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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

I want to archive this page, but I don't feel like I've put enough entries on it yet. Sad that I think in terms of wasting pages even when it's not actually using paper. XD;

So, Tokyo last weekend. I will say it here but I am certainly not telling anyone I work with because their opinion of my ability to take care of myself would plummet: I missed that damn bus Sunday morning. Yes, I woke up late, but not too late, not at all-- I got to the bus stop and I was waiting and I pulled out my ticket to double-check and ED, you FUCKWIT, that's the Bus Center, not Eki-mae on your ticket. I raced to the Bus Center only to arrive at seven on the dot and the bus had apparently JUST left, because it was nowhere in sight-- and if it left EARLY, oh we'll just not go there, because kousoku buses in this city NEVER leave early. That would be the way my luck works, though, I'd bet money on it.

Upshot being, I wasted fifty bucks on that ticket and ended up taking the shinkansen at eight AM anyway, and getting in at about the same time-- that bus from Nagaoka to Echigo-Yuzawa took FOREVER! And most of that eternity was spent sitting in one place, outside the Nagaoka station, for no discernable reason whatsoever, after the bus was full and we were ready to get moving. Oh well. At least I wasn't stupidly late to Ikebukuro, but it did precipitate a huge waste of time on Monday, having to discover where the buses left from when I would have already known, had I fucking come IN on one.

Met Homasse and Cat and went for delicious Mexican food, which I was too tired to enjoy as much as I had expected to, but the conversation and the company were fabulous anyway. Then we poked through the Animate, which was fun but not as productive as I'd hoped-- either I was too tired or just not in the mood for anime or a little of both, but I just couldn't bring myself to even think of the things I'd wanted to look for, and then there wasn't really any of the merchandise I was in the mood to buy anyway. Six floors, and they never seem to have that much more of what I want-- it's overkill, I think; my poor country-bumpkin equivalent of a fandom consciousness just can't deal. XD; But I did score something for the otouto, and a little charm for me. Thanks, Homasse!

Then on to Harajuku, to refresh ourselves with coffee before invading Little Village (because that's what it is when the foreigners descend, an invasion-- we monopolize half the staff, and try on half the inventory!). I had pretty much convinced myself I was going to buy a coat there, even though I had no idea what styles they were carrying. I lucked out, though, because after dismissing all the Karrimor guy-coats and considering a fuzzy long number that looked similar to my furry-denim coat, Ryo (bless him, he's a great salesman) pulled out The Perfect Coat from some undisclosed location, and proffered it to me. It's hip-length, dark cocoa brown almost-corduroy, with dull bronze zippers everywhere and FUNCTIONAL TASTEFUL POCKETS oh my god and the sleeves are the perfect length and so is the cut and it has a furry collar that comes off, and after all that how could I quibble about the price? That jacket is and will remain the best purchase I've ever made in that store, or in Tokyo, period. It was made for me.

My first hunch was correct, though; they did have that delicious pale suede-fur concoction Gackt wears on the cover of January 05 Fool's Mate. (For a decent look at the jacket, rather than Gackt's face, click on that link with the arrows on the bottom right corner of the page-heading spread, then click on the link just below the top photo that says 'from BACKSTAGE'.) I saw it on the mannequin that stands by the stairs, that's usually dressed up in the Gackt Outfit Du Jour, and had to pet it (it's really really soft and I love the color). Ryo pulled another one off the rack in spite of my protests to the tune of 'too expensive, I know it's too expensive, no way!' So I tried it on, but the color just isn't flattering on me, and neither was the cut (though it was heavy and warm and damn it felt nice). Ryo commented on the suede and I said, "but if it rains, it'll be ruined, right?" And he hastily blurted out, "no it won't, it's fake!" rather loudly, actually, because he looked vaguely alarmed as soon as he said it (there were other customers nearby, we were mostly using Japanese, and that place is SMALL) and I burst out laughing. But he showed me the tag-- I've never felt polysuede that soft and convincing before, though. Damn. We all agreed it still wasn't a good coat for me, though, especially compared to that lovely dark brown jacket.

We tromped upstairs after that and totally took over, pulling out shirts and pants and I almost bought a gorgeous slinky purple-silver t-shirt that looked awesome, but it was just too expensive and I'm really glad I only brought a limited amount of cash with me, or I'd have bought it anyway! There was this really awesome black fake-fur-trimmed robe with kimono-like sleeves, though, which I would have been sorely tempted by if it had been just a tad looser around my hips, because then I could have worn it with jeans.

