Eto......So many things so little time....
Reasons why I was so busy:

1. Peer Support , meaning I have to look after the first years, some pesky, some cute, all annoying at night.

2. CCAs. That is ELDDS, Arts Alive and Girl Guides. All three I love but ya know what? I'll kill myself if I had to do all. I'm already ill and all....

3. Pure subjects and tuition. I have Chinese Tuition, A/E Maths tuition and instead of taking sub-science, I wanted to be a doctor SO MUCH that I decided to take pure Physics and Chemistry. Ack. I even when to look for a tutor and stuff.

4.Schoolwork. MY MATHS TEACHER IS NUTS!!!!! *5 marks = sign of crazyness* Oh kafe....I don't know how to handle all...

5. Cheerleading squad. I tendered by resignation but they still want me....hell.

6. CAP. Enuff is enuff I say, that's more work than I actually want. *sighs* And I also knew why Tess didn't get selected...poor girl...*pats Tessie's head* Yep yep, Singapore are all damn homophobics and narrow minded dolts.

How am I coping? It's okay for the first few weeks, but I'm going to breakdown soon....*hears Jeepstar* Arrgah! Not that! Anyways, I'm a bit ill and surprisingly, I have a blood pressure of 50 only. That's really low cause when I run, it jumps to like 105 only??? I think it's an omen for death...Oh well.

Bunny's house is haunted. I actually want to try my onmyoujistsu there, *grins* it worked for my house. *I tried to set up a big kekkai which is really not a kekkai but works like the ozone layer, anyways, it's not even called a kekkai, it's called Ayashura.*

My relationship with Kajuat has improved. I actually like her more and Stephy isn't as dumb as I think. They gave me good advice that I should drop ELDDS and Cheerleading. I did in the end. I'm actually very tired and very human, you won't see me bouncing too much at home.

Did some short research on Mussolini the Facist dictator. Quite interesting, the difference between me and Bunny is that she believes that everyone should be in politics and I believe that everyone should be out of politics. Despite have agreements on certain political figures, I'm not in favour of dirty fighting. Not my type.

I'm going to England in June. For ten days. It's more or less confirmed already unless a terrorist starts an attack. *sighs*I still hope to meet Leareth though!! *Leareth My Love!!!!!!!* Many things are happening in June and I'm not sure whether I like them, I don't even have time to cosplay!!!! *sighs* And I was planning to sing Yuzuai and Yakusoku *kamui* too! And going as Rizelmine......This is really sad. And I have a History Workshop in Feb, which conincedes with Cosfesta. Ugh Ugh Ughhhhhhh............*makes face* Why is it that getting old means more responsibilites and hard work??? I DON'T WANT IT!!! *pushs it away* I hate this. All of this. I'm not a power hungry monger anyways.

Love
Tsubaki

what the hell..................
I'm very tired and cranky, to put it in another way, even if someone I liked came close, I would be slap-happy. Hard.

Look, give me some slack okay? I'm not perfect, and it isn't really fair that when you're down, I do my best to help but when I'm down and in the dumps, you just leave me there and grump yourself. Cause I'm human, and I just had a very hard day, if you problarly had one also, I wouldn't have given a damn cause I'm too tired to even add 2 + 2. I'm not perfect, it's just that I need a break too and it'll be really nice, if I didn't have to be nice all the time. I want to whine and cling to someone once in a while. I don't want responsibility. I just want a nap. So it'll be really better, if like, instead of me trying to make everyone happy, someone tried to make me happy. To put it in another way, friendship is a give and take, have you ever given anything without asking for something back?

I know you like your kor, hey, I like him too. But you never seem to blame him or Judith, and somehow or other, no matter how many times I try to help you, you always always prefer them first. I know life is damn unfair, but for ONCE, can you just treat me like a friend and not someone you can be with when no one else is around and leave when your favourites are in? Heck. Forget it. You didn't even bother to tell me you were sick on the second day and I thought you went to school. Yeah, you don't need to tell me EVERYTHING, just tell me the main stuff. Like I don't need to know your underwear size....I felt really bad when you didn't come to school, cause I brought your Bday present and you weren't there. Later when I called your house you just shut me off. If you were my position wouldn't you be angry too?

*rant over*

Stayed overnight in school, ate styrofoamed food, slet barely 2 hours, talked to various concrete walls aka First years, got screamed at by teachers, nearly lost my voice, sulked at by friends, ranted at by sister, danced on stage the ketchup dance, lost 1.5 kg due to running, dancing and jumping after people, drew the banner for Girl Guides, got screamed at by seniors, whined and chased by Generieve, did stacks of A Maths and E Maths work, had Maths tuition and Science tuition, shouted by her equally cranky mother *at least for a while*, finsihed research on Itaklian honur and hasn't died yet. The end.

Tsubaki