Tap your fingers

The year is ending.

It's so strange to think that in 4 weeks' time I'll be back in school and sloughing my guts out for A levels, and before I know it, I'll be an undergrad at a university. The unbelievable part: I feel like I've barely changed much. I still feel exactly the same I felt when I was 10, a little lost, a little pissed, quite confused and very scared.

Looking back, many things -did- change, but they were more or less on how I had relationships with people, but not nessescarily impacted on my beliefs. I've learnt how to treat people/tolerate them in my own fashion but.......things like yura and system of belief...well....that hasn't really changed has it?

It's like.....a personality change, not a character change.

Thinking about this year, it feels like 2 seperate years which I lived and fairly rocky at that. The dreamy hazyness of working in a studio with aunty Iris seems like a foggy paradise, distant and far when compared to the bad start I had in school. School itself seemed like an totally different world; and I'll admit it, I was being difficult. I was as prickly and irritable as I could possibly be, and as rude and sarcastic as I could without being expelled (though it came really really close when I started skipping Mrs Sng's classes and she wanted to expel me)

It hasn't been an easy year.

I suppose it doesn't really help that most of my frienships were strained at some point, and the tension between audrey and I was draining, and occasionally, undeniably silly. The only good that's come out of it is that well, I know for sure that people will come, people will go and that's the end of it. So it's best to hold a little back of yourself I guess, for safekeeping.

*shrugs*
Pity, but I suppose we all learn.

The truth is I just feel really out of it. The entire year feels like a misstep of a dance, out of sync, out of rhythm. The lack of sociality and most of all, this sudden awareness of being alone. I used to like it very much, but now it's like a secondary -awareness- that I felt in Japan and somehow, kept it. And......I suppose, if I were to put blame for it, that would be it.

Interesting about Japan: I didn't like it.

I haven't really said any of this to anyone. Mostly just thinking over to myself but.......a dream of softly lit lantern lights and warmth shattered under the weight of neon reality. A kind of....Kakusei. Awakening to disillusionment. A sensation of falling, of -losing- something precious.

It's not that I didn't want to go. I wanted to. Badly. I was willing to sacrifice everything to go, to lie, to threaten, to bargain until I went (and I did). Like a dream come true. It seemed so wonderful y'know.....finally seeing Dir en Grey live, walking around shoppings, seeing the sights.....it was everything I imagined it would be like, but not what I really wanted.

I didn't really want to go Japan, I wanted a.....dream? Ideal?

And the sudden, dislocative sense of abandonment....the sheer weight of isolation, a special kind of despair so deeply personal that you can't even get it in proper words, so strange the sensation that you don't even cry. It's not saddening. It's like....twisting inside you in a horror/fear mixture, the sound of an echoing void. A sort of -shattering-......like nothing in the world will [ ]

And at that exact moment
I wasn't a child anymore

In a way, some people never grow up. I didn't realize the innocence I had until later. It's like a slow, sensation that something is lost, and you mourn for it, the sweet innocence that protected you. Because it's true. Innocence protects you - it protects your life, your living, your hope. That's why children recover so quickly from trauma. You don't really grow up, you just lose it. Some people never do, some do, and get over it, other can't. Does it make you mature? A better person? No. Not at all.

So when I look at sakky, audy or my sis or my brother or my mom, I can't help but feel this edgy painfulness because it excludes me as much as it excludes them.

I try.
I really do.
But childlike wonder and childlike joy doesn't replace it
because in the end,
you're still scared.

And I guess....this year's been hard because of it. You know you've changed, but others don't. And......I guess I'm still recovering from it. A special kind of painful fear and loneliness. I wish..............it never happened, but....I have the feeling that perhaps, even if it is so hard for me, I learned something - a knowledge by fire perhaps - and with time, maybe the pain will end too.

love
tsu

+tsu waited for you at 10:03 p.m.+

happy together

I'm really really happy because the air smells good. The wind smells good. When I wake up, I feel it like under my skin, a bright fierygreen energy that sings to me and no one else (my sis can't, apparently) And it won't last because it never stays, the lovely rollicking song so deeply beautiful that no matter what is happening now or how important it is, I'll go to it.

