mayn, i was supposed to blog the longest time ago --;; oh well.. so to make a long storie short, last saturday i went to Six Flags with Kristine, her cotillion friends, Trina and her sisters. It was fun. period. (i wrote this whole long entry about it but my compie froze and i lost the whole thing.. --;; i'm too lazy to rewrite it) Sunday I woke up and went to mass and afterwards bought a new cell phone. it's a Nokia 3390.. very cool. I can even compose ringtones with it. it came with an adapter, a car adapter, a faceplate, a hands-free device, and a leather case. All for like 65 bucks. Not bad, right? i'm thoroughly satisfied but the face plates were mad uglee so i got the most decent looking one. it was red. (it looks more like a faceplate Dale would choose but all good) i'll prolly get a faceplate from Glenn John if i ever get to Menlo. So anyway, Monday, i believe i did nothing. Tuesday, i think i did nothing again (wow, i have no life). Wednesday, i was supposed to have a sleepover and watch a movie with Govan and Trina but that was ruled out cuz Trina's room wasn't clean. So i ended up going to the Monmouth county fair. Y'kno, it's funny when u see girls walking around in tight hootchie clothes just to watch pig races and stuff. So anyway, there were a buncha cute guys there but it was REALLY hot and i was all sweaty and disgusting so i'm kinda glad we didn't stay long. I tried to win a big plush M&M (orange for Teddy, Jae Won n SH) by playing one of those games where u hafta shoot the star on a piece of paper resting on a string. I woulda gotten it if i had shot out the corners of the star. Damn, i did good for never holding a gun before but ARRRGGGG, i didn' get my M&M... oh wellz. So anyway, then Tony went to the bathroom at one of the portapotties and we left deciding it best to find an airconditioned building rather than standing outside in the sweltering heat with all the mosquitos. Oh and we bumped into a buncha ppl from our school and immediately turned into a buncha teenyboppers screaming and hugging each other.. --;; oh well. So after that, we left and we went to the Empire Diner. It was weird cuz it looked EXACTLY like this diner that me, Trina, Austin, and Dale went to but it had booths that looked like seashells. Don't ask, we don't know. So we ordered food and talk for a while. Our waitress had a weird accent and half the time i couldn't understand what she said. I think she was scared of us. I don't blame her tho. Me, Egan, Govan, Tony and Christina. Very loud and perverted ppl crammed into a booth on a wednesday night. that's gotta fly as odd. So anyway, we ate and then left. I'm not even really sure what we did after that. Oh yah, we went to Wegman's. I showed them the animatronic mice in the cheese section. Then we walked around a little and stole chopsticks from the cafe upstairs. So we left. After that, Egan drove us all home. Yesterday, my mom woke me up around 8AM cuz she wanted to go walk around NYC. I was SO tired and worn out and i really didn't feel like going. It was cloudy out and it was probably gonna rain. We started driving to Edison and it started raining really really hard. So we decided to just go to Jersey Gardens instead. We went there, i was still tired as anything. I didn't feel like walking around. I ended up buying two shirts and a bag from Old Navy. I saw the bag and i knew it had to be mine. It's light blue and black. Soon to be my new school bag. So anyway, we walked around for a while and i texted my brother back and forth and played SnakeII for like an hour while my mom was talking to my tita who was visiting from the Philippines. So anyway, we went home after that and since plans were fouled up the day before, we were supposed to do the movie and sleepover thingy but Trina had to leave early today for camping. I was supposed to go with her but it interfered with my other vacation so i couldn't. So anyway, I went to her house instead and just visited. I could only stay there for like an hour but eh, whutever. It was fun. We were being mean to Dale tho. hehe, i kept IMing him with stuff that didn't make sense. --;; sorrie dale.. so anyway, i left. Mid-august, i get my license. and i volunteered for a Filipino Camp that i've been attending since 6th grade. My tita alice called up and said i could volunteer but she wasn't sure if Trina could or not. But anyway, since i get my license like the day before the camp starts, i'ma hafta drive there by myself. I haven't driven to and from Edison with someone in the car. How am i supposed to do it without anyone in the car? --;; my mom said that everytime we go to edison, i'll be driving. Scary thought, huh? I guess that made me realize that i was actually gonna be getting my license. Before it didn't seem to hit me but now it's like WHAM!.. oh well. So that's it. Oh and i cleaned my room and it's like immaculate. (well atleast it was before i started fixing up my planner. Now there's holes from a holepuncher lying on the floor and what not. I have to clean that later. So that's it. It's been forever since i blogged but thank god i did. ~Christine Teddy wrote me a love song on Friday, July 27, 2001 at 03:52 p.m..
...since i left u... without a dope beat to step to.. step to step to step to... step to...
bla bla bla so on and so forth...
well its been like a week or more since i've blogged... --;; god so much to write... so anyway, let's begin at the beginning... i think the last time i blogged was like last wednesday? nope tuesday (i just checked).. so anyway.. yah after tuesday's whole episode, me, egan, tony, and steph took govan out to lunch on the wednesday so she'd feel better.. we ate at Court Jester. Egan, what is our obsession with chicken fingers?? --;; oh well... so anyway, everything got heated up bout the whole "hate on govan" situation but everything settled down by now which is good.. Egan erased all those entries about the whole thing. Which i thought was noble of him. The whole thing was totally blown out of proportion. So anyway, Thursday came and went (i mighta done something but i forgot what). So anyway, Friday was up. I wanted to do something. Govan said "let's go ice skating". But we ended up going to FunMania and playing mini golf instead. So my parents told me to drive to pick up Tony (he lives like 2 minutes away from me) but i hadn't driven in like 3 weeks so i started making all these mistakes. so i was like "dad, why don't u drive?" so i picked up Tony and it sounded like his Banana Republic interview went well. Go Tony! btw.. he has an OD now... click on the link TonyTheGreat where everyone else's is ^^ oh and i linked Christina's to my blog too! ^^ AHHHHHH!!! i just realized... BANANA Republic and Tony --;; (sorrie inside joke) n he likes Chunky Monkey too! ^______^v so anyway, so we got to Govan's house and we talked about the "issue". Govan said things were working out and Fierro suggested that we all hang out. But i dunno busy busy busy.. :P so anyway, we went to FunMania (we met Egan there) and went straight to the mini golf thingy but they said we had to get FunMania cards (which sucked).. so we all had twenties (except for me since i had like 20 bucks worth of singles..) so we went into the food place to get change and guess who i saw! RAAAAAAYYYYYYY!!!! ^___________^ aw, i was like "you work here???" and he was like "yah, i told u!" and i was like "naaawww" and i wanted to give him a hug but his boss was there or something... he looked really tired tho --;; poor ray.. Govan said he was cute lol. So anyway, he got us change (Govan goes "Enciso's got the connections") and we go play mini golf. So we get to the booth thingy and the guy's like "i'm sorrie, we only have the short clubs left" so i got a semi-short club but Govan and Egan got the midget clubs (they're for like 5 year olds). So we went out to play and i kept getting 3's which was cool until the 5th hole. STeph joined me, Egan, Tony and Govan and we just kept hurling the balls into the water (that sounds funny). So we had to fish them out with a net. There was this one time (1TYM! ^^) that Govan was getting a ball out of the water and she put the net back but it broke
