Autumn reading so far:
* The Power of Myth by Joseph Campbell and Bill Moyers

Last movie seen:
The Matrix Reloaded
Rating: wha? yawn...

Harumph.
Here's what's up: I got laid off from my job. My boyfriend broke up with me (which isn't too terrible because he's an ass). I have mice in my house. I can't buy a house with no job, and it's almost winter. So now I'm just on my way to go buy one of those "Hang in there" posters with the kitten on it.
05:37 p.m. | Tuesday, October 28, 2003

Then again...
Ah, who am I kidding? I want some beer tonight. And some lasagna. And sit and watch Season 2 of Buffy. But maybe I won't have much in the way of cigarettes (just one?).

Harumph.
04:48 p.m. | Monday, October 6, 2003

Ever striving
Ok, all I want to do is smoke, drink, watch TV, and eat tons of fattening foods. I do not want to go through the effort of quitting smoking, quitting drinking, getting exercise, or cooking healthful food.

Ok, so that's a bit of an exaggeration, but it does typify what's going on with me right now. Because of the smoking, I feel like shit and have no energy, which makes me far less likely to get exercise. And so I think ok, I'll try to work on one of these things. But then everything goes to shit. I'll try to quit smoking, but since I'm quitting smoking, then I give myself free rein to do everything else, since quitting smoking is so important. So after a couple helpings of lasagna and a few beers, hell, a cigarette sounds pretty good! It's a vicious circle, and I'm ready to get off it. I really want to be able to breathe again. I used to be able to hike a considerable distance with energy, and now I can barely drag my ass around the local park.

So here's the idea: a trial week of good living. For one week, I'll be good. I'll keep on the patch and resist the urge to smoke (easier said than done, perhaps). I won't drink any beer for a week. I'll take my dog for a walk every day after work. I'll eat stir fries and veggie soup and bean burritos for dinner (but not all on one night). Then, at the end of the week, I'll see how I feel. Maybe I'll feel so good that I'll get a membership to the Y and I'll become one of those exercise addicts (instead of a drinking smoker). Or maybe not.

Of course, during this same time, probably everything else in my life will be going to shit. Can't keep up with dirty dishes, mowing, laundry, oil change in car, groceries, etc. It's always something.
11:33 a.m. | Monday, October 6, 2003

Or not
Ok, so I decided against that particular house. There isn't a single square foot of flat land in the whole 2.5 acres, except for the house itself. And it had a few other problems with it, and the house itself is a little small to be as much as it is, considering how far out it is. Plus, I'm just super picky. Can't forget that... But my house will happen, sometime.
11:12 a.m. | Monday, October 6, 2003

Home Sweet Home?
Well, I think I found a house. It's in the country, about 11 miles out of town. Even though I was so sure I wanted to live in town, I can get so many other amenities by being out in the country. It's got 2.5 acres, which are mostly scenic woods. The house itself is not too big and not too small--just right. It felt like home. I'm going to go look at it again today, but I think I'm going to make an offer on it. Wow, I'll be a homeowner. Wonder if the end of October is too soon to close on it? It's empty, so maybe not. Then I'll just have to find a renter for my current house. Does anyone want to sublet a nice house in Bloomington? Only three blocks from Bryan Park. Anyone? Anyone?
10:53 a.m. | Friday, October 3, 2003