I'm in one of the school's computer labs right now, just killing time before I go home.
It seems that I haven't blogged since Proof ended. I wanted to post about what happened then, if I can still remember, that is. ^_^
So this is supposed to be my post after January 27th.
I was feeling pretty festive despite the sad fact that the show was closing, so I braided my hair into two pigtails. Heeheehee, I remember Krissy telling me how cute it looked, and made me look a few years younger. Anyway, I brought my camera with me, too, so I would look good when I have pictures taken with the cast.
The matinee went well, thank you. It went very smoothly, to my relief. No props were dropped. ^_^
After the matinee show, we were told that our dinner was waiting for us at the entrance outside the rehearsal room. Krissy and I brought our cameras with us and had a few pictures taken. I had a picture taken with Tita Menchu there. Wow, our dinner was being catered by Bravo. And I have a big weakness for any Italian food. The food was set up like a small buffet, and I think I had about 3 helpings of everything. Yikes, I could actually feel myself getting fat. Those food were pretty heavy. But it was really good.
After dinner, we went back backstage and got everything ready, especially all those that were needed to be loaded outta there. Anna sent me a text message that she was in the lobby while Rogel and Dennis were moving Krystal's heavy couches near the emergency fire exit.
When I got to the lobby, my 'rents were already there, waiting. I said hi to them, then went straight to Anna, who was clutching this thick scrapbook crammed full of Lea's pictures and articles. She said that she wanted to ask Lea to sign the cover as a final touch. Heheheheh, clever, Anns. ^_^
When everything was ready for the final evening show, Krissy and I whipped out our cameras and took pictures of the cast and crew inside the girls' dressing room. Heeheehee, the two of us took turns having pictures taken with Lea. It was such a thrill to hear her call my name. ^_^ I even stood beside her during a couple of group shots. Then we moved on to the guys' dressing room for another set of group shots. Then I waited until there was only me, Mike and Joel inside the room, and then asked them to have another picture taken with me. ^_^ Heeheehee, I'm such a fanatic.
Another smooth run for the final show, except for the part that the picture frame on the coffee table fell during the very first scene, so we had to ask Tita Menchu to pick it up and just put it back on the table when she fixes the scattered magazines onstage.
After the curtain call, when the actors left the stage, they each gave Krissy and me a hug. They're so sweet. It was such a big privilege working with them.
I told Anna to go straight backstage after the show, so she did, along with her friends in Lea's newsgroup. Wow, I didn't realize that most of the people who were posting there were that young. The moment Lea came out of her dressing room, she was surrounded by them, trying to connect their faces to their newsgroup user names. Anna's jaw dropped all the way to the floor right after Lea signed her scrapbook. ^_^
When all the actors left for the cast dinner upstairs, all of us techies along with Miss Lisa were loading out, sorting everything that was to be delivered to whose house. When we were finally done, we went to the dinner, with me bringing the uneaten bag of Cheetos and the bag of Lays that were used as props in the first couple of scenes. THey were used the entire month, but Krystal and I sealed it real well with lotsa Scotch tape so we can still eat them after the run.
Heheheheh, one funny tihng is that Krissy, Krystal and I each took an unopened "wine" bottle home as a souvenir. Well, not really. I just wanted to drink it. The other bottle I stole that was actually used by Lea will be given to Anna as a birthday gift. (Anns, if you're reading this post right now, I'm not really spoiling the surprise, am I?) As for the Cheetos, Miss Bernice was craving for them since the start of the run, so we gave it to her. I got first dibs on the Lays. ^_^
My hands are frozen now. I think I'll go hang out at the YFC cubicle while waiting for Archer.
Tyme of arrival: 07:33 p.m.
Sunday, January 27, 2002
butterfly kisses
I keep hearing Bob Carlisle's "Butterfly Kisses" in the GSIS theater when we preset the props before every show. It made me so sentimental when I first heard the song because of the lyrics. I searched for the lyrics online, and the words were so beautiful. Heeheehee, when I get married, I'm gonna have that song played when I walk down the aisle. ^_^
There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from heaven, and she's Daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life, oh but most of all...
For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk beside the pony Daddy, it's my first ride
I know the cake looks funny Daddy, but I sure tried
Oh with all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right
To deserve a hug every morning, and butterfly kisses at night.
Sweet sixteen today
She's looking like her Mama, a little more everyday.
