[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 09:57 p.m.]

My first CG~!

Done by Phyrin and Tsubakki. Coverboys Shiroi (tsubaki's) and Kuroki (Auddy's). A Math hardwork ^^v kekekeke.

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 03:04 p.m.]

Pissyfied.

Listening to: Creep r-Radiohead

TSU. IS. NOT. HAPPY.

That really sums up my day. Went to school with lots of candy and pretty okay if zoned. Things started to get bad after recess. First. IPW. THANK KAFE IT'S FINALLY DONE. OMG. >.< I absolutely abhor it.......Next was E Math and the teacher walked out on us cos she was mad and we were tired sleepy and not paying attention.

mini-rant

I'm tired. I gave you everything. You gave me nothing. I sacrificed debate and ELDDS for you. You said you don't need me. You don't need me. Then why am I here? I don't belong here. I want to say I hate you. I want to say I'm going to quit. But then I remember I have nothing left after giving you my all. So I stay. I can't blame you for being ignorant. I can't blame you for all my faults. I just wish you wanted me that's all.

I'm so tired.

I don't belong anywhere

I have never found someone who understood.

I never found anyone who thought me as special

I just want to be special.

Arts Alive is going to kill me one day. Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I took up Ms Chow's offer and joined Debate. I wonder if they would have cared more. I wonder if I did wrong. If my choice was wrong.

I absolutely can't stand Andrea as president. She was fine as a friend but not as a leader. I can't work for someone who can't get an idea with the click of her finger. I can't stand her ignorance. I can't stand her slow uptake. It's amazing how SILLY people can be. Really, either she never uses her brain or something.

Scenario 1#
We were dicussing raising funds and she was like 'Why not ask for sponsorship?" *jaw drops* SHE THINKS IT'S SO EASY!!!!!???? Do you know how many rejection slips the Robotics have already? It's a damn FILE full of rejection slips. The economy is so bad and she thinks it's like pancake. Personal experience: Cosplay comn took one YEAR to find sponsorship. Yes people, it's THAT hard.

Scenario 2#
We were planning to flim ELDDS's Drama and Poetry Night. For some reason, our dear Prez *adds sarcastically* DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THERE WAS ONE!!!!!! OMG. *dies at people's stupidity*

I'm not saying she's not nice. She's just not dynamic, motivated or have anything *up* there. *points to the head*

Came home and crashed. I hadn't eaten anything the whole day and night. Cos I skipped dinner yesterday. Just to note, skipping food is bad for your health cos it makes you alternate between puking and fainting. In other words, it makes you feel really really bad.

If you were with me, you would see a girl sprawled over the wooden floor, socks discarded carelessly somewhere under the table, blue and white uniform is dishelvement, hair in disarray, belt undone one hand holding a sandwhich, half eaten, lips covered with sticky jam, feet and body slouched against the wall and totally stoned and glassy, staring blindly at the sinking sun.

Hmnn...It actually reminds me of me.

Oh yeah, Gackt is now offically known as Scary Ojisan Who Does Funny Things. Mainly called Scary Ojisan, cos he's OLD and he's scary and he sings weird. And sounds like Ricky Martin on Lemon.

tsu

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 08:30 p.m.]

laidedah~

Firstly, my condolances to the Siamese twins Laidade and Ladide and my admiration for their courage to undergo the operation to seperate themselves into individuals. How often we forgot what a gift it is to be an individual. Also, I hope that their sould will be at rest and that the doctors will continue to do their best even when facing such difficult circumstances.

Had 4 A Math lessons today, I'm pretty sure I'm brain dead by now. I'm still feeling a bit off.....Something's gonna happen soon but I just don't know when. I hope it isn't too bad. Like Gaiman once said "There's a storm coming and I don't want to be in it". Hmnnnn......

My mom doesn't seem to mind me doing volunteer work. Which I really feel like doing....I don't know. I've been feeling kinda messed up lately and I realized how selfish and how much I've taken for granted so doing volunteer work has helped allievate the guilt ^^;; I feel that there's a lot to be done and I haven't done enough yet. It doesn't mean I have to be morose and cynical, I just have to do my little best to help.

Plus it makes me feel really happy when the kids smile.

