= p r o f i l e =
name//amanda
age//14
d.o.b.//august 13
likes//lead, tackey&tsubasa, w-inds, flame, BoA*, energy, arashi, kat-tun, 4tops
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LINKS\\YUKIKI+NANCY+j-ent+jpopmusic+iro arsenaide+WFL+clickwinds
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[APRIL 6, 2003]
[APRIL 19, 2003]
[MAY 22, 2003]
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~*NEWSGROUPS*~
[tackey&tsubasa]
[4tops]
[kansai jr]
[kat-tun]
[arashi]
i hate summer school...it wastes so much of my time and i'm not even getting over 90%...it SUCKS. but i can't drop out now. must not give up. don't want people saying that they passed and i didn't. i have debates tomorrow. aiya > < it's like 40 min per group and there's only 3 people in our group. anyways, i got in trouble yesterday because me and my bro came home too late. we went to the pmall arcade until 11pm. ooh this weekend was SOO fun for me. i watched LXG (league of extraordinary gentlemen) on friday. it was ok...but it was about superheroes during the early 20th century. on saturday me and my bro went to playdium. we stopped at square one mall. omg that mall is so big. we got lost...and we had to ask for directions on how to get out. we went to playdium from 8pm to midnight. i was so sore after that. i played [time crisis 3] and [house of the dead 3] for 4 hours straight...it was SO tiring. i couldn't walk > < (now u kno why i couldn't walk yukiki). after we went to 7-11 to get a slurpee. so YUMMY...haven't had that in like 5 years. but so sad tho...i couldn't go online to talk to shuyun =(.
2:10am--this first week of summer school has been so hard. we've had so many assignments already and a unit test. omg i've gotten no sleep in days. but the good thing about summmer school is that you get to meet all these new people cuz they come from different schools. sadly...i'm in the same class as my EX-best friend. we even sit at the same table. i realized how annoying a person she can be. she only cares about school work and nothing else. we had to do this skit and she blamed us all for doing nothing and said that she did all the work. she gets mad at me when i look at her -__-;; how stupid. so now i don't really care about her anymore. being in the same class with the same person for like 6 hours a day can make u very bored of them. and besides...most of my group members really hate her. she only talks to this girl that really hates me. i kno eventually she will try to break the friendship between kelly and me so i just don't care. kelly and i hung out on the FIRST DAY and that's it...the other times she just talks to her FRIEND. winnie says to just ignore her and pretend she doesn't exist...but still, she annoys me too much for me to do that. she even said she thought the johnny's jr pictures on my binder were blah =P. > < i wanna get revenge...YUKIKI HELP ME!!!
10:48pm--i miss talking to shuyun =( cuz for the last 4 months, we've talked almost everyday. but now we both have school and can only talk on weekends =(. mad cow is sad
8:17pm--i slept pretty much the whole day today. so sleepy...didn't get enough sleep because it's TOO HOT and my fan and the air conditioning DOESN'T HELP AT ALL. also, it's TOO sunny in the morning > <. i wanna watch the rest of [farewell firefly] it's SO GOOD! but i can only find episodes 1-4 =(. i also watched the second episode of [the files of young kindaichi 3]. it has jun (arashi) in it. i think i'm starting to like him o__O he's very cute in that show lol. the show is about solving cases...it reminds me of [hero] lol. but in [the files of young kindaichi 3], they take SOO much time to explain everything lol. i wanna watch the first 2 dramas...which has tsuyoshi (kinki kids). 11:46pm--i just watched "my wife is 18". it has charlene choi and ekin cheng in it. omg so funny...charlene is so childish > < but then she's always like that. sometimes it's hard to understand what she says > < it's cantonese but she just talks weird. anyways, amy CHU sent me this e-mail. so funny...4:09am--SO awake right now. i don't understand why i always sleep all day but have trouble sleeping at night =(. i just watched [take care of my cat]. lol now i understand why amy never told me what she thought of this movie. no comment o__O. i didn't even know what this movie was about. it's just about 5 friends who have all these problems in their life. one of them finds a cat, and then they just keep passing it on to someone else because they have too many personal issues that they can't take care of. ho moon ar...i wanna watch [feel 100%] lol but i'm scared i mite get in trouble for staying up so late. starting school on monday..OH NO!! this is the last nite i can stay up. i can't stand 7 hours of history...SO BORING!! i wanna go to hk...and we were going to...but it was cancelled. my bro is in his last year in university...and he was supposed to graduate this year, but he FAILED some of his courses and now, he has to re-take those courses next year. so he's graduating this christmas > <#. so stupid...we were supposed to go to hk this year. also, my parents are worried about SARS...but that's gone now, i think. me, my 3 bros, and amy were supposed to go, but amy and i have school this summer =(.
