because I can't seem to sleep tonight
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tell me you love me as we dance this magical song
Songs filled with the rejoices of the smiling dead
the skeletons make such lovely drumming don't they?
tell me you love we as the music continues on
and as I spin you on your too-tight shoes please kiss my deadly lips
-last smile-
and together we'll be together forever darling
(though we're underage to sleep in a coffin)
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for some reason
skeleton sex strikes me as kinda cute lol
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pinkopoufyripples
-poupoupoupoupou-
the bubbles that float up in the sky
glass balloons that go wah!wah!whah!
the ruffles of your pinkopoufydress
spin and smile and twirl and sparkle
(with a magic wand poking my eye)
*hug*
and marmalade tastes sweetest on lips
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I don't feel like writing or sleeping
And it's a little weird to start illustrating at this hour
but fooooooook! it
no one talks to me anyway
ja~
+tsu waited for you at 12:09 a.m.+
pinkpufferpoufly~
Listening to: Dir en Grey
*plugs*
IdN is the COOLEST conference ever. EVER.
More designers/square metre than anywhere else on Earth.
If you want to know what's it like, it's almost like a Dir en Grey concert. People pre-book their tickets. People FLY IN from insane distances ranging from Sweden to M'sia. There are long, snaking queues. There are FANGIRLS and FANBOYS (honestly the latter is scarier) And most importantly, like pre-concert shirts, IdN sells pre-conference books.
I spent $175 on the spot.
And if you really want to know....
I only have $1 left in my pitiful bank account.
*sniffles*
tsu is poor!
BUT! I got fantastic stuff. If I could, I'll spend even more. There were designer beanbags (like handbags, but comfy-er) by FAILE and other people. The usual mess of shirts (handprinted silkscreen), toys, computer programmes etc etc Honestly the only thing I wanted was the beanbag and the books. *sadly* Gave up the beanbag in the end because PRETTY!BOOKS are love~ I bought Illusive (illustrations), Best of 2005 Ad Photographers (photography) and as a bonus, The Great Escape which is many different kinds of medium with a concept of "dreams" around it.
They're really beautiful na~
Especially Illusive~
It's handbound and cloth covered~
so pretty~<3<3<3
Was looking for Vivienne Westwood's photography book but no catch *sighs* I'm really happy with the stuff though~ Broke. But happy! :D The screenings were great, and the music videos were so gorgeously vector-ed and illustrated. The one I liked best was called "Smile" which was so cool! OMGZ split-time frame! Collage effect! <3<3<3 Watched previews and demos of stuff, played the interactive games, mixed my own vinyl (DJ = fun!) watched a live band, sprayed my own graffiti, watched silkscreen print i.e. seriography which is kinda cool....Must remember cause it's within my means to do, since it's sort of halfway between fine arts and design.
And it's here you really learn the difference between fine arts and design. It's not just the people or the ubercool vibes, it's the method of doing too.
Hasty Mr James would say, lol. But that's the truth. The real difference is the speed. Designers, I realize, they do don't exactly solve problems, the main goal for them is to create a work with "ME" stamped on it. They think in terms of creating and displaying which is really cool, but kinda strange for me (I'm not trained in this k? my thinking is different). So designing is usually a lot faster, because it's driven on originality and individuality.
Fine arts isn't. Really. Originality isn't as important as aesthetics and individuality is well....it's in terms of style but it isn't as paramount as design. Because fine art is about problem solving. Take Realism as an example. Painters felt that using realism too much lost the fluidity of light, therefore it lost the sensation of being "alive" or "truthful" image. So what happened was Impressionism, which is painted in plein air (open air) within a limited time. See? Problem solving. They're not really here to create as in chase after an ideal or vision. And it's not really about individuals, because well, when one person finds a new method it just spreads and it becomes a "movement".
Other than that they're basically alike.
But because individualism is such a very cool thing
I suppose that's why there's more designers now.
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*shrugs*
I'm not really jealous with designers, even if audy thinks I am.
It's more like I wish I could think like that too!<3 rather than envy. Envy is destructive, and I knowst it.
I'm slightly sad, but okay.
I mean, I've never liked being alone.
And I hardly see anyone now.
It feels weird to be so isolated at first. You miss people. You miss talking. You miss sharing. Then after a while it fades, and you can barely remember what's it like, what's it like to be in a crowd. You forget that there's an outside, because you're now softly inside and it life just zeros and stops for you.
I feel a lot like that.
I sleep a lot.
And when I wake up, I just go back in again.
That edgy sense-what sense? of unreal
And after a while, it's okay now
You just breeze through it
like a singular puff of wind
And in the end
The only thing that remains is beautiful
(I sound like gackty! o.O)
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Sunset was beautiful~ all streaky pink and dusky violet with stormclouds gathering and dark trees all shadowed against the brilliant sky.
for a second
I didn't love you anymore
Okay going to start fic-writing
mou! spent 2 days with sakky we SLACKERZ
to sakky: nyao~moumoumou~ *nibbles*
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 11:15 p.m.+
sickuman! sickuman!
*giggles*
I think sakky should be considered like, legitimately a foster child considering this is the 3rd? 4th? house she's staying over at ever since her stalker!grandma arrived.
Anyway! Life is just peachy~ (or strawberry, if you prefer)
Sis is a little foul-tempered though, honestly I don't know what her problem is. Mom leaves for India and poof! she turns into my mother. And sulks. And sulks. And sulks. And sooner or later she'll blog on and on about how she's feeling ignored and "nothing's changed" but that's simply because she refused to watch Taxi with us, or Waterboys or go out and cancel tuition. Goodness knows na~
For someone who thinks she's more mature than 3/4 of her class, she sure is acting childish now.
Anyway, generally fun fun fun! :D
Waterboys is hilariously gay and funny and I LOVE!<3 the tranvestite Mama-san who pinchuuuu the poor guy's butt ahahaha. And Taxi is like Burnout Takedown. Like the car chase scene was woah! with a 10 car pileup. I'm pretty sure I even saw a signature takedown! (The Riveria one)
Am now up to Gorgeous Carat 73 and utterly besotted with yaoi_daily's Ayawase no Diamond Life which is basically a shounen manga about baseball which is so lovely and smutty that I nearly cried when Jinnai was being such a.......*fumes* such a MAN! It's almost as bad as Azura's Super Seme-ness...that whole thing with pulling bullets out is damned freaky man. Just hurry up and DIE! damnit.
It's nice to cheer yaoi fandom with someone else around.
Had bandung icecream with raspberry 7-up and it tastes amazing! PINKY! FROTHY! (even the foam was pink) and absolutely yummy with pizza. <3<3<3~ Life is good with pinkyfrothylove~
Oh and we listened to Evil Seasame Street things and Namie Amuro and Madonna and other whacked out stuff and watched MTV and gheyp0rn and Bleach and Anthony Bourdain and cooked dinner which tasted surprisingly good and fairly normal.
