Monday, October 29, 2001
Now Playing: Shining Star - Araki Kae & Tokumitsu Yuka [Digimon 02]
Winamp Skin: Sano & Nakatsu from HanaKimi
Hmmm...is my computer trying to tell me something...? XD;
...There's actually lots of stuff to talk about, but I'm feeling so lazy and sluggish I don't even feel up to making it all coherent and typing it up. ^^;
--Maron sighed at 08:32 p.m.
Sunday, October 28, 2001
Now Playing: Call Me Call Me - Kanno Yoko, Steve Conte [Cowboy Bebop!]
Kekeke. That is funny. XD XD XD This is also very funny. I want to see Alan Rickman cosplaying as Sakura-chan. XD;;
And if you haven't yet, get this song, Cindy. I like it muchly. :3
--Maron sighed at 11:41 a.m.
Sunday, October 28, 2001
Now Playing: Vector - Sakamoto Maaya
One of my favorite Maaya songs. <3 And it's in English too. :3
Just read the summary for the December chapter of X. I was all happy with what CLAMP did with Sorata and Arashi (even though they're such damned prudes when it comes to kissing scenes...stupid curtains... XO), but now those evil evil ladies are threatening to kill off Karen and Aoki. XO~ Nooooooo...not my favorite characters! (Well, them and Yuuto) We haven't had enough Karen and Aoki goodness yet! I want to see more Meaningful Looks between Yuuto and Karen! Don't diiiiiie~~~ *sigh* And Subaru needs a good hard thwack. Many good hard thwacks. It's just not healthy to hug a bottle of Dead Lover's Eyeball Soup.
I finished GoF last night. J.K. Rowling is also a very evil lady. What the heck was with that "gleam of something like triumph in Dumbledore's eyes" when Harry was recounting his encounter with Voldemort?! I can just see her being evil to the extreme and not explaining this until the end of the last book. XO The meeting between Snape and...an old adversary at the end (trying to avoid spoilers here >.>) did have me in stitches though. XD; I can't wait to see more Japanese fanart of Bill (Ron's in the corner of that picture, sweatdropping and saying "Niichan..." X3). He has such a nice character description, what with the long hair, dragon hide boots, fang earring, and all. X3 I hope Lupin comes back soooon. Now the only HP books I have left to read are those two little schoolbooks. _o_
--Maron sighed at 09:48 a.m.
Saturday, October 27, 2001
Now Playing: Dearest [Original Mix] - Hamasaki Ayumi [Inuyasha Ed 3]
More search engine fun!
Google: slash ron harry slut
Google: ender's game slash
Ender's Game slash just seems so wrong. I can see where they're coming from, but it's just...eeee. >.>
And as amusing as HP slash is, they all just seem so very straight. Much to my dismay when I actually read Prisoner of Azkaban. _o_ But it really was quite funny dreaming about reading PoA (before I actually had read it) and feeling very strong Sirius/Remus slashy vibes from the book. Actually, come to think of it, I think they were blatantly snogging. I woke up feeling a bit disappointed that what I read in my dream wasn't real. XD; And I know people are even more turned off by the pairing than most slashy ones, but Percy/Neville gives me a rather cute and amusing image of Neville hero-worshipping Percy, Percy looking ruffled and embarassed, and Penelope standing off at the side giggling. XD;; *sigh* I'm rapidly running out of HP reading material. I only have about 170 pages left in GoF. And it'll be foreeeever until the next book. ;_; And speaking of GoF...I really wonder where Sirius got Snuffles from. *snerk* Maybe one of the villagers dubbed him that. Or maybe he made it up himself and James is rolling over in his grave in hysterics. X3
--Maron sighed at 05:37 p.m.
Saturday, October 27, 2001
Now Playing: Dearest [Original Mix] - Hamasaki Ayumi
Now here's an interesting search query:
Google: YES MA'AM SUOMI
o_O;;
--Maron sighed at 07:37 a.m.