6:03pm--YUKIKI is purposely making me jealous > < i'm happy that she has her new little sister nancy =) lol because after all...we are ONLY CLOSE friends =P. but i still LUB her lol *MOO-AHZ* haha. but we aren't BEST friends o__O i forgot why lol.12:45pm--watching [feel 100%] rite now. episode 10...ALMOST DONE!! rite now hui lok (alex fong) is going to tell cherie (niki chow) that he likes her. she was looking for ding dong manga volume 1 and hui lok help her. he finally found it...but it was in bad condition, so he hand-drew the pages that were damaged...SO SWEET!! fongfong's (rain li) ex-bf siu san (william so) came back and wanted her to be his gf again but he knows that jerry (daniel chan) is already her bf. fongfong got into a fight with jerry because she realized that he was a terrible bf and because he was so mean to siu san. so she goes to japan with siu san. jerry was sad so he goes to the manga store for cherie's help. they end up dancing together o__O. and when hui lok finished drawing the ding dong manga, he was going to go to the store to tell cherie that he likes her, but instead he saw them dancing and got jealous =P.
7:06pm--i just came home from going to YUKIKI's house. yukiki is mad at me because i said we weren't best friends. but we AREN'T...we are just CLOSE friends. so if YUKIKI is actually going to the movies with NANCY...then i wouldn't really care or feel left out :P. YUKIKI will always be my close friend but i will never be friends with her little sister kelly LOL.
10:20pm--i just came home from watching [terminator 3] with my bro. it was better than i thought it was. i wanna go see the first 2 movies because i didn't really know what was going on. i thought this movie was better than [28 days or later] and [the hulk]. there were alot of people at the theatre. it was almost full o__O. anyways, i slept so much today...i dunno why. i slept from like 2:00pm-6:00pm. i think i'm still depressed. yesyes i ONLY need YUKIKI...but still...it's very very sad to lose a friend. i know that it will be better next year because YUKIKI is going to be in grade 9...but still...i have to see her in summer school. also...i think that grade 10's have lunch 4th period instead of 3rd period so I'M SORRY YUKIKI.
11:50pm--i had to wake up at 10 to go "yum cha" today with my family. i'm SOO TIRED!! i slept at 4:30am last nite cuz i was watching tv =P. but when we went to "yum cha" this morning it was so disappointing. there was nothing GOOD to eat...so we went home early and bought something else to eat. 2 of my bros had to go out today and my other bro went on vacation to vancouver, BC a couple of days ago. i fell asleep rite after they left. so i slept from 3-7:30pm and then woke up to eat dinner lol =P. i watched [gto special] today. it was so good!! the ending was so touching that i cried lol. i found out today that the girl named miyabi was only 15 when she was in the show. she is my favorite character + that guy named murai. the other gto characters i've seen in other dramas but i barely ever see those 2 ppl in other dramas. that murai guy was in [beautiful life] but he wasn't the main character, takuya kimura was. i also saw a few episodes of [feel 100%]. when i watched it the first time, i finished all 11 episodes in one night so i didn't have any time to pay attention to the show =(. i wanna watch the sequel but i dunno how to get it. my cousin has it but he mite think i'm gonna borrow it for like 4 months again.
7:13pm--i got a new layout!! yay...this time, it's [full moon wo sagashite]. it took me so long to find it...then i had to upload all the pictures and figure out how the html worked -___-;; i wanna find a layout for my other blog [txtshinya2] but so far...none of the layouts that i found worked. i went to watch [28 days] today. we were going to watch [charlie's angels: full throttle] but then we decided that it was stupid. [28 days] was rated like 18+ so it was kinda hard to get in. the ticket person said "i'll let you in, but if anyone asks, she's 18" haha. we had to go to the arcade for a while because the movie didn't start until like 4:45pm. i was playing [capcom vs. snk] with my bro and then i said "EWW what is that smell??" and then my bro quietly said "it's the guy next to us". o__O eww don't people ever shower?!? anyways...while we were watching the movie...the guy sitting beside me smelled like cigarettes. i was gonna move but then it mite seem like i'm rude or something lol. [28 days] wasn't as good as i thought it was. it was a british movie and i found it hard to understand what they were saying. that show SERIOUSLY needed subtitles. but it looked low-budget because there weren't that many special effects except for the zombies.
