RANDOM

I feel random...And it feels butterfly-ly with peanut butter in it~ Spent one whole night unzipping and downloading brushes. I swear I'm in love with brushes^^V All thanks to Luc/Elu. *high fives* GO GRUNGE~! Go TWIRLS~!

Anyways, now, making a layout is harder..."Which brush to choose???" Since spring it coming, I suppose a nice bright layout is called for. BRIGHT SPRING~! :) Supposed to go class painting today but I feel hell lazy >.< I think, if this continues, I'll never get anything done and de-evolve myself >.< Metaphorsis maybe? -_- *methinks she reads too much Franz Kalfka*

Anyways, doing a mjor overhaul and might start my own network of sites....Gotta ask Luc, maybe a brush site would be nice ^^V They're funky and cool~!!!!!!! :)

Oh yeah...gotta remember to credit them, that'll mean I'll take hours to finish the update ^^;; Man, I'm really slacking, I think I'll go to school now....>.<

Love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki licked handcuffs 12:36 p.m.]

IC- Indentified

Went to get my IC done today, next time I'll do it when I'm 30. Since I have a choice, to use my Brit passport or not, I have no idea. Maybe I'll go for PR-ship :P

So hit and humid today, even typing feels like hardwork >.< and yesterday was so noisy that today I don't even feel like hearing music ^^;;; I guess I'm sensitive to sound and bought some new books from Kino yesterday. Mostly English ones like Terry Parachett and Anne McCaffery.^^V Reading "Soul Music", love all Prachetts...maybe I'll have a Prachett layout next time.

Love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki licked handcuffs 02:59 p.m.]

Cosplay day~!

Went to cosplay at Taka and spent the whole of yesterday morning/night finishing the outfit.....In fact, I finished at 3 am~~!!! >.< Felt sooooo tried and was dyeing cloth at 2 am!!

Woke up at 11 am and uuuuuuuhhhhhhh-ed up. In other words, strenched and went back to sleep...^^;;;; Anyways, the outfit wasn't too bad, but I mis-measured and looked..TINY. >.< Went to Taka met everyone *waves to minna-san* and saw Serene *who looked really cool* and made a new friend *hi Mandy~* Anyways, the Sakura Taisen were really good and sang some songs et al. Got photographed pretty much and it was pretty fun~! :)

Met Mom back at Kino, I was pretty sure I saw Tessie walking along, but I'm not really sure, cos I left pretty early. Anyways, double cosplayed *Cos my outfit was really cold!!! :(* And borrowed the sakura outfit from Rika *thanks will return you another day* Ate chocolate cake at Coffee Express with sis and went back home pretty soon cos it was so tiring. Love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki licked handcuffs 11:08 p.m.]

Stuck back on Earth

I'm a certified nut. *looks at the last few entries* Diagnosing myself, I prolly have a borderline personality...:P Or maybe cos I turned the volume down and is listening to something less err..inviting to craziness. Anyways,this entry is just mainly to reassure people that while I'm nuts I'm not stupid ^^;;; Like as in jumping off any building or something >.< If I did, I'll prolly choose the OCBC *cos it' so style and cos it's the tallest in SG* and do it with melodrama *hell I love acting and enteraining and cruel ironies* Like those wonderful wings and then the feather will fall fall fall and the wind will rush rush rush and then I'll close my eyes with the vertido and all and wear my chii costume and a single tear will fall off and then I'll open my eyes and reach out to those beautiful but cold cold cold stars and smile. *me looks back at what she wrote* Right...>.<;; And I was trying to reassure people too.

Love

Tsubaki (who goes to listen to something like. Strawberry Kiss Kiss :P)

[Tsubaki licked handcuffs 02:56 p.m.]

Lose the grip.....