Soba is <3
love (hugs to everyone!)
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 08:34 p.m.+
*insert rambly title*
I think I'm in love with beautiful.
Cancel that, I am in love with beautiful
Which is why I'm going to say once and for all that ellipses are the COOLEST! SEXIEST! puncuation ever invented.
Yeps, it beats Shinya wearing panties *PANTIES!*
Ellipses are cool okay? They can mean like "....." as in "you-IDIOT!" or "......" as in "OMFG I LURVEEEEE YOU!!!" or end every single line of a fic so it trails off (and everyone gets sick of you and it)
Ahhhhh I make no sense and it's 4am in the morning!!!! *bashes self* I'm obsessed with videogamerecaps and decorating houses. Like vanilla icecream! and blooooogum.
I just keep thinking of Robert Henri and Gackt-speak. The whole "a beautiful thing is always beautiful etc" and in the depths of my sleep-deprived, icecream craving mind it actually makes sense in a deep philosophical way. LOOOOL.
Anyway I've decided that art noveau reminds me a lot like audy and I haven't made my christmas list yet. And I really want a new bolster and pillow for christmas because I think mom stole mine that's why I can't sleep anymore. And I forgot to read asterix. I think I'll go read it now and crave for icecream somewhere. Or I'll just sit around and cry because tsu badly wants icecream but can't find any. T_____T
I want mushy bandung (rose syrup) icecream with pistacho and chocolate syrup with Schnapps cream soda.
Talking about cream soda, I have a bone to pick. WHERE'S MY SCNWEPPES' CREAM SODA?!?!?!? It's like F&N has taken over the world or something. Look. They make great coca cola, they make decent miranda orange but they make piss ass icecream that tastes like synthetic shit. I miss my green-can cream soda that tastes like real cream soda and you can drink it with persimmons and think of islands in Thailand and fishing. And it tastes better than any cream soda I had in my life so where art thou, Schweppes????
I mean they have tasteless soda water, weird Bitters and other fugly tasting stuff by Schnapps, so why don't they have my cream soda????
For those wondering what I'm talking about, go:
http://www.pepsicharlotte.com/Schweppes%20Logo.jpg
Yes they belong to the Cadbury-Schweppes brand that does Snapple as well.
Argh I'm so irritated.
I actually think they stopped making it.
WTF man? That was their best tasting product.
As in a soft drink I'll actually drink.
I'm so desperate I'm actually thinking of getting it at eBay SG.
My belief is that if people drank more cream soda, they won't get so much caffine highs.
That's it.
If I see it tomorrow, I'll just pounce
and buy the entire sixpack darnit.
Nothing like cream soda and persimmons to make you think of Sumilan Islands.
Besides an unholy craving for ice-cream and cream soda, I seriously need to consider like; moving my butt out of the house once in a while. But somehow, superslackdom/reclusive living/watching anime all day agrees with me, so I'm disinclined to do much but bum around and bother my sister when I'm actually awake and coherent. Once in a while I'll open a .txt file which invariably leads to 2-finger fic typing which leads to roughly 2 lines/hour due to phone calls, TV, anime anime anime and useless pastimes like staring at Seishirou-san's worshippable hotness
Yay! My life is offically uncool but one which Garfield would be proud of (so shoot me. Deep down, I KNOW you're jealous cos you're stuck in school/job/lousy relationships while I'm sprawling over my fluffy imported bedsheets and thinking about hot slashy man!sex)
Anyway, I'm going back to asterix.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 04:05 a.m.+
Spaghetti
I'm cooking lunch tomorrow, and doing spaghetti. Okay, so it's just sis and I, but my sis = judge + gineua pig. Therefore, I'm researching on spaghetti reciepes that can fufill what we both want. She wants beef, but I like my pastas light. As in toss and eat kind. She likes hers with huge amounts of thick gravy. *dies* So okay. It's a challenge I'll willing to take.
Chopped tomatoes, minced beef with peas tossed with garlic, olive oil and folded with mozzerella cheese. Dressing is the usual trio of lemon, pepper and paprika with a toss of Italian seasoning and a dash of sesame oil. It's just so fragrant desu na~ I think I can cook everything in a pot. ^^v Less washing!
She's doing dinner since sakky is coming over and sakky is skinny and needs to be fed well. LOOOL.
I actually like peas y'know? It's so weird. I hate carrots but I like peas. Any kind of peas~ french peas, endaname, dried peas....even pea brains! Okay so it wasn't very funny (ha ha ha). Packed my bookshelves some more today, and I realized that you can actually tell a lot from a person by the way they shelve their books. Like, looking at mine, you can say that I enjoy poetic irony i.e. "Utopia" (Moore) sits next to "American Dreams" (Ridley)next to "Futuretrack 5" and "Brave New World." My shelving system is really weird too cos I own a lot of miscy books which are neither here nor there, so I shelve according to theme. Like, I have one shelf titled "Dystopias and Futures". The thing that irritates me most is how hard it is to sort stuff out, especially books like White Oleander ("is it teenage or adult?") or books like Flowers for Algernon which is a classic, but ALSO sci-fiction. *dies* In the end I just say that anything set before the 20th century will go as a classic and save myself the hassle. Just to give you an idea of how many books I own: 9 cartons (discluding comics). Surprisingly, I own a lot more Asterix, Garfield, Far Side stuff than I give myself credit for (about 1 shelf).
I keep on having to resist the urge to start reading Asterix and The Banquet while packing. *starts reading now* I love Asterix okay? :D Thinking of adding Bizzaro into the collection. (because Bizzaro and Non-Sequiter is <3)
Deciding whether to go for IdN tomorrow or not~
Honestly I just want to go for Designer's Republic
Day One's only draw for me is Animation Screenings
Day Two has UVA (which is cool) as well as SGdesign
Day 3 has resfest, Musicvideos and Surrender
I suppose day3 is the one I'll go for then
I really want an uberexpensive design book LOL
Renting movies tomorrow~ Ultimate slackdom moviefest with sis and sakky! <3 Taxi r0xx0rs. And if we're bored, we can always play Burnout. Or eat bandung icecream~ Island Creamery is muchly muchly love
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 12:47 a.m.+
Because lazyness is my new friend
I've gone bonkers. As in sky-high bonkernesss.
Starting Sunday, met Claude which was interesting in a "oh-haven't met for a long time way" but we don't superclick. The only thing I felt slightly guilty about was when I asked if he and bernadette were still together, cos I didn't know (considering they had his overly melodramatic on-off thing) in which he gave me this pathetically puppy eyed expression, then looked away. *guilts* I didn't know okay?!