-___-;; all good all good play it off play it off... so anyway, we ended up just running through the entire course and kicking the golf balls into the holes. We were hungry. So we decided to go to AppleBees. On the way there (I was in Egan’s car with Govan) the two of them decided to pull out whistles and blow them at random ppl passing by. U can guess that I had a headache by the time we got to the actual restaurant. --;; so anyway, we got there. Turns out that there were a bunch of SJV heads there too. It was Tara Mullins, Kate Donnelly, her boyfriend Mike Schneider and Tara’s cousin from Colorado. So anyway, we went to our own booth and we started coloring the kids menu. It was a buncha orka whales (i dunno if i spelled that right) killer whales in other words but we colored them blue and green and red n stuff since there was no black crayon. (cheap bastards).... so anyway, the other table ended up going to our table and we were so loud and obnoxious it was scary. We started throwing crayons and stuff. Then everyone at their table came over so we were all stuck in this lil booth. And we had like 6 cell phones on the table (since we’re all from SJV). So anyway, we just hung out and Donnelly and Tony talked about how they’d like to jump Ms. Roach (she’s a young teacher at our school) and yes, Donnelly is bi. I didn’t kno that until that night lol. so anyway, we ended up moving into a larger booth where we ordered dessert. Oh wait, i got my order (i got chicken fingers, hence the “chicken finger obsession” mention earlier in this entry) and i wanted a fork and knife and Mike Schnieder was like “why do u need a fork and a knife???” and then Tara’s like “don’t worry! i do the saaame thing. Do u eat pizza with a fork and knife?” and we both did! yaayyyyy *high five* so anyway, we ordered dessert. Me and Egan shared a brownie sundae. Then Egan spilled water and we started throwing the ice around like idiots. I got my butt wet cuz egan but ice on my seat. So anyway, after we terrorized the whole place, we went outside and just hung out for a while. It was fun. We were crazy. Egan got up on the hood of Scheider’s car and Scheider started driving around with him on top. It was great. They both have the same car so they started chasing eachother around the parking lot. So anyway, Steph drove me and Tony home (like always) and once again we tried to cruise up the hill on Randolph but it didn’t work --;; oh well. next time guys! ^^ *sigh* i’ll write the rest in another entry since this is gonna take even longer --;; Teddy wrote me a love song on Monday, July 23, 2001 at 03:24 p.m..
well... i haven't written about this in detail before so i guess i'll just elaborate now...
there's an issue that is plaguing my group of friends... apparently, a few of them have banded together in revolt against my close friend Govan. I don't know all the terms of what has been happening and i definitely can't choose sides without hearing both ends of the story but as far as i know, this whole situation has gotten completely out of hand.
what everyone needs to do is get together and have a long talk. what is the point in leaving notes on an opendiary? number 1, open diary is a DIARY D-I-A-R-Y.. diary= place where person feelings and intuitions may be recorded. if u have a problem with govan writing down her feelings (just in case someone else might read it) then why are u reading it in the first place? i think Govan's entitled to write what she wants. if u think that she should limit what she writes in her own diary, u might as well just tell her that she can't feel her own feelings.
i also wonder what complaining to everyone else will gain. if u tell the problem to everyone else except for govan, and ur expecting her to know what the hell the problem ur just being ignorant. try to see things from her point of view, she's just fine, hunky-dory then one day that everyone gets together, ppl decide to ignore her and not say a thing to her. she wonder why, then she hears stuff on her OPEN DIARY. and when she confronts someone about it, they don't wanna say anything. its like there's no way she can win. I'm sure if u just confronted her with the problem instead of keeping it to urself and dragging this damn issue for so long, things would be resolved by now. I don't wanna take sides. Yes, i think its bad that ur not going about this the right way. yes, i know it must affect u that govan might not invite to everything. but y'kno what? that's life. get over it. if u wanted her to hang out with u, why didn't YOU invite HER anywhere? do u see her getting ticked off at u for that? no.. because ur blowing this whole thing out of proportion. just get over it. make up and everything will be just fine. get off ur pedestal and swallow ur pride and maybe u'd realize that it isn't just govan that's the problem.
like egan, i'm not just gonna sit here while i see my friend's self-confidence diminish since you don't have the sensitivity to care about HER feelings tho u seem to care so much about your own. it hurts her to hear those words coming from u and tho u might not realize this, this is a lot more painful for her than for you. maybe u should think about that. i'm here to stand by govan cuz as far as i kno, she hasn't done anything wrong. and in my own personal opinion, she hasn't changed for worse. i don't think that u guys realize that ppl change and that friends fade and that u gain some. its just life. so try to be a little more mature about this whole thing. its just childish to play this "yah, well everyone else says that u've changed too" but cause this isn't about what "everyone" thinks since obviously, ppl like me, Egan, Tony and others don't feel that way. so don't try to claim that she's the wrong one since a few people are a little pissy about it. just resolve the matter like an adult. it'll show that maybe u have a little common sense.
i'm sorrie to those that i insulted. but u need to here this. i don't want to lose friends. i don't want to gain enemies. i don't want to choose sides but obviously, this has to end somewhere and i can't help but feel something.
sincerely yours,
Enciso Teddy wrote me a love song on Tuesday, July 17, 2001 at 11:54 p.m..
i was chattin wid Dale earlier today and he told me that him and Austin were freestyling (something they do normally online)... me n Trina were always into the rap scene. We liked rapping and writing songs and we liked juss listening to it. it was a lil hobby that we picked up but somehow whenever a gurl says that she likes to rap, ppl take it as a joke. even other gurls. ppl might not realize it but i think that if a girl goes around saying "i wanna learn how to freestyle" they kinda give her this look like "sure you do" especially if the girl isn't black. freestyle rap has become one of those symbols of masculinity, if u don't know how to freestyle, ur out of the circle. especially among asian guys. idunno what it is, but i bet if other girls tried to join in on a freestyle, a few of them could kick ass. I'm not saying that i freestyle. far from it. i wish i could. i've been trying, it's not that easy. but i'm still there still trying to do it... still writing and still rhyming.
there's always that fantasy that one day while i'm at a party or hanging out with a few guy friends, they'll hand me the mic and i'll bust out a few rhymes... just like all the guys do... *shrug* anyway, Dale and i were gonna freestyle but iunno, suttin came up or whutever... i didn't kno where to start and i guess neither did he... i came up wid suttin tho... it was short... i didn't like it enough to share wid anyone but i guess there's no better place than on my blog right?
its a lil rhyme about losing sleep... i didn't sleep at all over the course of the night and i was in a daze and i couldn't think straight.. this is a short short rhyme illustrating my fatigue..
crazed, enveloped in this haze, enlightened images surround me, compound me, the bounty killers have found me, i'm spinning webs of confusion in every effort to lose em, i'm sightless blind by distraction of mind and heart.. i roll deep, mind control, i'm longing for endless sleep
like i said, its short... it ain't much but its what i came up wid on the spot..
i'm tired... i think i'ma sleep early today.. i need some badly... --;; i'll prolly blog later again.. adios Teddy wrote me a love song on Tuesday, July 17, 2001 at 08:29 p.m..
heeeyyyyyyyyyyy!!!! lookie at my cute Jae Won gif!