It's Tessie's Birthday this Sat. Yay~~! Bought her a lovely gift for her from Orchard cos I was there for tuition and just bought her a little something on the way. My my...Heeren's sincerely changed alot. Oh well, now there's more shops so I spent like 3 hours walking around looking at this and that..... So many pretty things and so little cash! *sighs* Had modanyaki and ice cream!!! And the tuition teacher bought me waffles. Mnnnnnnmmmm...Tsu loves waffles. Yes yes, waffles with chocolate. Sanwhiched and hot and puffy and yummy! Waffle....(hey sis! Doesn't that sound like waffu? *wink*)

Wai wai...pretty happy except that I think I'm gonna be down with a flu soon >.< Ughuuuuuuuuu.

New hobby: Chinese Herbalism. I might actually be able to cook that y'know. It's just chicken, danggui and red dates and wolfberries.

love

tsu

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 09:49 p.m.]

>.< and lalalala~

o_0 For some weird reason. Sinagpore's Orchard Road aka Capital of S'pore. *giggles* OMG!!!! It's really too much!It's only like July and CHRISTMAS DECOS??????? That's crazy. It's beyond "kiasuism" already, it's like....supre "kiasuism" or something.

KIASU (Kia-su):noun defination: To be in front of everyone else, to be the top wehether or not you need it. Over competitiveness to be first.

LOL

.....Pretty annoyed today. Why is the chinese teacher picking one me???? First she told me to put the pen down because I was drawing but I wasn't distrubing her class. Then I did and concentrated on the trees. Next she complained that my attention was elsewhere. So I looked at the textbook and began to flip the pages. Then she complained that I was on the wrong page. By that time I was very very irritated and decided to concentrate on blue. I can literally concentrate on anything when I want to...So I thought blue. I blue-d myself till I felt calmer and went back to my fave dream. Bah.

YAY~!!~ My Lit poetry was fun~! We were supposed to bring a poem about death and read it out. I brought Poe and choose "Dreamland" Yay~! I love poetry!

I'm finally understanding why my art teacher loves trees and drawing them. It's wonderful earth sculptures, twisting and turning in nobs and nooks. Lovely cracks and veins and delicate foliage casts like lacy skirts gently upraised. Grainwork woodwork, velvety smooth yet coarse with age. Wisdom and youth changing from bare nakedness of winter to the green heralds of spring. Trees are so beautiful. There's the old man of sage, buring with wisdom and age.Graceful redwoord oaks, casting their branches and gracing us with shadows. Youthful birchs pale white with green skirts lining the avenue. I'm glad sometimes that my school is surrounded by so many trees and plants. Sometimes I just wish I could just sit down and draw. I could stare at it for days....

Oh yeah, finally found out the name of the dotting technique that I use. It's called strippling. I'm still -trying- to master the squiggle lines because I tend to go overboard and overdo it. *sighs* Unfortunately, it looks really good on old saggy trees. Damn. *tries again* Oh weel, it looks -passable-. *mutters* I don't care if the teacher thinks it's amazing that I can "sharingan" it, I don't think it's good enough! >.< (sharingan is the ability to look at it only once and replicate the results).

Watching Cowboy Bebop and Naruto!~ Yay~!~~!~!

love and welcome back erieko!

tsu

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 10:06 p.m.]

Naruto!~ And more junk

Which Naruto Character are You?
quiz by orangeday.net

Somehow I sorta expected this...It's either this or Sakura. It's pretty funny and predictable in a weird sorta way.

Skipped the Rite of Initiation which is some very crappy way to initate all confirmants. Needless to say, I didn't join in. I'm not joining ANY religion that promotes mass murder of thousands in the 1600s. No matter what God says. After all, the Pope just does the ex cathandra and we must follow like sheep. And I'm no bah bah sheep mind you.

Seems like the ficlet recieved good response. But NO WAY am I writing such -garbage- ever again. *goes back to drawing* Plus I owe Alex a proper fic not a ficlet.

Didn't feel like drawing....I absolutely realize I can't draw when people are looking at me. It's disconcerting and it breaks my concentration. Ugh >.< So after all my tuition aka Math and Science. I just flipped through some new books (Thomson Plaza had a book sale!~! 3 books for $10!~! And they were selling Terry Prachett and Neil Gaiman too!!~) Bought a couple of romance, some thrillers and a Prachett. Saw Raymond Fiest too but I already overpsent my budget of $20 T__________T Waiii!!~! And it was Arutha too!

