Arragh part: Boomspeed isn't hosting anymore and my brother has kindly offered to do it for me. While I shift things over it might take a little time so please bear with it ^^v Unless someone can offer archieval space. *doesn't want to be a hosted blog* I just need to upload the images for the layout that's all. Unfortunately, most free-hosters do not do remote linking......
BOOMSPEED SUCKS!
Yay part: My sis finished Suiko 3 and played Luc's POV....Waahhhhhhhhhhhh....quote Luc: "You are the one I hate most yet you are the only one whom I can emphaize with". PROOF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LUC X SASARAI!!!!!! //told you so!// OMG. It's so fun to make Luc run about in circles! //you really don't know how fun it is// It's like making Sephiroth eat cotton candy and act childish ^^v Waaahhhhhh and then it was really really cool! For the 108 roll call in Suiko, Sasarai's ending was "Returns to Harmonia as bishop and lives with existantiel angst LOL.....Luc = angst? And then there was a duel between Luc and Sasa and it was so COOL!!!!! I mean like TOTALLY~!~!~!~ Blue light Green light Blue light Green light and the GREEN LIGHT WINS!!!!!!!!!!!!! *YAY* Blue light is actually Sasa and Green is Luc cos they have the same weapon *Awwwww...* but don't have the same clothes *AWWwww...* TWINS! So cute ne?? Someone dress them up in matching frocks! ^^v
BOOMSPEED SUCKS!
Alex came over today and it was FUN FUN FUN!!!!!!!!! *converts her into a Yuber fan* YAY!!! ANOTHER SUIKO CONVERT!~ OMG~ I LOVVVVEEE SUIKO~ I hearby pronounce Alexiel, of the yaoi fangirls a new Yuber Convert.....LOL And we had mango and chocolate sandwhiches and cooked lunch. Lunch! That was funny~ Alex was so freaked out at my method of cooking (not that I had ANY method) and the way I made spaghetti ^^V Very very amusing. In the end, it looked like a mess and was kinda messy but PERFECT. Yay~
BOOMSPEED SUCKS!
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tsubaki
[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 06:55 p.m.]
Right. To boost my sorely deflated ego, I shall do some personality quizzes. How geeky is that? *wonders*
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[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 10:47 p.m.]
JO TEO YOU BIG [BEEP] WHY THE HELL DID YOU FAIL THE WHOLE [BEEP] YOU [BEEP]ING [BEEP]ER [BEEP]
Okies................I'm just suffering from result breakdown...Oh God....My whole class failed except for 4! 4 MISERABLE people. And I PASSED with a [beep]ing C6!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *dies in shock* OH GOD..............It's like Lit and I'm supposed to get an A2, supposed to get a distinction, supposed to score like 20/25!!!!!!!!!! When did I ever stoop so LOW????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry.....I just can't believe it...........*shakes head* Bunny said that out of a hundred students or so, only 10 people passed Lit. DAMN YOU JO TEO. She marked down EVERYONE and some of my friends has a 0!~! *killing intent*
Current Marks breakdown
Literature--50.3% (C6)*Jo Teo is a f*cked up @ss*
Science (Physics/Chemistry)--70.5% (A2) *surprisingly, I did better for Physics*
History/Social Studies--73.2%(A2)*Missed by 2 marks to get an A1 //shakes head sadly//*
I don't know what to say..........If Jo Teo marks my English paper, thou art knowest the taste of death, death knowest thou art..........*quotes randomly* In other words, dead tsu...I really really want an A1 for my Sciences *sighs* I studied so hard for it but it seems so impossible. So unreachable. Oh damnit..........
Okay........I think I have to check my English, Chinese, A Math, E Math, Pure Physics and Chem now. *sighs* What an AWFUL day........
love
very very disappointed and irritated tsu
[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 11:00 a.m.]
Tis a Brave New World for all the Fish who are our Friends
Fishy~!!! Went to watch Finding Nemo today and it was so cool~! It's by Pixar/Disney and it's fantastic~!!!!! Loved the turtles especially, with all their "groovy" and "Yeah" and like "wooooah" :P Groovy~!
I think tomorrow will be really horrible but it's only a guess. Tomorrow I'll have to face the principal and check my papers *please let me do well!~!*. Tomorrow I'll know if I passed or failed. Tomorrow will decide what happens yet Tomorrow is only a day away. Sometimes, I wish it'll never come and I'll be in a state of perpetualness. Quite impossible but very much desired.......*sighs* Honestly I have no idea what to do if I do very well for some and do very badly for others. I know I'll pass the average but I don't want to be the average and lest of all, disappoint others and waste their effort and time in making me do well..............Expectations can be so hard to bear.