So I'm going swimming now, even though it's freezing and 7pm in the night, because I know that today is beautiful.

love
tsu

+tsu waited for you at 07:04 p.m.+

*bangabangabang!*

Listening to: Sanagi - xXxholic

*runs off a cliff*
*pyoo!*
*bounces*

MSN is finally not being a silly doofus xD Tis'working!<3 Finished some of my gift tags, haven't started on cards (or the *koff*secret*koff* project) Come to think of it, I really need to send Sakky -Rapanzel- doujin cos it's so gushingly cute and pretty *gushgush!* GO WILD<3<3<3 Sexiest bearer of Darkness everz xD

Getting addicted to xXxholic's artwork. I love the pretty, flat-ish colours of dullpinks/blacks. Ish much love<3 Mom's away in Korea and had the funniest art class yesterday involving me, Mr James and a new student: Liz

I refuse to say anything but *sniggle*
A sniggle = giggle + snigger

I think he really enjoys talking crap to me loool No one else in the right mind would put up with my absolute nonsense.

Mad Class Conversations

tsu: hello, what's your name?
Liz: I'm Liz.
tsu: I'm - ! *smileysmiley* You're doing drawing today?
Mr James: What do you think of the vase? Liz: Thank you, and yes. It's my second class.
tsu: urgh. Drawing.
Mr James: If it ends up being a component in your exam you know you have to do it.
tsu: URGH >_>
Liz: So where are you studying?
tsu: I'm 17 and studying at JC of Hell
Liz: YOU'RE 17? I THOUGHT YOU WERE 12!
tsu: Hey! *offended* I'm almost 18 y'know
Liz: *stare stare*
Liz: *turns to Mr James* Is that true?
tsu: *offended*
Mr James: *very very amused* Yes *laugh*
Liz: So which school are you in?
tsu: CJC, I'm doing A level art and I hate drawing.
Mr James: Your painting is fine, but your drawing is terrible.
tsu: I know, I know
Mr James: It's not that you have no talent, it's simply because you find it boring and end up doodling before you complete it.
tsu: It's not that bad! I came for 1 class of drawing and did the skull and all...
Mr James: If it ends up being a component in your exam you'll have to practice whether you like it or not

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Liz: Do you have a girlfriend?
Mr James: Yes.
tsu: YOU DO? BUT YOU'RE TOO OLD!
Mr James: -(tsu)! I'm offended! You're never too old for love!
tsu: *gapeshock*
Liz: Is she a student?
Mr James: *looks intently at me* Yes. She's in Dubai now.
tsu: *stares back in shock*
Liz: *clueless* What does she do?
Mr James: She's an events planner
tsu: *mutter* Oh my god it's Mae right? e.e!
Liz: So who's she?
Mr James: *laughs* She's new, so....it's still..*waveyhandmotion*
tsu: But you're like....waaaaay old!
Mr James: *with dignity* Love knows no age.
tsu: *continues* And you'll make a horrible boyfriend!
Mr James: -(tsu)!!! *laughs* How so?
Liz: He's a good person......
tsu: He's a good person but a bad boyfriend.
tsu: Those kind that will sulk and think and do only what he thinks is best for both of them which might not always be the best..*rant*
Mr James: *still laughing* How did you know?
tsu: *with dignity* INSTINCT.

tsu: So how did you pick her up?
Mr James: I didn't.
tsu: So you asked for her phone number?
Mr James: I don't pick up girls
tsu: Then how d'you get them?
Mr James: *poker face* They pick me up -
tsu: REALLY?! *faked-awe*
Mr James: Yes, really.
tsu: How do they do that?
Mr James: I'm not going to teach you that -
tsu: *fake-wibble* But it's so cool! It's like I can tell my mom that not only I learn painting from you, I learn how to pick up guys too! :D

*Talk about Liz's ex-boyfriend*

Mr James: All my relationships have been long term.
tsu: That's good.
tsu: *thinks*
tsu: hah! You're cheating! Since you're so old you could have MANY long-term relationships!
Mr James: *laughs*
tsu: I SEE THROUGH YOUR NON-INNOCENCE! hah!