Kino has new Dummy Series books<3 The one on Forensic science r0xx0rs. Apparently, if you want to be a serial killer, it's better to be type O because it's harder to check your DNA. Why? Blood contains A-type and B-type antigens, and type O contains no antigens, so it's untestable except by elimination (hah!). They have a new guide to Electronic circuits, as well as another on patterning. <3 Kino is love~
Went home, packed an inch of bookshelf before giving up to play Burnout Takedown and sleeping. Burnout Takedown by the way, is a car crashing road rampanging headlights thrusting fender ravishing (god that sounds like p0rn) game. Basically, it's fun! :D There's nothing cooler than driving around USA: Sliverlake with Franz Ferinand blasting and taking down cars (GONE FISHING!) or even hanging around Far East to get a signature Tuk-Down. r0xx0rs! *hugs xbox* I love you but not as much as my PS2.
Btw, the name for suiko4's Hero sucks.
I think mine sounds WAY COOLER! (go Lucien!)
Monday was PW day. I couldn't sleep the entire night + morning. So I didn't just end up late (that's bad already) but I TOTALLY FORGOT TO BRING MY PRESENTATION CD!! *dies* And guess what? Because my net was down, I couldn't backup on email or anything so it was a last minute dash on the saved copy on my schnetwork and a very hurried practice. ARGHZ. *dies* Thankfully it all went well, and I'm just glad it's over.
Was so sleepy after that I just went home to sleep for 6 hrs, skipping movie with sis. Just sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep y'know?
Woke up, gave up on packing shelf and starting ficcing. My fic titles are getting more absymal by day. Like Pannacotta. Or buerre mont. It's unexplainable (or maybe you could say I just spend waaay too much time around my sister.) It's gotten to the point when I can say "chiffondale" and like, know what it means lol! Or stuff like "demiglace". It's almost like my word fetish "aglet" (it's the ends of shoelaces) or "visscitudes" (that's food). I'm weird okay? LOL. Funky food names give cool imagery.
Funny incident at 4.30am in the morning:
Sis woke up to get water, then she poked her head into the comp. room to find me awake. We prepare to sleep then auntie wakes up. O.O! Then she says tt's cos her flight is leaving at 5.30am and whoa! it's morning already.
Tuesday was filled with slackdom (I can seriously get used to this) Slept uncomfortably (too hot, too cold). Woke up in time for lunch and made soba. Note to self: Out of normal soba, I'm only left with cha soba. Soba, soup and egg. Mmmmm....*happyslurp* I know they say you savour your food and stuff but the best way to eat soba is to slurp it up as fast as possible without burning. It's just so nice and soupy when you break the egg and drink everything up.
Watched Hana Yori Dango (aka. F4!) which is a Japanese soap opera (oh so dittyish!) adapted from a manga of the same title. It's nice! Like Ouran High! And Tsukushi rocks and all the guys look like Gackt/Yakuza. I just realized Gackt dresses like a mobster o.O. I'm gonna laugh my arse off if Yamaguchi-gumi (the largest mafia in Japan) does PR with Gackt. Japan is weird. Like, their anti-yakuza website helpfully tells you where Yamaguchi-gumi can be contacted at, and what's the name of the boss. (respectively: 4-3-1 Shinoharahon-machi, Nada-ku Kobe-shi, Hyogo and Mr. Yoshinori Watanabe) It's like, cut off your pinkie finger, dress badly and walk in for a job interview!
Okay I'm digressing.
But you have to admit that it's fascinatingly weird.
Indoctrinated audy to the joys of watching pointless soap operas because they're funny, infinitely stupid and wonderfully senseless. Like playing pachinko or solitare. Or more American-ly, Neopets. Anyway, Blackcat 5 wasn't too bad. (where's Sven?!?!?!?), I'm addicted to Hana Yori Dango and audy is hooked on Desperate Housewives 2. Life is good when there's TV to watch.
Went for art class, I need to get that book by Robert Henri (Art Spirit) before I die of curiousity. Pg 133! He's cool na~ I like him. I understand what he's saying and he doesn't use overblown, overly complicated concepts like "essential obscurity of the spirit to show vermilisitude" but just says it like it is. Abstraction is one thing, but deliberate obscurity is another. So. I like him.
God hungry halfway into the night again, ran out of soba so I made cha soba instead. Because I had "soupy" soba earlier, I made the other kind instead which is gooey like natto. *slurps* Maximum slurpyness! :D yummy~
recipes:
All sizes are single serving. It's basically for myself to remember, but you can use it if you like. One serving of soba is roughly the diameter of your index to thumb.
strawberry jam for blueberry waffles:
8 small strawberries/6 large ones
squeeze of lemon
4 tsp of sugar
heat butter in frying pan till brown
add everything and wait for the sugar to dissolve and caramelize.
Once strawberries are soft and mushy, pour over waffles.
soupy soba sauce
4 tsp of tsuyu
pinch of sugar
1.5 cups of vegatable stock
handful of vegatables
raw egg
boil all everything except the egg.
Crack egg over precooked noodles.
Pour boiling soup over the egg + noodles so it cooks.
sticky soba sauce
2 tsp of tsuyu
black pepper
paprika
1 egg
a little oil
a pinch of cornflour
2 tsp of teriyaki/veg. stock
heat everything, whisk the egg in and cream it like mayonaise. Ensure that the cornflour is well mixed (or it'll be lumpy) until it thickens to a sticky, thick, gooey sauce. Pour over noodles and toss until it coats everything.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 03:58 a.m.+
Acid pops
Project work wasn't so bad. A little pissed that Glen and Sadia was late (what to expect?), donated my extra copy of Alichino bk 2 to Pinkie and fixed up the presentation. Cleared up what to say, what to do, what to demostrate.....*falls over* So tiring....At least it's cleared. Monday will be the final presentation, and hopefully, we'll get through all this without a hitch ^^
Flipped through plot sypnosis for D.Gray-man and Deathnote, which everyone seems to recommend. Final call? Deathnote is overly complicated and D.Gray-man just doesn't sound fun. I'll rather buy Trinity Blood. On the other hand, I'm addicted to Black Cat (anime). The ending song is so cute!!!!!<3<3<3 and Sven rocks my universe xD xD I can't wait~
Beginning to like Bump Of Chicken's Planetarium ^^ Maybe I'm moving more to pretty-boy pop now, considering I own W-inds and Dragon Ash...
Going to meet up with Claude tomorrow~ Honestly I haven't seen him in a while, and the last memory of him which I can remember is him dancing on a ParaPara machine on Bernadatte's birthday back when they were dating. What's weird is that he shaves and looks prettier in a skirt than I do but he's now in the army(!) and part of the National Guards (!) Amusing ain't it?
Had dinner with dad. Have not seen him in godknowshowmany months. So. In 18 months I'll be able to go there huh? Hopefully I can go there by 5th, cos it sounds really fun ^^ Dig things up! And then test them! How fun can you get? Some insider news: MaxDoor has a 30% chance of going bankrupt. Unexpected, to say the least. But not really surprising considering their share prices have fallen to $2-ish (market rate in US is $5-ish) and well, they made some bad decisions.
