Wednesday, February 18, 2004 08:23 p.m.
Heres something from Cheng Boons blog:)
sometimes i think back and i wonder, had i lived my life for you? whenever you're around, things were much easier to deal with and the pain was all worthwhile. but now, my hands are full and my heart is heavy. and i'm imcompetent. i'd give anything to go back to the past.
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Wednesday, February 18, 2004 08:01 p.m.
Sigh,im having a Geog Test tmr.I doubt i will do well,i havent been studying diligently for geography these days.To put it bluntly,todays events totally disguist me.I strongly advice you to quit being so superficial cos it will not heighten the schools popularity to anywhere you like.
Great,have to quickly finish up my geog notes.Cant wait to watch Wu Tou Dong Gong (love is beautiful) with mom and dad.Well anyway,i highly recommend this show because it teaches us so many things about life-jealousy,comtempt,greed,betrayal of trust and so on.
Monday, February 16, 2004 09:55 p.m.
Screaming In Silence-
My mind is in a whirlpool.
And im sorry for that.Its not that i dont care,but i no longer know how to.
Keep walking and dont ever look back Debbie.One day you will know why....
Sunday, February 15, 2004 08:28 p.m.
I have no idea why i feel so edgy after taking a nap.Reached home at about 7pm after Fusion rehearsal,had some fried rice,then plonked myself right into the bed.My homework has been completely untouched and my conscience is eating me up right now.Argh...sometimes i wish i can have just one good friend in my class.I dont wish to force myself any longer.How long do i have to wait for the first 3 mths to be over?
Sometimes such circumstances make me miss him even more:(((
Sunday, February 15, 2004 10:39 a.m.
Im leaving the house in half an hours time.Fusion again.Im tired, really tired.
Im beginning to believe that time heals all wounds as hes slowly fading in my life.I guess life is like a journey on board a train,people just come and go.Well,that is all history now,and i do pray and hope that hes well and happy with everything he does:)(i think im too mean for swearing and cursing him the other day.)
Congratulations to those who have found their <3 on...valentines day yesterday!;)*coughs coughs*Haha i can sense that you are smiling girl!:)
Thursday, February 12, 2004 04:49 p.m.
*inhales*Heeellooo!Haha just woke up from an afternoon nap and it feels great to catch up on some sleep:)
Today was okay i guess,but surprisingly i didnt see some of the RMers today.Hows your day?:)Oh yes i was caught talking during geog lecture today and Mrs Ong went..'miss debbie and company..' followed by some cantonese which i cant comprehend at all.I was just answering my friend okay.Besides, her lectures are so potent that they are able to cure insomia.zZz.Great.-_-
Wednesday, February 11, 2004 10:41 p.m.
Ive been reading RMers blogs daily and i find that we are all similar in one way or another.Most of us are facing problems of our own,big or small. Let us all pull through times like this because i believe we can,right?:)
Haha are you all getting the swearing craze too?It feels great to be dissing someone in your blog when you know it helps to make you feel better (and the person doesnt get to read it,muahaha).zZz.
I find that the gap between my classmates and i get increasingly bigger as time passes.Im sick of concealing how i feel in front of them,and im #)"&)"#'$#~)=!" sick of faking a smile when i know that something ISN'T funny at all.
hello j2s,i miss you all.
Wednesday, February 11, 2004 07:23 p.m.
I can only use one word to describe myself today-sleepy.Yes,i slept at one yesterday because ive wasted so much precious time trying to tell myself to get over that major asshole and talking about the entire incident.Silly me.Argh!!!i could have made better use of time instead.*slap my butt now!*
Hmm,had dinner with my parents just now and here i am dling a report that Ian has done.Okay,5 more minutes,and im off to study for my tests.
zZz.my scalp is itching like mad.i think Dove is totally unsuitable for me.those silly commercials..haha.
Oh that reminds me,i was so moody and 'sian' during the earlier part of the day that i actually kept quiet throughout 2 lectures.Meeting up with Rmers totally brightens up my day:)So thank you,everyone.
My five minutes is up.So till later:)
Tuesday, February 10, 2004 07:22 p.m.
Just got home from school and boy im really tired!im aching from neck to toe.Geezers.Stayed in school today and started on our talentime dance.Our progress is really encouraging,and im pleased:)
Rewind:If anyone did manage to see my previous entry,good for you then:PIf not,ive deleted it because i feel that writing about him now serves no purpose.And even though i still think about him now,it doesnt matter at all,cos i wont benefit from anything that has got something to do with him.
Maybe i do sound a lil' contradicting.Dont i?
okay,thats besides the point.I think im in a major pm-assy state now because my mood fluctuates a whole big lot.Im sorry to you guys out there if my presence do make you feel uncomfortable and uneasy.I hope this transitional state will be over soon! i want to enjoy life to the fullest.Yeah baby:)
Im having two tests this coming saturday,and i have promised myself to study well for it.I cant afford to repeat any mistakes ive made last year.Anyway,ive been passing all my class tests fairly well!yeah,thats something that never happened last year.This,i guess,had motivated me to work even harder.But well...im doing things that i have done before...and theres no reason why i should fail at a second time...so obviously i could have done well in it...but...just...whatever.
Anyway,ive seen lotsa vday posters in school recently.I cant help it but everytime i walk pass them i would go-what the *beep*(fuck)?!And guess what,there are some articles just outside the auditorium on tips to get hooked up on valentines day.I only have four words in mind-shut the *beep* up.
Thank you very much.
Monday, February 9, 2004 09:18 p.m.
Hurrah.Im taking part in AJC talentime 2004.Gonna bring all my classical favourites to school tmr for Juan n Esther:)I <3 ballet:)
I guess that will be it for tonight.If i go on i would end up toking about someone.But its enough.Ive let myself down today and i shall not repeat my mistake in anyway in the future.
Sunday, February 8, 2004 10:09 p.m.
Im popping yummilicious fruitgums into my mouth now.Its really delicious,but i guess its too...gummy-its all over my gums!:PHaha
Stayed over at my sisters house yesterday.Did some studying too-math and econs.Whee,im glad im getting some of my fighting spirit back now.But i still have to fight against the procrastination killer!
I thought of yong xue this afternoon while i was taking a study break.I mentioned my problem to my sis,and her immediate reaction was to shut me up.That was considered a very nice gesture,cos it reminded me not to be bothered by him again.I doubt he will be able to read this new blog,but nonetheless i just want to say deep within my heart im not exactly willing to discard a friendhip just like that.Note:Its purely friendship as i harbour NO romantic feelings towards him presently.
I shall write more tomorrow,cos i end at one!Haha,arent you ppl jealous of me?;)Okay great,Vdays drawing near and im all excited about getting little gifts for my friends now.
Anyone free to go shopping with me this Wednesday?:)
Saturday, February 7, 2004 07:20 p.m.
Ok great.Hello everyone.New site,first entry:)