9:29pm--today i spent from 1:00pm-5:00pm at the arcade at fairview mall. omg...me and my bro spent so much money there. i played [soul calibur II] and [street fighter 3: 3rd strike]. anyways it got kinda boring because we were there for so long. anyways...after...we got iced cappucino and went home.
11:53pm--yay it's almost david's birthday. he seems so sad because he's not going out tomorrow to celebrate. he wants to call his friends back in macao but it'll be so expensive. it's like long distance =O. oh i found out that the second part of his e-mail address came from a japanese magazine called [non-no]. he reads it so that he can look for new clothes to buy lol. ahh such a girl -__-;; david kept talking about how macao was better than hk and how i should visit macao someday lol.
4:38pm--i went to school today and kelly DIDN'T bring the [feel 100%] vcd's. so i said i'd go to her house...and she says she's busy everyday until sunday. wtf...how can that be possible. i'm not actually going IN her house...i have to stop for like 1 or 2 minutes. aiya...always make it sound like she has alot of friends...but she doesn't. i saw her at school today and she just said hi and didn't even stop to talk to me. i talked to her online...and she was so annoying > <. she kept complaining about how i didn't wear shorts to school. why does she care?! i don't get it. actually i feel very sorry for my friends. cuz...at school today, when they were all playing games, i was just complaining about how much i hate nichole and kelly now. like...i wish i could ACT happy and talk about other stuff...but i can't. i DID care about kelly more than my other friends. so...if it was another friend that didn't want to be friends with me anymore then i wouldn't care as much. lol but angie asked me if i cared about getting the vcd's more or the friendship between me and kelly. i said the vcd's...and as soon as i get them back, i'm not being her friend anymore. i hate when people brag about how popular they are and how many friends they have. if kelly is really as busy as she says she is...she wouldn't talk to me. marco said that i should put more thought into it when i find a best friend. but i DID. kelly and i WERE best friends before. but then she changed. she is so self-centered now. she only talks about herself...but it's so boring to talk to her because i don't care. i don't regret losing her as a friend...but i'm sad that she changed to this kind of person. maybe it is my fault...but i dunno =(. we met last year ar...but we didn't talk. i made another account and didn't add her. so after i went to grade 9 registration...i went online my other account and she msged me and we became best friends since then. i wish i didn't go online that day...cuz then we wouldn't have become best friends and we would just be NORMAL friends. all this stuff wouldn't have happened. ahh this is killing me...i can't stop thinking about this and i'm still heartbroken > < 10:33pm--grade 8 graduation was the best!! lol they all looked like lang jai'z and lang lui'z at the grad. yay...lina won french award and cory won the art award. ooh sara drove me there. omg i had to walk to her house. it was SO hot...i was gonna faint. but i was laughing at her when i saw her dress lol. she was SOO pretty but then she looked funny. her mommy drove us. wow sara has changed. she isn't as bad as some ppl say she is...but she is DIFFERENT. i haven't talked to her IN PERSON for like a year...but it's sad that she's going to fmm next year =(...i won't get to see her then. but i think she should really watch out. cuz she's really pretty...alot of guys like her and she shouldn't go out with ALL of them. o__O and most of those guys are perverts...i'm worried. i saw nancy's dress...lol it was just as cory described it. it was black but at the bottom was HOT PINK lol...but still really pretty. mandy was the one that gave me the ticket. omg...i finally met her lol after like a year of ppl talking about her. but it's the ONLY time i'll see her cuz she's going to mdhs next year...with erika. but she was jeet's gf at one time tho. i don't understand how people think she's pretty. er...actually that's kind of mean. i sat with janice and dave. this is like the 4th time i've seen janice lol. and everytime she's like "do u remember me??" and i've seen dave alot lately. i saw him when my family and i went out for dinner at [le biftheque] and he SAID he saw me at pmall a couple of weeks ago lol. dave said he and priscilla broke up in february. lol he said that they got into fights everyday and that he started hating her.
