Listening to: Dr. House
Day one
Much trepidation....new classrooms, new intake, new timetable. They changed it into a cycle-system instead of the usual Monday - Friday kind. I don't mind it, it's more flexible except that I start school at 7.45am and END AT 5pm EVERY DAY! Like WTF ZOMG! *feels pwnzed* And all my tutorials are 1hr long ;_; 'tis suxxxors.
Rushed banner painting and missed Drama 'cos Ms Ting kidnapped me into painting. Stole brushes from the Art room then proceeded to dirty Steffi's classroom because idiots we are, forget to put newspapers.And then I sat on black paint. And my school uniform looks really colourful now. And people keep on thinking I don't have paint on my skirt. LOL. Anyway our banners are cool. They're like 60s' psychedelia influenced in hot pink and brilliant blue with yellow swirls and orange rays. I'm going to give Editorial a image makeover darnit.....studiousness is NOT cool.
Gave Christmas gifts and yea, it was nice seeing everyone back~ After all, everyone likes flowers don't they? Flowers are wonderful to give I think, people who don't appreciate them show -exactly- what kind of person they are.
Oh yeah, I -still- don't like Glen. Ha!
First day and he manages to piss me off.
By the time we finished banner painting and flyer pasting, the school gates were already beginning to close. I was stinky, smelly, sticky and sweaty. Like eewww! grimy! *disgusted* Went home, scrubbed clean and then passed out from exhaustion till tomorrow.
Day two
CCA-fair and Orientation. First lecture of the day and I'M SO HAPPY! *tears of joy* T_____T Marcoecons rocks. It rocks so much it's wonderful. Why? Because it's something I understand intuitively, something that's logical so it makes sense. Like, reasons for trade or FTAs. It's not really studying for me, it's something that I know already somehow because it makes perfect commonsense. <3~~ Compared to last year's fiasco where I barely scraped through for Econs this should be much better. It's like a feeling of release y'know? Last year was terrible....I just didn't get it, I understood the content on a technical level, but it didn't make sense to me and well, regergitation is really not my style.
Finished school at 1.30pm to prepare for the CCA fair (they call it CCA Passout, but it sounds really yelchy don't you think? Passout. Sounds like shit to me) Had trouble finding the booth and spent 15mins dragging it infront and causing Steffi to freak out at my irreligiousness cos I offered to hang our banners below the crucifix and she was like "OMG can you do that?! Like blasphemy!" LOOOL....Anyway we had lots of names and quite some fun (and I was flirting with Mr. I-Live-In-Johor for kicks....evil evil tsu lool) The best was afterwards I got promoted to Student Editor! <3<3<3~ Yay, go me!
I really hope to get a nice testimonal, a good record and nice grades this year.
Even if you start badly, you must end nicely, yes?
:D
The only thing I'm sad is that I missed House on Tuesday ;_;
Waiii~ I wanna see Cameron and Chase have sex~
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 09:34 p.m.+
Shopping today. Bought lots of clothes - 4 shirts, 3 skirts and combined with my sister, blew enough money (zomg designerwear!) to buy a laptop. Anyway it was surprisingly fun, considering last year's fiasco.
Best part? She's willing to buy more clothes. Woohoo!
You realize I'm not feeling guilty at all for using her money. I don't see why I should. Okay so I'm calculative, devious and unscrupulous - but she's got the money to waste (if she can pay for a house in cash, I don't see why I shouldn't use it) and make it fun and amusing for her - why should I care? She's happy, I'm happy the SG economy and whatever country we're shopping in is happy. No problem right?
Besides, she enjoys pretending to be a caring grandmother. The best is when salespeople compliment her on her kindness (wtv man) and she just lights up like a christmas tree.
Who cares? She could buy me designerwear WITHOUT discount.
Dad will never do that, but enough flattery on her and she will.
...Come to think of it, I really need a new pair of shoes. And she offered to get me a proper haircut too!
*thinks deviously* eheheheheheeee
Maybe I should get a shirt from Alain Duclassie too.
*eye glitter* HEHE.
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School sucks.
Am not looking forward to it.
I hate school.
Am not looking forward to it.
Hell is school.
Am not looking forward to it.
Don't want to gooo~
School was invented by the 18th century Industrial Englishpoopers who based it OFF A PRISON.
I don't like prison.
I don't like school. ;_________;
Save meeeeeeeeee
*clings to bed*
School is evil and wakes you early. School has uniforms made of fireproof and waterproof plastic. School has lectures and tutorials and assignments and all sorts of yucky things that are based off Torture For Kids 101#.
*clings to pillow*
And it's starting tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!
Waiiiiiiiiiiiiiii T___________T
Last hours of freedom
Is that what a prisoner on excution feels?
love *sniffle*
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 08:35 p.m.+
listening to: Goodbye
tsu be good~ lol...If I were actually good, I would do more homewokr but ......*sighs* Goodness, much like intelligence, is overrated.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
Went out yesterday with audy and met up with Gerald and Gary at Orchard to play foam. "Play" in the loosiest sense of the word. It's more like a war zone. Bought cans of spray, then started splooshing people and got splooshed back. It went EVERYWHERE. Hair, clothes, eyes, mouth, ears, neck... hell, I even got some under my fingernails. It wasn't so bad in the beginning ^^ okay so we got really dirty and the stuff makes your hair stick like hairspray but it was FUN. After a while everyone was coughing and hacking away cos the air was thick with the smell of ozone + CFCs (I'm quite sure we just added to gobal warming) and you just couldn't breathe. It didn't help that the stuff got into your nose and mouth - tasted terrible, like alkaline. It was still fun though, running around with foam cans spraying on fellow foamers who were roaming around in packs, armed with foamy arsenal. Then there were those who stood at the sidelines, forming alliances and guarding their terrority.
Imagine as though the world was suddenly populated by packs of teenagers, armed with spray cans playing counterstrike.
I say "packs" - not gangs or groups because that's what is was - packs of teenagers. Huddled in small, tightly-knit groups with wary eyes, roaming through the streets of Orchard forming quick alliances, armed with cans of spray, attacking and when provoked.
Kinda cool. Seeing Darwinism in action, lol.
The worst-hit was the area near Takashimaya, the crowd has swelled up to thousands with flashing lights and smoke and music and partypoppers and everyone was just spraying each other in a tremendous free for all - just spraying without provocation. The crowd surged, pushing and pulling and dragging away like a tremendous undefatiguable wave to the point that we were nearly always seperated and retriving each person was difficult. It doesn't help that you're a girl either. I don't know why audy didn't get groped (maybe she looked too much like a boy, or I looked too much like a girl) - anyway, having your body parts grabbed and squeezed and being pressed (I swear I felt a couple of boners ewwww) wasn't exactly the most pleasant experience to be repeated.
After Taka it wasn't so bad, you could -walk- at least. There wasn't a lot of space, but at least you could breathe.
It's fun, but it's pretty dangerous as well. If not for Gerald pulling me out of the crowd around Taka-area (should thank him) I would've freaked out pretty soon. I'm not exactly the most crowd-loving person, and I was pretty near the limit of my tolerance. I think it's those kind of things that maybe you do once or twice in your life, then you figure that being sprayed, molested and pushed around isn't exactly the most wonderful way of celebrating.
lol
it was hell fun though~
something to do when you're young.
Walked to Douby Ghaut, sat around and talked and cooled off a bit to look more presentable. Sent audy off, called kor to pick me up (bus services long over) and went home to scrub myself clean. Foam, I realize, dries like hairspray and confetti has the stickyness of chewing gum. I spent over an hour detangling my hair (doesn't help that it's long) then combing it through again and again and slapping on conditioner just in case. I was kinda worried about skin too, so I scrubbed as much of it off as possible - didn't really help much cos the next day I itched like crazy. *dies* tsu is an IDIOT. Then popped 2 clariynase just is case sinusitis decided to make a comeback. I'm not sure -what's- inside those cans, but I'm pretty sure it's nothing good. So. Better be safe than sorry.
I didn't realize that the night was so cold though.
After cleaning off, I had to make tea cos I was so cold.
And if I decide to play again next year, I'm going to be smart and pack properly. Hankerchief to tie around mouth/nose, a towel, a spraybottle of water, drinking water and a clean shirt. And I'll wear pants and tie my hair up into a cap. Spraying is fun, being groped is a litte........daunting. It just felt digusting being touched like that.
But it was kinda fun ^^ and there were good parts~
Next year? Who knows~
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Slacked today. On the other hand, I did inform my teacher (via MSN) that I couldn't finish my homework and I did finish the most pressing work i.e. Editorial junk, Econs MCQ + 2 essays + 1 article. Just sleep, read and read.
Read Blankets (Craig Thompson) again, and everytime I read it, I think of Mrs Alex whom I'll be forever grateful to. I wasn't exactly a star student and there were some teachers who said I was unteachable and unreasonable. Instead of believing them, she just treated me like any other student and listened to me. And she believed in me, not like "I believe you have potential" but believe - as in "I trust you to do the right thing for yourself".
That's something very rare, I think.
For someone to trust another person's judgement wholeheartedly.
Read "Last Halloween", recommended by Kor which is a Batman comic done in film noir style by Jeph Loeb (of Hush fame). I think our biggest tie together is comics. English comics. Seriously. I practically grew up reading comics - English, Japanese, etc - and I owe part of it to my brother. Hell, he was the first person to introduce me into anime (ooooh! addiction!), and manga (Ruroni Kenshin!) and Neil Gaiman and
well, English comics.
I think my *first* comic was Marvel. I didn't get into DC Vertigo till later (though now it's my favourite house) The first comic I bought was Sandman though, Seasons of Mist.
Anyway, Last Halloween is good. Great plot, FANTASTIC colouring&artwork - reminds you of Sin City and very very worth it. The cover is really cool - black, white and blue. The book is cool because what grabs you isn't the colour but rather - the lack of it. Audy would lurve it~ Like the gunshot scene - 6 equal panels of a gun, hand, doorknob, edge of bathtub, glove and door closing. Next page: spread of a man lying dead in a bathtub in black and white. And the bathwater is totally RED, with splotches of blood on the floor.
very very cool
the line art suits it too, all clean and unfussy, but amazingly sexy. (catwoman would make anyone horny)
Anyway, going out tomorrow with mom and maybe ma-ma (fraternal grandmother). Need to buy CNY clothes *sighs* January 29th!
