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casual banter :-)

twist and turn
twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn and twist and turn. why hasnt guilt made sense out of you yet? stop tiring yourself with all the bullshit commentary. * on another road, Goh is officially my best bud in camp now. he'll be going nuts at Sentosa soon and i'm out in 5 minutes to meet people who matter. :)

Tuesday, December 31, 2002

09:09 p.m.

good karma. good good karma.
been having a lot of good luck lately. a lot of lucky twists and turns, just when i thought i reached the dead ends. * and the email that i was one of the 15 in the world to get the limited 7" edition of To See You Broken was real after all. came in the mail yesterday. * the project was finally done yesterday. and at a discount as well. good fun. good good fun. because my previous year-end periods were all shit for the past 3 years at least. * -smiles- * happy new year motherfuckers!

Tuesday, December 31, 2002

06:22 a.m.

so few yet so much
past 2 nights have been spent doing duty with Rayelias. all went well Thursday night with Loh as 3rd I/C. until the morning when Wan Shah (GD) got charged. some AWOL thingie going on. it sucks having to bring a friend, and we had a little scuffle a couple months back at that, to Detention. he will only be released 3rd Jan or so. * this morning was a little crazier. Aziz who was covering 3rd I/C duties for Aidil, who "bastard" us and didnt come even though it was his punishment for coming late, was on something last night. he was stoned, high and stoinked all in one. talked to himself and asked stupid questions. crazy. had to send him to the Holding cell in DB to keep him and others safe. found out a few hours later that he broke into 4 lockers too and made off with a some wallets, watches and other personal belongings...which didnt belong to him. * no one fucks with CD guys. they're crazy by the grace of God. hahaha

Saturday, December 28, 2002

11:41 a.m.

g.i. dolores?
was watching TV earlier. saw a Cranberries video clip trailer. i think Dolores was wearing a Government Issue t-shirt. fucking cool. Government fucking Issue rule.

Thursday, December 26, 2002

01:45 a.m.

is obnoxious boring?
Sunday was fun. met Kyo, Reiki, Evelyn and friends at Hereen to catch the DJ-ing thing going on. pretty impressive shit, especially from the b-boys and b-girls from Radikal Forcez. then Eric and Atok came along and we chilled. the group split for a couple hours and me Atok and Eric walked around, from HMV to Borders while the rest were doing some advertising stuff for the post Christmas drum n bass thing at Union Sq. i'll be on night shift that day so what the fuck. i cant go. then went to catch the N-A play at Substation with Kyro and Reiki that night. 2 and the half hours, one actor, brilliant script, brilliant directing, brilliant set design. about transexuality, taboo and the tremors that lie within. awesome. and mind provoking too. * Monday was meant to be at home but Brian called and asked to meet. i couldnt say no to my "brother" man. had some drinks and food at Bedok before meeting up with Bob, who booked out. we met at Bugis and i was hooked on that Winning 11 arcade game. but still it was fun chilling with the 2 and their army stories. Hairil passed by when i went back to Bugis Junction for more arcade games, and was still there when i returned. * caught LOTR with the hc666 kids just now. freaking awesome show. hell yes. i cant wait for part 3

Wednesday, December 25, 2002

01:28 a.m.

layer upon layer
i am so disappointed in you. and you too. * you are such a fucking sell out. i thought you disliked them. i thought you hated them. you used to make fun of them. now you're chilling with them. and more. its fucking clear to me now. you used me. you better change. before shit goes back your way. * you too. you fucking ingrate. fuck you man. no word of thanks. then or now. none at all. i helped you and you repaid this with this form of insolence. i dont know if you used her or if she's using you. either way, i won. by losing. now im able to see how things are; unbiased. no longer are clear moments corrupted by rancid thoughts. * and you know what? fuck them too.