7:30pm--didn't do much today. i went to STC with my bro and my mom to eat lunch there. omg...we wasted so much money playing [soul calibur] lol. then...i went by myself to peachtree center to get a keychain. my keychain fell off of my wallet yesterday at pmall...> < not fair!! i had like 3 keychains. ahh o well...i bought bread man keychain lol. oh ya...i rented this movie called [give them a chance]. i haven't watched it yet but it's about dancing o__O.
10:00pm--i'm still sad...and i don't think i can ever get over it. losing a best friend is SO painful...cuz i trusted her the most out of all my other friends. kelly said before that "we'd be friends forever, even if we aren't best friends"...but that is bs. so...my advice is don't be best friends with someone because the friendship will be ruined. it's better to have many close friends than just have ONE best friend. you can't trust someone 100% unless ur sure that you know them. aiya...kelly and i became best friends like a month after we met...it's stupid. arg...i blocked her > <. she'll probably just tell me how much fun she had at fmp with her best friend and send me the scans of the card pics they took =(. fukk i can't stand this. and she still has my "feel 100%" series. she had it since march but she hasn't finished watching it. wednesday is exam feedback day...and if she doesn't give it back then i dunno how to get it back.
12:32am--today was such a happy day for me...but kelly had to ruin it. she HAD to msg me on msn and say all that stuff...which hurt me so much emotionally :(. here is the conversation:
9:47pm--i FINALLY finished all my exams today. gym exam =O omg i should've studied lol...i didn't know ANY of it. also...i had keyboard exam. i finished gym exam at 11:30 so i had to wait until 1:45 for my keyboard exam. omg i was so nervous...but the teacher gave me such a high mark even tho i made so many mistakes =O. i went to fairview mall with my bro right after, and played at the arcade. omg...i had such a big headache after =(. i didn't get ANY sleep at all last nite...cuz i was scared about the exams. david is mad at me. cuz...he heard something that he wasn't supposed to hear. yesterday, when i was done my english exam...i was talking to daphne. she asked me how many bf's i had and i said 2...and she said "does that count that NEW one??" and i said no. o__O maybe david thought i was talking about him. and then...i told daphne about how i dumped my ex-bf because i didn't like him. =O and right at that moment, david walked down the stairs. he must've heard everything > <. i kno he's mad at me because he hasn't talked to me since. my best friend is mean...i should really take marco's advice and ignore her from now on. yesterday she msged me and said hi...and i said hi back but she never replied me. today...she msged me and kept talking about how she liked this guy. aiya...it was so stupid lol...so i just stopped replying :P. it's almost grade 8's grad...i hope adam can make it as MC. nancy told me that today...he got into a fight and he had to get 15 stitches. he was trying to defend a friend, but ended up getting involved and the other guy pushed him into the lockers. i saw his name on msn...it's so sad. it's about how he's really hurt and he can't really talk right now...but he needs the support of all his friends so he can recover. ah...i hope he gets better soon^^ school is OVER!!! yay =P...but i have summer school starting on july 7 :( i don't wanna go...i hate history...and it'll be so sad because i'm wasting my summer in class.
12:55pm--i came back a while ago from the english exam. OMG...all that studying for nothing > <. the exam was like 5 pages long...and 2 were just introductions...so only 3 pages. i finished in like half an hour. it was SOoo easy for me...but i think i will get a bad mark anyways =(. stupid david...i said hi to him and he didn't say hi back =(. ahh my best friend didn't hang out with me...so mean!! she had to go home =(. anyways i watched episode 2 of [astro boy]. lol it's kinda boring...i liked the old version more. i'm also downloading that drama [good luck] which has takuya kimura in it :D. ooh ya i had a dream a few nights before about f4 > <. i dreamt that my friend and i found zaizai's house and we went to talk to him. lol i hugged him too^^. then...he told us that he was a ghost and that someone had killed all of the f4. he said that he wouldn't leave until he finds out who is the killer. LOL i have weird dreams...but i never expected f4 to be in it o__O maybe i'm scared of f4 lol. i told nancy this dream and she thought i was stupid lol.
