jyanakutemo
mou sukoshi tomo to yobasete...
The passionate season went by, seperated in the crowds, we left.
Even if our smiles aren't the same as they were then,
I'd still like to call you a friend for a little longer.
sotsugyou made nareta kono michi de
hatasarenai yakusoku bakari wo kazoeteita ne
HOW ARE YOU, DARLIN'?
bokutachi ha nani wo negai naitetarou?
We counted all the promises which never came true
on this familiar road to our graduation.
How are you darlin'?
What did we wish for as we cried?
nee are kara doredake no kaze ni
kasureta bokutachi no koe
dore hodo tsuyoku nozonda koto mo
kanawanu yume da to waratta
Since then our horse voices have gone to many winds
We laughed that, no matter how strongly we hoped our
dreams wouldn't come true
ase wo sutta guraundo no ue
sena wo terasu taiyou ga moeteiru
In that field that soaked up our sweat,
the sun shining on our backs is ablaze.
'yasashisa kara haguresou na toki, kotae wo aseranai de' to
hizuke ha tooi kako, yume miru koro,
sugisarishi hibi no machi kara
"Don't be in a hurray to find the answer,
when you seem to be slipping away from kindness"
a date from a distant past, a time when we dreamed,
from a town of days gone by.
mune wo kogasu kisetsu ha nagare
hagureta hitogomi wo se ni
egao ha ano koro no mama jyanakutemo
mou sukoshi tomo to yobasete...
the passionate season went by, seperated in the crowds, we left.
even if our smiles aren't the same as they were then,
I'd still like to call you a friend for a little longer.
mou sukoshi tomo to yobasete...
let me call you friend for a little longer.
=D ok! finally done*phew*ja ne!
11:29 pm, my room
Blue-B's only english fansite!
my mind is citing monday - june 2 - 2003
exams!exams!exams!
today's link of the day is Blue-B's unofficial fan-site!
exams!exams!exams!
they are a really good band but sadly, they've already disbanded..sigh..but still, at the time which they released their stuff, most of the members were only 19 or 20 years old, and i must say, that is some very very good stuff!
exams!exams!exams!
do try them out, that site has some samples of their songs, i dont think everyone will like them but if you're sorta "ok" for poppish jrock songs then this band'll be a pure treat for you guys=))
exams!exams!exams!
ok, you guys can probably see how stress out i am with me yelling "exams!exams!exams!" after every paragraph..gosh..it's just so freaking frustrating..
hate exams! gargh! i didnt do too bad (as i expected) for my unit today, well, i doubt the results'll be as good as i expect or hope though..
sorry for not updating so long anyway, i promise, after my exams, i'll update non-stop!! that is until my exams come up again, results are given, when i have to find a part time work, and sometime given for lazy-slacky-days etc...haha...jk..anyway, hope you guys are doing ok, cause guess what? i'm not..(;P) anyway, thanx for frequenting my site=))
God bless
07:32 pm, my room
miyavi's official site..
my mind is yodelling friday - may 30 - 2003
this is today's lame attempt at a post...anyway, whatever, i'm going to sleep now..still havent figured out how to fraggin make the uploading thingy work...spent hours on the thing...irritating as hell~argh >_<
on, other news, i got mentioned at a good friend of mine's post! yay! happy happy~ =D well, that's what i, being my extra perasan-case-self thought anyway...bla bla...exams in 3 days..i'm soOoooOoo screwed...
if you're happy and you know it, clap your hands!
01:28 am, my room
a good X-Japan fan site..
my mind is singing wednesday - may 28 - 2003
(- - ) ( - -) ( _ _) (_ _ )
yes, i know i havent uploaded those songs as promised (again), i really did try to do so in school but guess what? the damn administrator of my school..ok, UNI to be exact, has banned all dowloading of *.exe files..and thus disabling me to dowload any of those cd ripper programs..sigh..hate the damn admin..we're blardee paying man, why ban us from so much stuff..wish i could ask him to get stuffed..nevermind, i'll copy the file to a diskette and go to uni earlier tomorrow to upload the songs..i'm gonna upload "VIOLET UK - Blind Dance" and "Raphael - Yuki no ningyo" (if i can find the disc with "Yuki no ningyo" that is >_< argh..)