Saturday, October 27, 2001
Well, my parents apparently decided after an hour that, oh, perhaps they should stop having a happy, merry conversation with their son and go talk to their depressed and crying daughter. But I didn't want to talk to them, because after I had gotten out of my suicidal haze, I was rather upset with my parents. I shouted at them to just get out of the room and leave me alone. Dad, being the ever sympathetic and tactful person he is, not so subtly implied that I was being ungrateful because they were trying to help. Well, maybe he should have thought about that an hour earlier when I hung up the phone crying and was alone in the kitchen about to slash my arms. Mom told me she had explained to Nont that I was depressed and that he "understands" now. Yes, he "understands" so well that he started up a happy and fun and engaging conversation with my parents and decided that I wasn't worth an apology. At some point, Cindy said hi to me over AIM, and I just talked to her and tuned them out. It made me feel better to have someone else to talk to, even though I didn't really say much. (Sorry I forgot to wish you luck for region tryouts before you left, Cindy. ~_~ I don't think you'll read this before you leave tomorrow, but good luck!) *sigh* I wanted to stay on AIM longer, but Nont came on, and I didn't want to hear more lectures or even a half-assed apology. But I guess I'm feeling decent enough now. I think I'll go and continue reading Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. (Got the fourth book from the school library Thursday afternoon, I did. :3 And Cindy, the books really weren't that heavy. ~.~ It just looked bad because GoF is a 734 page hardcover book and adds a lot of height, but it's not even as heavy as one of the small English textbooks... >.>) It'll take my mind off of things until I can manage to fall asleep.
--Maron sighed at 12:40 a.m.
Friday, October 26, 2001
Mom's still on the phone. Laughing and gossiping with my brother. Isn't it nice to know you're loved?
--Maron sighed at 11:52 p.m.
Friday, October 26, 2001
Shitshitshitshitshit. Got a court summons to deal with my unexcused absences. Dr. Aung and my mom's co-workers told her it was no big deal, that it was nothing worse than going to court for a traffic violation and happens all the time - we just have to show Dr. Aung's and the psychiatrist's reports on my health, and we'd probably just be told to get counseling. Fine, I can deal with that. It won't be fun, it's been stressful as hell, but I can deal with it. But then my brother just called and Mom just told him the whole situation. Minus my depression, so of course it's all my fault. My brother rants and screams about how irresponsible I've been. Just what I needed to feel better. The perfect way to keep the numbness and calm that I've been forcing myself into the past few days. I hung up the phone and went to the kitchen and it wasn't until I had the cold metal blade pressed against my skin that I snapped out of it. Shit.
--Maron sighed at 11:29 p.m.
Wednesday, October 24, 2001
Now Playing: No Reason - Weiß
To everyone who sent me kind words during the past few days - thank you so much. It does help. I've decided to try to keep things in the back of my mind for a while until I can deal with it all a bit better. I haven't been doing much work the past few days, but I guess that's okay. Mostly I've just spent my time listening to music, reading, sleeping a lot. I still feel tired all the time.
Dr. Aung, my doctor, referred us to several good psychiatrists in the area. Mom wants me to have a female psychiatrist, and the nearest one's about 40 minutes away, but she says that's okay. And Dr. Aung says that particular doctor is very good. Dr. Aung is really very nice. I've only met her a few times, but she's a very comforting and motherly person, and I feel like I can trust her. I really hope the therapy does help, and that I don't just sit and feel uncomfortable and try to avoid personal questions like I usually do.
...I don't feel quite so terrible right now. I still feel like I'm in a perpetual slump...but I don't feel like it's going to completely overwhelm me, at least for the time being. I guess it just feels like everything's been numbed.
--Maron sighed at 08:11 p.m.
Monday, October 22, 2001
Hi, all. Long exceedingly personal self-therapy pity post ahead. I probably shouldn't even be posting this, but I feel like I need some kind of outlet.
I think I'm depressed. Everyone's worrying about me. My siblings are worrying about me, and they don't even know the half of it yet. The numerous doctors I've been seeing the past few months all suspect that I may be depressed. And my parents are sure I'm suffering from severe depression.