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 06:59 p.m.+
Knock knock knock'in on what else? Guilt
I feel like I shouldn't be having fun at all.
*feels guilty*
Not like I want to be a hermit or anything, but it's -
duty calls y'know?
It's more or less a gaurentee that I won't be able to complete my Econs homework in time. 5 prelim papers and 5 articles is insane insane insane. *sighs* Though I'm going out on New Year's Eve with audy, I feel a bit like an extra *wants to hide* and also living with the fact that a)my homework is undone b)tomorrow I'll have to be in school at 10am in the morning.
It's like ...I want to go but I'm scared of going and it really doesn't help that I haven't completed work yet. But I want to go, because y'know - next year I won't be in SG
I think part of the problem is that I've never really found JC of any use. It's a "grit teeth and do" situation where I try not to spend 3/4 of my time daydreaming about fashion designs and patternmaking and other sundries. My head just gets clogged up with wishing.
*can't concentrate*
Well anyway, tomorrow I'm going to get some fresh air and do some skirt-shopping to feel better as well as buy some flowers for school.
MSN not working
And I'm running out of things to say on my Standford essay.
*dies*
In this situation, people say " Well....Fuck."
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 09:50 p.m.+
I am never going to finish my homework in time. ;_;
Sometimes I wonder why I'm in JC, simply because it's like an extended version of O levels, and O levels was bad enough to give me a cardic arrest already. And I'm all jittery over A levels because I don't feel very intelligent, or very prepared.
Choosing to be normal. It's funny to think about it, that you can conciously decide to be normal but it came up yesterday when I was talking with my sis. That the biggest decision in your life isn't your school, your job or partner........it's deciding whether you want to be normal or not.
If like you choose to be extraordinary, to make a difference, you have to consciously chase after success and ideal, like how some people are defined by their cardinal characteristics. Like say....Mother Theresa, her cardinal characteristic is to help the poor in India. Then her kindness and wisdom are secondary characteristics. Not everyone has a cardinal characteristic - therefore if you choose to develop one, you're throwing away a nice, normal life in suburbia.
I feel like that sometimes.
On hand, I really want to help people. On the other hand, I'm pretty happy playing in the sand in some remote Carribean island and teaching for a living. I'm not a terrible teacher and everyone wants to learn English. So when you think about it, the biggest decision is whether you want to be normal, unknown and live happily or you want to drive yourself crazy trying to help people who might not be grateful/will kill you.
It's not whether you -can- do it, it's more whether you want to or not.
I suppose if you were to look at it from an econs point of view, the largest incentive is fame (stroke da EGO!) and a sense of satisfaction. People are honest, but not generally sacrifical. Hell, even though I want to help people, I'm having trouble deciding whether to or not. Long hours, ingraditude, cynicism from critics........it's not exactly the kind of thing that's profitable.
Funny how people never notice that they make this decision for themselves......
Personally I think it's because they'll rather not know. Imagine living with the knowledge that you had the power to help, but didn't because you were too much of a selfish pig to do anything about it.
Not very nice huh?
Better not to know.
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Damned I think I need a layout change for the New Year. Come of think of it, January is filled with holidays :D There's Chinese New Year (3 days off! :D), then there's Hari Raya Haji (1 day off!) and New Year (1 day off!) ...*sighs happily* Such a high concentration of holidays~ Although that means that Feb. will have zero days off, and March will only have the pitiful one week term break.
I'm still kinda jittery about next year. Nothing and I mean - nothing can compare to A level stress. It's like this looming disaster at the back of your mind, hovering like an insidious shadow and you're just WAITING for the bloody sky to fall. It's worse than O levels cos O levels - I was pretty prepared, and I sort of guessed that I'll pass okay. The only problem was Math, but other than that it was pretty decent. A levels however is a free for all wrestling match, and no one is your ally. I'm still pissed at Graham because I tutored him and that bloody faggot got higher than I did. *pissed* I'm so NOT lending out my notes next year. Altruism doesn't pay off.
And somehow or other since Zara and Izyanti quit I'm in charge of banner AND orientation. WTF WTF WTF is the correct response. Especially since NONE of the banners are painted and NONE of the flyers have been printed. Best is those bloody fucking Student Councilers who decided to change the date of the CCA from 8th Jan to 3rd Jan.
It doesn't help that the teachers are unrealistic.
My God, I miss Wilkie's commonsense.
*sighs*
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 09:16 p.m.+
Economics and what else? Econs!
Econs suck. Actually, it doesn't because if you read enough of Freakonomics it actually becomes interesting. Like that you're more likely to die of a swimming accident than a gunshot in US. The most interesting part however, is What Is a Good Parent?
They factorize it according to how successful the child is as an adult. So anyway, I'm not going to regurgitate mountains of satistics, but the conclusion is: "It doesn't matter WHAT your parents do to you, the biggest culprit is Genetics."
So if you want to be successful, you need parents who are well-educated, stable socioeconomic status in good health. That's it. That's good parenting. Kinda puts Darwin on the spot eh? If you think about it, it does make a hell lot of sense. If your parents are healthy, your birthweight is higher thus your development is faster. Since IQ is heriditary, having well-educated parents pay off. The crux factor as usually is - what else? - money. The higher your socioeconomic status, the better your chances of success.
It's always good to know that everything can be solved with a math equation.
So while parenting is wonderfully interesting (so is how to be a drug syndicate) my homework is wonderfully un-interesting. Supposed to do a write up on an article (say: clubbing) using Econs theory. It's all fine and dandy, except that I picked ASEAN+3 which has so many variables I feel like I'm writing a thesis, not an article.
It's like a game.
So we start with the players. ASEAN+3 consists of the entire East Asia reigion, complete with India, China and Japan. The population : 1/3 of the world. Assets: 1/2 the world's foreigh exchange reserves, 1/3 the world G.D.P and one of the largest economies in the world. (Japan ranks 5th I think) Not to mention up-and-coming India and China.
Goal: To free individual markets and form one big ASEAN+3 free market. Quote: "one economic entity"
Incentives:
for Governments
- FTAs
- less red-tape/bureacracy
- Bigger markets
- Larger combined assets
- Economic Stability
- General growth in the region i.e EoS benefits
- Labour mobility (ie. can work elsewhere)
- Enough force to give USofA a shove.
for businessness
- cheaper labour
- less tariffs
- less adminstrative problems (Entry down)
- Regional stability
- Pooling of resources i.e if SG becomes a financial hub, everyone benefits
- Greater prospects of getting overseas investments
- Protection (ie. products sell first) from EU, US, Latin America etc
for consumer:
- Competition = low prices + innovation
- cheaper imported products
- less price discrimation (segregating markets = very hard)
- larger product variety
for worker:
- mobility (can work in ANY of the ASEAN+3)
- less paperwork to get from place to place
- greater choice of employer
Problems:
Transition problems:
- unemployment
- surge of crime esp. illegal immigrants
- pricing controls/inflation
- currency valuement
for business:
- competition = some of'em will close down because a worker in SG will never be able to compete with an Indonesian worker.
- competition = poorer countries VS rich country technology? No win.
- Corruption corruption corruption
for consumer:
- cheats/fraudulent products
- pricing/inflation esp. high-demand goods.
for workers:
- competition = mobility means that EVERYONE can apply for your job.
- downsizing
- lack of protection. Instance, if you worked as a maid in SG and being abused, there's very little help you can get especially in low-entry jobs like construction or roadsweeping. Also, Asia never NEVER has a policy for low-entry migrants or refugees, so the chances of being sent back is much higher.
Conclusion?
Like all capitalist societies - the rich get richer and the poor get poorer. It's not a very fair trade if you think about it. Rich people get richer due to cheap labour, less taxations and less redtape from poor countries. The poor countries have a bigger market, but if they don't have anything to sell or don't have the expertise to sell - what's the point of having such a market anyway?
Skepticism:
- such summits actually succeeding? 1/200. Govts love to talk and not do much about it.
- No long-term agenda. Unlike EU with a focus on human rights, democracy etc......Asia doesn't have that. Wonder how long the Noninterference rule will last?
- Co-operation. The day Japan starts importing Thai rice and cutting off subsidies to farmers....I'll dance the chickendance in my knickers. Getting China to talk to Taiwan would be like, REALLY FUN TOO.
- Heavyweights. A shouting match between China and India to see who's bigger is just.........ARGH.
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Though it'll be nice that ASEAN+3 can dictate our future, I wonder whether it'll actually work out or not.
cheers + love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 09:58 p.m.+
One word: Traumatized.
I am forever going to be mentally scarred by that PV.
Harzardous to your health.
*hides under MTV*
I'll come out once I feel safe again : x
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 02:33 a.m.+
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Imagine:
Quiet.
In darkness, it was always quiet.
The edgy dissonance of the sound - the lack of it. Emptiness, void, nuit, nought, nothingness..... A mere difference of names, the subtlies of meaning. In the quietest of darkness, the emptiest of voids ----
spins a whirlpool
A gravity pulled whirlpool of floating sand, sand so fine it fills your ears and covers your eyes - blind, blind, blind and soundless. Spinning slowly inside you and outside; directionless and senseless and meaningless trapped within and out of it
-you-
Like a cloud that follows
Outrun it, outdistance it
unable to - because it moves
With you.
Volitionally.
[Hegel's law: a repicoral particle of self and I.]
[Imagine the possibilities]
Walking through the absolutes of sounding silence
Fate spins in gravitons; a swirling cloud inside/outside
all blind and deaf within the spiralling storm.
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Red. Red of all names - carmine, magenta, blood, rose - all the reds you can think of, every spectrum of the shade, exploding in the mind like a burst of a bloom; an explosion of sheer red
When I remember her; the thought of it is a thoughtful red
A thoughtful umber red.