Apparently, he really likes my rubbish.

tsu: Do you like me Mr James? *puppy eyes*
Mr James: Of course I do, if not I'll never put up with you
tsu: Yay! 'Cos I like you too!
Liz: *laugh* you're so funny
tsu: But I'm not funny! *poker face* I'm perfectly serious!
Mr James: *amused* go do your christmas cards -

More about Liz....>_______> yes yes, go snigger at poor me.

Last random convo:

tsu: what'you drawing?
Mr James: *charcoal on potrait* I'm doing drawings for a book on potraiture.
Liz: That sounds wonderful
Mr James: Would you like to be a model? I'm still looking for some
tsu: I'll help!:D
Mr James: Can you sit still? *skeptic*
tsu: Sure!
Mr James: -.-;;;;; sure.
tsu: You know, all you need to do is to tell everyone that you'll draw them without pimples and all the models will come flocking to you!
Liz: I don't mind helping either.
tsu: If you draw me, can you make me prettier?
Mr James: *laugh* I'll draw you exactly the way you are

"-" signifies my English name. He likes saying names I think, even if I don't really like mine. LOL, besides, he always (intentionally) misspells it to "Raquel" Bloody hellfire.

btw,
WILD A.R.M.S III IS MUCHLY MUCHLY LOVE!<3

love
tsu

+tsu waited for you at 07:17 p.m.+

hey now, watcha doin'

I didn't plan to blog so soon after Mawai. Still a little ditzy from the trip....like...I got lost-ed in Orchard! *gasp* For once! Mostly Christmas shopping now, and almost everyone gets a gift, even my godforsakened classmates. LOL. I don't know why I care, but I suppose....season of giving and all ^^;; I like giving anyway, and I like Christmas. Mostly slacking/planning for Christmas and reading yaoi_daily.

[confession]
I am absolutely addicted to Junjyou Romantica.

[/confession]

It doesn't read like smut, it's interesting with real, believable characters and Hiro just reminds me of me! LOL Problably a bad thing since he's whiny, bossy as hell, grumpy, cranky, sulky, overzealous and angsty when not getting enough attention. But it's seriously turning into one of my favourite series, and I'll be sad when it ends.

Anyway, on to the lists!

Gifts

mom - brooch
kor
Sis - furrybook + star
audy - purple(?) + risuto
sakky - kurorin + pink(?)
neko - black + charm
natz - hitsu + charm
Rosemary - charm
Gloria - charm
Sharon - charm + furry
Rachel Koh - charm
aunty iris - charm (req. last pc)
Mr James - tea
Uncle Marc - something pretty?
Syid - chocolates
dad - 'suppose a book on mining *shrugs*

schoolmates
Angie, Angel, Amanda, Vanessa
Pinkie, Josephine
Eleanor, Joceyln, Marie, Charissa
total = 3 x 10 = 30

+solikin, graham = pencils x2

christmas cards

Mizumi/Christine (1 each)
Judith
Sakky
audy
Mr James
Aunty Iris
Uncle Marc
Aunty Bobbie (maybe MAYBE)
Rosemary
Sharon + bday card
Neko
Natz
Syid

Total:13/14

e-greeting cards = everyone on MSN.

wrapping
5m of wrapping paper - red
2 sheets speciality paper - shimmer
1 roll of grey ribbon w/ silver trim
1 roll of gold ribbon
1 pckt snowcrystals/flakes
1 pckt black pens (ink)
1 pckt solid pastel pens (gel)

