Saturday, May 10, 2003

slacker

I'm such a slacker...I can just lie on my bed with the radio on and stay like that for about 2 hours. Well that's what I did last night. The computers were occupied and I didn't want to do my homework so I had nothing to do. So I just lay there. I didn't even fall asleep. Isn't that amazing. Hehe.

I'm so happy Heidi's finally out of survivor. If either Jenna or her had won I would be so angry. They just don't deserve it, they're so...arrogant and shallow. Well Jenna should be out next week anyway. Should. This season's really surprising, things happen when you least expect them too. And she might win immunity. Though I doubt it, cause she's already falling apart. She's getting a taste of her own medicine, she did the same thing to Shawna too, trap her in the game.

Friday. Friday passed quite uneventfully I guess. I got 7 and a half for the maths test. I'm really surprised that i passed, it's still a borderline pass tough. That's really bad. Sigh my maths just keeps getting worse and worse each time. And I'm really careless too. I formed the equation correctly, but solved them wrongly. Sigh. We watched half of I am Sam for English, it's quite sad I guess, but I've seen sadder. Heh...then during cme Mrs Chen showed us a video about the dangers of IRC and PMS. Actually I already watched it during English the day before but I just watched it again anyway. Well not really watch, more like sleep. Lol. I guess Mrs Chen saw that we were all bored cause she showed us this Sadam Hussein video thingy, really funny...hehe.

Oh shoot...I just remembered the dateline for the cme gift thing is Monday. And I still haven't done anything.

[Jiayi got inspired at 10:23 p.m.]

Thursday, May 8, 2003

behind time

I'm so behind time for so many things. "unimportant" things too. for example home economics and art. I've hardly started on my home econs folio and it's due tomorrow. And I haven't even finished my repeated pattern yet, I think it was due...2 weeks ago? sigh I'm in deep trouble. Look at the calendar at the side. So many tests! They're every week...how stressful. I feel stressed just looking at it.

I'm waiting for American Idol 2 to start. About 15 minutes more. I hope Ruben does not get kicked out. That would be so unfair and I'd agree with my mum that America's just being racist. No offense to Americans. It's just Ruben really doesn't deserve to be kicked out. In fact he deserves to win. Either him or Clay. And Josh can sing but...he's just not as good as the others. So I think he should be kicked off. He'd have other opportunities to be star anyway I'm sure.

Oh yes I watched The Bachelor last night. It was so sad! Gwen was so sweet, the audience were all going "awwww". She was crying...and I bet Aaron really regretted not choosing her. But I guess he didn't have much choice. He was panicking after all.

Had tennis today. I think I'm getting more and more antisocial everyday. Well it's just everytime during tennis whenever we have to pick teams, I'm always practically the last to be picked. It's depressing. lol. Okay, I guess I do suck at tennis. But still...being picked last all the time isn't exactely the best feeling in the world.

Sigh, I think I'm going to do really badly for maths. the last question was worth 6 marks. And the paper was upon 12. And I got it wrong. I'm sure I'm going to fail. And this test was supposed to pull my marks up.

[Jiayi got inspired at 07:40 p.m.]

Wednesday, May 7, 2003

free for a day - or not.

yay history and chinese tests are finally over. not for long though. next history test's in 2 weeks. not sure when's chinese. sigh, so many tests, every week without fail. can't wait for the next holidays to come. let's see...that's in june? vesak day's not counted. only 1 day. lol. well this is the first time in quite i while i'm coming online without feeling guilty about not studying. alright i admit there's a maths test tomorrow, but it's only on stimulous equations so i should be okay.

i made a new layout again, well it's not done yet, about three quarters done. and guess what, it's white ^_^ after 3 dark layouts i finally have a bright one. actually it's a little messy, i don't like it much at the moment but maybe when i'm done it'll be nicer.

oh yes i forgot to say how the tests were. they were ok i guess. i'll pass. i know some classes have not had their tests yet so i won't mention the questions, but they were not that hard. i managed to finish both on time, though i did leave about 3 blanks. i'm sure i made some careless mistakes too. i'm so careless. oh well.

had p.e. today...it was okay i guess. not that tiring. we didn't really do the tiring 5 item stuff. only sit and reach and incline pull up. but there wasn't really time to do the incline pull up. only colleen had to demonstrate and since we were having a history test after p.e. mr ong had to let us off. haha. only tiring thing we had to do was run 3 rounds. lol. i can't imagine running 6 for pft. sigh.

[Jiayi got inspired at 07:00 p.m.]

Tuesday, May 6, 2003

tests and lots of homework

i'm at school computer lab now. waiting for computer to start. sigh, i slept really late last night. i had to redo 3 maths work sheets because i had done all my working wrongly and i already spent the day studying for chinese and history which are tomorrow. i think i'm going to do badly for both, i'm about 3/4 done with chinese but i haven't started history yet...i'm feeling really stressed. because there's so much homework and so many tests, and i haven't exactely been doing well. sec 2 is so tiring. there's at least 2 tests every week, and i keep doing last minute studying so i constantly find myself burning the midnight oil and falling asleep in class the next day. it's not even the middle of sec 2 and already having trouble coping. sigh...i hope i don't do too badly for chinese and history. and there's a maths test on thursday...i hope i do better for this one, i have too if not i'm really in trouble. my progress report for last term is already so bad. i really miss last year, so carefree...haha i didn't even have to try to score in all my tests. but this year...

i might be going to watch xmen next week. twice. lol. once with my family, once with friends, and i'm hoping to watch it a third time with other friends too. i hope i have enough money. i've been a bit of a miser lately. it's all the school's fault. they keep making us pay and donate for things. i've became really poor so i've been saving up a lot everyday. i try not to eat reccess. that's about 2 dollars a day.

oh mrc's starting got to go.

