Soka Soka

Listening to: my brother playing FFX-2

Went to school today to do banner painting and it was pretty fun~! The weather was really nice, windy and cool but warm enough. The newspapers were flying everywhere! We got Chere to sit on them and become a human paperweight.

Our banner was really iffy. It looked like a bete noir French film with black, white and really pretty neptune blue.

The Sec 2s pissed me off again, especially Adeline. Geez, why is she so arguementative? I wonder what will she say when she finds out that I'm now vice-prez along with Rose and Chere. She expects to be in the comn I think. Well, anyways, they wasted money by buying spray paints and making the ugliest banner I've seen in a while. UGLY. Really awful. The blue cloth with black words and bright neon green borders. UGHHHH....talk about colour clash.

So the security guard told us to get lost by 5.30 or we would get locked up in school. It was raining now, and Rose forget to bring her umbrella. LOL. Then, being me, I decided that our Prez, Rose, needed to loosen up a bit. *stomps on a puddle* A BIG puddle. Really big. And she stomped back, and then the splashing began. At the corner of my eye, I saw our forlorn and rather dry Secetary, Chere, clutching her umbrella.

What did she need I wonder.

*SPLASH SPLASH STOMP STOMP SLQECH SQUISH*

We were so wet that I poured water out of my shoes when I reached the bustop. As in take off shoe, and tilt. *sounds of waterfall* Yes, that much water inside. The bus was really cold, and it was a pity the rain stopped when I got home.

---Random Incident-----

When those 2 boarded the bus, there was this chinese guy who asked me if I was 13 years old. LOL. His china chinese accent was so thick I could barely understand him! He said he had a daughter in the school who was 13 and asked if I was 13 because I reminded him of her.

LOL. Nice guy, funny though
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Went home, changed and showered for 30mins to scrub out all the sticky paint. The paint was sticky cos we used wall paint. As in the enamel paint. So I scrubbed the stuff out and ta da! CLEAN...

Had lots of dinner and currently arguing with leXis that mana is ugly. XD what a nice day.

love
tsu

[tsu glomped Yoshiki 08:48 p.m.]

Chequre

Listening to : Indochine - Marilyn (french indie)

I have a huge kick listening to french and other kinds of rock. Thanks to Lafiet, I'm listening to EuRock aka euro rock. LOL. The singer of Le Pardonne is called Kyo. LOL. Never fails to amuse me XD

I'm being tested for synsthete, does anyone know what it is? Is it a kind of sickness? *wonders* I hope not.....

I'm feeling sorta tired and pained. Like heart pain, Yoshiki-style. It doesn't help that whenever I think of him, I feel like crap and a loser......How can I ever measure up to such a guy like him? I'm not pretty, sexy or smart, I rely on inuition and common sense. He likes sopranos, those crytsal clear edge cutting ones...I'm mezzosoprano or florridista soprano but I have a blurry sound in mine. Like smoke.....Not the crystal clear pitch perfect kind. *sighs* And everytime I think of that, I just feel I'm unworthy. And it feels like crap because I know I'm being whiny.

And then the guilt starts when I whine to my friends and they have to reassure me and everything.

It doesn't help that when he was 16 he quit school and started a band, and I realized I missed my chance when PapTox disbanded. I feel even -worse- when I recieve fanmail saying it was a pity we disbanded. ARRGH. It just adds on the "what ifs". And then all the trouble I caused, my indecisiveness......Lafiet is always Laffy, he's fine. Kakyounin, he's well.....stopped playing drums altogether. He doesn't blame me (which is surprising) but I feel awful for letting a talented person like him go, I more or less broke the dream..Sara's fine and finishing her A level's, she's dumping the rock scene altogether cos she feels it's not worth it anymore and doing her best to be "normal".

The sad thing is, none of us will ever be "normal". Ack, we dump our skills and hide ourselves within bimbo friends but instead........*sighs*

At least everything has settled now.

But the biggest bugger of the lot has to be Yoshiki. ARRGH! I hate being 15 sometimes, and this is one of -those- times. Common sense says that the chances are against me, but my heart says........Well, from my obession you can tell what it says. *waves fangirl banner*

Problem being, I'm being utterly sensible and utterly delusional at the same time and it's killing me.

Most, take it as some sort of joke, but it isn't. I wanted to do pure Science because of him, I wanted to get 10 points for my aggregate next year because of him, I take uo case studies on business and stratergies because I wanted to be with him. I learnt how to sing, act and perform to get near him. I have plans and everything laid out faster than you can say "huh?" All because of Yoshiki.