*blinks* Reading romance books are weird. They're even sappy-er than fics.

Ah well, started on Trigomentry today and it's pretty easy once you mastered the sine rule. After that, everything is dead chicken. All calculator work. ^^v Pythargorus theorum is proving to be useful too! Good thing I like triangles ^^v Drew all sorts of vector diagrams until I could draw them in my mind's eye and nearly completed the Work Energy and Power. All ya need to remember is that no energy is destroyed but converted. Sometimes energy is "loss" due to friction and the formulas.

Gravitational Potential Energy = mass x gravity x height

Kinetic Energy = 1/2 x mass x velocity(squared)

ALWAYS equate using the difference in speed and difference in height cos mass cannot change. Sounds simple ne? :D

Okay...haveta sleep early!

love

tsu

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 10:42 p.m.]

Response to Sak's challenge aka OMG I actually wrote this

Disclaimer: Thank God they don't belong to me and yes, this is a work of FICTION.

One# Pour detergent in. Two# Stir it. How are could it be? Yit Kee carefully poured the vicious blue liquid into a pail of water when suddenly a pair of warm arms wrapped themselves round his waist. "OOF! Hey -wha?" A mouth seared over his lips, abruptly cutting of the words. He tastes like coffee and cream and warm sheets and Boss colonge Suddenly, Wilkie did something with his hand and he dissolved into random inchorent moans. "Uhhh..." Eyes closed briefly in pleasure as his orgasm hit him.

"Morning Keekee" A voice whispered into his ear.

Yit Kee shot him a baleful look. "I thought you were still sleeping! And I was planning to make blubbles today too!" Mumbling under his breath Didn't expect you to be so horny today.... Wilkie tilted his head thoughtfully. It was a weekend. Weekends meant late mornings big breakfeasts and of course, lots of Yit Kee. It also meant that there were no AEP students to yell at, no gaggle of girls making silly jokes about him "Goat! Huh...those girls have no -taste-, what do they know about -handsome- men anyway Pulling It Kee on his lap, he nuzzled gently against the curve of "Keekee's" neck.

'What about a bubble bath, Keekee?"

His lover's eyes flew open. "That's a great idea!!!! I'll go prepare it!" Scooting of Wilkie's lap, he disappeared into the bathroom. Wilkie could not keep the grin of his face. Yit Kee was always like that. Even when they were children or in university or secondary school, he was always brightly shining light. When they were posted to the same school, he couldn not believe that Yit Kee would be with him and when Yit Kee accepted him as a boyfriend.....A devious twinkle lit his eyes as he stroked his goatee. Maybe I'll just have to remind him what happened Swaggering his way to the bathroom he just stopped short of the door.

A/N: WARNING!!!!! EXPLICIT MATERIEL AHEAD. *note: I can't believe I'm writing this.*

He love was soaked to the elbows. His pink "badung" (rose syrup milk) coloured shirt cling to his frame , slick hair plastered down his face with a forlorn puppy eyed look in his eyes. "Hi Wilkie, hmnn...is ylang ylang better or jasmine?" Not really concerned, he dumped the sweet smelling soap into the tub. "Mnnnhmnnn" Wilkie stalked toward Yit Kee, kissing him throughly when he reached his destination. "Why not enjoy it hmnnn?" He slid his hands down Yit Kee's shirt. Warm hands against chilled skin, twin peaks of hard pebbles began to form as Yit Kee groaned to his touch. Pushing 'Keekee's shirt off, his mouth and tongue traced the path down. Collarbone...tongue meandering down Keekee's skin elicting tiny gasps and moans.

"We should get into the water before it turns cold, right" Light fingers stripped both their clothing and Yit Kee could only nod his head inchorently in response.

The water was warm, hiding their lower bodies in it's shifting reflections as Wilkie countinued his slow seduction of Keekee. Reaching below the water's suface into it's hidden depths he grasped Yit Kee's member and began an excruxiatingly slow rythmn. Yit bucked to his touch, moaning Wilkie's name as he came.