anyway, for the last two days, been kinda sad =(( hate to feel sad ne..and sorta got inspired to write a song again..sorta 1/2 way through..i call it "ephemeral sadness #1" (i have a feeling that there's gonna be a chain of continuity cause i'm a sad sadDd person) hahah.."deep deep" huh? (the way me and my malaysian pals say complicated or deep stuff) anyway, i'm sorta proud at myself cause according to my heart, it says that the opening chords are pretty neat..haha..sure, i'm not yoshiki or something..but hey~i tried..ok, i'll stop crapping about music again.haha...sigh, today, i suddenly had that nostalgic feel and started to think back over my school days and went through my class pictures..i've certainly lead a weird and "ganas" (wild) life..sometimes, i wish i was still back in high school..
anyhoo, i would've uploaded a short clip of an unknown "VIOLET UK" (yoshiki's band, that explains the "boldness" too [no pun intended]) song if it wasnt for me being dumb enough not to know how to upload the song to my webhosting site (milo-chan, a li'l help here??)..the clip is actually part of an interview between the reporter called Nicole and yoshiki but it's a neat clip as you get to hear the song by VIOLET UK in it too! but it's pretty short so..damn..
quote "i'm not sleeping you know" (ref. the VIOLET UK clip)
anyway, i'll try to upload the song again tomorrow from school ne..gomenasai..listening to my lee hom cd's again..hm..
a poem of thought
if tomorrow's skies would not cry with you anymore,
would you grow stronger today?
if memories of the past is nothing but a sore,
would you finally want to spread your wings and fly away?
09:43 pm, my room
a Studio Ghibli unofficial fan-site
my mind is yelping monday - may 26 - 2003
gosh, i'm damn tired, it's been a long day, and tomorrow's day will be longer than today T_T and the fact that exams are coming isnt very kind on my mental health..sigh >_<
anyway, gomen, i forgot that today isnt the day when i will be using my school's net, so i couldnt upload the two songs yet, will do so tomorrow >_< i'll try ne..cause i gotta study too, for exams T_T geez, super brain dead now..and i've to study for my computer fundementals..and i've gotta do my programming principles which i did nothing of >_< and the stupid yahoo mail is getting on my damn nerve...cant let people leave it idle for less than a minute at all..and they'll log off automatically for you..
anyway, been listening to hide's stuff again today..hmm..his stuff rocks.."misery" rules!!!
hide - misery
HALLELUYA-LA-MISERABLE, DO YOU WANNA SHOW ME HOW LOW AND LOW?
HALLELUYA-LA-MISERABLE, DO YOU WANNA SHOW ME HOW LOW AND LOW?
SAY HALLELUYA
You looked happy with your pain as you flew down upon me
The daylight reached to kindly embrace your pain
Halleluja-la-mizerable are the starts blooming questions
Halleluja-la-mizerable, they're just triffle things
SAY HALLELUYA
I had forgotten everything when the sky fell tonight
Small tragedies and shaking memories sit at the gates to my dreams
The countless stars probably cried as they set
The rising days just laugh, closing their wounds
Stay free your Misery and hold me in your arms until the sadness goes away
Kiss your Misery and we'll probably wither until we can learn to be like this.
STAY FREE MY MISERY. STAY FREE MY MISERY. STAY FREE MY MISERY.
Stay free your Misery and forget the pain quickly
Stay free my Misery and wait for the rain to clear away your tears
Gentle words can only go so far
Because you can't find them when you're crying
Wrapping your small body in brilliant, vivid dreams
Stay free my Misery, streatch out and take my pained hands
Stay free my Misery and take the gentle hatred as well
STAY FREE MY MISERY
Stay free your Misery and hold me in your arms until the sadness goes away
Stay free your Misery and we'll probably wither until the sky can learn to love your laughter.
HALLELUYA-LA-MIZERABLE, I WANNA SHOW YOU HOW LOW AND LOW
HALLELUYA-LA-MIZERABLE, DO YOU WANNA SHOW ME HOW LOW AND LOW?