In other words, I more or less devoted my whole life to him.

Alex and Laffy are scared for me, because they're worried taht I might get disillusioned. If I do, what will happen?

For a person who never thought about consequences, I didn't know either. What can I say? I can never predict accurately about myself.

They're afraid that I might do something stupid like kill myself.

You know what? It's highly likely.

Because every second of my life has been devoted into finding ways to get near him.

Example: Remember Leareth? And that crushed feeling? It never really left, and it'll always hurt. Even now, I can't bear to delete her emails to me......And Leareth wasn't that important. Can you imagine the magnitude if Yoshiki crushed me?

I don't want to know.

I never considered that possibility that much before, that he would reject me, or that I might not like him. Ack, he doesn't even know I exist! I'm living for someone who doesn't know I exist! He doesn't know and doesn't care! Don't you see? It's stupid stupid stupid! But I can't do anything.........

I'm so tired.

Of everything.

-----------------RANDOM--------------------------------

"I love you" Words floated breathlessly into his ear. Subaru moaned, wrapping his legs around the man above him. He could feel the -"

"Hey!" She could feel a hand shaking her shoulder urgently. "Hey!" Insistently. "Hannah! The boss wants to see you!"

"WHAT?!" Her fingers stopped abruptly, fingers hovering above the well-worn keyboard. "Why?!"

"I dunno". Her colleague shrugged. "Maybe it's because of the new project?"

"Maybe". She looked doubtfully at her friend. "Catch you later for lunch, okay?" Saving the file, she stacked her files neatly and left.

~~~~~

"Ah, Hannah. I've been wanting to see you for a while." Her file laid bare on the table, black plastic against the elegant hardwood of her boss's table.

He shut her file quietly, leaning foward towards her. "I've been noticing some things about you lately..." His eyes swept across swiftly, light reflecting on the steel frame of his glasses.

She blushed. /I hope I get promoted/

"And I'm afraid that the company has decided to cancel your empolyment...."

"WHAT?!" She stood up quickly, nearly shouting at him.

"Sit down please."

She sat, mind swirling in confusion. "...you are perfectly able and have high potential, " he droned on, meaninglessly. /What am I going to do? What am I going to do?/ She wanted to hit him. "But your attention always seemed to be elsewhere and ......" He rambled on. /What about my flat? How am I going to pay?/ She slumped into the plush chair. /Oh God...../ "........perhaps you should not spend so much time checking your email and try to be more value added."

He handed her a pink slip of paper, dimissing her.

/What am I going to do?/

~~~~~~~~~

Minna-san,
I'm sorry about this, but this will be the last update for a while, and I'm thinking of quitting fanfiction soon. Thank you for all your support over the years, especially those beta readers from the SeishirouSubaru ML.

Yours truly
CloudSky
Keeper of Seishirou's Sakura

The mouse hovered impeciptably around the "send" button, waiting for a miracle that would not come. /Goodbye..../ She could feel her heart break into a million tiny pieces. /I never thought it would be so hard../ Cursing quietly, she mailed it. Her last letter to fans she've never seen before.

"Hannah! Hurry up! Start packing soon, and for God's sake get your sorry ass off the computer!" Her flatmate stood huffily at her.

"Sorry." Her hands clutched desperately around the stack of paper on her lap.

"What's that?"

"Nothing." /Fanmail. Thank you, every single one of you./

"You're staying with your parents right?"

"Yes." /I'm not homeless. I'm not homeless. I'm not homeless.../

"Hmph. Hurry up then." She left, stomping her way round Hannah's boxes, into the kitchen.

/What am I going to do now?/

------------END------------------------

Random idea that occured to me...The whole real life vs net life thing. French rock ain't too bad. I really like Indochine...XD XD

Love
tsu

[tsu glomped Yoshiki 06:43 p.m.]

ERK! more quiz!

Kikoooooo.....I'm feeling happy-ish~~

Stuff you always wanted to know but never asked.