Monday, December 23, 2002

02:41 a.m.

it's over?
de-gender-alize 2(002). an ethical success. strange that we had only about a 200 strong crowd, including the bands and crew. last year, with smaller bands, and a stupid venue like YMS, and lesser promotion, we had 230+ paying people ALONE. maybe its the clash of gigs with the one No Direction and eniale were playing at Club Oosh. had fun setting up and watching those bands perform. it sucked though that everything was delayed by and hour and the soundcheck duration was cut from 90 minutes to a mere 40 minutes, hence the bands had to sacrifice 5-10 minutes of their overall playing time to save time. then there was the rain... * Hearing Hill fucking rocked. ambient experimental soundscapes. fucking fucking impressive. argh! an artnoise version of Masonna. the other bands rocked too, with Kate of Kale and Harakiri playing well above themselves. and Ahboy was in a good mood too. ah. DE-GENDER-ALIZE 3. watch out for it.

Sunday, December 22, 2002

02:56 a.m.

like its been said...
de-gender-alize 2(002) is only a few days away. its funny how psyched you can get, for days weeks and months, just for that half of a day. while its worthwhile, sometimes i wish DE-GENDER-ALIZE could be as long as a Woodstock. but thats just a dream. * today is the LOTR 2 premier and i cant go because i dont have tickets nor do i have money for tickets nor do i think they will have any. fuck. i must catch that together with the other LOTR clowns. someday. by LOTR 3 i'll probably dress up as one of the bad guys and go the cinema just to catch it. i might not be a die hard fanatic of LOTR, but i sure as hell would spend 3 hours of my life just to catch one of its installments. move over Star Wars. i'm allowed to say that because i dont give a fuck about Star Wars anyway.

Thursday, December 19, 2002

05:25 a.m.

replace "girl" with "site"
there. i've had enough of girls and their evil doings. and im eternally sick of a lot of guys too so dont accuse me of being sexist. but whatever lah. call me what you want. * replaced the Girl of the Month link with Site of the Month. and the first dip for Site of the Month is a total KILLER. watch, adore and applaud. i am fucking blown away...

Monday, December 16, 2002

11:52 a.m.

selamat hari riot
well wishes to those who celebrate. but i'd still like to say i hate my upbringing. fucking pretentious. fucking righteous. it teaches me how not to be me. makes me fight with my parents. my mother just left the house in a fit because i refused to take down the posters on my door. it was partly because of the way she made me do it. ala some RSM. heck. this is home, not some fucking regimental camp. just how offensive can a Jhai Alai poster be? Or a My Name Is Nadra poster be? Or fucking dog earred lists with people's phone numbers? Or a DE-GENDER-ALIZE 1 poster? Or a god fucking damned Jammerz Pit advert? i fucking hate it when people misuse religion to save their faces. fuck it. im a fucking adult now. an adult who loves loud music, cool posters and other "undesirable" stuff. when i was a kid, it would be the same. and when im a fucking 35 year old poofter i guess i would still be the same. Discordance Axis would probably still rock my world at 47. so there! * hari raya was okay. went to both grandies places. this year i used a blue cotton long sleeve. i didnt wear Baju Kurung. dont know why. maybe because i dont deserve it? i dont know. and there were some oh-so-righteous remarks made by those damn relatives. rich, well to do "Melayu" fuckers. those are my "maternal" aunts and uncles. i wonder how my cousins would turn out to be. not like their fucking parents i hope. then again, i still love them. whatever. my "paternal" side was okay though. reached home at 2215hrs. after a shower i headed to the Esplanade for the drum n bass thing. chilled with munir, eric, kyo and reiki. had supper afterwards. fucking crazed. it was really fun with a lot of jokes about...well...im not telling. * saturday - headed to the Esplanade to catch the Kate Of Kale set. lucky they ended by 5pm, because i had duty at 6pm. passed the KOK the DE-GENDER-ALIZE 2(002) flyers, bought the limited edition SOMMERSET 7" (from the guy i assume was the guitarist), bumped into Syraff and wanfan and got the fuck out of the area and went to camp. bleaugh.