Going with sak tomorrow to get my sis's 2nd half and audy's present (as well as whoever's left on the list)^^;;; hopefully I can find it. If not, I'll just order it or find something suitably apporiate. Planning to see EGL clothes with sakky too cos she says that SG sells Metamorphse (sp?) :D Waiii! I want a peasant blouse and another frilly skirt!<3<3<3 Kor (reluctantly) agreed to get me another tartan skirt for christmas~<3 Ish much love no?

love
tsu

+tsu waited for you at 12:41 a.m.+

I am NYAA ~here me roar

*falls over*
BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Mawai was......................horrifying. Extreme horror. Begin at the beginning:
Day One of NYAA-hell

Woke at a god-forsaken hour in the morning 6am and hurriedly packed my last-minute stuff before going to school and boarding the bus. I was amazingly awake, and yakking with Graham, Angie and Solikin while most of others were sleeping. Passed through immigration, drove all the way past Kota Tinggi into Mawai Lama which is seriously fooked. We changed buses twice, then put on lifejackets to cross a crocdile infested river via a put-put keyring motorboat. And it was RAINING (God's pissing) most of the time.

MAWAI IS A FRIGGIN' GOD-FORSAKEN -SWAMP-

It's located 20mins off Kota Tinggi, and near Johor Lama. You can get there from Second Link (Tuas acess) from Singapore. Roughly 2hr bus ride to to Mawai Lama, then you have to take a boat to cross the river.

My classmates being so idiotically united, decided to stay at the longhouse which is 500m from the bathroom, 300m from the Dining Area and RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FRIKKIN SWAMP. *shakes head* I don't get it. I really don't get it. They have a girls' section to make your life easier, situated on higher ground and not built on some damned silts over reed-filled water. On the other hand, it's cooler in here and since we're sleeping with the boys, we got them to give way to us most of the time.

The beds were really cool though, it was basically a canvas hammock tied between 2 poles and you sleep in your sleeping bag in it (the nights are freezing) Problem: No one can tie a proper knot except for Solikin & Co., Angie and I. I suppose being in Girl Guides finally paid off. Anyway, none of them can tie a friggin' knot that can hold weight. Set up our goods, and set off for our first activity, Water Obstacles.

It's basically a ropes course over water, which would be pretty fun if the sun was actually shining, but it was RAINING and I couldn't see a darn thing cos I didn't have glasses and so, ended up falling in most of the time. After a while we got so tired of standing in the rain and wind and freezing our asses off that we jumped into the pool to warm up. When you're wet and you go into water you keep warmer faster loool. Then we started splooshing water at each other and kicking up mud and squealing and hell, it was pretty fun! :D Then while doing the tarxan-course I kept on falling in, then Angie yelled: "THINK LIANG BAO" then I shrieked and fell RIGHT IN. All in all, I fell in about 10 over times. And Jo, Van and I were sitting on the balance beam and dangling our feet in the water braiding reeds/rushes and squealing when we saw a frog. Ahahahahaha

Cold, tired, soaked to bone we went to bathe. Then we were seriously seriously F*CKED. The toilets are supersupershitty. There's like COCKROACHES and weird shit inside and no electricity either. Ever tried bathing by candlelight? You can't see what you're doing and Amanda was so pissed because she couldn't get her bra on. And there was a problem with water too cos the one of the pumps were unluckily spolit and zero-g on water pressure. In the end, I just washed my hair in the sink and did my best later in a dark stinky smelly dirty cubicle.

And since it was raining so shittily, there weren't many fireflies or stars. But the fireflies ARE cool. I mean it. Apparently when they're mating the lights start to synchronize and it looks a little like green christmas lights. The males are brighter than the females though. It's pretty na~ Then we passed by the WWII bunkers and one of them freaked the kazoozz out of me cos I saw something - a shadow or whatever that just flickered when the leaves rustled. Anyway, it was freaky. I wasn't the only one though, Eleanor was pretty freaked too.