1. [wallet] Black, handed down from my brother with a green keystring, my sis has a matching blue one.
2. [hairbrush] Bright Red
3. [toothbrush] Translucent pink with white bristles
4. [jewelry worn daily] Don't really like wearing jewellery ne~
5. [pillow cover] FEATHERS!
6. [blanket] Errmmm I have a big sailor striped one with tropical flowers behind. XD
7. [coffee cup] My COWcup! Mooooooooooo
8. [sunglasses] None.
9. [underwear] Purple, pink, lalala...mostly pastels.
10. [cologne / perfume] Lolita Lempicka
11. [CD in stereo right now] X Japan!
12. [tattoos] No thanks please
13. [piercings] I'm no masohist, esp when it comes to piercings.
14. [what you are wearing now] Shirt, underwear and shimmery nail polish!!!
15. [in my mouth] Chocolate aftertaste XD
16. [in my head] My Christmas layout, LOL
and....yoshiki someone. *gets thwacked by Alex*
17. [wishing] YOSHIKI! *gets thwacked again* Okay okay, ermm...company.
18. [after this] Eat something sweet~
19. [fetishes] RIBBONS! SATIN RIBBONS! LACE RIBBONS! JUST GIMME THE RIBBON!! *bounces crazily*
20. [if you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what] Mr Tan Pain In the Butt Wilkie
21. [person you wish you could see right now] YOSHIKI! Ermmm....Alex, Auddy or leXis. Anyone I can have fun with really.
22. [is next to you] My sis
23. [some of your favorite movies] Chicago, Pirates of the Carribean, Taxi and Cantonese detective shows. XD
24. [something you're looking forward to] CHRISTMAS!~
25. [the last thing you ate] CAKE!
26. [something that you are deathly afraid of] Anything that crawls.
27. [do you like candles] Yeppity
28. [do you like incense] Frankincese I like. Not sure about other types, some are overtly religous.
29. [do you like the taste of blood] I like mine. *lick* Haven't tried yours yet.....*looks hungry*
30. [do you believe in love] Despite the thwack from Alex, YESH!
31. [do you believe in soul mates] YESH! esp in Yoshiki! *gets thwacked again*
32. [do you believe in love at first sight] YOSHIKI Okay...don't thwack but YESH!
33. [can you eat with chopsticks] Yep.
34. [what are some of your favorite candies] Cote de Or chocolates, Baci chocolates, Pocky and praline dragees XD Oh how I love you so....
35. [what's something that you wish people would understand] That Yoshiki and I are meant to be! LOL. Nahh, just be nice to my obession okay?

first things first

[my name is]: S8807319C tsu, or tsubaki, small letter please!~
[in the morning i am]: Crankier than a Scrooge.
[all i need is]: YOSHIKI! Friends!
[love is]: Confundling and shadowy with lights and sparkles and candles and warm and cold and safe and everything at once.
[i'm afraid of]: Anything that crawls.
[i dream about]: Alot of funky stuff

favourites

[colour]: Purple, mostly. But I like to switch around.
[number]: 2
[subject]: Literature and Chemistry.
[clothing brand]: MANGO! ZARA! MINISKIRTS! *waves banner*
[shoe brand]: Manolos.
[sport to play]: Swimming
[drink]: Watermelon juice.
[animal]: Cats!
[holiday]: Chinese New Year and Christmas~!
[favourite line from a movie]: "But why's the rum gone?"- Jack Sparrow, Pirates of the Carribean.
[band]: X Japan! Delerium, Yoko Kanno, Hedwig and the Angry Inch, Nine Inch Nails, K's Choice, Disney stuff...Ack. I usually only like one or two from every band so it's too many to count.

have you ever..

[pictured your crush naked]: Surprise, surprise! No...
[actually seen your crush naked]: Oh boy, I wish and I did and I'll bring a camera too.
[had sex]: Close, but no.
[made love]: Yesh, to my miniskirts!
[been in love]: Tons and with anything and everyone.
[cried when someone died]: I cry when there's a sad movie,
I cry when my fave chara dies, does that count?
[lied]: I try to be honest, but sometimes......

who..

[makes you laugh the most]: Alex, Auddy and Sharony.
[makes you smile]: EVERYONE!
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: EVERYONE! I get excited and can't sit still unless I'm sleepy.
[has a crush on you]: *cough* Please, no.
[easiest to talk to]: Alex and Auddy.

do you ever..

[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to i.m. you?]: Er. Yes? *looks pointedly at leXis* At least I used to.
[save aol/aim conversations]: Dunno how to, plus Alex can do that already.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: Nahh....I like being girly and uke.
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: Yesheeee

have you ever..