Sunday, December 8, 2002

11:09 a.m.

or so i thought...
when i was on my way to meet the hc666 kids at suntec i thought i saw Liz going down on the escalator. so as i was ascending i raised my middle finger at her, awaiting to yell "HEY BITCH LONG TIME NO SEE!" (nothing personal, thats how i greet her anyway :P). to my horror...IT WASNT LIZ! it was someone who looked 95% like her. FUCK!!!!!!!! i was stumped. and went "eh alamak sorry sorry...i thought u my friend." lucky i didnt start the "HEY BITCH" thing. luckily she and her friend(s) took it well...still its crazy. i bet anu, zal, aish and whoever knows Liz would be laughing their asses of right now. you should see this Liz-clone. fuck!!!!!!

Thursday, December 5, 2002

12:22 a.m.

DE-GENDER-ALIZE 2(002) Breaking Barriers Of Communication
the link is up. the page is done. sort of. :) REMEMBER TO COME!

Wednesday, November 27, 2002

08:55 a.m.

attitude adjustment

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Friday, November 22, 2002

11:36 p.m.

...
reading aish's guestbook made me remember something. atok masod passed away last week. i took urgent leave that day and attended the funeral. helped with the prayers and burial. met an old kampung friend at the cemetery of all places. so its 3 deaths which somehow affected me in 3 months. september it was allahyarham syed. october it was didi farhan (a firefighter in SCDF who died in a motor accident, whom i supposedly was in charge of for a while when he was a recruit. i didnt go to the funeral as i was on duty) and now its atok. i wasnt too affected by atok's death. not that i didnt love him, but his death was long overdue. he was fighting a losing battle with stroke-related disease, and his state was deteriorating so bad i guess his death was his only solace. rest in peace atok. we will always love you. * some people are hypocrites. to the person in mind...her friends didnt matter to you back then. why do they suddenly matter now? and why am i "nothing" now? after how i helped you out last year? as much as i care for you pal, i have to say this....FUCK YOU.

Thursday, November 21, 2002

11:27 a.m.

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Tuesday, November 19, 2002

09:03 a.m.

always tell the truth, though sometimes its okay to lie.
so this is where its going. for how much longer will this deception carry on? i was like you. i thought i saw a fine person in him. its ironic that an issue like this made me rethink. this is what i get for being a fucking nice guy. * men are dicks and women are cunts. so don't come and talk to me about fucking sexism.

Tuesday, November 19, 2002

08:14 a.m.

in words part 2
i wonder if you already realized. and if you do, i hope, that as a mark of respect...in fact THE MARK of respect we have for each other, shows. and i wish that you would just walk out the door. peacefully. no grudges. *** anyway...the rememories jam went fantastic today. we're ready. our latest composition being Sudden Farewell was extremely heartfelt. we all felt it. and we're going to fucking destroy your lives soon....

Sunday, November 10, 2002

01:54 a.m.

show me.
sometimes i wish you would just...leave. if thats apt enough. just please return the fucking favour. i heard you out the last time. i wish for a bit of understanding from you now. * the rest of you. pretentious assholes. get a brain. get a fucking life. lets see where you stand when the dust has settled. fuckers.

Saturday, November 9, 2002

05:11 a.m.

you on my side.
this is so touching. now everyone has jumped on the bandwagon and going after the coveted prize. i just have to say something. FUCK YOU. im not going to give it up. no way. fucking hell. if you beat me, you can dominate anything. i swore to give my all in this battle and i swear to myself that any defeat would spell out my closing serenade. * its nice to know that you, who care, are behind me. it means a lot to know that you'll still be on my side regardless of whether i win or lose.

Friday, November 8, 2002

01:28 a.m.

creeps = bad luck
creepy shit in camp last night. something was playing with my hair last night when i was sleeping. at first i thought it was one of those stupid bugs but i didnt see any. couldnt be the guards too. played with my hair and i felt something go inside my shirt. when i unbuttoned nothing was there. freaky. but i was more pissed than anything because i was so fucking sleepy. * Goh felt it too. he felt something playing with his left leg when he was sleeping. * Ayam and Fadh smelt something awful in the toilet, and when Ayam started making dumb comments about the smell, it disappeared suddenly. * D Coy's Ali was locked in some room at the Multi Purpose Hall. from outside. and he was holding the key. * Goh was walking through the alley when the Comms room gate shook heavily. * freaky episodes. * when i woke up from my legal nap at 815, Ayam got charged. some old incident about borrowing money from a recruit and not returning. basket. * i have to miss the Rememories jam later due to Corrective Training. the guys all wanted to pakat and not go, but with orders being Detention for absentees, im FORCED to postpone my plans. i hope the rest can make it tomorrow for jamming...i really want to scream the fuck out with Rememories. sorry Berd, Syraff, Acak, Michaal...

