[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 08:42 p.m.]

In the end................

Finished camp. Amazing how I didn't seem to learn anything else besides playing Bridge and Blackjack. Didn't play any Tai ti, just played Bridge. Interesting enough, I learnt to play it in 1 day and the next day, I was able to win most of the sets. Bridge is more fun than Tai Ti I think. Tai Ti is luck, Bridge is stratergy. Best person is Leslie I think. He's really good at it and makes an excellant partner.

I don't think I learnt much from the camp. Most of teh questions they asked, I had already asked myself before and prolly the best thing and the most fun was at night when we played Bridge till 3.30 am! w00t~! I really loved playing Bridge more than anything else, even though the people in charge thought that we had turned the camp into a gambling den

I'm watching Phonebooth. It's a movie about a man who picks up a ringing phone inside a phonebooth and it turns out to be a psychopath who is bent on hell. His conditions: If he hangs up the phone, the sniper will kill someone. And it's amazingly done. You can actually feel the fear radiating from him and the desperation felt by the poor guy who picked up the phone. Stuart (man who picked up phone) is a small time lawyer who has normal faults and everything and BAM! he's suddenly forced to tell all his secrets that he wanted to sleep with his colleauge and tell it infront of all his neighbours and his wife.....It's a frikkin tense show and it's amazing. The tension and suspense is spilling out of this show......

Okay...nuff of my ranting I guess. On to the next one!

Wai wai~! Have finally gotten back to Yami no Matsuei complete with a NEW! pairing. *gasps* Yes people, it's TATSUMI X WATARI~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Found more interesting fun stuff to do ^^v Honestly, sometimes I think I actually have too much time in my hands.... Hmnnn....here's another interesting though. Muraki. Doll. Seichan. Doll. Tsu and hentai thoughts......Hmnnnn...Ever wondered if Muraki might know Sei? Or if Sei was a Shinigami??????Then we could have this doll thing going on about Muraki finding -Subaru- and taking Seichan's doll from him. Sei, being a Shinigami, goes to find Hisoka and all. Subaru realizes that Sei isn't really dead from book 16 and TA DAH! Story~ Mannn....I'm really psycho.

Learnt a new art style too. It's called "Squiggy". Mainly because it just uses squiggle lines to define shade and tone. I sorta like it, not as much as I like dotting though. So sad isn't it? Oh well...art is a preference. Thank goodness, I'm not doing Fine Art but Creative Art (big diff)So far, it looks okay, but I think I should tighten the twirls and whorls abit to make it more elegant and less messy. Understatment as always, works best with detials.

love

tsu

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 08:49 p.m.]

I Feel Like Dying.......................

Dear kafe...I went for the first day of confirmation camp and came back bored out of my wits. BORED. BORED. BORED. They just treated me like some strange animal at a freak show when I kept on saying I didn't want to be confirmed. Is it so hard to believe that one does not want to be Catholic???

Even better, my brother is one of the faciliators and we all know that he and I don't get along. I just feel sick and very frustrated and bored. Most of it sounds like propaganda and evangelizing!......OMG. Literally. Religion spoils everything I think or at least sometimes. I remember a story I once read about a priest, a trader and a group of innocent hard working people who were pure. The trader treated the pure like intelligent children who needed to be taught, the priest treated them like people who understood and gave them all his beliefs. When they questioned him about the mircales and God, he said that God knows and can do anything. So they asked for a miracle, and crucified the priest and buried him for 3 days hoping he'll wake up. But he never did and the poor innocent race was no longer pure and innocent. Let me ask you, is it religion's fault?

*sighs*

I need a break.

Mentally barraging me with questions on why I don't believe and repeating my justifications is wearing me down, maybe I'll have to give in one day. But right now, I'll rather know that in the end, I was sincere in all my beliefs and was true to my ethics. Too bad no one seems to respect what I consider a personal decision. I feel so....so bad. Concentrate! Concentrate! *steels herself for another day*

Came back home because I have school tomorrow and will miss most of camp. *Yay!* If not, I would have had to stay there overnight...UGH. Okay...enough for now...I feel so tired...

love

tsu

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 11:31 p.m.]

