i am SO sleepy at the moment, but i just felt compelled to do this last thing before lights out. i dont know why i had to i cant even keep my eyes open. what am i supposed to talk about? it's like someone invisible is cheering me to do this, but i cant see anyone here... = well anyway, since i am here, i'll make it worth my time.

erhh gotta be up super early tmr morning again. i'm over early Mondays and Wednesdays man... i want more sleep!! =( and. what's worse, i'll be there longer than normal since i dont have uni =( =( *sobs* and since it's already Monday tmr, i'll have to start on all the assignments, and hopefully some studying if possible, which is unlikely! and fuck i dont have a full thurs i remembered i probably have to go to uni for SportManagement, and if it's confirmed i'll be heading to the Suncorp Stadium too... yay for me.. only 2 weeks before the Australia-Paraguay game!! and Paul's engagement party (drinkfest!) and my birthday hooray. the last being the least exciting, no plans as of yet. thought about going to Mooloolabah or something with Tash and whoever else... just a day to relax that'd be nice. but other than that life is dull. and so i will go to bed now. haha

she takes a breath at 10:41 p.m.

Friday, September 22, 2006

first of all, best wishes to my Mousey, Serene.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARL! =) *hugs*

ok the year has flown by, yet again. it's near the end of september for crying out loud! what is going on?? scary shit... well the semester break is FINALLY here. but i'm not gonna get much of a break. Mon and Wed at Futsal, possibly Tues, Fri, Sat and Sun at work. i only have a full Thurs to do anything... i have ALOT to do. i failed that EDUC mid sem... =| WHAT am i gonna do with myself... well AT LEAST i'm on a pass so far. and i got an alright score for the presentation which is nice. might even get a 6 for HIST yay. and thankgod MotorControl has been loads of lab assessments too. i dont think i got much out of that mid sem either... =/ OH WELL FUCK THAT.

soon i wont only have academic issues to stress over. i have to move out by Dec/Jan... and i really hope i get a decent place with decent ppl. no nerds, and no crazy Aussies either please. i can already hear them now! bloody footy grrr. still got a couple of months grace... yay. and it's already heating up in Brisbane.. no more permanent jumper-wearing necessary.. NOOOOO!!!! it's gonna be stinky sticky hot and sweaty. Booooo...

she takes a breath at 08:42 p.m.

Monday, September 11, 2006

wow ok i only had 5 entries last month. and we're already getting into September. and fuck it man i need time to go slower for abit!! weekly assignments that take ages to finish, a presentation that i've only started a week before it's due, exams left right and centre. my time management is crap and i know it. so this is all really daunting. i'm THIS far from getting panic attacks. always catch myself before it hits though. it's not healthy. it only makes me hate studying that much more. there are elements that i love of course.. like my Sport Management course, epecially my placement at Futsal. it's going well by the way. i'm helping out the International Tours department. all of one person haha! Rachel is nice and well i'm basically just helping out in anything i can. today i packed tracksuits and tshirts =) how administrative! but it's fun. and last week the class went to the Gabba. which was really cool! i can now say i've smelled the players' locker room and stood in a corporate suite.

back to my rant... i'm hating all the lab reports we have to do. thats 2 courses and fortnightly reports due. which makes it at least 2 a fortnight. if i'm lucky. add this on the other major assignments i have.. you get the gist. but for some unknown reason, i seem to not be worried enough. i'm still cruising. and i'm very distracted. and not in a good way =| i've been thinking about the whole situation, and i thought why did i get myself into this?? i feel like i'm not ready at all. actually i feel like it's not working out cos there's no compatability. and now i'm pretty much living a lie. but i cant get out of it, cos there'll be too many repercussions. *sigh* i dont know what to do. i'm basically stuck in a hole. and i dont think i can handle it for much longer. all i know is either way, it's gonna end up being pretty ugly.. [HAHA oxymoron!] oh godd help me please...

she takes a breath at 10:34 p.m.