Saturday, November 2, 2002

11:19 a.m.

kdjaeyfajfadkj
chilled in town yesterday with Berd, Munir. had makan at that Funan Cheap food court. then went to Roxy. hidir and wan fan joined us soon after, followed by Jax and Glenn in town. we then chilled more at the Gallery steps. saw a lot of my friends walk pass. i waved. felt a bit lazy though yesterday. maybe im tired. maybe im stressed with a million activities within the next 2 months. * met danny close to midnight at bedok to get from him the "wombat" Thamz sent over. awww...THANKS THAMZ! -hug and muack- i havent fiddled with the "wombat" yet... * Rememories jamming tomorrow. fuck i have night duty. I HATE night duty. when is the fucking ORD. WHEN. * btw the "wombat" is a record. why would anyone want to send over an animal. im talking rubbish.

Friday, November 1, 2002

03:38 p.m.

and the story goes...
finally i knew what happened between me and J K last week. Goh filled me in with what he SAW.-- J K and me joke. somehow it was all badly timed with one of us frustrated and the other tired. vulgarities came to glares. then POW an elbow to my chin i got flung to the whiteboard at the Guardroom. i dropped to the floor almost instantaneously. but with mouth still bleeding, instead of being knocked out upon impact, i got up and started staring and throwing more vulgarities at J K. i then half charged to the GD bunk to look for J K, and Goh expected another explosion. instead we had a slow talk and that was where we were both at peace again. i washed my mouth, took a rest and fell asleep. and that was the whole episode. a stupid fight, which i forgot almost in entirety. * a lot of the clowns in camp were wishing me happy birthday just now. cool. i was expecting a GD-cum-guard birthday pile up, but thankfully it was just Ayam, Rayelias and Goh. lucky Wan Shah left early, Indra was busy and Nizam was late. double lucky that the GDs couldnt give a fuck, or didnt know it at all. * Oath taking for Intake 85 BRT stage squad tomorrow. Dinshop will be enlisting. muahaha. * mudjit, wabbit and a few peeps msged me a Happy Birth too. cool! thanks guys! * wanted to but didnt meet Anna today, with the phone being with her mom and her being on MC. poor thing. get well soon yo. * was on the way home when Jane msged. i was hungry so i thought might as well meet up for a short makan at Paya Lebar. she treated me to Long John's despite my huge protests. she already treated me to pre-birthday lunch last week, now she had to do it again. argh. but thanks anyway wabbit :). after that had a short talk about stuff, then went to catch the bus at about 1145pm. so sweet of her to accompany me all the way to Bedok. i decided to be nice back and waited for her to catch her cab home. its really nice spending a birthday with a good friend, more so when i wasnt really expecting a birthday bash. fuck birthday parties, im just glad to be alive. now ironically, i was thinking of having a bash on one of my future birthdays complete with live drum N bass and fastcore bands. hmmm.... * anyway thanks loads wabbit :)

Tuesday, October 29, 2002

01:50 a.m.

happy birthday
so yes. im fucking 20 now. no more a teen. im thankful to be alive. rach just wished me. will love her forever for that. im getting ready for a pileup in camp tomorrow. mampos.

