Okay............................................................
Dear people, due to many rather hurtful conversations and painful stuff. I have decided not to read fanfiction anymore. This is not Leareth's fault, Tessie's, Bunny-chan, Kyou-chan or anyone's fault but my own.


To tell the truth, I had been thinking about it for some time, and as many poeple have kindly or unkindly pointed out, I don't even know her. I'l still like Anime and stuff. I might read from time to time, but I wouldn't go obessively and cheer for my favourite pair. Please understand.


This means that I wouldn' stalk Leareth anymore either. As for meeting, I don't think so. She doesn't know the press release date for the real MAC cosplay since they changed the date last week due to techincal problems.


Love

Tsubaki

Damn.............This is the last straw
I QUIT!.......................... I'm not even going to collect anime anymore. I'm sick and tired and possibly angry. This is the first and last time I swear....F-F-F-FISH! I don't CARE! Now leave me alone to study...I have a LIFE to live.....

Tra~LaLa........I'm Singing in the Rain
Meh. I feel better. Or maybe it's because of a insane conversation between a dirty-minded, perverted Bunny-chan junior, a Tsubaki and her sword-crazy sempai? Whaddya get? A conversation sooo dirty, inane and giggling-gossipy that anyone would have a bellyache. No joke. That innocent pix of Yukito and Touya in snow with bunnies suddenly became Yukito and Touya ....erm erm like bunnies . Bunnies get it? Snow bunnies...And what do bunnies do best? They erm erm.:koff koff:


Anyways, Bunny-chan is my junior. But her sexual inuendos about everything freaks me out a bit.:koff koff: From bananna [read: Subaru bananna pix] to abstract popiscles and ICE-BOYS. Don't ask. :koff koff: I coughed so much today that I'm sure that Tubercolosis is around the corner.....You know after that...erm erm converstaion I'm never going to look at ice-cream the same way again....ugh. Subraru-kun, do you want some ice-cream? It sounds innocent butt...hentai juniors. Just hope that she wouldn't be too curious.


Our first anime screening was today. It sounds nice right? Until you realize it consists of 3 people and lots of popsicles. Food yea! Teenagers we are...We junked into my house and watched X OVA. I'm soooooooooooooooooo SICK of feathers. It appears in EVERY SCENE and there's enough to make it snow. Just how many chickens did they kill?????????? Not only that, WHEN did HOUKTO'S EYES become YELLOW? Or Kakyou's eyes GREEN? Sheesh. And we have all these fanfics extoling the virtues of emerald eyes. At least it was nice. The music was nice, but after hearing it 30 times. It's annoying. 30 times cause I kept on rewinding just to watch Seishirou's parts again. It pays off to hold the remote...Yaddayadda....


Btw, KOREA LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:weeps:REFREE KAYU!!!![unfair]


Love,

Tsubaki

School spirit? Where??
:looks innocent: Huh? School spirt? You gotta be joking..


Let me explain, every year, around the end of June,we have a school festival. It sounds really great until you realise that they cheat you from cash...Take a look at the adverts. "One caramel apple for $2! Hot dogs @ $4!" And on and on.


This is one of those things that I simly don't give a damn about. I like parties but this is daylight robbery. They're using the cash for th school but the school is rich enough already. Rich enough to supply the lab with Dell!


:sighs: I'm not very happy today....sorry. I'm just feeling lousy and it sucks. I'm wondering if I should drop anime for good. I know I worked so hard to start it up from bribery to nearly going down on my knees. I did my first screening and stuff, but I'm really really tired. They sorta expect me to do EVERYTHING for them. Especially Nat and Co. I'm like so MAD! Can't even decide whether they want to cosplay with me as YnoM this year or not....Don't want to help with the work and play play play. Shoot. Costumes? All made by me. What's the point if they don't help??? It's through the thick and thin. Not just the good stuff.


And I have this bad, horrible gut feeling that Leareth is angry at me, I know it's mostly my fault, but still.... It's almost like Subaru and Kamui. Look, if you don't like me, say so! But don't toy with me, if you want me to stop, but don't give me a chance and then complain about the amount of stalkers you have. It ain't right. That's known as asking for trouble.


Maybe I'm wrong, butI'm sulky, angry, tired and cranky now. So I'll prefer something definite in my life for a change. Whether Yami no Matsuei cosplay, anime group stuff, or even Leareth. I'm pretty sick of being patient. Especially with those DAMNED TWITS IN SCHOOL I've been waiting for a reply since Dec LAST YEAR!! Look, getting replacements isn't easy, especially since you hold places for Hisoka, Tatsumi, Yuma and Saya. Help me K? Cause I might be tempted to drop with all these things around me.