Halfway through Brave New World. I don't really like the main chara and have an _absolute_ dislike for him. His very weaknesses just piss me off. Which is really strange, cos it's his weakness in this inhuman society that makes him realize the need to change it, if he was perfect for his duty like the rest of them, he would have never needed to taste the emotions of self-pity, loathing and all of them. So strange...At least Alex from Clockwork Orange had a seductive diabolic-ness about him that makes him innocently likable. But Benard Marx has few redeeming qualities and it is his self-pity that drives him through the story, how sad.........The dystopian future is digusting, much worse than the anarchy of crime in Clockwork Orange. Humans are pre-conditioned, pre-made and totally artifical. Fascim prevades. Even embryos are made to undergo such -toture-. My God. (My God!) I don't know what to say except that's a very mixed story, with no compromise and that the quote on Community, Identity , Stability has it's faint ringings that just remind me of S'pore. Ver scary indeed.
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tsubaki
[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 10:43 p.m.]
SpriteICEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
erieko: I waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant T_T Looks so nice and cool and blue.............
Anyways, went to Kino on both Sat and Sun. Disn't buy anything on Sat though, but bought LOTS! of stuff on Sunday (thanks mom~!)List of stuff >>
2 shirts from ozon.e(tsu)
3 shirts from Perfect In black (for mom)
1 shirt from Phuture London(mom again)
1 shirt from Lisvie (mom)
Aldous Huxley - Brave New World (ya~! I made the mistake of Clarke and him but all's well ends well~!)
Dan Brown- Da Vinci Code (tsu's craziness for symbolism)
And all under 0~!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wheeee~!!! Yayayayaya~! Finished Da Vinci code yesterday night, that's why I wasn't on the net ^^;;; Gonna start on Brave New World soon enough~! Ahhhh....don't tyou just LOVE dystopian furtures which people modify everything from genetics to behaviour? It's a bit like Clockwork Orange (Natz! return by end of month!) just that it's not corrective behaviour anymore but rather conditioning a human in a prelature environ ^^v Looooove this stuff~!!!!!!!
LUC X SASARAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~!~!~
Going to watch Finding Nemo today with Uncle Marc, he's not really an uncle but close enough I think. Plus I believe that while blood still matters, friendships can also last equally long. I'm just sappy :) sorry~ Anyways, Suiko wise, I'm really really getting into the Luc/Sasa thing. Sasa~! And he fights in such a cute way~! //does the wrist flick thing// and BAM! magic comes out of the little ring to kill the enemy~! Ka~wa~IIIIIIIiiiiiiii *drools* Luc has a matching one too! Cute ne!
[Weird Random Thought]
If an pentacle (star with five points) means fertily and feminimty and is the scared symbol of Nature worship, doesn't that mean that an inverted pentacle, the one that Seichan wears is a symbol of virilty? Doesn't make sense though.................Definetely not cos it's the symbol of the devil due to the fact that the word "pagan" simply meant "rural practices". MUST BE THE DAMN CHURCH AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[End thoughts]
Contary to popular as well as hollywood belief, an inverted star does not mean devil. Stupid effing clouts #@!#%, even some silly manga people make that inane mistake. Anyways, I've finally gotten my lazy self to do my mid-year research again. Every year, during the holidays, I would set myself a task on research, like last year Dec, it was flowers and symbols and meanings of flowers //Did you know a yellow rose is rejected love? And a red one means destruction through passion? Or that grass symbolizes submission????????// Anyways, this year, I think I'm doing it on the Opus Dei. It's a part of the Vatican and performs rites such as Coperal mortifictaion and the discipline. Fairly interesting, since the coperal mortification is a rite to cleanse one's sins through blood by punished. ........................Okies goota go~
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tsubaki
[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 11:26 a.m.]
Little Match Girl and a book ramble
LOL. Just watched Sasa (Sasarai) play as a little match girl. Might I add that it's the most hilarious thing I've ever seen in a long while. I mean, Sasa as a little match girl????????? *giggles* The Harmonian Army should take a look at that. Or maybe Luc. ^^;;
Waaaahhh...slept till 11.30 am this morning, feel sooooo goood... *sighs* Still feel like cuddling against my nice feather pillow actually, I'm really lazy aren't I? Anyways, been feeling sort of weird lately, I can't understand why. Is it the heat that's screwing with my mind? For instance yesterday, I was really psycho and all, hollering song lyrics and acting hell weird, even by my standards. And this morning I acted like Viki complete with silliness and crazy-ness. Maybe it's the heat........It's so hot *fans self* And there's no wind and it's so humid that everything has condensation..so digustingly horrid.