10:15pm--i'm so sad right now...i don't wanna study for exams. this morning...i finally had the courage to go talk to david at his locker. anyways...while i was talking to him...amy came. aiya...so fukking annoying...i hate her so much. i wanted to yell at her but i didn't want david thinking i was a bad person. i could barely talk to him tho...i was so nervous that i was like shaking. but...he said like "stop staring at me and say something" lol. i hate amy...i wanted to be alone with him!! my other friends saw too...but they KNEW to leave us alone. after school...me, cory, and david, were in a conversation and cory told david that i liked him. aiya...david wants us to just be friends because he says that we just met. ahh i was so sad...:( i don't wanna be just his friend ar...of course not la!!! tomorrow is the last day of school. i dunno if i should go talk to him or not. i mean...i HAVE to pass by his locker everyday because of my gym class. if i DO talk to him...it would be so awkward. if i DON'T talk to him he would think that i hate him. but i don't want my friend around to bug me. so fukking annoying ar...not fair...she even lives in my neighbourhood too. i went outside to hang out with nancy today and saw her. i ignored her at first but then i just told her to go away. nancy thought it was mean...but she understands why :P. stupid david...i don't wanna talk to him tomorrow. i'll purposely be late for class or just walk by him without saying anything. my best friend got mad at me because she thinks i was flirting with him...but i wasn't...amy was. i'll prove it. tomorrow...i'll just be gone somewhere...and if she's still hanging around with him then it means she likes him. aww...must remember to hug all the grade 12's/OAC people tomorrow. it's the last time i'll ever see them :(. must remember NOT to hug david lol. ooh ya...i watched the first episode of the anime [kino's travels]. the animation is so nice...but the storyline is really boring so it's such a waste of time to watch it. i also watched the making of [sotsugyou] pv. omg it was so chinese...and that person was talking so fast > <. i got my best friend obsessed with BOY'Z. kenny & steven are so cute!!. [lala world] is the BEST cd...but only a few songs are good. there's [follow you]...[come without invitation]...and [2 skateboards]. haha she hated BOY'Z so much before...but now i think she likes them^^
7:02pm--oh no...i didn't study for exams AT ALL and they start wednesday. too busy this weekend. yesterday, my parents took me to fmp. i bought [endless love (autumn story)]. i dunno if it's the movie or the drama...there were 3 discs o__O. at first i didn't think i'd be able to understand it...but there's a feature that lets you change the voices to cantonese^^ yay!! after that...i went out for dinner. omg...i saw dave cheng there :O. i haven't seen him since grad last year. he hasn't changed at all lol. but so sad...=( next year he's not coming to mss. today...i went to STC to shop with my bro and then to pmall. we were at orbit when i saw calvin zhu (or i thought it was him). i've never really seen him before :O wow...he does look alot like edison. i thought it was hk but then he's really from shanghai o__O and he barely knows any cantonese. arg...> < he always wears sunglasses...and i think it doesn't look that good on him at all. he looks like such a criminal lol. he's SO cute...but he's kind of short. he's as tall as me lol. ooh...and while my bro and i were trying out [time crisis 3]...i saw chewy. i hate him so much (don't know why). he was in my keyboard class for this whole semester and not once did we talk lol. my best friend told me that last year, she told him that she liked him and HE rejected her > <. so mean ar...and he's not cute at all...:P. i wanna rent [laundry] with kubozuka yousuke. i dunno if it's good or not...it mite be kinda boring because he's handicapped in that movie. i watched some of the first episode of [lavender] last nite. it's kind of boring...i wonder if the whole show is about little kids?? o__O...but it's really touching...i started crying lol. i also saw some of [seikei bijin] episode 3...but it's kind of boring to me. that girl is so annoying > <. oh no...i have 2 presentations tomorrow...1 in english and 1 in keyboarding. i'm worried about the english one because i don't think i can talk for 10 minutes and i'm worried about the keyboarding one because i'm scared i'll make a mistake when i'm playing. also...we have to do research for our song for the intro. arg...stupid song...i'm doing [cafe vienna]...and it's such a stupid song that i can't find anything on the internet about it. i have to switch it with my exam song...which is [joy to the world]. but my teacher signed the form thingy already...so i dunno if he'll let me :(.
