Corruption

.....................my first taste of twincest......//large sweatdrop// CORRUPTION!!!!!! //covers ears// NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 10:48 p.m.]

Welll.......entry of sorts

Sorry I couldn't blog last night, my brother was tired and so I skipped out of his room. Hope you all understand!

WHEEEE!~!!!!! Saw my Chii outfit on Friday! It looks prefect! And everything nice! The lady gave me yet another discount~ ^^;;; Maybe I should have done business instead of trying to be a doctor....Oh well, at least I know I drive a pretty good bargain. I'm collecting it 2 weeks later cos I haven't paid it all yet and don't feel too good about taking something I haven't finished paying. Might be just me ^^

My teacher told me that if I couldn't cope with all my subjects. I shouldn't be taking pure Science. I feel awful. I mean, I thought that the teachers would give me support and all, it's like they don't want me to do well................If they never give me a chance, what do I do? *sighs* It's not like I don't understand the theory or concept. I do KNOW. It's just that I fog up when it comes to tests and exam papers and always make dumb careless mistakes...........I don't understand why. >.< I mean, just give me a chance okay?

Played Suiko 3 Waahhh!!!! Finally finished Thomas chapter! Found that I actually have a taste for yaoi twincest ^^V //convert// LUC X SASARAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG! They're so cute and tragic! Plus they have angsty pasts and all that complicated thing going on, heck, they're not even human! Yay yay yay~!!!!! //dances the yaoi dance// It's so sweet I want to glomp them!!!! Unfortunately, it seems like fanfic ideas are flooding me so yeah.......UGH. Esp with the exams coming up.....T_T ust when I had a sweet and sappy Luc x Sasarai fic idea called Happy Birthday to Me also known as Stuff you can do with cake and cream. Anyways, it's not good. But it's SO GOOD! //notes that she's contridicting herself//sogoosogoodLucsogood!WAHHHH!! I want a Luc layout~

Saw something really funny yesterday at Taka. I was on my way home when I saw a HUGE CROWD gathering. Being the curious type, I went to take a look. Guess what???????? LOL. It was one of those cooking demostrations about why the pan cooks so well..blah blah and people //mostly elderly ladies// went by just to eat the food! OMG! I was so shocked. I mean, it's not like we can't afford to buy our own food, must we eat cooking demostrations (?!) cos it's FREE? //rolls over laughing// It's not actually funny....quite sad....but those ladies! It was like they've never seen food before! And this is S'pore we're talking about..............

Love

Luc-glomping tsubaki //MINE!//

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 09:56 p.m.]

GensoSuikoden RAMPAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*guilty look* Yes, I have finally decided to admit that I'm a Suiko pimp. Woohoo! Check out the quzzies!


You are Luc

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so nice to those standing in the way of his
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thought and is probably not interested in
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LUC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 09:44 p.m.]

Yay~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Over~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finished my English exam~!!!!!!!!!!! For the composition, I decided to play safe //amazing!// not write anything vaguely unnatural //wow!// and did a silly story on death and reconciliation with your parents. ^^v //clichecliche// Anyways, since most people wrote about the death of their grandma //OMG! Another cliche!// I suppose it's orginal enough.

Borrowed Auddy's Gravi book 12~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WHEEE~!!!!! YUKIYUKIYUKIYUKIYUKIYUKIYUKIYUKIYUKIYUKI!

Going to the tailor's today to check out my Chii outfit and all //heart heart// Waahhh...I like the lady and the people there are pretty nice. Feeling sort of fuzzy lately, dunno why. Like I'm not really totally -there-. I hope it 'll pass soon, cos my exams are coming up pretty fast and I have to STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!!!!! Wanna go out and play actually ^^ SHOPPING~

LUC X SASARAI!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG! He's so cute it's scary~!!!!!!!! *dies* Played Suiko 3 and he's so cute!!!! *bounces like a maniac on high* I mean, he's fantastic. Of all villians, he's prolly one of the most interesting, you get to play as him if you can get all the Stars of Destiny. Which I'm planning to do actually ^^v Must wait till exams over I guess. T_T But I want my Luc NOW!



Sasarai

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tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 01:18 p.m.]

Happy Vesak day.....