HALLELUYA-LA-MIZERABLE, I WANNA SHOW YOU HOW LOW AND LOW
HALLELUYA-LA-MIZERABLE, DO YOU WANNA SHOW ME HOW LOW AND LOW?
SAY HALLELUYA!
what a great song ne! =DD you guys should listen to A Story by hide too! it's such a peaceful and great song...another wasted talent ne...as people say, "the brightest stars burn the fastest" aint it true?..hmm..oh yeah, the site for today is Studio Ghibli's unofficial fan site, that site has all of Studio Ghibli's works ranging from Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind to Spirited Away which i believe many of you people out there would know =)
ok, gonna stop now for today, for the next few days, my updates might be inconsistent due to the fact that my damn exams are coming >_< gotta listen to more hide songs to get me pumped up and ready to chug (as in the train's chug-a-chug thing, not the booze chugging [drinking] chug) full speed..oh yeah~pumped desu...ok, chat with you people next time, take care and ganbatte ne! dont fall in the rat race cause you wont be able to get up anymore! >_<
p/s : the translation of misery was not done by me, it belongs to "WIRED" or something like that? >_< if anyone has any info, do tell me k..gomen to the translator*bows*
updates : added a new topic in the bbs (messageboard) and begging people to sign my guestbook or mess around with the poll (;P)
09:03 pm, my room
SUGIZO's official site, check out his song called "NO MORE MACHINEGUNS PLAY THE GUITAR", now is that cool or what&#
my mind is screeching monday - may 26 - 2003
getting damn stressed out with exams coming, thank God for something called friends..hahah..anyway, suddenly felt like writing a poem of not growing old..as some jrock fans might know "peter pan complex" seems to be a huge influence in the jrock world it seems with lotsa bands having song titles as such..and here's my poem..with the same title..haha..albeit a little altered..hmm, maybe this explains my need for the peter pan game..haha! i'm seriously so damn childish i get on everyone's nerves all the time..anyway, it's time i shut down my computer and brain! i need some rests, gonna study in the train tomorrow (technically = later this morning)...finally i've finished dowloading adobe acrobat, can save my lecture notes now! yippee! ok, till then, see you people~take care always..
reality of peter pan complex
as i stare into myself,
i noticed the ashes of days gone by,
memories of deceit slowly becomming reality,
i wasnt ready for this journey,
an embarkment into darkness,
i cant see nor feel with my heart anymore,
a pure mind wont see me through this waves,
clouds of uncertainty overshadows my thoughts,
innocence once pure long forgotten,
the summer days of me are rotting into winter,
the days of the untainted cloth is slowly fleeting away
01:11 am, my room
yoshiki (X-Japan) 's official site...
my mind is singing sunday - may 25 - 2003
listening to X Japan - Love Replica (orchestraed [is this even spelt right??] version), this song is just so good...composed by hide never the less! the original version is an instrumental with a gal speaking french on the background with lots of "j'taime's" (i love you) you guys must really get this song...MUST! i command ye' *insert brain-washing signals where appropriate*
on to other more important stuffs, cleared my burned cd's collections (i'm poor ne T_T) and started to listen to Violet UK's unreleased stuff...muahahah! i've got it! i've got it! i feel special*beams with pride*, and so do the other Violet UK fanatics...Violet UK is yoshiki's new band which has taken 8 years++ in production, God knows what he's doing so long, but as we all know, he's a darn perfectionist ne? and yes, everytime i mention yoshiki, i've to make it bold cause he's the master!~this guy oozes talent, seriously...anyway, below are the lyrics for one of his songs (written by ear so if there's any mistakes, do tell me please) i have the lyrics for "Blue & Blind" the song which was sung by Dahlia and composed by yoshiki...if any of you guys want the lyrics up, tell me k..hmm..are there actually any jrock fans in here? hahah!=D
Blind Dance (short+studio version)
i will kiss your eyes,
in the senseless night,
if it's true or blind,
i just want you tonight,
try to close your eyes,
see the blinding light,
if it's blue or warm,
can you picture my love,
try to close your eyes,
see the blinding light,
if it's blue or warm,
can you picture my love,
updates : added a link to GLOOMY, my hong-kong friend=) do visit her site if you're free, it's a really nice site!