Day Two of Hell

SWAMP WALK.
Disgusting. Icky. Flooded. *insert EWW-adjectives here*
First Encounter with leeches.
And other various digustingly creepycrawlies
*shudders*

The rain didn't stop the entire day and night so everywhere was super super muddy. Example:

Guy1: "eh so how was the swamp walk har?"
Guy2: " The first part okay lah, just normal walking mud"

Do you know how weird that sounds?
Normal walking MUD

It's like the place was so muddy we had normal mud (which is soft and grassy), squelchy mud (which goes squelch squelch when you walk), concrete mud (which is thick and clingy and sucks your slippers in), smelly farting mud (which smells like shit and goes blop)

Disgusting aye?

Slushy slooshy smushy splush

The Orderline Trail wasn't so bad, it was just really cold. The rain turned into those chillingly cold drizzles with wind and I was slightly feverish. Didn't want to see the bunkers cos it was a little creepy (and confined. and underground. and flooded with water. and dead things)I just don't like mud. Mud sucks. Mud makes your life miserable. *sniffles* It's just so icky!!!

Dinner was pretty good. I don't know...but the food here is pretty nice. It's mostly curry and beans but I LIKE curry. 'specially 2 different kinds of curry at one go. It warms you up and tastes really good when you're cold, wet, hungry and resembling more or less like a drowned rat. And since Malaysia is a Islamic country, most of it was chicken, mutton and beef. My sis would love the food 'cos it's basically organic (yes sis, I agree that free-range tastes better) and the eggs, eggy-er.

The briefing afterwards really freaked me though. Tomorrow we would be climbling Mount Pangi. Group 1 (my group) would be starting from Pine Resort and trekking till we reached a rock wall about 5m high and free-climb (i.e. no harness) up till we reached a swamp plateau then trek again till we reached the summit

From the summit, we would trek down until we reached this HUGE 4-storey high convex cave rock wall and free-climb down. And trek downwards till we reached base camp again. (Group 2 would descend from our side)

tsu's reaction: "NO FRIGGIN' WAY." (especially since I heard it was a non-complusory challenge.

Thinking:

-It's been raining for the past 2 days = LEECHES + slippery.

-It's free-fall climbing = Fall and you kana si liao (die)

-I really hate this kind of thing = already did LTC why give a shit

-It's non-complusory = why should I volunteer to walk among bugs?

Everyone was discussing if they wanted to go or not. I had already decided not to go, while Josephine, Marie, Charissa and Amanda were thinking about it. What really irritated me was that Angel was being so pushy about going. People like me and Jo weren't really keen and she kept on and on, saying stuff like "Go lah, it won't be fun without you." , "I'll missssssssss you.", "We must be as tough as the boys right? Come lar!" It's irritating. It's even more irritating when I saw Angel pushing those people who didn't want to go, and exerting ...what'cha call it? Peer Pressure on them. Most of them decided to think about it overnight.

Day Three (a.k.a NICE DAY! :D)

The sun broke out finally, it was really beautiful. The swamp IS beautiful, but we couldn't really enjoy because of the dirt, the bugs, the mud, the rain. But watching the rainbows (there were 2) arc over the grassy wetlands, with morning mist hanging over and monkeys and birds calling out....it's really beautiful.

And angel was *still* pushing.
My goodness, doesn't she know when to stop?

Anyway, in the end only Josephine and I didn't go :D Even though they said all the stuff about pride and self-respect and all that kind of thing, I still think I made the right decision for myself.

Since everyone else was leaving, I volunteered to wash the breakfast dishes so they had enough time to organize the food packs, water, who's carrying what etc etc So when they left Jo and I collected the plates and cutlery and went behind to wash leisurely. Washing wasn't so bad, but EW! Some people didn't know how to do it properly so it choked the sink and it was really digusting cos it was our group's duty and ended up being us to un-choke it.