[fallen for your best friend]: My best friend is a -GIRL- and thank goodness for both of us, no attraction.
[been rejected]: Nope. I'm a spoilt princess brat.
[rejected someone]: Uh, unless absolutely nessescary.
[used someone]: *whistles* lalala~
[been cheated on]: Maybe.
[done something you regret]: *deadpans* DUH!

who was the last person

[you talked to on the phone]: Alex.
[hugged]: Mom.
[you instant messaged]: hmmnnn....I think it was Rose.
[you laughed with]: Accountants at work XD


do you / are you

[smoke cigarettes]: CANCER STICKS!
[obsessive]: oOOOooo yeah...YOSHIKI!
[could you live without the computer]: Nope.
[how many peeps are on your buddylist]: Dunno, haven't bothered.
[what's your favorite food]: Ice cream and chocolates....can't decide between them.
[fruit]: Cherries!
[drink alcohol]: Sangria, Bailey's, Southern Comfort, Daiquiri, Schnapps, wine ....et cetra. Yea, I like killing braincells and becoming stupid. XD
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: Yeshee~ Aren't they the prettiest!
[what hurts the most]: Truth. And alot of things.
[trust others way too easily]: In a way yes, in a way no.

number..

[of times i have had my heart broken]: dunno.
[of hearts u have broken]: same as above, I try not to keep count, it makes it sound like a scoreboard.
[of continents I have lived in]: One and all.
[of drugs taken illegally]: *whistles innocently* lalala
[of tight friends]: About 5-ish.
[of cds that i own]: Mp3 you rocker~
[of scars on my body]: None, I don't scar easily.
[of things in my past that I regret]: Being late for leXis plane flight, not studying hard enough, blah blah...too many.

pick one..

[marry perfect friend or perfect lover]: Can I want both? [cats or dogs]: Cats!!!! *-*
[1 or 2 pillows]: MORE!
[with or without ice cubes]: Ice please~!
[top or bottom]: bottom, lol.
[winter / spring / summer / fall]: Autumn, windy and red and pretty and utterly romantic.
[night or day]: Night
[gloves or mittens]: Mittens.
[dressed or undressed]: Undressed...I like being nude XD
[bunk or water bed]: Waterbed!
[mtv or vh1]: I don't like watching TV, I suppose MTV then cos I don't know the other.
[ocean or pool]: Pool near the ocean.
[showers or baths]: BUBBLE BATH~!~! *plays*
[love or lust]: I'll take both.
[silver or gold]: Silver.
[diamonds or pearls]: Ish. I want my flowers~! BREATHE! LIVE! XD XD

if you could..

[move anywhere]: Anywhere with a big city. Los Angeles, Shinjuku, New York, Paris, Berlin, Johannesburg, anywhere!
[meet one famous person]: YOSHIKI! and Robert Silverburg.
[live with one person the rest of your life]: I don't know that person yet. But my friends count, sort of.
[name one thing you love]: YOSHIKI Ermm...okay, reading and raiding the fridge.
[name one thing that embarrasses you:]: Arrgh. Puppy fat. >.<

lastly

[do you like school]: Yep.
[do you like to talk on the telephone]: ALEX! YESH! Phone buddies are GOOOOOD.
[do you like to dance]: Yesh, I took ballet for 10 years and I'm pretty good at it. LOL.
[do you sing in the shower]: As loud as I can!~
[do you think cheerleading is a sport]: Yesh.
[what's on your ceiling]: Lights!
[what's the hardest thing about growing up]: Confusion, confusion, confusion.....where's stability!?

Went for work, I'm turning into a workaholic....I WANT to work overtime but they won't let me *pouts* Working is really great, at least to me. It's simple and basic and it drives all those pesky irritating angsty thoughts right out of your head and keeps you chirpy. Basically, do work. Whoohoo~

Slept in the car, washed my hair, had dinner, do you really want to know this?

Let's change it to something interesting then.

Yesterday night I was suffering emotional havoc. The whole Yoshiki thing and everything just crashed at once. I was talking to Lafiet and he was, "there's less than a million in one chance that Yoshiki would like you." And stuff like that.....

Then the whole inferiorty complex just did a tap dance in my head.

I mean I knew it, but knowing it doesn't really make a difference because your head and your heart are really different. Arrggh. I know sensibly that this is stupid, but try telling my heart and my hormones that. They don't LISTEN. I was going on and on about how unfit I was for Yoshiki and how he will hate me and everything, poor Alex and Laffy got the burnt of it.

I'm okay now, at least.

