Bittersweet......................aka I -HATE- you and yes, YOU

Since tsubaki is somewhere in the far reaches of sub consiciousness, I'm taking over //kicks tsubaki's self-denial// Oh, I'm Rheya or Reiya her alter ego. Or tsubaki is my alter ego.

RANT ALERT

Mr Tan you stupid piece of *&^%. I did all the work for Arts Alive and yet you still had to take my post beacuse of what THEY did. I came on time, helped out Mr Felix..Heck, most people think I'm the President damnit! It's not my fault that -they- went to Central to eat and came back late, it's not my DAMN fault that they're incompetent. Look, Sheeni, Andrea and all those -losers- in the Committee just want a damn badge to parade around in. I mean, like they just use their FRIKKIN post to show off.

You a$$, I did my job and I wanted Arts Alive to become something really great. Y'know something? During that FRIKKIN meeting, you just hypocritically said SORRY and took my post. WT-BEEP-??????????!!!! But of course, tsubaki being tsubaki said nothing and just walked off with a polite "Thank you Mr Tan, Ms Chye". Tsubaki is an idot I'll admit, but she's also hell nice. It's not FAIR to her. She did the board, found the missing cameramen, tried to find the missing people and HECK, she GAVE UP being in ELDDS just for THIS!!!!!!!. //someone told her she got in throgh the auditions, but because of AA, she decided not to join// YOU $#%^$ER!

I mean, yeah she's silly and all, and giggles waaaay too much, but at least she doesn't stive on work and really WANTS to make AA the BEST CCA all time. Sheeni and all, they're just here for fun and all the wrong reasons. Like "oh, I gotta get back the badge so I wanna work again so I can show off my post to my classmates" That's wrong. Know what? Maybe with a certain amount of effort I might make tsubaki change her mind and quit. She doesn't deserve your bullying, she doesn't need the extra stress and has more than enough things to do. Not to mention that if she actually quit, how many people will continue joining? It's not boasting, but most of the members are from tsubaki's peer support group. And they don't like most of the comn. Do you think they'll stay??

Tsubaki might not say anything but I WILL. She might hide all the anger and bitterness but I WON'T. So watch out. Push to far and we'll see what happens.

-Beep- you,

Reiya/Rheya

[Tsubaki sparkled 05:36 p.m.]

Gravimix

Hehehe....school's becoming more interesting. ^^V For one thing, it seems like I'm the offical Door Closer and the amount of anime-fans and music in the comp lab is amazing. I'm talking about Saiyuki and Gravi together. Doesn't sound to bad actually ^^V

Hmnn...I'm going for the Singapore Film Fest on Sat with the rest of Arts Alive people. I might actually turn out to like Mr Tan Wilkie soon. Despite the goatee and -awful- name.....Anyways, spent all the time in A Math class drawing my new~! Bishie called Katzchen. It's a marriage made in art heaven actually. A neat combo of Audrey's and my style in drawing. It actually looks fairly good :)

I'm reading Solaris by Stanislaw Lem. It's not bad, but kinda confusing at times. And sloooooooooow....But overall nice. //guilty look// Ended up not doing anything I said I'll be doing this week. But at least I blogged!

Fell sick yesterday and Sis, you lost but by coincidence only. Surprisingly, Generieve called TWICE. Makes you wonder sometimes...Anyways, EarlCain ML is getting more interesting lately :P For one thing, they're helping me with my history homework. And Brits are NUTS. I mean, they're Gov is screwed. Top 3 screwed countries in Tsu's opinion: China, Russia and Britan. America is not Screwed, they're just Loony ^^;;;

I'm terribly bored today. Might be cause I have an A Math CA later after recess >.< I DON'T LIKE A MATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARAGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 //screams// Kafe...........

Love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki sparkled 10:44 a.m.]