-In the summer of 1965- as the story goes.....
Summer was brown - dirt brown, earth brown, shit brown, dried brown - the brown that seen too many suns, the brown of roasted earth, the brown of dust and dirt and scorched dirt - brown sand benath our barefeet dry and dusty from the lack of rain; particles so fine that clung to our skin and hair and faces like children rolled in brown flour, chasing chirping cicadas pii!pii! hidden within fields of dry, crunching grass with lifeless twigs and merciless energy as our mothers planned our fates, talking about others and never themsleves. And summer - the eternal summers after that- would always be soaked in heady humid air and dusty grain of sepia photographs.
It was late afternoon when I first saw her.
Her - not anyone else. No one else but me.
She was wearing red - a peony red, like an oversaturation of colour, until she seemed nothing more than a red silhuoette with painted red lips and glowing dark eyes. And she was beautiful. That struck me then as a child - that this was perhaps the most beautiful person I've ever seen. It wasn't something you could pinpoint, just that you knew that she was perhaps the most beautiful person you've ever seen.
And this most beautiful person, was moving in next door to me.
I watched her every day after that. The way her hips moved in a swaying walk, side to side in a fascinating flex of muscles, the faint scent of makeup and perfume, a wisp of it that clung to her skin, the cheongsams she wore - perfectly capturing her sylph-like figure in an encasement of red silk, tantalizingly before you like a red dream. Cherry red, Rose red, red of India, Madder red, Coral red and my favourite, Scarlet - she wore them like her moods, a different one every day. Day after day I watched as she smiled, her hands fluttering, her eyes darkly bright as she greeted the string of men that flowed in and out of her door.
It was just so wonderful to watch her.
As if watching beauty was a pleasure itself.
And then just one final summer day, she packed and left.
I don't remember much about it.
Movers coming as they hoisted the furniture out- smelling of sweet silk and musk, as old ladies gossiped with sharp eyes and sharper tongues, filled with the envy of the young and beautiful. Words that roll off: regret, wish, envy that coloured their lips like the way red coloured hers.
But then I passed her, on that final summer day with my feet brown from sandy dust, sitting in the corner of the playground building sandcastles and princesses. She seemed to be like a dream - a hurried beautiful walking dream standing against the late afternoon light, washed with gold and glowing with the red of her dress - the most beautiful red like the colour of fresh blood and roses and all sorts of promises and every good thing I could think of. And she smiled at me, her red lips moving like a picture - upwards and across as her lily white hands opened and dropped something on my lap.
Candy. Red candy.
I wasn't supposed to eat before dinner, but I couldn't resist the glowing, ruby candy on my lap. It was delicious. Sweet and sticky and strawberry-flavoured it coated my lips and mouth, syrup covering my smeared lips a cherry sugared red.
And that was the last time I saw her.
This was what I remembered most clearly about her: the jewelled candy on my lap, the sweet sweet taste of illicit sugar and perhaps, the most beautiful person, the most beautiful red - in the world.
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enjoy!
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 05:48 p.m.+
yay! kz absolutely senseless post
I figured I should do some sort of christmas post considering.
But y'know what? I'm sleepy from watching old MTV vids till 5am in the morning (ZOMG! Paula Abudul videos! Boy George!) and stuffed from cake, cake, ham, cake, chicken, cake and well, cake. And I problably never want to eat again.
*turns into a pillow*
Anyway I have 2 new books, a gazillion amount of keychains (I don't even use them! o.O;;;;), a hanging cushion-thing with "TSU" in bright pink and flying fish, a locket, and a flower.
Anyway it was pretty much okay, nothing unexpected and everyone had a good time I think. Watched movies - Taxi, Iron Ladies, Bayside Shakedown 2 and My Tutor Friend. Rubbishness rulez! Watched enough movies to not want to watch movies for a while. And if Memoirs of a Geisha ends up being R21 I'll just dl it. Screw censorship darn itsss.
Oh yeah, Sharon didn't come, but I kinda knew. She could've just told me and not lied. I won't get mad y'know. Except when people lie miserably.
btw, Hana Yori Dango epi9 is really cool
OMGZ TEH ENGRISHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 02:07 a.m.+
Merry merry christmas to all~
And the happiest New Year!
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 10:24 p.m.+
I wonder
Anyone nice enough to send me food packages when I go USofA?
The LIST
Met Alex (Neo, not Alexiel) and went to get the stuff for CCA. Got some pretty cloth, and paint before turning into tsu The RomanceConselor.
LOL.
Never fails to amaze me how people feel I can solve their emotional problems considering I've never been in any relationship (except with audy! woohoo!)
First Sharon and her secret boyfriend and now Alex and her secret boyfriend. Alex has a point though. Her parents suck. Basically Wei Yang is a really nice guy from AJC doing Computer Science and is an A-star student. However he is poor and no-status, not to mention he's doing a subject that won't make him a future doctor or lawyer or billianaire. And he seems like a fairly decent guy, so I can't really fault Alex for her choice.
Then again, Alex is smart. It's just that she thinks I'm smarter when I'm not (hah!). She's logical, even in panicky solutions and has an innate calculativeness. I just hope she doesn't lose her perspective just because she doesn't like her parents attitude - getting yourself into a relationship just to rebel is NOT cool.
Anyway helped her wrap her gift for him (sho shweet!) because she doesn't know how to wrap o.O .....so much tape deshou na.
Looking at old pictures make me happy and sad at the same time
I wonder perhaps, who forgot the most?
who changed the most?
Anyways! Back to festivities! :D
Helped sis make chocolate cake for tomorrow. It's a double layer chocolate cake with raspberries, blackberries and strawberries with chocolate cream and ganache~<3<3<3 Anyway, when it comes to big cooking, sis is boss. She might be younger, shorter etc etc but when it comes to the kitchen it's like "jie! beat the eggs." "jie! stir slowly!" "jie! don't lick your fingers!" LOL.....tyrannical!sis when it comes to cooking.
It looks really good though
I'm always happy when other people are happy and plan-ish
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I think I made audy sad today by sending her old pictures.
I don't want her to be sad, but I don't want her to forget.
I think sometimes she forgets who I am, and thinks I'm someone else that she can't recognize. And I don't know how to make her remember besides that. Sometimes I even hate the Poly people she's now usually with - because they make her forget. And when she sees the old pictures, she doesn't know what to feel because she remembers but now she doesn't want to remember. Though I'm more or less resigned to the new!Audrey, I can't help but wish for phiphi back.
Ah well~ can't live in past all the time :D
Natural for things to change right?
One day she'll get married and have kids
And I'll be a auntie lol.
I just don't want to forget that it was a happytime
But since it makes her sad, I'll keep the rest of the pictures for myself.
After all, someone has to remember.
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Memory is a funny thing.
Some people can never remember anything (like mom)
Some people remember selectively
Some people never forget
Some people never try at all.
If you made a promise
And 5 years later someone asked you
Could you remember the same feeling that drove you before?
*nibbles lip* Hmmmm
I suppose it's easier remember how you thought
than the combination of feelings
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in words, there are always shadows
the sound that lingers in the mind
half-caught, half-felt - disquiet
that no paper can carry in fancy
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I was just thinking that if people's souls look like flowers, what kind of flowers would they be?
Sak would be like those spray roses; fresh, pink and sweetly frangrant - like sugarcakes. Aya would be like a white violet, with purple streaks in the heart. Natz would be like a bunch of Geberas - bright and loud and zany and utterly wonderful. Toraneko would be a tigerlily - or snapdragon, those bright red/orange ones that practically burst into bloom. Zutto would be marigold/carnation - sparkling and fiery and loud but somewhat sweet in a prickly way. Sharon would be a red rose - openly sensual and passionate, but the sensuality belies innocence. Mom would be like yellow narcissus- cheerfully homely, motherly and practical.
I wonder what flower would my soul look like? *dreamily*
I don't think tsubaki~ because as much as I love them (esp. the red ones) I think they're so sad and tragic that no one should be like that.
Talking about flowers, I think I'll go buy a big bunch of white roses on my birthday ^^ Or someone can get it for me and give it to me in school~ I doubt anyone will anyway. Ah well. White roses! Me loves you the oftenest. Perhaps not the most, but oftenest.
D'you know that once in a while I wish my name was Elizabeth? I think it's such a pretty name. True, mine doesn't sound too bad but it was given by a priest, and priests are unrealiable. But I'll never be an Elizabeth - for me, it always sounds so fairylike and elvish, like those little princesses in English fairytales; all slender and slip with ripples of golden hair and delicate delicate smiles~....
Talking nonsense is fun, especially if you're DIY-ing
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My sister says I talk in my sleep~
I believe it.
Sometimes I fall asleep and I can't wake up
It's very scary because you know you're asleep and your body doesn't move.
My method of dealing with it is:
-try to talk
-speed my breathing up and down until I "wake"
-move
I dunno.
It's rather scary but I've gotten used to it.
Although now you know that if I look like I'm behaving weirdly in sleep, it just means I'm trying to wake up.
You could try and shake me ^-^
Very much appreciated.
let every shadow and every light, bask in the warmth of love
lovelove <3<3<3
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 12:21 a.m.+
"zomg!" is offically my favourite expression nowadays.
The "ZOMG!" describes:
-the amount of homework
-the amount of undone homework
-the lack of money
-the lack of people
-the lack of everything
Out of my insane amount of Econs homework I've just started a tiny tiny bit. ;____; MS GIAM IS EVIL! *stabsstabs* I hope you don't get married! HAH!!!!
Christmas is coming~ lalalalala........
I'm looking forward and not as well
I like presents and lots of people
But it's a sign that school will be starting soon!;_;
And waaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh! Uni-entrance exams! *dies*
Went out with mom to get Sis's christmas gift, a new mug (mine broke) and some trimmings. ^-^ I like my new mug! It's got a cat design with ribbon and everyone thinks it looks kinda like me ^^; so weird right? Anyway sis got a toothbrush xD~ and the trimmings stuff is really pretty <3 I like pretty.