As it was, I bought the jacket, and caved and asked for my own point card (Homasse's put my last two purchases on hers, but I finally balked and gave in to the fact that I've bought something there every time I've gone so far). I don't do it often, and much of the time I don't like who I am when I start, but once in a while I really really love indulging that repressed part of me that has always longed to be really decadent and actually have things I've daydreamed about (or things similar). It's a teensy step up from being on the outside, looking in; it's being invited in for tea, but with a time limit. I can't stay forever, but that just makes it even more fun while it lasts. The wannabe high-roller in me's so severely stomped on, usually, that it takes comparatively little to make that part of me happy and send me up to cloud nine. Which is good, I think. XD; Yet another argument for me not living in Tokyo, fundamental nature and personality aside.

After that we stopped in Cyberdog, where I always /almost/ find the perfect t-shirt but they never fit right or they cost way too much, but I do always get a great handful of club fliers from their rack by the door. I'm gonna have to find a new patch of wall to put these on; I've run out of space over my fridge and the bed. Maybe it's time for Sam and Frodo to come down from the wall by the balcony door....

Then Cat took us to this little place for dinner where the menu is comprised entirely of pumpkin (Japanese pumpkin is 'kabocha', small and green on the outside, bright orange on the inside, tastes like a cross between the usual pumpkin and sweet potato). I had pumpkin soup, and it was really tasty. Then we parted ways and I went to Ikebukuro to get my bag, then on to meet Liz at her station. We ate dinner and hit the sack, and slept till ten AM. The weather was kind of gross and rainy on Sunday, but yesterday it was gorgeous, gold sunlight and pale blue-gold sky, really hazy but from the high train tracks we could /barely/ make out Mount Fuji, thanks to the sunlight reflecting off its fresh coat of snow (it looked just like another cloud, unless you knew what and where it was already). It was incredibly beautiful. Liz's neighborhood is quiet and relatively uncongested compared to most of central Tokyo, much more residential and spread-out and clean.

We went to Ikebukuro and I proceeded to waste an hour attempting to find someone, ANYone, who could tell me where to find the kousoku bus terminal-- and of course it turned out to be in a place I already knew of, but hadn't been to that side of the street before. In a station that huge, it's laughable, but I only found two station attendants and one Customer Service office (the police boxes were closed!) and in the end it was the man at the Limited Express ticket counter who had the presence of mind to give me a station map and tell me the NAME of the exit rather than the NUMBER (all the exits have names, and technically they all have numbers too but the numbers aren't always on the signs, as dictated by the Universal Stupid Public Signage Law.) He also was the only person who told me the /correct/ direction to take from said exit.

Small victory: I managed to ask all questions, and understand all responses, entirely in Japanese. (What made /me/ happier, though, was that not one person tried to speak a single word of English to me. THANK YOU.)

Stupidity dealt with, I dumped my bag and we set off for Ueno, where we did some serious shopping in Marui (I scored a purple leather belt and a present for Liza, and drooled over wallets), grabbed sandwiches for lunch, and then practically ran by the bracelet kiosk to get personalized bracelets (mine says 'wicked', I am determined to come up with something better and more enigmatic next time, however). We were pressed for time and the cashier did a routine entirely from Love Actually-- you know, where Rowan Atkinson's character is boxing up this necklace for a guy and he keeps doing little froufy unnecessary things, extra bags, ribbons, and he takes his sweet time about it all. EXACTLY THAT. It was hilarious and maddening. Then we dashed for Shinjuku and met Liz's student for bubble tea, yes, I finally had bubble tea! It was good, but I'm not a huge fan. Still, something to be said for the filling quality of the tapioca. Next was an hour of karaoke with another co-worker, and it was loads of fun because we all sang crazy stuff and didn't worry about how much we sucked or how bad we were at reading kanji. It's surprisingly hard to find other people who have the same attitude towards karaoke, and who /also/ like to sing in Japanese, at least some of the time.

Then it was five and I had to leave and haul ass back to Ikebukuro and catch that damn bus. I made it with fifteen minutes to spare, even accounting for the freak-out I had in Shinjuku over getting on a local train (Liz had to reassure me over the phone that yes, the local would get me there, because it was the VERY NEXT STOP)-- I have a very deeply ingrained mistrust of local trains, because they are so slow and run so infrequently in most places, and the few times I've had to use them I've almost always been incredibly late to my destination for one reason or another. Bad associations, I tell you.

But I got there and the bus ride was uneventful and quiet, and in the future I'm definitely using the kosoku bus to get to Tokyo. Maybe not both ways, but at least one way. I can take the shinkansen down on a Saturday night, and the bus back on Monday, or I can take the bus down Sunday morning, and the shinkansen back late Monday night (either way gives me more time in town, and saves me about five thousand yen.) Both ways, though, is the price of one shinkansen ticket, so it's hard to beat. If I do that, I can go more than once a month! In theory. XD Here's hoping I can do it in January; I have aspirations towards a day in Yokohama.