Nyao Nyao

Prolly haven't updated for ages >.< I mean I've been planning to, but with all the stuff happening.....>.<

Tuesday was SO SCREWED. I woke up feeling foozy, my mom banging at me for blah blad study harder blah with a vioce that shouldn't be allowed in the morning. Found out I failed my best and fave subject. Later, had to go all the way to Sembawang for Science tuition. BAH. Anyways, felt depressive and called up Bunny who didn't feel like talking and didn't call back either. I think everyone is SCREWED. Amazingly enough, it wasn't Bunny, Tora or Alex who cheered me up but Generieve Siew aka My Grandmother wannabe *she nags* We chatted for hours and yeah, felt better after flirting with her over the phone. She's a homophobic ^^V and it's my job to tease.

*Random Funny Incident*

My IPW teacher, Mr Marc is gay. And when I was walking down from school I exclaimed -REALLY LOUDLY- "MR MARC IS GAY! HE MAKES MY GAY RADAR GO BEEP!* And guess what? He was less than a metere away....

*/Random*

Managed to survive Tuesday besides getting my ass kicked from all directions. Conked out when I got home and looked around for some sugar. Auddy has turned into a Schu fangirl and yeah, class is hell more fun //except that Judith and Joyce want to study and act grumpy all the time *wet blankets* // Suuuuuuuuuuurrrrrreee, my mental intelligence ain't as high as yours but at least I have fun~ :) Feeling very Schu/Yohji lately and it's hell fun. Of course, it just means that my language gets more and more vulgar, but do I care ? Not really. But oh well.........

Since my life has been sh!ttified, I've decided not to care too much, I mean, how much angst can you take a day? //wonders// So, I don't care if they break their promises anymore cos they break it anyways. Never trust. Getting off track, finished reading Frued's work and had a great time talking and scaring the Kafe out of the teachers. Since I'm supposed to be good and nice, I'm not saying anything incriminating except that Mr Hot and Sweaty is very teasable. Wonder if his wife knows that?

Oh...Learnt a new style of art and got allowed to do Pure Science //GANBATTE!//

Love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki sparkled 03:33 p.m.]

Energram Tests~!!!

LOL......With the craze, might as well try it out~!

Conscious self	Overall self

Take Free Enneagram Test

[Tsubaki sparkled 08:13 p.m.]

Sprees~!!!! :)

Did lots of useless things today ^^V Fun~!!! Anyways, woke up late, had half a chocolate egg from the leftover choco from yesterday and got my fingers all nice and sticky and lovely to lick off! Yummy~!

Went to download various J-rock songs aka Gackt etc....I think Gackt and X Japan still rank top for me. For anime songs nothing I've ever heard actually beats Weiss. Really. Even in Gluhen, I'm hooked ^^;;; Koyasu just sounds SO GOOD.....//drools// Hmnn....I've never liked J-pop, but Love Psychedelic is really good. Okay, I'm just bias against some ^^.......

Finished my special aniversary layout for this year~!! :) It's really pretty but I'll wait till aniversary day first. Plus maybe I can improve on it. Also finished an amazingly simple exam/school layout....I dunno about you, but exams SUCK. Yes, they really do and what I need is some good yaoi fanfics...go figure //me is deprived//

Watched Read or Die yesterday and it's RIDICULOUS....And alot like me ^^;; or so my brother says. Cos I have a habit of burying myself in a book and not getting out of it until I finish the book. It doesn't seem so bad until your daughter is -stoning- on the sofa, dirty and haven't changed or showered when she got back home and stuck in a 700 page book. *giggles* That's why my mom calls me "furniture" ^^;;;

Rearranged my image archeives because I have too many miscy images and stuff I downloaded cos "maybe I'll use it next time" which meant that it ranged from roses to lollipops ^^;; yeah...I'm a weird chick, quote Markute aka Perthie boy "little bird"......I should really upload that Iraq-American news one day. It's hell funny and techno music sucks >.<

Can't wait for Matrix to start~! The trailer looks FANTASTIC~!!!!!!!! With all this constant rain though, I can't go swimming anymore ;_; I LOVEEE! swimming, cos I'm a fish-y aka Pisces. But it doesn't really make a difference I think...I mean, I read astrology but I don't really believe it....Anyways, for the people from EarlCain ML, here's the Tarot list I complied ^^V. Happy Days~!