^__________________________^v
isn't he an absolute kyootieeEEEeeeEEEeee??????!?!?!?!
hehehehehehe... i think that's so cute
*BIG HUGGZ TO JAE WON*
Tony hugging Hyukie Doll <== go lookie ^^ mad kyute too!
Taya taking bath <== this one doesn't make sense but oh well....
maki posted it on Delphain (credit to onlyhot629@hanmail.net)
i'll blog later.. rar --; Teddy wrote me a love song on Tuesday, July 17, 2001 at 04:34 p.m..
saturday i went to a party... yaayyyy.. it was Dale's graduation party. wait, i forgot something... i went to IHOP with my parents earlier that morning.. i was full as hell and i felt like i couldn't move. all good. we went to CVS and bought my camera battery and i bought facewash yaayyyy.. so anyway, then we went to go shopping for Dale's present. My mom wanted to buy him a microwave. I was like "what?" and she was like "he'd appreciate it.. it's going to college" and i was like "uh, not really" so anyway, i also wanted to by him an inflatable bowling set but my parents refused claiming that "the pins wouldn't stand up"... so i ended up making him a thugged out build-a-bear... we named it Rufio after dale. So anyway, I went home and gathered some random clothes and tried on like 50 outfits and finally found one. I picked up Trina and went to the party to find out that Kristine was already there (much to our surprise). so everyone was giving us weird looks probably cuz they didn't know who we were. I changed from my dress pants into UFOs cuz i didn't feel like wearing dressy clothes. So we hung out. Austin and Dale did a cool dance. Katerina, dale's sister, and Joanne did a cute dance for Dale. It made me feel bad that we didn't do one. If we had finished, i think it would have turned out really good. So anyway, we just hung out and danced. We did end up battling Austin and Dale but they didn't really put up much of a fight. Cuz they already used all their moves up. So we beat them. yah... so anyway, i think one of the weirdest happenings of the night was that some random guy offered me and trina water out of nowhere when we were already reaching for soda bottles. But hey, whutever floats ur boat. *shrug* so we danced and wrote on the table cloth and i guess everyone was looking at us weird cuz we had changed into more suitable clothing for dancing. But otherwise it was fun. so my dad picked us up and the both of us were completely dead. I told my dad i wanted Wendys but we ended up going to McDonalds. The stupid restaurant didn't have any ice cream or coke. And i'm like "what??? THIS IS BAD SERVICE" so anyway, we got food and talked about random things in the midst of our hysteria. We dropped Trina off and i went home and fell asleep. The next day, i woke up around 1PM and got ready for church. me and my dad ended up being 30 minutes late and we got there in time to hear the sermon and the rest. It was SO boring. But by the end i got to see Trina and her family and we just hung out in the parking lot. I begged my dad for us to go out to dinner but they said "next time" like always. So i went home. My brother and his girlfriend came by while i was whitening my sneakers. They're both on Weight Watchers since they gained like 20 pounds together and now they're losing 20 pounds together. So anyway, we all ate at AppleBees and had a decent time. Today, i did nada. I don't even remember when i woke up. I cooked bacon and eggs tho. yay... so anyway, after that my mom came home and she made me wash the dishes and then we planned where i was going to see colleges n stuff. So after that i met up with Govan, Tony, Christina and Egan. They were chilling at the mall. We left and went to Cornerstone. we hung out there and drank coffee and stuff and waved at random people outside the window. These guys kept on driving past since we had waved at them. What losers. So anyway, we left and went to Krausers were Govan bought young asian porn. I don't know why but hey, whatever floats your boat. so they were looking at it while i was like "great, that's prolly like my distant cousin or something" cuz they had a filipino girl section. so u can imagine my face --;; but anyway, we came back to my house and played DDR for a few minutes then they left. They said that my grad proofs were nice but i don't really agree. So anyway, that was it. oh and on the night that we were in Carteret for Dale's grad party, there was a UFO sighting. No wonder we were acting so weird. The UFO-rays must have effected our brains or something. I'm gonna stop rambling. that's it for now... stay tuned for another episode of "enciso's incredibly irrelevant fucked up life" adios Teddy wrote me a love song on Tuesday, July 17, 2001 at 01:52 a.m..
i actually wrote this entry yesterday but for some reason, it wouldn't let it save...:
Title: In Response to Pplz Blogz
in particular, chibiz n Lez's (cuz pretty much they're the only ones i read --;;)
so anyway, chibi posted an interview with Eric (and the rest of Shinhwa) on her blog. It was mostly about Eric's new girlfriend. the MC asked him questions and he answered. From what i heard, it sounds like he's really happy. He was talking about how her personality was so great and that he was so worried about not hurting her. And how she was so understanding since he was busy and he didn't call often. he even said that he wasn't sure what was gonna happen in the future. I thought it was really sweet. He must really like her. I'm just happy that he's happy.