One part woman, the other part girl
To perfume and makeup, from ribbons and curls.
Trying her wings out in a great big world
But I remember...
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair.
You know how much I love you Daddy, but if you don't mind
I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time.
With all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right
To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses at night.
(background)
All the precious time,
Oh, like the wind the years go by.
Precious butterfly,
Spread your wings and fly.
She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise, and I'll give her away.
Standing in the brideroom just staring at her
She asks me what I'm thinking, and I said I'm not sure.
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl,
And she leaned over...
Gave me butterfly kisses with her Mama there
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair.
Walk me down the aisle Daddy, it's just about time.
Does my wedding gown look pretty Daddy?
Daddy, don't cry.
Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right.
To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses,
I couldn't ask God for more, than this is what love is.
I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always remember...
Every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses.
Tyme of arrival: 09:12 a.m.
Sunday, January 27, 2002
closing time
This is the last day of Proof's Manila run. Aww. Even though I'm gonna be so relieved with all the free time on my hands, I'm gonna miss the whole cast and crew, with me being the baby of the wacky bunch. Well, as for Tita Menchu, I can still keep in touch with her since I have her cellphone number plus she lives just right in Alabang and I can see her every summer. Lea, I can probably keep in touch with her through her newsgroups, which I recently joined (heheheheh, no wonder she knew how to spell my name when I asked her to sign my proof notebook ^_^). Miss Bernice teaches for one term every year in CSB, and Krystal will be my classmate in Hisart next school year. Krissy might probably be visiting us in school every now and then when she's bored.
Man, I can't wait to work in the theater biz professionally. Maybe someday I can act alongside Lea, Tita Menchu, Joel, and Mike.
Wow, being in Proof was a really big experience. Plus it made me see the exciting world of technical theater. I'm gonna be shifting soon. I sure hope I make it on time.
Tyme of arrival: 08:42 a.m.
Saturday, January 26, 2002
thinking...
Finished working on Proof's costume plot. All I have to work on now is my application for shifting letter. Plus I don't know how my parents will take it.
I've been thinking about something lately that invovles my friends. For the past year I've been closer to my YFC friends, and been losing touch with my old high school friends. I remember being so close to these group of guys when I was a junior in high school, and had lots of fun memories with them, just being one of the boys, not even caring if I was the only girl in the crazy bunch. And now that I try to keep in contact with a couple of them, I don't hear anything. Without them, for some reason, I don't feel so complete, even if now when I do have a boyfriend. I mean, they were the ones who taught me a lot of things, who taught me to grow up, despite the idea that they are of the opposite sex. Well, I guess things will never be the same.
Why is it that some people cut off their friendships with other people for no good reason? I remember talking to Ben over the phone last year. I was pretty cautious about having a serious conversation with him because he used to like me, plus he once had a thought of cutting off some close bonds with some of my close friends. I remember asking him why I hardly see him in school, and even some of our other close guy friends. And so he told me the reason.
"Hindi ka na fun kasama. (You're not fun to be with anymore.)"
Ouch. Hearing that even just over the phone hurt me so much. I never want people to see or even hear me crying, but I couldn't help it then. I just told Ben that I had to go, and finally opened the floodgates.
Arg.
I guess I'm not as fun as I used to be because I decided that I don't want to be cool anymore. I'm getting boring. I don't drink or smoke. I don't even attempt to cheat in tests. I don't like hanging out in bars, discos, and smoky places. Yet, I have a boyfriend who's my complete opposite. I'm the weirdest person I know. Oh well.
I guess that's why I already accepted the fact that Ben and the rest of the Funky Bunch don't keep in touch with me anymore. I'm too different from them now.
Life's full of weird schtuff. Whatever.
Tyme of arrival: 07:25 p.m.
Saturday, January 26, 2002
sleeping in
"I slept till noon today."
Heheheheheh, that's one of Lea's lines in Proof's Act 1 Scene 1. And that was also what I did today. Aaaahhh, it's feels good to catch up on my sleep, even if it was for a day.
I'm still considering extending my OJT until Lea's 2-day concert at CCP. I want to get some rest, but continuing my hours at the concert would get me in the concert without a ticket. Oh well, we'll see what comes up tomorrow to change my mind.
Eep, I haven't written my letter for application of shifting yet, plus Proof's costume plot. I'd better work on that today. Thank goodness for days-off.