Fool - new journey, faith, acting as the fool
Inverse- Stupidity and ignorance

Magician - a surgeon, having the tools to succeed, craftsman
Inverse- Too much power without wisdom, recklessness

Priestess - intuition, the occult, acting alone, knowledge
Inverse - Pride, double nature, deception

Empress - pregnancy, creativity, femininity
Inverse- Dissipition

Emperor - dominance in a relationship, control, masculinity
Inverse- War, strife

Hierophant - teacher, patriarch, traditional values
Inverse - Stifling

Lovers - choices, a loving romantic relationship, wanting love
Inverse- Clinginess, unwilling to change, impluse

Chariot - car concerns, being pulled into two directions, lacking balance
Inverse - No direction, not stable or enduring

Strength - needing patience, finding strength within
Inverse-Obstanicy

Hermit - reflecting, introspection, finding answers within
Inverse - Solituide, anti-social

Wheel of Fortune - cycles of life, what comes up, must come down
Inverse - Complacency, not willing to do more

Justice - getting what you deserve, legal matters, cutting out the unnecessary
Inverse- Too much force, rigid

Hanged Man - limbo, sacrifice, being suspended
Inverse- Trapped, enforced punishment and suffering

Death - metamorphosis, transformation, end of things
Inverse- New beginnings and a break from tradition

Temperance - balance, wholeness, guardian angels
Inverse - Action without thought can be good or evil, balance

Devil - chains that bind you, addictions, possessiveness
Inverse- Obession (?)

Tower - calamity, severe change, chaos
Inverse - Courage and new truth

Star - hope, optimism, tranquility
Inverse- Dreaminess and decieved hope

Moon - hidden things, deceitfulness, gut feelings
Inverse- Voluntary change

Sun - happiness, good fortune, things are going your way
Inverse-Arrogance and riches

Judgment - old relationships, emotional baggage, past problems
Inverse - No appeal, cannot be changed

World - the end and the beginning, starting over
Inverse - Sythesis

Hope it helps~!!!

Love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki sparkled 06:13 p.m.]

Chocolate Easter Eggs recepie

//looks gulity// Okay...I REALLY love chocolate. I can't help it. As Judith once said, chocolate is better than sex ^^;;; LOL. But hey, it's kinda true :)

Chocolate Eggs

600g of chocolate (white, dark, milk any kind ^^)
6 eggshells(clean)
Fillings like chopped fruits //strawberries!// and marshmellows.

1. Melt the chocolates on the mircowave for 50 secs to 1 min. Be really careful if using white chocolate cos they tend to seize, if they seize add oil or butter/magarine.

2.Place the eggs in the carton in an upright position. Gently spoon the chocolate instead. To make it look REALLY cool, put one spoon of white and add another layer of dark. Then use a toothpick to make a marble effect~!!!! Looks really pretty. :)

3. Place in the fridge overnight ^^V. Next day, crack the shells and there you have it~! Beautiful chocolate eggs~!!

Today was pretty fun. Finished Kinematics and started Periodic Table and liked Halogens and Alkali Metals ^^V Watched Prince of Egypt which is really good and the music is fantastic. Studied more Tarot and all....//me has a weakness for fortune telling// anyways, made chocolate eggs and my shirt ended up being dirty and I kept on licking my fingers in a rather digusting way but waste not want not~!!!

Happy Good Friday~!!!

Love
Tsubaki

[Tsubaki sparkled 08:27 p.m.]

Yoz~!! I'm still alive (barely that is)

One week of no blogging, no checking of email and just is what I get : 60 emails and weird funky thoughts >.< Nyah nyah ^^.

Anyways, besides being computer deprived, I think I've not only lost weight but lost common sense too.... >.< Okay, I'm going to try to put my thoughts in order enough to make sense //not that it really works// so here it goes:

Monday
My mom took a record time of 15mins!! to wake me up. Somehow managed to walk //crawl// out of soft warm bedsheets and into my school uniform. Met up with various people and *glomped* them~!!!!!! w000t~!!! Changed where I sat in class and decided to sit near Melody and Auddy!!! FANGIRLS UNITE!!!!!!!!!!! *class is now more fun* Went for IPW and the weird funny teacher kept on flirting with me....//freaks out// He calls himself Mr Marc and after 1 frikkin month of no schoool, he still remembers my name and ack, I only attended class once. EWWWWWWW!