Going out with my dad today and I hope we go Kinokuniya, I want Count Cain book 10~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whee~! It's the castrato arc and it's my favourite cos it exemplifies the best and the worst of all the charaecters. Everything was Disearli's deliemma to Cain's determination to bring his father down and the screwed-ness of Lord Gladstone. Honestly, he IS scary. Freaky weird man. Ughuuuuuuuuu, next to Alexis, he ranks as the second scariest chara.
Hmnn...looks like lunch will be fruit and biscuits today, not that I mind. I don't eat much on a regular basis and I absolutely detest it when people force you to eat, don't they understand what "I'm NOT hungry" means? Generally, I eat no breakfast, snack alot and have lunch and drink something for dinner. I'm not dieting, I'm just not hungry and all I want is maybe some soup and fruit. Stop feeding me!!!!!!!! *points to her parents and all relations* Just because everyone else is hungry and that we're a cantonese family doesn't mean I have to eat that much too!
My mom promised to go to Kino with me tomorrow though~ So if dad doesn't bring me today, I'll go tomorrow to get Arthur C Clarke's: Brave New World. It's supposed to be another dystopian future (not unlike Anthony Burgress's Clockwork Orange) and apparently based on human behavioural experiments. Quite interesting I think and I maybe I'll pick up some Sherlock Holmes too. Can't decide can't decide.....Sherlock? Or dystopian futures?
Actually I feel like buying quite alot of storybooks now. I've already got Clockwork Orange, 1984 and some other stuff including my favourite love story Dame aux du Camellie which is actually Lady of Camillas, another tsubaki thing ^^;;; Franz Kalfka I have too, as well as Jane Eyre and Mansfield Park and all the other female writings. I need some ideas on what to read next, Science fiction/fantasy is my style but I can read nearly anything. Only requirement is that it has substance. I've been thinking of picking up a new author actually, can someone recommand me a suspense or thriller that doesn't have John Grishamm, Sidney Sheldon or Sherlock in it? I've already read most of their works and I think I want to try something new.
On the topic of books, does anyone else here read Fiest? His series is pretty good and highly political. Hmmnn...nothing is better than Elfian politics combined with other dimensions and an overtly large country with ruling problems. Or that's just me. Okay, I think I'll search for more Luc x Sasa fics now, bye~!
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tsubaki
[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 02:35 p.m.]
Yay~!!!!!!!!!!!!! Found my Suiko kick~! //muwhahahaha// All in all, I finally got what I wanted. I nice Luc x Sasarai ficlet~! Yummylicious.....Though it took me quite a while as well as many emails and rants, I think it was worth it. The pain makes the gift ever sweeter...
Didn't check my papers today, mainly cos *gasp!* my exam papers are being marked by the principal! OMG. What have I gotten myself into...Anyways, she's marking mine and Caryn's papers and hopefully we got into Science. She did say that my Chem paper was "okay". Do I take it as a good sign???? *dies* Damn it all....
The weather is getting hotter and hotter, it's hot enough to fry an egg on the streets and that's what's making everyone so annoyed btw. It's the heat......Hmnnn...maybe I'll start making a Luc and Sasarai layout. I dearly want to anyways, before I finish Suiko 3, I MUST have a Luc and Sasa layout. Strange ne? I like calling Sasarai "Sasa" or "Sarsi" *giggles* pet joke.
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tsubaki
[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 04:13 p.m.]
*sighs* Why can't Mr Bush just shut up???
*feels irritated* Sheesh...If you can't find the weapons, then just admit that you just wanted the oil damnit...Ooops! Not supposed to say that out loud right? *faintly annoyed*
Anyways, played Suiko 3 again and was kinda fun to level up a bit before going to the *gasp!* FC'S Hideaway~! Whee~! And my sis is not doing the Luc POV so I'll do it. Oh yessiree.....Luc you sexay hot bod!!! *drools* Sasarai~!~!~~! Somehow, I have devaloped a dislike of anyone with the sirname of "Lightfellow" or maybe it's just me. *prolly not just me though*
School was school and it was BORING. *yawns* As in absolutely fantastically boring. BAH. Even horny schoolgirl conversations are getting bleh...*giggles* Though it's highly interesting how come people know *so* many things...geee...did they take the praticales or what? *hint hint* Skipped Chinese tution today cos I was tired..hey! I'm only human ya know ^^;;; Or maybe, as my sis says "15 years of Idleness". She's quoting what Luc said to Sasarai when they met in Crystal Valley. Should I take it as a compliment? Or maybe she's just tying to say I'm as indolent and as much of a delientte as Sasasrai is. *giggles again* So I'm indolent. So?