Tyme of arrival: 12:54 p.m.
Saturday, January 26, 2002
it's almost over
Haven't blogged lately. I was way too busy with Proof and school work. I almost withdrew from my TECDRA2 class yesterday, but my teacher refused to sign the form because she knew I could still catch up with my work. Oh well.
I got the cast and some of the crew sign my "stolen" proof notebook today. Now all I need are pictures with them. ^_^
I'm getting sleepy. I really deserve the day-off.
Tyme of arrival: 12:32 a.m.
Tuesday, January 22, 2002
just bored and thinking
I'm here in one of the school's computer labs, just wasting time. On days like this, I'm usually with Archer, but he's kinda busy with his friends, so I didn't want to spoil his fun by bothering him. As for my other friends, most of them have class, while a few others just went to spy on their crushes. I don't know, but I feel as if I'm not into that kilig stuff anymore. Yeah, I do have a boyfriend, but even before then, I don't do any of that guy-stalking. For some reason, I think that seems kinda immature. I mean, when I liked a guy in school before, I didn't go around trying to steal glances at them. I used to watch them do it, with an amused expression on my face. Now it totally bores me. So I guess that's why I'm here in front of a computer like the geeky loser that I am.
I'm seriously thinking about shifting from production design to technical theater. I can't seem to handle drawing stuff anymore. Yeah, it's easy to say that I can shift because my interests have altered, but what I'm dreading is what my parents' reaction would be. I can never make them proud anymore. No matter what I do anymore, it never seems to measure up to their standards. My aunt was right, I was unlucky to start college just when my 'rents have just retired. My brother is the only person they're proud of.
Oh well, c'est la vie.
Tyme of arrival: 11:47 a.m.
Sunday, January 20, 2002
home again
Just arrived home from Proof. The matinee and evening shows went better than last Friday, thank you. I didn't drop anything. ^_^
My brother left for Minnesota early this morning. Oh well, another six months of being an only child for me. I have to admit, but I really miss my brother when he's away. Thank goodness there's always the phone and the Internet.
Yesterday, after paying this term's tuition fee, I hung around UM for a while with Archer. We just stayed in Oriental Fusion Kitchen until his pep squad practice. Then I rode a bus and went to ATC, where I was meeting Lawyn (I sent her a text message asking her if she was busy that afternoon, and we agreed to meet in ATC).
Funny, a few minutes after I arrived in ATC, I ran into Tita Menchu. Eheheheh, we saw each other even during a day-off!
Anyway, Lawyn and I just walked around the mall, going in and out of shops, waiting for Mikki and Eric coz Lawyn texted them, inviting them to come with us. They didn't arrive for a very looooooong time. We already saw Jolina, Bea, Nicole (Tita Menchu's daughter) and a lot of Lawyn's batchmates, but there was still no sign of the boys. We even tried ringing their phones, but their phones were probably off because we couldn't contact them at all.
I suddenly felt the urge to splurge the change from my tuition fee (if the change was around P500 of so, my 'rents don't mind it anyway). So I decided to look for some lip gloss. My fave Last Strawberry lip balm from THe Body Shop was running out, and I need a new one. So Lawyn and I went in and out of stores looking for lip gloss. I didn't want to go into Body Shop, 'coz I don't like the way the salespeople there follow you around even if you're just browsing. Then I remembered Jenny (the sister of Archer's friend Ryan) telling me that she gets her lip glosses mostly from Beauty Bar, and the prices there were pretty expensive, but they have the best stuff. So in we went. And I made a right choice. ^_^ I had to say goodbye to my P500, but I didn't mind. I love my purchase. ^_^ I got a Rocket City dual lip gloss compact. They have lots of pretty lip gloss colors that I like, so the next time I have some cash, I'm going back there for more.
Anyway.
There's only one week left before Proof is finally over. I've had fun with the company, especially the whole cast and crew. There were lots of silly antics and funny phrases that I could already write a book of quotes just based on behind-the-scenes stuff. ^_^ The "just-before-Act-Two" jokes that Lea can't seem to stop laughing about, Lea's re-telling of the SBC stand-up comedy routine, Tita Menchu's overall hype, Mike's childishness, and Joel's trivia stuff. And of course there's Dennis and Rogel's funny quips, Luz's getups, and Krissy and Krystal's combined craziness mixed with my weirdness. Top it all with Bobby the "diva director", Lisa the small but loud production manager and Miss Bernice the "wonderwoman" stage manager, and we're one wacky crowd despite how small it is.