[Jiayi got inspired at 02:14 p.m.]

Monday, May 5, 2003

i'm not disciplined enough

i think i'm not disciplined enough. honestly i really can't bring myself to do things. a perfect example would be studying. i simply can't make myself study for long periods of time. and i get distracted so easily. i can't make myself focus the smallest thing like having somebody else in the same room with me can cause me to stop work and start talking. and it doesn't help when that person starts talking back to me. -_- i'm not even supposed to be on now. i promised myself to study history and chinese today. they're both on wednesday, i don't think i can finish in time. argh. oh well. must be more disciplined. and determined. i fear that's not going to happen in the near future. -_-

anyway...i'll talk about today. hm had class chapel again today. it was quite fun, jiaen's making melodies song. lol but i think our class isn't very enthusiastic. well i suppose it could be worse. hehe...after chapel was maths. maths maths maths maths. i don't know what's wrong with me, my maths used to be quite okay, but now it's just getting worse and worse. miss tang goes really fast. and since my maths is so terrible i have an extremely hard time keeping up. like today i had barely read the question and already she was going through it. i guess this is where i must be more disciplined. self study at home more. then maybe i get something better than a borderline pass in the next test.

mrs lim wasn't in school today. so we had an hour's free period =) i went to the library and came online. hehe...oh shoot....i just realised i should have studied than i wouldn't have to study so much now! sigh. well during p.e. we just ran 1 round for warm up spent 15min stretching and did standing broad jump. haha...barely perspired at all ^_^

oh yes and then there was science. we went to the computer lab to do some internet thing, and i guess we were quite noisy walking from class to the computer lab. and mrs sim got angry. so she scolded us for about half an hour. and she kept mentioning something about rotton eggs and 2o-better-that-us and what not. and the funny thing was everyone was trying so hard trying not to laugh. lol. well amanda couldn't take it so she started laughing and couldn't stop. so mrs sim got really angry and made her sit on the floor. and she was still laughing. and everyone else was trying not to laigh, and mrs sim was so angry...hahaha

[Jiayi got inspired at 02:53 p.m.]

Sunday, May 4, 2003

how do i know what's right or wrong?

i went for church today...and i was just wondering...is it wrong to feel nervous about going to church? cause i just started going, and i never know what's going to happen, and each week in church is just so different to me. so is it wrong to feel that way? i really don't know. and also during church...like sometimes i'm so busy thinking about other things i can't focus on God no matter how much i try. is that wrong too? but even if it's wrong, i don't know how i can stop my self from feeling like this...hm i guess i'm just not used to church yet, maybe after i get more accustomed to it i'll start to feel more comfortable and at ease.

i think i'm too insecure. and i care about what others think about me too much. i don't know. whenever i'm about to say something, i almost always think about it first, whether or not it will offend the person i'm talking too or make them think i'm dumb. so half the things i'm saying i end up not saying. i don't know how to cure this. like right now. i'm thinking "i wonder what the person reading this will think." so half the words that i've typed out have already been backspaced. i guess it's because of this that people often have this misconception that i'm quiet or shy or something. okay i admit maybe i am a little quiet, but not as quiet as most people think. especially teachers.

i just watched x-men just now. that's my 3rd time watching it. and i still enjoyed it. lol...i can't wait to go watch x-men 2. i'm so glad this sars thing is finally dying out. then i can go around more often without my parents getting worried =)

[Jiayi got inspired at 12:02 a.m.]

Saturday, May 3, 2003

moved

i moved =) hehe. pitas isn't very good. i'm only using it cause it's web blog style and the archives are a lot easier to do. but i'm sure none of you are interested in that. anyway this is my new url so change all your links thanks ^_^ i'm really not used to pitas, diaryland so much easier. oh well. just have to get used to it.

and with this new url comes a new layout! ^_^ i quite like this one. so starry. haha. i used the lyrics from tears in heaven by eric clapton. i like eric clapton songs. always very peaceful. haha.

i just watched 2 weeks notice on dvd. it's quite nice, it reminds me of maid in manhattan. haha. also don't know why.

argh should be studying. i'm so lazy. why can't i go study? why am i so addicted to the net that i use it even when i run out of things to surf? lol. oh yea i just made a new guestbook. just finished the layout. so fun to make. haha. so go and sign now ok. i don't even know why i have it. i just felt like making one. and it's more permanent then a tag board. i've never made a guestbook layout before. it turned out quite nice though =)

i just realised that this year's 2m got so little people who like matrix and xmen most didn't even watch the matrix or xmen 1 =( haha. then like got no one to go watch xmen2 and matrix reloaded with...haha...don't understand how anyone can not like matrix and xmen. i mean just look at the trailer! so cool. and even if you don't understand anything about the matrix it doesn't matter cause it's so cool. haha. excuse me. i'm babbling. sigh.

i'm going to go fix up some links now. then i'll go study. really.

[Jiayi got inspired at 04:02 p.m.]