i had a dream this morning. it was one of those dreams where you felt so happy you wake up smiling. but when you really do wake up, you get so angry when you realise it was a dream. mann i was really happy and now i cant get the dream out of my mind. it's making me so impatient. i really need to end this before it gets out of hand.. and i'm just wondering. maybe this dream isnt so far-fetched... maybe he really is out there waiting... in the SUPERMARKET hahahahah! but it felt so real, and i'm just thinking if it will ever come true... why did all this have to happen now...

she takes a breath at 10:44 p.m.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

well it's mid October now. another year gone by people. last weekend to do my assignments, dont know how i'm gonna get them in on time... =| and then the last week of uni, and then SWOTVAC. and then one week of intense exam stress for me, before it's all over. YESSS! i cant wait i really cant. but then when that's all done with i have something bigger to stress about. i have to prepare myself for a disastrous ending. but i know it has to be done. i cant wait any longer... unfortunately someone has to get hurt. *sigh* better sooner than later i guess.

she takes a breath at 10:57 a.m.

Friday, October 13, 2006

ok then my birthday has passed by, and i did not celebrate! *sobs* well i think i'm getting over birthdays now, save for my 21st in 2 years time... what's the fuss anyway? i rather save my money and go drinking. HAHA. and right now i'm supposed to be doing my assignment(s) but i just cant seem to get to it. i got the day off cos i only start work at 4. stupid newbs taking my hours... AND i have to finish 6 assignments in less than 3 weeks. *screams* omg how did i let it get this bad?? AGAIN! shit.. oh well. looking forward to Dec everyone is coming down for Tasha's Graduation yay! family reunion!! cant wait...

she takes a breath at 12:47 p.m.

Thursday, October 5, 2006

yeahh. read that date again. yeah. you are NOT dreaming people. it IS october 06. already. i hear ya. stop shouting. i know i have to start studying. shut up. well maybe that's just my inner voice on a panic spree... but it's the fact. unfortunately enough. 3 more weeks till the end of semester, 4 more weeks till finals. 5 more weeks till the hols. 7 more weeks till summer semester. *screams* i dont want to study over summer!!! NOOO!

after handing in the HIST essay worth 40%, finishing just hours before it was due, i went completely off doing assignments. but now i have 1 late one due, 2 to start, and one soon to come. i dont like those odds. odds for me ever having a break. which basically is 0. fuck. fuck. fuck. but this weekend i am practically on holiday!! well if you count work as holiday. it's a full day till 930pm tomorrow, then full sat as well, but also the Aus-Paraguay game at Suncorp!!! just before Paul's engagement party at Norman Park. YAY! cant wait it's gonna be fun. THEN early start on sunday with Tash, heading to Manly for some market style fun. ahhh. what a jam-packed weekend i suddenly have a life, if only for 3 days. sad to say though, i'll be spending my BIRTHDAY waking up early to get to Futsal, then to uni... =| great stuff.

i'm also getting into the mindset for moving out haha. started looking at new places on the net. quite a few i like, alot of them over the budget, but quite alot that caught my eye too. still too early to confirm anything though so i'll have to give it a month or two before i can decide anything anyways. it's getting exciting nevertheless. cos i'm looking forward to having a social life. new housemates = new friends = potential party/pub/karaoke/xbox buddies for me YAY!! hahahah. yes i see my priorities very clearly from here. so piss off. best thing about moving, by a mile, is the wonderful discovery of the fact that i will NEVER have to go through life again with the Shit that's a sad excuse for a human being. i still dont see how she can go move with him it's disgusting if you ask me. but no one did so i'll just keep my thoughts to myself. and another bonus is i'll never have to listen to the conversations of the inconsiderate bastard across the road who swallowed a microphone along with the amplifier. shut the fuck up dude. karma will get you back for keeping me awake at night so many times. whatever it is, i just cant wait. =D

AAAAAAAAARRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHH a fuckin moth just flew into my ear then started to attack. DO I LOOK LIKE A LIGHT SOURCE for god's sake!!! ok panic over.

she takes a breath at 08:57 p.m.