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if u wanna use my screenshots then at least ASK ME. blah :P...it's hosted on geocities so sometimes all my pics don't appear and it's really obvious to me why
. if ur one of my friends then i don't really care...but if ur not then DON'T STEAL MY SCREENSHOTS lol


----------------------September 10, 2003-----------------------

yay so happy now
8:45pm--yay nancy and i are friends again. so happy now. cuz now i don't really have anything to worry about. i didn't talk to her for the past month or so...=(. we talk as if nothing had happened between us...and that's good...cuz now we won't have to fight about anything anymore. but she wants to start over. so that means that instead of being close friends...we're now only normal friends. i was kind of hurt when i first heard this. cuz...i've known her like 4 years and now we're starting OVER?! anyways...cory hasn't got mad at me...yet. she said that if i apologise or anything to nancy then she won't be my friend anymore. but i DIDN'T apologise. i dunno what will happen next. maybe we will end up to be close friends again. i dunno...i don't even remember doing anything that could lose her trust in me.

stupid ambrosse...i hate him. if he DARES bully my friend i swear i'm gonna get him back. i kno more ppl than him...he hangs around losers. and besides...he's like picking on a grade 9...wtf.

###TACKEY&TSUBASA
wow...tomorrow...on sep. 11, it will be 1 year that they've been together as a group. aww!!! and it's also THAT 911 day too. i hope that they stay together forever and ever!! and never break up...or else i'll be very sad. i wouldn't like tackey&tsubasa AS MUCH if they were solo singers. tsubasa's good at dancing...and tackey's good at dancing...so they make a great group together! i only started liking them since last november. i liked tackey before because of SOS...but i didn't like tsubasa for some reason. but ya...now i LOVE THEM BOTH!!! happy anniversary tackey&tsubasa!! \listening to: funky days (lead)


----------------------September 6, 2003-----------------------

i can never be happy until this is settled
9:56pm--i'm STILL sad and it's been almost 3 weeks. i'm always thinking about it unless i watch a show or something. i don't want to live through life knowing that i made a mistake and that someone hates me now. the msn name wasn't the mistake...the fact that i blocked and deleted her after she forgave me was the mistake. she said "gong siu je"...but then i never read that msg. hai...i told my friend to talk to her. i wanna kno what she thinks of me now. if she hates me then..i can't do anything.

lalala...HO MOON AR!!! my parents are at a wedding and my bros are golfing -__- omg it's so dark now what if it rains!! > <. omg i have to go to the washroom...but i'm scared of the dark...so i have to wait for my bro to come back (man i'm pathetic aren't i?). kelly called me like 2 times already. anyways i found another hk group i like...SKY!!! KIN is so cute!!!! and the other members aren't that cute...

listening to: typhoon generation


----------------------September 4, 2003-----------------------

STILL sad
9:56pm--the first few days of school have gone pretty well. i met 3 people so far. emrita, kathleen, and catherine. emrita's in my science and career studies class, kathleen is in my food and nutrition class and catherine is also in my food and nutrition class. i feel sorry for them...because they have to come to a new school where they don't know anyone. catherine actually lives on cory's street -__-;; i didn't kno that...but cory said that someone recently just moved in. but 2day...i think i was being so mean to catherine. cuz yesterday she sat beside me. but today, windy and kathleen want to sit beside me so cathleen had to sit somewhere else. so sad =(. ahh i dun want any of them to have a bad impression of me. cuz last year...the first people i met in high school i don't even hang out with anymore. we just talk on the first day and then they find other friends *sniff* so sad. but ya...i feel sorry for catherine. cuz mss is a fobby school and she's probably the only person in grade 10 who's not a fob. most chinese ppl SAY that they are CBC people and they're born in canada...but they still act like fobs so it makes no difference. but ya...i want cory to know her cuz...she acts like the old TCY.

kelly's in my computer science class and on the FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL she got mad at me. omg...i promised her that i would eat lunch with her. but then while we were walking in the hall...we met up with nichole. i dun really like nichole and besides...i kno that kelly and her are best friends. so i told kelly that i'll leave the 2 of them alone. but kelly got mad at me =(...for lik 2 days!! like i didn't have enough problems already T__T. so the next day, in class, she told me not to talk to her...and 2day...she sat with someone else in com sci. but i was really jealous though. cuz i don't like to see the 2 of them hanging out. and kelly was PURPOSELY ignoring me. but i tried my best not to worry about that and just hang out with my friends. but it was REALLY distracting me. so i just left early to go to class. i wasn't really planning for her to forgive me tho...but she did. lala...1 problem gone.