But right now I have to go to bed because I can't see straight and I have to get up in like eight hours. Augh. Photos to be posted tomorrow, I think.


ED wandered off @ 12:34 a.m.

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Sunday, December 5, 2004

I went to bed way too late, talked to Sephie for way too long, and there's a tropical storm that wants to be a typhoon raging outside. It's pretty much a do-nothing day, all things considered. But the sky was really pretty at three o'clock; it looked like a painting, purple grey blue gold with amazing sunbeams in the distance. Now it's just dark and creepy-looking.

Last week's West Wing episode was really unsettling. It was fabulous, but unsettling and, just, ow. But! Josh quoted Jimmy Buffett, EEEEEE. So much love. Please don't do anything stupid(er), Josh, I adore you and I don't want to be that pissed at a fictional character.

Time to do laundry, wash dishes, and start sorting out Christmas swag for people. I need to buy some gifts for co-workers, too... there will be lots of shopping going on tomorrow. Hopefully with Lisa as my partner in crime, though. She rocks.

What I miss, really, is being in the company of people who love me even when I'm being a total bastard. Nobody knows me that well here. (But it's good to know, at least, that I only have to go as far as Osaka. Yay for Mel!) Still. I could use some dog company right about now; the unconditional love would be nice.

And THERE IS WATER BLOWING IN THE CRACKS IN MY WINDOWS. Oooooh, the office is SO hearing from me tomorrow morning.


ED wandered off @ 04:44 p.m.

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Wednesday, December 1, 2004

Because it didn't quite match the last entry, but I felt like babbling anyway:

I made stir-fry last night and didn't realize I was out of soy sauce until the pan was simmering. GO ME. I ran to Lawson's (a whole fifty yards away, woo) and grabbed a bottle while Kate watched the stove. *Is genius* On the up side, that new koshihikari rice I have is RICE OF THE GODS. The taste might not be much to write home about, but oh, the texture! I could wax lyrical for pages, but I'm tired and my back hurts so I'll leave you plebes to imagine the perfectly soft, not-too-sticky, not-too-dry smooth awesomeness that is just-harvested koshihikari rice.

It also makes good leftovers.

The leftover smell, however, =not so great. I've been simmering cinnamon sticks and orange peels for the last two hours, and it smells like a bowl of oatmeal in here now (or rather, oatmeal the way I make it, with so much cinnamon it turns dark brown). Definitely an improvement. Hey, don't look at me like that. I happen to LIKE oatmeal. With raisins. And cinnamon.


ED wandered off @ 02:51 a.m.

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Wednesday, December 1, 2004

music: Billy Joel - 'We Didn't Start The Fire'

So I had my Amazing Weekend In Kansai (TM), and it was so exactly what I needed. And EXHAUSTING. Getting dumped at Kyoto Station at six AM with four hours to kill before the rest of the world gets with the program is NOT FUN, mostly because the only thing to do is sleep and Japan mocks most cruelly with its TOTAL LACK OF COMFORT in public places. I mean, not even a fucking /bench/, and you sit against the wall on the floor downstairs in the darkest remotest corner and the guards still come up and tell you not-so-nicely that you 'aren't allowed to sit there'.

Wankers.

Anyway. Met Mel and had coffee and inarizushi, which made everything better. Jamie came and we raided Toji's flea market, which was OMGSOCROWDED but very interesting. Had amazake, bought gifts, enjoyed the hell out of the fact that I'm taking the sight of piles of used kimono and stalls selling yakisoba totally for granted. I love being able to take things for granted, occasionally or not.

We crawled out of that mess and fought our way to Shijo, where we met Livni and had lunch at the usual Italian place (I am so buying the basil spaghetti the next time I eat there HOLY SHIT IT WAS GOOD). Recharged, took off for the theater where we scored tickets for Howl's Moving Castle, then went shopping (which was great but would have been greater if I'd been able to stash my backpack in a locker beforehand. I felt like a turtle.) Animate, Uniqlo, random clothing shops... Karasuma and Kawaramachi and the arcades in between are the best shopping places ever. Furumachi times a thousand, man-- that's another thing I love about Japan, the endless streets of teensy shops that all seem to be selling the same things until you actually go in and poke through all of it, and you NEVER have time to poke through all of it. Overwhelming and fascinating.

I scored new manga at the Animate, including the final volume of HanaKimi (sob!) which was so very good, and wished I were there with Sephie (next year, next year!). Then it was time to head back for the movie, which was great, but I was so tired I actually almost fell asleep towards the end.