So we hated men and castrated them mentally in our heads and went to sleep. I love my friends XD

Thank you.

love

tsu

[tsu glomped Yoshiki 09:05 p.m.]

Swear to be GOOD

Listening to: Pierrot - Neo Grostesque *UULLARRRHGGHHHH* *grins*

Damnit, I love this song. (unfortunately this doesn't extend to the bandmembers) It's just WILD. It's a damn fun song when you're down and feeling "arrghhy". Feeling arrghy is when you go : "arragh! arraghh! arrghhhh!" for no particular reason.

Went to work, did stuff, usual invoices and everything. I'm getting pissed at Tat Juan. REALLY PISSED. She's bullying Kar Hoon and it's not right. Not to mention that she's a bootlicker to my aunt and an ice cold b*tch to match.

I just don't like her.

At all.

LOL, I just got promoted to Vice-president of Arts Alive. Can I say that it sorta sucks? Too much work and O levels. ARRGH.....But I'm happy Rose is now Prez. Whoo hoo! Let's throw a party!

Talking to leXis, and I'm glad she's ok~ YAY!

love
tsu

[tsu glomped Yoshiki 07:40 p.m.]

Reckoning

Listening to: Abandoned Pools - Ruin Your Life

I think the most terrible way to die is to be tied to a chair and watch disgusting soap operas. It's just TERRIBLE. *dies*

Anyways, got an email from Kakyounin, another jigsaw puzzle.

Puzzle

Consider this: You are an architect of your own imprisonment

It's not really a traditional puzzle, it's just that a statment puzzle. Like, something to think about. It's actually pretty apt when you think about it. Precise, logical and very Tech. LOL. I'm going to start talking in Futurespeak.

Finally recieved my Futuretrack 5 and I'm soooo happy! The future has never looked so bleak! (tsu's love for dystopian futures can only be matched by Yoshiki) *bounces round crazily* Yatta!!! Pretty well written, starts off Margret Atwood style; nice and slow. The pace goes up a notch or two only about 3/4 of the book. It's too slow at some parts, but I'll recommend it to anyone who hankers for a dystopia or two.

Next thing to get : A Scavenger's Tale by Rachel (something)

Wonder where leXis has gone off to? Haven't seen her in a while.

Slept until noon today and had a wonderful breakfast of yummystuff. XD XD Stayed at home and -finally- chose a nice layout pic, doodled on it for a while. Looks Christmassy, issit too early?

Advent first, I think.

I don't really like telling people what to get me for Christmas *apologizes* I know, I know, it's irritating and annoying. The problem with wishlists is that sometimes I get too many of the same things. For instance, if I put down the name of a book, two people might decide to get it for me. Then what am I going to do about the duplication?

Plus I like surprises. XD

Have work tomorrow and I'm quite glad. I don't really like staying cooped up in the house unless there's somthing to read or draw. LOL. I should stay still more often, or at least learn to be less restless. Spent the whole day alternating between slacking and dreaming, the latter happening more often. I miss the quiet comtemplation of being alone or working. My home is like an over sensory adventure. Smells of food, texture of sheets , TV and music switched on endlessly, people hugging and everything. I need quiet. I need green. Or I think I'll go crazy. I mean, don't you sometimes long for white empitness?

But I love living here, I just need an occasional break.

Hmmnnn....I'm looking forward for the 4th of Dec. I've already decided what to get for Alex and where to go. First off, we're go to Holland Village for lunch at NYDC cos she's got a thing for cheesecakes and such (so do I actually XD ). Next, I'll drop by the tailor and see my Miyabi outfit (Hi Shanny!!!!!!~~~) Then we'll head off to Orchard for some -real- miniskirt shopping. It's also Muraki's birthday as well as my brother's girlfriend's birthday.

So my time is literally my time to spend.

personal rant

I absolutely detest fast food and occasionally, food courts. I'm not snobby, I like hawker fare. BUT PLEASE! *dies* The people are so rude, the crowd preses against you, the heat is siftling and no one can hold a good conversation over the noise. What's more, the food is usually expensive and unhealthy. The portions aren't even decent and the service is the most unfriendly I've ever seen. I -LIKE- being spoilt. I -LIKE- my cafe latte or peppermint tea to be made of real arabica coffee beans and peppermint leaves. I -LIKE- dressing up in my lacy shirts and long skirts and going out for scones and tea.

It's not gourmet I need, just good service and value food.

