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*sighs* Bunny..........I don't know whether to kill you and feel good cause it's mercy killing or not. Cause I have a feeling that jumping of a certain, tall building in CBD district sounds like fun.

Anyways, life when it was just getting good got messy again. Anyways, THANK YOU Masako-san for.....uhh...you know. (And so does everyone else) and then there was Bunny *I still haven't slaughtered you yet* and then there was school and everything else.

Bunny, people care about you okay? Judith does, everytone is in the fricckin debate team worries about you. Look, they even went to my class to look for me and talk to me. Damnit! You can try to compartmentalize your life all you want but it's not going to work. They really do care, so give them a chance. You can't sit there moping all the time even to me cos you're angry and you "don't want to talk about it". I'm not blaming you, but you have to understand that people can't read your mind. From what they told me, you didn't even tell them that you're not coming for practice. So what are you complaining about? Of course they'll treat you like sh*t if you behave like sh*t. Don't be stupid okay? *hugs* And pleassseeeeeeee..........you're not a guy you don't need that much pride.

I'm offically quitting cosplay soon. I'm actually sick of all the emotional baggage it brings. I have enough trouble without looking for more. Despite the fact that I love anime and absolutely LOVE cosplay, it's too much. I'm tired. I'm 15. I can't wait to be shipped off to UK and have a break.I prolly would have continued cosplay and all, but I think I need to go. My mother already is quite unhappyu, cause all her colleagues have been terrorizing her and I can't stay in S'pore anymore. It's in the safest country I feel most unsafe. I know running away and trying to please everyone is not going to help. But I have to. Everytime I walk to school I'm always the nutcase. Everytime I go to church it's Chris's little sis. Everytime I go shopping in Orchard, I bump into one of my relatives. And now, with cosplay in tow, I'm suddenly almost a celebrity in school. What the hell?? I hate it, and unlike some people, I really mean it. I don't want attention, it just so happens that my favourite craft and hobbies happen to catch it that way. Is it too much to ask for that some people to leave me alone?

Well, anyways, I'm going. Or going to try. I'm going ask my dad tomorrow for cash and permission to leave for UK College after my O Levels. Maybe there I'll be me. Maybe I'm finally be something else besides nutcase Tsubaki. Look I'm not. I probablary have more sense than some people and I wish everyone in S'pore best of luck. There's no point in staying anymore. Most of the cosplayers are leaving *Taihiti, Aust et al*, I feel cooped up in S'pore and nothing really ties me here. Even school is changing. My favourite teachers are gone too....So this is my last year in cosplay. Strange ne? I thought I'll be doing it forever, oh well...everything comes and goes and changes. Maybe I'll stay, maybe I won't. Only if suddenly a new realization came I guess. I doubt it though. Cutains always close.

Love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki glomped Leareth 01:45 p.m.]

With Love

To: Mrs Janet Lim, Literature teacher for Sec 2 and 3

Dear Mrs Lim,

I don't really know where to start. How much I have to thank you for all the things you've done for me. Remember when I was in Sec 2? I was problarly the worst student you had, I disrupted every lesson and scored so badly in Sec 1 that my mother gave no hope or me to pass Lit in Sec 2, but for some reason, you saw potential in this student and polished her. Amazingly enough, it paid off. I passed my Sec 2 Lit with flying colours and topped the classed for Lit, but having played a fool and not studied for anything else, I entered into a unsuitable class that didn't have any Lit or History. You saved the day, you went to plead for my case and got me into the place where I am now....No words can ever explain the thankfulness I feel for all the gifts you've given me. Th joy of reading a book enchanced my the knowledge which you have given me *literal devices, remember the times you went through to explain what diction meant and how to write out what we felt properly?*, the care and concern you've given me despite the fact that I was pretty wild and all, and about as polished in writing as a raw stone was. And most of all, you cared.

Every year, I leave teachers and have new ones as I grow older. None of them has made such an imapact as you did. Maybe I was unlucky, and did not get any good ones. But when you came, it was realization that yes, there WAS better teachers, and yes, they CARED enough to get you into a good class even if you're still a Keep In View case. I seem to have so many things to say and not enough words to do it properly..........I wish you the best of luck and good health in whatever that you do. Call me selfish, but I can't help but hope that you'll stay.

Maybe once in a while, you'll remember fondly of a student who made enough noise to drown a soccer match, or what you call "bouncy bouncy girl with a ribbon on her hair". Maybe you'll remember the first time you walked into 2/7 and the way the class insulted that Lit was "digusting" and no one liked it. How you changed it all. Maybe you're think further and remember the wacko who played Who wants to be a Millionaire, you gave her a 10 second count and due to pressure *so she says* lost, how she could not remember if Pluto was closer or Mecury was closer.

Whatever it is, whatever it may be, I will remember fondly of a teacher who saw potential in a scruffy schoolgirl.

With love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki glomped Leareth 10:16 a.m.]

Violation

STUPID NEKO..............*scowls darkly* She BITE me!!!!!!!! I feel so so...violated. *pouts* DON'T LIKE YOU.