3:06pm--haven't updated in a LONG LONG time. cuz...stupid foreverfree.com went down and now all my pics are GONE...sh!t...i have to find a new site to upload pics. i got exams soon...only monday+tuesday left of school and then exams start. blah...:P haven't started studying yet...too busy lately. i liked this guy in my school named david sam and a few days ago i got his e-mail. i was so scared to talk to him online at first but then i realize that he's a really nice guy. he's SO cute...but he's in grade 11..so graduating next year. he looks like mashimaro tho :P...because he always looks sleepy. aiya...but he has some problems :(. he complains that he doesn't have alot of friends...but then he never does anything to MAKE friends o__O. nancy is in love with his little brother...named perlman (nice name eh?). she wouldn't even BELIEVE that PERLMAN is his real name. unfortunately...perlman goes to P.E.T. (pierre elliot trudeau) school...so nancy will never get to see him. haha...but we mite be sister-in-law someday...u never kno :P. nick also introduced me to this guy named calvin zhu. he's SO nice...but he has a MAJOR FLAW in his personality. he's a player...and nick even told me. most of his friends (who are girls) hate him now because he broke their heart haha. o ya...here is my friend's msn group...[full of idols] hope more ppl join^^. also...my friend amy sent me this commercial about matrix: reloaded [matrix]. o ya...i gave up my best friend now. don't really care anymore...things will never be back to what it used to be. and she's so annoying to me now...always calling me short :(. i think it's better if we're just NORMAL FRIENDS cuz we don't even talk that much anymore. it used to be that we talk everyday...but now it's like once in a few weeks. and most of the time, we don't even say hi to each other in the hallways or during lunch time. we don't even have any of the same friends.
2:41pm--i have to make a choice of what movie i want to rent...it's either [laundry], which has kobozuka yousuke, or [nurse no oshigoto] which has naohito fujiki. lol i heard [nurse no oshigoto] is a stupid movie...but w-inds makes an appearance in it so i want to watch it^^. i also want to watch [botaoshi], the movie with lead, but i doubt it will come out on vcd until at least summer. oh ya...i found a site to find jdrama reviews [link]. there's also this site to find reviews for chinese/japanese movies [link]. oh ya...a few days ago, i watched this japanese movie on tv called [kikujiro]. that movie is ok o__O but it got really good reviews. i don't recognise any of the actors except for one guy, who is the bartender in [hero]. i downloaded 2 t&t videos yesterday. they were both performances on the shounen club. tackey performed 2 songs....1 i forgot and the second one is [894] :P. tsubasa performed [go on]...omg he looked so cute when he was dancing!! i've never seen tsubasa dance like that before o__O. also, that song isn't like anything he would sing...it sounds like something WFL would sing :P.
11:38pm--i came home at 7:30pm today...so tired =(. my bro and i went to play b-ball from 5:00-6:00 and then we went to mmhs to meet up with his friends and play b-ball. last year when i saw a picture of his friend ray, i thought he was so cute!! but now...when i see him in person, i think he's o__O. he swears alot in cantonese...and worst of all...he smokes =(. there were 2 other guys there and my cousin, but i didn't really notice them lol. they also let this other guy play...even tho they didn't kno him. he was SO CUTE!!! i spent the whole time staring at him haha...and he wanted me to play for him but i didn't. i was so sad when he left =( i think he smoked too because he got tired really easily when he was playing b-ball. but my bro and his friends were kind of mean to him. they hardly ever passed him the ball and ray pushed him o__O. in keyboard class today i was so sleepy and bored that i spent the whole class trying to figure out how to play [kiseki] and [true heart] on the piano.
11:37pm--today was such a tiring day!! in gym class we had to play football OUTSIDE...and it was so cold...it was 5 degrees o__O and i was in shorts. also...when i came home...my bro wanted me to go play bball with him. oh ya...i FINALLY watched the rest of the [hatachi] concert. the performance for [anything for you] was really good...i have the MS performance of that song too. i didn't kno that tackey could speak english that well lol. i also didn't kno that tsubasa played the piano...kawaii...so talented lol. =( i have to study for my math test...which is next week, and my math EXAM...which is on june 2. i have the health scrapbook to do too...so boring!!