We found 2 other girls who didn't go either (Grace and Angeline(?) from ARC.) and 2 female teachers as well. It was pretty wonderful, we sat together in the wooden seats in the 'balcony' outside the longhouse, dangled our feet over the water, prodded at the pretty yellow fungi and watched the dragonflies and birds and the sun glide over the treetops and just.....talking. Aimless stuff like what were our favourite things etc etc....Jo was really homesick. And what she needed wasn't a bloody mountain (filled with god-knows-what) but just random nonsense and cheerful, normal things to make her feel better.

Then the sun got too hot, and we moved in. The other girls went to hang laze on the hammocks so Jo and I decided to make the best out of the sunshine and wash our dirty clothes and shoes. So we carried all our dirty bags to the bridge-area, sat down and did our laundry. It was nice ^^ The sun was hot and the water was cold and it was just absolutely lovely to put your feet in the icy-rain water and wash the mud off your clothes and hang it on wooden railings to dry while looking at the sheer amount of butterflies, birds and dragonflies. We saw yellow butterflies, white ones and this absolutely beautiful one that was black and violet and it sat on Jo's shoe while she washed her clothes.

It was really wonderful. Like.....a real holiday ^^ It just felt so peaceful and serene, and wonderfully quiet. Then we went off to bathe in the clean(!) bathrooms and enjoyed a bath with lots of water, no one bugging you to hurry up or anything but taking your time to slowly scrub down and bathe with shampoo, bath foam and conditioner. *sighs happily* By the time we got out, it was just in time for lunch. Lunch of tomato chicken, beans and rice <3 yummy *drools* Then it started to drizzle a little (but that's normal) so we walked leisurely back, and went for an afternoon nap in the drizzly weather.

Woke up, read Goblet of Fire (nicked it from Angie's bunk) and some newspapers before watching the sunset and waiting for everyone to get back. Because I didn't go, I'm posting one of my classmate's story here:

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The other side of Day 3 [by classmates]
Going up wasn't so bad, it was pretty sunny. The only part was the climbing but the tree was so weird! It was like a spiral staircase of roots so it wasn't too hard to climb. At the summit we had lunch and spent like, 15mins eating fried egg and rice. The view was really good, but honestly? Not worth it. What really scared us was that Group 2 (who were already there) was saying "The LEECHES WILL EAT j00 ALIVE!" and had bloodstained socks and legs bleeding everywhere to prove it.

Getting down was harder. The weird inverted cave (it curves inwards) took really long then it started raining and all the leeches started coming out and attacking us! We even saw this leech-nest which was really gross cos they were crawling and it was really digusting. Marcus was such an ass and he started playing with them and putting it on his hand until it grew really big - about the size of your thumb. Everyone started slipping and falling - especially Joceyln, who fell about 6 times. The mud was really gross and we were practically wading in it most of the time. Soon everyone wasn't only bloody, but muddy as well.

We started out quite late, so by the time we got back it was already almost dark and really cold. We were practically freezing inside the bus."

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By the time they got back it was really dark, and they were all stinky and smelly and had horrible bleeding patches on various body parts. Not only that, some of them didn't realize they had leeches still on, and brought them in(!) >____> Icky. Everyone was either really hyped, or really tired by now so lights out pretty quickly. Charissa and I were talking about shopping while some of them went off to listen to ghost stories. Nicest day so far ~<3<3<3

Day Four of Hell (last day!:D)

Long long long long busride. 2 hrs to get to Johore Lama to visit a pointless un-preserved fort that took only 15 mins to look around but 2 hrs to get to. Some random history bits about Johore (i.e. "lama" means "original" and apparently, this was a main trading port before it moved to JB, then KL)

More busride....1 hr to Kota Tinggi Museum.

More history bits. Stuff like the Dutch tradesman who came before the British, lots of pottery and sharp-deadly looking kris. The cool thing was this 100 years old Koran...and guess what?! It's still legible! (and in Arabic) It's written in goat parchment apparently...waaaay cool. The beaten gold hexagonal coins (with inscriptions) and the "punched" jewellery were surprisingly shiny. What really struck me was this pair of earrings with sapphire (marquis-cut) and it was absolutely gorgeous. It's the deep sea blue - the infinite blue - so pretty. Like Tatsumi's eyes <3~

More busride .....Kota Tinggi town up ahead!