I'm not a buddhist, but Happy Vesak day minna~!!!!! //glomps Erieko// espiecally to you.

Woke up at 10-ish and went for Math tuition and had high tea~!. Lovely Russian Earl Grey with scones, devonshire cream and jam. I also saw some pink donuts ^^v. I take it as a sign of good luck. Anyways, ate an awful lot of strawberries and chocolate. Waaahhh~!!! Sugoi~! //looks at the pond of chocolate on her plate// hehehehe....

Played Suiko III somemore and my brother just HAD TO buy Enter the Matrix on the day before my exams.............EVIL. I say. ABSOLUTELY EVIL. To tempt a girl like that //smacks her brother who's laughing somewhere in his corner// EVILEVILEVIL. And my papers end in JUNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!//cries// On a note, the stuff looks great and it's FANTASTIC. They allow the "bullet time" function and you can do the same stuff //kicks, punches...etc// all on the PS2. They also have an Xbox and PC version for those without PS2s..^^v

Have English paper tomorrow, so I'm planning to sleep early and stay frsh as a daisy ^^ Wahh...that means no more ICQ or IRC until exams are over. Makes me so sad and grumpy when I think of it. To those in S'pore: Good Luck for your exams! To those who are having holidays: Shut UP and stop laughing. //kicks//

love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 05:13 p.m.]

searching for so long..............

Bah. I'm prolly one of the few people who hate Jrock and cosplay. There's nothing wrong with disliking Jrock actually, and it's a matter of personal preference. For instance, I can't stand Nora Jones or any of them. I don't like Malice Mizer or Glay. But there's nothing wrong with it. No need to pass judgement on others you know, you're not God. For your info, prejudice is used in the wrong context. It should be as such

An adverse judgment or opinion formed beforehand or without knowledge or examination of the facts.

A preconceived preference or idea.

For one thing, I have listened to them before and I really don't like it. Just they way you can't enjoy a Tartini or Strauss. So leave me alone with my Robbie Williams :P

Had PE today. It was fairly okay excapet that I had a Chinese test afterwards and that -sucked- >.< Not to mention Mr Idiot Tan went to look for ME! to put up the CCA board. WTF??????????????????? I mean I'm not even the club prez! Go look for them SLACKERS instead //highly irritated// Before I quit the comn and kill all like some Columbia high school student.

Finished somemore Miyuki parts and drew the un-inked Judith and Sei pix. Dunno whether I did a good job. Hopefully, it looks passable cos I could never draw a good seme ^^;;;;;Yeah...uke till no end. On the quality note, I used a school scanner so the quality is rather pixelated ^^;; I do apologize.

Watched Bachelor and giggled for a while ^^I dunno why I watch it. Maybe I'm turning into a bimbo XD Have tuition tomorrow and High Tea~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!w00t~! Looking forward to sleeping in actually....Mnnnnnmmm...Warm soft clean sheets, feather pillows, air con and hopefully, NO DISTURBANCES.....Dream come true for me! //heart heart// Finally a break. My English exam is on Friday and I'm not panicking. I think sometimes I feel like I'm in a cocoon and I can't come out. Reality itself is a fuzzy concept to me. I'm not making sense am I? Oh well...It's like watching yourself doing things and saying thing through something else. Like I'm concious of what I'm doing on another level. It feels weird....Cos whatever I'm doing is like I'm watching myself do it. Like I've accidently inhabited a body ^^^......


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preferred reading to going outside and because
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love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 11:28 p.m.]

eeekkkkkk~

Talked to Alex today~!! ^^ Waahhh...Havne't talked to her for a long time :) Miss you~!!! //glomps Alex// Watched Rurouni Kenshin and decided that Soujirou is still cute ^^ Yay~!!!!!! Sou-chan~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! //hearts//

Stupid Mr Tan Wilke gave me an 'order' to finish the CCA board by tomorrow....WHAT THE HELL!!!!! //kicks him hard// Thank goodness I'm a fairly even tempered person despite being high strung Oh yeah...skittles...yummmmmm...//drools// The red and the purples ones ROCK.