I wonder who will take over making HDD (harddisk drives) now.
Ah well, at least the company isn't overly affected.
Although dad mentioned buying insurance from the bank so that if MaxDoor *does* go bust, the bank will pay the debits.
Lesson learnt: cannot be wishy-washy in decision making or your company will go bankrupt.
Dad looks tired. He *feels* tired.
Sometimes I feel sorry for him.
Mom is..........I don't know. On one hand she tells us to be nicer to him. On the other hand, she's so moneyminded it irritates me. He's human too okay? He might be an awful husband and a worse father, but he isn't an ATM machine. It's so materialistic it's unreal. So utterly crude y'know? And it bothers me because it borders on hypocrisy. It's almost like those CNY dinners where she sucks up to MaMa, with so much simpering that I wish I wasn't here to see my own mother make an ass of herself.
There are times I wish she'll just keep quiet
Because the more she talks, the more I lose any respect for her.
Stuff to do this week:
Sunday - meet with claude + pack bookshelf
Monday - PW presentation + watch movie with sis
Tuesday - Mr James + Mr James' bday present
Wednesday - Fic-writing + layout making
Thursday - IdN!!! :D
Friday - IdN!!! :D
Saturday - IdN!!! :D
The truth is that most of my fics are almost complete. Blankets 4 is only missing the smut and a certain francophile ghost. Tree x Subaru fic is only missing the last paragraph. In Ten Days' is completing itself....which leads to the fact that I'm problably just lazy.
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I think at some point........everyone wishes once that they were emotionless. No pain, no joy. Just the banality of living grey, like the softness of feathers or the hardness of asphalt before you kiss the concrete (concrete kisser!).
It's just exhausting.
The truth is that my life is pretty loserified with a capitial L. I go shopping with myself and buy lots of books to forget that I don't really have a social life or many friends. I take neoprints on my own sometimes, and throw them away when I walk out because I don't want to remember. I hang around my sister's friends because I don't have any of my own, and I constantly feel bad about it cos I'm interfering with her life. I don't have the guts to watch movies alone because it seems like that what the future is going to be like. I convince myself that it's alright by making friends online, only to watch them disappear in a matter of weeks. I keep myself busy so that when I reach home I'm so tired that I don't need to talk to anyone, much less myself. Escaping is becoming easier and easier, because fuck it, no one needs me around anymore anyway.
Best of all, I tell myself it's okay because there's nothing special about feeling alone.
I'm scared I'll live alone and die alone.
I don't want this.
I don't want to feel hurt and envious when other people are having fun with others because it's wrong and I will never ever let my own emotions destroy the happiness of others. I don't want to love anyone because it all ends in destruction and fights and leaving. I don't want to think about the future, because the plans seem less and less real now, and all I can see is a stark grey road of emptiness that stretches to the void. I don't want have any emotions or memories or rememberances, because it just kills me when I remember how it could have been.
But you see? I'm such a loser and an idiot and an ass that I feel anyway.
Because my sis is right. I do have no life, I live under a deluge of books, various painkillers and movie-watching and okay, I go out and admit it: I'm a fucking loser.
Right. Now you know.
Btw, why do people spell "grey" and "gray"?
And I'm tired of all this.
I just want it to end.
I don't care if I become emotionless (at least no more pain! :D), I don't care if I die (no aging!), I don't particularly care if I can find that certain person anymore or not, because it seems more and more futile. What's the point of chasing someone you've only seen once in a true dream? I don't know the person's name, country, gender. All I know is the touch of connection. And somehow I'm supposed to dig through the *entire* frikkin world just to be with him/her?
My only wish for Christmas is to forget and to be forgotten.
I don't want to remember anyone. I don't want anyone to remember me.
The more I remember, the more I think how wonderful it once was, the more it hurts to see the now. And if people forget about me, they won't get hurt if I forget about them either! Perfect solution right?
Or maybe I'm just the elitist freak that audy says.
Which is why I have no friends and no life.
I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.
Too scared to die, too tired to live.
I don't know.
*sighs*
I wish someone will wipe me off the planet quick.
love hello there. the angel from my nightmare.
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 11:11 p.m.+
Incessent nessescities
Project work makes me grumpy. Too much contact with classmates and teachers methinks. Blathergashing.
Sleeping in is offically my hobby :D
I love waking up in a green-room
It's like being caught inside a butterfly's chrysalis
The green blue walls and the green curtains and the softest sheets that make you curl up and sleep.
Preparing for IdN, I'm problably going to go broke over it but ah well. Moneywasting has taken to a new level now that my account only has $81 left. What happened to the $$$? First was Quidam, which ate my lui with $366. Then was my sis's French Laundry, which was another $100. Then the stupid $150. Then cosplay materials, then general expenses....ARGHZ.
I have a feeling my mom is going to yell at me today. *sighs* Patience patience patience....Ms Giam, you make my life miserable. I'm sure you mean well, but the fact is that by calling my mom, she's going to yell at me tonight again and about the usual topics that follows: why are you so irresponsible?, you know how much I sacrificed for you?!, you want to work for your father forever is it?!, stop spending so much time on useless things and concentrate on your studies!!
Tonight is not going to be a good night.
*sighs*
If there's one thing I hate most in the world, I hate interfering teachers.
They cause an incessant amount of trouble in which I get yelled, caned and various other not-nice things.
I'm seriously not looking forward to this.
Think nice things:
-IdN
-IdN
-IdN
-IdN
-IdN
Okay. Repeat after me: smilesmilesmile :D:D:D
P.S might not be online tonight
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 06:25 p.m.+
blah
When talking to audy
It's not just draining
It's exhausting
Because a)she really doesn't know b)she can never decide what she wants c)she wants everything
People leave you
So I work to disappear
Then people complain I work too much
And when I stop work
They never appear
WTF do they want?!?
*bangs head on the wall*
In my next lifetime (if I ever do make it) I'm just gonna marry a frikkin Capricorn and be happy with that.
+tsu waited for you at 11:48 p.m.+
Sarabata
Listening to: Yuuzuai
Slept for 14 hours.
Am still sulking :P
Watched anime, Trinity Blood's ending suxxors. Esther is IRRITATING (thank god she leaves to be QoA), Cain is too cool to be true and OMGTHEYLOOKSOCUTEASKIDS! *squee* I wish for more Empire arcs though, Seth-chan de r0xx0rs.
Bleach is cool now that Kyouraku and Ukitake have drawn swords, and Rukia is less wimpy than usual (though her zanpaktou screams "SHOJO ANIME!") It's some wavy-wand with ribbon festooned on it, called Shirayuki. Like WTF? Compared to Hyourinmaru it's nuttfink.
Doing PW presentation bores me and I don't want to see them ever again.