By that time we were super-hungry and Kevin and I were masohistically talking about food, food, food. Like icecream. Chendol. Roti Chanai (basically prata crispier). Pizza. 7-11 Slurpies. Chocolate. Char Kway Teow. etc etc etc By the time we reached the town we were practically starving. We broke off into different groups: Jo, Eleanor, Jocelyn, Pinkie, Graham and I went off to the coffeshop to eat chicken rice, duck noodles, bakuteh ("pork tea" aka pork cooked in herbal stew) and roti chanai with sourplum juice and milo ping (iced milo). The food was fantastic, and we went off to look for chendol and buy stuff back home before we got back in the bus.

Other people not so cool xD Ate Pizza Hut and KFC. Apparently, they didn't ask for directions and ran out of time and ended up headed for the first stop they could see.

Reached Singapore. And all of us started singing the national songs! This is HOME. TRULY! and all that kind of stuff -lool, Mawai has made me more appreciative I guess. I currently am in love with concrete floors (no MUD!), clean bathrooms, hot water, and NO BUGS! *gleeful* no bugs no bugs no bugs NO BUGS! :D

*kisses hallowed ground*

Went home and scrubbed myself *clean*. Used plenty of soap, then watched in horror as my bathwater ran BROWN!. It had soil in it. As in -MUD- *horrified* EW EW EW GROSS!

Scrubbed again just to make sure.

And for record, The MAWAI songs!

Jungle Hell (sing to Jingle Bells)

dashing through the mud
like one retarded group
we walk on ropes and planks
to get to the other end

we can't do monkey bars
ropes are not our friend
but when we jump into the swamp
wet is what we get

hey! jungle hell, jungle hell
rain and rain all day
what the fook we have to do
a ropes course in the rain

hey! jungle hell, jungle hell
rain and rain all day
o what it would be to
play and play instead

It Just Rains (sing to Let It Snow)

the weather outside is frightful
our beds are warm and delightful
then when we're dragged to the swamp
it just rains
it just rains
it just rains

Walking in the Muddy Swampy Land(sing to: Walking in Winter Wonderland)

n the rain, there are no birds
no one smiles, only leeches
they cling to our skin, sucking it in
that's walking in the rainy swampy land

In the swampland there are no roads
And we all fall into the mud bath
When we get up our shoe just gets stuck
And no one has the heart to really smile

Later on, as when it's freezing
All are cold, in the raining
To add to our pain
The damned bloody rain
Starts pouring hard all over again

Orderline Trail (sing to: Slient Night)

Ordeline trail
pouring rain
we are wet, ground is soft
bunkers, jetties and dark grey stone
when we go back we are happy
all we can say is yipee

Dreaming of (sing to: Dreaming of White Christmas)

i'm dreaming of my home and family
just like they were four days ago
with my siblings screaming
and father grunting
and mum yelling through her nose

i'm dreaming of a nice bathroom
just like the one i have at home
i hope that i'll be happy and right
and that home will come to me tonight


The MAWAI SONG (sing to: L.O.V.E)

L is for the leeches on my leg
O is oh-my-gosh it's raining, again!
V is very very, extra extra muddy
E is even more than any horror i could ask for

mud, is more than just a game for two
mud can give you really screwed up shoes
but shoes are really cheap here
we sleep with monkeys, dogs and mousedeer
and that is mawai made for you!


love
tsu

+tsu waited for you at 08:36 p.m.+

Hi. Tsu's *coughVERYCOOLcough* sister here. Umm, by order I am suppose to say:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEISHIROU-SAN<3~!!!!

Yup. Done.
Tsu is at Mawai enjoying a firefly cruise according to the itinerary. Hope she doesn't have many leechs on her, it's been rainy all day. She going to be girly when she comes home and hog the toilet to scrub herself with good smelling soap. -_-

Night. She's gonna miss her TV programmes