Had Chinese tuition and nearly died of exhaustion. What I really want is a nice day, with no work, a good cuppa and nice fanfics. Issit that hard??????? //shrugs// Anyways, on exam prepping >.< I don't want to fail and I really want to do well for the sake of my mom. While I hate pressure and expectations, I still MUST try ne? //looks pleading// please understand if I'm sulking and grumpy. I LIKE being grumpy at times too ^^

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0_o.......Am I really like that?

love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 08:40 p.m.]

Tra lala lalala

Doujin update

New chapters will be out on the weekend. Featuring new charas and a nice drawing of Hell. We also meet Neo's worst nightmare and a couple of interesting Sins. Currently, the story is so random and it's just fun :)

Phew...tired. Had Chinese CA today and found out on the day itself!!! >.< Judith also allowed me to use her for my doujin //yes yes, people are actually like that in real life// Have tuition and really wanna sketch actually. I'm turning into a complusive sketcher ^^v Oh yeah..

I PASSED MY MATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahaha....And Mr Tan thought I'll fail. Amazing ain't it? And I did pretty well too ^^v anyways, have chinese Tuition today (unfortunately) so I have to go now. Will post I home I promise.

love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 04:01 p.m.]

Since we're all poetic about it

My turn~!!!

Chinese Class

Chinese class is yucky all the words are junk
while the students dig their noses and eat the gunk
I sit and wait for the bell to ring, doodling my bish
wishing at that very second for a big mallet and squish the teacher to ISH.
I wanna say I understand
I wanna say I pass
I wanna say my mom's not gonna cane me
when she sees my marks
I can't help but wondering, why we're doing this
whether it matters whether I'm Cheena
Whether it matters to keep tradition
Who cares?
I'm a bananna

Math

I stare at the graph paper, waiting for my miracle
Hopeing for understanding
Praying for the bell to ring
While the f-cking coordinates look back at me unblinking
Stupid Mr Tan
You Hot and Sweaty
Pespiring the Nigara Falls
While your voice reaches a new height with "GIRLS!"
Too bad for you no one likes your curves
No one likes your curves
No matter where you draw'em

Dancin' On Reality TV

I'm dancin' on reality TV
A million here a million there
what is it to me?
I get all dirty in Survivor
where I wear my bikini
smiling my way through the game
preaching my honesty
Too bad for you, I know what you did
You ate the last of the chicken
and kicked me outta the game
I know you call me "HONEY"
I know you smoocher-face
Kissin' every girl sweet lips
In the Bachelor game
Who sits with you on the hot tub
You flirts back with you everyday
I thought you loved me
You actually thought you did
Truth to tell I know you
Saw you kissin the mirror yesterday night, you PRICK
You ego is larger than the sky
And so thank god, you never became mine
We ran the world together
You whined your way through
I carried your backpack
While you sat there neighing
Zack I'm so tired, can we take a break
Oh please sir, just don't marry her
You'll never get away
think of the nagging
think of the years
It's FOREVER darlin
So just dump her

//rap//
So I'm dancin on my million
I'm flying the sky
Doing my tap dance
Eating my popcorn
all on
TV

highly weirded tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 10:41 p.m.]

Fini~

Finished both my commissions and watch Parent Trap. I swear, it is damn corny and hilarious~! Something funny happened today and someone gave me a really nice comment! ^^v //sankyuu// Went for Cathechism class and humilated Adam again. I swear, he LIKES it. That freaky guy likes it when I put him down. NUTS. >.< Unfortunately, many think that he's somehow attracted to me.....UGH. I mean like UGH. Personally, I made a promise to myself a) Never date a cosplayer b)Never date your brother's friends c) Never date someone from chruch....Yes yes...I AM picky. Esp when it comes to guys...My mom says I'm a perfectionist somewhere despite being messy ^^;; I mean, I didn't even try to flirt or anything. And I ALWAYS sleep in church and ALWAYS wear my brother's t-shirts and clothes. Looks more like pajamas than anything else....WEIRD.

Nice compliment came from someone I haven't met for a long time.....She said I was pretty~!!!! //glomps// Sankyuu ^^ I thought I looked -TERRIBLE- mainly cos I just woke up and cvery very stressed. Stress comes from exams which give you zits. Here's the equation :

Exams + Stress = Zits + bad temper

Yes yes, all you have to do is to flatter me and I'll prolly do anything. Yep, I'm vain, so??? Made chocolate sheets with peppermint today. ^^v Tastes like After 8~!!!! And it's fantastic! :) My sis baked mergines and it's like a cross between a marshmellow and sugar crystalled candy floss. I LIKKKKEEEEE....................