this is Liutenant Joe, signing out of the Enterprise*bzzzzzp*
08:30 pm, my mind
a dreamcast (console) emulator site..still in progress ne..
my mind is sulking sunday - may 25 - 2003
yay! i've got everything up and running (guestbooks etc..., the works you know..the usual fare all websites / or blogs must have~) but the stupid "gallery" thing cant seem to blardee enable me to upload pictures with more than certain kilo bytes...yes,fraggin KILO bytes...either i'm stupid or someone stuffed up that system big time ne! anyway, if any of you guys have some time in your hands (which i believe you have otherwise you wouldnt be coming to my lame blog!) , please do fill the guestbook up or post a message etc..here..
oh yeah, if any of you guys have a website or something, inform me k? and i'll add a link to you guys =) not like it'll make a huge difference in your traffic but, it's a buddy-buddy thing dont you feel so? heheh...
and about the forum, you guys can post anything there from religion to plain-nothing-i'm-just-posting-for-fun-and-i'll-never-post-again messages..flame wars are allowed but not encouraged..i think most of them will probably be started by me anyway..hahaah! anyway, that's all for this entry..till my next one, hasta-la-vista bebeh~ (in malay comics from malaysia, they seriously you "bebeh" in the hasta-la-vista thing man..seriously! i kid you not)
p/s : anyone knows where can i get a site with lots of free
storage space or how can i put a background pic in my
main site (html) which wouldnt move or anything when
i scroll down etc..i'm a total dumbass in stuff like
this..
03:22 pm, my room
Toriyama World, home of many fan-translated comics (you guys MUST read Bremen!)
my mind is screeching sunday - may 25 - 2003
another day has gone by
studied a little yesterday night, i hope i can cover my whole unit of "programming principles" by today >_< how is everyone doing? those few kind folks whom reads this blog that is!*stares scornfully at the others*i'm gonna try to get my guestbook up in a few minutes...
on other news, got scolded by my mum again for no apparent reason..crazy lady..i hate her..woke up, took my breakfast and rested a while and i started to connect to the net (i've gotta fix the wire slowly cause' they dont have a blardee phone line in the computer room) and my mum asked me to take the newspaper as i was unwinding the wire and i said "later" and she started scolding me and try to emphasize her authority and i told her i cant just drop the wire and go away cause i'm half done and it'd only take a minute and she started scolding me...and when i started trying to say something, she started telling me she doesnt want to talk to me if i'm so bad tempered...sigh...i hate her...hate her...HATE HER
sigh..she just ruined my happy day, i was still basking in the after-glow of chatting with my gf till 3am yesterday..anyway, dont wanna talk about her, makes me feel sadder the more i mention about her..if i was to come here to study, i should've made them let me go rent a place with my friends..haha..but that's not a good thing either, gotta be independent etc..bah..cant wait for uni life to be over (not that uni sux or something..) cause then i'll be able to live alone with my gf when i'm working =D just imagining about that makes me so happy~muahahah!
oh yeah, the link for today is "TORIYAMA WORLD!!" the what link?? erm..the link for this entry, erm...up my post? yeah..that one..it's a good site for all you manga (japanese comics) fanatics! it has a pretty good amount of translated manga's and my favourite,Bremen!! it's about a wacky band (those with musicians in it..) and tells about their rise to fame..it might sound a little boring to the conventional reader, i mean sureeEe, it's not GTO or something but it's good! it's funny and hell it's entertaining! which is what we manga readers look for ne?
oh tokorade (it means "btw", my gf taught me that yesterday! hahha=D), if you guys got any jrock mp3's you want me to upload, try to request and i'll get it up by monday if i have the song (using school's network to upload it, muahahah!)