Monday, October 28, 2002

12:00 a.m.

good dinner and good friends
BIZKUT IS BACK!!! WOOOOHOOO! his remand sentence for motorcycle oil theft is a mere 4 weeks. still for us "sendeng brothers" 4 weeks of not doing anything is pure mental torture. fucking great to see him again. though he's off the provost uniform due to his offence. but what the hell he's still Guardroom Personel. Herman who was transferred to Guardroom from CDDB a while back (due to another offence) is now sub-transferred as the GD I/C. makes no difference now that the Guardroom bastards and the GDs are chilling out and working together. susah datang thing yo. ironically there have been clashes between the 2 units for about 2 weeks. not just verbal disagreements, but as Mats say..."tangan jalan". oh well. * dinner rocked yesterday in camp. rice, beef curry, sambal goreng, fish fillet, seafood cake, egg-seafood patty, chicken and cabbage. i even bought fries to add. fucking rocking dinner. no wonder im gaining so much weight. ha!

Friday, October 25, 2002

11:51 a.m.

letting the dust settle
right, since most of my friends are calling me up and asking me if im okay...THANKS FOR THE CONCERN :). i am okay. really. for those of you who are in the dark...i got into some kind of fight in camp Wednesday morn. i forgot what happened 2 hours prior and 4 hours after the incident but from what Rayelias told me...it all went like this. It was just a bad timed joke session between me and J K. either me or he couldnt accept the joke for whatever reason (more likely due to bad timing more than anything else), glares and vulgarities were exchanged. then suddenly POW he hit me with one mean uppercut / punch / whatever hand kung fu move they call it. i was knocked out for a while with blood spilt. i was dazed and confused and talked nonsense for a while. instead of going home i slept in camp till my following night duty. small matter blown up. simple thingie lah. anyway everything's cool now. me and J K have shaken hands, forgave and forgot. no im not naming him. forgive and forget mah. * thursday...OFF DAY. slept well. until the fucking alarm clock went off. had to meet Bob and Terence at TNT to get the finished product of the 12th Oct recording. overall we werent really pleased with the outcome because Ahboy missed out/screwed up/misconstrued certain parts. we will re-record "Question". everything else sounds good. Bob finally got his wish of having a guest grrl singer for one of the songs with Aisha doing her bit in "Jane's Serenade". but all in all, apart from "Question", everything is fine.

Friday, October 18, 2002

07:24 p.m.

hell yeah!


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Tuesday, October 15, 2002

12:41 p.m.

::
i love the sound of your voice. i like the way you smile. i even adore the way you laugh. for that would make me glad for a while. * i think you're quite a genius. for what you create is brilliant. it's funny how problems can be solved. by your timely interference. * you see, even the way you dress is cool. minus the cheesy bits and hits. simple, almost i-don't-give-a-fuck. Yet on you i think its a perfect fit. * at times i hope we could pair up. like maybe for a band or something. it would be nice to create melody. and all of us jumping and singing. * then somedays the weird thoughts set in. about how i probably am a bother. i guess thats because i think too much. but then, its healthy to wonder. * hopefully the days can draw out something. i'm a bit sick of being in a daze. foggy visions, warped ideas. such is the degree of this haze. * so what will it be sooner or later. i really hope i won't be left behind. for in the midst of my reluctance...i think you're nothing short of divine. *

Monday, October 14, 2002

02:00 a.m.

Kalashnikov
no not that weapon. fuck guns. im listening to the band. awesome female-vocalled Italian opera-inspired punkrock. brilliant. argh!!!!!

Sunday, October 13, 2002

04:17 p.m.