Okay..haveta take a shower.

Love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 09:51 p.m.]

Additional Trouble

Finished studying for A Math~! WOOT! Sucks to you Mr Tan. Anyways, I plan to pass for the first time in kafe years ^^v //yes, I CAN study//

Arraghhhhh!!! Yes, Auddy I feel your pain!!!~~~~!!! I can't believe they split us up!!!!! >.< Stupid idotically principled Judith >.< //runs through her list of russian curses// I mean, just shift in front! It won't kill you and if you're SO! irritated at the nosie we make, go there. Plus you're the kind who STUDY and listen......//play play play// What the DONUT! you know.....

Found an unforeseen problem in uploading mp3s. Apparently to curb the flow of mp3s, they don't allow you to upload to the server. DAMN! So there's only 1 mp3 up and I'll make it into an image gallery or something. Or a Sei-chan shrine~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! //hearts//

Yesterday was pretty funny, Marianne and Sandy //whom I'm sitting with atm// have just found that I blush an awful lot and it was pretty funny.

Love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 04:30 p.m.]

SITE

Okay....ALL DOUJINSHIS HAVE BE SHIFTED TO MY WEBSITE. It's at HERE. Sorry for any inconvience >.< GOMENASAI~!!!!

love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 10:41 p.m.]

New Chapters~! And bloggage~

First things first...

Miyuki files
Chapter 4 Coverpage (Neo and Miyuki)
Chapter 4
Chapter 5 coverpage (Sakura~!XD)
Chapter 5
Chapter 6 coverpage (Neo)
Chapter 6

entry

Waa~!!! I think we should be like the world's fastest artists ^^;;; Had unagi hotpot and it was soooooo yummy~!!!!! Went to the X meeting and tried not to yawn >.< I don't mean to be rude, but it -is- boring. Went to Kinokuniya and collected the art supplies for Arts Aliveand I'll draw the stuff out tomorrow as well as my commission. Apparently, having a doujin has a GOOD side effect, that is....everyone suddenly loves your work and comissions you!!!! Yayyy~!! Need the cash anyways~ What a piece of luck! :)

Watching Father of the Bride 2 and it's hilarious~!!! LOL It's really funny and both the mom and the daughter get pregnant at the same time. Makes you warm and fuzzy inside ^^ Okay, I need to go and eat popcorn~

love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 08:18 p.m.]

SCANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Warning : All done in Math classes and therefore of lousy quality and coloured mainly in pencil. We do not take any responsibility of brain damage or any fluids leaking out of your brain in random mindless horror. Infringement is allowed but please don't steal it //who would want to anyway?//

LINKS
Cover page Chapter 1 "Mystical Adventures of Miyuki and Donut-samam"
Chapter 1
Chapter 2 Cover Page (Mika-chan)
Chapter 2 (Miyuki appearance)
Chapter 3 cover page (wanna ride a Nut?)
Chapter 3 (Enter the Realm)

Okies~!!! Just wait till you see Neo and his NeoPet. //gasp!// and the man which everyone likes....//drumroll//SAKURA!

love
tsubaki~XD

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 10:29 p.m.]

LIME MINT!

Bought Lime Mint Mentos today~!! ^^ I came to school at 7 am and went to SLF building to buy lime mentos and managed to get back in time for flag rasing! My friend said I was nuts until she tried it. It's absolutely -DELICIOUS- and wonderful for classes.

Had Civics and Moral Ed exam today. What we did was just lie and pick anything that sounded good. Like one of the questions was like "If your neighbour drities your laundry, what do you do?" a)Shout at her b)Don't say anything c)Ask her politely not to do it again d) report her to the police.......It's pretty DUH. It didn't help that now with the seating by register numbers, Auddy and I are split up!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOO...........Miss all the fun >.< And Math is so boring now.