then i thought about Andy... I miss Andy so much. He may not be my favorite Shinhwa member but even though i still luv Shinhwa as a five member group, i don't think it's the same without Andy. I see the pictures and it always seems uneven. I always think "there's a face missing" and of course, its Andy's. And i heard the songs from the 4th jib and it sounded odd to me. I don't know about everyone else, but one thing that i really liked about Shinhwa's songs were that they were blended so well. One's voice didn't overpower the other. And mostly while the song was going on, their voices came into one even when they were rapping. And its like... now they're down one rapper. I don't think sungie or wannie rap very much... so its only minu junjin n eric... and eric's the only one who raps english (i think junjin is learning tho?) and it seems kinda empty... it sounds weird when Eric raps by himself and Andy isn't there in the background. idunno.. it bothers me.. i miss him so much. I heard he might not resign back to Shinhwa after his contract expires. I'll be sad if he does. But at the same time, its his decision and as long as he's happy, that's all that matters right? -_______-;;
in response to Lez's blog.. it was weird how u felt there was a presence by u while you were falling asleep. last night, while Lana and Kristine were over, Lana started telling this scary story about her friend who kept having the same dream about this transparent figure that looked like it was black-smoke but it was shaped as a man. And she only dreampt about him when she was really really stressed. So she said that one day she was falling asleep, her brother who was in a twin bed next to her was asleep already. So she was falling asleep and she closed her eyes and she felt this pressure on her feet. And she looked up and it was that black figure standing on her feet. and she couldn't move and the figure starting walking up her body and she could feel the pressure as he walked higher up her body. And he was like standing on her stomach and she was looking up at him but she couldn't move. So he got off and he was walking toward the door. And the girl could start to feel her hand move and she was trying to wake up her brother. But the figure came back and it took her hand and pushed its finger into the middle of her palm and the girl looked down at her hand and she saw the little imprint from where the figure pressed down. then it disappeared i suppose. but its ironic that u encounter something and i had a story about it just a day before (or maybe the day of)... but yah, that's it
today i did nothing really. Trina slept over last night and she left around 2:30. we were supposed to practice our dance thingy but her mom came. oh well. So i was pretty much bored outta my mind. I don't even remotely remember what i did the entire day. I think i practiced what we have of the dance and i decided i want to add another chorus in (we cut the song short since we didn't think we'd be able to choreograph enough) but somehow we did and i wanna add more since the dance is so short. So i gotta make up some moves for another chorus and that'll be that. I just gotta teach it to Trina. hopefully we can get together on Saturday before the party. I still have no idea what i'm gonna wear --;; oh well... so anyway, i think i'll stop ranting about random things. i'll blog again tomorrow prolly about nothing since i have nothing to do tomorrow ><;;
and that's pretty much it --;; i'll prolly blog later about nothing... Teddy wrote me a love song on Friday, July 13, 2001 at 03:32 p.m..
yah... so today was pretty eventless.. i woke up around 1PM and just walked around... my mom was just watching soaps and being bitchy cuz i guess she had PMS or something.. so anyway, Trina is lying on the chair next to me... no, this is not like 36 Moons. it's all about the straightness (i'm not making sense). so anyway, me n Trina were supposed to go watch Kiss Of The Dragon but we didn't because Kristine and Lana wanted to come over. So they did. Therefore there was much bug out-ishness (god, i am delirious i have been dancing since 1) so anyway, we tried to put together a dance for Dale's graduation party but it doesn't seem to be working, we just threw around a circular cat named tubby-youngie. Lana made up the name, don't ask i don't know. So anyway, we were throwing it around and then my mom started yelling at me for no apparent reason (that seems to be a trend).. so anyway, we went to go eat lasagna and Lana and Trina left half of it in the tray cuz they are spazzoid squared. So anyway we spent like 2 hour just talking and being stupid. There were many funny/stupid moments. Its odd cuz whenever we seem to get together, someone laughs so hard that they almost spit out their drink. We talked about random things and when Lana and Kristine finally realized that it was almost 1 when they were supposed to leave at 11:30, they decided to go. So they left. Lana gave us some long speech about friendship that none of us caught cuz we were too busy thinking "man, its cold outside" and i'm sure Kristine was thinking "man, there goes all my blood" (she had so many mosquito bites --;;) so anyway, they left. Trina was sleeping over so we went back into the basement and actually choreographed a lot of stuff for Dale's party. We only have to do a little more but we're both very half-dead. U might notice that this entry this entry makes no sense. so anyway, i'ma end it here. Sleep is good therefore we need some. Adios. Teddy wrote me a love song on Thursday, July 12, 2001 at 04:29 a.m..
thank you for fixing my blog. I know it was prolly a big pain in ur ass cuz i don't kno jack about HTML so sorrie! but just as a token of my appreciation, i made you a junjin collage! ^_^;; it's not much but hopefully u'll like it..
there ya go! ^_^ thanx again!
~Christine Teddy wrote me a love song on Tuesday, July 10, 2001 at 02:01 p.m..
let's see... i haven't blogged since my blog was broken... oh yah...
saturday i went to Jersey Gardens wid my best friend Faith and my cousin Marissa (and our parents). It was cool. I bought a few things from the Gap n i bought a gift for Trina's passed b-day. Did u ever notice that when a guy wants to catch ur attention, they walk past u and say suttin REALLY loud or they ask u suttin like "hey, do u work in this store?" -_-;; men... so anyway, yah, we hung out there. theeeeen, hrm... the next day I went to church at 12 (which sux btw... church is definitely not the place for me) Then i went online to go check my e-mail and i find out that my dad put a time limit on my AOL account so i can only stay online for two hours and i can't go on past 10PM. Well that sux, so hey now i'm on my dad's computer at midnight typing up a damn storm cuz hey, he can't tell if i'm online or not cuz cable modems don't take up phone lines. I thought it was bullshit that he took it away. He got all mad that i stay online till 4 in the morning. If i go to sleep at 4AM and i wake up at 11-12, that's 7-8 hours of sleep which is a damn good amount of sleep. What am i supposed to do? Go to sleep at 12 and wake up at 8 and do nothing cuz hey, that's all there is to do when ur stuck in the house with two working parents and no license. Besides the fact that practically everyone goes online after 1AM anyway. How the f*ck am i gonna talk to my friends if i'm not even allowed online when they come on? I swear, parents don't understand that isht cuz all they're thinking is "u sleep late, u wake up late" and that's the truth but hey, its better than me sleeping early and waking up late which is what most of my friends do. And i just don't sit on my ass all day online unlike some other people may do. I don't sit and go into random chat rooms begging ppl to chat with me. In fact, half the time i'm not chatting. I'm usually reading or writing or looking up shit. And it's not like my parents give a damn because they think that the internet makes u ignorant when the truth is that they're ignorant to the fact that the internet is a f*cking way of life nowadays. It's not just some tool that we're privileged to use and that we shouldn't use unless we have to. its a f*cking way to communicate. It's a f*cking way to express creativity in a way that you couldn't before unless you were a goddamn celebrity who could expose it on television. Adversity expands and perspectives grow from the internet. it's not some technological world of ambiguous electronic codes. what would the importance of computers be if there weren't people on them to spread ideas and to allow people to see and hear things that they've never heard before? I don't know about other people but when you live in one area too long, things become uniform and redundant. The internet allows u to move to another city or another state or another country for a month if u wanted to without even leaving ur home. it's a window. Most people don't see it that way. Some people don't use it that way. but i sure as hell do. my cousins and my family look at me and they think that i'm one of those net-bums that i just sit online all day and look up useless things and talk about useless things with useless people. Well its not like that. I have met people on the other side of the world that have the same damn interests that i do. I have met people from other origins and other cultures. I have met people that i thought i would never ever meet since i've been stuck in this new jersey suburb my whole life but i met them sitting right here in my f*cking computer chair typing away and expanding my damn horizons cuz i am not closed to the outside world. this must sound like some damn info-mercial but i could seriously care less. Its what i feel. I have met and gotten to know some of the purest, nicest, most creatively adverse people i have ever known on the net. and despite what ppl say or think. I'm not about to stop where i'm at.