I'm just a sucker for quality, and I resent those mircomaved Burger King stuff to be called Hamburgers. Hamburgers, for instance, are grilled with brown sauce, with fresh seasame buns, onions and lettuce topped with gherkin or pickles. Sometimes you add mustard (djoin please) if you like.

And it's crap that they sell in fast food *koff* restaurents

It doesn't mean they're ALL bad. I like the ice cream and it's reasonable. But the burgers! And the overtly salty fries! And teh whole atmosphere and -ambience- ARRGGHH!

I'll rather blow my cash and waste it on Venezia gelato.

-------END RANT---------

love
tsu

[tsu glomped Yoshiki 08:57 p.m.]

Spin to the beat

Listening to: HORNY Holy Night - Gackt and Ayumi Hamasaki

This song is so crappy I wonder why I downloaded it. It's so cringe worthy it makes me laugh. Ayumi Hamasaki sounds like a dying cat but doesn't do it as stylishly as Kyo. Gackt sounds like he's seducing JESUS EFFING CHRIST! *dies in large amounts of horror and disgust*

STOP SEDUCING SANTA CLAUS YOU SLUT! *thwacks Gackt*

ANYWAYS.

. <----pregant pause

While I'm now terrified of Gackt/Ayumi duets, I'm listening to my vomit inducing Pierrot. Really. My sis wonders where my music sense has gone LOL. It's not too bad really, listening to French eurobeats now. Laffy is a bad influence (GO DOWNLOAD INDOCHINE NOW!!!!) Listened to White Strips, I kinda like them, but not love. LOL, they're the kind of stuff I listen for dailyness, not for story writing, unfortunately.

Well, went for AGM. Everything as expected, people not turning up, late people, Mr Tan being a pain in the nether reigons...ETC. Gee, what's new? Went for tuition (HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANICE!) and it was pretty fun. I could -STILL- remember my chemistry work, and my teacher was so surprised LOL. I couldn't remember my Physics though and got into trouble with Forces and Tension. ARRGHHH! I'm never gonna understand that crap as long as I live.

Funny thing happened today, met Clarissa on the bus. Clarissa, whom I haven't seen for 6! years. Oh, I can't believe I still recognize her. She doesn't know me as tsu, like everyone, but even older. (name that is) So strange.......She doesn't see me like everyone else does. As in bright glompy tsu-tenshi, but as a kid. Like in Primary sch, I always got bullied by the seniors and she'll help. Then she left for Rosyth and I learnt to take of myself.

She still sees me as no one sees me now

Shy. Quiet. Scared. Frightened.

I use to hide round school and I'm still pretty good at hiding because of it. Antisocial, whatnots, you name it. I had a C for social skills and the teachers had to practically FORCE me to talk.....So strange compared to now. *wonders*

Did I really change so much?

I guess I never would if everyone had stayed. Clarissa left, then Caryn left, Debbie left and when I ahd no one else I just...changed I guess. So strange, I never would have become like this if they didn't leave me to fend for myself.

Is it better to have changed?

We didn't talk much, she's in Nanyang now. It got to a point when it was difficult for her to reconcile this genki me to the old scared me, and it was pretty uncomfortable for both of us cos now I value my hard earned independence.

Life takes you in many twists, in every twist, there is also a turn.

So strange.

love

tsu

[tsu glomped Yoshiki 10:30 p.m.]

Kitsune

Listening to: LEMONed I sceam - Hide

Hohohoho....I've fixed my christmas list for people already LOL. Am I being overtly anxious? Or maybe I'm just too excited about christmas~

I love presents.

For memorary's sake, I'll put them here. But I won't type out what is it, just a hint (or whuff) of it. Cos the people I'm buying for actually read my blog so YEAH! Guess all you like!

Family
Niki - Simple and Clean (lean) XD
Oniichan - Micheal Stravinsky
Mom - Christmas luminares
leXis - Purple dusk
Alex - Tartan scotts don't wear underwear

Really Good Friends
Auddy - Fic + Clean n Colourful
Natz - Pretty dangly
Mari - Pretty dangly
Christine - White and Milk
Mizu - White and Milk
Sharony - Prev me not

Good Friends
Neko - Ice-creamed
Rose , Chere and everyone who helped in cast - Milk and Dark
Cosplayers - Milk and Dark
Classmates - Milk and Dark
Tuition teachers - Milk and Dark

I think I settled most of everyone already. If I forgot anyone, I'll just come up with something.