There's a lot I've been hiding from everyone for a while now. There have been a few days that I didn't go to class when my parents thought I did. I thought I was well enough to make it through the day, but I wasn't. I would come to school, and the more awake I got, the worse I felt. I felt dizzy, faint, with pounding headaches. I didn't want my parents to know and worry about me. My mom's been taking sleeping pills because she can't sleep at night. Last spring when I had encephalitis, it was the same way, and her blood pressure shot up. She had heart murmurs just this summer. So I didn't go to the nurse's office. Most of the time I went to the library or stayed in the car and hoped that it'd just go away and I'd go back to class. But it didn't, and I'd just feel awful for days. Maybe it was just fatigue; I don't know. Results from a recent blood test showed that I had infectious mononucleosis somewhere between one and six months ago. My parents say that it's probably not completely gone and I've been constantly fatigued because of that.
My brother called a couple days ago and heard from my parents that I've been sick the past few weeks. He was "horrified" and told them that he think's there's something else going on, and that they should talk to me. And I just broke down yesterday and told them about it because I thought they'd understand. They don't, really. They're not mad at me. They've done their best to comfort me, but they just don't really understand me.
There's been a conference set up since a week or two back between my parents, the vice principle, couselor, and teachers. I didn't want them to tell my teachers the whole truth. Maybe I'm wrong, but I don't think that they needed to hear it all. It's just too personal. I never feel comfortable telling anyone all of what I feel. My parents think it's for the best that they know the whole story, but it really just makes me feel terrible knowing that a number of them probably think less of me now. I don't think they needed to hear that I was skipping class to stay in the library. Judging from their reactions, I don't think it really registered that I skipped because I was sick, dizzy, faint, and generally feeling awful. They just see that I skipped class. That I'm dishonest, irresponsible, untrustworthy. I didn't need the feeling that everyone thinks I'm a liar. They could have simply told them that I didn't go to class because I was sick. And that's true. I don't see what was to be gained from telling them that. I told them because I thought I could trust them not to tell the world about something I'm uncomfortable about. I told them I didn't want my siblings to know. If I don't want my siblings to know, shouldn't it be obvious that I don't want people I hardly know to know? I'm ashamed. I can't face my teachers now. Just wonderful that I have to see all of them alone, one-on-one, every week, for at least the next two months. My parents have decided, since I'm always sick, that I need to be home-schooled at least until the end of this semester.
There's never been anyone I felt I could really confide in. I've always been creating different personalities to deal with different people. A different part of myself for different people. The shy, quiet, polite persona for my teachers and people I hardly know. The biting, sarcastic, slightly aloof personality for others. The freakish cross between sarcasm and genkiness and insanity for Keiko. A nicer, more subdued personality for others. Maybe it sounds disgustingly over-dramatic, but it's simply how I cope with it all. I feel too embarassed to show everyone how I really am. Everyone complains about too much work, lack of sleep, nasty teachers, so-and-so being such a jerk...just ordinary mundane things. I think they wouldn't know what to do if I just started spilling my guts to them. I feel like there's no one I could talk to who would understand me without me feeling ashamed, and knowing that they're thinking less of me. I wonder if it's strange that the closest I've come to expressing how I really feel is with this weblog.
I just...feel like I'm not a worthwhile person. Everyone seems to think my best quality is my intelligence, but what is that worth when I know so many people who beat my best qualities? The rest of my family just seems to understand and excel at things quickly and effortlessly, while I'll just sit and stare at things forever trying to piece it all together, while they can just...do it just like that. I hate looking at my writing that I slave over for hours, and seeing how it's just generic and boring. It's good for my level, but nothing special. Then I look at theirs, and it's creative, it's innovative, and beyond just "well-written." Call them geniuses, and you'd probably be right. ...just Wiriya alone is better than me at anything I can think of. Grades, work ethic, atheletics, art, writing, piano. She's nice, she's pretty, she's a natural dancer, artist, and writer. I've heard my parents say in the late nights when they don't think I'm awake that she's their favorite. I know people say I shouldn't judge myself compared to my family, but it's hard not to. And I don't think I'm even a good friend. When people feel bad about something, I just don't know what to do. I don't know what to say, I don't know how to comfort them, and I feel just plain awkward hugging people. So I just hover around them and hope they feel better. Like that's going to do any good.
I'm a coward. I'm selfish. I'm afraid of pain, so I don't think I'd ever do it. But sometimes, when I'm feeling at my worst, I wonder if it would just be easier to end it all. I wonder just how long it takes for a person to die after a gunshot to the head. I wonder if it takes terribly long to die after slashing the arms. I stare at the kitchen knives, wondering which would work best. I dream about it.