So anyway, enough of the damn philosophical lecturing. Sunday afternoon i was supposed to go to my friend Govan's house. I hadn't hung out with her a lot this summer. We both don't have licenses but we're close. I didn't hang out much with the kids from mah school this year cuz for some reason, i was socializing a lot with the local asians. It's weird. Before i used to favor my non-asian friends over my asian friends. Before it was all about "oh, asians'll talk shit about u and they'll keep grudges and be all clique-y." hell, non-asian ppl are like that too. i hold the two groups the same now... i don't wanna demean either of them but i've seen it and its fact versus fiction and fact f*cking wins. i ain't caling myself a damn saint cuz i talk shit about other people too but i can atleast admit that i don't like doing it. iunno. social life today is damn complex with its twists and turns and exceptions. Its like fucking putting together a two-sided puzzle. u think u got on piece figured out and u turn it around and it's juss plain f*cked up. iunno. I'm getting off the subject again. So my dad tells me that he doesn't feel like f*cking driving me to Govan's house. So i'm thinking "what the hell?" and so the reason why i couldn't is cuz i was in trouble for going online so late the night before. He told me to get offline. I f*cking got offline. And i talked to Trina till like 3 in the morning cuz that's what we f*cking do since we're best friends. my guess is that he thought i was still online while i was talking to Trina so he thought i stayed online f*cking longer which i didn't. So once again, i get blamed for shit that i didn't do. And i got punished and i couldn't go to Govan's house to hang out. it pissed me off so i went to my bestfriend's house (my other best friend) faith's house. For some reason, my parents thought that it made sense that I be allowed to go to faith's house and not be allowed to go to Govan's house just because. So i went there and i just hung out. I was glad i got to spend time with Faith cuz she'd be leaving for college in Massachusetts and i probably wouldn't see her for a long long time. We barely see each other now so when she lives like 3 hours away, i don't think we'll see each other much then either. So we just hung out and we watched Seven. That movie was really good. Dark and morbid but it was good. So after that I went home. my dad's still pissy about everything which makes no damn sense cuz I didn't do anything. I'm dying to get the f*ck out of this house and sleepover someone else's so that i can atleast spend one night without hearing them nag me constantly about how i got such a low SAT score and about how i'm supposed to be writing my essays and preparing for colleges. How the f*ck am i supposed to be writing essays when i don't know what the f*cking topic is???? UGH --;; parents make no damn sense. okay, i think i'm done ranting and being negative and bitching about parents. OH WAIT. I forgot something.
like yesterday or two days ago i heard that Eric Mun had a girlfriend. Well, that just brightened my day. I don't really know how to react to it y'kno? Its childish to be jealous but I think i am. I'm trying to go about it the mature way and be happy for him that he's got a girl that makes him happy- happy enough to tell all his fans that he's with her. But it was like *BAM* y'know.... like wow, reality hits really bad when u realize that they aren't just there for you to fantasize about and that they have feelings that aren't just for you. I mean, this is one of those guilty pleasures but i used to like the Backstreet Boys cuz of one of the members and that was Kevin Richardson. Now i knew he had a gf but he did ever since i started liking him and it didn't bother me at the time. but once he got married, it was like *BAM* just like it was hearing that Eric got a gf. It was like *WHAM* reality hits u like a damn Mack truck going 100 MPH. y'kno, things like that make u realize that those people may mean so much to u, but they have their own lives. They don't lay in their bed and think about u every night. They have their own lives and we're only exposed to a lil part of it. I definitely am not mad at Eric's gf. I'm kinda a lil sad but hey, this is life and i'm sure this gurl likes him for the reasons why me and every other gurl in this world that is his fan likes him. Why wouldn't he have one? y'kno? common sense here. But it still kinda bothered me. I'm writing a fic about it right now. All angsty n what not. But hey, writing is a good way to get ur feelings out right? Obviously, since i'm doing that right now. So anyway, another thing that really bothered me was that i saw some of the nude photos of Shinhwa (to those who are reading this and have NO idea what i am talking about, i'm not talking about porn) Kristine had told me that the pics were taken tastefully and they were. But it still bothered me. It bothered me that Shinhwa would do that. It just seemed like they wanted to label themselves as pieces of meat that are nice to look at and when i saw them (nothing really private showed) i got really upset about it. It wasn't just some pose that they did for any other shoot. It was them, naked. I thought maybe oh y'kno, they'd be in water or they'd be on a bed with sheets covering them but they're just standing with a f*cking backdrop with no damn clothes on and its like... why? why do they have to do this? to prove a point? to be brave? to show that they're not ashamed of their bodies? what is there to gain from this? is it the money that the photo album will make since people will buy it out of pure curiosity which is the case for myself cuz personally i saw the photos and i'm not sure if i want to buy the album but i'd buy it just to indulge my curiosity as to what they did. It's not like Shinhwa. It doesn't seem like something they would do and there they are standing nude taking pictures. It just doesn't seem right. Do you think they'd do it if Andy were still in the group? Andy? innocent, baby-eyed andy? I dunno if they would. Idunno. I am personally very disappointed. You'd think that i'd be ecstatic. Seeing Shinhwa naked? Hell, every fan tries to imagine them naked but actually seeing them that way. but i'm not. I'm not okay with it. Maybe when i actually buy the album and i see the pics, i'll change my mind but right now i'm not very happy with the idea.
so that's it. Sorrie, its sucha long-ass entry and that its all ranting about random things of no importance but this is my blog therefore i can put any damn thing i want on it ^^ peace... Teddy wrote me a love song on Tuesday, July 10, 2001 at 12:01 a.m..
my damn blog is broken... grrrrrrr... my profile just ends up overlapping my entries ><;; *sigh* and its not like i kno any HTML.. so i can't do anything about it...errrr... CHIIIIIIIBIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!! WHERE AAAARREEEEEE YOOOUUUU!!??
please?.......... *sigh*
oh well.. atleast Teddy gets to write me another love song... Teddy wrote me a love song on Sunday, July 8, 2001 at 01:16 a.m..