"How's that for a bubble bath?"

"Mmnnnn....we should have it more often"

Yit Kee rested his head contently againts Wilki's shoulder.

"I think we should get out soon...we're starting to winkle" Immediately, he feel fast asleep.

A/N: Finally done after much of sister bugging and Sak. Note: If you make me go through the hell of writing this piece of garbage again I solmenly swear to hunt you down and kill you.

Not so much love tsu

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 03:42 p.m.]

................................

Look if you don't like me just say it and stop mumbling near the dorr okay???? *highly annoyed* Ah...fuck Fish it.

Forget it.

I'm still annoyed.

Right. Back to matters, ate lunch woke up late skipped Girl Guides cos I was bored and I don't like the people there and they don't like me either as a)I question everything b)too unpredicatble for their taste . Also because I think that it's stupid to have parade marches and uniforms and junk. Sheesh, can you imagine? What if there's a fire and we're to wait for the CL to let us fall out before we can run away? STUUUUUUPPPIIIIIIDDDDD~!!!!

I just realized I'm still annnoyed

Strange...I hardly ever get annoyed at trivalities, maybe it isn't a good sign. *back to normal stuff* Had dessert which was frozen cherries and ice cream. Went to read teh dessert cookbook cos I really wanted to read it and it had lots of pretty pics including a chocolate cake that could be only described as sin antromorphic-fied. Anyways, ganuche always looked good.

Sheesh.....I'm STILL annoyed

Okay....I'm just kinda hurt and all...Lalalalalala~~!! Scarbough Fair is a wonderful song done by Simon and Garfunkel. It's so nice and freaky too...mannn...that guy can sing high~! Wonderfully done anyhow and it's pretty to listen. Okay, I think I'll go read some fanfiction.

I'm not annoyed anymore yeah!!~

Love

tsu

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 02:40 p.m.]

Wahahahahaha

New Layout!!!! Generally speaking, it's non-anime, non-Jpop, non-game and non-comic. In fact, it's actually photography! I found a pair of wings, found a statue's neat buttocks and stuck'em together. Not very poetic when you think about it. Anyways, it's a relatively simple (if simple actually consists of 21 over layers) and clean (gave in to only ONE filter) layout. XD XD XD So happy!~

Lent Auddy the rest of the books for Mercedes Lackey but haven't had time to lend her my Elvenbane. Surprisingly, everyone reads of Vanyel but no one else seems to read her other works like Lammas Night and Elevenlore series. *shrugs* Borrowed off her photocopied version of Magic and Supernatural Mysteries which I finished in school but went home to read again and chew on it some more. Found some really funny stuff~!!~!

For instance, Water and Air elements go well together and it's actually true!~! Cos Auddy and I hardly quarrel and just argue. In fact, arguing is half the fun!~! But Earth signs like Capricorn and Virgo, compliment Fire signs like Aries and Leo. Or like that's why Joyce and Judith have zero rapport. LOL. Judith's got a Scorpio boyfriend~!I wonder if she knows how (perverse) Lucky she is....Hmnnn...

Apparently she forgot the aniversary and the guy got mad. LOL. Funny relationship. Cos Aries is the Male sign and Scorpio is the Female sign....Does that say alot???/

Fooled around trying to read auras with okay success. Couldn't try the gemstone chakra thing cos I don't usually have gemstones. For your info, I'm a pieces aka Fishy. LOL. Went on the net to search for more of the Scared Feminine which is dastardly hard to find cos you get all sorts of hits. I even get porn >.< Generally speaking, Scared Feminine is the theory that for every God, there is a Consort of equal power. Examples range all across the whole such as the Ying.Yang, Shiva and Sheva, Adam and Lilith. Halfway through, humanity forgot about it due to the Second Catholic Reformation and therefore got lost. Apparently, that's the supposed reason for the wars in the world as the balance between the male and the female, Ying and Yang is not in equalibirum. Cool ne???

Went for IPW. Was Bored. Cos NONE OF MY *&^% GROUP MEMBERS WHERE THERE!!!!!!!! waahhhhh...had to capture everything manually by hand. So sickening.

Anyways, happy night!

love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 11:53 p.m.]