THEN, we split up and Mel and I headed home, a long train ride and a long but nice walk to her gorgeous apartment. I had a shower and a wonderful sleep and then we woke up and played online, made breakfast and took off for Arashiyama: had the best negima in the universe from a stall on the riverbank, and some baby custard cakes. Took photos, walked along the riverbank all the way up to the end of the line, which is apparently an onsen used only by old people, although it's very pretty. Saw monkeys! Baby monkeys, families, monkeys on tree limbs overhead eating berries. Macaques are so cool. I was surprised at myself, totally forgetting they lived in this country-- the Japan of cool wildlife in my eight-year-old head is totally divorced from this Japan I live in now, full of concrete and daily grind and self-absorption. That kind of sucks. I need to find some more books, I guess.

We went into town for lunch and had soba, then attempted to browse but the crushing crowds killed that pretty quick. I wish we'd had more time to wander backstreets, but a glimpse of a maiko and the silk workshop and we barely caught the trains in time to make Nara by six. I am such a dipshit, I got us off the train we should have stayed on and we were ten minutes late. Hopefully I will not mess that up next time. Regardless, we saw Suzaku-mon all lit up and we met my sempai, met Amano-san, then booked it for the yakiniku place, where Yoshida-san met us. We had huge ishiyaki bibinpa, beer, awesome beef, and wakame soup, then went straight back to Yoshida-san's house, where she broke out the plum wine and we got good and toasted. Sitting on her big soft couches, all warm and full and happy with some of my favorite people, in my favorite place-- that's one good memory for the books. We talked and talked, Sveta's and Mel's Japanese skills making the conversation flow much smoother (and longer) than if it had just been me or anyone else; it was great. Mel and I played with Rintaro, Yoshida-san's dog, after Sveta left. Then bathtime and bed, boy did I sleep well. And breakfast! HUGE Japanese vegetarian breakfast, with the best tamagoyaki I've ever had, miso soup, rice, salad, and tea. Then coffee and oranges in the garden, in the sun under perfect blue sky, before Amano-san came to go to Shoryaku-ji with us.

The drive took forever because we kept having to stop, letting cars pass. The countryside was gorgeous, totally Nara in fall, light like that is nowhere else and it's thick and gold and pale and I love it. The walk up to the temple was covered with maples that glowed a million colors, those delicate leaves that are so unreal and pale trunks covered with snails and moss. We tasted some sake, then went in and sat by the garden for a good long time. Sun in the mountains in the fall, oh how I needed to see it.

Then down the mountain, then to Ishiyama Shrine (I think?) where I saw two families with their little girls, for their seven (or nine?) year visit, all decked out in showy kimonos and hair ornaments, their mothers looking like visions in really understated kimono. I wish I'd gotten photos. I was getting tired of being so blatantly stared at; usually it's terribly easy for me to ignore. Then it was back in the car and off to the kaitenzushi shop for a snack; it felt like we drove all over the plain but it was just a little bit south. Then we got dropped off by Sarusawa Ike, right at the edge, and proceeded to shop our way down to Daiei, with dinner at the Mos Burger on the way. I can always count on my favorite snack shop to have what I need; not konnyaku this time but a bag of E-Ma candy. Rock on. Higashimuki had all the souvenirs I needed, thank heavens; after that we went back up Konishi-dori to the station and grabbed the limited express to Kyoto Station, where we killed some time in a waffle shop that was absolute heaven. After Mel left, I walked around and took in the lights, the Christmas decorations and just being there this time of year; it felt more like Christmas was coming in Kansai than here in Niigata, if only because I remember how it felt before (which is like cheating, in a way).

It's so easy, being there, because it's familiar; but more than that, people just seem to enjoy themselves more-- everyone, people I see everywhere, and the food! They really do live to eat! How can I not love that? It filters down, I think, to some extent. Why want to be anywhere else, when you can be there in the middle of all that light and color?

Oh, it does make Niigata feel like a dull plodding existence. Only the homebody in me allows me to say honestly that I like it here, I suspect. That and the people I like, and Sado.

But still... I can't let go of the nagging compulsion to see every single last temple in the Kanto region. Every last stone, every museum, every last little fold in the mountains that holds a tiny farm or hidden pocket of age. It tugs, hard.

Maa, well, we'll see. It's bedtime now.


ED wandered off @ 02:09 a.m.

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Wednesday, November 17, 2004

This entry brought to you entirely by the fact that I had a /very/ mellow day at work, despite all anticipation of the opposite:

It's freezing outside (well, not literally, not yet) and pissing down rain, and my heater is on and I've got apple-cinnamon-raisin tea and I just finished watching some FMA with Kate. Christmas music is playing, I'm almost done with my laundry, and I'm fiddling with some writing before I go to bed. ....AND I'm going to see several incredibly fabulous people in Kansai this weekend. In Kansai!