Mr James's birthday next week, it's the same day as Gaiman so it's easy to remember. He'll be happy to see me I think~ cos he problably thinks I've forgotten (hah! as if I could) And November is the beginning of all things good, because all things good give birth in November
Slick rain-swept granite glitters like black diamonds at night
Anyway, will be busy from Nov10 - 12 because it's....*drumroll* IDN FESTIVAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Reasons for going:
-IdN fest = International designers' festival
-THEY'RE SHOWCASING U.N.K.L.E!
-And DESIGNERS REPUBLIC (the guys in charge of creating logos for Coca Cola, iPod etc etc aka. The Most Copied Designs In The World) are giving a talk!
-Resfest resfest resfest! (best animated shows 2005)
-DFUSE AND UVA PRESENTING! (labels in charge of Massive Attack, U2 etc etc)
More info at: DesignEDGE.sg
So! How many people going?
Anyway, 1-day pass costs $35, a 3-day pass costs $150 (students) with freebies. I've decided to break my bank accout a little futher and go for all 3 days. Fuck it after all~ ^^v I'll problably go on my own seeing that Audy would most likely have something else eg. school since it's in Nov. Maybe I should ask Mr James first and check if I can get free tickets being part of Blk43 Studios after all.
Nah. Most likely not. Besides it's so uncool to ask.
So! If anyone actually wants to come with me and ogle at the sheer amount of graphics, animation, photography and music pls drop me a line.
P.S being not very rich and cranky, I will not pay for your ticket.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 06:58 p.m.+
It's been a bad day
*sinks*
I'm depressed.
To date, I've finished one entire bottle of lime/blueberry alchohol and thinking of getting another.
*sighs deeply*
First off, I totally forgot I had school today and was rudely woken up at 8am in the morning by my teacher. 3 hours of sleep *yawns* Rushed to school and just broke down in tears - fuck Ms Giam, why does she always force me into such difficult situations? In my entire life as a part-time student/minion, I've never had *such* inflexibility. Flexible my ass. FUCK FUCK FUCK her. Anyway. She managed to make me 45mins late for my FIRST day of work at Marina Rinaldi (forum) and it just.......sucked.
My colleagues are really nice, I get along amazingly well with Rosalind but...
Today is the last day of work for me.
I didn't get fired, I got an "extended leave"
Offically I'm in a job bank
Why?
Because I'm a part-timer.
And today someone joined as full-time staff
Logically, I get replaced
It still hurts though.
(but at least I get paid)
*depressed*
I know I can get another job....but....this is the first time I've been replaced. *sighs* Lessons to be learnt I guess.
Well, at least now I can cosplay on dec 10 and sew my Kantarou shikifuku in time. Although in truth, it won't be fun without gloria, neko or audy around. Sis won't go, sakky might be busy and well, yeah. *sighs* Nothing much desu na
*sinks tiredly*
I hate this.
love,
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 09:27 p.m.+
Aishite motto~
Listening to: Bjork
hello there. the angel from my nightmare.
Work
I hate Japanese tourists, customers, and whatevers. They're the MOST inconsiderate customers I've ever met. The only ones who drop clothes on the floor and step on them, the stingy ones whom we have to calculate for with a calculator, the weirdo ones who ask for alterations during a discount sale, the idiotic ones who mess up the clothes and leave them hanging in the changing rooms with that STUPID BLANK LOOK I hate hate hate.
*murders* I swear, one day they'll get their divine retribution.
On the other hand, I *love* rich, Singaporean housewives aka. tai-tais. Why? They pick up after themselves, they ask for our opinions, they smile and bother to learn my name and ask which school I'm in. They're NICE. And they're funny! They wear weird flashy prints like foral print pants (green/pink/white/black) with white tube tops and orange cardigans at the age of 40. I can't help but like them. Their very eccentricity seems endearing somehow xD
As usual, my feet hurt.
I'm kinda sad that today is the last day for LingYan and everyone else though~ (though not too sad to see Fanny go)
House painting
Waiii! The house looks so pretty now~ I'm not *too* fond of the limegreen, but watercress is pretty. It looks blue!<3 Yellow lighting makes the colours bluer. Sakky came over to paint, mooch on the food + anime and in general, have fun~ Played with oversized paintsticks, sang to Dir en Grey in the most offtune we could manage, giggled over Yuuzai's over-angsty lyrics, watched Desperate Housewives 2, had 3-noodle dinner and smushed lamingtons into icecream and did all the things you were/weren't supposed to be doing xD
School matters
Politics suck.
I don't like this.
Good luck with y'all
Halloween Party which ended up tsu playing conselor deshou na~ *blinks* I made a cute vampyre anyway xD xD I think Jiaxiang likes me as a drinking buddy ahahaa~ piscean drinking clubz rulez! ^^v Taught waltz to Josephine and danced with Graham and dipped him~ lool! I'm a boy! Imagine this: A 1.5+ girl dancing with 1.7 guy and dipping him! LOL~ Kinda funny since he dressed as Death and I went as Scottish vampyre.
Played on the swing~
I like flying~
Other things
I love wind<3
I think, in this secret laughing night with the playful winds, I love you. The red sky sings with crackling branches and scattered raindrops that fall on my hair like wet kisses, and fragrance of night smells. The clean, clear scent of sleeping grasses and secret thoughts, the hands that hold the dreams in gentle touches that washes away in the burning light of rosy dawn.
Chase, chase, chase
Running down staircases to search with clasped hands for meaningless loss things that spin wildly away like the game we play and never understand
I'm a night person desu na~
I had lots of things to say at first
But now I can't remember~ *smiles dreamily*
maybe you'll know one day
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 11:42 p.m.+
And lots of things happen before I fall over
As usual, my feet hurt.
Work today was better. Why? Less crowded, more breathing space. Was pretty happy, and steaming clothes is fun! I think novelty plays a factor in it ^^v Like vertical ironing~ So cool to see all the creases come out with this vaccum-cleaner lookalike and steam coming out of where the suction should be. Managed to steam my fingers off once or twice, but other than that, no other mishaps.
I think I'm getting the hang of this :)
It's still really hard work though, I'm not surprised so few fashion designers actually succeed. Let's say you open a shop, you need to man the shop for 12 hours a day (most departmental stores open from 10am to 10pm), then you need to handle logistics like transportation of goods, warehousing, manufacturing, and then you need piricings, quotas, exports/imports as well as branding, advertising and market strategy. Is it worth it? I wonder.
*considers*
fame, fortunate and everyone wearing what you design...
R0XX0RS.
On the other hand, I learnt that design doesn't matter. I've seen carpet designs, curtain designs - stuff even -I- won't wear - selling at $100-ish and people actually buying it. Funny thing is, now that I know design doesn't really matter I don't need to worry whether phiryn will join me as a designer or not because well, it doesn't matter whether the designs suck or not.