Had some lovely ice cream today and later fell asleep. Strange thing was, I knew I was asleep and I couldn't wake up. My eyes were closed and I simply couldn't wake up. It was soooo scary....I wanted to scream but I was asleep. I wanted to hide and run away but I was asleep. I couldn't even wake up. And I was running in circles, weird things kept popping up in my head, one of the pictures I actually remembered clearly was a baby which was blue and had no eyes or anything and crawling and blind and the skin was like digital like glowing blue or some puppet from Brave New World. *shudders* And this isn't the first time either and I'm not the only one who couldn't wake up. My mom has this problem too. It's like getting stuck in your body and you see all sorts of freaky images (my mom aptly calls them "souleaters" and I agree) sometimes I see cities, or this weird flying woman or those children. I swear I'm not making this up. What scared me the most was that I couldn't wake up. *shudders*
I don't watch horror shows, I don't read horror either. When I was younger, there was a story about a man who came out of the wall, that night I couldn't sleep I couldn't breathe I couldn't think and I started crying. And it lasted for 2 weeks.......*trails off* some of you already know this, Niki, do you remember? I was 8 years old and Kor made us watch this show about "Quicksilver"? I could never look a the letter "Q" without remembering..Due to that experience, I've never touched a horror book or movie. It's not overactive imagination either, I really really get scared.
My mom used to work really late and she always wondered why her 7 year old daughter would wait up to 3 am in the morning before sleeping. What she didn't know was that at night, when my sister is sleeping, the shadows go all over the walls and the mirror reflects the light back and that my sleeping sister looks like she's not sleeping but dead. I never wanted to look at a mirror, even when I open door, I always make sure that there's light behind. I switch on the light before opening the door. Always. Even now....And how old am I? 15? Strange ne? I'm not afraid of the dark, I'm afraid of the things in the dark, even though logically speaking, there isn't anything. Just me and my imagination. *shudders*
I think I'm sleep before the lights are off. Night minna.
love
rather frightened tsu
[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 09:56 p.m.]
Yessir~! Tsu = Master Thwacker Tatican
LOL. Defeated Yuber yesterday night with the funkiest group I ever had. They were not only inexperienced but had armour that was sh*t. Funniest thing was, that combo actually beat Yuber. WHEEEEE!!!! GOTCHA!!! HAHAHAHA!!!!! *laughs manically* You can kill me 3 times but I WILL COME BACK TO HAUNT YA!!!! *slaughters Yuber* I AIN'T SCARED OF YOU!!!
Hmnn...I still think I'm going do really badly for my Physics paper cos I couldn't do most of the stuff. Especially that horrible vector force diagram >.< Physics ain't my strong point. Oh yeah, due to weird hentai people, I'm posting what's left of the converstion
Chemistry
Tsu:Sodium Chloride, also known as NaCl...
Sasarai: OOOoooo~ I'm Sodium!~ *bounces in a white suit* Cos I start with an S~ I'm so positive and I react with cold things like Luc.
Luc: Right. Then Cl I suppose stands for Cute Luc? *looks sarcastically* Lemme see...That makes me negative right? I'm not depressing.
Tsu: Forming an ionic compound of Salt..
Sasarai: Salt!!! Stands for Sarasai And Luc Together~! SALT~! Mnnnn....I wanna lick Luc
Luc: Naughty boy *shakes finger* You need to be punished! *suddenly dressed in S&M wear*
Sasarai: Ooooo! Punish me!!!!
Tsu: Geez...I thought you had a room?
Luc: Public sex is more fun.
Sasarai: Luc you make me feel so hot!!!
SWEATDROP
Luc: Firstly, speed of reaction is increased when heat is applied *runs his hands you-know-where*
Sasarai: *giggles* I feel so warm...
Luc: Soon, the rotating particles *digs his fingers in* begin to vibrate and spread apart. *pushes Sasarai's legs apart*
Tsu: OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm only 15!!!!!!!!! *runs away*
Physics
Tsu: Force = Mass x Acceleration.