Despite the lack of art and family members in my immediate vicinity, life is pretty damn good right now.

(I wonder, does this mean that writing copious amounts of fic will keep my brain quiet? GOD I HOPE SO.)

Oh, and the shinkansen will not, in fact, be fixed before New Year's. Looks like I'll be taking another night bus to Tokyo. Getting back to Niigata is going to be interesting.... Man, I really wanted to go shopping before Christmas, too!


ED wandered off @ 12:23 a.m.

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Monday, November 15, 2004

Well, I once again managed to get very little accomplished this weekend, in terms of what I /meant/ to do. On the other hand, I did /do/ a lot, so I don't feel too bad. XD

I'd wanted to go shopping yesterday, but after my Japanese lesson I just didn't feel like going out into the noise and the bright lights and spending more money. I cleaned, fudged around online, read, and watched some anime-- I found some more Saiyuki RELOAD, and I guess I have to amend my earlier condemnation of the series, because episode 18 actually had a lot of nice shots. The /animation/ is still terrible, because let's face it, anything with a frame count that low is gonna be pretty painful to get through-- but I enjoyed the hell out of the expressions on Sanzo's and Gojyo's faces, and the voice acting had me laughing out loud. The 'urasai' extras at the end of each episode are my favorite thing about the series, though. Some are far better than others, but they're all great piss-takes on the characters, and I love that. I really hope I can get my hands on the rest of the series soon. One thing, though... why does the opening sequence have to suck so much?! Gensoumaden had such lovely openings; RELOAD is just plain painful and the jittery stills give me a headache. I watched it twice, and now I skip it every time. (The ending, on the other hand, is nothing creative, but you'll never catch me complaining over gratuitous shots of Minekura's color art. YUM.)

Today, I rolled out of bed in time to meet a co-worker in Furumachi for lunch. There's this place near Next21 that has okonomiyaki tabehoudai ('tabehoudai' is basically 'all you can eat' in Japanese) for a really low price. We stuffed ourselves and then rented The Emperor's New Groove. I needed to see that... it's a good cheer-up kind of movie. The quiet restaurant, damp cloudy weather, early dark and movie-watching all combined to make today feel like a December Sunday. It was definitely what I needed; I feel less out of place now.

On the way home I detoured and poked in the stationery shop to get some Christmas/New Year's cards, and then went to Book-Off to get some CDs. I did a cursory manga check (hadn't been in since I plundered all their Saiyuki volumes) and lo and behold, there was a lone copy of Gaiden sitting up there on the shelf. WHEEE. (So, guess what I've been reading this evening? Haha.) Then I stopped by the import grocer's and got some chocolate, some cough drops and some more tea-- it's actually cheaper to get Twining's tea there than it is to buy it in Daiei. A LOT cheaper!

Now I'm waiting for laundry to finish, then I'm going to wash dishes, take out the garbage, and watch some more anime before bed. I have to get up early tomorrow, because I MUST have some me-time before I go into work. It's going to be a hellish day.

I really want to write, but everything I want to write /about/ is swirling around too much in my head and won't settle down into dialogue or even a coherent description-- uh, spoke too soon. Am hurrying over to the ficblog before I lose this bit.

Live through this week, then Mel and Nara will be my reward! :D I can do it....


ED wandered off @ 10:07 p.m.

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Thursday, November 4, 2004

I am, quite frankly, an over-sensitive introspective mess. I've always been like this, and no amount of 'growing up' seems to make a difference. That doesn't mean I don't still hate it.

It's a twisted kind of great advantage, but it's also my worst weakness. I'm not sure what to do with it, because stuffing it out of sight tends to backfire (see last two weeks of real life). I just wish I could switch my damn brain off sometimes.

What I need right now is a good dose of Glen and Dave, alcohol and Cajun food. Too bad it's a little beyond my reach.

I love it here, for a thousand little reasons, but I really fucking miss you guys.


ED wandered off @ 05:53 p.m.

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Sunday, October 31, 2004

Wow, I need to type this up while it's fresh in my memory or I'll NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF. XD;

First, I know none of you have any idea who these guys are: GLAY is my favorite band of all time, ever, in the world, period. Here is a wonderfully complete history and concise description of their career; here is their official webpage, so that you can check out what they look like. (Teru, lamentably, had a serious J-rock mullet for quite some time-- but he's gotten it chopped since the tour started, but THEN he dyed his hair solid black. You win some, you lose some.)