yesterday (well technically two days ago, the 5th) was my best friend Katrina's birthday. The day was progressively slow. I had actually forced myself to get up around 12 noon so that i could have atleast HALF a day of consciousness. So anyway, i spent the day just loafing around. Prolly working on my blog or chatting. I called Trina and she said that she wanted to go rollerskating. When she said that i was like O.o. "Rollerskating?"... but hey, it woulda been fun if we actually went. So anyway, after this whole issue about who was available and how they were gonna get there and what time, we finally picked a place to go. Bowling. So my younger cousin Marissa arrived. She was bored out of her mind, partly because I was working on my blog. I am so determined to get it finished. --;; so anyway, she came and Trina picked me up around 9:30. Trina was visiting TX and she brought me back a cowboy hat. It was crazy, it felt like plastic. So I brought it to wear to bowling. So we arrived. We met up with my friends Kristine, Mike and Kristine's brother Pepito. So it was me, Trina, Marissa, Trina's sisters, Clarissa and Eliza, Kristine Mike and Pep and Trina's mom tagged along. We went to this bowling alley. Thank god that it was practically empty. We got two lanes. Me, Trina, Marissa, and Clarissa were on one team and Pep, Mike, Kristine and Eliza were on the other. When we put our names in, i put myself in as Eric (tho Teddy's my favorite but it was a Shinhwa night). Kristine put herself as Jin, of course. Trina was put in as Andy cuz Andy is her twin brother (fictionally speaking lol). And everyone else was just their respective names. We played two games. I beat everyone the first game. And then the second, Pep beat us all. it was so much fun. We used the cowboy hat as our "lucky hat" and whenever someone would wear it, they'd hit a lotta pins. It was hilarious cuz Mike hurled the ball down the lane. It looked like it was gonna jump into someone else's lane. ><;; but hey, it was funny... then Trina and her sisters couldn't hold the ball none-the-less actually throw it. Trina definitely played better than back in 7th grade but it was progressively getting worse. Clarissa was actually pretty good though she threw it totally the wrong way, it actually still went down the middle. Eliza, wow, i don't even wanna mention. Let's just say that it was "gutter-city". So anyway, Kristine got a spare and she looked up at the screen and it was flashing "JIN /" (the slash for a spare) and she was like "ahhh! Jin's flashing me! ^______^" It was great. So whenever she got a spare, Jin flashed her. And when she got a strike, he flashed EVERYTHING.. hehe "X" for strike. So anyway, the same for Eric for me hehehe. So after we played two games, we went off to AppleBee's. i was starving. I was REALLY hungry since it was like midnight and i hadn't eaten dinner (i tend to do that a lot nowadays). So we were just eating and stuff. It was around 11:40 when we got there. So Kristine and her group of friends have a thing where they make up an animal for everyone. So she was wondering what animal Mike would be. Now Mike is this Filipino guy, his skin is tan, and he's got that short, longer-than-peach-puzz black hair. And he's got this really big grin on most of the time. So at first we were calling him a cockroach which didn't really fit. Then after naming a few, we established him to be an otter. He really DOES look like an otter. It was great. We were constantly making fun of him but there was no hard feelings. So anyway, we finished up our food and headed home. It was a fulfilling night. I was supposed to blog about it right after, but I ended up chatting and working on my blog *shrug*. So anyway, today was a whole nother storie. I went to sleep maybe around 6 in the morning cuz i had been chatting and so forth. So i finally sleep. My mom bangs on my door at 10:30 AM and she's like "do you wanna go to the beach???" i was SO half-dead. I was mumbling back to her that i was gonna go somewhere with Kristine. So i went back to sleep a lil while later n i woke up again around 1. I walked around and just did whatever. Kristine had a doctor's appointment somewhere remotely near me so she offered to pick me up so we could go to this park and watch a basketball game between two teams that we knew. I was looking forward to it. So i talked to Trina on the phone a little and then i asked my cousin if she wanted to come. She had gone online and she was talking to her boyfriend who had recently moved very far from her. And i guess they were having an argument. So she didn't wanna go. Made sense, i've been in the same situation. I didn't wanna leave her at home but hey, it was her choice. So Kristine picked me up and we drove to her house, then to Geick park. Turns out that one of the teams that was supposed to play, didn't show up. That team was the group of guys that i knew. So the other team (i knew a few of the people from there) said that our friends were wack. *shrug* i didn't care tho cuz i'm not really tight with the guys. But anyway, it was kinda boring. The only gurls there were gurls i didn't kno and another team came to play the ones that actually showed up (this must all seem very confusing). I knew some guys from the other team but barely. They're called the J-Crew. So anyway, we watched them play and it was pretty good. Mike's team won (they were the team that got "stood-up"). I thought the funniest thing was that there was this baseball league playing in the same area and they begged some of the guys to play in the game cuz they were desperate for players. So my friend marcus and this guy Paulo played. The guys paid them twenty bucks to play. It was hilarious. So u see these two Filipino guys running around the bases in basketball shorts and muscle tees. And the funnier thing was that Paulo hit a homerun which probably could affect the outcome of the entire game. I thought that was amusing. So anyway, we left for a lil while and went to Rita's Ice. I ordered my first gelati. Those things are good, man. Its vanilla custard with italian ice. It was REALLY good. So anyway, we ate those. And we hung out at the court a little. Then we left and we went to Lana's house which was like a second away. So anyway, Lana had just come back from a camp excursion and she seriously seemed like a completely different person. It was crazy, her voice had changed and everything. All i remember was her and her sister relaying back and forth about people that i didn't kno and it was really scary. I never heard Lana be so talkative. So anyway, I was kinda tired at the time. We were supposed to go play pool after we went to Lana's but we ended up going to these twins house, Mel and Myra. They were Kristine's friends from a cotillion she had been in. So we went there. I had hung out with the whole "cotillion" crew a few time so they knew my face and i chatted with them too. So I was just hanging out at the house. Lana and J and Pep didn't kno anyone so it was kinda awkward for them. I felt bad. I didn't know everyone that well either but atleast they knew a lil about me. Everyone finally got to the twins house and we just hung out. Phil, Dean and Kelvin came and Phil was like "wait, ur C, right?" they call my C instead of Christine. So then Dean goes off on how they tried to make an acronym from "C". They came up with stuff like "cunt" and "cum" and "cock".