Another chapter of Miyuki UP! Yay yay yay~!!! Auddy promised to scan it so I'm gonna BUG her until she scans it. LITERALLY. //clings to Auddy and shouts "scan!scan!scan!// Most people seem to like it and I've switched from Graph paper to plain paper cos it looks more professional. All the earlier chapters will be in Graph paper though, cos it's -our- work and we're proud of it. Despite the apparent mess and the fact that unless it's a high qual scan, you can't see much. //Me tried not to cram though//. So yeah.....Tomorrow it'll be UP! //Countdown//

Got Arts Alive today and I can feel a pimple coming....It really stresses me up but I love the members //not the execs// so it's fine by me. Gotta go now! It's //GASP// 2.30pm! LATE!

Love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 02:12 p.m.]

bored like no one's business

Added another chapter to Miyuki story. It's becoming rather popular in school and class //Natz loves it and so does most of my classmates// Most of them don't mind helping out with a chapter or chara or 2, so it looks messy but at least it's HELL interesting. And done on graph paper..

I think I might transfer it to normal paper soon but that means I have to redraw everything!!!!!!! //in tears// It's beautiful and I sincerely love it, but it's not good quality. I love the wacky charas like Neo, Sakura and Miyuki. Yes, even Miyuki, whom everyone seems to like after a while. Then there's the Twins Mizuki and Ryuchi and tons of funny stuff like the 42 Gods . Or the City where Luc, Mika, Gabe and Raph live. T_T If you really don't mind looking at graph paper, done in -colour pencils- and sketchy like -HELL- then I'll upload it. Cos it's really not quality. Even if I edited with photoshop, it looks horrid >.< Gomenasai. I will continue the next chapters on blank paper...


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Love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 03:29 p.m.]

hee-yahh!!! Donuts desu~!

Seems like the doujin was a success~! I'll scan it this week end then... Please remember we did it in class and therefore, it looks like mush. And it's also kinda messy and has Graph lines all over ^^;; So please be kind to me and my poor server...

Learnt a new word squidge!!! Sounds wonderful doesn't it??? It's a cross between a glomp and everything nice~!!! //hearts// I LIKE it!!!

Anyways me, Natz and Auddy has signed up for a domain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's called holydonuts.net Yatta!!! I like it~!! And it'll have 100 MB of space //hearts// waaahhh...we'll pay by paypal~!!

//random thought//

Looks like I'm feeding everyone in the comp lab with MENTOS. LOL. Seems like most people like orange and everyone likes mint. Why doesn't anyone like the Lime ones???? And Joyce has a -BIG- appitite

//end random thought//

Anyways, know I'm so happy today??? NO MATH CLASSES! Yay~!!!!!!!!!!!!!~!~!~!~!~!~Except that I have Chinese tuition T_T Oh well~! Anyways, time to add a new chapter of Mytiscal Adventures of Miyuki and Donut-sama

love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 10:39 a.m.]

y = mx + c <<< Stuff I hate

Had Math today. Both types! Arraghhh....Add Math is bad enuff but with double Elementary Math!!!! >.< To entertain myself and Auddy as well as annoy everyone else. I started my own doujinshi, I'll never scan it, cos it's down on Graph paper and there's the green lines all over it ^^;;; It's called "Mystical Adventures of Miyuki and Donut-sama". Generally, we just used every cliche we could think about from Moses (bible) to Anime Schoolgirls (tm). It's about a girl named Miyuki who was going home from school, Tomodachi High and met a Burning Donut! //gasp// It has enough cliches to make anyone happy ^^V and it's all blasphemy~!

//Log Random excrept from Miyuki.file = YES//

School just ended at Tomodachi High and the bell sounds //Dum Dum Dumdum...//

Miyuki : Bye bye Mizuki-chan!!! *waves*
Mizuki : See you tomorrow~!

//Miyuki has dark blonde hair that falls past her blue sailor school uniform. Her eyes are the colour of skies and has a matching blue ribbon in her hair//

Miyuki : Lalalala~!!! //walks home with the sakura trees blowing behind//

SUDDENLY.........

//boing boing...rolls//Miyuki: Eh? ?_?
Miyuki : MASAKA!

Miyuki: It's the BURNING DONUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! //shocked expression//
BURNING DONUT : TAKE OFF YOUR SANDALS. YOU ARE ON HOLY GROUND.
Miyuki : Anooo....?_? I don't wear sandals~ I wear shoes!!~~!~! :)

SIENCE.......................