Okay, so the concert was at Toki Messe, Niigata's convention center. The arena GLAY used was about the size of Asheville's civic center without the tiered seating; just a huge hollow box of a room. The stage was definitely the most impressive setup I've ever seen before, but it wouldn't take much because I haven't been to many concerts! Still, it was sweet. Huge column screen with four side panels and topped by a flatter disc with extra screen space, and columns of lights. The opening animation that played over the main column was spectacular, from a design POV-- abstract without being dull or repetitive or too-obviously following the music. There was a lot of smoke, the occasional use of fire, strobes and loads of colored track lighting, but for the most part it stayed put. I was glad of that; I had been afraid there would be so much light action going on that I wouldn't be able to enjoy what was happening on the stage.

The first song was from their most recent album, as was the large part of the rest of the show, but they played enough older stuff to keep me happy (and to be fair, the newer songs are much better live!)-- hearing 'Winter, again' live was worth the price of admission all on its own, but there were also 'Kuchibiru', 'Kanojo no Modern', 'Fatsounds', 'ALL STANDARD IS YOU', 'Wet dream', 'Fighting Spirit' and 'Special Thanks.' Not to mention, 'Blue Jean' and their not-yet-released new single, 'White Road'. 'Blue Jean' is a sweet, fun summer song and it was even better live-- the guitar is the best thing about it, and Teru was in rare form (meaning, he was 80% on-key and sounded really clear). XD I'm sure I'm forgetting a couple of older songs in there, but it was three hours of music so some of the ones I don't know that well probably blurred together.

'Billionaire Champagne Miles Away' is one of my favorite songs from The Frustrated, and Teru did an exceptional job on it. :) The last song from the album, 'Nantoufuu' or whatever the heck it's really called, was the last encore song, and Teru had the audience learn a few dance moves for the chorus. It was hilarious, because everyone kept confusing left and right (to mirror the guy on stage, or use your own left/right? Ah, the eternal question...) and Teru almost gave up on us. There was a lot of filling in refrains, he even dropped the mic completely a couple of times and just hollered at us-- which was impressive because I could still hear him!

And Takuro really is amazing, and Jiro is /adorable/ the way he bounces around (I want to kidnap him), and Hisashi should smile more often because he really looks great when he does. XD; They interact well onstage, but they were spread out for most of the concert so that everyone in the closer sections had an equal chance to see them up close. When they get together, though, it's far more entertaining.

Of course, I also bought swag. Of course! I got a black shirt, a cellphone strap (that's the seventh one I've squeezed on this sucker in as many months), and the tour poster, which was only 1,000 yen-- to me, that's a steal even /outside/ a concert arena. I kind of wish I'd gotten the white shirt instead, as I liked the design better but I have horrible luck with white shirts, so I probably would just end up putting it in a drawer and hardly ever wearing it. As a result, though, my collection of t-shirts is now mostly black and navy! I'm in danger of acquiring a monochrome wardrobe, yikes.

Anyway. I had an absolute blast and, since they announced at the concert that there will be a final Niigata performance in January (!!!!!!!), I shall do my best to see GLAY again! I would like to see the Expo next year, too, but that all depends on my luck when tickets go on sale in April. They definitely put on a great show, and they really do love their fans, which leads me to actually wonder if it might be worth it to join the fan club. Yikes.

It took half the show for the fact that I was actually /seeing/ them onstage, in the same room, to sink in. There were a lot of empty seats due to the earthquakes, and I had expected the audience to be a bit more lively, but then Japanese audiences just don't go in for the same no-holds-barred dancing you'd expect at a similar US concert. The way GLAY performs, you'd think it would be something like Aerosmith or a U2 concert, but everyone stays in their little spot and just waves their arms, maybe jumps up and down if the band members do it first. People did thaw a bit in the second half, but it was still far from the dancing-in-the-aisles kind of exuberant. That's probably better, though, because if I'd been that active I'd REALLY be hurting now! As it is I'm beat and I'm going to bed; my shoulders hurt too much to even bother with the laundry.

But I'm so hungry... I should eat some soup and watch that West Wing episode, I guess. Hmmm.


ED wandered off @ 09:51 p.m.

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Sunday, October 31, 2004

Well, thanks to the lovely clammy weather this week and all the little nasty things that have a way of adding up (work-wise) and PMS combined, I feel like I have the beginning of a head cold. It won't get worse if I'm a little careful, and in fact probably wouldn't have started at all if it weren't for the damn Halloween party we had at work yesterday (and karaoke afterwards). I really wasn't looking forward to the party at all, and I would still like those five hours of my life back thankyouverymuch, even though it was nice to get to talk to some of my students. It was just way too much fuss and bother, and not much fun because I was so tired (and I've never been one for Halloween parties anyway-- only the ones we had in Greensboro, where we all watched movies and drank a lot and made a token attempt at costumes or just SAID we'd dress up and chickened out). I would far rather have just chilled with my assistant manager, since it's her last weekend here in Niigata, or even done karaoke, just the two of us (we did that once and it was a lot of fun, actually). Or just come home and done some of the mountain of laundry that I now have to do tonight.