Kinda sleepy today
Need to go with Alex to get stuff for school orientation
*sighs*
Orientation = too much work = dunno how I ended up with it
Actually I do know how I ended up with it. It's kinda like: lack of people (esp. after zara and Izyanti left) + tsu is USEFUL!minion = delegated from the higher-ups.
Tomorrow will be a loooooong day
lovelove~
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 10:28 p.m.+
And you see, that's why eating bean noodles is good for you
I'm pretty genki-ish today, even though I slept really late. (5.30am to be exact) I finished 2.5 Econs MCQ (then realized that ZOMG! I FORGOT EVERYTHING!) and then felt really hungry.
But we're out of soba and tofu, and I don't like instant noodles so.......
RICE VERMICELLI!
I remembered from my sis that all you needed to do was to soak that stuff in the water, and it'll cook. And y'know what? It's true! So I have vermicelli noodles (taung hoon) with minced beef and egg. Need to buy more tsuyu too.
Not only did it taste good, it gave me really good dreams too~<3<3<3<3<3<3 I dreamt of Seishirou and Subaru - and how positively adorable! they looked together *squee* It was a really good dream - earth shaking powers, Seishirou leaning over Subaru while he looked angsty and frustrated, lots of smirkity smirks - the clearest thing I remember was that Seishirou was wearing green and he looked like TRC
Anyway it was good. I didn't want to wake up.
Alex called to tell me bad news (geez) ie. Zara and Izyanti quit Editorial, and I'm the offical person in charge of Orientation (just frikkin great) and the Prose/Poetry competition (even better!) *sarcasm* Why why why....*sighs* Ah well. Crap suxxors.
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I wish I was a philantrophist.
*frustrated*
True altruism does not exist - but it's not altruism that makes me so annoying/frustrated - it's this sense of helplessness that irritates me. Sometimes I want so badly to grow up faster, to finish my degree faster, to start business faster so I can help these people. It's like a vision, like imagine, that the nelgected, poor and oppressed in Asia (why do they always ALWAYS look at Africa?!?!?!) - especially the women - can gain some semblence of dignity, to have a job, to be educated, to be able to choose what they want.
And then I remember that I'm only 17
And I feel so - so constipated
I'm sure I've asked all my friends at least once - if they wanted to work for me. You know why I ask so early? Because the truth is I have no wish to own a fashion empire, to earn fame or fortune - I wanted to be a doctor to save lives, if
I can't be one - at least maybe I can start a fund to do so.
That's why I want devoted people - not people who can't make a commitment, not people who are more interested in themselves.....*sighs*
I sound so daydreamy......
And usually I'm so practical.
I think...in the end, if I can't find anyone I'll just dig through with it, I'll find another way of making money...and
perhaps, one day I'll be able to save lives as well - like any doctor.
So rant-ish....
Sometimes I feel a little envious of my sister, because she can be a doctor and I can't. But perhaps, my destiny is somewhere else.
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Mom is back from Pakistan, cousins visited and dinner was delicious :D Downloading more Dr. House episodes....ahahah I love how he makes fun of Chase all the time xD
Anyway:
Tactics 7# part 2
I think scanlating improves my Chinese, looool
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 09:56 p.m.+
;_; My head hurts~
Have a migraine leeching itself on the back left of my brain
*miserable* myuuu~
Anyway, gift to all:
Tactics 7# scanlations
I'm quite proud that I did them myself!~ :D
My Chinese isn't that awful after all
Although translating Raikou's conversations are a pain in the ass.
Watched Perhaps Love today, and yes, it's as sappy and angsty as it sounds. It's more of a "Maybe Love" than a "Perhaps Love" though :P To quote my sister (whom I dragged along) I was "sniffling" throughout the show and tearing at various angstfest parts.
Very very angsty
Very very pretty
Makes you hungry for hot&sour noodles though....
hmmnnn....
My sis had a super-craving for wonton mee after that.
Btw, Takeshi Kaneshirou looks a lot, a LOT like Aizen-taichou~<3 muchly love indeed~
I'm really happy with my new purple skirt and grey shirt (though the shirt makes me look like a homeless squatter). It's a swishy purple skirt with laced sides and it matches with -grey- <3 my 2 fav colours (so usually unmatchable) together!
Went home and ate noodles~ LOL
Perhaps Love is a noodle-eating movie
Watched TV, scanlated somemore and FINALLY! Visted yaoi_daily after days of abstinence. My brother is overnighting at a hospital you see, so I get the comp!<3<3<3
love <3<3<3
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 01:02 a.m.+
Listening to: Frou Frou
Astrelle.net has deleted, therefore I'm now host-less in need of a new one. Well, not too quickly anyway. Transferring files in a major pain *sighs* On the other hand, I'm thinking of just setting up a new LJ account just for that purpose. No layout problems, http problems and most importantly, a definite server space (which will not suddenly disappear)
*sighs* And I'll never get to use my matching(!) Pipedreams layout.
On the other hand, if I use LJ, updating will be hell easier because the reason why I don't update is simply because I have converting to html, redoing the index page AND uploading it again. It usually takes an entire day to do it and my mindset is: update one chapter is simply not worth the effort.
Okay. Back to my boring life. You're all cool on reality TV right? loooool
Thursday/Friday
Did MORE christmas shopping, and I'm glad to say that EVERYONE IS DONNNNNNNEEEEEEE! Oh goodness, it feels so good to say it. Had more gelato and the mango alfonso (from Venezia) is pretty good. I really miss da paolo's though *sniffles* No art class = no cheap Italian ice cream. LOL
Played Wild Arms and looking for Little Rock is pissing me off. How am I supposed to get to X: 25,559 Y: 12,488 when it's OFF THE MAP?!!?!?!?!?!? *screams in rage* Though I can say that my characters is like, 4 times higher than the recommended level because of it. *gets hopelessly lost* F*ck f*ckf*ck.
Saturday
Went out with audy and exchanged gifts ^^;;; arghz I can't believe I gave her the same thing as her birthday lastlast year! *knocks self* Anyway, she gave me a potted FlipFlap plant. If you don't know what a FlipFlap is, it's a solar-powered potted plant requiring no water, no battery and just sunlight. Why she gave me a plastic potted solar plant? Quote: "Because I remember when I first saw you, you looked like the type who'll talk to plants."
Well errrr....I do. Sometimes.
Anyway it's now on my computer windowstill so I can stare at it and get enough sunlight.
Went to look at clothes and the things only Far East Plaza will sell. Like scary China-made EGL goods made of cheaptacky!lace and sleazy, p0rn looking maid outfits. Anyway, audy went to get Chinese New Year clothes (which is next year, in late Feb) It's just pretty early to get such clothes don't you think? *shakes head* She bought a bubble-skirt (which is decent). She made me try it on though -_-;;; For what I'll never know. LOOL Anyway she looks fine in it, but it makes me look untidy. I don't like untidy. I don't mind messy, but I like the delicate kind of polish that swishy skirts and collared shirts have.
Punk ain't just in me kz? LOL
18th century mentality indeed xD
I guess the truth is I'm not very fond of the 21st century, it's not that I like being prim and properly prudish, but I do value a sense of decency, properiety and genteelity. In which, you find that in this century people don't doff hats, but stick up middle fingers and practice wonderfully uncourteous behaviour which reminds me more of primates, than actual civilized beings.
I really hate these kind of people.
*sighs* It just -rankles- y'know?
People who cut queues, who shove old ladies in trains, who talk loudly on handphones during movies and theatrical shows, people who try to bully salespeople, who never say "please" and "thank you", people who throw their trash everywhere in public and smoke carelessly......ARGH
And I don't believe this only happens in SG
Rude inconsiderate people exist everywhere.
You can say I'm old-fashioned, but wtf is wrong with being old-fashioned if it means a more courteous nature and goodwill?
Anyway.
Went to the florist's to get flowers for Sharon's grandmother's memorial, lovely spray roses - tea roses - and baby's breath and slacked around the station just talking. I left for Sharon's thing, and audy went off for more shopping or went home for Bleach.
I was terribly late and terribly lost because the directions she gave me was wrong (ARGH IT IS NOT 8 STOPS AWAY!) It's actually only 4, and I ended up at SG General Hospital instead of St Theresa's church for the memorial service. ARGH. Anyway it was really nice to catch up with her, though I'm a little sad that she might to going to Aust. as well. *sighs* Why why why is everyone leaving for Aust?!?!?!
In the end, it'll be only audy and I left.
Then I'll go US (and be sad and alone)
And audy will be in SG (sad but not quite alone)
Apparently she did badly for JC, which make me infinitely grateful that I passed - supposedly only 10% of the population make it into JC, out of which 200/900 had to retake, 100 or so retained and 400 have to take sub-papers. (that's only in my school though)
I guess it's the same for most JCs
From what I hear, at least a gazillion people are moving to Poly.
I guess in a way it's more sensible to go Poly, not to say that it's easier, but at least it has a higher passing rate. Might as well go Poly and pass, instead of retaking over and over again and merely scraping through A levels.
<----very very grateful she passed
Met some of her friends : Harris, Ray and another guy. LOL It was so fun! Ahahaha...Harris and I kept on daring each other to do stupid things (we hit right off because he reminds me of Sak) and it was pretty fun. Like taking pictures in front of MacDonald's. Or stealing Ferra Roche from the christmas tree. Or eating fried sushi. Or moving billboards. Or racing inside shopping malls. Or shouting "cocksucker" at the Interchange. Or flashing our underwear to get a cab. Etc etc etc.
In the same way Sak is terribly bad for everyone around me, Harris is too cos we end up doing stupidest things ever.
And yes! He's a taurus too. LOOL
Sharon was pretty surprised that we got along so quickly. But it's not too difficult, lol. Ray is pretty nice too, and her cousin (the other guy) is a Bleach fan too! LOL. Life is good when you can talk about how hot taichous are.