Ack...headache

listening to: Currents - Suikogaiden opening Note: I might be away for confirmation camp and not blog for a while. Please excuse me. Not that I want to go but my family are all catholics and they think I'm satanic already, don't want that impression no?

Tired tired tired.......Dispite slacking the whole day I do feel tired. Finished a Luc/Sasa layout and I think it's pretty. I wonder how many get the inside joke of it though *shrugs* I'm not really interested into going for camp, I'm happy being freethinker and I'm not suited for religion. Problem is, I'm too questioning and doubtful and faith, is blind. Yes, to have faith you must not only believe, you must also be blind to every other "truth". Like MoJo, commented, it's a form of doublethink. Honestly, the human mind is an amazing paradox. We are trained to think logically and scientifically, yet we are made to believe in gods. Doublethink anyone?

Played Suiko today again and recieved a phonecall from Bunny.Sadly, our friendship seems to be stuck in limbo. We can't click anymore and it's beginning to feel like marriage without sex. *me described it once to Alex* We glomp, fight, make up only without the sex bit. *shrugs* And I'm pretty tired of people calling me sensitive and all. I'm not really, you're just being sensitive because I asked you what you thought. Is there anything wrong with that? Please! Behave your age for once and stop sulking and being discontented. It doesn't make you any prettier. Anyways, nuff said. It's over anyhow.

So no one wants the prize???? Deadline is by Monday. PRIZE: Anime postcards or Count Cain Yearbook or Fruits Basket Letter Set. OPEN TO OVERSEAS.

*sighs* I think I can get out of cosplay. I swore to myself that I would never turn out to be an angsty anime cliche or wannabe and I WILL keep it.Strange ne? It sounds so much like an addiction that's almost not funny anymore. Well, it is. Sort of. Too bad no one warned me earlier.....I wonder sometimes if I haven't been introduced to anime. Would my life change more? Would I behave differently? So strange...especially when you add the mix of parallel worlds and everything else into the equation. It's amazing when you think about all the chioces that you make hastily without a thought and the consequences that come one so much later.

*highly amused suddenly* Just thought of something, I remember someone once said to me that I would make a horrible beauty contest judge due to the fact that my standards were too high. Just to note, here are my citeria for beauty: Curve (figure), Carriage, Cool and Symmetry. Symmetry is the most important I think, because if everything was in proportion, it'll be beautiful. *don't believe me? Test it* General standard ratio is Phi also known as the golden proportion of 1.235 and usually works beautifully. ^^v Okay, I sound crazy, but I do love beauty and I can easily admit that I can be superficial and only be attracted to appearences.

love

tsu

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 11:39 p.m.]

Running about is good for you

YESTERDAY

Enrolment party for Sec ones....Thank God they had me. LOL. But really, I came up with food and drinks and everything, someone can call me if they ever need help party planning. Was pretty fun, despite the fact that I have never liked Girl Guides. I joined it solely because my mother asked me too. Weell...all wasn't too bad. My friendship with Geneieve for one thing has blossomed. Geneieve by the way, is my superior (sort of) in Guides but being a rebel I am, I don't listen of course. She's also the excat oppersite of me, from her neat fastidious manners, articulate language, amazing organizantional as well as tolerance for orders abilities and prim proper-ness. Very nickty finicky. Precise and methodical. No existantiel angst either.....Strange ne? Well, after Guides, we hopped a bus to Orchard and walked and walked despite being tired and dirty. Surprisingly fun~! Considering our differences. It's nice to be around people and just talk normal everyday things, clothes, fashion, people and cynical comments ranging from advertistments to just the weather.