--;; They're so perverted... but hey, they're funny. Ppl liked my duck. Kristine has a stuffed animal called Ping and its a giant panda. And the entire cotillion crew knows about Ping and stuff. At the same time Kristine bought ping, I bought a duck. His name was Chucky. So i brought the duck with me and everyone thought it was cute. i was like "yaaayyy" hehe, they like my duck. So anyway, Dean started drawing this cool thing on the computer with a MOUSE. I was like "wow, i can't draw with a pencil. You can draw with a mouse". so anyway, Roz was being really nice to me and the twins. It was fun hanging out there. So we finally left the twins house. It was like 11:30. So we went to go play pool but my parents were already coming to pick me up. I went to the pool hall and all the tables were taken so we had to wait. But the thing is, there was like 20 of us in there. It was crazy. But hey, my friend Ray was there. Awwww, he is SO cute. Ray is the most huggable guy in the world. hehe. and he had another guy with him named Allen. He was nice. So we hung out with him until we finally got a table but there were still so many of us. and we wanted to reserve the next table that was available but some other guys did. So it was a problem. my parents came and I had to leave. i was supposed to drive Lana and J home but we didn't have enough room. So i said bye to everyone. I really wanted to play pool but hey, maybe next time right? They were all like "you're going?" cuz we had just gotten to the pool hall and i was already leaving. *sigh* oh well. So i left. I had met the twins' cousin Paul. He was this guy that i kept hearing about from Kristine. (He has a crush on her hehe). He's tall and he's not bad-looking. GO FOR IT CHIBI! hehe. he's nice too. oh yah, the twins told me that my friend Christian got his license suspended ><;; that sucks really bad. he got it cuz he was speeding *sigh* be careful, Christian. So anyway, that was it. That was what I did for the past few days. OH! i forgot to say that i had a dream and Shinhwa was in it. I remember I was hanging out in this house with Kristine and Trina. And somehow, I called Shinhwa up. And it was like a normal conversation. It was like "hey" "oh hey what's up?" i think it was Dong Wan i was talking to (he's my older brother *fictionally speaking*). So anyway, I was talking to him and he was like "hey, we have practice" and so i was like "oh where? I'll meet up with you there?" so we decide to meet up so we can watch Shinhwa practice. and i remember thinking "wow, all these girls must be so jealous that we can just call up Shinhwa anytime we want to and just hang out while they freak out everytime they get a chance to get a glimpse of them." So we went to the practice and i remember walking through a park with Shinhwa and the only person i could really recognize was Dong Wan (but he had weird hair) and i remember him singing in English and he sounded really R&B-ish not really DongWan-ish. He had no accent whatsoever. So I think i woke up shortly after (like i said, from my mom waking me up ><;;) So anyway, that's it. So much stuff in so little time *sigh*. Teddy wrote me a love song on Saturday, July 7, 2001 at 12:53 a.m..
I was chatting with Dale a few days ago. (Dale is a graduated senior from Bishop Ahr. I met him a few months ago when he and his best friend Austin picked up me and Katrina to go to a dance in Watchung) and we were talking about random things. It was pretty early in the morning and my mind wasn't really working. At the same time, our dear friend Austin was in a state of severe depression and Dale was online i guess to see if he was okay and to try to cheer him up a bit. I asked Dale if he was alright, and he answered "not really". Somehow, I already knew that. And Dale asked me how i knew. And i told him this whole thing about how I had a feeling that no one could really pull Austin out of depression besides himself. and by saying this, it made me think back to something i had realized a while back. I started telling Dale how if you were to compare me and Trina to Austin n Dale, me and Austin would pair up while Trina and Dale would. (Personality-wise, i'm saying) Trina and Dale: they're the accepting type, open to new things, give people a chance right off not really jumping to conclusions, don't really hold grudges, and if they have beef, its cuz of someone else, not them... me and AUstin: we tend to over-analyze things too much, when we get depressed we get REALLY depressed and it seems like our world is gonna end, when we look at someone we start thinking things right away, and we do hold grudges. And its weird cuz Austin and Dale are best friends while me and Trina are best friends so i guess the chemistry works that way? but if u were to compare our appearances, I would definitely pair up with Dale... Trina would pair up with Austin. Me and Dale, we're taller and we're "thicker" so to speak. Somehow, we're both softspoken and our emotions don't spill over the edge with just one look... somehow we look meaner hehe. (Trina even said that if she hadn't met me back in 7th grade that she'd think i look mean, and Austin used to think that Dale was an asshole when he didn't know him). Trina and Austin, well.. they're both kinda small and "cute" i guess. They're short, and thin, they're faces are very animated and they look like over-all nice people. So yah, I thought that was weird. Then we went off on this whole thing like how our lil group 143 got together (AGH! a fly just flew by me!) so anyway, yah, 143 consists of me, trina, Kristine, Diane, Austin, Dale, and Ray. It's odd cuz when me and Trina (we're best friends) met Kristine and Diane (they were best friends), things just clicked. And once the three pairs of best friends (Austin n Dale, me n Trina, Kristine n Diane) got together, we all just got along like we had known eachother all our lives. I thought it was great. Its kinda like we were meant to be friends. Then me and Dale proceeded to talk about how it was a coincidence that I knew some of his old family friends and how I knew some of his. It was crazy, the connections that we made. I dunno. When u find out these things, it kinda gives u a sense of comfort knowing that the relationship that u have has some basis to it besides just meeting up and hanging out one day. Idunno. Maybe i'm thinking into this way too much. But then again, maybe I'm not.
so anyway, i've done absolutely nothing for the past few days. I've slept, got up, eaten, worked on my blog, chatted witha few ppl, then went back to sleep to carry on the same cycle the next day. You can say that my life has been less than productive. But it's slightly moving up. I actually got up at 12 noon today. WOOPEEE. Yesterday, I woke up around 4 PM. That is REALLY bad. But oh well. Atleast I'm improving. I'm trying to work to wake up earlier and atleast do other things besides loaf around all day. Today's Trina's b-day. Hopefully we'll be able to do something later. *sigh* well, that's it. Teddy wrote me a love song on Thursday, July 5, 2001 at 01:49 p.m..