It does put a new spin to things~
Or I'll just be a lowly financial investor loool
And live a peaceful life
(that sounds bloody good actually)
I'm not overly competitive, a decent if slightly overzealous workaholic, I don't smoke and like drinking, but not getting drunk. I'm not particularly fond of fame, and have enough fortunate to live by comfortably so.......what do I have to lose?
A dream, I suppose. A kitschy childhood wish.
Colleagues are pretty nice. Bosses : Shirley is definetely a capricorn/aries, she just reeks it. May reminds me of Jeanne, with the same hair and same flair for drama.....like twins! Scary....Wendy is quick. She's very kind, though she looks strict. Aquarius? Scorpio? Problably. I get Mrs Low vibes from her. Joyce is the chatty one, gets along well with the sales staff. I think she's a Taurus, cos she's a little quiet. In terms of my partners, Yanling has the same birthday as Seishirou-san, much to my amusement. We get along really well (not surprising) and even though we have a 4-year age gap, we still talk and stuff. Hannah, Fanny and 2 other girls I can't remember the name of, I like them, but don't know them well enough. Besides, most of them are leaving soon cos Poly is starting next week.
Tired....
Honestly I don't care anymore.
yada yada yada yada <----usual things
Sometimes I wonder if my sis realizes that nothing changes because she wants nothing to change. There are so many oppotunities to change your thinking - like, grocery shopping with mom, isn't that shopping? The truth is everything changes, and will continue to change. Sure mom isn't the most understanding person of the lot, but she tries damned hard and shows that she cares in her own way. She can't reach that level, but at least appreciate her effort instead of making yourself sound like a victim. You -do- sound like that you know? Like "OH! IT'S THE SAME OVER AGAIN! *long suffering look* ALWAYS FORGET ABOUT ME!"
If we actually did forget about you, would we bother buying your specialty ingrediants like sundried tomatoes, spices and what nots?
So anyway I'm tired and rambly and tomorrow I have to pass the damned folder to Ms Giam and bring my cloak for Graham's Halloween Party. Planning to drink like crazy, I'm sad that I'll miss the first epi of Project Runway though *sighs sadly* But I promised and I have a vampire outfit too!
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 11:55 p.m.+
*flip fan open* HI-YA-WA-ZA~!
Too tired to blog straight
I'll clean it up tomorrow or something.
work
Is nuts and crazy and all women are animals. Who says all's fair in love and war? Nah. It's all's fair in sales and war. Check out those growling teeth and scary eyes as high-heeled tai-tais battle it over a silk camisole or leather trench. Watch the claws dive and the sheer rudeness begins as the unholdy amount of shit discarded for minions like salesgirls to pick up. Watch for the scary warbling and babble of demanding voices screaming for XS!, How much does this cost? and I want a refund!
My feet hurt.
I've been on my feet from 10am to 6pm
.______.
It's so draining.
Not just physically, but the noise, the incessant demands of this ever greedy crowd that rush towards the boxes of unopened items like hyenas fighting for remeants of carcasses. You get shoved and pushed and the voices never seem to stop at all "I want this" "I want that" with no peace. Like nagging, but worse because after shutting one up, there's always a dozen waiting in line.
afterwards
Met audy, had dinner and did the usual things. I'm stoned k? I'm just too tired to tease and to play and all i want is just some quiet comfort. but it ended up okay anyway. ice-cream is good...
after-afterwards
Nearly drowned in the bathroom. Argh. At least I caught myself if not slipping would really hurt >_> Thinking of Aokigahara (Jukai) and Itako.....I should just send Kanatarou to aokigahara since it's so way out-ly advantagoes anyway. Or maybe to Osore-san. Why? Cause I want to and angst is fun and I'm too tired to think too deeply but anyway! Osore-san VS aokigahara~! who will win huh??
It's a pretty idea anyway.
And my sakurazuka fic hasn't been completed yet *sighs*
Tree-smut! goodnessness...
Found the MSN version of Mainichi Shinbun, that nutso tabloid book. You can get it off Google search. Just type "MSN: Mainichi Shinbun" and you get these wacko stories like Extra-terriestial Sex and Types of People Japanese Hate. Hell, it's funny alright. The chicken-man one was just waay off though
Okay I need sleep
Love (<3<3<3)
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 12:36 a.m.+
aNd YoU tHiNk LiKe ThIs
*swirly eyes* @___@
Went out today with mom and sis, fun! Spend money! Feel ridiculous! Make silly expressions while sis groans at my "obnoxious" insufferability. Went to Plaza Sing to buy satin for Halloween's Day cos I'm dressing up as a cool sexy vampire xD xD Okay so I can never be cool, but sure hell is fun to pretend~ I couldn't find myself any double-backed satin, so I ended up buying dancetime. Cut a really easy collar, added plaid and PRESTO! I'm now a Scottish vampyre! Pwy d dtch anyone? Has a big red bow to tie the cape with too. The only sad thing is that I don't have fangs, so I'll just smear some red lipstick at the sides of my mouth and look devilish.
I'll bring a red rose and a box of chocolates too. xD
How cool am I huh? *prances around* I'm a Scottish vampyre in tartan! :E <---fanged smile
Went to Sasa to look for Guy Laroche's Dakkar Noir, the sexiest cologne on earth. It's so good it's better than CK Obsession and Chanel's Platinum Egoiste. Less gay, by any rate (sorry Kao! but Pt E is really gay!) Sharp and spicy, with amberish warmth and lavender. Top Notes: bergamot, lemon and rosemary. The middle notes are: basil, amber and patchouli and the base of the fragrance is: cedarwood, leather and sandalwood. *sniffs in delight* Unlike most unisex perfumes, this stuff actually reminds you of a man. Like alpha!male kind of virility (oh god...did I just say that?)
Anyway. It smells like how Seishirou should smell like.
They didn't have the other perfume I wanted either, Lolita Lempicka (which I use and like) It's a very sweet (almost cloyingly sweet) with hints of vanilla, praline, liqorice and Ivy leaf. It's the kind of stuff that if you spray a little, it will cling on you the entire day. Between YSL's Baby Doll and Lolita Lempicka...I'll say Lempicka wins hands down for the sheer sugar factor. Seriously. It's like liquidized sugar. It's so sweet even my sis can't stand it. YSL is fruitier than sugary I think.
Couldn't find the shampoo and conditioner either. Ah well ^^v There's always tomorrow~ Then we went to Carrefour, and bought Portebello mushrooms, button mushrooms, bartwurst sausages and all kinds of good stuff. Tis fun! And just for fun, I went to buy 3 pieces of Godiva chocolates for us. Okay so it's $9.60 for 3 pieces, but the sheer delight in doing something indulgent and "naughty" makes it all worth it. Plus the lovely dark chocolate gaunche is to die for... *drools* Got my mom a Chantilly cream one with creme fraiche, and my sis had this weird halloween-inspired pumpkin chocolate with cinnimon. >___> UGH. Honestly I don't know why she likes that stuff sometimes...