...I should probably go lay down. I'm feeling dizzy and my head's starting to pound again.
--Maron sighed at 09:39 a.m.
Saturday, October 20, 2001
Now Playing: Far Away - Hamasaki Ayumi [Original Mix]
Ack. I'm seriously considering deleting that last entry. >__>;; Anyway, now that I'm in a much better mood (for the most part...I shall strive not to bitch about what a jerk my dad's been all freaking day. Breathe, Vinita, breathe. >_<;), I guess I can finally catch up on the fun things in life. *niko*
First of all, *hearts* to everyone who wished me happy birthday, erm, a week ago. ^_^; Cindy, I haven't gotten the puresento from Keiko yet, but I'll probably go to her house tomorrow to get it, since I need to pick up some make-up work anyway. (x_x;) I hear you drew a picture of me. *sweatdrop* Should I be very very afraid...? But besides my great fear of that (joking, just joking...I think ^_-), I can't wait to see what you got me~<3 XD
My birthday was actually nice, even though I was kinda sick. (eh heh) I watched cartoons in the morning (XD), Nont and Wiriya came home (as usual, the whereabouts of Nick were unknown...) for the weekend to visit (Wiriya rented anime from Planet Anime! I got to watch Bakaretsu Hunters (fun in a demented sort of way XD) and Lain (eeevil cliffhangers!) and Nazca (I stared at the credits for quite a while trying to remember who else the seiyuu for the main character played...and then it finally hit me! Kamui! That's who else Suzumura Kenichi plays! XD XD XD), ate out at Mason Jar (I wanted American food (yummy spareribs!) for a change of pace...besides, I was in the mood for key lime pie X3) for dinner, and stopped by at Barnes and Noble. And the best part~! I managed to persuade my parents to buy me Chamber of Secrets and Prisoner of Azkaban (paperback, of course)~! I considered asking for the Quidditch and Fantastic Beasts school books, but I figured that that was pushing it. ^^;
Tuesday of last week (before I got sick again >_>;) was college night, so I wandered around the mall for over an hour with Meli and Jenny and Christina collecting pamphlets from all the visiting university representatives. (It was so crowded. x_x) I saw the ever funkay Nick Morgan no less than four times, and he finally got around to asking after the first couple of times whether we were following him. (^^; We weren't.) After my friends left, I stopped by at Sanrio for the heck of it, and they have adorable Nyago merchandise~<3 (Yes! I finally figured out what that slubby cat is called!) I think I even like Nyago as much as Tare Panda. <3 I really would have liked to have a plushie (or two or three), but stuff at Sanrio is so darned expensive! ._. Oh well... I also ran into Katie and Alan, and I must say, Alan dresses quite like a bum after school. A rather old-looking beat-up white t-shirt, sweatshorts, slippers, and a cap that's not really on his head. *sweatdrop* Anyway, afterwards, I stopped by at Barnes and Noble because I wanted the October issue of Vanity Fair (I also got a rather cute dark green suede bookmark with a silver frog stamped on it). And wooooh, are those some NICE Harry Potter photos. I haven't actually watched any of the HP movie clips, but I think some of the actors/actresses look absolutely *perfect* for their parts. XD I'm really iffy on McGonagall though. She seems appropriately strict, but she looks too OLD! XO I know Rowling said she's around 70, but shouldn't she look younger than that? Since wizards live longer, it would make sense that they'd age slower right? And IIRC, Dumbledore's around 150, and according to Chamber of Secrets, his hair was still auburn 50 years ago. *pout* Well, I've always imagined McGonagall looking in her late 40s to mid 50s. Besides, I like applying the whole slower aging thing to Sirius and Lupin. *cough* X3 Oh yes. And when I mentioned to sis that they guy who plays Snape (Alan Rickman) also played Metatron in Dogma, I think I traumatized her. XD;;