Luc: Exacatly, to be more forceful *begins to thrust* You have to accelerate..
Sasarai: Oooo..yeah, let's experiment! *groans*
Tsu: 0_o
Luc: Another theory is the angle of incidence and the angle of refraction. The angle of incidence hits the surface *-cough- prostrate -cough-*
Sasarai: Mnnn...more like a critical angle actually...
Luc:And is refracted inside *smirks*
Sasarai: OhhHHHhh...LUC!
Tsu: Can I just buy you guys a room????? And no more Science lectures either! *looks stern*
Sasarai: PUNISH ME~!!!!! *meow*
Tsu:............................................
Well, that's more or less how it went. I sorta censored whatever that was -really- bad but you know it was bad, so yeah. BAD. I can't believe I'm posting this.....Oh kafe. Everyone is gonna look at me weird...
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traumatized tsu //alliteration!//
[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 03:15 p.m.]
IT'S OVER!!! YAY~!!!!
Feel so HAPPY~!!!!!!! WHEEE~!!!!!!!! Lalalalal~! Oh kafe...You don't know HOW happy I am. I think Chemistry was pretty fine but the Physics ughhhhh......//me isn't very physical// Repeat after me: Forces can go to hell, Moments can go to hell, All can go to hell. Thank you. //smiles sweetly//
The exam was just weird...It was only two of us and we did it in the canteen. Yes, in the canteen. Know what was the worst? Luc and Sasarai were....uhh...ENTERTAINING me during the Chemistry paper. Something like this:
tsu: Okay......the oxidation state of oxygen is -2 therefore....
Luc and Sasarai appear: hi tsu~! *sarasai shakes his booty* Geee...that looks like hard work. Doesn't it Luc-anata? *big puppy eyes to Luc* Uh huh...*leers at Sasarai* Hey, I still haven't paid you back flirting with that -boy- you know...
tsu:OH GOD. Hence, the oxidation state of Pb is +4...
Luc pins Sasarai to the nearest mental wall: What was it again? *looks thoughtfully at now flushed Sasarai* Oh yes. What's wrong with a mask? Or my clothes for the matter? *licks Sasarai* N-n-nothing...*Sasarai squirming away from a -lusty- Luc //alliteration!//*
tsu: Kinetic particle theory is the theory that matter is made up of particles arranged differently...*looks at Luc and Sasarai at it like rabbits* OH GOD.
Karen: Oi tsu! Only an hour left!
In various stages of undress Luc: You look so f*cking seductive you know that? Sasarai: uh, please, imotou..//gawd. Luc! Where's your language???//
tsu: Therefore, solids cannot take the shape of the container as the particles are closey packed and only rotate and vibrate-
heck, you know what screwing looks like Luc: vibrate? Interesting concept. Let me proceed to show you....*grins evilly at panting Sasarai*
tsu: -About fixed positions.....
SWEATDROP
tsu:HELP!!!!!!!!!!!
Just a note: If Chemistry was bad, you DON'T want to know what happened during Physics. Let's just say it was rather...-PHYSICAL-. I hope you get it. *me highlights it twice*
Oh, do you like the layout? I like it alot~!!!! And Kaworu is a bish ne??? :) At least they don't do weird things during very important exams....Baka Luc and Sasarai. Bakabakabaka...*grumbles and mumbles* Luc: Did you say anythings? *holds up True Wind and Guardian Eye* Sasarai: Anata...don't waste your time, plus you still haven't scolded me for duelling with you Tsu: *large sweatdrop* Just get a room next time okay?
Oh thanks to Tessie for teaching me Moments and Pivots, Alex for listening to me rant, erieko, Mizumi and kanzuki for your encouragement Aya-imouto for not playing PS2 yesterday when I was studying and grumpy and most of all, Mom~! for sending me back and forth to Gavin's place~! Arigatou to you all~!!!! *bows deeply* Without your help I couldn't have done it....
Okies! Mac's for dinner *yummy double fish burger for finishing papers* Yay~! *runs around in happy circles* whee~!!!
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tsubaki
[Tsubaki dreamed in euphoria 06:01 p.m.]
Tsubaki is a 15 year old girl who like fuffy words like "clouds" or "cotton candy". Loves too many people and prays that those people love her too, her favourite colour is purple despite usually being associated with pink and sparkles *^^* //sparkles!//
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