Listening to: David Usher- Black Black Heart
Weiss Kruez- It's Too Late
Duran Duran- Come Undone
True Faith- New Order


I'm drowning in the sound I feel my high The feeling of clawing your way out I can't feel a single thing trapped in a womb of pleasure an everlasting cycle of addiction running through one smile after another the smell of sex hanging it's invisible stink on my computer the heated and guilty desire for more it's not a why anymore I need it I hate it I love it and does that explain anything Does it I don't care I'm drowning in this beautifl magical sound this endless twirl of dramatic depression the melodramam and the fake pity of all We're so pathetic we don't even know that reality is not as we see it it's all just an illusion of all that we want to see I'm mesed up I'm so confused I'm drowning in the musical tragic melody of attention and death my morbid fascination with death everything that is so utterly poetic and yet so evil Am I an artist I create death the Death I want to see not facing up to the true reality I can't think the noise is invading my mind I'm not really there anymore am I I don't know tears maybe not tears and no regrets is it always too late can we can it the beat has taken up the rythem of chronic addiction already I reach the climax I am the song I savour every note every pitch my fingers tremble over the keyborad I can taste the faint aftertaste of lunch and sex provided my my daily search of yaoi am I crazy I don't know I don't feel anything embrace the sound it wraps around you the noise so thick I can feel it smothering me blanket I think what they think I feel the song I hate love songs They make me sappy and everything I breaking apart the pitch reaches a frenzy as the brass and mix and syntheise to the most perfect melody and the terrible aftermath of everything all gone my wonderful mirage of angels and demons and perfection of the world so many colours the delirousness the joy the manic intensity it makes me FEEL fell something outside this cold cold cold numbness help me I'm drowning again where do I belong in this evil world I want to fly I am evil do I deserve it I hate angst why I am I angsting do I really need all this attention.........I will start the music again.

Numbness is never the smae after the taste of joy a barrier has been breach we all want the warmth again.

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki licked handcuffs 02:24 p.m.]

Yah...I'm UKE...SO WHAT???? *shoos all the hentai semes away*

Yah...STUPID QUIZZES!!! MAKE ME SEME~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(prolly watching Bachelor 2 is a bad idea now...)


The Yaoi Selector: Which Uke are You?
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OH. I'm. NICE.

The Yaoi Selector: Which Seme are You?
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Oh yeah...I'm depressive too! And UKE! Where's the justice in the world???? *me notes that being a DoE doesn't make justice very justified*

Kuzuki Kakyou You're Kakyou, meaning you look remarkably feline in appearance, and are very very uke. You're generally very angsty in behavior, almost disgustingly so, and despite your depressed features, you still manage to attract a lot of attention to yourself. A master at weaving dreamscapes, and seeing into the future inside them, you're a very important part of your social circle. But you need to stop moping so much over your lost "special" person. Take the "Which Dragon Of Earth Are You!" test! by Maduin & Kira

Oh great! I'm going to like...STAY FAR FAR FAR away from BUNNY now. Like NOW. And yeah, that includes sakura and kakoi men. Wait...make that scary men.

You are Subaru & Seishiro from X! Your affair is
marked with violence and pain, but that's what
makes it work. Plus, you both love flowers...

Which Yaoi couple are you?
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Somehow.....I don't like Hakkai. I don't like pigs. And I'm not a pig. So sue me. :P

Cho Hakkai

Which Saiyuki Character are you?
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Right. This goes to show that I'm hell yaoi and have an overactive imagination. And I actually like NCS. Someone please shoot me. Please?

SchuxAnyPersonFromWeiss: YOU'RE ONE TWISTED
BASTARD. Enough said. I mean... come on! You
like the thought of Schulig raping a poor
innocent Weiss-er... I bet you get off on the
thought of Omi writhing beneath you! . . .
Okay, so a lot of people do. But still!
/Blood/?

Your Weiss Kreuz Yaoi Pairing Is...
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I suppose in a way, that would explain why I like Yohji of the 4. I suppose I'm not Omi *Yay!*. I suppose I grew out of Omi-ness. I suppose that I should grow out of uke-ness one day. And yeah, sex baby!

Yoji

Which Weiss boy are you?
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This further tesifies that I'm prolly weird. And gay. And someone's little kitty. Stay away from me.

You're Yohji Kudou!

The slightly dysfunctional Weiss Kreuz Quiz
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I'll be like..really HAPPY. If not for the fact that this Ays is the new Aya-Gluhen and not the *HOT* Aya one. Red hair baby!!! Ooo yeah......anyways. Aya x Yohji. Yummy desu~!

You're married to Aya/Ran.Behind that cold exterior
lies a kind and gentle man.You two may not be
the "PDA" kinda couple,but behind
closed doors, there's a whole lotta different
action going on. ^^

Which Weiss Boy Would You Marry?
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Love (hopefully unpainful and unbloody and unflowered)

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki licked handcuffs 11:03 p.m.]