And since being feverish and dizzy doesn't exactly do wonders for trying to figure out what the heck I'm doing when working on Pre-Cal and Physics or absorbing the meaning of completely and utterly dull writing *cough*TheScarletLetter*cough*U.S.History*cough*, I ended up reading both Chamber of Secrets and Prisoner of Azkaban. I'd like to note that when I'm sick and feverish, I am not...altogether sane or well-balanced. XD;; More-deranged-than-normal Vinita + Harry Potter makes for some very maniacal giggling. <3 I didn't like CoS quite as much as the first book (though I thought that Harry being a Parseltongue was rather nifty...and the Percy bit is just to cute), but PoA is my favorite so far. Hermione kicked ass in PoA. X3 And the fact that it has Sirius and Lupin certainly helps. XD Though I'm a bit disappointed that I didn't really feel any slashy vibes from them. *pout* Oh well, there's always fandom. *fanged niko* Lupin is my favorite character. I do hope he comes back soon...;_; "Hitori de, daijoubu desu..." ;_; (I want the Japanese HP books...even though I wouldn't understand 95% of it...where does WhiteCat get the Japanese HP quotes?!) Pigwidgeon seems really cute. <3 But why in the world do they have plushies and beanies for Scabbers and Mrs. Norris and Fluffy and Norbert but none for Pig or Crookshanks or Trevor or Prongs or Moony or Padfoot?! XO I suppose they're only doing merchandising for the Philosopher's Stone movie. *pout* They have plushies for all the animals I don't particularly care for, but none for the ones that I like (well, except for the Hedwig plushies, which are rather cute). I especially want Moony and Padfoot plushies. I want to play with them and make them do Wrong Things. XO
--Maron sighed at 09:04 p.m.
Saturday, October 20, 2001
Now Playing: Lie to Me - Depeche Mode
*rises from the dead* That Adam Sandler song, "Somebody Kill Me" from The Wedding Singer. That's how I feel right now. Especially when I think of the loads and loads of make up work I have. UGH.
Ranting and cursing ahead. Took the PSAT this morning. Ye gods, I CAN'T STAND waiting for the freaking test results, and we don't get them back till December. I think the test itself isn't that bad...it's just that I work as slow as hell and the sheer number of idiotic careless mistakes I make is just ridiculous. >__< And it's not fucking fun when it's simply expected of me to get National Merit Scholarship. *growl* My score was 189 when I took the PSAT last year, and Dad went on and on and on about how LOW my fucking score was compared to Wiriya and Nick's and that he couldn't believe I didn't make at least over 200. (Nevermind that Wiriya's score was actually a bit lower than mine the first time she took it, and her score increased by something like 40 points the next year. Nevermind that, like Wiriya, I'm terrible at standardized tests. Nevermind that Nick himself has said that he's very good at standardized tests.) Maybe my parents might someday grasp the possiblity of *gasp* me not being a freaking genius like the rest of my family. (Not likely.) Having three intelligent older siblings really, really sucks sometimes. If I do make National Merit, it's no big deal because everyone else already has, but if I don't, it's like I'm the family dunce. /rant
--Maron sighed at 12:57 p.m.
Saturday, October 13, 2001
Now Playing: thunder, the pattering of rain, and Nont's snores
Happy birthday to me~ XD;;
Oy vey. My stomach's telling me I need to go raid the pantry RIGHT NOW. And I'm getting the urge to go watch Saturday morning cartoons. X3
--Maron sighed at 07:42 a.m.
Tuesday, October 9, 2001
Now Playing: Apres le Noir - Ali Project
Harry Potter Couple Selector:
# 1: Sirius x Lupin
# 2: Draco x Harry
# 3: Harry x Ron
# 4: Percy x Neville
# 5: Harry x Hermione
# 6: Lily x James
# 7: Ron x Hermione
# 8: Harry x Cho
# 9: Cedric x Cho
# 10: Krum x Hermione
# 11: Lucius x Narcissa
Notice that all of the top four are male/male relationships. And all of the bottom seven are het. Please excuse Vinita as she goes to laugh her ass off. XD;;
--Maron sighed at 05:11 a.m.
Monday, October 8, 2001
Now Playing: Kuroi Tsubasa - The Brilliant Green
X3 X3 X3 Glad I didn't get C3PO. XD;;
--Maron sighed at 06:02 p.m.
Sunday, October 7, 2001
Now Playing: To the Light - Hattan Amika [Star Ocean EX Op]
*watching the news* Holy shiiiit.