Yesterday was funky and I went swimming!!!~~! I love my nails....LOL. In and out of water~ Listening to Pierrot makes me feel wild and queer and foxy? 0.0 Anyways, I'm happy that most of everyone is happy except for those people who don't know how to be happy so it doesn't matter.

Went for AA and yea, Rose and I got choosen for Sec 3-ism. I hope they don't take up too much time cos next year I'm having O's and that's freaking me out a bit. Reading more Yuffietine and it's hilarious how many BAD scenerios I can come up with. From Tofu to really disgusting chocobo jokes. Okay, I'm dirty, so?

---------------Random----------

Tsu : Hey!!! I wanna eat Yoshiki's tofu!
Alex : Yoshiki doesn't have a tofu............
Tsu : Know the round long sasuage kinds? The egg tofu kind?
Alex :..............Men don't have tofu.
Niki aka tsu's sis : Tofu tastes really nice with soy sauce and benito flakes!
Tsu and Alex:.................
Tsu:.........She doesn't know what she's saying.
Alex : Right.
Tsu: You know, maybe Yoshiki's tofu spurts soy sauce when -firmed-
Alex: You dirty......$#^!
Tsu: and he eats it with Paos?
Alex:...............I'm outta here.

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It's a dirty converstaion, I pity the fool that doesn't understand. KEKEKEK. I'm not explaining though. I bet Gackt Camui has a small tofu anyways. *ebil laughter* ha.ha.ha.ha.

Okay, I have class now, ja~

love

tsu

[tsu glomped Yoshiki 02:01 p.m.]

---Random----
Dance to the Moonlight
lyrics by tsu
music by Lafiet who is currently on ICQ. LOL

I'm putting my CD in
Just alone in my room
Empty walls and blank faces
from dusty photographs
Sprawled lazily across my bed
I feel the moonlight kiss me

Spin it sing it dance it
The moonlight shimmers to me
Come on, get up, the night is young and wild
No one can see you, No one can hear you
Your screams are swallowed by the darkness
Can't you feel the heat racing through your faces as the fire builts up?

Let me kiss you

Two feet standing
One tentative step and we're nearly there
Just close your eyes and wait for the dream to come true
It's alright to let it go

Spin to it, sing to it, dance to it
Moonlight won't judge you
Let it out, Let it free
Unleash the wild side with red passion
It won't take too much

You slide down the depth of pleasure
Feeling the sensual heat?
Can you feel it happening?
Can you feel the dark burst of release?
It's so addictive
Wish.........

Hold it long and it'll go forever

[tsu glomped Yoshiki 08:57 p.m.]

vanity box

Listening to : Pierrot- Neo Grosteque

I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~

Woke up at 10.40am-ish cause Alex called. I was "hmnm.mnmn"-ing over the phone and she was, "YOU JUST WOKE UP?!". LOL.

Changed, and set off to Novena to look for Rosemary and Chere. Met Alex and we had this weird movie scene where we were 15 paces from on another and talking over the phone. LOL. Went to Spinelli's for lunch, I had a lovely sweet sour green apple smoothie and a triple chocolate cheesecake while she had cranberry tea and the traditional cheesecake, talked about meaningless things and trivalities and then we thought. "HEY! LET'S GO ORCHARD TO LOOK FOR AYA'S (my sis) PRESENT!"

Hopped to the super crowded MRT and walked at Wisma Ataria. LOL. Her first introduction to Mango (MNG), Voyage de Rita, Eden, Anne Klein, Atsuyo Tamaya Indivi, D&G, DKNY, Armani, Tripilini, et cetra et cetra.....LOL. We walked around and bought a bottle of nail polish in a nice pink shade which she could wear and it looked better than black anyhow.

Walked to Taka and introduced her to ZARA!!!!!!!!!!. Miniskirt miniskirt miniskirt miniskirt....Chose a couple of skirts to try on as a test . We shared a fitting room and everyone prolly thought we were either related or gay. LOL. It's mainly cos Alex is shy and if she -thinks- she looks horrible in it, I won't get to see how she looks, also, the place was pretty crowded so sharing saved time and we could also try on each other's pieces. I hearby declare that the drak blue tartan mini is GORGEOUS.

Well, the pink one ain't bad either. XD XD I'm an incorrigable shopperholic aka miniskirt whore.