But I did get to wear casual clothes to work, and pass it off as a costume (SUCCESS! HA!)-- I was supposed to be Gackt, but since I lack the insane wardrobes of Sab and Xty all I could cobble together was my black LV shirt, some cool sunglasses and worn bluejeans. My furry denim coat seemed to make it more convincing, though I really don't know why (to my knowledge Gackt has never worn anything like it)... but oh well. My new short haircut was worth it after all.

Now I have to scram and take a shower; I'm meeting Liza at the station and we're heading to Toki Messe for the GLAY concert at four! I feel really guilty actually; I've been so busy I kept forgetting the concert was only a couple of weeks away... then somehow it was like I just didn't know how to anticipate it. Maybe because I have no idea what to expect, I dunno... I hope that doesn't mean it will hit me all at once when we get there, because I might pass out or something in that case. XD; At the very least, though, I plan to score some truly awesome merchandise-- a shirt and a poster, or something similar.

And then I'm going to bed at like 9 PM. Augh.


ED wandered off @ 02:06 p.m.

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Friday, October 29, 2004

Holy shit, it's been a LONG TIME. Eheheh... I don't have much of an excuse, other than Liz stealing six weeks of my life followed immediately by Saiyuki CHEWING UP MY BRAIN AND SPITTING IT BACK INSIDE OUT. So let's get cracking, shall we?

I'm a bit muzzy at the moment and I can't stay up too much later, so I'll go with the easy stuff. We got an emergency teacher after Obon, and she turned out to be fabulous and we got along swimmingly. We went running nights along the river, we went drinking with coworkers, we went shopping, we went to an onsen and we went to the Earth Festival on Sado, among other things. God, how I love Sado Island (see photo above). It's a tiny slice of Asuka, only not quite so old or so spacious, but it's got ocean so that's okay. The utter silence and lack of people makes it a total escape from Niigata and work-related thoughts and so I'm incredibly thankful it's just a short ferry-ride away.

I went in to Shinjuku two weeks ago for a workshop. Going to Tokyo for business is like a holiday for me, because I get to take the shinkansen for two hours each way (and the thing with me and passive transportation is, it's ALWAYS a vacation!) and I don't have to come back by a certain time, so I really only end up working a little over a half-day. Friday the 15th was gorgeously sunny, too, and for the first time ever I actually saw Mt. Fuji from the train-- it's HUGE! I'd never thought, really, it would be so much taller than all the mountains around it... it really does look dramatically like a volcano, there's nothing else like it. The air was so clear I could still see it from the 16th floor of the office building, and it kept drawing my gaze all afternoon. It was indescribably odd, to realize I've been in Japan a year total, just about, and yet had never seen the thing that defines Japan to most people. I stared and stared and it still didn't seem real, it's like this thing that the tourist industry made up or something, a myth to lend character. More likely it's because it's such a forceful reminder of nature, it just doesn't jive with the rest of Japan, where people do their best to ignore any kind of natural force or influence over their lives. (Another recently-clarified reason why I really would be happiest out in the boonies.)

After the meeting, though, I hopped on a train to Ueno Park and made a happy beeline for the National Museum, because the special Ancient Chinese Art exhibit was open till eight. I drooled thoroughly and even got some sketching done; it's such a shame I was so damned tired, because I would have liked to enjoy sitting in the dark and the quiet, staring at all those lovely statues and carvings. That's the closest I can get to being a student these days, and it's very precious to me. (Plus the newness of my fevered addiction to Saiyuki gave me a whole new reason to inspect all that Buddhist art... I just hope it actually results in something usable, because the nature of the beast promises good things if I actually get off my ass and DRAW.) I really wanted to buy a souvenir, but the ones I liked were a bit pricey so I resisted (but now I'm wishing I'd shelled out for that pretty little bronze dragon sculpture. I need to go back one weekend soon, dammit.)