--Maron sighed at 11:44 a.m.
Sunday, October 7, 2001
Now Playing: Yakusoku wa Iranai (Promises Not Needed) - Sakamoto Maaya [Escaflowne Op]
Ah~ Kanno Yoko and Sakamoto Maaya. Always a nice combination~<3 *_*
Lookie lookie, it's an Escaflowne doujinshi featuring Nekkid!Van! With purty wings too. X3
*sighs happily* Such an adorable picture~<3
Hi Sigel Pheonix-san~! (Do I call you that? ^^;) Glad you liked the purty HP fanart. XD Eh heh...actually, it's all Catsy-san's fault that I started reading Harry Potter. Back in January, he posted a CCS/HP crossover ficsnip (titled Clow Cards and Broomsticks - it's very good ^-^), gave a link to So Mauo's art, pointing out that anime-style Harry looks like Hiiragizawa Eriol, and commented that the books are really quite good and treat the reader like an adult. So...yeah. Odd that I got into Harry Potter because of Card Captor Sakura. ^_^;;
--Maron sighed at 11:37 a.m.
Saturday, October 6, 2001
Now Playing: Friend ~Itsu Mademo Wasurenai~ - Maeda Ai [Digimon Adventure 02]
Ha..hahaha...XD;; Amusing myself at Amazon:
Sticks and Stones: The Troublesome Success of Children's Literature from Slovenly Peter to Harry Potter
Harry Potter and the Enchanted Serpent - Responding to Occult Forces
Harry Potter and the Bible: The Menace Behind the Magick
Pokemon & Harry Potter: A Fatal Attraction This sounds like bad fanfic. Rabu-Rabu! X3
The things I do to avoid homework. ^^;;
--Maron sighed at 11:18 p.m.
Saturday, October 6, 2001
Now Playing: Haruka - Pierrot [Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne Ed]
*_* Mauo's art is like therapy. Pretty art~ Pretty Harry Potter art~ Pretty boys~ Yeees. Pretty art is goo~d. Yeeeeees~~~ *_* And then I've had this picture up as wallpaper for a while, so I just have to turn on my computer and...and...yeeees~<3 *__*
--Maron sighed at 08:11 p.m.
Wednesday, October 3, 2001
Now Playing - Pure Heart (Aerith's Theme) - Rikki [Final Fantasy VII]
I'm insanely hyper right now. XD XD XD I think it's because I brought my Tare Panda pillow plushie upstairs to cackle at. XD XD XD And when Keiko called me the other day, she revealed to me that she's giving me a summer-ish Tare Panda plushie and maybe a couple other Tare Panda things too. *_*
This is such a preeetty song~<3 Rikki's the one who sung Suteki da ne, the theme of FFX, and she has a very pretty pretty voice. <3 I was kinda expecting something more...mmmm...I dunno, dramatic?...on the arrangement of Aerith's theme, but I think it turned out rather nicely. It fits in with the general feel of Rikki's single. I read somewhere that Rikki's a Okinawan folk singer, and Pure Heart sounds rather folk song-ish...nice and soothing and mellow. <3
That Ron/Hermione blanket ficcy I mentioned earlier is a gem. *_* Of course, Arabella's fanfiction in general is nice and WAFFy and wonderful. <3 A noteworthy excerpt from the day after:
Prof. McGonagall: What do you mean, they're putting clothes on?
*shriek* XD XD XD I know I shouldn't have starting HP fics until I read the second, third, and fourth books because now I've spoiled myself silly, but it's just too much FUN. X3
Hmmm...what else did I want to say...? I forgot most of it in a fit of fangirlish cackling. *_* Oh yes~ 'Kaasan says the fever's gone down a lot. *niko* It's not gone completely, but I'll probably be going back to school tomorrow. I'm quite dreading the seven days of makeup work. (*cries* Iyadda~! I'm going to diiii~e!!!) So if I'm around blogging within the next week or so, everyone has permission to whack me over the head for being bad. (Am I kidding? I don't know. XD;;) Then again, I might have to blog, or I could lose my sanity and become a homocidal maniac and SMITE! all those annoying buggers who've been making snide comments about me never being at school because I'm always sick. *nita* Ooohohoho~!