Oh yeah, Sharon's new/old bf is from church. She ditched the other guy cos he was a pervert....*sighs* Err...Sharon? You're never going to read this but - I think maybe you need to settle a bit. This new guy, Shawn, I'm not saying he's a bad guy, but he sounds mightily unrealiable. He dropped out of Poly (because he was bored?! what kind of reason is that?) and he was doing Aeronautics (what kind of course was that?!) and he just hangs around now? Maybe you like each other yes, but he doesn't sound very stable. And even though it's exciting now, in the end, you'll want someone to rely on.
Went home and logged to Lumene xD It's this Tetris-esque game on PSP which has addicted everyone in the family. LOL. Played till sleepy, then slept. Mom's now in Pakistan....have a safe trip ^^
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 05:08 p.m.+
There's something SERIOUSLY wrong with my internet.
List of complaints:
-Can't sign in to MSN
-Can't view ANYONE'S layout
-Can't acess Astrelle.net
-Can't get into LJ
-d/c d/c D/C!!!!
response: ARGH ARGH ARGH AGRH
Anyway did some more shopping with mom, and it's kinda funny how she refuses to see that I'm going to be 18 soon even though I'm taller than her yay! And that guys are beginning to notice me Cleared the Pakistan people off the list, and dad as well. I guess even though I haven't forgotten anything (hah! unlikely!), I've somewhat forgiven him.
LOL....Too much effort to be angry all the time.
tsu <----lazy
I don't really want to delve too deeply on anything.
The moon is beautiful tonight. Bright clear winter moon, shining white against a sea of clouds, like poetry perfection. The clouds that drift by seem less like clouds, more like opium smoke shaped like mostaches, then glowing transcluently on the clear moonlight. It's so pretty na~ Behind the clouds, within the clouds, above them or just glowing.......so perfectly clear that you can even see the rabbit prancing upon the surface light.
Watched hana yori dango and .....ZOMG! SOUJIROU X YUKI!<3<3<3 The whole Tsukasa x Tsukushi x Rui is bloody uninteresting (though very very amusing) Is it wrong that I think Soujirou is hot? And that Yuki and Soujirou are so bloody cute together I might actually use the word "kawaii"?
Anyway.
Btw, I'm beginning to notice a pattern that I like names with S in it. Like: Okita Souji, Soujirou Seta, Soujirou (HYD), Seishirou, Subaru....<3<3<3 My utter gh3yness amuses me.
Oh yeah, I have a n00 resolution which is to be healthy next year by exercising and eating healthily. *hears sniggers* Kz kz....It's be a fun experiment to try anyway. But eating healthily isn't too hard I think...I really like tofu and I'm beginning to think of it as dinner. I think it tastes really good. As in really really good. I can eat 1 packet (300g) of it myself while watching tv.
*pinch cheek*
It's supposed to be really good for your skin too.
*sparkles sparkles sparkles*
I'm kinda genki-ish, even though I do miss talking to audy.
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You know.....I was just think when someone asked me what I wanted for christmas, and I honestly couldn't think of ANYTHING. It's just so weird....Am I too easily contented? Maybe. But I don't think it's because my standards are too low.....(or at least I hope so). The first thing I thought of that I actually *wanted* was just to be with someone else while talking nonsense and watching the sun set. It'll be so wonderful ne? Just anyone will do looool.... Someone to watch sunset with xD xD
But wishes don't come through if you say it aloud right?
So I finally figured something else I wanted.
And mircowaved eggyolks should be pricked before putting it in before it explodes, and exploded mircowaved eggs are chewy but yummy....LOL
love esp to you <3<3<3
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 01:32 a.m.+
Listening to: Goldfrapp - Supernature album
I'm beginning to get more horrible I think.
*de-poofs*
Went out with sis (and her tag-alongs: Moony and Mon [M&M's maybe?]). Was originally going to watch Perhaps Love, the Peter Ho-Sun film, ended up watching Pride and Prejudice which was pretty good and very very sappy. A bit too sappy. I had to refrain from cynically going "Awww shucksssomes." It's a beautifully made film though, technical wise, the transitions are fantastic, the lightening is perfect (so is the setting) and has every "Prince-On-White-Horse" cliche you can ever imagine. Case to point: Mr Darcy can't just walk over in a normal time of the afternoon, he has to wake up at 5am when the bloody sun hasn't risen yet and walk through a fog with his coat swirling behind and his eyes in pain to ask for Elizabeth's hand.
*sniggers*
It's not that I don't appreciate romance. It's just that I'm not as sappy as my sis is (her collection of Sirius/Remus fics are dentist-worthy). I'm more in the line of unrequited, longing forever, restrained beautiful types (which is why Wong Kar Wai is totally my line of things). And besides, I think Perhaps Love has nicer clothes. (hah! No more empire-line cut dresses!)
And 'sides, Christopher Doyle is in charge of photography.
All in all, it's a very good flim. 8/10 ^^ I deduct points for the sometimes overly-draggy plot, and the underdevelopment of some characters.
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I think the term in geography when 2 plates crash against another, until one sinks beneath another but still there anyway, molten and waiting for the right oppotunity.....
Subduction Zone
That's how I feel about now. It's insane self-mindfuckery. Honestly right now, I have nothing to complain about. Everything is going more or less smoothly, audy is OK even if she's being overworked to death (I'm seeing her on Sat), my family relations are fine (you don't touch me, I don't touch you)........I'm just a little exhausted I guess. Yea. Just tired.
And worried. <----- beginning to sound like mom! *gasps*
Maybe it's just the blues.
The soft navy blue that casts over moods with the pallor of sadness, filled withn soft un-nameble things that nibble at the edges of the sunshiny rainbowy thoughts, peskily transculent, so much so that you can't just catch it and throw it away.
Random fact: Tofu is mircowavable!
See, yesterday night I was hungry but there wasn't much to eat because a)I don't like oily stuff at night b)I'm tired of eggs c)the soup was herbal chicken soup. Then I spotted this lovely packet of tofu, the silken kind and I was just wondering if I could eat raw or not, to be safe, I just mircowaved it for 2mins and topped it off with tsuyu (Japanese soy sauce) and seasame/seaweed bits.
Verdict: YUMMY.
It's just...creamy. Like eating feathery pillows. Soft, plushy and creamy smooth with a silky silky taste. Solidified cotton-candy?? Anyway. It tastes good. And it's pretty healthy too cos mircowaving requires no oil, no salt, no whatevers.
I think I can offically proclaim myself a mircowave cook.
^_______________^
I know my sis will rail/scream/die of shock because she hates what's called "fast cooking" but in reality, it's a pretty simple concept. Mircowave = no oil, no washing, minimal cleaning and tastes pretty darn good with a little commonsense. Like I can imagine what my fridge will look like in 10 years' time (and living alone). I mean, people have House'o Dreams, I have Fridge'o Dreams.
Tsu's Fridge Of Dreams:
1 carton of milk (aka. 12 packets of milk)
EGGS!
Tofu
Soba/Soumen
Tsuyu (Japanese Soy sauce)
Pickles! Pickles! pIcKlEs!
chocolate.
Pistachio ice cream
Wholemeal bread
Turkey ham/Tuna/Cucumber
Butter/Kaya
Fresh button mushrooms
Lemons/Cherries/Berries/BERRIES?!
My theory is that if you don't exercise (like me) you better try to eat healthily.
But it isn't hard eating healthily if you're on a mircowave, because there's a limited amount of work you can season with it.
Btw, I hate carrots.
LOL, I remember a time when audy and I went out for lunch at the Toa Payoh hub and we were having lunch. I ordered noodles, which came with carrot shavings on top and I merticulously picked out EVERY SINGLE STRAND. *giggles* Then she just stared and stared and stared at me. LOOOOL
That was kinda funny.
She was like: "Wah! You're having a war with them issit?"
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1) List ten things you want to say to people but know you never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Disable comments.
4) Never discuss it again
1. I really want to believe you.
2. Sometimes....I wish you'll mind what you say, because it does hurt me, even if I laugh it off.
3.Please take care of yourself
4. Your claim to sadness is no greater or lesser than anyone else's.
5. Angst does NOT make you special.
6. Sometimes I want to hit some commonsense into you.
7. And you too.
8. Pretending confidence is one thing, but claiming superiority over others is another.
9. I'm sorry but I'll never love you as much as you love me.
10. And perhaps, for you, you'll never love me as much as I love you.
PS. Scaring Mon is fun.
PPS. Narnia looks a hellva lot like LoTR.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 01:50 p.m.+
ooooooooooooooooo yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa and fruitcake!
Listening to: Don't Think of Me
I'm addicted to this song. Wonderfully angsty - enough to write Sei/Subby fics till all tomorrow's parties. I know I haven't been blogging religiously, but stuff has happened and it's a little confunding to take in all at once.
My brother twisted his kneecap - can't move/on clutches and well, the computer's in his room so I can't do much about not being online. I try okay? But I'm still more easily contactable by phone. *sighs* In a way, it's good that he's recuperating well, on the other hand, it's rather bothersome. I don't know when he'll be ready to move yet, but mostly he's just sitting around.
Was so tired on Sunday.....went to Ikea to get a new shelf/storage space for my things since they're throwing my table out....Mostly unpacking and trying to think of new ways to fix everything together. Trying to organize. I managed to unpack ONE! box, which is pretty good since I only have 3. Isn't it funny? All my photos, CDs, homework etc etc can fit neatly into 3 boxes. I guess that even though I'm disorganized, at least I keep what's precious to a minimum (in which someone will start laughing and pointing to say that it's because I'm too cranky to get to know well anyway)
Monday was slacker, watched Peacemaker Kurogane with sis ^-^ Hijitaka x Okita!<3<3 My sis doesn't like Okita much though, but I do. It's a like an older version of Bleach (so many men!) except that it's shinsengumi instead of Gotei 13. All hail loyalists losers!
Thinking of watching Blood+, cos the animation is pretty cool and the storyline is fairly interesting. All the bits about Vietnam .....There's a fairly huge amount of blood, gore and guts though. A ResidentEvil-meets-Serial Lain? loool....It's production I.G after all.