Love,

Tsubaki


PS. Life is Beautiful.....or supposed to be...

Chobits!!!! Postcards!!! Yay!
I've jsut recieved my chobits postcards!!!! Yay!!!! It's really ogle till you drop dead though....Gotta go!!! But I'll post more tomorrow. Cause today is the first day of school. Bye!!!

KYOU-CHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARIGATO!!!!
Kyou-chan thank you!!!! You found Leareth for me!!!!! Wahhh!!!! Ai no Shimasu! I'll buy you the stuff okay? And have you decided where to meet on Monday?


It seems that I ain't the only stalker on the world!!! :sparkles:There's a person called "eat" I'm supposed to look for...Wahhh!!!! Tsubaki is so HAPPY! ;shines:


My Leareth lies over the ocean

My Leareth lies over the sea

My Leareth lies over the ocean~~~~

Oh bring back my darling to me~e


Whaddya think?? Kyou-chan, you're going home this year right? Good luck. Thanks for everything...:hugggles and our cool' butterfly and rambutan kiss: and...I'll always remember you...:wipes tears: Email me, k? Love ya...


Kyou-chan is going home.....DARN. I've known her since 5. Bai Bai....Thanks for those books...


This is a gift to Kyou-chan..cause she wanted me to write a poem about Leareth..Funny girl she is.Ne?


Leareth O Goddess of My heart!

I beg thee to notice me!

O vitues and lovely face

How can my eyes ever forget you?

Though we live in worlds apart

I can always dream of you...

Your brown eyes stare fixtaely at the keyboard as you type, yet another wonderous fic..

Your brow heavy with worry as you use your fic schpeal..

O Beautiful one! Do remember my pitiful presence..

For I am not worth your virtuous mind,

O how can any boy friend compete with thee??

My one and only Sakurazukamori...


Bai Bai...Kyou-chan...May you always remember that you will have a ever-annoying Tsubaki-Hime...Hope you're happy.


Love and may God bless you on your journey..:wipes tears:

Your darling Tsubaki-hime...


PS. Only YOU can call me that,K? Don't give Tessie the chance.Yeah!!!

Osakana wa Ami no Naka - Fish In the Trap
Okay, to tell the truth, I don't know the series that well, but I going to buy it over eBay. Why? Cause the plot reminds me of Tokyo Babylon and Yami no Matsuei. More of the latter though.


It's about a young boy who was raped under a sakura tree when he was 5. The cute boy, meets his senior in the swimming club and falls for him. The funny thing is that, the senior was the guy who raped him when he was 5. He senio knows this and lures him like a Fish in the Trap. The senior is this rich and scary Seishirou lookalike called Yuji and our fav sorry ass is Matsui, who is a Subaru/Hisoka/Kamui lookalike with Greeny-Emerald eyes..:Awwwww: and black hair, thick though not Subaru's feathery ones.


Personally, the artwork looks like FY/CLAMP/YnoM dunked together. It's found at Senshigarden's Multimedia Not bad right?


Unfotunately for me, I can't seem to find it, not even on eBay. If only I had the ISBN or chinese title....:sigh: Anyways, school's starting soon, so I have to concenrate more. CONCENTRATE! :stares at her Trig problems: I don't hate Maths but why do I have to do Trig!!!!??? It takes me ages to figure out whether it is a Cosine, Sine or Tagnant. Yuck! Even deciamals in Algebra is better.


So yaeh, if I don't update as often it's because I have a VERY IMPORTANT EXAM this year. It's streaming, and I have to figure out whether I should take Arts or Science. I'm taking Science and when I reach JC level I'll take Arts and be a lawyer/doctor. Of course, none of my fiends think I can actually be a doctor.....I'll kill my patient with laughter apparently. Oh well. I still have 2 papers to finish and a pile of yet untouched Science homework. Good luck to me. Meh.


Love,


Tsubaki

LaLa~La and the Darkside of Fanfiction
:soft happy smile: I just finished my drawing of Hisoka. :dreamy look: It looks great, but not as good as my Oriya piece. It's because I ran out of Copic last minute.


Everything is going so far so good. And guess what? My brother said he loves me. :slight smile: I'm happy but I'm feeling serious today soo...yeah. I can be serious too, ya know. Most people find it surprising that I'm can be serious. Which is quite amusing since I do listen in class and is a closet crammer. :coffee is good:


Isn't it amazing how your best friends can be sooo wrong about you sometimes?