let me catch my breath...
fucking busy day its been. fell asleep while leaving the IRC on previous nite. so whats new. ppl were msging me and going "hello?~" and "oi". haha. Ayah woke me up at 730. he thought i had duty. "today wat day? saturday? neber-my. i off" and went back to sleep. * woke up for real at 10. did some email thingie, settled some stuff and went down for my monthly haircut. i know i have super short hair already but i like my sides shaven. i have stupid curly hair which twirls and curls and it irritates me. makes me sweat. * had a spicy lunch. power. * Joe Kidd called and we said hello and so on. we then arranged to meet at 5pm at TNT. * left the house at 330pm. met brother Tze Yang to settle some pager bill stuff (btw I CUT MY PAGER LINE. SO DONT PAGE ME ANYMORE) before xeroxing some zines. * then rushed to Kiliney Post Office to settle Ayah's bill. i also paid $19 fucking dollars and 90 fucking cents to send the package to Christophe. actually i shouldnt complain because 1) the package is wayyyyyyy delayed. should i say 26 months? 2) he lives in fucking France not in Bukit Timah or something. * reached TNT at 530. some eurasian kids just finished recording. typical teenage love rock. yawn. Joe arrived a while later. we said hi and talked a bit. Bob came within 2 minutes and we had some small talk. then terence. then smot came to check us out. cool! then brian! then Ahboy came out and talked to Joe. 2 ahpeks of the scene engaging in "hey long time no see" banter. cute. passed Joe Zerox 7 and 8. surprisingly he told me he already had the POOR comp tape. sweet! he then had to leave by 610 much to my dismay. some wedding stuff. hope to see him tomorrow. * the recording began at 615. for some reason we werent as psyched. maybe we were all tired. or maybe we are just too fucking familiar with studios. or maybe we just had too many fucking gigs. whatever. 10 songs done in 3 hours. including the Jahilia inspired screamo version of If I Fall, and everyone's current fave Jane's Serenade. (might rename it to Her Serenade but what the fuck). Aishmei did the guest female vocals. sweeeeeeet! Bob was going on and on about how he really liked her voice. i think she did AWESOME because 1) it was prolly her first time recording 2) it was very impromtu 3) she never once jammed with us. i cant fucking wait to get the complete work next week. and i know ur beaming Aish and Zal *grin*. * recording finished at 905. if it werent for the band who jammed next, we could even have stole some free time for mixing. whatever. anna turned up suddenly just as we left the studio. she apparently got off work early today. kind of a waste because everyone was leaving already. * we then seperated, the Yishunites left for town and L2N + smot went to S-11. met up with munir, hikmah, izar and samdin there. we had drinks makan and talk cock going on. Yan-drunk came soon after. that Esplanade opening thing bothered us with fireworks and firecracker powder haze. nabeh. * brian samdin and hikmah left and we all went to Padang to chill. one by one everyone seperated for different reasons and now im home, with Jane's Serenade playing in my head. * hope to meet Joe Kidd tomorrow. then Terence. maybe Anna at night. we'll see. * tape of the day : ONE LAST SIN "demo 1997"

Sunday, October 13, 2002

03:58 a.m.

kids of today
so its been sometime eh? anyway...been a bit busy past week. found out Ray caught dengue and had to be in hospital...he just got discharged just now. great! sunday was okay...with the Rememories jam being real tight and kick ass! monday - duty. big fucking deal. tuesday - off day. chilled with the grindcore gang. and had the usual teh/kopi politics. wed - couldnt see the Harakirians jam because of duty, though chilled with shafa and anna for a while at night. thursday aka just now - joined Norphrunt for their jam session. apparently they wanted me to do guest screamos for Juna. i couldnt refuse for Juna is my fave song from the band. cool..im keeping in touch with almost all the bands for the upcoming de-gender-alize 2(002). * tomorrow is the Comdr's Parade thingie. hope i dont wake up late later. either soccer with the hc666 fucks tomorrow evening or meeting up with a guest from Malaysia. hmm...will be fun.

Friday, October 11, 2002

01:04 a.m.

use me and you die!
fuck you boy. fuck you girl. called me a friend. and you stabbed me in the back. you said you felt for me and you went out with someone else. you called me brother, and you then robbed me of my precious. you said you chose to be single, so who's the guy whose hand you're holding? fuck you. stop fucking exploiting me. * these arent the lyrics of the REMEMORIES song. and im not raving mad at anyone at the moment either. but REMEMORIES is jamming again later and im getting in mood. everyone's favourite song is "Use Me And You Die!", because i think it relates to most people...