Honestly, I rather enjoy small talk and the intimicy of it, it relaxes the soul with the hum of daily routines, refreshes your mind with trivia and soothes any anger or melachony with it's delightful simplicity. Alright, I admit it. Angst occasionally annoys me. It seems like if you spend time with angst filled cosplayers and such people, you become angry and discontented and angst filled as well. It's a vicious cycle. Therefore, I am avoiding such people until they learn the fine art of balancing uniqueness with normalcy. If not, they're NEVER be happy.

Played Suiko 3 at night and I think I have finally hit upon a neat layout idea for Luc and Sasarai. Minimalist anyone? *winks*

TODAY

Went to visit the CNBC Broadcasting Station today for Arts Alive. Not bad, pretty fun and learnt how a sound studio works, from a master control to the production control. Anyways, have dinner....was quite uhhh....today. Will blog more later.

love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 06:22 p.m.]

Moriarty and Maycroft

Moriarty and Maycroft, anyone who can tell me who they are and how they are related to the most famous detective in the world wins a PRIZE. Deal, anyone? *winks*

It shouldn't be too hard....fairly well known after all, just tag the board.

Today wasn't so bad. Woke up and went shopping in the Great S'pore Salw (GSS) and bought more things....uh huh...Tsu's one hellva shopper when she puts her mind to it. So far, here's my loot and places I have discount on or go frequently:

Zara - check the back of the store for cheap stuff. My butterfly blouse was $12.90!!!~!~ And bought tons of linen and the black pants are sooo cool. ($45).

Perfect In Black- They have a 20% - 50% disount going on, 3 blouses at $90. Found a leather skirt as well as a PVC skirt ^^v Yay me~!

Phuture London- Okay....I REALLY REALLY like this place. I shop there at least once a month and buy tons! Which is why I have a membership number, it's S1828103A, not really mine, it's shared between me and Priscilla ^^v Go shop! They have the best short skirts (Yay!) and stuff, plus it's direct from London (land of funk fashion) and the stuff change every once or twice a month.

Ozonoc, Mango and ETC- It's all at Isetan (Wisma upstairs), and that's where I bought most of my "high" stuff. Welllll....there's a sale now, though not at the top floors, but's worth a look. They have wonderful peasant and lace stuffs despite teh overwhelming load of lycra. (DOWN WITH LYRCA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) //Tsu hates lyrca till no end// Ozonoc, in particular has nice shirts and unique colours esp they're line art motif, which I like. Plus it's COTTON!!!!! (Yay~!)

Shopping was fine, despite the parking at Taka, which costs $6! Oh kafe...no wonder they make so much money.....they just take the parking fees!!!! Anyways, bought a miniskirt at Mango (my guilty pleasure) which was a pretty shade of grey (Yay! No black) and came in pretty pleats....Oh yeah, forgot to mention, I never wear black. DON'T BUY ME BLACK. I have prolly only 3 things that are black in my wardrobe. 1 black/pink, 1 cargo pants, 1 dress pants. Only 3! 3 items, okay?? //don't like black// I LIKE white. Hmmnnn....about 4/10s of my stuff are white. White, is nice. Black, not tsu's style.

Went to the supermarket before heading home to buy lunch for my sis. We had MONOYAKI!!!!! (fried jap noodles) and TakoPachi!!!! Yay~~!~!!! And lots and lots of junk food. (junkie junkie junkie) Played Suiko 3 and finished Thomas' chaphter. Waaaaaahhhhh...he's such a poor thing! Evil fathers!!!!!!!! Dumb Zexan IRONHEADS!!!! //shakes fists at them// WILL KILL.