*switch to Goldfrapp*
It's goooooooooooood. Like chocolate. Godiva chocolate.
Just finished shopping for cousins and such - uncle Marc's gift is really gorgeous. It's a teapot-cup from Laura Ashely in pale cerualean blue with red flowers. The pot actually conjoins to the cup, which is fabulously cool. And the wrapping paper is embossed~ <3 I think everything in the world should be as beautiful to show care.
*stones*
In total - 4 books, 3 boxes of colour pencils, 2 boxes, 2 remote cars, 1 handphone strap, 1 handphone pouch, 1 teapotcup, 1 cowboxstick set, 1 sakurabox set, 1 mosiac pendant.
And Thursday I'll have to complete the adults - all the aunties and uncles and whatever leftover family members. I dunno how should I feel, except that I'm mostly relived that one group is done, and next week is another week and perhaps by then, I can complete my homework part way.
Surprise of the week:
"do you want to go Hokkaido for skiing?"
Honestly I don't know what to think. I like snow, I like skiing - but I'll have to leave on the 23th Dec and only arrive in SG on 30th Dec. Not only that, I'll be going with cousins and grandmother and aunts from my dad's side, which I have a strong aversion to. In the end I refused anyway, though I would *love* to go. The people would make me heartsick and depressed, plus I'll miss Christmas with my family for the first time in my life.
*sighs with indecision*
I hope I made the right choice.
Oh yeah, to those interested, there's a new icecream shop/gelatario outside Lido, Isetan and it tastes WONDERFUL. Better than Bravissimo, Venezia and Gelares' combined. The Vernoisse chocolate is frickkin' awesome, and the Pistachio is the best I've ever tasted, even better than Venezia's creamier-than-thou version. It's light, creamy and airy with REAL! crunchy (not the slimely cold stuff) pistachios inside. The fruit flavours tend to be a bit too sweet and the price a little expensive but overall, best cream.
Going shopping with my mother is usually okay. Patience is cultivated (you need it. definitely) and another thing you need is a sense of direction and ability to drag your mother away from wrong directions. I swear, between Sak, Audy and my mom - I don't know whose sense of direction is worse. All 3 can get lost in the middle of a bookshop. Okay, maybe audy's grown out of it but *shrugs* LOL.
I'm kinda surprised I'm now taller than both my mom AND dad.
Ballet classes perhaps?
Choices - I'm a little pissed at that. Even though I have no intention of going to Uni early, I was well, a little surprised to be invited for Leadership Summit by UCLA. Got the letter and all......I wish I knew which teacher nominated me to go though (I have a pretty good idea who, however) It's just that my mom just flat out refused to send me to US anytime earlier than 18/19. I just felt like it was an oppotunity missed......but ah well. Who knows right?
Goldfrapp has the loveliest stoning voice ever.
I'm really worried about my homework. *dawdles* I'm equally worried that the explaination I wrote at 2am in the morning won't make any sense to Mr James - or worse still, he'll just laugh at me. I don't mind being laughed it, I'll just smile and shrug it off but I do hate hate hate that people don't understand what I say. I'm not that random, I usually have a reason or two why I do certain things - problem being that it takes a long time for people to understand it. The only time I do things at utter randomness is when I blog, because hell! I'm allowed to aren't I?
*scrutinizes essay*
Hope he doesn't mind my handwriting or spelling.
I think my brain isn't working properly. Truth to honesty, I'm a bit drained with all the changes popping up all over the place and I haven't really much heart to do anything else besides sleep, sleep, sleep. It's like a restless anticipation - combined with a empty ache that just skims over my thoughts like butterflies drowning in your stomach, all jiggly and weird-feeling because you're scared and wanting at the same time. Because you don't really want to grow up, but it seems so so desirable.
Nii-chan says it's normal to feel like that
But then again, I'm not GA and sometimes
I just feel a bit stupid cos he knows what's right and do it, while I know what's right and never do it.
It's just so funny to think of another year ending - I'll be 18 next year, then 19 the next......And deep down, I feel like the only change comes from a great deal of pain and worry, and I don't know if I even want to go anywhere cos I am scared, and I freely admit it. It's so frightening to realize that you can only do this alone, this "growing up" thing which leaves everyone you love behind because no one can save you except yourself - even then, you might not be able to.
Growing up is rather lonely I think.
That's why adolscents angst, and do so much evil.
Hormones, genetics, imbalances....
What do they amount to in the end?
Teenagers are sick sick people.
With sick sick bodies.
And sick sick hearts.
Too bad you can't grow up with someone, just have to bruise it out on your own.
But that's not too bad either. I'm scared, I'm frightened, I'm freaked-out-bejesusness.....but I'm also dreaming of lovely futures and things that can/will/may happen. I'm thinking that maybe we'll be friends forever like we promised, and storm the world with our nu00 clothes and fashion empire spanning from Alantica to Zimbawbwe. I'm thinking that even if we don't, at least we had fun dreaming it up.
And we open up to a new and beautiful world.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 05:00 p.m.+
Sakky: hey can you send me the EOY photos again? I didn't get the YSL and MSN keeps on getting error in transfer.
Listening to: Demon Dayz
*sneeze* Just finished part of Buerremont. My sis totally broke the mood. *sighs* And I was planning on finishing it today too.
Found a *new* yurameki songlist.Kinda happy - but the first time I heard the song in full I was like *HEARTATTACK* Like skin-tingly sensation. It's so strange to be caught unawares nowadays....You could either say I'm paranoid or you could say I'm cautious. You know...it's a strange thought but if I actually joined the school swimming/gymnastics when they asked me to I'm pretty sure I could be as ass-kicking as any spy. Having a natural sense of danger (read: paranoia) helps.
I'm a little dazed/stoned.
Still trying to sort myself out I guess.
Yesterday
Was nervous but trying not to be. Woke up in an indecently early hour of the morning - or tried to. Anyway. Got to spotlight on time to meet Sak, then after finishing the last of the edging went to EOY cosplay.
Note 1#: Do Not Wear Finicky Outfits on MRT Trains.
Was exasperated with people constantly stepping on my clothes, so I picked it up halfway. The pins kept falling out because people kept stepping on it. *sighs* Anyway. Got there in one piece, paid the exorbitant entrance fee and walked around a bit.
Met people I vaguely recognize.
Funny how I totally missed out Claude. LOL.
Kinda fun to go with someone, but not exactly the kind of thing you want to do alone......It's like: I went to cosplay because I felt that it was right to end with a sense of peace and closure. I had so many terrible memories of it that I didn't want to keep on thinking about it. Like a kind of mental repair. A nice day to get rid of old bad ones. A sense of ending - as if I can somewhat "heal" over old wounds by having fun. No more despairing melodrama or bitter ness, no more false promises or fake friendships and that overwhelming sense of loneliness.
I suppose that's the -real- reason why I wanted to go.
Isn't it ironic?
Sak went as a beginning
I did it to make peace with myself.
I can't/won't be bitter. If I cosplay next year I don't really mind or not. Even if I do or don't - it doesn't matter. For me, it's the end of a messy, overly complicated part of my life emcompassing 3/4 of the reasons for angst. No more bernadatte, or alexiel, or rika or kakyounin or leareth (God. How many years ago?) or tessie or leXis or anything - I'm free. I'm not cosplaying for friendship or to compete anymore - I'm just doing it for fun. (and that's the way it's supposed to be)
I met some nice people, including Xing Yi who was our 3rd person in our make-believe anime. Since 3 of us dressed as EGLs, (in cream, pink and black) we just hung out together since we matched and together, we formed an anime~! LOL. Faked some shit up and people actually believed it. Cool na? It helped too, cos I generally hate taking photos, so having more people helped make me feel a little better.
Got a new "table" which is actually a storage cabinet. Amazing right? LOL. I work on the floor mostly anyway.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 09:24 p.m.+
go: http://xiaotenshi.pitas.com/
Cosplay pics not featuring us. why? Xmas.
Incoherent and sleepy. Seishirou is eating my brain.
+tsu waited for you at 12:45 a.m.+
Listening to: Dido
if you see it in her eyes a sweet sweet smile
don't think of me
tired.
extremely tired.
*doinks self*
And tomorrow I'll have to go shopping with mom and be even more tired.
Shall sleep early then.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 11:38 p.m.+
Listening to: Jessica + John Lennon
back and forth on a flyaway train
and you run run run like hell's wind
I'm beginning to realize that however cliched it sounds, the past always - always - catchs up with you. And damnit, I know I'm good. It means that it just runs faster than me that's all. (okay. bad joke)
Like Right Now.
Went to Spotlight for the 5th time this week, and realized something strange. Unusual people. People I do not usually see at spotlight. People I vaguely recognize in a distant "clickity" sort of way. Something in their manner made me look twice, also, they were staring at me. *feels uncomfortable* Then suddenly, it made sense. Cosplayers
*looks ambigiously on*
Within 5 mins of stepping into spotlight, I managed to bump into 7 "groups" of cosplayers. *shakes head in disbelief* You know how to tell? The clothes. The hair. The accent. And the way they quiggle over colours. And all the cosplayers I managed to avoid in an ENTIRE year suddenly converges on me like a swarm of vultures 2 days before cosplay. It's a sign I swear. *tosses a coin* Lady Luck is a fickle b*tch giggling behind the palm of her hand.
How to tell a cosplayer:
Clothes ---> Anything that makes them look inhuman and animated. Like dresses. Or BIG FRIKKIN PHALLIC CROSSES!
Accent ----> Singlish meets pidgin Japanese. Oh horrors!
*runs screaming away*
You know that you're meeting one of those lunatics when you notice a girl wearing a platform boot on one leg, and a sneaker on the other limping along the aisles. *disbelief* LIMPING. (with no apparent injury)
I just don't get it.
*disbelief*
I simply don't.
But on the other hand, fate seems to tell me that YES! YOU SHOULD GO THIS YEAR! By letting me avoid them all the way up till today. I haven't seen or heard a hair till now. And I'm not the kind to believe in coincidences - especially not when suddenly out of nowhere SAKKY! appears, asking if we should go for cosplay this Saturday or not since we already have outfits.