Nyak, most of us just found out today that Joel and Caroline broke up right before Caroline left for Singapore on New Year's Day. And I can't believe that Caroline is actually younger than me! She's 19 years old! Wow, she doesn't look like it. Krissy told me that people in some other countries look older than Filipinos even if we're the same age. Oh well, youth is a big asset. ^_^ Anyhoo, wow. I mean, Joel is already 32 (turning 33 soon), and he hooked up with a way younger girl. Thank goodness I'm not into way, way older men. It creeps me out.
Gotta get some sleep now. Good night, world.
Tyme of arrival: 11:36 p.m.
Saturday, January 19, 2002
i should be sleeping
I'm in school right now. On a Saturday, when I really should be sleeping. I just paid my tuition for this term. And seriously considering a major decision concerning my college life. And I have to decide by Monday.
Arg, last night was the worst show I ever did. We pre-set the props pretty early so we were all fine, so we just waited for 7pm tp strike so we can go up to the lobby to get some food. Problem is that because of this EDSA celebration, there were some traffic jams, causing traffic to some of the cast members, audience members, and Topdog, which is our main food supply during shows. Grrr...so I didn't get to eat dinner last night.
What's more is that because of the food deprivation, I was so clumsy during the last scene change that I dropped the ashtray while I was striking props! I made a really loud noise, so Dennis had to help me pick up my props. Then I didn't have the time to strike the last piece, which was the wooden magazine rack. Arg. I think Miss Bernice got pissed, but was really good at not showing it, turning it into a joke. But if I were her, I would be pissed, too. She even noticed that I was panicking because of the limited time and extra work.
Chester went backstage after the show with a bouquet of flowers for Tita Menchu! That guy is so sweet! He said that he only missed 2 show nights so far. Woah.
Tyme of arrival: 11:04 a.m.
Friday, January 18, 2002
uneventful? nah!
Weird, when I logged in to blog, I was just thinking of saying that nothing much happened lately. Nyak.
I finally caught Jammi online the other night! Miss you, Jammi! SHe's gonna help me fix my site. Yay! Thank you!
When I got to COSK2 class yesterday, some of my classmates told me that they saw me on TV yesterday. Eep, it was about the Proof behind the scenes feature. Yikes. I didn't know about that.
Oh yeah, Tim watched the show last night! I haven't seen him since summer, and he came to watch. We talked a bit, while I was waiting for my Cheesytop and Diet Pepsi (arg, they don't have my favorite Diet Coke). I even met his mom, who's celebrating her birthday last night. Heheheheh, Tim was so funny. He went to watch the show and didn't even know that Tita Menchu was in it. Oh yeah, and he's also leaving for Italy today. Oh well.
And by the way, "Mommy Salonga" gave me a couple of complementary tickets for Proof's last show! ^_^
I finally slept in today. I was supposed to go to school early, but I couldn't resist the joy of having no class. And since Archer will be going straight home after class, why bother going to school to wait for him? Oh well, maybe next week.
Tyme of arrival: 10:10 a.m.
Thursday, January 17, 2002
stabbing guilt
I used to think of school as a safe haven, a place where I can get away from it all. A place where I can have fun even when there are classes to go to. Because my YFC friends are always there. But lately, I feel different.
Ever since I accepted an OJT that Kitin passed to me, I've been so distant from them. And I've been so busy with Proof that I haven't been any help with the Xtreme Campus Tour in school. I even told Moi that I feel so guilty about it. He said it was OK, because I was still doing something worthwhile for God's glory, but I have a feeling that it's not OK even if he insists that it is. And during today's prayer meeting, when Macy took the floor, I was struck by what she said about people committing but not doing anything once the work started piling up. It's like they're all shooting me down with a silent bomb.
It's like they were better off without me. I feel so darn useless.
So now, instead of the YFC cubicle, I've been turning to my boyfriend, my other friends, and Proof instead. And I wouldn't know what to do when the play is over. Oh well, I could just concentrate on honing my photography skills with Lawyn, for a couple of months while waiting for the summer. Then I'm gonna immerse myself once again in Trumpets Playshop by April.