Anyways, I have finally come up with a convincing argument that I can go for the 23 March cosplay. What my mom doesn't need to know is that a)My outfit shows too much b)It's very obscene c)I'm goning to lookdiff so she won't recognize me. So currently it's Bunny, Tora, Rika *doubling* and me who are going as various Rikkus. Hehehe....

Have Chemistry tuition up to 6.30 today...;_; Waaaa~ I don't really want to go but I don't have much of a choice....And he lives all the way in Sembawang~!>.< Ughuuu...ack.

Wanted to scare the AMath teacher today cos he can't teach and is very....uhh...that kind. Didn't really work but he was freaked. I suppose that's good enough, go Auddy~! Drew a kawaii picture of Kotenku and gave him to Addy cos she did well for Math and I absolutely can't stand it. I have a feeling that I did pretty badly for Lit but who gives a damn? Didn't study so I'm gonna call Lady Luck :P

Everyone says my layout is yummy~! Sankyuuu~!!!*bows* Yep yep ice ka-chang!!!!!!!! Auddy has a Garvi layout too, I think for 23 I'll have a Rikku layout, cos that's what I'm cosplaying. ^^V Go us! Anyways, have Chem test today too >.< after that have chem tuition. Doesn't really make sense but oh well....Actually, I feel like slacking...Finidhed my IPW presentation with is SO PRETTY. I purposly mad a background to make people understand both the visual and auditory thingy. Anyways it's now nice and pretty. Though war isn't excatly pretty unless you're sadistic or George Bush who only wants oil to stop America from getting into a serious recession. So he accordingly starts a war. A$$HOLE. Anyways, the news will be out on the 17 March. Remember vengance is not a good thing. It only comes from the bloody catholic church.

Love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki glomped Leareth 10:35 a.m.]

What can I do for you????????? *singing~*

Waahh.....seems like Rika and Bunny are really into this!!!! Since it falls on March 23 *holiday!* Might be able to skip tuition!!!! Whheee~! *throws her Science books where the Sun doesn't Shine*

Check out Rika's link!!! I just put her on my blog list~!!! Go Rika!

Anyways, more anime fans seem to be sprouting up in school. If Rika is wearing her dark Chii outfit for Sec 4 Prom Night, I'm wearing Light Chii's winged not so /revealing/ outfil. I think myu mother would diiiieee, if she saw what I'm planning to wear in March. *pokes Bunny* Hoi, I'm still Rikku too XD and Rikkus don't whine, so stop whining like this afternoon's assembly.

Finished school awhile ago. Since we're moving, I just realized I'm in St Gaberiel's. Whheee~!! Kawaaii tenshi~! Anyways, I'm prolly gonna need to wake up at 5am if I get in class in time. THE PLACE IS HUGE!!! Ack. We even have 2 fields damnit. How am I goning to slack?!?!? *me sees herself losing alot of weight* I'm prolly gonna be late for all my classes >.< Ack.

Love

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki glomped Leareth 02:20 p.m.]

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHI-A-WASE!!!!!!!!!!!

*looks happy!* Waaa~! HAPPY! *bounces around* You like it?! Like!!!!! *smiles happily* *continues hopping*

Sugar high today~! ^^V So happy! Anyways, today is my brother's bday and he loves my pressie~! *thanks her bro for V for Vendetta. Haven't had time to finish all the layout details but school's ending soon so YAY! I hope you like the layout~! I LOVVVVEE IT!. Gravitation RULES! :) (: *smiley all over* It's all my fave colours with my fave look. Pinky purple and all rainbowy~! <3_<3 *heart heart* New emocon~!! Love da hearts yaeaaahhhhhhhhh!

I'm feeling utterly BOUNCY. Couldn't stop hopping, bouncing. jumping et al today. Kept tapping my pencil too~! *new habit learnt* Even A Math seemed fun today~!!!:) Pronounced to the Whole Wide World aka WWW that "I LOVE LEARETH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" half a zillion times and feeling happy! When Leareth is happy, Tsu is happy! ^^V

Saw alot of strange looks today, might be cos they think I'm insane yea. *^^* See, even the emocons have pom poms~!! :) Happy today~!

Sapphy bought the Angel Cage artbook. Waaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh~! I want it too!! *looks green but happy* Bleh. Lemme see, K?

Anyways, I plan to be the Perfect Boyfriend for Leareth. Within 3 weeks, I WILL be perfect!!!!!!!!!!!! :) ^^V

Kor's bday cake was marble cheesecake, I think I'll go home for nice lunch <3_<3! Anyways, having so much fun! Have IPW on Wednesday and gonna finish the project by sometime this week so that we can meet on Friday with everything done. YAY!

We're doing cinematopgraphy. Not animation but video. Cos animation won't look nice for this. Our poem which we're supposed to turn into a video is War Photographer which is beautifully bittersweet. :P I LIKEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeee...........:) Anyways, we just need to detail it and we're nearly done on the storyborad and planning. Go US!

Love *and many sparkles*

Tsubaki

[Tsubaki glomped Leareth 10:14 a.m.]

New day~!

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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got it from Toraneko's. Will type more on Monday since I'm busy studying chemistry.

Tsu

[Tsubaki glomped Leareth 09:19 p.m.]