i see nancy around the school so much > <. and we just walk by each other as if we've never met. but that's the way it is now. nothing's ever going to change that. i remember how we were really good friends before. memories...they're hard to forget...losing her as a friend has made me SO depressed for the last 2 weeks. but i kno that even if we're friends again she'll never trust me like before. but it's really sad tho. one day, you're friends with someone. the next day, you act like you don't know them. one day i saw her at school and i was about to say hi to her but then i remembered that she hates me so i just walked past her. it's really hard to forget someone, especially one that you've known for so long. and besides...i can't forget her if i see her everday. so tomorrow...if i see her, i have to pretend like she's not there and just walk by...not caring. maybe this is just a fight and not the end of our friendship. maybe we'll be friends one day and look back on this as a joke. i DOUBT she even cares that we're not friends anymore. she probably forgot about me already. but why can't i forget about her??

\listening to: cheers together (boy'Z)


----------------------August 30, 2003-----------------------

sadness...
3:07am--i juss wanna thank ROY for always coming to my page. he's like the only one that reads my entries. THANKS ROY!!

this summer i've lost 3 of my friends

one, is a friend that i haven't known for a long time but we grew apart lately and haven't talked for a long time.

two...well she got mad at my friend and i because of our msn name. it was "don't use money to change who you are. without money you're nothing". at first she thought that the name was referring to her, because my friend and i had gone to her house to see all the clothes she bought that day. but it's not. clothes do not change who you are. it's just on the outside. anyways, she blocked my friend and i. a few days later, she talked to me on a new account and eventually forgave me. for the next few days, i could not accept the fact that she was now friends with ME but not friends with my friend. BOTH of us had that name. but...she had a grudge against my friend cuz of something that happened in grade 6. -__- hai...it was 3 years ago. so a few days ago, i blocked and deleted her. it was because of something she said. she said that she had lost confidence in me and was disappointed in me. but then after she said she was just joking. if she was really joking then she'd say that right after the msg...not like an hour later. my friend and i did nothing wrong so therefore we shouldn't be sorry for anything. our msn name was just a personal opinion. also...that name could refer to ALOT of ppl. it's a GENERAL STATEMENT.

third...is the friend that didn't wanna be friends with my bro anymore. since she's not friends with my bro anymore it means that she's not friends with me anymore either. *sigh*...and to think...the day before my bday i forgave my bro for going out because i knew that her and i had the same birthday. if it was anyone else i would've gotten mad. my bro and i even spent the day looking for a present to buy her. hai...it's her loss. my parents used to think that she was a good person and that she would be my bro's girlfriend some day. but now all that has changed. after my bro told my mom, she was so shocked. so now...because i support my bro, i can't be friends with her. and i doubt my family will let me either.

i'm so sad. 2 of them were close friends. like they always gave me advice and helped me whenever i have problems...but now THEY'RE part of the problem. i can't believe that i had a fight with my friend. i never did that before. i don't regret that msn name...AT ALL. i can't believe i blocked and deleted her too. i thought that was so harsh. cuz i know that even to the person i hate the most, i would block them, but i wouldn't delete them. this...is like a close friend tho. i don't hate her or anything...and i hope she doesn't hate me too. in her last msg, she told me to never look at her again. she told my friend that too. hai...but we go to the same high school now. i wanna settle this. i at least want to talk to her again. i know that we will never be as close friends as before...because of what happened.

...good friends are hard to find...but easy to lose...i will never regret what i did. but happy memories are hard to forget. all these years we were friends...and now it's gone. seems like my efforts were wasted.

\listening to: superstar (S.H.E.)


----------------------August 25, 2003-----------------------

last update for a while...
8:48pm--been kinda sad today. my bro is leaving to go back to university for his last semester. i dun like being an only child. even tho i say i have 3 brothers, i dun even talk to 2 of them. so it's like being an only child when he's gone. anyways something really really bad happened my brother. at the cne, AMY CHU was being really mean to him and ignored him. when he asked her online why...she said that she was INTENTIONALLY mean to him. my bro just told her that they weren't friends anymore and to never talk to him again. they've been friends for a year now and she wants to end the friendship just like that. well...she is my friend too...and if she doesn't wanna be friends with my bro...does it mean she doesn't wanna be friends with ME either?? T__T. i never realized what a horrible person she is. on her birthday (which is the same as my birthday)...i got her a present and so did my bro. my bro got her an oven. and...a few days ago, my bro gave her one of the pigs we won at wonderland. i can't believe she would do this. so this proves that u can't judge ppl just by looking at them. even if people look + act really nice to ppl, there's always a side of them you never know about.
\listening to: vow (flame)
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++ROMANCE my favorite korean drama. i'm not even finished it yet...only on episode 18.