The timing is just waaaay strange.
To have clothes, support and meeting them just in time for Saturday.
*sighs*
I think I'll rant a bit, yell but end up going anyway.
Fate's against me for this one.
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Talking of meetings, I met Gloria's friend Edd today at Kino while picking up Fiest's [Krondor] series. Not much of interest except that they have a new illustration book so pretty that I want it. (Costs $89.15) Contemplated over getting different books - then realizing that fook! Harrison was out of stock, so was Bradbury and Pushkin. Moved on to graphic novels, nothing new, nothing nice and seriously, all I want is a copy of the Fables book 6# where they reveal the Adversary. So, okay, I know who it is. But I want the book anyway.
Btw, had a free mocha frappicino at Starbucks cos of Open House. <3 <3 <3 Exactly what I needed~
As before, ran into Sak at Spotlight.......and honestly, we should make the place our 3rd home. (Kino being 2nd) Went to Carrefour, bought pisatache icecream and tea. Mmmm....pistachio. The joys of buying pistachio is that my brother doesn't really like it, my sis tolerates it, so I can have most of it~ <3 It tastes really good with chocolate sauce poured on top, or you can toast waffles and add blueberry jam and pistachio icecream<3
Was late..but didn't really care. The evening was so lovely, the sky was a brilliant dark blue - a deep blue condesed that mellowed to a light blue when it touched the rim of the sky. The first stars were already out and the fairy lights from the christmas decorations hung down like golden rain in stasis - frozen and glowing in the darkening twilight. I just felt so at home for a second - the bustling city around me as people flowed around me and the buses grunting along the red-yellow traffic with drivers patiently waiting for the lights to change.....the dark green of trees that seemed almost black against the blue sky - just past sunset - the blue that stretched to infinity, cloudless and pure.
And for a second, I felt I belonged.
Not lost or lonely in a crowd - but rejoicing in it. The purpose : to know I was going home, to know I had somewhere to be, that someone was waiting - filled me with happiness. And it was a wonderful wonderful feeling.
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Ma ma came over, technically, my father's mother. I'm just using cantonese cos that's what I use anyway. As usual. Mom. And stuff. *sighs* Some things don't change I guess.
PS. MSN is cranky, so I might not be online due to it.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 01:24 a.m.+
after being a member of yaoi daily for the past year, I have come to some very interesting conclusions:
1. All onmyoujis are gay.
2. All ukes are stupid/dense
3. 3/4 of the fans are well educated, intelligent, women.
Sometimes I simply don't get it. As much as I love elle no takara (Mizuno Touko) - it's a bit squicky at times because it borders on child pronography. And then there's the "consensual" thing going around - if you want it and say no is it considered rape? No wonder Japanese men are so f*cked up.
And then there's this weird link between magic and gayness. Apparently, if you're an onmyouji, you're flaming gay. Yep. FLAMING (no-hope-for-redemption) GAY. It's not just Subaru and Seishirou, it's one list comprising of many many series - some of the series being perfectly straight. (Yep. All magicians are homosexual).....Kinda worrying don't you think? LOL....and look at me! *shakes head in disbelief* Rightly so according to yaoi-land I should be gay.
The strangest is that a large part of fans aren't just women - they're well-educated professionals with children, husbands, boyfriends who can converse intelligently on the finer points of literature who, strangely enough are fascinated to describe in exquiste detail a cock going into a "bois" ass.
I dunno.......is it feminism? To view the male of the species as just mere sexual objects? A kind of escape to a female dominated universe?
But that doesn't make sense either, because these women don't want to dominate, they want the seme to do it for them. On the other hand, by defining these roles so rigidly, they're objectifying men as well.
*looks thoughtfully*
I remember an article before, it said that men enjoyed being dominated, but were felt weird if men dominated men, so conventional porn shows women tied up by men - when in reality men escaped to the women's position.
Provides an interesting paradox doesn't?
Which goes to show that being a megalomaniac isn't really normal - thirst for power, ambition, greed - are essentially abnormal because no one actually wants to be in power, everyone wants to be tied up.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 02:09 a.m.+
Went to Spotlight today to get jewellry chain, and I'll have to go back again! to buy satin wire ribbons for the christmas tree. It looks pretty now, all done up with sparkling red-gold balls and glittering fairy lights with a crushed velvet base and nativity scene made of warm wood....I'm thinking maybe red satin/velvet trimmed with gold, with a wire so I can curl it properly and make the ends run down the sides ^^ Something rich to go with the dark green of the tree
I'm getting a lot more email-spam lately....
I suppose it's because my email address is readily and easily avalible
Anyway, I finally got the jewellry chain, even though I didn't get the fine type, but the chunky one. Whatever. *phews* At long last! Doneth. Now I need to find enough envelopes to start sending mail. LOOOL....at least all my shopping is complete, unlike my mom who's going to be braving the last minute rush crowd. *tsk tsk* learn to plan!
Talking of planning.....I think I'll throw a party for my birthday next year. With damask cloth and rose stamped teacups with fluffy airy cakes and doughnuts and flowers ~ <3<3<3 *sighs happily* A wonderful excuse to dress up, drink tea and talk to people
Anyway, you never know. I might just ditch the idea.
Kinda tired....will sleep soon.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 09:41 p.m.+
+tsu waited for you at 05:01 p.m.+
tis' the season is really coming~
Due to shopping and mad-rushes, I realize that some people problably haven't bought anything and is perfectly irritated/sick of my "the best gift is suprise!" attitude and would prefer something more concrete, say.....a wishlist. Just to note: I hate making them. But I hate lousy presents/un-thought presents more.
wishlist:
1. good company
2. earphones <-------VERY IMPORTANT
3. book vouchers
4. bedsheets/pillows/bolsters/blankets
5. tartan clothing
6. handheld whisk/blender
7. tablet
8. teapot
9. Kamatari Darmacy / We <3 Kamatari
10. CDRs
see? I have realistic wishlists. Nothing like raising the dead or taking over the world looool. Of course, chocolates, biscuits, cakes and alcohol make wonderful gifts too xD xD I'm not overly picky about cost et al.
Art class today and oh! Finally finished the riftwar saga. Next thing to get: Krondor series. Honestly Kresh/Kelewan/Quegan doesn't interest me as much as Krondor does.....espionage! I love! Even the dragons aren't as interesting ^^
Going to spotlight tomorrow again....I really need that damned jewellry chain.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 12:53 a.m.+
This is a rambling, non-directed post. Woot. A slice of how my mind works perhaps?
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you think you know but you don't and every infinity seems to carry what understand and doesn't so much...that you laugh at it all.
the flowers that settle on green waves, pink mouths openly drinking all sorrows to the dirging seabed of floating grasses. dirge. the song of slience so heavy it carries all might, shoulders downing and drawning with hands scraping on burning mud.......heavier than an angel's footfall or a cat's grace.
illusive dream wrought sweet and soft, cradled embryo of lantern glows and incandescent lights, flowing gentle and sweet and precious, a plush, plusating wramth in darkness.....not gold, but pink and flesh pale with moving un-mades essences of soft dreams......not white, but soft dreams of flowers that bloom in never-darkness, born under full moon's light, leaves that glitter of gold, sliver and white.
the red sweets fallen on the lap of 1965.
glowing bright in sepia-toned nostalgia
dusty sand under warm sun and warm feet.
-i just realized i've never posted that story.-
i think flowers are beautiful...not just they are beautiful, but they are secretly beautiful. do you notice? notice how special things are with your eyes and lips. the taste of wind that forewarns you, and flowers that tell you things of people. like colours. people ebb and edd in colours. audy used to be a lovely dark blue - the colour of glittering sapphires - a beautiful cold fire of crystal veined with soft, charcoally black. now she has a layer of red ochre - terracotta - brittle and hard and warm......isn't interesting to realize that some people are so alike, but never notice it?
+tsu waited for you at 04:22 a.m.+
I'm quite pleased with today. Some minor annoyances aside, everything seems to be going smoothly, and no nightmares for the first time this week ^^v I really dislike them, however nessescary it is. Dawn is a cold cold thing to wait up all night for, and sleeping at 6am every night (or should I say, morning?) isn't exactly ideal.
Nonetheless, I'm in pretty good spirits.
Why:
1) Mom is home safe, sound and as bossy as ever.
2) I figured what to do for A level art
3) Ideas for advertising more or less-ly doneth.
4) X Infinity ARTBOOK!<3<3 (bow to the PWNzing power of Sei-chan!)
Went to Kino in the late afternoon to get a copy of Fiest's Sliverthorn ......and horrors! It's a prequel! *dies* Last page reads as such: "The final confrontation is chronicaled at A Darkness on Sethanon". Like fooooooookshiite! Got home in time to pass the breadcrumbs ^^ Uncle Marc in for dinner, which was nice because we hardly see him being such a busy, retired man. *sniggles*
Mom's back from Seoul, bearing gifts of doughnuts~ *squee* Krispy Kremes!<3<3<3 *munches on chocolate custard one* Oh yeah! I have a new, wooden hairpin which I can't break with pink, dangling beads on it (old one broke) and a really lovely long chain which I nicked off my mom. It's so pretty and flapper-ish and bohemien and utterly cool. Most of all, it's pretty!<3 Much love thanks lool.
A level art project decided. I'm doing a huge 8-canvas painting in art noveau style with 21st century themes of deforestation, people power....basically a rework of the motto: Love. Truth. Beauty from the Bohemien period in France. Plus! Everyone will be in the right mood for it next year.
Ideas for advertising......Fake tabloids. Like a cartoon drawing of a cow wearing a bra with a tagline: "SHOULD COWS WEAR BRAS?!" or "SPOTTED! MAN ON MOON EATING GREEN CHEESE!" and then at the bottom: "Editorial. Hear it here first." or "Read more at Editorial."
cool right? Something new at least.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 12:06 a.m.+
waaaiii! oniichan is engaged!<3 congrats and may they find happiness
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 12:18 a.m.+
And yea........so we sez it likes it is
Listening to: Dir en Grey.