Tuesday
Went for Science class and felt dead tired cos the *&^% teacher's house is all the way in Sembawang. Not only that, it's a 10 mins walk from the bustop with a 8 kg bag of school books. OUCH. //me still feels sore// Anyways, practiced Kinematics again and just realized I can't remember the difference between velocity and acceleration. YUCK. Too much calculation for my taste.

Wednesday
Came home from school and literally CRASHED onto the bed and I couldn't get up. Had PE and I was so -SORE- and so tired that I cancelled Chinese tuition. Met Pyre who's pretty okay and talked to Kevyn an awful lot. I feel like screwing with people's heads. Anyways slept for hours and more hours....Felt so tired.

Today
Arraghh!!!! Finally found a good tailor!!! Gonna tailor my chobits costume for 0!!!!!!! Yayyy!! Went home in time for tuition and all. Went for lunch with Bunny and everything and was fantastic. Tried the potato thing at Delifrance and had a pretty good time.

Love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki sparkled 11:18 p.m.]

Salva Nos

"Salva Nos" aka "Save Us" from Noir OST ^^V Actually I like Canta Per Me better, but this is more approiate in these times ne?

Today was Passion Sunday's mass, I can't help but feel that Jesus is just another sadomasohistic guy who believes in destiny and the only thing that can change destiny is by sacrificing himself..I'm catholic alright...But how catholic? I dunno, prolly not. I never believed in organized religion anyways. It's too constricting and unconsciously, people give power to some unknown over them and I don't really like that.....Oh well, might be just me.

Finished Rika's essay for her cos I was bored and I -like- doing essays....Even though now I'm kinda rusty due to the lack of work. But doing that essay helped loosen whatever laziness that lingered in my brain XD At least I hope so, school's starting on Monday and I GOTTA BE SERIOUS!!!!!! >.< //arraghhh..tho//

Played Suikoden 3 most of the afternoon and finished Hugo's chapter 2 and Chris's chapter 1 and I'm now halfway into Geddoe's chapter 3. It's actually a rather short game, and easier than I thought it was. I just used the stratergy that has never failed me before aka talk to everyone to get everything. That includes sidequests, info and nice items...So all in all, it's pretty fun and I can't wait to finish it and continue ^^V I'm turning Suiko I tell you...

So what do you think of my new layout? Generally I don't like Sanzo but that eye-catchingly AWFUL aloha T-shirt caught my eye. Edited with Photoshop as usual. Main reason for doing this? School's starting. Cause that expression is -EXCATLY- how I feel about school right now... especially since I only finished part of my homework. But I'm glad to have completed my IPW and it looks really pretty cos I did matching backgrounds and all for the presentation. To me, visuals are as important as content. But that's me I guess, I prefer things with ribbons and nice paper ^^V //Tsu you spoiled brat//

Don't feel very anime-ish lately....have I lost interest? I doubt so, but cosplay has lost it's fun.^^;;; I don't really have the words to explain it but I guess that something between disappointment and plain -tiredness- has to do with it. Plus the exams are very very soon. I do hope they push it back though, cos we're not even halfway into the chapters. My sincere pity to all the people taking O levels >.< Must be -AWFUL-...//Tsu thinks that at this rate, she'll hold and gun and threaten the teacher for an A1//

Been think-ish lately, I guess that's a side effect of staying at home too much. Mostly about sterotypes. I know many *many* people who don't like sterotypes and I haven't got the faintest idea why. I mean like, "I don't like being a sterotype and therefore I shall go against it" what for? People will jsut classify you into something else, "rebel" maybe? It's POINTLESS. People will never stop trying to classify everything. Anyways, take things with a pinch of salt, if it's an old sterotype, there's prolly some truth in it even though it doesn't seem likely. Quote Seishirou Sakurazuka: "what's the point of being special when everyone is special, doesn't it make it excatly the same?"

Love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki sparkled 12:07 a.m.]

New Layout~!!

Will fix later...^^V Don't you just LOVE the colour scheme?

[Tsubaki sparkled 12:38 p.m.]