Like the way she eats olives. Or worst still, carrots
blarghblehyucks
Then mom was really nice, and bought us icecream from Bravissimo. Yay! Their blueberry/vanilla gelato tastes fantastic. I think the hazulnut tastes like Kinder Bueno though, and the Bon Bon Rocher never fails to please with it's crunchy nutty ferrera rocher bits. Delicious~ <3<3<3 It just feels nice to wander around poking and prodding things, and I haven't gone out in a while, so it makes it all the more special
It's as if by working so hard, the free time I have becomes even more precious - and I appreciate it even more. If you go out everyday, the dazzling feeling of curiousity just loses, and it's not as fun or interesting anymore. ^^v In a way, it's like the less time for fun I have, the more pleasure I can gain out of it.
Okay! Tomorrow starting work at 10am (will reach there by 9.45am) Black polo shirt + black pants, tie hair up neatly and clip it. Finish work at 7pm, meet audy for dinner at 7.30pm. YAY! <3
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 11:35 p.m.+
Sakurazuka
You know there's something wrong with you when you start lusting after a tree. Okay so it's a carnivorous, blood-sucking, soul-chomping tree which goes by as Tree-san or more apporiately, The Sakurazuka in capitials. I mean it's perfectly fine to lust after a murderer, but it's just borderline wacko when you start lusting after sap and branches and roots with corpses below it.
Anyway, I'm no longer working for Starhub now. I'm a Club 21 employee.
Pineapple tarts with baby corn tastes nice...*munches* Yesterday I slept like I died. I didn't know how exhausted I was until yesterday. I slept for 12! hours *shock* Ended up missing dinner, then around 2am I had this craving for noodles - not just any kind of noodles but the vending-machine-ticket kind from Japan. So I cooked some soba, and made a quick soup from tsuyu base + leftover vegatable soup and added a raw egg in to mix. It tastes exactly like it! <3<3<3 I didn't realize how much I missed soba till now. I used to eat it breakfast/lunch/dinner in Japan. It's just so...heartwarming to eat it.
Going out with mom today to Spotlight and then I'm going buy a couple of special things (in return for working so damned hard). My list: Purple conditioner from L'Oreal that smells like powder and lavender, Blueberry shampoo from Johnson's & Johnson's, a *small* bottle of Dakkar Noir and lip balm for work.
Planning to try for the Stanford Book Competition, I think it's quite fun. And I'm halfway into completion for my n00 S/S fic, aptly called: Buerre Mont a.k.a the process of using butter to "mount" it on sauce to give it a finishing shine.
Okay that's a weird title but I like it anyway.
Halloween party on 1st Nov! I'm going as a vampire (kyuuketsuki) because I'm going there straight from work. My work clothes : Black silk shirt (free from company), black pants....so all I need is a cloak to make me look like a vampire.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 06:39 p.m.+
Last Order
Today....how do I start?
Dreary, sleepy, drippy weather. Rainy and drizzle-ish, like rain drool that you can't really call a storm, but not light enough to be a drizzle. It's just drooling. LOL. I like that weather anyway....Very good for listening to Radiohead and other stony, angtsy songs (innnnnnnn my heaaaaart likeeee a stoooooooooone)
The morning sucked.
Just seriously seriously sucked.
I think Mrs Sng is trying to get me expelled from school. Today she just walked into class and began blaming me for everything. Apparently because of me, I'm the reason the class did badly, that the class behaves badly and I'm complacent that's why i'll never get an A and thinks too highly of myself which is why my results were (get this) below -her- expectations. Like....WOTTHEFORK? First off, she didn't help me in my results at all (I imagine her a bad karma source) and secondly, I wasn't being complacent. GP just happened to be one of those papers that popped during a bad time when I was stresssed, nervous and cracking under the pressure of yuramekidreams.
*bangs head on wall*
Three days in a row! Isn't she tired of this already?
Menopausal woman.
Called Club 21.....I GOT THE JOB! 6 day workweek, $6/hr and I'm working in Max Mara and Marina Rinaldi. xD xD xD SO COOL! I mean I've never worked in a fashion house before, much less a big one like this. It's so different. The dressing runs from artistically ripped jeans to classy black suits, with people walking around purposefully. And the atmosphere isn't laidback or relaxed, there's an undertone of urgency in every fax, phonecall and email.
Suffer but delusion to imagine that breaking into fashion business is easy. Suffer even more to imagine that everything is laidback, relaxed and easygoing. It's not y'know? Oraganized frantic-ness. Feel a little sorry/regretful for leaving Starhub though cos the people are really nice and understanding (and near my age as well), but in the end, Club 21 wins out. Higher pay, "normal" hours and looks GREAT on my resume.
Will have to make another transition though
urghhh >_____> *does not feel inclined*
Ah well.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 11:55 p.m.+
Kaoru
*sniffs*
Mmmmm...my hair smells nice
I think the first thing I'm going to spend my paycheck on is the purple conditioner by L'Oreal which smells like lavender and honey and mint - don't know what's it called though. But it smells powdery and flowery, which is why it's my favourite conditioner. And! It matches well with my blueberry shampoo too~
Which makes me wonder if I should just go buy the Lempicka perfume and just sniff it and be happy~ top notes: vanilla and jasmine. Nice right?
It reminds me of sakurazuka. Not Seishirou, but Sakurazuka. I remember when I first smelled it, I was 12 or so and christmas shopping with mom when the salesmen gave me one of those scent strips, and he sprayed so much that the whole day I smelled like that. I kept the strip in the end, and placed it inside Flame of Recca book 10, with Raiha in it. Even now, when I smell it, it reminds me of reading manga in the school bus and dreaming~
It's a strange scent though...It's cloyingly, almost sickeningly sweet, smells like flowers soaked in flowers, then bathed in sugary syrup. It smells like sakurazuka. Like death laid beneath beautiful pink branches, the mix of sticky blood and sticky sap. Funnily enough, this brand hasn't created any other fragrance besides this. Lolita Lempicka A pale violet bottle in a shape of a heart's apple, with a golden cage.
Okay, I'm romanticizing. Then again, it really does remind me of sakurazuka. For me, that's how sakurazuka will always smell like. Sick sweetness of sakura death.
Seishirou on the other hand - Dakkar Noir by Laroche.
Thus, now you know I'm a scent-addict xD xD
Mrs Sng alternates between complimenting me and trying to make my life miserable. Got really under my skin today...Apparently, because I have done well and other people have failed, it's my fault they failed because I'm a class disruption. At the same breath, she goes on saying I should be in UWC and IB because I'm perfectly inadequate for this system. *eye twitch*......It really hurt though.....especially that barbed remarks about how I lead people down the path to hell because I'm "clever", so other people copy my playfulness much to their detriment.