The air smells strange. *notices* Like flowers. The kind of flowers that smell of old perfumes and face powder, of peeling paper and croaking fans. Reading Fiest is fun.....loool. I like Arutha :x Cold nerve and duty is always much preferred like courage and charm (at least in my dictionary)
Not feeling very outgoing lately...Not that I'm unhappy. I'm very pleased actually, my debt's nearly paid off, Christmas is coming, most things falling nicely into place. The workload is managable, and I have a couple of ideas for the schoolprojects. The air is settling to a swirl of amberflecked cloud, passing through everyone with nostalgic memories of past happinesses - every cell seems to be in vibration for hope, for betterment - dreams gathering in preparation for the celebration of the end of this year to welcome the beginning of a new one.
I guess when it comes to festivities, I prefer to just sit around and reflect. Not in any particular urge for company....So even though audy's busy, I don't feel it too much. And the wash of inner peace rises over, sweeping away any petty worries I held.
There's a queer wind rising, but I welcome it's strangeness.
Yesterday I dreamed. Not just another nightmare, it was a -good- dream. How do I say it? The frost is melting into a brilliant colour - warmer, softer, richer and more luxurious than before. Twirls of flowers float gently a glowing green breeze that carries ashes - the ash rain that falls and grows into mud people. And I know that something has shifted - a mentality perhaps. People want their green back...Naturalism, Art Noveau, Renaissance.......the hallmarks of romantic nature will revive and spring forth with 21st century consciousness. Minialism and Zen will die and fade back into the colourless existance. Richer, fuller - MORE will be the keyword of next year.
But not just any kind of excess. Not the decadance of the late 19th century with Rolex watches and summer houses but a friendlier, more socially conscious excess. Charities will be the new "In" thing - championing causes for the less fortunate. Recycled materials, sustainable harvesting....basically: -organic-. Like Art Noveau gone beautifully enviromental.
Politically, a change towards a more peaceful living. More people power. The great wave of green that washes the bloodshed. I'm not saying it's going to be perfect (I see more economic disasters ahead, so you might want to hold on to your cash. There's a grey cloud hanging distrubingly over China and America, and the word: TRADE is hanging all over it) On the other hand, most countries are now unwilling/less willing to help - a change towards isolationistic policies to curb gobalization.
This is a hunch but - Over-gobalization is going to be a problem soon.
The problems in America.....it's too unstable. A blue mass that hangs over, a dilemma unsolved. Predicting that is troublesome, because the aspects are too complex. A single decision affects the entire fabric and at some points, it almost seems like it's tearing. A rift between the people and the policies.
The wind brings smells of incense and bitternut.
Some famous people are going to die.
Please note: I can't prove what I know or feel. I just know it kz? You can take it your leave it, it's your choice.
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Okay I didn't do much today. Just did a lot of sleeping, and a lot of thinking. Generally it means lolling around the bed half-awake, falling in and out of sleep until I start sneezing (when my nose starts waking up, it means that I should get up). Yesterday's dinner was fine. It was my dad, but it was fine......In a way, I pity him. Yep, I do. He's a terrible father, a worse husband.......but I pity him anyhow. Sometimes I wonder if he realizes what a miserable existance he has despite his money. No one loves him - not even his mother. His children barely have any affection for him, and his wife (problably) married him for money. The children he sees do not belong to him, and yet, it's us he sees the most. He barely sees his own kids, and they problably see him only 4 times a year.
And he works.
That's all.
A scrabbling existance bound by responsibility - never staying in the same bed for more than 3 days, endless challenges, a family who doesn't care and every day, he grows older.
Maybe I'm too forgiving to him but......
I can't help but pity.
Can you understand?
In a way, I -did- forgive him. I resent his obvious preference to my brother, I hate him for commiting adultery and the way he rules over our lives like a dictator doesn't endear him to me at all....but he's human. And everyone deserves some measure of mercy.
And I pity him. Despite everything.
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Going to Kino tomorrow with Sis. LOOOL. X Infinity is calling me~~~ If it ends up prettier than I think (or has lots of Seishirou pics) I'll problably buy it over the tartan jacket. xD Although it would be nice to wear it during cold lecture days.
random quiz stolen from nekoichi:
Guardian
Class: Archangel
Alliance: Light
You are a caring soul and somewhat of a people
person. You are very concerned about others and
about the world around you. You like connecting
with people and always want to be of help. As a
guardian your role would be to watch over the
human souls on earth and help them when they
are in trouble.
Your Angelic Name: Raphael
Which Warrior Angel are You and Whose Side are You On? (With Anime Pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
PS. I beat you, you lowly seraph! *pwnz*
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 09:19 p.m.+
Listening to: Beach Boys
Woke up to meet sakky at Plaza Singapore......Sorry I was late! :( Missed the 9.40 bus by 1 minute! >___> Went to get our plottygoodness ^-^ and seperated the loot. <3<3<3 So funnnnn~~~~~ Went to Carrefour, bought bread, looked at bloody-violent looking stuffed doughnuts and went to prod at greentea tofu. Point: WTF were they thinking?
Went home, didn't feel like playing WildArms3 because a)I can't do the secret labyrinth sidequest because I don't have a bloody call whistle 2)The Sand Canal pisses me off. So I decided : "hey! Let's read some R. Fiest stuff." Haven't read Magician for a long time, and it does bring back fond (if peculiarly embarassing) memories. Read it waaay back in Sec2 while I was still hanging around IRC with eat and SK and all.
I still can't stand the main chara's name though: Pug
Of all things to name a boy.
Started wrapping gifts - Aya's, Sakky's, Audy's and Kor's are done. I need to get a box for neko's and Natz's is still inside my boxes. Mindy's - I can't find my frikking jewellerychain. Fuxxors. Because without jewellery chain, NO ONE'S will be finished. (esp. my frikkin classmates.) Card making is going nicely, although I have no idea what to draw for some people's cards. *sighs* It's pretty fun sticking on sparklingsnowflakes with PVA though.....running out of ideas for gift-tags. But papyrus-paint is helping ^^ Makes everything look cool (and pretty! and handmade!)
Am seriously considering ditching the tartan jacket for X Infinity. ARGH.
Last of shopping would be for Mr James....I'll just get him tea from Buanlan cos the first time I tried it was at the studio (he was making for all of us) and it was absolutely the fantasticiest tea ever. A lingering taste Almost as wonderful as vanilla tea (iced). And it was the first time I got addicted to English Breakfast<3<3<3
Plus, looks pretty. Comes in a glass jar and all.
And then chocolates for Syid. *checks list* Except for the damnable jewellery chain (damn and blast it) I have everything. I need that stuff. I have like 10+ packets of trinkets sitting in my Spotlight bag unable to be fitted because NO CHAIN. Like f*ck f*ck f*ck.
I think I need exercise. Bleh.
Maybe I'll go to the gym or something
Don't laugh okay? I -feel- fat.
*pinches* see?
I know I rarely touch on politics here. But the whole Nyugen issue is absolutely hilarious.
To everyone out there:
In 3 months' time, NO ONE FRIKKIN CARES.
I rest my case.
You can argue all you like, defend SG's sovereignity, debate on humane excution (contradiction), complain or do what THIS website has done, but honestly, get this into your head.
1. He'll die anyway.
2. The laws aren't going to change.
3. Go mind your own frikkin business.
See?
3 simple rules of diplomancy.
I'm tired to explaining and re-explaining both sides of the issue. No one's right, no one's wrong. Court systems are A-R-B-I-T-R-A-R-Y. As in neither legal nor illegal. (please flip your philosophy textbooks, that's what's its for).
To all Australians:
Yes, your countryman died in the hands of another govt. I'm sure your sore pride was hurt, and your righteous defense on human rights, SG injustices and "humane excutions" was ridiculously written, spoken and quoted too many times. But think about it, SG is one of your FTA partners. Sanction us and you'll run out of money.
Don't want to hurt your pockets do you?
To all Singaporeans:
He's dead. So stop worrying and go back to complaining about the education system okay? Or the taxidrivers. Or the GST.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 01:31 a.m.+
Listening to: DemonDays - Gorillaz + Emniem(sp?)
Whatever that my brother is playing really, though I'm wondering if I should play Sanagi. Addictive it is, yes xD New layout, ditched the idea of melancholic Tsugiri (Alichino) because it's far too depressing, and besides, I need a real woman to splash once in a while. Pretty boys are all well and good, but they don't open their legs with a smirkity smirk like she does deshou na?
Sometimes, she reminds me of a female Seishirou.
LOL, a different kind of classyness though
Wild ARMS 3 has officially taken over my life and the conclusion is that: GAME DEVELOPERS ARE EVIL. Seriously. That bloody finger-killing, drive-you-crazy puzzle/sadistic torture over at the Unclean Mark dungeon was like....CRAZY. Argh. And Gallows is problably the most useless character ever. Too slow to be a healer, too weak to be an attacker. WTF? Useless. The only advantage is that he has much HP, which is good cos he'll be the last person I'll heal.
Mosquitos are eating me alive *sighs*
*becomes blood fodder*
Mom's coming home next Monday, which is pretty good because I desperately need to unpack my boxes. Whoever's gift I bought before the renvoation is inside, and that includes Natz's. I don't really need a table methinks, just a nice cabinnet with lots of cubbyholes will do. I'm more fond of the floor.
Going out with sak tomorrow, we're heading to [ ] to get our supplies for Our Secret Plot xD xD xD Because it's a Secret Plot, the only thing I can say is: *sniggle* Might pop over at Kino to check out X Infinity Artbook, which I'm really thinking of buying. On the other hand, if I get the X Inifinity Artbook I won't be able to buy the tartan jacket from Far East Plaza........decisions decisions decisions....Honestly I want both. (and they're about the same price too!)
Note: Not cosplaying. <--- too much money needed
Well, that's about it then. Btw, I hope the christmas goes up soon because I won't wrap anything until then.
love
tsu
+tsu waited for you at 11:59 p.m.+