I went to Sado two weeks ago last Monday, with one of our managers. We're the same age and we get along great, and she wanted to take advantage of the holiday, so I hauled my butt outta bed at four-thirty A.M. and we caught the six o'clock ferry. It was so totally worth it, because we saw a huge rainbow over the ocean and some of the most beautiful sunrise clouds ever. My digital camera paid for itself with those shots, I think. When we got off at Ryotsu, we took a bus to Aikawa (a long bumpy ride through lovely mountains and Asuka-like terraced farms and orchards) and set off on a temple walk. The temples and shrines on Sado are none terribly old, but all in shambles and covered in damp greenery and moss and seem to consist mainly of cemeteries. We climbed a LOT of steps until the slick moss and dead leaf accumulation threatened broken bones, and then we kept to the roadside. We ended up at the top of a mountain, going down the other side through a little forest path and walked all the way to Sado Kinzan, the gold mine site. The hillside has what looks to be the ruins of a fort of some kind, if it's not just an old administrative building or castle. In the rain it was actually even more interesting than in the sunlight, I think. And the smell! It smelled like home! Up there you can't smell the sea, only the trees and the damp leaves and the waterfalls and stone. I couldn't get enough of it. Coming down the road back to town, the sun came out and we were walking next to the coolest river ravine, then we rounded a bend and suddenly the bluest ocean I've ever seen was in front of us. Walking down and around the mountainside by the highway, we were thinking about what to eat for lunch, and I smelled the fall air and the sea and felt the perfect clear sunlight and suddenly all I wanted more than anything was a tray of sashimi, a big bowl of kani miso soup, fresh rice and a big fat persimmon. It was like a vision of nirvana. That's what Japanese countryside does to me... that's why I love it so much. The total lack of visual distraction, the silence, the unconcerned rhythm of daily life surrounded by nature, interacting with the weather and the earth and feeling things growing. I miss that far too much and I never realize it until I'm out there, then I don't want to even think about coming back.

....What am I doing, working in a city? WHY didn't I apply to JET first? ED, you utter dipshit. I don't know myself half as well as I like to pretend-- or rather, I /do/, but I end up prioritizing things wrong anyway. Hmm. I mean, I'd even prefer to be up in Yamagata, because that mountain valley I rode through two weeks ago was amazing, the sense of separation and the feeling I got from seeing that ring of mountains around everything. Wow. Japan really does have the most beautiful mountain river gorges I've ever seen, the water so blue-green and wild, and the rocks so huge and jagged, trees growing out of vertical rock and hawks circling overhead. It's the country's biggest tragedy, that no one knows or cares about these places, because they're so amazing it hurts to breathe when you look down. I've never felt so close to a fairytale, ever, and that's what keeps me coming back no matter how much I bungle things every time.

Anyway. We ate lunch in a little sushi shop, and I had my miso soup and rice, although it came with ebi fry instead of sashimi or persimmons. Then we walked around a bit, me enjoying the tiny wonders of Aikawa streets, and had coffee at one of the tiny, fascinatingly weird coffee shops that are so unique here-- they might be Western style but you've never seen anything like it anywhere else, that's for sure. We sat on squashy brown velvet booths and I had the most amazing Irish coffee ever, it came with a glass of hot bourbon (whiskey? it's sad that I don't know the difference) and was exquisitely creamy. I could have sat in there all afternoon, in the warm sunlight and the silence under all that dusty smoked glass. It felt like the essence of every October Sunday afternoon in the world had been distilled into that day, making up for all the Sunday afternoons I haven't had this fall. Won't have. It was a perfect day. We caught the bus and fell asleep on the way back, and the sun on the mountains was lovely and gold and around every corner there was another temple gate, another huge farmhouse or rock garden. We tried to sleep on the noisy ferry and eventually gave up, and I wandered outside and put 'Kimi ga matteiru kara' on my headphones and looked at the blackening sea. Back in town, we were loath to separate and admit the holiday was over, so we went for Akita ramen and then staggered home.

Yes, I really am in love with Sado, though I might love the Japan Alps even more. Earthquakes notwithstanding, I would gladly put up with that uncertainty to be able to live in such an incredible place.

And now it's the end of October, and the trees are finally showing signs of really turning, and I hate that I'm not in Nara /right now/. I'm going to buy my bus ticket on Monday, if not tomorrow, and I can't wait to see Kyoto in November again. Sanzen-in, if possible! Next fall the goal is to stay at Koya-san. I bet Mel and I could do it, and have a great time.

Is it silly, that Saiyuki makes me want to go to China? I keep gradually tracing history backwards; one day I'm going to wind up in some crazy part of India or the Fertile Crescent, living in a cave. Or maybe I really will just get stuck in China, wandering around Buddhist grottoes... but no, the ultimate end would be on that desolate rock with the God Cedar, just me and that Tree to End All Trees. I really need to find out how to get there, if it's possible. Some people make pilgrimages to churches or cities; I want to see the creepiest-looking tree on earth. (Why is it that trees and mountain boulders feel so sacred and magical? I have to wonder what insidious little tie-ins my imagination has, littered throughout my perceptions of the natural world; is it really out there or is it some fabricated storybook memory that takes my breath away?)

...And I've rambled myself into a corner, and the characters are blurring into one another on my screen. It's time to throw in the abstract towel and call it a night. I should stay up a little longer, to make sure all that Akita ramen and beer has settled, though. Maybe I'll read some more Saiyuki Reload. XD


ED wandered off @ 11:51 p.m.

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