Didn't go beach cleaning because of the rain....so saddening ;____; I was looking forward to it too! Went to Island Creamery with Gloria, had my bandung icecream (rose syrup) and they have this new flavour called chocolate mint candy - tastes EXACTLY like the candy with the hard white mint shell and chocolate inside. Yummy. A little too creamy for my taste though~
Went to Comics Mart ._____. spended money on The Freaks of Heartland ($25) which is absolutely pretty and makes my hair stand. Oh yeah, stood there reading Fables ......I KNOW WHO THE ADVERSARY IS!!!!!!!!! XD XD XD XD XD XD
*snerks* issue 41#
EVIL EVIL EVIL - but way cool
I'm still thinking of that Seishirou chibi from CLAMP no Kiseki. *sighs* One track mind indeed....
Okay. Must bring extra clothes tomorrow. Must call Shirley. Must remember to go Northbridge Rd and top up on brochures and invoices cos I'm running out of both. Must remember to wake up tomorrow. Must check PW. Must remember to lend Gloria comic. Must pack jacket + umbrella before I ice-cube myself. Must top up bus farecard. Must bring pen + pencil before Atiqah complains I keep on borrowing hers.
Must ensure I don't lose my sanity >___>
*huggles audy* mweep~ sorry for not being around lately
School + Work = Busy
I'll see you on Sat okay?
Oh yeah, that reminds me. Claude wants to meet up next week apparently~ Just back from Brunei and stuff...go for movie before going to Jurong Island. So funny how everyone is growing up huh? Almost seems like yesterday we were all at Botanical Gardens and forcing Claude to cosplay Rinoa complete with mini skirt and spaghetti straps. Okay, loool he'll kill me for saying this but he makes a pretty girl.
xD xD xD
Funny how he's now in the army
Going to sleep soon
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 02:07 a.m.+
Mou!
Sunday
Got pang seh-ed by Sharon, she didn't turn up again for lunch! Mou! *pouts* and here I was looking forward to it. Went out with my sis in the end, and twas fun! Had pistachio ice-cream, sasusage pretzel and lemonade ^^ Went to Art Friend and Kino. I really wanted to get the Clamp no Kiseki with Seishirou chibi-figurine in it, but it was $50++ and sis was like -____-;; "NO." And she called me a moneywasting fangirl! Cos I wanted BOTH subaru and seishirou, and they would be $101 for a magazine I have scanlations of, and it was only chibi! figurines...but moumoumou! *pouts* T____T saddening...
I DID get Cure though, which is an absolute waste of money
But it did make me feel better about losing Seishirou and Subaru
Went home, died of shock at Glen's powerpoint and resolved NEVER EVER let him do anything on his own.
Monday
Sick in the morning....fever plus flu. *falls over* Not that I didn't want to go school, but I was *really* sick. Got a bunch of painkillers for my headaches, and some cough medication. Then my classmates called me for PW work. *sighs* Sometimes I wish they learnt how to do things properly, so I won't have to do it.
Anyway I'm whining.
Cleaned my table and packed stuff. House is being renovated desu na.....Found lots of junk in my old notebooks, maybe I'll post it another day. Like, stupid limericks. xD xD Kinda interesting. I found my letter I was supposed to post on audy's birthday but forgot! LOOOOL. Maybe I'll give it to her personally (and save on postage)
Went to Jurong East to meet a client and talked for 2.5 hours....NO SALE! *dies* I was just so frustrated.....I knew she wanted it, I knew her parents wanted it but she WON'T sign without her brother's and sister's consent. And this woman was 30+ years old! My goodness! Absolutely spineless.
Took a train to Yew Tee. Managed to calm my nerves...
But I was really disappointed. (maybe tt's why my boss bought me a drink)
Since I was late, he took pity on me and gave me the block next to the shopping complex. And guess what?! On the 8th floor (I start from the top and work down) I got a sale! <3<3<3 So happy~ And there I was thinking I wasted an entire evening + afternoon with no sale (that really pisses me off, time wasting)
Gonna try selling to school tomorrow.
Have beach cleaning, and most problably going to see Mr James. ^^v Need to remind sis about Mrs Low's bday gift too.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 12:12 a.m.+
there's something wrong in the bones
I feel skin-itchy *twitches slightly*
Restlessly trapped, relentlessly in need to move
Can't yet though, having a lousy mental block lately
Who knew that working + schooling could be so draining?
It's not so much the draining that distrubs me, but more of the feeling of unnatural calm. As if something is about to happen.
Or maybe I'm just worrying unnessescarily.
If I told you I loved you
What would you say?
I -feel- like ficwriting, but I can't think of anything. LOL. Writer's block maybe? *twitches* Tis' a new experience. I've never really realized how much I relied on dreaming - yurameki. Idle minds makes wonderful playgrounds.
pretty boys with psycho knives
pretty girls with dolllike eyes
-ku.ku.ku.-
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 11:23 p.m.+
Omna Magni
I love my layout~It's so pretty and sleepy <3 I love sleeping <3<3<3 For me, there's nothing better than to loll all day on the bed in your sleeping wear and watching the clouds pass by through the bedroom windows, or reading on the bed, or just enjoying the crisply soft lemon-scented bleached bedsheets with as many squishy pillows as possible (ask sak, I LOVE pillows) *huggles*
I'm kinda happy~ Have 2 sales in a row ^^;;; It's really lucky cos Yew Tee has richer folks and they tend to be a)rude b)obnoxious b)*insert explicit hokkien adjectives* Seriously though, the people at Yew Tee are much ruder than those at Choa Chu Kang. Yesterday for one, poor Randy has 3 doorslams and at one block, the families didn't even bother opening the door even though the lights were on. Bah. So rude!
I don't say much though...
Most of my colleagues are 15, lol
So young na! Still talking about O levels.
Just because I look young, doesn't mean I am desu na
So strange huh?
LOOOOL
Just reading site summaries and hey! I don't post any nude pics of myself and I still get 1000 hits! w00t! Thank you guys! *hugs all readers* You make my day even if you don't know it. Ahahahah...to be heard is to be realized. Some of the searchengine queries are decidedly hilarious. Just to list some which my blog is turned up:
-air force London muesuem
-bao yaoi website (wotthefork?!?!?!?!?)
-Photos of incesteous relationships (???!??!)
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
Why can't I have something sane like Haruka x Kantarou fanfiction? *amused* Come to think of it, I still haven't uploaded that fic.
Yesterday the moon was so full and bright that it looked as if the sky was the sea, and the moon was sitting just on it, glowing. It was so beautiful~
I feel like doing something productive, but it doesn't seem to be working desu na~ Going to artfriend tomorrow to buy canvas and washi paper, then maybe to Kino to buy books.
I keep thinking of Seishirou and Subaru.
I should really write a fic on Seishirou's birthday.
Hmnnn...time to think of a plot.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 05:52 p.m.+