11:54 am, my room
Wonder how matching you are with your loved ones? (note: take it with a pinch of salt though k?)
my mind is whispering sunday - may 25 - 2003
=DD
it's as though the sun has risen up in my heart!!
got to chat with my gf after a long while~yay! happy happy desu!
i watch as my memories linger
thoughts lightened by the street lamps
surfing amongst waves of nostalgia
i reach out for the precious hour which we shared together
embracing your soul which still lies in my heart
i long to feel your warm skin against mine
as we reached this fork in the road
we approach the seperation of an era..
if only goodbyes were evitable
will we still be cuddling under the stars tonight?
ok, that was such a lame attempt in writing a love poem..damn..so much to study ne T_T exams exams..i wonder who suggested to give exams to poor students whom are overloaded with assignments? (ie. me) i think i should start a petition against such stuffs ne? "the anti exams if you can give a good excuse" petition~yay! =)
i know, i know, i'm giving out crazy suggestions and the works..well, when you're happy, you dont give a crap about stuffs like this right?
on other news, my favourite artiste, TAKUI's gonna release a new single soon in 7/16! yay!!
RE-SET
c/w LAMBRETTA
¥1500 (tax-in)
01:57 am, my room
Dont believe that westerners like jrock?...
my mind is thinking saturday - may II IV - II X X III
sigh..
today has been a pretty dull day..i feel so washed out..went for a group study thing with my friend today..4 hours of brain cells murdering...mou T_T anyway, the date and time thing has a little change which i hope will at least make something different or new-ish around here..still havent gotten to learning how to get my own damn background on this site..and i believe the only 2 visitors in this site is me and my kind friend, milo-chan...still not pretty sure of giving this site to everyone i know..haha..i'm weird, i know...make a site like this and suddenly get scared of the whole world knowing about me...hmm...i feel that i'm in depression lately, one of my friend whom i chatted with said i might have it..haihh..8chek(tension) -_-
on to happier stuffs, my exams are in 1 week's time...and i havent started studying...and if i fail any unit, i'm sure i wont be able to go back to malaysia for my hollidays...oh yeah, i'm in australia by the way...since early last year...what'd i do for fun people often ask...swat big+fat+dumb flies during summer, sleep+freeze throughout winter, cringe that it's not Japan here during spring and feel lonely in autumn..
this is not turning out to be interesting at all ne? maybe i should axe this blog as tv producers do to programs when it doesnt get enough hits...
hm..i wonder how's it like to study in france? in the morning, when you've just woken up to birds chirping around and you look out from your frenchy windows and see little bustling movements in the streets which is filled with the aroma of long bread and coffee and bird dung (ok, minus the dung)..and everywhere has this "back to the past" feel..aint it neat..bah..i think i'll stop for this post...
the snow doll dances in the night wind
look at the sky, can you feel it's tears?
the leaves of yester-year has withered with time...
IX:I I pm, ma pièce
Promise (the only Raphael fan site in english which is still sorta alive)
my mind is screaming friday - may 23 - 2003
woohoo~my second entry!!!*does a dance*
haha, forgive me please, kind patrons, i still havent gotten over having a new blog ne!(=P)
anyway, yay! i've just composed my second song!
completed song that is..haha!
the tentative title is "fermier ensoleillé de milo" which means "sunny milo farmer" which doesnt make any sense to me so i renamed it "fermier du soleil, milo" (farmer of the sun, milo) haha..ok, so it still sounds as stupid but it's not as bad as the first name right? hm..but the first one's name sounds better in french...anyhoo, i'm quite satisfied with this piece...sorta...
well, you might ask me how the hell did i get such a retarded title ne? ok, today,i got quite inspired to play the piano for fun again with a tune in my head..i started playing and playing but the song which came out sounded so crappy and so i gave up..i saw my mum's hat (those that looks like what farmers use) and a few seconds later,there i am,sitting in front of the piano with a "wonderful" piece of head accessory...and suddenly,an old tune which i composed quite long ago came up onto my mind so i started playing around it and new chords and keys came into my hands to continue the song and in a few minutes ~ voila! but it's only a short track (as my first songs is) , approximately 2minutes if i played it properly with appropriate pauses here and there..therefore it still has that unfinished feel to it...