BURNING DONUT : FINE THEN. // angery marks// TAKE OFF YOUR SHOES.
Miyuki : Haiz~!!!!! //image of sparkling shoes//
Why are all schoolgirls blonde, long haired, blue eyed and bimbotic???????? - BURNING DONUT

BURNING DONUT : MIYUKI! YOU ARE THE............

//End Random Story Miyuki.file? = YES//

Hahahaha.....Well. I ahven't continued yet ^^;;; But it's harder than I thought. Drawing illustrations are HELL EASY but a real doujinshi?? Arraghh.. There's panelling and wording and everything....Maybe I'll scan it if people really want it ^^v But it's done on Graph Paper with my school's name on top so it looks kinda weird...Oh yeah. See how many cliches you can find!~! :)

love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 03:25 p.m.]

NEW SERVER~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YATTA YAY!!~!!!~!~!~ My brother has a new domain with 200 MB of space *me steals space* If I bug hime to give me at least 10 MB I can start my Mp3 site!!!!!! Yayyy~!!!

Felt sick yesterday and my mom says I'm down with a -Flu- >.< //sneezes// Even worse, I'm allergic to most of the things in school. So it sucks >.< Bunny overslept today so I had to pick her up and when she called I was -still- asleep......^^;; //lost sleep today// Judith taught me some Fench today like J'ramanei -something, le poisson, le papillon......Papillon means Butterfly and it sounds like a nice layout title ^^v Apparently, the French are such -GOOD- kissers because the language is one hellva tongue-twister >.< Literally......

Au Revouir et amour

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 11:05 a.m.]

La Trivivata

Sometimes, I just wonder whether it's a damn parody or not. In an instant, I feel like that chara from La Triviata. To quote "The carnivalers free wheeled as her head laid on the window pane, with blood on her lap. Sounds of jovialitry echoed in the slient room". I can't remember it execatly, but I did remember the scene. Oh yeah, it's in Italian, therefore, my translation is off >.<

I wonder you know, whether people who have never sacrificed anything has the right to blame others as selfish.....

I miss the days where everything seemed perfect Okay...I prolly just in denial about growing up. I mean, I know what to do, how to do and do it well too. I just wonder why I put up wth something I don't even know. I don't purposely don a mask nor do I have any intention of hurting someone. Then why do I put it on in the first place? I don't understand...................I'm -always- happy and cheerful. I'm -always- noisy and childish. I'm -always- immature. Why all the "always'es? Even my mother thinks I'm like that sometimes. Yesterday I was just thinking quietly and my mom thought I was sick cos I was so quiet. Acually, I -am- quiet. Just that people never seem to notice and never like me quiet. I -like- being morose. But everyone seems to see it as I dunno...some weird forever happy person. I don't even know -WHY- I try to please them. Heck, I don't even sound happy to myself.

Maybe what I need is not here or not anywhere. Should I give up my dreams and place my expectations of myself lower?? While I'm sounding teenage-y and angsty, isn't funny how people seem to want to help people like me with misconceptions? Take for example Hikaru. I met him over the net and we met. Frankly, I'm not in any danger. He asked about me and I answered as truthfully as possible. Most people after hearing my background have this idea to pity me. And when we met, he had the shock of his life. He thought I was some I dunno..sad pitiful forlorn being with a cynicism to match. He -ABSOLUTELY- didn't expect the Real Me. That was funny, but pretty sad too.

List of Things to Do:
Study CHINESE!
Fix Blog
Get over it and stop whining
Right....I'm whining. I'm still wondering why is it wrong to whine. Suuure...I'm more fortunate than most people in war-stricken countries. But it doesn't matter where you are or who you are everyone has problems. So whine all you like, complain all you like. But GET OVER IT. //kicks self//

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 02:30 p.m.]

Falling is so hard to do

Tried perving people again and it didn't really work well. Bunny tore my pinafore cos I smacked her butt at least I'm pretty pervy though I can't do the perv look >.< Oh well...I can excatly go for plastic surgery can I?

Anyways, like the new layout? It's Subaru from X~ and I really like it ^^V Unfortunately, it takes ages to download the image. So,gomenasai minna!!!!!! Until I learn how to slice and dice and lower the quality >.<

Love

tsubaki

[Tsubaki sniffed sakura 10:26 p.m.]