Am I getting too paranoid? Maybe, maybe not.
But I'm gonna make myself scarce for a while, and take some time off from hanging out too much in the cubicle.
Tyme of arrival: 12:04 a.m.
Monday, January 14, 2002
yesterday's shows
We had two shows in one day yesterday. One was a matinee at 3 in the afternoon and the other was the usual 8pm evening show.
Anna came to watch the matinee show. After the curtain call, when I went onstage to pre-set the props again, I heard Anna calling my name. Heheheheh, she was so funny. She sat down on the places that Lea sat, as if she was trying to catch Lea's germs. Eheheheh. I took her backstage where Tita Menchu was. She told her that Lea left a few seconds before I brought Anns backstage. Oh darn! But she made Tita Mench sign her program anyway. Oh yeah, and Bobby and Joel, too.
(Anns, if you're reading this right now, I PROMISE you that I'll bring you backstage really early the next time you watch!) ^_^
Before the second show, after Krystal had refilled the decanter with iced tea, we found out that the cover was missing. It took Krystal, Krissy and me a good 20 minutes looking for it until we found out that Mike was hiding it all that time! Arg. And not only did he do it, he did it twice! "Ayaw nyo non? Para may fun naman backstage! (So there'll at least be a little fun backstage!)" he claimed. Arg.
Then while Lea, Mike, Krissy and I were waiting for the airconditioners to shut off, Lea told us this joke that she got from her friend online. It was by this local stand-up comedian, Rex Navarrete, and it was a flash animation. The way Lea delivered it was so funny! All four of us were trying so hard to quiet down our laughs that it made our sides ache. She told the story again to the rest of the cast during the intermission, while a bunch of us were hanging out in her dressing room. What a way to start the week and end the night. ^_^
Tyme of arrival: 04:29 p.m.
Sunday, January 13, 2002
finding the time
Yup, I was right yesterday. I have a cold today. And I feel a little warm. Yikes.
I'm kinda disappointed how Pitas does their archives. Diaryland can archive better than this. I still want to switch to Blogger, but I want to re-do my site and move to Port5 before I do that. And I can't seem to find the time.
Speaking of time, it seems that I can't find the right time to spend with my friends, and most especially, my boyfriend. I feel so guilty lately that I've been so busy working in Proof that I'm not much help at all in YFC. When I was in school this past week, it seemed that nobody needed me anymore. They seemed better off without me. I don't really know. I think I'm not gonna be Execom material next year. Well, if that happens, I'll actually be relieved. As for the other responsibility of being an assistant household head, I have a feeling that there are three possible canididates who'l lbe replacing Pauline. One is Kitin, who's already committed to YFC despite the fact that she's not yet a full-fledged member (she hasn't attented a youth camp yet), and maybe Me-anne. Oh yes, and me. I was Pauline's assistant, and I once heard from Let that once Pauline gives up her household head position, it will be passed on to me, being her assistant. Oh well.
I also feel guilty about not spending as much time as I did before with Archer. The tables have finally turned on us. Before, we were both working around his pep squad schedules. But now, it's about me and Proof. And I feel kinda guilty. I don't know. Whatever.
Tyme of arrival: 08:06 a.m.
Saturday, January 12, 2002
a day-off
Eep, I was trying to archive my entries, but I messed up and I don't know how to fix it. Oh well, in case you missed any of my entries, click on the Archives link to your left. The first link in that page was an entry I made this morning. The other links are past entries.
Well, no shows today, so I didn't have to wake up early. It feels so good to sleep in. ^_^ I just spent the day watching TV and surfing the net, and took a very long nap in between. My head started hurting when evening came, though. I think I may be developing a cold or a fever, or maybe even both. Arg. I have to bring some medicine tomorrow just in case.
Yesterday's run? Easy as pie. We finished pre-setting the props early so we had more time waiting for Topdog in the lobby upstairs. And during Joel's quickest costume change, he even had to the time to fool around and pretend to yawn before putting his vest on. What a clown.
Anna's watching the show tomorrow! I can't wait to see her again. I promised to steal a "wine" bottle and a well-worn proof notebook for her when I take her backstage to see Lea and Tita Menchu after the show.
Hmmm..let me see now. Call time tomorrow is at 1pm. Oh well. And we have 2 shows--one matinee and one gala. Oh well (again).
Tyme of arrival: 06:42 p.m.