sigh, wish i had a recorder of sorts, sometimes, some songs i get an idea on just fade a way because i couldnt seem to get the melody on piano...T_T not like it matters to anyone anyway but it does to me, to finally compose a full song which i hope can move a person's heart or make a person go "wow, this is good!" means a lot to me ne..but i doubt i have the ability..doing things like this make me marvel and admire Kazuki's (jrock band, Raphael's guitarist, deceased T_T) talent..in fact, the whole of Raphael's talent..being so young and all but making good music..jealous! hahah! it's pretty sad that he had to go so soon..
hm..sorta in melancholic mode*listening to Raphael - yuki no ningyo* Kazuki..he really is a genius, metal, rock, goth, instrumentals, ballads, trance, pop...isnt there any type of song this 19 year old (at that time) cant do??
shit! i just realized that i have been only explaining how i got to writing the song, didnt explain about the title, ok, i guess you guys should know where does the "farmer" thing come from by now ne? heheh..well, it's sorta, i dont know, a dedication to my friend? sunny, cause that's just the attitude of my friend..
the song..is..i dont know,
i dont know who it's about..
is it about myself?
is it about life?
or my particular friend?
or my fear for my upcoming exam which i havent studied for?!?!?!argh!!
all i know for sure is, it's something which gives me a nostalgic+melancholic feeling..which is the exact opposite of it's title..i sorta name it because, it's like, hmm..reaper of the sun, trying to sow for happiness? dont waking up to the bright melodies of birds chirping and the sun dancing among the clouds give you a happy feeling?
i dont know...
havent felt happy much lately...
hm..it seems people with blogs often have this time of "pms-ness"??ah..i'm going to sleep and forget all my worries..sleep is good..sleep i need..have been staying up till 5am this past few days playing dating games..haha..till next time, take care and thanx for reading..
10:57pm, my room
TAKUI's official site!=D
my mind is yelling friday - may 23 - 2003
yay!i've finally got my own blog!!!*leaps around happily*
my good friend (the feeling my not be mutual though(;P)), milo-chan whom is the one whom inspired me to get one..hahah=)) well, this is my first entry so i dont know what to even write in fact...
it's like when you have an exam in "sejarah" (history) and you havent studied at all and you start blabbering whatever that comes into your head ne! well, i could crap about whatever that i've done today, which would be pretty much the same as other days =(( yes, i know, i have such a dull dorky+nerdy+geeky+lamey life...
oh well, for those whom dont know me, i'm an 18 year old (at the moment..gonna be 19 this year T_T old liau ler) jrock freak from Malaysia, Penang to be exact..i hate to capitalize words and i hate people whom are too full of themselves, i always imagine them as big balloons and i'll pop them...muahaha...ok, i notice i'm a bit psychotic*people yelling:way beyond that!!!!*
well, i think most people believe that if on a cold dark night, open this particular thick book..it seems like a long novel but it doesnt have a storyline at all! amazing ne, and it's also one of the best sellers in the world! and some readers only read it once in a very long while but they still buy it although it's not entirely necessary..hmm..i think as memory serves me right, it's called a dictionary and if you look under the word insanity; it'd have my name there (;P) okok, sorry*evades rotten vegetables being thrown at me*that's a fine example of "lawak bodoh" (stupid jokes?) that i'll often try to do..so bear with my idiocy please..
anyway, the site of today is "www.takui.com"!=D TAKUI is a relatively new jrocker in the scene but his songs are so good ne! and he shares the same birthday as me! (except the year) so that's extra points for him! i really like his songs, full of energy and emotionally wrenging ballads...if any of you reading this..i know there are*looks around and notices a cat and some cd's -_-*, you should try him out..there are some samples of his PV's and songs on his website ne
ok, on to the title of my website, it's called "Mémoires d'un rêve" which is french for "Memories of a Dream" (that's what Babelfish tells me!) i dont even know why i choosed such a title, it was just a spur of a moment thing (which always happens to me.hahaah)..anyway, in the future, i'd hope to put some mp3 samples of my fav. songs every now and then and maybe when i get along to getting a webcam, some pics of stuff i'd like to share with you guys*stares at the cat nearby*
i think i'll better stop now for my "TESTING" hahah...till next time, take care and "ganbatte"!
06:01pm, my room
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