right. as you can see, i've finally gotten the laptop fixed. i am connected once more!!! and luckily it's the holidays, so there's no reason this will be a distraction of any kind. now, to kick off where i left it..

Mom's visit was better than i expected. maybe cos she did it once before and learnt, or maybe it's cos she only stayed a week this time. whatever it is, there was less anger and resent, and more enjoyment and relaxation. of course, she will never give up her annoying habits. nagging, and trying to clean everything, and criticising everything. but i held my tongue and tried to enjoy the vacation anyway. one thing i dont understand, and am very angry about was what she said about my eyebrow. she was alright about it when i met her at Central, but the first phone call when she got back in SG, the first thing she said was so fucking contradictory i could slap her. she TOLD me not to get anymore piercings or anything. and CLAIMED it was not for a girl. and that people didnt like it on a girl. and that it would negatively affect my life. BULL-FUCKIN-SHIT. AAARRRHHHH!!!! how dare she!!! she can bugger off.

next. the exams. of course i knew i was going to fail Anatomy. there was literally no hope left. i just pray i get that 5, or even 6, for HMST, and 4s for PHYS and PSYC. no high expectations for me.. i dont deserve it.

it was a great relief nonetheless to feel that freedom of the end of exams. the fact that i can go anywhere at anytime rocks. oh yeah.. being 18 rocks!! and i started at Pancakes at the end of that week too. 3 days in a row, from the Friday. worked morning shifts. and i was shitting myself on the first day. lots of things to remember!! and i hate doing the till. numbers and me dont go. stupid broken cash register.. we have to manually calculate the bills. i hate mental sums!! but i'm getting the hang of things now.. next shift this Friday, and Sunday is the first long shift- 6 hours, and i have to close too! great. prepare to do a great deal of manual washing and cleaning. but hey.. i'm getting paid arent i!! shall check my account for my first pay tmr. wheee!! i'm expecting at least $160 in there!!

so now, i can sit back and watch the cash flow in.. of course with some work in exchange for it. but yeah.. work isnt bad at all. i enjoy it actually. i'm learning and earning. hahah! happy happy happy days.

she takes a breath at 10:23 p.m.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

right. as you can see, i've finally gotten the laptop fixed. i am connected once more!!! and luckily it's the holidays, so there's no reason this will be a distraction of any kind. now, to kick off where i left it..

Mom's visit was better than i expected. maybe cos she did it once before and learnt, or maybe it's cos she only stayed a week this time. whatever it is, there was less anger and resent, and more enjoyment and relaxation. of course, she will never give up her annoying habits. nagging, and trying to clean everything, and criticising everything. but i held my tongue and tried to enjoy the vacation anyway. one thing i dont understand, and am very angry about was what she said about my eyebrow. she was alright about it when i met her at Central, but the first phone call when she got back in SG, the first thing she said was so fucking contradictory i could slap her. she TOLD me not to get anymore piercings or anything. and CLAIMED it was not for a girl. and that people didnt like it on a girl. and that it would negatively affect my life. BULL-FUCKIN-SHIT. AAARRRHHHH!!!! how dare she!!! she can bugger off.

next. the exams. of course i knew i was going to fail Anatomy. there was literally no hope left. i just pray i get that 5, or even 6, for HMST, and 4s for PHYS and PSYC. no high expectations for me.. i dont deserve it.

it was a great relief nonetheless to feel that freedom of the end of exams. the fact that i can go anywhere at anytime rocks. oh yeah.. being 18 rocks!! and i started at Pancakes at the end of that week too. 3 days in a row, from the Friday. worked morning shifts. and i was shitting myself on the first day. lots of things to remember!! and i hate doing the till. numbers and me dont go. stupid broken cash register.. we have to manually calculate the bills. i hate mental sums!! but i'm getting the hang of things now.. next shift this Friday, and Sunday is the first long shift- 6 hours, and i have to close too! great. prepare to do a great deal of manual washing and cleaning. but hey.. i'm getting paid arent i!! shall check my account for my first pay tmr. wheee!! i'm expecting at least $160 in there!!

so now, i can sit back and watch the cash flow in.. of course with some work in exchange for it. but yeah.. work isnt bad at all. i enjoy it actually. i'm learning and earning. hahah! happy happy happy days.

she takes a breath at 10:23 p.m.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

long time.. gave up on the laptop, and life has been less stressful since. will fix it soon. cos now i'm stuck in the middle of the exams. and i'm panicking for not panicking earlier. i may just flunk out. but shit. seriously, i just wanna get over it. cos i'm gonna be working at Pancakes. yep. the stinky greasy place with Tash. Meeting with Paul on Monday morning, and prob start on Friday. i just hope i dont have my first shift during peak trade hours!! i might have a heartattack. heh. well ok till i have a decent amount of time on the internet, i'll leave it for now.

she takes a breath at 10:41 p.m.