10 days till my birthday. *_* I'm going to ask Melanie and Meli if there's a chance their parents would allow them to buy off of Amazon, because if they can, I'll be making puppy-eyes at them for the second and third Harry Potter books (40% discount for the hardcover ones~<3). I want the fourth one too~, of course, but I think that'd be asking for too much. ^^; If they can't, I guess they'll just have to suffer with my usual answer of "I dunno" for what I want. (heh~<3)
And 44 days till the Harry Potter movie comes out. Thought I'd mention that too~ X3
*sigh* I really wanted to make a new layout for October. I've already had this layout for 2 1/2 months. >_<;; I like it, but I never expected I'd be stuck with it for so long. I just didn't really have the inspiration or coherency to make one for the past couple weeks... I'd like to have one in time for my birthday, but I just don't see it happening. ;_; I thought a HP layout would be nice, but the sketches I was making were just so...blech... I haven't found any non-Japanese fanart I've liked, and I don't want to use fanart without the artist's permission...*sigh*
Awww... I was wondering why I couldn't access Tin's Greymatter blog at radical-drag.net. I really hope her account wasn't hacked into. ;_; And am I the only one having trouble accessing Amy's atashi.org blog too...? Hrmmm...
Back to happy-hyper topics, 'Tousan wants to get a printer-copier-scanner-in-one machine~!!! *kiraran~!* He was actually going to get it last weekend, but he couldn't find the one he wanted at the stores he looked at. *pouts* But~! He seems really set on getting it, so hopefully I'll get a scanner soon~!!! <3 <3 <3
--Maron sighed at 07:56 p.m.
Wednesday, October 3, 2001
Now Playing: Eyes on Me - Faye Wong [Final Fantasy VIII]
*shriek* It's a Ron/Hermione Blanket Fic~! XD XD XD
--Maron sighed at 01:13 p.m.
Wednesday, October 3, 2001
Now Playing: Starting Point - Wada Kouji, AiM, & Oota Michihiko [Digimon Tamers]
Apparently, I never really did get "well". Oh noooo...whatever virus that's been haunting me just decided to go into hibernation for a couple days, that's all. >_o;; I'm really not feeling so well now...last I checked, I still have a fever of 103-point-something. But I've slept something like 20 hours in the last 24, thanks to some anti-nausea medicine that made me drowsy like nothing else (as if ~18 hours a day wasn't enough...). So here I am, wide awake and wanting to go back to sleep, yeah. >_o;;
There's some pyscho mosquito that's been flying around the room for the past hour. It looks like it's on crack or something. Or maybe it's got some Junebug genes. Er...yeah.
*frowns* I think that the lady who poked at me for blood tests today messed up because I just took off the bandage and it looks a bit bruised. And the other nurse who was working on the blood tests was just freakishly happy and hyper. Before I got poked at, she bounced towards me gleefully and asked whether I'd ever gotten a blood test before. When I told her yes, she clapped her hands together, grinned at me, and told me that that was "great!" People who deal with needles and blood all day shouldn't be that happy. >_>;;
*bounce* Maeda Ai, Wada Kouji, and Oota Michihiko all singing together~! Fun fun fun~<3
Ooooh... Pretty pretty Ashton. H_H
I have become such a Harry Potter slore. XD;; I found out that there's two golden snitch bean bags, two snitch key chains, a Hallmark snitch lamp, a Hallmark snitch clock, and I want it all~ (Why yes, I do think the golden snitch is quite pretty. X3) There's a couple rather cute Hedwig plushies too~<3 And in my few semi-coherent waking hours, I've been raiding Fanfiction.net and The Sugar Quill for good fics like mad. At the beginning, when I was in my Remus/Hermione craze, I managed to find nine fics on that. Which is rather frightening, considering that it's so very obscure. >.>;; It's a shame only a couple of them were even vaguely in character and worth reading... I was rather hoping for a very Fujitaka/Nadeshiko-ish one, but alas, it was not to be so. ;_; After the End is such a very good fic, yes it is...and with yummy Sirius/Remus interaction, no less. ...I think it's time to go leer over some Sirius/Rupin fics. *bounce*
...Feverish hyperness. How very scary. XD;;;
--Maron sighed at 03:26 a.m.