Wow, this week went by REALLY slowly... jeez. Well... I haven't blogged since Wednesday last week. Jeez, i'm really far behind. So anyway, let's see... Last Friday, I just hung out at Kristine's house. it was pretty much eventless. I read her highschool fic. ^__________^ I definitely wanna read more. CCHIIIIIBIIIIIIII!!!! GRRRrrrrr. So anyway, after that, we watched some of her Shinhwa tape. Lol, there was this part where Min Woo's sitting in front of a mirror and he's got one white glove on and he's singing this cute lil song and he's moving his hands around SO cute. I was dying. That is my FAVORITE part of the video hehe. Trina's trying to write a fic about him being all hardcore but its hard for her since she always sees him being so cute and adorable. Hehe, he tries to act all tough but he's just a dork at heart. ^^ So anyway, we went online and talked to Lez and few of chibi's online buddiez. I'm sorrie to hear about all dat beef that's going down between ppl. >< some ppl are just so immature. so anyway, we laughed at Sungie's nipple hahahaha. He should NEVER go topless. OMG. I can't imagine the nude album O.O *runs and covers eyes* lol jk jk. Sorrie Trina! --;; and right before i had to leave, she showed me the new pics of Eric. WOOOOOWWWIIIE. hehe. Eric has changed so much from before. He is definitely a lot hotter. ^_______^;; so anyway, Saturday... I can't even remember. I think i did nothing (as always). Oh wait. I went to the Cornerstone Cafe with a few of my friends from school. It was me, Govan, her friend from work, my friends Jordan (she's the other Ariel i was talking about but we call her by her last name too), Nicole (we call her Fierro, her last name, tho.. since we kno a lotta Nicole's), this girl Dana, and our one-of-two-guy-friends Tony. We were just hanging out and eating food. It was fun though. I hadn't seen them since the last day of school. What kinda got me a lil angry was that there was beef between them. I used to admire our little group of friends cuz there was never beef between us. It was always out in the open. But now there is. I used to think it was only between Asian ppl.... especially the girls. But now that i come to think of it. It's everywhere. Everyone's always got something to say about the other person. Iunno.. life would be so much simpler if we could just say what we feel. So anyway, Sunday, I did nothing. Went to church. It royally sucked since I don't believe in that stuff anymore. None of the stuff that the priest was saying made any sense. It just got me ticked. Oh well, Trina came back from TX yaaayyyy! ^^ I have someone to call everyday instead of bugging chibi wid my nonesense hehe. So anyway, Monday came. That was yesterday, btw. Well, in a sense, its kinda today. But its 3 o clock in the morning the next day. Oh, forget it. :P So yesterday (or today, whichever you prefer).. I did nothing until around 10 PM. I went out to meet a few friends. Originally, we were supposed to watch the Freehold Fireworks but we changed our plans. I met up with my friends at Barnes and Nobles. It was me, Govan, Egan, and my friend Christina. Turns out that we had to run across a major highway to get to where we were meeting up with other people. I was scared shitless. Seriously. OMG. And i had to run in a shelf-bra camisole so that was NOT fun. So we got to Jersey Freeze (its like a lil italian ice place, iunno) and met up with Steph and Tony. We left there after talking for like an hour and we went to Blockbuster. Upon arriving, we realized that we had barely any money and no one had a card. So we retreated and went to Krauser's. There, we each bough a pint of Ben&Jerry's whichever flavor we wanted. It was great. I got my Diet Air. Hehe (the Snapple Element drink btw)... Me and chibi had bought one before but I let her keep the bottle. This time i get to keep it hehe. And i bought Ben&jerry's phishfood. Its chocolate frozen yogurt, marshmallow, caramel, and little chocolate fish. It's really good. ^^ my friend Tony bought Chunky Monkey. Ironic that Tony An IS a monkey lol. My friend Steph treated us so it was all good. So we balled back to Tony's place and ate ice cream and watched "The Wood" until Egan drove me back home. It was great. I miss hanging out with my school friends. Oh well. Well, that's it. This has been a long-ass entry about nothing hehe. Teddy wrote me a love song on Tuesday, July 3, 2001 at 01:28 a.m..
Well pretty much nothing happened today. I slept till around 1PM and I got up. I made myself some french bread pizza and then watched some TV. Yesterday, I had been online with a few friends from school. They were over this girl's house. Her name is Govan. Well, actually her name is Ariel but we call her by her last name since there are two Ariels in our tight circle of friends. Govan's half black and half japanese. How cool is that? So anyway, a couple of my school friends were over her house. And because I am in this state of delirium thanx to being cooped up in this house for too long, I had thought that yesterday was wednesday, therefore I invited my friends to hang out tomorrow thinking it was Friday. Wow, I am a dumb@ss. So anyway, let's carry on with today. I decided that I should make a blog. Jeezus, WHAT was i thinking??? it took me like nine years to put this thing up and it's not even that nice looking.. grrrrrrrr... ><;; oh well... i can spruce it up once i learn more HTML.. i was just kinda guessing which got me nowhere and i had to bum codes off of chibi's blog to put it up... *sigh* oh well... so anyway, i was talking to my friends still thinking that tomorrow was Friday. and i happened to talk to this really nice guy friend, Egan. I haven't talked to him since the last day of school. So anyway, he asked me if i wanted to go to the movies to see The Fast and The Furious. But i told him that I was going on an outting with my best friends: Faith, Trina, and Govan to see it. As a sort of Enciso-outting i guess. (Enciso's my last name btw..) So anyway, I went to go eat dinner with my parents and they told me that today was wednesday. OMG, I was puzzled. u shoulda seen my face. O.o it was great. But anyway, I had to tell all my friends that we can't hang out tomorrow but Friday and half of them, I didn't even get to tell and UGH. What a screwed up day considering that I didn't even do anything relevant but make an ugly blog. --;; *takes a breath* okay, i'm fine... so anyway, I think i'll end it here. That was my first blog entry ever. I prolly scared everyone away (tho pretty much no one'll want to read it but all good).. bye! ^^ Teddy wrote me a love song on Wednesday, June 27, 2001 at 09:47 p.m..
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Name is... Christine Enciso
Located in... NJ, USA
Heritage is... Filipino. partly Chinese, Spanish, and Portuguese
Likes to... chill wid frenz, write ficz n poemz, read ficz n poemz (hehe), choreograph dances, play pool, volleyball, n bowling, sing, draw, bug out wid frenz, watch movies n broadways, run out in the rain, star-gaze n of course, sleep...
Loves... black cats wid green eyes, white tigers, the feel of velvet, vanilla ice cream, long showers, music (any kind, particularly K-pop), the scents of Nautica Women n Cashmere Mist DKNY, drinks like the Snapple Elements n Jones Soda, Ben&Jerrys, Tastations n Starburst HardCandy, the mozzarella sticks in Cherrystone, 1TYM, Shinhwa, YG, FTTS, HOT, JS, Jekki, Ji Won, Fany, Jae Won, Dong Wan oppa (my broder), Edic, and saving the best for last...... Teddy. ^_^
An Ode
by C. Enciso
A wave of devotion like the fire of desire,
cause it's ur love that's blessing and lifting me higher
a comforting hand, the sound of your voice,
your encouragement, and your faith in my choice.
Your smiles and your laughter just brighten my day
and you each touch my heart in your own special way.
my very existence is driven by you
and you've all changed my life though you never knew.
I'd give up my life, everything that i own
just to pay you back for all the love that you've shown
I'd write out your names in the stars just to see
that if one thing i know: you inspire me...
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
... mah first krew ever CCQ [Cookiez N Cream QTz]
...jus u n me, Trina ^^ ...
... mah K2C girlz: K1 Kristine, K2 Katrina,
C1 Catalina (Diane), C2 Christine (me)...
...mah P-NOIZE boys: Austin n Dale ...
... mah 143 pplz: K2C and P-noize featuring the
beloved huggable Ray hehe *OnE LuV*...
... mah Boa Krew AKA BK gurlz:
Kristine, Trina, Lana and J...
... mah LNC[Last Name Crew] gurlz:
Govan, Balagtas, Fierro, Lewis n Jordan...
... mah SAS [Sweet Angelic Sisters] gurlz:
Theresa, Racquel, Tricia,
Emily, Andaya, Kristine and Jayme...
... and last but not least...
my best friend since childhood and sister to me
...Faith Lim...
..:to all those whom i didn't mention:..
... i luv you ...
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