I've decided to lay off fanfiction for a while, it's not very good for you actually. Sure you improve your English, but at the cost of becoming as heartless as the Sakurazukamori? Let's take an example, you read that your favourite chara dies and it's like "Nooooooo!" , you read it again and again, your reactions to it are becoming less and less forcful. Isn't it like losing your heart?


Fanfiction is a bit like shopping for emotions. Say that you are feeling sad, your friend just argued with you and had a quarrel. So you go around looking for a parody. BAM! You smile and laugh! All you need to do is go to fanfiction.NET and "shop" for a fanfic that evokes that certain emotion. If an emotion can be bought, and emotions are what defines us as humans, wouldn't our humanity be lost?


You feel less empathic to other people's troubles and slowly start turning into a block of ice. Sometimes you're on High and a angst fic can put you on a Low. Without actually expriencing any of this, you know how a rape feels like, how a cold-blooded killer sadistically totures his victims and how the 2 people can fall in love. You even figure out how sex feels like.


Of course, alittle bit is good for you. Like wine or chocolate, it is good and taste nice, all in small amounts. It can inspire and put things in a new perspective. It can carry a idea and share a exprience. But as we all know, famliarity breeds contempt. And shopping for feelings just isn't right.


Fanfic Writers don't have much of the blame of course. But if they write something out of their depth, like a PWP written by a 10 year old. That is totally wrong. But then again, comics, books any medium of commuication is a lie right? Wouldn't it be like living on one? I suppose it is impossible to write that as it would be Non-Fiction already. But for the readers to lose their compassion is something not so good and something that no one should lose.


Love,

Tsubaki

Tai Ti and [strip] Poker!
Okies, I just came back from camp. It's around 12pm but I'm not tired. Not very anyway. My hair is still wet so........I shall type. ;gosh, I sound so...snobbish:


Confirmation camp was really fun. I didn't expect it to be, but it was. I met Markie there, I knew him when I was like 7? But I didn't know he could draw. I mean really draw. As in profeesional artist with a degree from Universitiy of Australia and winner of the Singapore logo competition. Being a curious twit as always, I was looking as his "squiggly" file. It looks like dots but is actually, squiggles. So he sort of taught me and made me do a half-assignment to grade my work. Guess what?????????? He thinks I have the potential!!!!!!!! Wow! And also [finally] taught me Copic blending and squiggle design. I really like it, and has agreed to teach me from Dec onwards, after my exams of course.


He doesn't do anime unfortunately, but he has copic! I can finally have the materials I want! :sigh with happiness:


Camp was pretty cool. I learnt how to play 3 diferent kinds of card games. Tai ti, which is sort of like Poker, and it's really fun. Poker and my first game of strip Poker. :sweatdrop: I really awful at it. Like really bad. I ended up it a shirt and my underwear ONLY. No pants..etc. And it was a co-ed game. Right, Tsubaki no BAKA! :plonks head on wall:


Of course, I did my best to annoy everyone by being chirpy and perky in the morning, noon and night. They were like really freaked out. Espically when I did the Angel Cheer :giggles: I get poetic when drunk. Does that make sense? I'll type it out anyways.


KOREA WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay! That's $3 from Maria, Chobits set from Leoni and ice-cream from Phy Club. Ah! Soccer! I mean, like it was a Golden Goal! I thought it would be a penalty and Korea would lose...but ..!!!They won! They won! Oh my gosh they won! :dances around:


Do you like my layout? I said I wouldn't put any picture but I guess, I LIKE this pimp too much. He's my chara on Under One Meifu anyway.


I think Leareth thinks I'm dead. :giggles: Time to rekindle our [platonic] LOVE!!!!!! Hmmnn.. I gues I should do the Angel Cheer now... but if only I could act it out for you..;smiles sadly: You need to sound like a real bimbo to do this. Think Britney. Yeah...Britney. :shakes her bon bon: Or Lady Marmalade.


Angel Cheer to the tune from "Bring it On".

I'm Holy,:smiles angelicly:

I'm Good,:thumbs up:

I sing a Aleluia too!


Great Halo,:points to halo:

Great Hair,:ruffles the presudo-golden hair:

The demons love to stare! :bats eyelashes:


Who are we?

What are we?

Whyyyyyyyy.......

We're ANGELS! YEAH!


I make a good cheerleader....:coughnotbimbocough: But I prefer to add a little sensuality to it. :did I just say that????:. I like acting anyway, it was the script for a skit at the camp. Do you know how hard it is to teach boys how to act gay and do a catwalk?. :shakes head: I took 3 hrs to teach them how to walk properly. Gosh, I pity the parents. Anyways, I'm kinda tired so..yeah. I'm going to sleep.


Love,

Tsubaki