SO! We giggled our way across Zara headed to the clothes dept. in Taka. Found lots! of stuff, mostly peasent blouses and billowy tops. Most of them she could wear, esp. Raph Lauren which suits her really well, and it would match most stuff~ Nice stuff, A.V.V. was pretty good too. Hopped to Kino and strenously ignored Blurberry because I *adore* their lacy miniskirts with tartan designs but can't afford it T_____________________T I WANT!

Anyways.

Went to kino and saw some nice books and stuffs, forgot to bring my disconts but ack, she bought Count Cain book 12~! The one with the Merryweather front cover~ XD XD Browsed through the Astrology section and it was pretty funny. I'm compatible with YSOHIKI~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!! *_________* YATTA!~

Bought ice cream and headed to Lido cos I wanted her to see another of my -fave- shopping grounds. Sure enough, MNG, Morgan, Lisvie, AK, Eden and everything was nice and THERE. I suddenly had this burst of yurameki again, and walked to MNG.

Then I saw my true love -

love.you.so.much.love.you.so.much.love.you.so.much.

My eyes gazed over with absolute joy and happiness, I could feel the violins in the air, my heart beat rapidly against my chest, pulse racing, breath shortening, lips parted in absolute joy as true love occured.

My DREAM MINISKIRT <3_<3

It's a checkered skirt, with those -lovely- lovely black zips diagionally across, like the kind Auddy always draws, it's pink and black squares. Not too short, not too long and it makes me feel kitschy and sexy and wonderfully happy. AND IT'S ONLY $45!!!!!!!!! *dies happy* cheaper than Zara!

I'm gonna get IT. I don't care.

*evil eye glint*

Walked around a bit more and then I spotted something really pretty from Voyage de Rita. It wasn't for me though, I had my true love already, it was for Alex. XD For one thing, the colour suits her as well as the design. It's simple, understated, bright and pretty. The colours are pale yellow/gold/orange and it goes well with most Asian skins. The design itself flatters her, nice cut, floaty but not billowy, scattering of polka dots adds detail and attention but nothing trashy or garish. And the sleeves were those angel sleeves that were in rage in 1970's.

PERFECT.

Sure enough, when she put it on, she looked like a princess ^________________^ And it was just right! Size and everything! *pokes Alex* Go get your mom to buy it for you~!

Then we felt kinda tired, so we headed off to her place to piant nails and talk. Even better, she said there was a row of pubs round her place at Pasa Panjang. Lalalala~~ Bus ride, slept on her shoulder. Woke up and then went to the row of pubs.

Then I had another yurameki~!~! *I'm having a lot these days it seems*

Then I walked straight up to the door and ignored the CLOSED sign and opened the door.

BINGO!

There were people inside, and I asked politely to the lady if we could film it. It was EXCATLY the one I had in my head. Dark walls, dim lighting, small rooms, mirrored bar, high black stools and this general air of snobbyness and sleaze. But with an air of cultured elegance.

I loved it. And the properiater said I could use it in the afternoon. SHIAWASE!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~ *throws confetti*

Went to her place, crashed on her bed and painted our nails PINK. It's so pretty and I'm in love with it. I love my nails. I love my nails. I love my nails. I love'em love'em love'em. XD XD I'm turning narisstic.

Left her place, watched the sun set at the bustop and took 51 home. It's just wonderful to be so happy. It's just wonderful to have friends to have fun with and be girly teenage squealy with.

Perfectly happy day =)

Had dinner at home and now I'm on the comp ^_______^ Life is beautiful. Love is good. Like a bright happy star.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEICHAN!~~!!

-------------In response to Alex's drabble-------------

"I've never done this before," Yuffie blushed, eyes downcast, cheeks tinted with a rosy pink.

"It's alright," Vincent said soothingly, "I'll teach you". His hands held hers gently, guiding them to the zipper of his skin tight black pants.

Her fingers trembled as she undid them slowly.

-THUNK-

The pants slid heavily on the floor.

"Wow." Yuffie's eyes widened.

"That is sooooo CUTE!" She giggled girlishly.

"Can I braid it?" Her eyes sparkled happily, not noticing Vincent's disbelief. "Then we'll have matching braids!!!!!!!!!!! PINK RIBBONS!!!" She chirped happily.

Without further ado, he pushed her roughly out of him room, still in his undressed state.

"Cute. She said CUTE", he buried his face in his hands, groaning.

"And -braid- it with -pink-" He shuddered at the mental image.

Peeking out of his hands, he looked down at himself.

"Maybe I should have shaved first.............."

shaved or waxed?

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love
tsu