Had dinner at Esmeralda's, which serve Medetiterren food. Not bad. Shared a chicken coucous with my sis and it tasted better than a risotto but a bit //okay, quite alot// like jap curry. I think it was the stew. Had tiramisu for dessert (also share with sis). Food was great, atmosphere was great (lovely candles and hanging lanterns with frescos and curtains), company however, was BAD. I don't like it when people ignore my sis. It's not fair. And it's not right. Sure, my mom invited you as guests, but instead of always talking among yourselves, could you AT LEAST inquire about my sis???? It's PLAIN MANNERS. You don't act like there's no one there, heck, you didn't even greet her at all! *curses sliently* Not to mention the conversation revolved around church, soccer and my religous beliefs. Just because I don't want to be confirmed doesn't mean you have to make an issue about it. I have the right to choose my religon and believe in whatever I believe in as long as it is within S'pore's law! And that's that!...........

It really irked me. Arraghh.....Just leave me alone damnit.

love

tsu

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 10:37 p.m.]

Oh kafe

I think I survived. I slept for 3 hours straight when I came back with a report book (denial denial denial) while popping a panodol.....diiiieeeee.....My marks weren't *very* bad. But I failed E and A Math and that dragged down and down and down the steep spiral of death //hangs at the edge of a peripiece// Ughuuuuu.....Not very happy at the moment. I just feel stoned.

Haibane Renmei summary

Inside the city there are the haibane, they're not human, not angels and have wings and halos. They're also not allowed out of the walls that surround the city or even touch the walls, they do not know where they come from or why they are there, they just come. Anyways, a haibane by the name of Rekka (falling) has just been hatched (they come from cocoons) and is taken under the wing of another haibane, Reki (pebble). Soon, she feels the urge to find out who they are and why are there haibane and the secret of the crows and her past.

I like the story and I think I'm going to get it. It's by the same creator as Lain. So I suspect the storyline is more twisted than usual.

Okay, my mom is yelling for me to pack my table...

love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 03:48 p.m.]

Haibane Renmei

I wantttttttttttt....*throws a brat tantrum* Oh man, have you seen those WONDERFUL graphics for Haibane Renmei (Ashwing League) it's BEAUTIFUL~! OOOOooo...Love it~! Wai wai~! I wish I had the cash to buy it and all~!! *heart heart* Will give summary tomorrow (as long as I don't die first cos I'm collecting my report book)

love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 11:58 p.m.]

Yay~!

First things first: ALL HAIL SEELE-KUN~!!!!*glomps*

Despite being Friday the 13 today, looks like the day wasn't as bad as expected. Was dragged shopping with my grandma (dad's side) it's not that I don't like her, it's just that we're too different and there's no love lost between us. Lunch was good but the company (one whiny sister and one oblivious grandma is enuff thankyou) really made me want to kill something, thank kafe that someone at least blessed me with good acting skill. (let's play pretend!)

Ah ha! Looks like there's yet another Suiko fan into the making....Alex. Do I see yet another Yuber x Albert yaoi fic lying on your table, hmnnn??? Bloodthirsty little girl. //hahahaha// Oh well~ for the betterment of de-humanity I suppose. Bought 370g of chesnut puree today!~!~!~ Yay~!~! Chesnuts!~~! I feel sorry for all you poor, unitiated, un-chesnuted people...*drools* Ahhhhhhh...joy~some people just don't realize the luuuurrrrvee, hmnnn? //tsu is talking to chesnut preserve// Thou art's sweetness tantalize and tillaite the tongue, such joy and rapture thee can bring to I. 'Tis just heaven sent on earth. Food = Poetry. Which explains why I never seem to be away from the sugar jar ^^V Whoopee~!~!~!~!~~! But really, the chesnut cream is just fabulous at Tierney's (top floor of Serene Centre, bus 153,156,855,165) Mnnnnnnmmmm....can I drool?

Read my Sherlock Holmes again. I swear he's gay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes! Sherlock the faggot!. I mean, he leans to Watson's ear and whisphers in the Mystery of the Speckled Band. Plus it was Watson who saved Sherlock from opium. I support Sherlock x Watson (or the other way round) Yatta!~!~!~ Eto.....Want to buy