Aquatic wanking

Bunny came over to my place on Monday! Pretty fun and finished sewing pat of my costume ^^V Go ME! Went swimmming and had the most digusting conversations that involved aquatic wanking. That was plain hilarious! And also really really silly and fairly embarrassing. Thank heavens that it wasn't a public pool cos it was getting worse and worse. Eg. Water pressure, aquatic thrusting........etc. In other words, subjects that are not really good to take about in front of children.

Anyways, we're going to make a webpage on wanking and wangage called Getting Any~! Complete with all sorts of cool meters~! ^^V GO US!

Had lunch today with sis and cooked Chuncky with rice and hot dogs! Yummy~!

Didn't want to sew costume and wanted to called Alex really bad...but she was sleeping so yah. Had Chinese tuition and didn't really like it. But then again, who in their right mind likes CHINESE????????? *but how about yaoi ne?* >.< Anyways, can't wait for cosplay and found out that Kajuat was at Stephy's house. That was hell funny cos they were screaming over the phone. Screaming over what I wonder?? 0_o;;;; Anywasy, Stephy was like asking Kajuat to stop something so I gotta investigate ^^V.

PS. Check out Luc's site! Lovely graphics!

Love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki licked handcuffs 10:24 p.m.]

Weiss!!!!!!!!!!! Nekochi?

Very Weiss mood. Been reading all my fave Weiss fics all over again. ^^V Anyways, obessing over Real Emotion again and again. Too bad I'm going as Rikku and not Yuna. Oh well....shuckers to me then.

Went with Bunny for flag day. Sold tons of stickers and some people were nice and some people just had no manners! I mean like, 10 cents weren't going to kill you! C'mon! Even the tourists were giving more, and one nice day gave us $10 on the spot!!!! And he wasn't S'porean! >.< Pleaseeeeeeeeeeee........it wouldn't kill you to help donate 10 cents. Anyways, we targeted the old men, tourists and ACS boys ^_~. Pretty funny since all the old men and tourists preferred me and the ACS boys preferred Bunny. That was hell funny.......Or maybe cos she was acting like a slut ^^;;;; Welll........It was really fun and we saw some really cool stuff, such as the stain that we wanted for Chobits cosplay et al. Oh yeah, Bunny, Project LOL is still going on...help me ne? ^^V

Had steamboat with dad and instead of rice, had green noodles. Which polluted the whole soup green. That was really cool, cos everything turned green and even the fishballs had a green tinge. Went to Kino and bought Toraware no Minoue and Bunny, Serene and Co. already did Alichino sooooooo.........yeah. >.< Lemme think okay? I'll come up with something, even if I had to go through half a million websites.

Listening to True Faith by New Order. It's a wonderful song and I love it! Here are the lyrics:

I feel so extraordinary
Something's got a hold on me
I get this feeling I'm in motion
A sudden sense of liberty
I don't care 'cause I'm not there
And I don't care if I'm here tomorrow
Again and again I've taken too much
Of the things that cost you too much
I used to think that the day would never come
I'd see delight in the shade of the morning sun
My morning sun is the drug that brings me near
To the childhood I lost, replaced by fear
I used to think that the day would never come
That my life would depend on the morning sun...

When I was a very small boy,
Very small boys talked to me
Now that we've grown up together
They're afraid of what they see
That's the price that we all pay
Our valued destiny comes to nothing
I can't tell you where we're going
I guess there was just no way of knowing
I used to think that the day would never come
I'd see delight in the shade of the morning sun
My morning sun is the drug that brings me near
To the childhood I lost, replaced by fear
I used to think that the day would never come
That my life would depend on the morning sun...

I feel so extraordinary
Something's got a hold on me
I get this feeling I'm in motion
A sudden sense of liberty
The chances are we've gone too far
You took my time and you took my money
Now I fear you've left me standing
In a world that's so demanding
I used to think that the day would never come
I'd see delight in the shade of the morning sun
My morning sun is the drug that brings me near
To the childhood I lost, replaced by fear
I used to think that the day would never come
That my life would depend on the morning sun...

Love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki licked handcuffs 02:50 p.m.]

New Layout ^^

Yay~! New layout! Mainly cos I'm not supposed to be stalking Leareth anymore so I can't put that pretty Shuuchi up but at least Ken looks hot in this picyure...Do ya like it????? I hope you do! Anyways, it's got leather and all so don't complain.

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki licked handcuffs 10:53 p.m.]