Sunday, October 6, 2002

10:51 a.m.

thursdays and fridays. and saturdays.
thursday - after duty went for the BTR jam at BMC cum Sidney's interview video project. BTR fucking kicked ass. FUCK!!!! really tight emotional indiepoprock. elfy's drums were class. jess's guitars and melodious vocals were fantastic. and mich's bass and background vocals were really well timed and sweet. wow. then Sid interviewed Mich and myself at different intervals about some youth culture thing. then i went home to sleep. * friday - SOCCER WITH THE HC666 FUCKERS! at AMK. basketball court. i teamed up with the white & grey shirts (we all wore it by coincidence...and most of us were Arsenal fans too!). we played that knockout league thingie...even had 2 strangers joining us too. fucking fun! if only Berd, Big Zan, Jasper Michaal and Apis (who went off after buying a PS 2 game...BASTARD!) and the rest were there. then we proceeded for another round at the street soccer court. that place seemed a little gothic with tall trees hovering and whatever. then left to meet up with Anna at town. was hoping she had some chillout plans. she didnt. alfrey had that cesspit session going on, she, su, nana and this caucasian colleague of theirs left after BK dinner. Shayma happened to be around too and she SMSed me when she spotted me. i was hoping she had plans. she did. with someone else. bah. so no one was free on friday night. stupid. i should have stayed on with those HC666 fuckers. and maybe play Winning 11 or chase cats or something. but then again...i was getting a little headache at 1130. and went home. to sleep. * saturday - managed to push my duty book-in from 6pm to 10pm. yay. went to Jammerz (I PAID THE ENTRY FEE LEH) to catch BETTER THAN RUN. they didnt disappoint. they played a very very impressive set. Mich was jumping around. so cute! with that bass of hers. they played 7 songs. WAH LAU EH U ALL. SABOH. i paid $4 to see u all play 7 songs? next time play 17 hor! i wanted to stay for eniale but then the peeps wanted to go to Lasalle. so what the fuck. went there. paid $4 again (courtesy of zal and anna *grin*). Kildonan were setting up. rocking set. then caught other acts like Spud, this hip hop thing...and ASP. the sucky thing was...I COULD HAVE GONE IN FOR FREE FOR BOTH GIGS. Guestlist for Jammerz and "secret lobang" for LaSalle. dont get me wrong i dont mind paying, even if i stayed for just 1 band. ($4 for a 17 song BTR set would be good. i remember paying $15 just to catch Impiety sometime back. and they were fucking worth every cent) problem is im low on cash. LOW LOW LOW. pay clocks in on the 12th. how am i going to survive on..erm...$15 for 6 days? hopefully Ma or Ayah can "chut" some money. heheheh.

Sunday, October 6, 2002

10:39 a.m.

to the faeri.
hello. im sorry he's still this way. fuck. maybe now you can see why i dislike him. but relax. remind yourself why you ended up with him in the first place. hopefully that would help. its actually pointless writing this because you know what i would say anyway. but hang on tight. i'll be here if you need me. by the way...happy birthday. PS : i was really touched when i saw the "screensaver" of your handphone. :) so sweet.

Thursday, October 3, 2002

12:53 a.m.

2 new CDs and some thinking...
just got home. met up with the Harakirians, Ayie (ex Harakiri bassist and Shafa's kid bro) and Aish after duty. had dinner at Long Johns again. but i didnt mind. the slaw rocks. zal had the cheek to bring over his dinner from the Jap restaurant next door. after dinner we all went to the Gramophone CD store at that John little Building. got myself some really awesome CDs for cheap. i got 2 Unlimited Live In Singapore 1993 Limited Edition and the soundtrack to The Teenage Textbook. for $6.98! Zal got some mean stuff including the Rudra CD, i remember Anna got Madonna and something else. No clue what the other CDs were. * the Yishunites left to catch Charmed. i and shafa arent into that so we decided to chill around town for a while. had the usual walk down...sat and talked about stuff and had the walkdown back to Dhoby Ghaut before leaving for home. * Shafa wrote a nice poem about something. * wonder if Aish is going to get her starhub plan. forgot to tell her this...so aish in case yr reading this...IF YOU GET STARHUB LET ME KNOW BECAUSE I WANT TO GET A STARHUB LINE AS WELL! :)

Thursday, October 3, 2002

12:23 a.m.

::if punk ever mattered to you::
::Guessbuuk, Guestbook, Gasbook::
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